i haven't seen anyone post the excerpt onto tumblr yet so here it is (src)
(image description under the cut)
[image 1 id: a photo taken of one of the pages from the padawan novel (transcribed below):
"Oh, I know!" Obi-Wan smiled at the warning, touched that Casul didn't want Obi-Wan getting his hopes up. "I can't form attachments like that, anyway." Couldn't he, though, if he didn't go back? Was that something he would even want? It had always been so forbidden, even thinking about it was like holding his hand right next to a lightsaber blade. He knew some of his friends had dabbled in physical relationships—suspected Siri would have been open to it, had he ever wanted to—but it had always seemed like an obstacle, not a temptation.
"And besides," Obi-Wan said, rushing to change the subject for himself more than anyone, "I would never want to be in a relationship with a leader. Too close to politicians or royalty. I'm sure if I ever fell in love, it would be with someone calm. Peaceful. Easy to get along with."
"So you want someone who doesn't challenge you."
Obi-Wan laughed, then shrugged. "I don't know what I want, if we're being honest."
Casul mirrored his shrug. "Not many choices around here. I don't think love is in my future, either, and I'm fine with that. As long as I have the Power to keep my family safe, that's enough for me. Though I will admit I've been curious about kissing and why Audj and Zae-Brii enjoy it so much. So if you're ever curious, too, let me know."
[image 2 id: another photo taken of one of the pages from the padawan novel, continuing the passage (transcribed below)
Obi-Wan blushed. "I will. Let you know, I mean. Not that I will do that, right now, with you. Or anyone." Would he ever get to a point where kissing someone felt like anything less than a betrayal of himself and the Jedi? And if he did get to that point, who would he want to kiss? The Lenahrans were confident and charismatic, which attractive. But he couldn't imagine just...kissing any of them.
Maybe he didn't want to be with any of them but rather to be more like each of them.
Or maybe he wanted to kiss all of them. Not Mem, though, because he had a feeling that would upset her very much.
He wasn't going to kiss any of them, regardless. Everything on Lenahra seemed simple and felt impossibly complicated, and that would doubtless make it all worse.
books BOOKS B O O K S :D can i have more book recs please????????????
but of course!!
my year of rest and relaxation by ottessa moshfegh: darkly funny contemporary lit, Woman Decides To Cure Her Problems By Sleeping For One Year
burnt sugar by avni doshi: contemporary lit in delicious sugary prose, a wry look at the complications of mothers and daughters
animal by lisa taddeo: oh so you said "i think women should get to go batshit as a treat"????? time to put your money where your mouth is. if you like messy women, this is for you. lisa taddeo encapsulates real honest unvarnished womanhood more accurately than anyone else i've read
the jasmine throne by tasha suri: priory vibes, wlw enemies-to-lovers fantasy with unparalleled worldbuilding oh god i can't wait for the sequel
middlesex by jeffrey eugenides: generational family history, immigrant realities, explorations of intersex experience, detroit in the 50s? what's not to like. i believe this was a kmcg book rec and imo she was right. also the virgin suicides by the same author
the water dancer by ta-nehisi coates: historical fiction slash fantasy, immersive and moving and sickeningly well written
the galaxy and the ground within by becky chambers: please. i can't rec this woman enough. if you like sci fi and you like great rep and you like falling in love with humanity all over again each time you turn the page then just, please. read everything becky chambers has ever written
Sorry about this long doodle dump of some ideas about the backstory for the crime au thing I made a bit ago. In all honesty it’s more a crossover with the book series Six of Crows, it’s lowkey such a good book I highly recommend.
Some backstory under the cut in case you haven’t read the series or if you are generally curious about what’s happening in these doodles.
So basically in this world some people are born magical and have the ability to control either elements, bodies, or materials. It’s overall random who is born with the abilities though there is a bit of genetics involved. Nonetheless these people usually hide their abilities since they are often captured, killed, or are drafted in the army depending on where they were born.
Sun was lucky enough to be born with a traveling circus (think like how Inej grew up), where for the most part people were okay with it and they even showed it off in shows (though they usually handwaved it as pyrotechnics to keep him safe).
Moon was lucky/unlucky enough to not be born with powers, though this led to him trying a lot harder with gymnastics and stunts, making him overall the better performer compared to Sun.
Unfortunately one day they were kidnapped, sold, and separated. Sun went to Ketterdam and became indentured (basically no rights), while Moon went to Shu Han and got involved in all their experiments. (in regards to canon I’m just assuming these are like the early trials or something)
They are reunited later but there are a lot of issues and trauma going around so like things are rough. Basically Sun has abandonment issues and Moon can’t stand physical touch so its not a great combo. Plus Moon has a funky bit of wiring in his head that when activated cause him to want to kill magical people like his brother sooo...
Also in this au their names aren’t really Sun and Moon, but that’s the nickname they have for each other for simplicity sake.
my favorite night circus quotes
The Night Circus is my all-time favorite book. it is BEAUTIFUL and MAGICAL and WONDERFUL.
here we go again!
“I would have written you, myself, if I could put down in words everything I want to say to you. A sea of ink would not be enough. / But you built me dreams instead.”
"We must put effort and energy into anything we wish to change.”
"It's as if there is love and loss at the same time, together in a kind of beautiful pain.”
"The circus arrives without warning."
"And there are never really endings, happy or otherwise."
"I am tired of trying to hold things together that cannot be held. Trying to control what cannot be controlled. I am tired of denying myself what I want for fear of breaking things I cannot fix. They will break no matter what we do."
"You’re in the right place at the right time, and you care enough to do what needs to be done."
"Good and evil are a great deal more complex than a princess and a dragon, or a wolf and a scarlet- clad little girl. And is not the dragon the hero of his own story? Is not the wolf simply acting as a wolf should act?"
what were your favorite quotes :)
ALSO, if you have any book suggestions, let me know! if i've read them I'll make a post; if i haven't, i'll read them and make a post!
i have a theory that Longclaw's kind visited Earth in the past and where worshipped as gods and had temples built and hidden the Chaos Emerald('s) there.
That’s actually been implied heavily in the Sonic Movie Novel! On pages four and five Longclaw talks about visiting Earth and being aware of the ignorant humans that inhabit it.
If she’s been to Earth a few times, then it would not surprise me. She was a warrior that was destined to keep anthropomorphics safe from those who wanted to use magics for evil. It would not surprise me if she—as well as others—were knowledgeable of Earth and his relics there for safe keeping.