#<- I am probably lying to myself

[ind1c0lite]

{copycat au}

A visit

(1+Context , profiles)

#ace attorney #ace attorney duel destinies #aa5 #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #indys art #copycat au #HELLO THIS HAS BEEN ON AND OFF WEEK S OF WORK GHGJKHLJ; #I have been chipping away at this for a good while now but its done!!! FINALLY #I am never working on something this long again istg #<probably lying here I know myself #anyways enjoy <3 #very excited to finally have another big thing out for this au #idk when the next part'll be out but It will be! #eventually #next one is gonna be with apollo athena AND finally trucy #<3 #you have no idea I have been planning out a lot for this whole thing #there is a l o t

[calliopeebles]

inspired by the fact that i was talking about berdly on discord the other day and i later realized i was using my headcanons for him to talk about growing up autistic

#deltarune #berdly #this bird is AUTISTIC and THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT #...for real though #there's a lot about him that i can relate to #and i myself am on the spectrum and fairly open about it online #berdly is really really bad at reading people #and his social skills are comically poor #and i feel that y'know? #it feels like everyone else knows the rules to life and expects me to know them too but i just... don't. and they don't make sense #and i can never tell how people are feeling unless they come right out and say it #even if it's obvious #i too would probably fall for a lie told by someone who literally had the world LYING written on their face #...anways #i should write something more formal about an autistic reading of this character

[wardog-of-the-endless]

Jeff Satur Black Tie Fashion Breakdown

I can do all things through spite, which sustains me.

I love the fashion in Black Tie. Jeff's really living his best Valentino life, and I wanted to break down what I could determine. Granted, his coats almost all seem to be custom, and while I worked in the industry it was not with Valentino, so I would hesitate to guess. (I mean, I will if you want, my DMs are open). But everything else I could more or less find on the website and I thought, why not? My besty already got slapped with it, why should you guys escape?

Let's Do This.

Opening Look

Coat: Full Length Likely Custom (Ostrich)

Top: HEAVY COTTON POPLIN LONG SLEEVE SHIRT $ 950.00

Tie: WOOL AND SILK VALENTIE TIE WITH METAL V APPLIQUÉ $ 520.00 (*See Author's Note)

Slacks: LANA STRETCH PANTS $ 1,250.00

Shoes: M-WAY ROCKSTUD ANKLE BOOT IN CALFSKIN LEATHER $ 1,550.00

Earrings: VLOGO SIGNATURE METAL AND GLASS BEAD EARRINGS $ 850.00

Secondary Look:

Coat: Half Length (Assumed Custom) Jeff Satur Chevron Feather

Nose Stud: ROCKSTUD METAL NOSE RING $ 190.00

Lip Wrap: VLOGO SIGNATURE METAL LIP RING $ 190.00

Tie: WOOL AND SILK VALENTIE TIE WITH METAL V APPLIQUÉ $ 520.00 (*See Author's Note)

Top: Unknown

Shoes: ROCKSTUD M-WAY SINGLE MONK STRAP SHOE IN CALFSKIN AND MATCHING STUDS 50MM $ 1,150.00

Tertiary Look

Coat: DOUBLE-BREASTED WOOL AND CASHMERE COAT WITH EX CHESS ALL-OVER INTARSIA PATTERN $ 8,850.00

Tie: WOOL AND SILK VALENTIE TIE WITH METAL V APPLIQUÉ $ 520.00

Top (assumed): HEAVY COTTON POPLIN LONG SLEEVE SHIRT $ 950.00

Slacks: LANA STRETCH PANTS $ 1,250.00

Shoes: M-WAY ROCKSTUD ANKLE BOOT IN CALFSKIN LEATHER $ 1,550.00

Earrings: VLOGO SIGNATURE METAL EARRINGS $ 1,370.00

Final Look:

Coat: Full Length (Assumed Custom) Jeff Satur Red

Nose Stud: ROCKSTUD METAL NOSE RING $ 190.00

Top: Existence Cannot Be Confirmed

Shorts: LANA STRETCH BERMUDA SHORTS $ 1,250.00

Shoes: ROCKSTUD M-WAY COMBAT BOOT IN CALFSKIN WITH FEATHERS 50MM $ 2,850.00

Author's Notes: (Image from Jeff's Instagram)

The finale red look seems to have at least 2 iterations, the heavier solid piece that may involve a tie (social media) and the lighter almost-chiffon that Jeff got rained on in the MV.

Author's Note: At least one of the Valentie ties in the opening/secondary look appears to have been customized (embroidery) per social media images (Jeff's Insta) rendering it priceless. (He does wear alternate Valentie Ties in appearances that do NOT appear to be embroidered with JS).

Not to be all The Devil Wears Prada about it but:

"Are you wearing the-?"

"The Valentino Feather Boots? Yes, I am."

p.s. hi @markmybirds. love you marmar.

#Jeff Satur For Valentino #Jeff Satur #Valentino #Black Tie MV Fashion Break Down #Toni Talks Clothes #Fashion Related #Fashion Media #Me Outing Myself For My Background In Fashion #Here We Go #KP Cast #WB Cast #Fashion Moment #Thai Idol #Thai Singer #Music Video Analysis #It's Probably Nothing: War Says To Herself #I'm FINE #I'm Totally Normal About This [Lying] #Are You Wearing The? #The Valentino Feather Boots? Yes I Am

[epicdogymoment]

gender and sexuality labels are so fucking hard how am i supposed to know how what i experience (already hard to pin down) compares to what "normal people" experience (completely unknown to me)

#leologisms #smthn smthn gender and sexuality labels are social constructs that exist within the assumption of a 'normal' experience #and a) i have no idea what EXACTLY that experience is supposed to be like b) im not fully convinced it actually EXISTS #youre telling me 'normal' people all experience attraction/gender in this ONE particular way? for real? youve gotta be lying to me #even ''''''normal'''''' (allo cishet) people talk about how their experiences with romance dont align with how its commonly talked about #how am i (transgay autist) supposed to know exactly what a 'normal' experience is in order to categorise myself in relation to it #more and more i find myself attracted to ambiguous identities because i have no way of defining myself more precisely that feels right #not male or female or even nonbinary but simply transgender. if 'gay' didnt carry the meaning 'homosexual' id probably identify more #strongly with it too (rather than bi) #for a while ive been wondering about ace identities but ive been reluctant to actually explore them too deeply because a) im afraid of #stepping on toes (for some reason. i dont know why.) b) im sure these labels ARE useful for lots of people but man. considering right now i #in a sort of. 'dont look at it too hard' space wrt my identities i dont actually think id even feel very comfortable w any of them anyway #do i experience attraction in a normal way? maybe. define normal.

[bytedykes]

[ID: digital art of Serizawa Katsuya from Mob Psycho 100. He's shown in his first World Domination outfit, shown from the chest up. He looks to the side with a slight melancholic frown. He is colored in shades of warm orange-brown, lit from the side. The background is the base shade of yellow. /end ID]

serizawa u will always be famous

#serizawa katsuya #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mp100 fanart #nik art #I YASSIFIED HIM. I KNOW. I KNOW. this is my first time drawing him i am allowing myself the indulgence #ill draw him normally from here out aksdkds (probably lying but not sure abt it) #misc #really like how the color came out on this one hehe :)

[onewholivesinloops]

i love not remembering anything about my life. i only came into existence two years ago. everything before that was a long dream and even now i remain in a fugue state.

#i can probably explain the timeline and major events that happened #but if you ask me for any specifics about anything bar a couple things i literally wouldn't be able to tell you a thing #i vividly remember most bad things that happened but my definition of 'vivid' is still vague recollections relative to everything else #it feels like this isn't a body that belongs to me and it was inhabited by a different person all those years LOL #my memory 'issues' bother me bc it always feels like a memory is nagging at me in the back of my head #so is there something important i'm subconsciously trying to forget or is this my paranoia bc i can't remember stuff (we will never know) #anyway i'm lying down in the dark at 6 am muttering 'i'm so girlpilled traumacore for this <3' to myself as i type this #gamo.txt

[rg11]

one day ill draw davekat again

#rgtxt #i am lying to myself i wont probably #thats enough yaoi for one guy like me....

[heretherebedork]

Dome is an inherently empathetic and caring person who has not been jaded the way so many people around him are and, very specifically, the way Khatha has been. And Dome can break the jade, can hear the artifacts, can show Khatha that's he's not only not alone but that the world still holds hope and happy endings and the chance to protect people, the chance to keep people safe.

Dome is the power of compassion and the power of caring and the strength not to give in to despair or to sympathy but to care and to protect and to be and Khatha passed that point long ago, lost that long ago, only to find it again in Dome and for Dome and with Dome.

(Reality: Dome most likely looks like/is somehow related to Khatha and reminds him of what caring meant. Fantasy: Dome looks like Khatha old lover and reminds him of what it meant to be mortal and to love, to care, to want and dream of more.)

I truly just love how they look at each other because it's all about the care and the worry and the way they are aware of each other.

#midnight museum #thai drama #thai series #gmmtv #weird gay meta #kathadome #khathadome #no seriously khatha is looking for a replacement #and dome is probably part of his extended family #because he is definitely older than he looks #but i wanna dream that this about lovers in the distant path #i am lying to myself

[jorvikzelda]

whoever invented nighttime and being tired should be convicted of crimes in a court of law

#why do we have a time of day and state of energy that when combined (as they are every day) cause bone deep inescapable sadness #okay i am lying to myself it has been there since i woke up this morning #and is actually not a 'nighttime' problem #but its certainly worse when all thats left to do is go bed #i'll be super busy tomorrow though. so. hopefully thatll work in my favour #z talks #not horse game #i havent experienced feelings of this genre in. four years. #and of this severity probably never

[ranvwoop]

its wallowing hours! again.

#vwoop.noises #I'm sorry for like. One of these daily. I am trying to . Not #But my journal is only so effective opposite attention seeking... #I have been having an extended episode for a bit now and I just don't know how 2 distract myself anymore :( #They were not lying. Mental illness has hands #And I am substantially self aware too like I Know. When too much is too much for other people. It's just rough out here! #I wish I wasn't so dependent and suchlike #And I should do school stuff but like. I don't want to do anything at all because of The Episode. Just like. rot #Stuff that would usually cheer me up sorta got hit in the crossfire of other brainstuff too so its like. Sad Mrew Noises :( #nondescript personality disorders . Am I right gang #Well it's descript to me. But you see. People are so mean in this world and I am afraid people would think differently of me... #even tho. It Checks Out. It's not a well-kept secret #i should probably make a tag for when I'm Wallowing so it's easily filtered but like. I don't want people going thru it #Or to tag as The Catchall. Events. Because people go through that to be weird yknow.

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :) #09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again? #probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring! #but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah) #11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it! #maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead... #1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

[gongedtornado]

help girl i got too silly <\3 (overthought every interaction ever)

#im okay i think #(lying) #hoooh boy #ill be alr but girl (/gnc) what the fuck is this #nahh i could’ve had a NORMAL FUNCTIONING brain but yknow what i got instead ? #a sentient lump of meat. that likes to imagine scenarios that will *never* happen and form ideas of what people think of it #even if like. yknow. ITS IRRATIONAL AS FUCK AND LIKELY WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING #see. if i was a house cat i wouldnt have to worry bout this shit . just be kitty. lick paw. take nap. eat. in whatever order i desire. #oh and be silly and cute. #‘’embarrassing myself in front of a customer? overthinking what a coworker said?’’ #‘’eeerm. oh? you wanted to carry on about your day?’’ #‘’too bad. here’s the underlying feeling of dread for the next few hours. have fun!’’ #I HATE BEING SENTIENT RAHHH RAHHH #I COULD HAVE BEEN A LITTLE GUY DOING LITTLE THINGS. WHAT IS THIS!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! #i know i should be a big guy and act like it. but sometimes you gotta like. be a little insane. #okay anyways anxiety rant over. if for some reason you read my rant while i was Probably loosing my mind um. #1. i am sooo sorry you had to witness my illposting #2. i give you a little smooch (/p) for sticking with me . I bite you . (/pos) #kazzy complains #me when im cringe on main

[lord-squiggletits]

pharma really is such an interesting case. one thing i’ve always felt with pharma is that he absolutely doesn’t want consequences. and facing up to it requires a lot of looking at and showing people what he’s done and you know. the consequences. i mean hell he’d rather start a plague than say “hey i got coerced into doing a very bad thing by the djd”

I do understand what you mean about Pharma not wanting to face consequences, but on the other hand, I kind of understand why Pharma made a plague rather than admit to medical malpractice/murder? Because like, the thing that I don't see brought up often enough with regards to Pharma is that blackmail... is blackmail. Like, as someone who's unfortunately been on the receiving end of blackmail, the entire point of blackmailing someone is that you corner them into doing bad things by convincing them that they CAN'T turn to an authority figure to ask for help. Like, the person doing the blackmailing generally convinces the person who's getting blackmailed that if they try to reach out for help, the law/authorities/etc either won't care about their predicament or will punish them for the bad thing they did that they're getting blackmailed about.

I kind of feel like (and this isn't an attack on you, just a commentary about the nature of blackmail) when someone like Ratchet looks at Pharma and says "but you could've called for help or shut down the clinic or anything!", it kind of ignores the fact that...... when you're being blackmailed you're fucking terrified, and people who are terrified generally don't jump to the most rational, safe solutions possible? When you add in the fact that Pharma was blackmailed by Tarn of the DJD, notorious hater of Autobots and fanatic leader of a torture club, it's not hard to imagine that Pharma was both afraid and in pain (or threat of pain) while at Delphi and thus wouldn't be thinking straight about it.

I don't know, like. Yeah, on one hand Pharma made a plague and killed a bunch of people to try and cover up his crimes and maintain his career. But he didn't just do it for ego related reasons, he was also almost certainly facing threats of torture and death.

#squiggle answers #pharma apologism #i think i'm biased on this issue so anyone can come in here and add their thoughts or correct me #i guess it just bothers me because like. i've kind of been in that situation (not as serious as pharma's) where i didn't ask for help #and when i got in trouble for not asking for help afterwards and instead choosing to lie or go behind someone's back or whatever #it was generally bc i was more afraid of punishment by The People In Charge #than i was afraid of lying or breaking the rules or doing other bad things #and when i got accused (by the people in charge) of seeing myself as above the rules or thinking i was better/smarter than them #it always pissed me off because i was like. bro i didn't lie to you for fun and games i lied to you because i was afraid #that if i asked you for help you would just shun me or get pissed off at me and punish me #also re: the blackmail i was a victim of. the thing about that is it was over something ultimately petty (stupid internet drama) #and i was PROBABLY never in any real danger but like. the issue was that i FELT like i was in danger #fear is powerful. fear of being threatened at any time or having the things you care about taken away is especially powerful #i had nightmares p much once a week for months during the ordeal and still sometimes do now #like idk i really am biased on this matter but like. just bc pharma made the plague to cover up his crimes #doesn't mean that that's the ONLY reason is what i'm saying #when ppl lie and cover up things about that it's not just about ego but about dumb animal terror #and i mean. to get back to the pharma apologism brand. ratchet KNEW pharma was being blackmailed but he fucking ditched him anyways #this is the guy who was supposed to be his bestie of millions of years and he fucking told pharma he was dead to him #and that's the guy who pharma thought would UNDERSTAND. imagine what he thought other autobots would think of him #also i have a theory that tarn probably psychologically tortured pharma by telling him the autobots would just lock him up for his crimes #as a way to get pharma to not tell anyone and keep supplying him cogs. because you know. blackmail

[narke]

was super obvious about my crush today but i did get a sweet failed hip bump sweep to successful scissor sweep to failed cross collar choke to failed arm triangle to failed s mount armbar to mounted triangle to roll to traditional triangle finish

#ok so its like a super long convoluted story to basically say i was kind of weird and blushy but probably ultimately not that noticeably so #but we were doing hip bump sweep setup drills and there were odd numbers so he went with me and anyways halfway through the ‘this is kind of #like missionary and our crotches are kind of thrusting together’ thoughts hit and i got kind of blushy and distracted and quietly went to jo #in a training partnership and left him to coach #but he bantered with me about dua lipas levitating so probably not noticeably weirder than i usually am woth him #he did do a kind of sing songy? flirty? (lying to myself) ‘thanks [name]~’ at the end of class so who knows #JOIN. NOT JO. jesus christ #well in other news someone complimented my guard recovery skills hehe

[destinationtoast]

(Okay, I just posted a big thinky meta, and somewhere in there I asserted that I didn't have shipping expectations/hopes going into the finale. And I think that's mostly true... but it's also possible that my enjoyment of the finale was swayed somewhat by the door having been left wide open for my OT3. I don't want to imply that I'm completely above all earthly shipping desires, even if I mostly don't care about canon endgame and will write my lil fics regardless.)

#i don't want to get invested in shipping endgame worries #especially after my last big ship turning toxic over such debates #but I am probably lying to myself if I pretend it was 0% relevant to my experience of the finale #and I'm sorry for anyone whose ship got sunk #ted lasso finale #ted lasso #op #ted lasso spoilers #(just to be safe)

[obstinatecondolement]

Oof, meant to finish editing my fic in time to post it this evening to give the Americans hiding from their families after Thanksgiving dinner a treat, but in giving it what was supposed to be a final spit-polish, that sucker grew another 4K words and, even if I haven't missed any new SPAG issues that have snuck in with them, we're now solidly into the AO3 posting bug zone. And, allegedly, Friday is The worst day of the week to post fic, so I probably won't post it once we're out of that until like Saturday at the earliest.

Like... I am trying to give much less of a shit about Engagement™, but, y'know... I do think a non-zero amount of people who'd like to read it might miss it if I posted now? Or even on Friday, so, in a completely selfless and self-sacrificing way, I guess I'll wait for a more opportune time to post, lol.

#look I like many people am a work in progress in weaning myself off the teat of internet strangers telling me I did a good job #so I'm gonna cut myself some slack here #even though for the record I think I did do a good job lol #also like jfc when did I turn into one of those 'whoops it's 10K how did that happen?' people #who frankly I always thought were humblebragging before I managed accidentally start being able to write stuff over 1.5-2K #without it feeling like a gargantuan effort #but I guess those people probably *weren't* lying or bragging #sometimes these things really do balloon on you without you meaning for them to