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[ohara-n-brown]

As a late diagnosed autist I will say one of the most damaging but transformative experiences I've ever had was being misdiagnosed with BPD.

Everyday my heart goes out to people with BPD.

The amount of stigma and silencing they face is astonishing and sickening.

I took DBT for years. Therapists use to turn me away because of my diagnosis.

I would be having full blown autistic meltdowns, crying for help literally - but because I was labeled as BPD ANY time I cried I was treated as manipulative and unstable.

As if the only reason I could be crying was if I was out to trick someone.

95% of the books out there with Borderline in the title are named shit like 'How to get away from a person with Borderline', 'How to stop walking on eggshells (with a person who has BPD)'

I was never allowed to feel true pain or panic or need.

That was 'attention seeking behavior', not me asking for help when a disability was literally inhibiting my ability to process emotions.

There were dozens of times where I had a full meltdown and was either threatened with institutionalization or told I was doing it for attention.

My failing relationships weren't due to a communication issue, or the inability to read social cues. No, because I was labeled borderline, my unstable relationships were my fault. Me beggong nuerotypicals to just be honest and blunt with what they meant was me pestering them for validation.

Borderline patients can't win.

And the funny thing is - I asked my therapist about autism. I told her I thought I was on the spectrum.

BPD is WILDLY misdiagnosed with those with autism and I had many clear signs.

Instead - she told me 'If you were autistic we wouldn't be able to have this conversation'. She made me go through a list of autistic traits made clearly for children, citing how I didn't fit each one.

And then she told me that me identifying with the autism community was the BPD making me search for identity to be accepted - and that I wasn't autistic, just desperate to fit in somewhere.

I didn't get diagnosed for another ten years. For ten years I avoided the autism community - feeling as if I were just a broken person who wanted to steal from people who 'really needed it'.

Because of my providers - I began to doubt my identity MORE, not less.

Ten years of thinking I was borderline and being emotionally neglected and demonized by a system meant to help me.

To this day, I still don't trust neurotypicals. Not fully.

I know I'm not borderline now - but my heart aches for them. Not for the usual stuff. But for the stigma. And the asshole doctors. And the dismissiveness and threatening and the idea of institutionalization hanging over their head.

I love Borderline people. I always will. I'm not Borderline but if you are I love you and I'm sorry.

You're not a bad person. You're not a therapists worst nightmare, you are a human with valid feelings and fears.

Borderline people I'm sorry.

#autism #bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually autistic #neurodivergent #neurodivergency #neurodiversity #cluster b

[npdemu]

reblog to blow up an ableist

#npd safe #bpd safe #hpd safe #aspd safe #cluster b safe #cw explosion mention #cw violence mention #cw ableism mention #cw reblog bait #reblog bait

[odinsblog]

NASA Data Sonification: Black Hole Remix

In this sonification of Perseus. the sound waves astronomers previously identified were extracted and made audible for the first time. The sound waves were extracted outward from the center. (source)

#space #black holes #perseus #nasa #sound waves #solar winds #interesting #perseus galaxy cluster #sonification

[worms-in-my-brain]

People with psychotic disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with personality disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with substance abuse disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with tic disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with bipolar disorder are neurodivergent too.

People with dissociative disorders are neurodivergent too.

Neurodivergence isn’t just ADHD, autism, anxiety, and depression. (Plus those last two also get left out sometimes!) Neurodivergence is anything that affects your brain.

“Neurodivergent people hate loud noises” is actually just as valid as a statement as “neurodivergent people have delusions,” “neurodivergent people have tics,” or even “neurodivergent people have low empathy.”

#neurodivergent #aspd safe #npd safe #bpd safe #personality disorders #cluster b #cluster b safe #cluster c #cluster a #dissociative disorders are neurodivergencies #dissociative #osddid #did #osdd #tourettes #tic disorders are neurodivergencies #tics #bipolar disorder #substance abuse disorder

[compassionatereminders]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but 99% of the time that ex of yours is not actually a narcissist or a sociopath simply because they sucked and you hate them. By using these words you are in fact demonizing actual mentally ill people, unlike your ex who is far more likely to just be an asshole

#relationships #kat gets serious #ableism tw #cluster b ableism tw

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

i feel like someone dead pretending to be alive

#bpd #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd problems #actually borderline #bpd feels #bpd meme #bpd memes #paranoia #bpd rage #cluster b #cluster b vent

[abyssa111]

#abysa1 zone #cluster b

[jewishranpo]

“the intrusive thoughts won” “that’s psychotic” “i’m so delusional haha” “narcissistic abuse” “the weather is so bipolar” SHUT UP!!!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

#ocd #actually ocd #psychotic #actually psychotic #actually bipolar #bipolar disorder #cluster b #personality disorders #mental illness

[evilsystemm]

uhh???

#npd #cluster b #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #npd culture is #npd traits #npd positivity #npd posting

[chronicallyqueercoining2]

"We need more mental health acceptance and awareness!" Y'all still call ppl with cluster b disorders evil 💀

"We need more weird people!" Y'all COMBUST when someone is xenic 💀

"Healthy coping mechanisms are important!" When someone age regresses, you call them creepy 😭

"More people need to be proud of who they are!" When you see a furry, you cry 😭

(U should totes follow me if ur a supporter of these so I can b on the good side of tumblr XD /nf!)

#mogai #xenogender #hpd #bpd #npd #aspd #cluster b #cluster b pd #pds #furry #fursona #queer #actually hpd #actually cluster b #agere #age regression #sfw agere #sfw #actually histrionic #sfw furry #xenic #xenogender user

[starspd]

people with personality disorders: it was difficult to survive on the ground, so i climbed in a tree and now im stuck and can’t get down

mental health workers (and everyone really): it seems that they climbed in trees to manipulate us. they are fully capable of getting down but doing so would make it harder to abuse us, so they stay there

#personality disorder #personality disorders #actually mentally ill #actually bpd #actually disabled #anti psych #cluster b personality disorder #cluster b #cluster b pds

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

“Don’t let your disorder define you”

Okay but do you support the people whose disorders do define them?

Do you support people with the chronic illnesses who have had to develop whole lives around their conditions? Do you support the intellectually disabled people whose whole way of thinking is defined by their disorder? Do you support the people with personality disorders who literally have a disorder as a personality? Do you support the autism/ADHD people whose disorder you can’t separate from who they are? Do you support the DIDOSDD people who have multiple definitions of themselves because of their disorder?

Or are you just saying that because a disorder defining someone means you can’t ignore it.

#chronic illness #autism #adhd #intellectual disability #did osdd #personality disorder #cluster a #cluster b #cluster c #cripplepunk #madpunk #neuropunk #tw ableism

[kitten-forward]

#mental health #mental illness #mental wellbeing #positive mental attitude #adhd #mental wellness #positivity #self healing #therapy #body positive #narcissistic personality disorder #npd #actually npd #cluster b #cluster c #borderline personality disorder #bpd #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #aspd #stigma

[sin-esthezia]

the thing that gets me the most about ableism against pd’s is that ppl will be like “these disorders make you an ASSHOLE!!!!” and then turn around and pretend that other disorders can’t and don’t make you act shitty.

depression and anxiety can make you irritable and snappy. they can cause you to refuse to listen to people and to be distant and withdrawn. they can cause you to seem angry, bitchy, rude, uncaring, etc.

ptsd causes an array of difficulties in forming meaningful relationships. it pretty much shakes up your entire worldview and sense of self a lot of the time. ptsd can cause you to get angry often. it can cause you to yell and scream. it can cause you to withdraw from others, run away, or cut them out. it can cause general changes in demeanor and more cynical worldviews. it can make you seem grouchy, negative, explosive, impolite, difficult, needy, controlling, etc.

and yet when people with personality disorders have symptoms of that nature, suddenly we are irredeemable monsters. when it’s npd, bpd, hpd, or aspd instead of ptsd or depression and anxiety, people suddenly and magically lose the ability to be understanding.

mental illness is an explanation, not an excuse. i firmly believe that. hurting others is never justified simply because you have any disorder.

but if you can be patient with people who have depression, anxiety, ptsd, ocd, or any other more well understood mental illness, you can be patient with us.

#ableism #ableism mention #ableism tw #cluster b #cluster b positivity #npd #bpd #hpd #aspd #npd positivity #bpd positivity #hpd positivity #aspd positivity #narcissistic abuse #narcissistic abuse awareness #actually cluster b #actually bpd #actually npd #actually borderline #actually narcissistic

[flittermousemoth]

Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

#bpd problems #bpd #bpd memes #fearful avoidant #fearful avoidant attachment #avoidant attachment #cluster b problems #ptsd #actually cptsd #actually bpd #self destruction #self aware queen #self sabotage

[scrimbly-mc-scrombly-iii]

If you advocate for mental health awareness, but joke about things like intrusive thoughts and schizophrenia, think it’s disgusting and lazy when people who are depressed can’t do things like showering or cleaning their room, use terms like “narcissistic abuse”, and believe that having ASPD, BPD, or NPD makes someone a bad person, you are not a mental health advocate. You don’t actually care about helping people or de-stigmatizing mental illness, you just want to make yourself feel like you do. You can’t pick and choose what disorders and symptoms are acceptable, and which ones make someone a bad person. Either you support everyone, or you support no one.

and if you’re neurodivergent/mentally ill and you do any of those things, you are part of the problem. there’s no such thing as “good/moral” disorders, or “bad/immoral” disorders. We all need to have each other’s backs.

#mental health #mental illness #tw abelism #npd safe #bpd #npd #aspd safe #aspd #ocd #schizophrenia #cluster b #neurodivergent