#— i am i am i am. ( my writings & creations )

[vagueconfusion]

Feeling real ridiculous for not having realized that Baron's "stark father" was the Nightmare King until now

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #also #love cassandra's gender situation going on here tbh #hell of an episode. i am totally normal about it (they are in fact. not normal about it at all.) #am willing to explain my thought process here if need be #there is a slight temptation to write something about the possible relation between cassandra and baron now though #did cassandra know that was where baron was like she could always summon kalina? #the creator and creation (the thing you made at your worst) #father and son (you can barely sustain yourself. let alone others) #you were once a god and then you weren't and you made this being and now you are a god again and it still exists #hmmmm #hm! #things to think. thoughts to ponder. #sorry i keep adding tags. i keep having Thoughts

[superfruitland]

a doodle for @callmehere-iwillappear dtiys! congrats on the anniversary and milestone!!

go read cmh if you haven't already, amazing fic <3

#cmhdtiys #me? loving my friends' creations? always! #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leonardo #rottmnt donatello #lee's art #hi russ your writing makes me feel warm and your art is so very huggable and i wanted to match those vibes here #russ this is the third time you are seeing this and i am not sorry #(i am sjkfgkjgjtkhyb)

[uncanny-tranny]

At this point, gender nonconformity is about what the person says their experience is.

If a woman with a beard or a man with lipstick and a mustache says they're gender nonconforming, then they are! If a woman with short hair or a man with long hair says they aren't, they aren't! And that's not even getting into the awesome nonbinary, abinary, genderqueer, intersex, and general genderfuckery that may both be and not be conforming.

So much of what is even considered gender conforming or gender nonconforming is based on a world of exclusion. When we start defining one's conformity with whether they fit into white cishetero perisex standards or not, we play into the idea that there's only a very narrow window of what is considered worthy of time and thought.

#gender nonconformity #gnc #queer #like. for instance a native man who keeps long hair might be considered GNC by white standards but for him it's absolutely not nonconformit #there's an aspect of white supremacy that silences everything else while saying that other culture's silence is indicative of whiteness... #...being 'correct' or 'moral' or 'neutral' #and as somebody who's trans and last i checked white i have my own thoughts from my own experiences #like how i don't consider myself to really be a GNC man. i'm just. man+ #i'm a weird concoction of weird soup that tastes like a man but if it were Wrong #and i just don't see that as not conforming to manhood like it is seperate. i see it as irrevocably linked TO manhood #it is others who have excluded and exiled me from manhood because of *their* understanding of me and how i 'fit in' in cissexism #while i will never ever say i know what it's like to not be white i will say these conversations that PoC have started have been INVALUABLE #i am forever grateful to have been extended the patience and faith to listen in on the experiences of people... #...who are racialized in terms of gender and how they do/don't 'fit in' with often white supremacist views on gender/dynamics #may have made a post like this years back but. eh. arrest me officer i will not back down #i've been more and more 'gnc' as i go into my transition and i don't see it as nonconformity but as an outlet for my masculinity #which is why i'm not insecure about my crafts and creations. because it is coming from a male whether or not it's considered 'manly' #i have little to *no place* in cissexist society so why should i put any stakes into if they ~accept~ me #made this post while jamming out to skyrim's tavern OST (paused my game to write this) #why the HELL does the skyrim tavern music have to go SO HARD. i NEED to slam down BARRELS of mead while listening to this istg #i don't even LIKE honey so i haven't tried mead but. for skyrim i would.

[mllekurtz]

i'm just. taking a break from work and thinking about the fact that it's been almost two years since the c2 finale and that campaign still has me in a chokehold. i still think about the wizards all the time, which shouldn't surprise anyone but it's still remarkable. just taking a little moment to be in my feelings about them on main, nothing to see here

#i know it's been crickets on my ao3 for a while but i am still alive #in fact i am going to share a snippet of the one shot i'm working on for wip wednesday if i can remember which day it is for long enough #things might be settling down for me maybe? i got my shit together enough last week to finally decide to go back to therapy #this is probably a subject for another post and not the tags of this one but i can't wait to feel like i'm living again #and not simply surviving #and while writing is an excellent coping mechanism i would also love to experience the joy of creation again #alright back to work with me #thanks for reading my ramblings if you made it this far #i sincerely wish you a lovely timezone

[musical-chick-13]

Jaime/Cersei + Text Posts

#jcweek2023 #jcweek #jaime x cersei #lannicest #got #cersei lannister #jaime lannister #for the Free Choice prompt :) #also I am so sorry I couldn't write anything. The Chronic Illness™ got me so please accept my humble offering of funny text post memes #behold! a creation!

[cherrybombdiggity]

I like tumblr because i can talk about really niche fan content and ideas for a fandom without sounding insane, such as i never liked when what-if-do-whatever-tf-you-want homestuck fics would make dave a director and karkat and actor karkat is a producer and writer and dave is an actor

#i am fucking deranged #but please see my vision #karkat loves romantic writing and creation dude #and dave would totally be a fucking actor my hc is that alpha dave wanted to be an actor and thats how he got into Hollywood #but then he became a director because thats the only way he could make films fighting propaganda and take her down #but he is an actor in my heart someone make a fic where karkat writes a small budget film as a flegling #and dave as a fledgling actor they work together in a romance film and karkat has the big blunder of getting jealous over the actor dave #is paired with in the fucking film because hes stupid #someone write this #homestuck #dave strider #karkat vantas #davekat

[lesbianfakir]

Okay someone who knows more about dnd than I do help me sort out princess tutu rpg classes. My thoughts so far:

Tbh I could see Duck as either a bard or a cleric. Bard for nonviolent approaches to conflict and a dance focus. That said I could totally see her as a cleric, she’d make a natural fit as the healer of the party and princess tutu could be her deity.

Ok so Fakir has to multiclass in like the most inefficient way right? Starts as a low hp high dps melee fighter and eventually makes the transition to a magic user class (warlock perhaps?? Wizard of some sort?). It’s kind of funny to imagine him as guy who desperately needs a high wis/int but keeps dumping all his stats into strength out of sheer stubbornness. I mean he doesn’t HAVE to switch classes but I think it makes the most sense, he starts in a class that he’s really not suited for and has to transition to what’s best for him even if he’s not happy about it.

Mytho is a natural fit for a paladin tank (though I’d listen to an argument for cleric). He’s throwing himself in the way to protect all the members of the party with no regards to his own safety. Probably dies a lot.

Rue I’m most undecided on. I could see her as a magic using class like Druid (preferred form is a crow) or warlock (makes a pact with the Raven) or even a bard who uses her persuasion to start drama. In a totally different direction, I could also see her as a rogue just to balance out the party; she’s clever, resourceful, nimble, etc.

PLS GIVE ME YOUR THOUGHTS IVE BEEN ARGUING WITH MYSELF ABOUT THIS FOR AGES

#princess tutu #when I was playing dragon age origins I was assigning them classes #and the lore just writes itself MY GOD #the overlap between da and tutu fans is so small but if anyone cares I have lore I have backstories I have a whole fucking au #that said! the world of da is too bleak for those kids get them out of there!! #princess tutu: sex and violence #get them out of there 😭 #anyways I don’t know thatttt much about dnd but I am a big nerd #basing my class ideas here around. world of warcraft. what I’ve picked up from critical role. #and the character creation screen of baldurs gate

[lets-try-some-writing]

Me to my brain when I joined the TF fandom: No oc's, got it?

Brain: Yep, got it. No oc's. Just canon characters.

Me: That's right because oc's are cringe and we don't need any!

Brain: *less than six months later holding two oc's like the most precious gems in the world*

Me: What. Are. Those.

Brain: *proudly showing them off* These are our oc's! I made them to be super cute too! See look! This one is named Error and he records data and is a minicon and is super nice and had all his kin slaughtered by the Quintessons-

Me: Wait hold on-

Brain: And this one is Delirium and she's a medic who is also a minicon because minicons are cute, and she wears a medical mask all the time because she lived during the rust plague and watched everyone she ever loved die so now she's scared of germs-

Me: Two minicons?

Brain: Yeah! Cuz minicons don't get enough love. Anyway they are also going to eventually fall in love because they are the perfect foils for each other-

Me: *suddenly really invested* Really?

Brain: *nodding enthusiastically* Yep! It's real bittersweet too because Error constantly needs to get his memories wiped in order to not lose his mind and so its super cute as he falls in love with Delirium over and over again every single time!

Me: Dude...

Brain: I love them. We are keeping them... right?

Me: *already coming up with drawings, reference sheets, and a whole fic outline* Absolutely.

#lets try some writing mumbles #this is literally how my oc creation process happened #it was super random in the grand scheme of things #I came up with both of them on the fly and now I adore them #I said I wasn't going to do it over and over again- #but here I am with my two precious minicon rays of sunshine willing to fight tooth and claw for them because they are PRECIOUS #perhaps this is just me #but well... this is how my oc's were born

[jadelynlace]

A Slice of Lime, Please⎮Ink Drinker Modern Vikings AU [Ivar x F!Reader]⎮Deleted Scene

read more Ink Drinker here

Author's Note: With the general time line of this blurb, and the video I saw earlier, I've concocted this piece. And trust me, I was grinning like an idiot the whole day at the station as I kept going back to this. This is a much lighter piece over the angst of the next blurb coming. I said what I said.

It’s sweaty bodies, music a bit too loud for your liking, and the general wave of the patterns voices as eye swatch the game on the screen. They pull out quietly, only to round up their decibels a moment later. You agreed to the night out when you were in much better spirits and now you’re following through with it all and you hate it. 

These are the moments you loathe—being out with nothing to show for the fact that you and Ivar are together. Except, you’re not. To keep the bubbling beast of Ivar’s anxiety at bay, but you would go to the ends of the earth if you thought it would help him.

Sometimes, you wonder if anyone knows; every so often you catch Hvitserk looking at you for a second more than what seems appropriate. And rather than question it, you let him sit in his own unease with whatever it is he’s searching for. Right now, it’s his expression as he watches you, watch another woman offering to buy Ivar a shot. 

You watch this woman undress him with her eyes, pulling the black tee from where it’s tucked to reveal the ink on his chest, the muscles you traced your nails over that morning. How she brings her pupils up and down and wonders if his size matches with what she’s looking at. You have half a mind to tell her that it does. You wonder if she wants to know about his interest, his quirks, or if she just wants to look at him. Instead, you look back at Hvitserk and raise your brows; if you’re going to have a feeling, it better be towards something you can handle.

“What?” You ask Hvitserk and he shakes his head. 

“Nothing, nothing,” He lies and you narrow your eyes.

“Hvitty?” You then ask. “Hvitserk,” You demand.

“Y/N, it’s nothing,” He then tells you and you can see he’s starting to dig the hole.

“You’ve been doing that for the last week,” You grumble.

“It’s just…” Hvitserk starts.

“Yeah, a slice of lime, please,” You hear Ivar say to the bar tender.

“On the rig check yesterday…” Hvitserk starts.

“Hey, brother,” Ivar snaps his fingers behind him, “No work talk. No firefighter stuff,” And Ivar turns back around.

“I’m trying to tell something to my partner,” Hvitserk says, placing a very careful emphasis on how he speaks. 

“Are you having a stroke?” Ivar tries.

The woman follows, two shots, two lime slices, and she hands Ivar’s respective parts to him. 

“No, I’m not,” Hvitserk snaps.

“Well, you’re about to,” Ivar says and he takes the lime slice—and much more quickly than you anticipate from his large hands—shoves the rind between your lips. Without a word to the other woman he tosses the shot back, his neck snapping backwards before his hands reach to your cheeks as he pulls you forward, sucking the lime from between your lips.

You feel your heart stop, your body moves with how Ivar dictates, and Hvitserk doesn’t miss the way you close your eyes, or the way both yours, and Ivar’s beings deflate. He tries so very hard to hide the smile that comes over his lips and he fails. But, he doesn’t quite care.

The moment you feel Ivar slowly pulls back, your eyes open quickly, widely as they watch his slowly open. 

“Oops,” He tries, “Must have mixed you two up…” He says so that only you can hear it, bastardly smirk on his lips. “Is she still there?” Ivar adds, louder.

“Nope,” Hvitserk states. “And for the record, Ivar, cardiac arrest is the correct medical term. That wouldn’t cause a stroke,”

“It wouldn’t?” Ivar tries, “Oh, I guess that’s why you majored in para-medicine and I majored in mathematics,”

You spit the lime out into your hand and hand it to Ivar, who only offers you a wink.

“Can’t be surprised by what you already know,” Hvitserk sings. 

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[novantinuum]

self care is unfollowing people who spread negativity on ur dash!! like Damn! yeah i theoretically Agree with your crit but i really Don't wanna see it either bc i want to Celebrate content instead of hyperfixating on the stuff i didn't like about it! yeet!!!

#jen rambles #i had someone call a SU fic i wrote once a 'fix it' and i'm just like #NO!!! #it was Not a fix it! #because a fix it would assume that i think i am Better and More Smart than the creators and that is hubris i really don't want #to take upon myself #i just like!! taking the elements i like and writing More of it! #that's all #i also feel like there's lots of people who just crumple when things in fiction aren't coherently explained #but i've always seen those holes as Opportunities? #idk like on one hand is leaving holes in your narrative bad writing? likely #but also the very soul of fan creation has Always been stepping alongside canon and re-imagining it #and oft filling those holes #and i just wish more people would join me in doing so in good faith to the source material #instead of doing it in that sort of 'ughhh so like since canon fucking sucks i'm fixing it :)' way #one day i'll prob Myself talk about the issues i had with the plotting of This Thing and you'll see tons of overlap with what #others are saying about it #but like idk. just why make that your sole focus? doesn't that bum other people out too? #like it kind of breaks my heart seeing people so fixated on the imperfections that they can't even enjoy what Was #i just don't get this mindset

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fanwork creators self rec! When you get this, reply with your five favorite fics/art/podfics/etc. that you've made, then pass on to others. Let’s spread the self-love 🌼

(No pressure if you don't want to though!)

Hope you have a good day! ✨

ah damn ok uhhhh i'm still very happy with This Rojade piece, My Murder Boy, this Flight Rising thing, this Julie one, and my DC fantasy fic copper & gold <3

#thank you for the ask! i've never done one of these! #you have a good day as well <3 #rambles from the bog #going through my archive has made me confront the fact #that ive drawn more welcome home in the past few months #than i have drawn literally anything else ever #i am Exaggerating a little but also. am i #damn. the fixation is real... #anyway can't say that these are my Favorites since i don't really have any! #unfortunately i either dislike or am at best just Satisfied with everything i make/post #im trying to change that mindset but yk #its tough! i still have a ways to go! i have to work to reach the level i want to achieve! #or at least reach a level where i can look at my creations and feel pride #but im confident ill get there someday #its easier to be content with my writing than my art #i mean i have a ways to go with both but i still think im at present a Better Writer #despite enjoying art far more! #or maybe not at present... my writing skills have atrophied a bit... there is Much i need to practice

[pokimoko]

Alright, I don't want to be a dick (and that's half the reason why I'm not answering this ask properly and censoring the user's name; I don't want to throw them to the wolves over poor wording), but I just have to say this: if you're going to send in an art request to me, please at least do me the basic decency of being polite about it. I am doing them for free and out of my own spare time, so I am under no obligation to make them if I don't want to.

The way this particular request is written feels like the equivalent of a 'please update' on a fic or like I'm some sort of AI art generator you're putting a prompt into, and it absolutely turns me off wanting to make art for you, which I won't be doing for this one. I'm sorry to be pedantic over phrasing, but I have to set some boundaries when it comes to requests, and this is one of them.

#ask #art requests #personal #vent post #sorry to be rude but this ask just kinda annoyed me with how it was written and i needed to say something #i have fun making the critters but I'm not just here to churn them out for people either #thank you to everyone else who's sent in a request and been very lovely about them #knowing you enjoy my art and will enjoy what i make for you is why i like doing them at all #so yes to anyone else in future: i am but a humble artist who likes a kind word or two to inspire my creation #even if it's a few hearts or just a quick little thank you. i don't mind. so long as it's not written like this #and to the person who did write this: you're new to tumblr so i can understand not being great at asks yet. but please be kind to artists #simple kindness can go a long way #anyway that's all. :)

[nevarroes]

I looooove ur art ❤️ prioritize drawing what you want to draw, so do OCs and original content if that makes you happier, maybe spend less time thinking of how you feel making fanart makes you a lesser artist. It comes across as you thinking less of people for doing it, even though I’m sure this isn’t what you’re going for. And you are under no obligation to answer every ask as well, so, if some make you feel negatively like that, you should be able to toss them 😤😤

thank you🌹 but honestly I already draw the only thing that makes me happy. And, and I'm sorry for saying it like this, but I really don't care what it comes across as. If someone wants to interpret my personal struggle with art as an attack on other artists then that's on them I just don't have the energy to make every take nuanced and consider everyone especially in... random tags sorry man

#here's the thing if anyone really needs me to say it #i dont think lesser of any artist doing only fanwork or focusing on the art skill part in being an artist #but I have an immense high respect for artist that also do their own writing and worldbuilding and everything #that doesnt mean I look down on people who dont do that that just means I look up to the others. its a different goal #I have no shame in saying that I wish what made me happy was also my original creation like I don't think that is bad to say #also just to add this right I am literally coming from making my own comic (dont even ask how many pages I have sitting unfinished) #to complete and utter burnout mentally that I can only get away from for some reason with.... Gortcas

[the-whitehurst-files]

Throw me in the bin, my own WIP doesn't deserve me

#writing problems #memes #writing memes #writing #author #what am i doing? #nobody knows #i'm a disaster and so are my creation children

[mustangs-flames]

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#took my anxiety meds and did my cbt exercises and am doing a bit better now #turns out i had forgotten to take them today #and a bunch of random stuff triggered a bit of a spiral #one of those being about horror story creation and how anyone who writes/makes horror content is- #inherently an evil person and shouldn't be making it. so yeah. uh. seeing that during an anxiety episode didn't help out at all lmao #i got scared thinking i had hurt everyone in the world by writing a horror series #despite. you know. tagging all my stories age-appropriately. tagging content. and even providing content warnings on each chapter #like. i think i do a lot more than some creators do when being responsible about horror or handling certain topics in my writing #especially because of the religious trauma #and the bad childhoods and parents. and the fear of god and how it can negatively impact one's queerness and identity #and i mean. i've always been clear that if i ever forget to tag something that all you have to do is let me know and i will fix it asap #idk. not saying i'm like a beacon if perfection but i try to rationalise to my anxiety that i am doing the most i can #if that makes sense? #anyway. sorry about my break earlier #tw: vent

[sapphic-storm69]

Lord have mercy on me, for I know not the path ahead nor what it looks like but may my soul persevere. May it strengthen me when I lay broken. May it pick me up from the rubble and dust me off and may it look into my shattered eyes and say “you are more than you know”. May it give me light when the sun cannot, may it power me through the nights when I stare into the abyss and feel the dread so ancient in my bones rise, and may it bleed into everything I love. May it leave a story of my life even when I am gone.

#sorry fellas idk what came over me #sometimes I feel things so profound I can’t really put them into words #idk I think this is a good rendition of my thoughts right now #wrote this while listening to cornfield chase shoutout to my boy Hans zimmer #girl help the moon shines above me and I can’t stop thinking about how humanity is capable of such beauty. #idk #it’s late I have school tomorrow #girl help I can’t stop thinking about how no matter how stressed I am for tomorrow this is but a small part of my life #how I am capable of so much more #how even when I listen or watch or read something and think how beautiful it is and how profound and how perfectly it is articulated that it #was made by a person. it was made by someone with a dream and such emotion and I am capable of such beauty #I am capable of creating something that will move someone just as someone else’s creation has moved me #anyways haha #gn fellas #writing #this is what you get when you aren’t on Ritalin