#‘i dont want to put you thru that’

[medicalunprofessional]

twisted scientist: I have a bunch of brains in jars😁

#psychonauts #caligosto loboto #nightmaretheater #im back at it again babbbyyyy #ive been listening to ‘the terrifiyign tale of thela hun ginjeet’ its doing psychic damage to me with its groovy tunes #kinda just wanted to render a cool doodle i had lying around.Thats it really #my inspiration was the vibe of walking thru a vintage store thats what i was doing #but then i saturated the colors to hell and back (as i should) #could not be assed to render the brain but you see : Its in a jar. i reslly dont csre🫶🫶🫶🫶 #oooohhh i love stealing peopels brsins and putting them in green preservative slop💞💞💞 #time on canvas : 5 ans a half hours

[cervideity]

Checking in for the night

#four swords #four swords manga #violet link #green link #red link #blue link #what a nice young boy. ... good goddess what is happening out there #are you sure you want One bedroom. in close quarters? yes maam. okay.... #i realized partway thru makin it that i put them all in the. idk obvious roles? i dont think this is Always the arrangement just tobe clear #if it were up to me they would all brawl... smash brothers brawl......... (makes them all fight in smash like akira himekawa did) #kill each other now. its funny. i like it. #<- very obvious has MANY siblings voice

[fourteenthz]

VIERAPRIL 10 - BREATH

I dream of their breath stopping, and before I know, mine does too.

#vierapril #ffxiv viera #vierapril 2024 #ffxiv #ffxiv oc #wol posting #ofc should've turned thancred at least until the mark was showing HOWEVER I was busy overthinking her posing so !! just know it's him!! #i gotta stop taking angst turns with those prompts but. well. #also dont look too fast or you will get the wrong idea lol NO TIME TO CONSIDER THAT #plus is that quote anything? have I told you guys i'm in a creative block and I don't write in like a month? it's bad. #idek what that first pic means I wanted it (bc I feel like 1 pic is too little) but also !! i didn't like how it looked by itself #so have that ig!! anyway each each interaction with this post i'll consider a kiss on thesa just #bc i feel guilty abt the angst i'm putting her thru...... u got this girl. #also expect many srb for this one bc i like it hehe and posting early :)

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Abu Dhabi Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#weird to be doing this for the last time this season #literally have been doing it since bahrain quali aahhhh.... #well gifing before that but this specfifc interview type gif wow this is the last one #dont want to get to emo in the tags bcs ive not really found words just yet for how i feel abt the season #but thanks so much everyone for supporting me all this way!!! its been so much fun #literally the thing keeping me going is making these after every race #i started this habit as a silly thing to keep my progress while watching thru older seasins #and i could never have imagined how much i would make!! so again thanks for all the support #id say 'see you next year' as if im not going to be loitering here all winter break #so uhhhhh stay posted for old content and art??? thanks love you!!! #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2023 abu dhabi gp #i used to put: '(2023 races watched: 22/22) #and i wish i stuck w that but i didnt but just know...I WATCHED THEM ALL AND TWO IN PERSON YAYAYAYAY #I have trouble sticking w things w an extended time so its cool to have gotten to this point

[loola-a]

@fe-oc-week day 4 - tragedy !

Around two years after their exiling, Florence developed an illness that took the life of her mother and left her bedridden for many years. This formed a rift between Flo and her father that would never heal, due to her blaming him for their situation in the first place. Because of her fathers greed and ego, they were forced into hiding and unable to get her and her mother the treatment they needed.

As odd as it is for someone as unapologetic as Florence, she does carry a lot of guilt for her fathers actions. It's only during her supports with Edelgard that she accepts that her father's wrongdoings aren't also hers by default.

i imagine the specific illness to be something similar to dermatomyositis? which is a hereditary disease common in women + children that makes your immune system attack healthy tissue. but it's ye olde days so they dont know this LOL

#kind of hard to explain her relationship with her dad but like #if youve seen the jordan peele movie us #its similar to that scene between adelaide and her dad at the therapists office after the funhouse incident #like #ur daughter goes thru something traumatic and some sort of innate fatherly instincts in you want to comfort her #but you just dont quite care enough to put in the effort to try #you cant relate to her feelings #i think he does love flo #just Not That Much #i think he feels like if she doesnt want a relationship with him then he isnt going to bother trying to change that yknow #fe3h #loola art #digital illustration #fire emblem #fe3h fanart #fire emblem three houses #fe3houses #fe #fe16 #fe3h oc #fire emblem oc #fe oc #fe oc week #ivory swans

[flamboyant-king]

I had an Isaac run where it was so stressful my heartrate was at a 145bpm and it persisted for 6 hours. After that, like every day that followed, my heart would just suddenly shoot up to 120-140bpm for an hour if I so much as thought about something I've been stressing over recently. Everybody encouraging me to go to the ER. And I'm just like "Oh please I've actually always been like this, I'm fine." Had to chop down my Adderall dosage. But I swear I've felt like this since high school, but I guess the medicine enhances the feeling and that feeling was ANXIETY.

So, suffice to say, playing The Binding of Isaac™️ almost gave me a heart attack.

#and its not the adderall thats just inducing the heartrate #cause i only got prescribed adderall this year #dad got diagnosed with afib when i was still in school. he rushed himself to the hospital with mom while i was taking a test #i was like what the heck where did you guys go and mom said oh dad was having a heart attack or something and we didnt want to bother you #like WOULDNT YOU TELL YOUR CHILD OH MAYBE YOU WONT SEE YOUR FATHER AFTER WE GO TO THE HOSPITAL BUT FINISH YOUR EXAM BABY #that was like 2020 and we have a couple of those oxygen readers for your fingers and it measures your heartbeat #i out one on for fun im just sitting there at the dinner table and my heartrate was at 120 #like i didnt do anything we been stuck at home because pandemic and we just having a nice dinner #and my heartbeat was just thats my resting heartrate. they told me to try the blood pressure thing #average blood pressure but truly my heartbeat was just vibing at 120. mis padres were like oh no maybe you have afib too #babes youre too young to have that. and i jsut said oh is that what it means when im nauseous and have to lie down #i havent been diagnosed with anything. i suspect is tachycardia but no official thing #although i havent seen a cardiologist. what if we pay to get a screening and its nothing #i dont want to go thru all that and let it be nothing. lets wait until its a real problem #when my brother and his family visited just like what two weeks ago he was like #he was sitting on moms exercise bike and said it reads your heartrate #and it did you put your hands on the handle and it reads yer pulse #i told him like oooh let me try. hey brother my resting heartrate is 120 a lot. and hes like. what. get on this thing #and i get off the couch literally resting and lay my hands on the handles #and we see it go up. from 80 to 90 to 100 to 110 to 120 and hes a nurse and my moms a nurse and he says go upstairs and rest #dont hang out here with the kids. and im like ha i already told mom #he said sit there for ten minutes dont do anythingg and were trying again #he got mom to call our doctor and my doctor said to stop taking the adderall which is NOT IDEAL theres worse repurcussions to stop cold #so i cut mine in half. cause i had a dosage of 20mg and i almost fainted at work. we died the dosage down to 15 #but after all that i cut my 15 down to 7.5 cause hey i cant stop cold but i can ween myself #brother said i shouldnt be taking adderall if im not doing anything that requires focus. but im like i need focus to live man #look at how much ive been drawing...i mean its only in like hour long intervals but its productive #so theres that. i can feel my heartrate already up but i guess its just a thing with me...anywho #doodles #the binding of isaac

[transmasccofee]

OHH FUCK. FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK.

#tw suicide #“but you don’t understand the way I feel either; do you?” FUCKVKCKCK FUCKFKJRRJJJKMRUFJFJF #he spent the whole chapter putting himself thru so much stress bc he wanted to simulate the happiness of working to gain something #and he didnt even get that #i dont think ive ever seen a more tragic portrayal of the psychic powers trope before #and its from a sitcom?? a gag manga??? a silly funny????? wtf

[volfoss]

do u guys like her...

#twist rambles #having to write the id for this like. heres all the diseases. #sorry im like... ive been researching on and off all day and i truly do think i could fix her. pray fo rme that buyee shipping wouldnt be #too bad bc i want her soooo bad #bjd posting #and shes DIRT CHEAP. 1000 yen. like thats NUTS. they keep having to put the auction back up bc NO ONE will bid on this thang. #anyways. i am pretty confident now after all the research that... i could remove the face paint and resculpt her nose and then. paint it #again lmao. thankfully cordula (my resinsoul li/my VERY pink doll) has also had to have been full head painted so like... it shouldnt be to #bad? and w already having a body that SHOULD perfectly fit (given i can figure out the neck connector lol) i can just... paint her head to #match the body if i do go thru w it. i dont normally get like... this focused on what i assumed was an impulse purchase (havent bought her #yet) but i just... i keep thinking abt her like. i genuinely curse the autism object empathy bc every day ive been like checking the sales #page to see if it will truly be MY burden to bear. #anyways. i am making this post to get thoughts on her. do you guys see the cuteness hiding under the scaries. #if i DID get her it would be a massive liveblog adventure as i clean her up so. know that if you are invested in me deyuckifying beasts lol

[wizardnuke]

loudly bitching about someone over the phone for 40 minutes straight at work while coworkers sideeye me. sorry. i have never shown this behavior before and itll be another two years before i do it again

#THERAPEUTIC. incredible things happening. #this person. me and this guy both love this person. but Oh my God. #he called to tell me abt something that kind of pissed him off last night and i started talking about a month and a half ago #why are we handholding this grown ass person thru fomo and massive control issues. well. it's not a dealbreaker but i might blow up one day #oscillating between 'yes i love them' and 'i've been pissed for a month and a half' #the horrors of having a interconnected friend group? it's really just two people i would really really hate to lose. others wouldn't be as #affected but those two. i love them. and AGAIN it's not a dealbreaker it's just kind of a buildup of behaviors. anyone remember my bitchy #post about the fomo/anxiety essay #also smaller things like Why are you trying to micromanage two disc servers that you dont have to lift a fucking finger in #um. my beloved irl if you see this. you didn't. i do love her to death. you know i do #the issue is if i put out all my issues they would take it really badly like they would act like it's the end of the fucking world #when i'm just like hey i am not your mother or your therapist and also stop trying to tell me what to fucking do #they would. um. lose it. #and some people are gonna get hit in the crossfire and i don't want to cause that. even tho it. wouldnt really be me.

[stinkrascal]

hi jaiden. i read your ask and im very sorry about your loss, i've decided to spread some positivity. you are an incredible writer and as much as you cringe at your older posts i find myself rereading it every now and then. its kind of crazy how i'm quite young, and i've been growing up with reading breanna's story - yet i haven't lost interest. there is something so aesthetic about your standstill posts, i dont know if its the colors or the dust, but its so pleasing to the eye. literally everyday after my work i go and i check if standstill has gotten an update. the way your dialogue is written is so natural. like it doesn't feel like this fake poetic or overly descriptive, it sounds like natural realistic dialogue. and ive also been reading your character bios and in my language there's a word called härlig, thats the only way i can describe the little bios. for it being a sim story, its so incredibly clever and i can tell you put effort into it. the poses are always fitting. and your game doesnt even look like sims. i hope you realize that we will always enjoy your story even if it would be with low graphics or vlad would be a 8x8 pixel. so dont ever shy away from taking a break, because u really deserve to take a break. there is so much i could say about standstill,, but i wont for the sake of it already being quite lengthy! i hope your healing, and i hope that you can accept some positivity into your life. <3

wow okay hello anon... i won't lie, this made me cry a lot ;-;. i've been really struggling lately with intense anxiety and honestly just feeling really shitty ha. reading this means so much to me, more than you will ever know. it's silly ik but i put my heart and my soul into my sims, it can be a little embarrassing bc they're literally just sims and here i am pouring every piece of me into them like they're my diary, taking it so seriously. but like........ i do take it seriously.......embarrassed as i am to admit it..... i love them so much. so reading something as kind and reassuring as this makes me feel really appreciated. thank you for your kindness, it's more appreciated than you will ever realize

#jade answers #Anonymous #my grandpa was old. he suffered w dementia it was honestly his time #but his death has brought up stuff within my family that's been difficult to grapple with. it feels like i'm mourning the death of both #my grandpa and my parents. even though they're still alive it will never be the same #i wouldn't want it even if things did stay the same. ig in a way i'm mourning myself too. i'll never be the person i was before #i'm grateful i have my new family with my amazing partner but it hurts to know i can't have that w my birth family i'll never have that #this is silly but like......putting those feelings on vlad and brie has saved my life. ok. lol #they were like me... their family hurt them in unspeakable ways and then they were adults without a family at all... #but through it all through the dysfunction and trauma they made their own family....... they survived and i will too #having emotions is cringe you guys<3 #im gonna be really embarrassed about this in a few hours but im trying to practice this thing where i dont bottle stuff up so its ok #being embarrassed just means i care.......and theres nothing wrong with caring........i say thru gritted teeth

[fatcowboys]

frustrating how fucking. disabling. being disabled is rn. im tired

#migraine buddy helpfully showed me my midas score which puts me in severely disabled bc of my migraines based on their impact #which on one hand was helpful in a sense of like. hey dude. these things fuck you up and have a huge impact and jts a thing #most peiple dont have to deal with. but also was like. god yeah i sure am and also i sure am still working full time and having to just. #work thru them and cope bc i certainly cant afford to have less money #its so fuckin i furiating being disabled in the us. i cant stop working bc then ill loose my healthcare which still costs me so much money #scream. tired. #my PA for nurtec was denied bc my ins wants me to try a diff one first #which is stupid bc like one why do u get to override my dr for your budget. #why does my healthcare need to suffer because youre cheap. you arent living with this shit. #and also the alternatives they suggested are injection based which. is scary for me as someone who used to have a terrible needle phobia #jax is able to help me w them which is good bc i know i cant give myself them (maybe could do the auto injectors but idk) #but its still so. why are u like thia. also it took u so long to deny my PA and im on no preventatives rn waiting for Something #to be approved. ugh. scream.

[xannerz]

cool story - still continued to repeatedly harass folks in the fandom, be an edgelord, throw tantrums in ppl's inboxes, feti$h mine, fish for free fanwork, and just generally be annoying & insistent abt personal headcanons and k1nks

#i went back and forth on answering this but ykw fuck it lmfao #this is so silly #normally i'd say troll but i've seen a lot of this anon's behavior and it reads as an obsessive nuisance #had to block out names b/c i dont want artists getting harassed or put into a spotlight (however small) that they didnt ask for #are you crawling thru the reblogs why did you send the same ask to me and op lmao #i love this takeaway. no denial of harassing people but at least a couple artists got paid!! what a way to clean up an image. incredible. #this 'anon' has like a million alts and remade accs a bunch of times so the need to defend a reputation here is mind-boggling lmfAOO #stop sweating and breathing heavily over a cartoon character at randos online #and maybe you'll get less flak for being a weirdo lol #xanreplies #also to my non-tts moots i am so sorry and i love you #also lmfao 'x or y got paid for them' 'or???'

[mxwhore]

the existence of 'biggering' (scrapped lorax banger) fascinates me and enrages me in a way i can barely grasp. its such a good song in every sense of the word and it was fucking replaced by a fucking twinkies extended single. its amazing. the best that i can describe that move is like if universal came and crossed the word willful in willful ignorance. "uuwuwuuwuuu how bad can it be uwuuwuw" pretty fucking bad and you know it. cunts

#ive been singing this song all day. its so good. it makes me so angry #like i could understand the oncelerinas wanting to fuck the twink if biggering had come thru #you see why i dont put my thoughts into words nothing makes fucking sense #tessas txt

[boygirltreehouse]

I hope every voice raised against Stephanie brown meets a terrible fate

#YOU DONT GET HER #YOU DONT GET HER AND YOU DONT DESERVE HER #ANHONE WHO SAYS SHE WAS NEVER ROBIN DESERVES DEATH #shes been thru so much and you cant even stand to see her stand next to ur fav boys cuz she threatens the stupid image of them u have #whatvever #i hope you ppl kys #maybe im responding drastically cuz i spent 20 minutes crying over her and im on my period BUT IDONT CARE #SHE DESERVES TO BE CALLED ROBIN JUST AS MUCH AS ANYOF THEM #SHE WAS PUT AT A DISADVANTAGE FROM A NARRATIVE AND METATEXTUAL LEVEL AND STILL FOUND FORGIVENESS IN HER HEART FOR BRUCE WAYNE #FOR ALL OF THEM #DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEY REPEATEDLY YANKED AWAY HER SEAT AT THE TABLE #she just wanted to protect her city to stop anyone from hurting like she did #SHES APART OF THE MYTHOS NOWAND THERES NOTHING U CAN DO ABT IT!!!!!! #STEPHANIE BROWN 🔛🔝‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[puppyeared]

uhh. uhhhhh

#realistically i knw that if i went thru with making animatics for all of these songs I think my hand would fall off BUT. i have brainrot #half of these songs are either here bc of the vibe or because i listened to the lyrics and read analyses and put 2 much effort than i had t #ALSO LISTEN. LISTEN BODYBAG IS EXACTLY EVERYTHING I IMAGINE WHENEVER I THINK OF WUKONG AND MACAQUES RELATIONSHIP OK #two birds and baby hotline is also kind of self explanatory. although most of the jack stauber songs are mostly for vibe #bitter water is a very specific flavor of pining / unhealthy outlook. kind of has like an insatiable vibe to it but idk how to name it #i want soap to be a healing song but maybe im just being optimistic. im here for the vibes although i feel like if swk and macaque were #actually to make up i think they would go into it kicking and screaming. and im frustrated because i cant find a song to match that #except maybe bodybag which AGAIN. THEY ARE SO FUCKING STUPID THATS HOW THEYRE GONNA HEALL FLYING BARK PLS #what if it doesnt end well also feels like a doomed narrative to me. like if you think about it from how their relationship might have st #started (and im probably taking from how everyone romanticizes their relationship as something really innocent or sweet at the start which #i am also not immune to that). but knowing them it is also a very good possibility thats not the case at all. what it is i dont know #primadonna also strikes me as a swk song but like msotly because he serves cunt. on that note I like to imagine rose colored boy as swk to #MK.BECAUSEEE i love how MK brings out the best in people AND AND AND!! 5000 year old immortal who has seen some shit come on people 'and i #have taken my glasses off' COME ON LOOK ATIT. you could also argue that could be macaque to MK and it would make sense #Spotify #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #yapping #playlist #monkie kid

[ferretwhomst]

me when....rnmab au............... SNIFFLES

#mabel sweetie im so sorry for putting you thru all that #ferret rambles #rick and mabel au #<- taggingm this not bc this post is anything but bc i dont want it to get Lost