#’i set my sights on you’

[panncakes]

"If you look closely, you'll see that Latte is the only being Ongsa talks to."

23.5 (2024)

#23.5 #23.5 the series #23.5 degrees #23.5edit #milklove #gledit #mine* #milk pansa #oh the abject horrors of being a teenage girl #[gathers ongsa gently into my arms and gives her all the warmth and comfort she deserves] #im sorry for how unkind i was to my teenage self; im sorry for unkind you are to yourself #i know her being unpopular and weird is played over the top for laughs but there is such a genuine #sadness and loneliness woven through it #having a sister who is popular and a leader and capable to a fault and a cousin who has her sight far beyond high school #and her peers and is so comfortable behind her high walls and within herself (also to a fault) #while you yourself are so starved and hungry for connection with your peers and to be liked but just seem so incapable of making that work #so incapable of getting out of your own way #is just so... god #its so universal and so heartbreaking and also i wanted to make this set #because at the end of the show ongsa will have her friends and a girlfriend and confidence in herself and hopefully #love and kindness for herself ❤️ #in case you were wondering; why yes i will project all my own teenage issues onto this show because yes ongsa is a mirror thank you 🥰

[cametotheshowinsd]

THE ROARING TWENTIES (1929) | Written + Directed by Taylor Swift *ALL-TALKING PICTURE* Flapper Clara falls in love. With a Princeton sophomore. Every night they spend together feels like a dream. All the social occasions, the scent of wine she tasted on his lips, dance floor reflecting broken mirrorball lights, tossing pennies in the pool, sneaking in campus, night walks around the Nassau Hall, joking about school dorms, long dinner that seems never end and sophisticated conversations. His innocence and passion. Her wide-eyed gazes. Breathes that felt too close in the dark. Finally, one day, the kid went down on his knees and pulled that damned rock out of his pocket. Will Clara say "yes"?

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #tswiftgif #lyrics #this is inspired by #FSF's #this side of paradise #but from a female perspective #i hope it makes sense #it's basically the 1 + champagne problems #and I feel bad for using an Amsterdam scene lmao #you can see that one is LQ bc I dont have the movie saved anywhere I dl'd that clip from Youtube lol #but that's also my fav gif in this set #that Clara (the protagonist) saw the window reflecting her own mind that she got married with the boy and she didnt like the sight of it #also that it could be her seeing her own ghost #what her life could've been #Amory seeing ghost is my favorite part in TSoP so I thought I should pay a sort of homage to that :p #the 'slave of your imagination' quote Taylor herself had quoted in 1989 era so it's essential in this gifset :) #(this has nothing to do w the recent news regarding to Taylor's personal life tho I got this idea half thru my reading of TSoP) #and it was so fun to use some old pictures scenes #they are: #mr. deeds goes to town #a farewell to arms 1932 #(which is a fountain & pool scene but it was too dark and covered by the layer of Tay & Sean kissing XD) #footlight parade #children of divorce #(Clara Bow was in the scene I used...she partly inspired my female lead) #the roaring twenties #userelena #userleah

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[oifaaa]

hello ms oifaaa i think we should gaslight the batman fandom with a "forgotten" robin. transfem adopted daughter

Stephanie Brown already exists and gets forgotten by the fandom on a daily basis

#ask #anon #honestly the amount of people i have seen over the last few months say tim is the forgotten robin #TIM #you go up to any random nobody at a comic store #and ask who their fav robin is #theyre either gonna say tim or dick #you have people on this site going “i drew all the robins” with no steph in SIGHT #sorry tangent #people who forget my two girls #set me off

[ducktracy]

proper reupload in the high quality this fantastic segment so deserves; eagle pig and duck bias notwithstanding, this will forever be my favorite variant of the fabled switcheroo (and a reminder that Daffy was first at his own game!) the committal on behalf of both characters--especially the sincerity of Daffy's feigned sincerity--really sets it apart

#that delivery of “don't you believe i'm a fish?” sounds so hurt and it's perfect #likewise i think there are few one-liners/toppers that make me laugh as much as 'i told ya i was a pig' #and that all knowing glance at the audience from Daffy doesn't feel obnoxiously smarmy or self aware #there's a friendly nonchalance to it. a very clear amusement and not in a way that undermines anything this segment is setting out to achie #again. my favorite buzzword: that sincerity! a sincere investment and amusement in watching Porky obliviously and endearingly make an ass #out of himself #and of course the cross dissolve and setup of the composition implying a story/sequence of events taking place within that time... #this short isn't my favorite P+D short--i still LOVE IT A TON but there are so many i revere--but i think it's one of the most definitive #if someone was looking to get a good understanding on their character dynamic this would be one of my immediate recommendations #i haven't had the bandwidth to spread my pig and duck gospel but please #watch Porky and Daffy cartoons #tangential but i've always loved the sound effect Treg Brown uses for Porky dropping the gun #good exaggeration/whimsy while also connoting Porky's stubbornness and that this stupid petty argument is enough for him to lose sight of #his motives and discard his murder weapon. all because of this joyously stupid argument. so i like the self awareness there with how obtuse #the sound effects are #because anyone who is not Porky Pig would have just shot him point blank #and that is everything i love about their dynamic and how Daffy's intoxicating charisma and ability to get people invested even affects the #very characters on screen #gee d'you think i ought to have said more about this scene #lt #duck soup to nuts #freleng #vid

[hella1975]

born to write fanfiction forced to go to pilates

#WHAT IS HAPPENING. HOW DID I GET HERE #THIS IS NOT MY SCENE I SHOULD NOT BE HERE OR WHATEVER THE WOMBATS SAID #no hate to pilates itself im acc very pumped for it but the entire setting of a gym TERRIFIES me #but the uni is running a bunch of shit for women’s month and one of the events is this where they’ve booked the gym #and for 3 hours for free you can just go to different sessions #and me and my mate saw ‘free’ and didn’t look back like one thing I love about us is We Will Just Try Shit #and now im here in athleisure kit. no cargos in sight #I actually can’t remember the last time my outfit was so streamlined I feel naked rn #only plus is I’ve somehow got a decent fit like I had a real moment of secondary school PE class thinking I was gonna #be looking around feeling shitty and out of place for not having The Branded Shit but somehow I’ve acquired stuff #leggings from my old flatmate who IS a gym girlie meaning im twatting about in GYMSHARK LEGGINGS LIKE SOME SORT OF POSER #I feel like im going to dance classes again this is so. this entire thing feels on the edge of nostalgic and generally just WEIRD #I feel like the Cool Girls will be there I feel like they will know there is something Fundamentally Off about me and I’ll never know what #BUT OH WELL. DO IT SCARED #hella goes to uni

[stardestroyer81]

It's true— she told me herself! 💞

(Blank template under the cut!)

#⭐ Star's Art ⭐ #Pizza Tower #Brick the Rat #Brick Pizza Tower #Sprite Art #Aseprite #Meme Template #Coolness #SHE/HER BRICK BELIEVERS RISE UP!!! #I've had this sitting around for a couple of months now... #... but with Pizza Tower's first anniversary coming up I figured now would be a good enough time to post it! #I have a drawing planned for the big day too even if it's nothing too spectacular. I'm sure y'all will love it nonetheless #But yeah since I posted that collection of Brick doodles I've exclusively been referring to Brick with she/her pronouns #You look at her and tell me she DOESN'T radiate girlypop vibes. #I might be projecting a bit as a trans woman myself... but Brick being a girl just feels a lot more natural and right to me #Brick to my knowledge isn't addressed with any set of pronouns in-game so as far as I'm aware it's fair game #This of course is merely my own interpretation! #People are allowed to have their own headcanons and anyone who starts discourse over this will be blocked on sight 💕 #🏳️‍⚧️ Brick the Rat says trans rights! 🏳️‍⚧️

[lavenoon]

@naffeclipse Personally, I think the shirt is salvageable, y'know?

#post let luce #my art #fnaf sb #fnaf sb au #cryptid sightings #cryptid!moon #cryptid!sun #he counts okay #naffeclipse #sun next morning gets a stink eye too tho #'you fixed our clothes! it's only fair we fix yours too!' 'sun that's not what this was and we both know it' #y/n only pretends to be mad they really think it's cute #set post reveal??? idk works both ways #honestly pre reveal would make for a funny post reveal realization like #'oh you. you just put a different cryptid. you weren't just jealous. you were territorial.' #at this point im just making a fan comic to a fanfiction /hj /lh #not even I think the reveal will happen the way I depicted it #lmao

[canarydarity]

having a normal one watching Bdubs lim life tonight and thinking about how when Bdubs betrayed Tango in last life, Skizz told Tango that for the sake of team best he had to go and forgive him.

But when Bdubs boogey kills Skizz in lim life before team ties is even really formed, Skizz is allowed to have it out for Bdubs for almost the entire first half of the season, even when the clockers ally with them and it would've been easier to let sleeping dogs lie.

Tango, the perpetually extraneous and undervalued member of his alliances...the too often shoved aside and betrayed...being told it was his duty to the team to forgive bdubs and move on....

But no one—especially not Tango—tried to tell Skizz to let it go.

#and like. now im thinking about how no one is ever really ride or die for tango. ever #people are allied with him but no one PRIORITIZES him #as a team rancher fan myself id be tempted to argue Jimmy is but you can just as easily point to how that was in a way self serving #and I dont just mean with the soulmate mechanic so worrying about tango was worrying about himself for jimmy #but i mean it in the way of jimmy was so worried about tango because #jimmy was worried about HIMSELF being the thing that hindered him and dragged him down #whihc is not to say that jimmy didnt also worry about tango #but it is to say that the dl rule set played heavily on jimmys insecurities and fears #he was most of the time worried about himself. YES because of how that affected tango. but also because it served his guilt complex #and so his intentions were colored by that as someone whos incredibly willing to make himself the problem whenevr he sees fit #whihc is again nothing on him hes my fave ya know i love the guy #i just mean even in double life where by design it shouldve happened tango wasnt made anyones top priority #not in the way that we come to see it across many other pairs. not in the obsessive worrying about his safety #or just in the general Being Weird About Each Other Way #sure you could argue skizz and tango last life...tango was for a while skizzs priority—until skizz shifted his sights to team best #even when team best wasnt giving their all backt o him that was skizzs focus #and if tango were really his priority over the wellbeing of the team such as it was for bdubs and etho #skizz wouldnt have tried to make tango forgive bdubs after he was betrayed #skizz wouldnt have kept asking tango to give more and more to a team he got little if not nothing out of over and over.....just #GAH! NO ONES EVER DEVOTED TO TANGO!!! NO ONE EVER CHOOSES TANGO TO BE THEIR //PERSON// THEIR. HES NEVER SOMEONES TOP PRIORITY #again im nto saying teh ranchers werent devoted to each other you know i love them more than anything in the whole world #i just mean. not in exactly the way i mean.... #and not completely when jimmy was so (understadnably) preoccupied with trying not to carry on his curse again #especially while attached to someone else #worm says

[fidgetspringer-art]

✧ The Ardal stars ✧

#artists on tumblr #art #illustration #digital art #digital drawing #dnd #dungeons and dragons #homebrew #original art #my art #my ocs #Setting: Heim #I drew these a couple of years ago now i think #but since i'm drawing stuff for this setting again i'm reuploading with updated information cause the last one is outdated #I will say right off the bat however #If you compare my designs to already existing IPs i will block you on sight #the last time i posted these they got compared to a piece of media i really dislike #and that comment alone made me fall out of love with this setting for almost two years #so please. do not. it's rude and unnecessary #These are the artefacts my setting and its story is largely centered around #Tethry is credited with creating them (Even though he didn't) #They were gifted by Tethry to each of the largest cities in the world to serve as power generators supplying arcane power to the whole city #immediately pushing the four sister cities into prosperity and progress. leaving literally everyone else in the dust #which caused some understandable tension between countries that already had a bit of a strained relationship to begin with #There is SO MUCH to these little trinkets and their link to Tethry and how finding them essentially fucked up his whole entire life #You'd think becoming the world's most renowned arcanist would be the best thing that ever happened to an aspiring caster #but to some poor dude just trying to study arcane language. stumbling across the magical equivalent of the demon core #was very much not on his wishlist #especially not dealing with the consequences of trying to make sure no one actually realises how nasty they have the potential to be #which. someone inevitably does

[luciuscaelus]

Ody Does Math

“Good morning, teacher.” sang the kids, faces radiating vitality.

Indeed, it was a good morning. You can hear the larks chanting in the forest, oak leaves whispering secrets of the wind, and see the open fields bathing in the blazing sunlight casted by Lord Helios. Every bit of this scenery was calling for your attention.

But now is not the right time for that. Commented Athena, in her mind. Now is the time for their math class, and none of them can escape this fact.

So she simply nodded to their greeting. So far so good. She gave a quick glance around the classroom. Odysseus, her favorite student, seemed rather eager for the class. He’s doing good as always, Athena thought. Eurylochus, on the other hand, seemed quite unsettled. Curious. Is it because of his homework? Athena wondered. And as she set her eyes on the next student, she called:

“What are you doing there, Mr. Polites?”

She could see his panic alright. But soon as Polites reclaimed himself she heard him say: “Sorry, Ms. Athena. I was just trying to pack this bag real quick.”

“What for?”

“Er, Ms. Athena…I don’t suppose this is the right place to say—”

“What for, Mr. Polites?”

He sighed. “It’s for a friend of mine, really. Today’s his birthday.”

As he finished, Athena caught a glimpse of the mild blush on Odysseus’s face. It wasn’t hard to figure out what exactly was happening here, but she merely said:

“Well, in that case, I might as well congratulate this friend of yours with a ‘happy birthday’. Hope he gets to be a valiant warrior, a warrior of the mind. And yes, you may sit down, Mr. Polites.”

As everybody settled on their seats, Athena quickly chalked a line of Greek on the blackboard. It reads: ΣΤΟΙΧΕΙΑ ΓΕΩΜΕΤΡΙΚΑ (Elements of Geometry). As soon as she finished, she said:

“Welcome to today’s math class, everyone. We’ll begin with a discussion on a simple problem in your textbook. Now, please turn to page 43, and evaluate the problem quickly. I’ll ask for your ideas in a few minutes.”

It’s not hard. Thought Odysseus. Just some simple geometry. You draw a perpendicular BC at point B with half the length of AB, and…

“Mr. Eurylochus, if you may?”

Eurylochus’s hesitation was all written on his face. And his silence was loud enough to speak for his cluelessness. I should help him. However, it’s not my turn. Thought Odysseus.

Athena apparently noticed something. “Mr. Odysseus, if you may?”

“Yes ma’am. You need to draw a perpendicular BC…now we have an auxiliary right triangle ABC, right? Draw an arc with center C and radius BC intersecting the hypotenuse at a point D. Then draw an arc with center A and radius AD intersecting AB at a point, say E. Now E should be the golden ratio point.”

“Good job. Now prove it.”

”Prove it?” now it was Odysseus’s turn to hesitate, but he hoped that he didn’t show it. However, Athena was quick to pick up something…else. “Well,” he started, “all I gotta do is…huh, what’s this bag for?”

A look at Polites was sufficient to explain everything.

“Mr. Polites! You seem quite eager to hand the present out, I see. Why don’t you give Mr. Odysseus a hand, by proving this point E to be the golden ratio point as he claims?”

Polites was eager, alright. He stood up swiftly, and said, “May I have a chalk, Ms. Athena?” After a moment Polites finished the proof on the chalkboard, saving the day. Then Athena complimented both Polites and Odysseus, and the class moved on.

But Eurylochus was uncomfortable with the compliment that Odysseus had received. Geometry is his strong point alright, thought Eurylochus, but let’s just wait till we get to arithmetics.

…

And soon they got to arithmetics. But there were only 10 minutes left for the class. So Athena decided to give a little quiz.

“I have a challenge, a test of skills.” said Athena, “the problem is, are you all ready for it?”

All nods. Ok. “Then let us begin by introducing a geographic fact. This is Troy, 600 miles away from us if you travel by sea. Now suppose that a ship travels at a speed of 5.755 miles per hour without the wind, and it is heading from Troy to Ithaca in full speed, and when it is 2.8 miles away from Ithaca it takes a turn to Temesa, sailing through 290 miles in total, and from there to Aeaea 158 miles away. Suppose the ship sails in a uniform speed, without any wind. How long does it take in total?”

Odysseus could see their expressions clearly. He could see Eurylochus busy doing the calculations, which wasn’t a surprise at all since he was so good at it. I could use a good right-hand man like him. Odysseus thought. And let’s see how Polites is doing. He seems to be struggling with it, which is not a good sign…

But what are you doing, Odysseus?

He had no idea. To be honest he haven’t even figured out how a decimal point works, but he’ll do it anyway, after all he’s a warrior of the mind! What do those miles add up to? 420? 420 divided by 5.755 is…730, right? Wait that 730 looks so familiar…isn’t that twice as long as 365 days? My goddess, that’s a really long time!

“Mr. Odysseus, what’s your answer?” From afar, he could hear Athena calling to him. But this time, there is no more hesitation. He had found his confidence. He knew his result to be true, though somehow he doubted the validity. But he’s gonna answer it anyway, knowing that had it been wrong, the fault was not his at all, but Athena’s. She provided the data, didn’t she? So nothing can go wrong. Just you chill, just you stand, just you answer.

”Ma’am…it’s two long years.”

#It’s 181.6 hours with no storm or tidal wave #He made two different mistakes over the decimal points #see if you can spot them #And the last mistake was about unit conversion #odysseus #epic the musical #fanfic #math #12 long years #somehow i don’t suppose this little nerdy fic can go popular? #Nonetheless I’d still like to nerd out something concerning my data #So I consulted the wikipedia to discover that specific map made by Abraham Ortelius depicting the return journey of Ody #It sets the land of Laestrygonians and Aeaea in the south of Rome #Which means that if Ody was to be blown by the storm from Ithaca in-sight (about 2.8 miles away) all the way back to Aeolia #And from there to the Land of the Giants #he’ll have to take a slight turn to visit Temesa #putting the distance he traveled from Ithaca to Temesa to be 290 miles (I checked the map literally) #Yep the distances are all read from the map of the sailing distance calculator #And the speed of the ship was VMG (5 knots look pretty normal so I picked it) #And by inserting those three mistakes that everyone has potential to make #I get the number cleanly (with some rounding offs ofc) #And isn’t that incredible? #Gosh I’m so excited about this little coincidence

[sexynetra]

WIP WEDNESDAY (for real this time)

Guys it’s actually Wednesday this time I’m not mixing up my days :) also the chapter draft is FINISHED I could cry (I did cry. Many times) I am so excited to share this chapter soon <3333

~~~~~

They both fell silent for a moment, before Luxx let out a small sigh. “I don’t know how else to get this into your head, babe. If you’re just gonna pin blame on her, there’s no point in apologizing. You’re gonna have to suck it up and be vulnerable and honest to have any shot at fixing things with her.”

Marcia grimaced into her palms. “But I don't want to. I don’t want to deal with any of this shit. Not the Anetra stuff. Not the gay stuff. The maybe gay stuff. I don’t know. Maybe I’m not gay. Probably, even.”

“Probably,” Luxx echoed, tone dripping with sarcasm.

Marcia looked up from her hands to give her best friend a glare. “Shut up. Don’t mock me. I’m being serious. Like. This could have nothing to do with anything. This could all just be about Anetra and have nothing to do with anyone else. Like, I could still be fully straight.”

“Tell me again that story about how you threw up on Bryce after he kissed you at our Winter Formal freshman year?” Luxx smirked.

“That was one time! Anyways, maybe this will all pass once we aren’t roommates anymore.”

“Maybe. You still need to apologize to her though.”

#I can’t decide what bits to share but HOPEFULLY #fingies crossed that it’s posted before any more excerpt posting days lmfao #gonna try and do mass edits tonight and tomorrow and maybe Friday if it still needs it :) #but anyways #ending in sight!!!!!!!! #drag race #rpdr #rpdr 15 #drag race 15 #anetra #marcia #rawnsyf #running away will never set you free #anarcia #Marcia x3 #Marcia Marcia Marcia #my writing #wip Wednesday #luxx noir london #anarcia fanfic #anarcia fanfiction #drag race fanfic #drag race fanfiction #also hi Bryce pit crew man I’m so sorry for dragging you

[sophieswundergarten]

As promised, The Thing I said I'd post when I got my work done:

A podfic of the ever so lovely @mashpotatoequeen's "string theory"!!

#I'm so sorry for my friends who actually sleep like normal people #And who are in different time zones #However #You guys beware #I've got my sights set on a few of you #And I've been practicing #Haha /ominous #But seriously I double triple checked with the author before posting this #I'm not just going to be doing stuff willy-nilly #I'll ask #Obviously #But Be Aware...

[mobius-m-mobius]

LOKI APPRECIATION WEEK 2022  ♡ ⤷ Day 7 - Free Choice - HOW DOES IT ALL END?

#lokitvweek2022 #mobius #loki #hunter b-15 #mcuedit #marveledit #lokiedit #lokius #the restraint of not getting into angst until the very last day 😅 #anyway i will not apologize because everyone has their own concept of romance and THIS is it™ for me #shoving people aside frantically running through hallways stumbling in haste scanning every inch of every room #discarding every sight that isn't the one person you need who you can go to with trust and without hesitation to ease your heart and mind #this is the set of my dreams btw and i can't believe i made it scrambling through an entire week of gifs i'm truly alive 💖 #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[navramanan]

Isnt it crazy how yes, my liberation notes makes me feel seen in some parts, it also makes me want to die for the things that i dont have compared to the characters

#with that i specifically mean friends #is that really the one thing that will set me apart from everyone? #people will have relationship problems money problems job problems family problems #and all of them have friends. is it bc there really is no end in sight for any problem when you dont have friends? #i dont have anyone to talk to every evening about how my life is if i wanted to #sometimes i want to get it all out anyway and write it down somewhere #or on the very very rare occassion snap a friend. but i always feel like a left over person by doing that #i feel as if i'm so so desperate to talk to someone #lately i've been feeling lost in that gap i feel in my life #i have stopped hoping there's an end to this #at least for now i've stopped hoping. i hoped and tried and failed for so long i feel exhausted #i dont want to expect anything. bc then nothing comes out of it anyways and i feel awful just horrible. more than i would without expectatio #i dont know what's worse. to keep trying and hoping or to keep wandering around in that gap feeling lost #nesi rants

[risingsunresistance]

i have one more clip to post but that's being saved until i feel like doing a mild edit. which means it will probably be next week i am On A Schedule right now every single day is being meticulously planned out kjgfhgk (help)

on the bright side, skyblock update. 85% TO FISHING 42 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH 💥💥💥

#i just wanna be fishing 45 please send help #long youtube videos save me... #every show i wanna watch requires captions so i cant devote enough attention to reading and playing >:( so im stuck with youtube videos #it's a slow grind but it's been a lot better with my gear upgrades and the new mixin they added :0 i was 0% two or three days ago #and considering i havent been able to play much. THAT'S A LOT OF EXP #goal is fishing 45 by 2024 but i dont think that'll happen. might set my sights for at least 43 i'll take ONE more level #it's going by faster rn with marina but i've been schedule for work her entire term #BUT DERPY IS ABOUT TO BE MAYOR AND IM OFF FOR THE HOLIDAYS WOOOOOO time to grind #i dont go back till wednesday after tomorrow life is beautiful #i'll try to be a little bit social but. can someone please come to my house for once instead of me leaving the house #i am driving All The Time now it's starting to wear me out :( #''wanna come over wanna go do this'' can we hang out here i have a dog who would love to see you #chat