#…which has been a problem lately

[solcarow]

seafood trio portraits !

+ some alts. with spoilers !

#this is how they look after the 3yr jump 👍 #pretty proud that i managed to capture how i usually imagine them :0 ! been in an art slump so this was a pleasant surprise #idk if ill b able to draw them consistently tho . so these designs r for my brain only #might try to color these but i havent eaten lunch yet so thats a problem for another day #solar-drawss #my art #han sooyoung #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #yhk #yoohankim #orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omnicient reader's view point #cackling at how miserable sp and 63hsy look compared to kdj in the middle #her whimsy … shes living her best life rn #……i lied i think i just gave him My face straight up jfc . get that off of u asshole #anyways if u didnt already notice ! yoohan have matching eyebrow scars 🫶 #kdj has one on his nose in that first one #the second kdj has cracks all over her which i forgot to add is inspired by hehearse’s works !! #the reason why they dont show up in the first one is bc aileen covered it up before he went to 1863 #like . hoseki no kuni style ✌️ #fun fact i ​sketched that hsy the night before her birthday skfjsjf had to give up bc it was too late tho #so now im repurposing it for this #NO WAIT I SHOULD JUST GO BACK AND GIVE HSY A CLEFT LIP …. dam lost opportunity. well whoevers reading this just kno she has one now

[shorthaltsjester]

honestly as someone who has been in various fandoms for a long time now and who also watched campaigns 1 and 2 without really getting into cr fandom it isn’t Shocking but it is annoying how often people will look at the stories that cr tells and make absolute claims about the goodness of characters (goodness here meaning Moral goodness, not I Like This character and think it’s well made goodness, which is a separate post entirely). particularly regarding the gods and pc parents. and honestly like, typically in fandom i get annoyed by people bending over backwards to woobify characters who are active in their choice to be unkind and generally horrible but in the cr fandom it’s tended to be the opposite where like. a character is just. a human being (in the sense of being Average not in the sense of Fantasy Races) and huge swaths of the fandom act like that’s the most unforgivable thing someone can be. and maybe it is, but one of the most powerful things about fiction is that it tends to encourage people to expand their empathy and exercise their ability to forgive. because fictional characters, no matter how much people like to project onto them, tend not to cause anyone harm, so it’s easier to learn how to forgive and accept things you don’t understand without also villainizing them.

this is mostly prompted by the recent 4sd and the fact that matt’s response to what’s up with the dawnfather was a very insistent “He’s not bad!” and also seeing the online reaction to the mention that the matron would punish vax for saving keyleth that has taken the as usual completely bonkers tune that the raven queen (Who When Met With A Brother Asking A God To Kill Him In Favour Of His Sister, Gave Him A Job, and Later Extended His Natural Life To Help Protect The World And Have More Time With His Family And Allowed Him To Visit His Sister On Her Wedding Day) is a horrible evil abusive bitch of a god. like. can we grow up? can we understand the world and fiction that represents the multitudes of experiences found in it in shades of grey? is that too much to ask (i know it is).

but also specifically the like Extremely Adamant way that both matt and laura were like no no no no relvin isn’t Horirble he’s average. he’s not good he’s just. he’s A father, not a good or bad one. and on the surface it’s hilarious that they’re both so like. enthused to point out that he’s Average because typically when people respond to a claim of a characters badness with the level of immediacy they both did it’s a rebuttal of “no, this character is good actually.” but it was just to affirm that relvin did harm imogen, but not because there’s some aspect of his character that is inherently cruel or especially Bad. and like. yeah actually. yeah you should react like that to a claim that this average person who Has hurt someone, the way that nearly every single person has hurt someone in a way they cannot repair, with immediacy to say this person is a Person and thus imperfect and capable of great harm, but that isn’t some all encompassing judgment on their morality or capability to also do good or be fine.

anyway this is kinda just a rant post but also is just me saying i’m very grateful that when surrounded by a fandom that tends to paint characters as Good or Bad and even while using a game that can encourage that with its alignment system, cr has always told stories that see goodness as a persistent choice that might sometimes falter and that can be chosen even after a lifetime of Badness. i can’t remember exactly what the quote was so forgive me if it’s incorrect but when jester is talking to caleb after he claims he’s not a very good person and she says “good people do bad things sometimes. even bad people do good things.” that’s it! that’s one of the most consistent themes across campaigns. and yet.

#on fandom #cr tag #i just. maybe it’s the philosophy major in me but. good grief the shit some of y’all say about morality and then turn around and ignore #what you’ve just said. good grief #lately it’s specifically been the people who support liliana (i too love evil women) and act like she tripped and fell into her current #position. and then turn around and call relvin an abusive devil #like. sorry which one has been manipulating imogen. which one abonded her? #that’s besides the point. my point is. the words good and bad are meaningless. #the good placeism. is this character trying to be better today than they were yesterday #this is the imogen temult problem actually. like yes she Chooses to be good. but that is only a choice because we have Seen her be selfish #and cruel and manipulative. if i had to choose to call imogen good or bad i’d of course choose good. but that undermines so much of #what makes her ‘goodness’ actually compelling. #honestly same with fjord. like his character as a charismatic paladin who fights for Good™ is comtextualised by having seen his journey #like. otherwise he’d be boring. #like. if any cr main character was just Good or just Bad. i promise it would not be as popular as it is #critical role

[simikae]

everyone’s waiting for your curtain call

#umineko #umineko spoilers #sayo yasuda #my art #my finished stuff #this has been cooking since like. late march early april actually i just havent had the time for it + also i was super unsatisfied - #- every time i did try to color it in :/ #which naturally means my brain decided to be good at rendering when i have an essay due tomorrow. problem for future me of course #(the future me in question will have to deal with this by the time this posts #scopophobia / #umineko no naku koro ni

[skrs-cats]

I've said this before but thanks lionblaze liking you has kept me so humble in Situations. Thanks for setting the bar under hell. You make me have peace in Dumb Shit. This is like the complete opposite of setting someone on a tall ass pedestal. The bar is so low any single minor achievement is like watching you fly. Absolutely superb. Why am I still here. I don't know but I'm fucking around and finding out.

#this isnt related to anything ive just been stressed w recent news lately and then i look at my problems w liking lionblaze #which has always upset me for no fucking reason which is so stupid but id rather be stupid upset bc of a stupid character like him #than whatever else is happening rn. thanks lionblaze ur a real one for that #*punts him*

[communistkenobi]

media studies people for some reason keep publishing articles about the colonial/imperial problems with data collection & information science. my question is who asked you

#like I’m searching for methodological solutions to these problems I don’t need you to tell me data extraction is implicated in colonialism #this is well know and has been well known for a long time! Merely asserting this fact is not helpful or noteworthy #I would be legitimately curious though as to why this is happening #I’m not a hardliner on staying in disciplinary lanes or anything but this keeps happening for some reason #specifically with media studies. & they just keep problematising information & geographic science and doing nothing else #which again is not helpful. that problematising was done like sixty years ago you’re late to the boat on this one

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[wraenata]

Hi Wren how have you been?

Hi Koi! I hope you're doing well! Every beautiful art and comic you make touches my heart!

I'm doing ok. I just have really low energy. It's really frustrating because I don't have any energy to do the things I enjoy doing, and it feels like every day it gets worse 😔 I finally made an appointment with my doctor to see if anything is wrong, but it's not til October 17 sadly. Things have just been going downhill for a long time.

I'm just really sad that even after unfollowing a lot of blogs, which I hated doing, I still can't muster the energy to get through my dash and leave the tags I want to. It makes me sad. I've missed and will continue to miss amazing things and I don't like that.

I've also been worried about my cat Sally's weight and appetite lately, though the last couple days she's been eating better which is good. I just worry a lot.

Umm, I need a positive. I ordered the build a bear bulbasaur for my birthday which is in a week. He makes me smile. His name is Yarrow 🌱 Not even 5 pound Sally for scale <3

#wren askbox #thank you koi you are so wonderful #yarrow is my first pokemon plushie #also ive been having a lot of bad headaches lately which sucks #and all i want to do when i get home from work is close my eyes #amd i saw my gi specialist this week and she told me my nausea is all in my head so #i mean things could be better #tw vent #yeah this was venty im sorry #im just very open about my problems sorry #but i have amazing friends who help me feel better #all you on tumblr are so wonderful to me i appreciate you all #also i want to do so much art #today i worked on my 2al collab comic panel #trying hard but art has been so much harder than it used to be #anyways sorry koi #i appreciate you and all the amazing art you make

[sonego]

Fernando Torres’ first goal against Blackburn Rovers | 11.04.2009

for @mietowka

#fernando torres #liverpool fc #lfcedit #lfc #footballedit #premier league #nico.gif #torres #sorryyyyy for being so late!!! but you requested some nando gifs so here they are <3 #everyone just close your eyes at the not so great quality this was 2009 ... #which doesn't feel like that long ago but at the same time feels like centuries ago so #anyway this goal has been imprinted in my mind for over 13 years i'm not lying LIKE!!!!!! #i'm not usually v good at remembering goals like i might remember the goal itself but not against who or when it was scored but this one.. #i never forgot it all this time which. yeah!! tells you the hold this man had over me (lowkey still does ..) #also liverpool circa 2008-2010 is so dear to me like we were shit in 09/10 especially but this was when i started watching/rooting for lfc #so it holds a special place in my heart #yes even if it caused me to have a deep irrational hatred for fiorentina (sorry viola) and various other problems like trust issues etc #SORRY i'm rambling. hope you like this my friend!!

[shiroselia]

Play 13 Sentinels I am no longer asking

#13sar #13 sentinels #Some maybe implied spoilers in tags #I am not okay in any way I love this game so excessively much #I'd need like a 500 slide powerpoint precentation but tldr #Hijiyama's route is my favourite and also Insanely good #Gouto's route is incredibly good and an unexpected favourite I didn't expect that to be as good as it was #They really saved the absolute best for last #I have beefed so much with how late Hiji's route is forced because I loved it from the prologue but I 100% understand and I am 100% okay #with it cause every single time I've been forced to wait for it it was so fucking worth it #Girlies after they finish Live to Protect and ESPECIALLY girlies after they finish Hiji's last event whose name escapes me now #But holy shit dude Hiji's route is excellent I can rant about it for hours #It's enjoyable as hell it's got Excellent plot reveals it hits EVERY emotional beat it pulls #Like she has it all #Not to say that the other routes don't they're all excellent Hiji's just my favourite out of the bunch and succeeds in All aspects #Whereas some routes like Yuki's I feel are Completely carried by how enjoyable Yuki herself is #While not succeeding as much in say the plot department #Which isn't a Problem but it's just something which makes me prefer routes over each other when some can hit Everything it tries while #others might neglect certain aspects in favour of others which doesn't make it Worse but makes it less complete as such

[cinewhore]

hello friends I miss u all

#im here but not really #I'm working on writing I promise #my 9 to 5 has been really 9 to 5ing lately #im also working a horror fest which im very excited for #trying to get out and do something new once a week #I almost went speed dating last week but had a meeting lol #I honestly longed for the day where I would become more distant from the app cause before I had a real problem with being on here 24/7

[boymounter]

clothes shopping as a fat person is such a hostile environ. i need to go in there with a machete

#don't mind me just had a lengthy experience trying to find good fitting board shorts for swimming. eugh #the lady working at the fitting rooms asked me very nicely what size i was looking for after the third time in there #and then was like. ah. we don't stock over a 16 #not in a mean way just yeowch #but then the men's sizes go up to like 48“ waist which is so funny ○_○ #anyway i did find some cute ones but god it's legitimately a bad bad trigger to try and pull on something that doesn't fit #and that in itself feels bad lol. smile #weirdly since the ritty i have been having less trouble with the lingering ed/dysmorphia from literally a decade ago but this just really #eugh. #i've even been eating healthier lately and getting back into cycling since my brain will fucking let me now #idk man i think society has some problems around bodily variation

[jorvikzelda]

today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

#z talks #like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed #(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning) #remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’ #babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man #and thats the only one youre looking back on #its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time #(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS) #And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys #its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on #no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted #(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary. #This Was Also Wrong.) #was a weird time man. a truly weird time #anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3 #as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks #get well flowers <333333 #and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight #With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically! #They coexist Wonderfully <3 #Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed #Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic #I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.

[soldier-poet-king]

Sunday scaries AND I'm too sad to sleep???

#the duality of fran #anyway im just. keep see sawing around with Scruples ans sadness #and i made the mistake of doomscrolling the news #which is objectively bad and terrible #and has the added bonus of making me unreasonably guilty by triggering my icd #because somehow i am solely responsible for every single tragedy and conflict and evil in the world #and if theyre not fixed its my fault. apparently #i am. so tired #at least work is like. interesting lately #finally starting on a project i actually WANT to be doing #some parts are still boring ofc but thats more just ive been having a lot of trouble focusing lately #and less my job itself #need silly podcasts to listen to while i work #but the problem is i either get distracted by the audio #or i focus on work and miss the audio and then miss the plot #and i dont really go for stuff that doesnt have a through line to be followed #hence. relistening to stuff ive heard a zillion times (taz balance)

[rodjanikov]

Baudelaire would be soooo disappointed in me, I've traversed the horrors of human existence without drinking a sip of alcohol, smoking a single cigarette, snorting a single gram of opium honestly what kind of Decadent am I

#he's been on my mind a lot lately #i really want to read the flowers of evil #but that would be stepping over a line and wandering through land from which there's no return #poetry has been a problem for a while for me #but recently I've been researching it quite a lot and oh boy #rodja.txt #dark academia #light academia #charles baudelaire #college #chaotic academia #poetry

[lunearobservatory]

You know what? I'm gonna say it. I'm vouching for Montana to join the huge honkers club.

#look. #he's the 4th biggest state with rly high elevation and a lot of. erm. Land Mass. iykwim. #I'm obsessed with the homophobic homosexual slur sayers group chat lately. by that i mean wyoming idaho montana #TO ME THEY ARE FRIENDS. #hunting. fishing bros. they r huge DUMB farm dogs who beat tf out of each other playfully like they'll throw down. wrestle in the dirt #montana wins 👎👎👎👎👎 usually. unless its 2v1 #oregon meanwhile a little further west like. Exhausted by this. his husband and his homophobic jock friends. they will not stop fighting. #they are in public. if he takes them to yhe shore they will try to drown each other. wyoming almost full ass dies #OMFG WAIT NAW FR I MET??? SOMEONE FROM WYOMING TODAY FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. #YALL ARE REAL???? YALL ARE REAL!!!!! #they were..... wearing a FANTASTIC amount of minions merchandise. which to me only confirms that wyoming is in a time bubble #causing it to perpetually exist 10 years in the past #i fully said omg never met someone from wyoming before!!!!! and they said lmfao well there isnt rly that many to meet tbh. like. #YAS. rocking that least populated state title #to me that means he has SEVERE empty head syndrome. dissociative disorder 🫵 maladaptive daydreaming 🫵 im projecting. #its not a problem for him tho he's got a huge ass fantasy world he's been cultivating in his head since the 1800s. this bitch loves books. #and when i say bitch i mean BITCH. victoria my dear beloved darling made a post about it but WOW. he is a CUNT. #the west is full of mean girls !!!! #disgusting of them #lune talks #lune talks even more in the tags 😐 #i cant keep DOING THIS. #wttt #wttsh #ben brainard #welcome to the statehouse #welcome to the table #REMINDER THIS POST WAS ORIGINALLY ABOUT MONTANA'S HUGE FUCKING TITS. REMEMBER THAT REMEMBER. OKAY? GOOD #wttt montana #i hereby deem alaska mass montana texas. the huge knockers club.

[tirednotflirting]

going to jump around at a pop punk show for a few hours tonight maybe this will reset the vibe lol

#been in the weirdest headspace lately but also haven’t been to a concert since like. acl? #i skipped two shows in the last month that’s Not Like and #i am making up for it w a busy december but still #my creative artsy side of my brain has felt funny lately #convinced it’s why i can’t write anything which is a Problem #anyway i’m sure i’ll return to talk about whether or not yelling along w mr derek state champs helps #gonna watch ryan spin 😌 #his name is ryan right #right #ok bye