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un-pearable · 11 months
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on the topic of samurai lloyd….. it’s time to bring back my personal favorite goofy s1 au. samurai y: in which lloyd figures out nyas identity first and blackmails (according to lloyd)/is so adorable he convinces (according to nya) her to make him another, smaller mech. it’s green bc that’s the color of poisooooonnnnnnnnn >:D
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grimalkinmessor · 3 months
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Just to put a lot of my posts and beliefs about Light Yagami's character in one post (headcanons not included):
• He does not do anything for purely moral reasons. The reason he started killing criminals was because he was curious, and then afterward his "crusade" was built from panic and spite. He thought using the Death Note was going to kill him, so he decided to take everyone he considered a threat to society down with him—that way he would still be good. He would still be remembered. If he can't live, then criminals don't deserve to either. The weight loss and the insomnia shown in the manga, were more likely results of a fear of dying than moral stress.
• Then Light discovers he won't die. This negates part of the spite, but not the need for a moral justification to keep himself "good". He no longer needs to be a martyr, so instead he's chosen to become a God.
• During this week and half of time, Light goes from being a bored, lonely, listless teenager disgusted with the world because it's not how his father taught him it should be, disgusted because if he can manage perfection why can't the rest of the world—to a boy with a new friend and a new mission that gives him purpose. Something interesting. If the world can't be perfect on its own, he'll have to help it. The world needs his help, making him its "savior".
• In comes L. It is no longer about Kira, no longer about saving the world from itself, even if he might tell himself it is—it's about the game. Kira was a fun pastime, yes, but L has made things so much more interesting. (Light and Ryuk are actually wildly similar in several ways it's just not immediately obvious). This game is more fun, too, because this time he has an opponent—one not so nebulous as "the criminals of the world", who offered no challenge. Light is still justifying his actions through a lens of morality, because he has to, but they're beginning to run rather thin.
• Both the broadcast and the obvious taunts to L through changing Kira's killing methods supports the above. "You're too stupid, L. If you were just a little smarter, we could've had some fun." Drawing L in was to progress their game, not Kira's goals. If Light truly only cared about Kira's vision, Kira's new world, Kira's righteous justice; then he wouldn't have continued to play the game after the broadcast. There was no way for L to find him without Light drawing him in—the Death Note is literally the perfect murder weapon. Light knew this, he just ignored it because he wanted to play.
• In the same vein: Yotsuba Light doesn't know he's playing the game. He's forgotten that there even is a game, and so he sees L as someone who's been duped, who either isn't as intelligent as he's been made out to seem, or someone who's being purposefully cruel just because he can. Either way, to Yotsuba Light, L's threat level has only increased, because Light no longer has any sort of weapon to go against him with. He can't even wield his own innocence against him, because his innocence is not certain. Even to himself. Yotsuba Light knows that he has to play along with L's plays of friendship and morality in order to secure his freedom, but he does not respect L or like him. At least, not until near the end, where they're closing in on Higuchi. Where his freedom seems closer....and yet he sees his own, true innocence as more tenuous than ever. Notably, even when Light feels positively towards L there, he still does not share his suspicions about himself with him. His own life still takes precedence over any sort of justice or morality he might have, because Yotsuba Light is still Light. And Light will always put his own self-interests first.
• After killing L, something interesting happens. Because the game ends, but Kira is still left. And Light was willing to take risks and make wild plans in his game with L, but Kira's goals always, always came after his own life. And when only Kira's goals are left, Light stops taking those big, potentially lethal risks. (i.e. bomb desk trap, killing Raye Penber in person by handing him pages of the Death Note, killing Naomi Misora in person right in front of the police station, writing Higuchi's name while sitting right beside L with the murder weapon literally in his hand, etc. etc.). Winning the game was worth dying for—Kira's ideals are not. Or, to put it even more simply: His pride is worth dying for, but his morals are not. Five years after his victory against L, he's presented with another game, but instead of feeling fearful and excited as he did with L, Light is angry. Arrogant and angry. Because this isn't a game to these opponents, as it was to L—they're playing against each other, and Light is merely a piece in it. This game is not like his game with L; it's more like his "game" with the criminals of the world. One with no true challenge, just another defense of Kira's world—worth winning, but not worth dying for.
• Light's pride is more important to him than anything. He needs to be able to take pride in himself and his actions. Pride comes before everything else, before Kira, before family, before L, even before his own desires and physical health. He does not enjoy killing—he just turned it into something he could be proud of. Into another mastering of craft. Light is not particularly sadistic, he's just spiteful. He'll only take pleasure in someone's suffering if they make someone else suffer first, especially if that someone is him. Attacking his pride would count as making him suffer, because that's the most important thing in the world to him. Even though Light also values his life incredibly highly, attempting to kill him wouldn't invoke as much hell-hot wrath as attempting to humiliate him would. And Light will always get even. Always. He does not forgive and forget.
• He believes every lie he tells himself. Every. Lie. He is a Good Man. He is Good Son. He is a Savior. He is Better. He is NOT Evil, he is Good. He's incredibly adept at not only fooling other people, but fooling himself. Even if he's vaguely aware of the truth, he'll take great pains to make sure that truth never comes to light—because it would crush him.
• Light does not take his own desires into account. If he likes or wants something that contradicts with the perfect image he's crafted, he purges it from his mind. Makes excuses for why he doesn't need it, or even convinces himself very thoroughly that he didn't even want it in the first place. If it's not something he can be proud of (or convince himself to be proud of), he doesn't allow himself to desire it.
• Light sees everyone as beneath him (family notwithstanding, Light loves his family deeply), and while it's a pyramid scale of how far beneath him they are, it's not actually ranked by things like gender, sexuality, race—it's ranked by morality and intelligence. The more intelligent and moral you are, the higher up you are on the scale. Light feeling hostile towards someone does not always mean he sees them as further down beneath him; with L and Misa specifically, it means that they're a threat. Light tends to only see people near the top of the intelligence pyramid as threats; evidenced by him dismissing Matsuda completely even with the knowledge that Matsuda was a marksmen, and yet him immediately setting out to kill Naomi when he found out she figured out one of Kira's secrets. With Takada and Mikami, he treats them exactly the same as each other because they're both on the same level of the scale—and he didn't hesitate to get rid of either of them. (Or try to get rid of, in Mikami's case). Everyone is either a tool, a threat, a criminal, a citizen, or family to him. People to use (tool, criminal), people to serve and/or placate (citizen, family), and people to eliminate (threat, criminal). Everyone falls into at least one of these categories for him.
• Light Yagami is a tragic character. And he's a tragic character because he refuses to believe he's part of a tragedy. He would rather swallow broken glass than be considered a victim of anything.
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motswolo · 3 months
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might delete later - but on the subject of ppl being dicks over fanfic yet again…
one of the things that gets me so absolutely steamed - even more so than the ignorant online jerks just jerking to jerk - are those who think it’s their GOD-GIVEN DUTY to ~ w A r N ~ others away from reading a fanfic. as though their opinion is worth more than dogshit and that publically, albeit ✨respectfully✨ saying how boring/awful/ooc they thought it was is somehow saving someone from having a less than ideal experience.
because guess what?
ITS FUCKING NOT.
more ranting and macaroni salad metaphors under the cut
i’m not going to bother explaining personal preference bc my hope is that if you’re seeing this it means we somehow run in the same circle and that makes you someone with a 🧠 so instead i’ll just tell a little story.
recently i went to a christmas dinner at a friend’s place. there was people there that i knew and people i didn’t, and we all brought a dish made at home - presumably with love. all was going well and when we sat down at the table one of the dishes turned out to be this god-awful macaroni salad. i didn’t know it was awful before i tried it - i sampled it and afterwards decided that i would not be partaking in any more.
but did i immediately pronounce to the entire table how much i hated it? of course not! that would be -
RUDE.
and also??? other people were fucking eating it. not just eating it - but enjoying it. they LIKED it. they wanted MORE. and i didn’t. and that’s okay.
It wasn’t my job to ward people off of the macaroni salad just because my experience with it was a bit more than “meh”. I didn’t know the person who brought it all that well - but i knew that doing so - no matter how ✨respectful✨ i said it - doing so would only embarrass and hurt them. and that they had as much right to be at that table with their terrible macaroni salad as i did. and I’d like to think that most people would choose the same route - avoid the macaroni salad, instead eat the bits of the meal that you DO like.
but when it comes to consuming free fan-made media online, people don’t seem to have the same thought process. so once again, for the millionth time,
If you don’t like something, 🥰 Don’t 🥰 Fucking 🥰 Read 🥰 It.
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dutybcrne · 4 months
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This is the Ideal dynamic for this trio ndnfn
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In an au where your soulmate’s name is on one wrist, your soulnemesis is on the other, Luo Binghe has Shen Qingqiu on both. Too bad he can’t tell that it’s two different people with the same name!!
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…smash
+18 Version Here
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wannaeatramyeon · 8 months
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Ryuhei Kuroda x Reader: Moon and Tide
F!Reader. Colleagues to Lovers. Mitsuki leaves, Ryuhei has some realisations.
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Ryuhei experiences his first heartbreak at nineteen.
(In truth, his heart had broken time and time again with his unrequited love. Each time that Mitsuki dismisses him, each time he saw her with Shiba Inu.
But each time he used to see her, he also fell in love all over again too.)
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Shortly after Sinu Han leaves, Mitsuki also departs.
"What?!" Ryuhei slams both fists down on the boardroom table, "Then I quit." 
"Haven't you harassed her enough? She obviously doesn't want you to follow." Samuel Seo gazes over the top of his glasses, smirk on his face and relishing the blonde's distress.
"Watch your mouth." Ryuhei snarls, low and menacing, a clear warning as any.
"Samuel is right," Eugene is calm, voice even. "Please respect Mitsuki's wishes this one time." Unlike all the other times you've ignored her boundaries does not need to be said.
The room stills at his words. The chairman has spoken, although it does nothing to dissipate the tension. The air hangs heavy. Like an elastic band stretched taut, to its limits. 
Samuel observes Mandeok tensing and Ryuhei’s nostrils flaring, and he wonders who will break first.
Ryuhei's eyes flit around the room. The silence, lack of support, from Kenta or even yourself is damning.
"Fuck you," he hisses. Leaving, not wanting to be here a second longer.
The door slams, reverberating off the walls.
"My apologies for Ryuhei's interruptions," Eugene gestures to you, "In Mitsuki's absence, Y/N will take on her duties and title."
You give a curt nod to the rest of the room, acknowledging your promotion, but your eyes stay glued to Ryuhei's empty seat.
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To both of your surprise, you're the first one to reach out.
(You like to think it’s you fulfilling your new duties as president. The alliance, the uncomplicated relationship you always had with Ryuhei helped too.)
Gently knocking on his room door, calling his name. The voice, the tone, the pitch pulls him out of his mood. Briefly, for a second, before he realises the two of you sound nothing alike.
"Go away," 
He watches you respond by jiggling the handle aggressively. So much so that the entire door shakes then a second later - it opens with you striding in.
"That's handy," Ryuhei, lying in bed, glances over at you rearranging the pins back into your hair, "And a complete invasion of my privacy."
"Like you ever cared about anyone's privacy,"
Right. Another jab about Mitsuki. One that he used to take on the chin because it's true, he's not ashamed. He pines after her openly, certain that everyone in 2A would have heard of his antics by now, if not the whole of Workers.
Tonight is a different story. It's less the wound being raw and tender and more Ryuhei is missing an entire limb.
How can she leave without saying goodbye?
He misses her.
Ryuhei throws the covers over his head.
The message is clear though not enough to drive you out or to muffle your voice.
"You have 3 days to get yourself together, then I need you by my side."
Fuck off he wants to say. But what's the point anymore? 
"I have negotiations that could go wrong. I need all the manpower I can get my hands on."
Like you wouldn't be able to handle it by yourself, a small voice in his brain retorts.
Whatever. This, Workers, everything has all been a complete waste of his time.
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Ryuhei was officially Mitsuki's bodyguard, and it makes sense that his duties now extend to you.
Everything else thus far has transitioned smoothly, except your current dilemma: how do you deal with a bodyguard that doesn't want to guard you?
After the three days, you barge in at the crack of dawn and try to wrestle him out of bed. Out of the room that stinks of despair and depression.
A one sided obsession that has run its course, ended in the best way it could. You don't voice these thoughts out loud.
Ryuhei is a dead weight in your arms, childish and insolent and completely unhelpful. 
He's a grown man. There's little you can do.
Your lips crease thin with fury but no words spill forth.
You leave without him.
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It's a full week later that Ryuhei musters up enough energy to crawl out of bed, throwing on something half presentable to stretch his legs.
Wandering the corridors, guilt creeps over him when he sees you talking to Kenta, right arm bandaged and in a sling.
Kenta nods at his friend's reappearance, you ignore him completely.
Well. He supposes he deserves that.
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Seeing you kick starts a little change. 
Not a lot, enough to get Ryuhei out of bed every day and put up an appearance of semi-normality. Key word: semi.
He slumps over a desk half the time, willing away the hours by fiddling with the edges of papers and documents, heart aching.
(A small part of him, maybe the most pathetic part, wants to doodle Mitsuki's name over and over.)
Other times he takes to training with a ferocity that surprises himself.
The only moments he feels anything other than a hollowness is when he's by your side. Eyes constantly attracted to your broken arm. 
Steel pins, Kenta had mentioned, face grim as he clicks his lighter, adding that it was only thanks to your quick thinking the executives of Workers made it out alive.
Huh, it was that bad?
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The guilt builds, claws under his skin and at his conscience. Could have sworn you were ambidextrous except now he watches you struggle with your dominant hand out of action. 
He's not sure if it's out of stubbornness or forgetfulness that you have used chopsticks all week. Albeit your dexterity has vastly improved since Monday, watching you is nothing short of exasperating.
Ryuhei’s peace offering comes in the form of a spoon.
You've barely exchanged words since that day where you tried to hoist him out of bed. Only on a needs-must basis. Terse and to the point.
You were thoroughly pissed off and everyone knew it.
Righteous in your anger at first. You had explicitly said that you needed all hands on deck, implicitly asked for his help and frustrated he couldn't separate his personal feelings enough to do his job when there are lives at stake. Over the past couple weeks, your ire has reduced, cooled until he is now nothing but a thorn in your side.
"Go on, just take it," The thorn in your side holds out the utensil.
You ignore him.
"Or else I could just feed you?" He offers, a hint of mischief returning to his eyes.
Ryuhei huffs when you tell him he can try if he wants a broken arm to match yours.
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Inch by inch, you thaw.
Would have thawed quicker if Ryuhei lessened his efforts to get back into your good graces, causing headaches and extra work more often than not.
Still, he tries. Following you around, part bodyguard, part puppy. You appreciate it in hindsight. It’s almost cute.
Little by little, he also regains the bounce in his step.
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Ryuhei tries once to contact Mitsuki.
She says she has no plans to return or to see him again.
She doesn't offer anything else.
He stays silent the whole time.
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Some may consider that a form of closure, Ryuhei isn’t sure. Things at least get slightly easier after that.
Once an all encompassing searing pain, the hurt and heartbreak eventually settles and dulls into a throb.
Normalcy becomes less of a facade.
Ryuhei flips off Eugene in earnest, tells Samuel Seo to eat shit with sincerity, struts 2A with his confident gait once more.
"Nomen," you nudge him lightly with your shoulder. Even with your mask on, he can hear the smile in your voice. "It's good to have you back."
"Yeah," he agrees. It is good to be back.
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Not everything is smooth sailing, however.
In his more melodramatic moments, in which there are many, Ryuhei vows never to love again, never to so much as gaze at another woman, and promises a lifetime of chastity.
You snort at the declarations.
"What?" He snaps and you pointedly return his gaze as he remains indignant, "You don't count."
You let that particular one slide but- "Who's going to sleep with you anyway, you're a pathetic asshole."
"A very handsome pathetic asshole," he corrects.
"Hmm." Yet you don't disagree.
It's only later that day, stuck in another godforsaken meeting with you and Eugene, when boredom strikes and his mind wanders that Ryuhei realises that you didn't refute his claim.
He watches you, head tilted and eyebrows furrowed.
Huh.
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Ryuhei doesn't care about you, not like he cares about Mitsuki. Though he doesn't care about anyone the same way he cares (cared?) about her.
It's not personal.
His relationship with you has always been easy, flirtatious without intent. 
Sharp words and double entendres litter your conversations. Fun during the better moments, aggravating during others. Skin deep, superficial. He doesn't know you beyond the limits of your words, not really, and the experience is mutual.
Others have commented on your strength and character before. Formidable. A force to be reckoned with.
Even more have taken note of your looks, a common water cooler topic. 
To Ryuhei, you're like the moon. Sure you're nice to look at. Yet when Mitsuki is the stars and beyond; dazzling, glittering with untold adventures, how can anyone possibly compare?
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(In the end, absence makes the heart grow fonder. Though not in the way Ryuhei expects.)
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He carries out his new bodyguard tasks without complaint. 
It only made sense with your arm out of commission, and him technically and almost literally being your right hand man, that he carries your bag, your coffee too. Really, whatever you need.
What’s more, he now knows you take your coffee exactly like him. Quadruple shot, milky and disgustingly sweet.
Spends more time scrolling on your phone than a president probably should.
Hate sitting with your back to the door. And in meetings where there are no other options, Ryuhei makes sure to position himself opposite instead of being next to you. Himself sat where you would have preferred. One eye on any potential dangers, and giving a reassuring, roguish smile that eases your worries.
Bags under your eyes naturally mean a poor night’s sleep. Bags under your eyes and hair in a ponytail means you do not want to be here today. Something you would never voice out loud, but Ryuhei can read you anyway. 
On those days, he makes sure he’s always one step ahead and extra considerate. He’s not completely altruistic, he also doesn’t want to be shouted at again.
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The emptiness still comes and goes, catches him out when he least expects it. Usually he feels Mitsuki’s absence more than remembers her presence.
Ryuhei notices you a bit more too, these days. Ever since your offhand agreement.
The way you say his name is nothing like how she used to. The way you look at him is nothing like how she used to. 
It’s actually warmer.
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“You fucking idiot,” your tone is a complete contrast to your gentle hands, now completely healed and bandaging up his instead.
Ryuhei pouts with mock hurt and you roll your eyes. You will not give him sympathy, not for this.
(A yelp diverted your attention earlier today, and you rushed to find Kenta holding his lighter and Ryuhei cradling his own hand, wincing in pain.
You took one look at the two guilty faces and realised that the blonde moron wanted to learn how to set his finger alight like Kenta without hurting himself.
Ryuhei is one thing, but you expected better from Kenta. You turn to him, disappointment painted on your face and tell him exactly that.
“What about me!” Ryuhei had the audacity to pipe up. You roughly snatched his wrist and dragged him away.)
“Don’t set yourself on fire again,” you punctuate each word by sharply jabbing him in the chest with your finger.
Ryuhei flutters his eyelashes at you in a way he thinks must be quite charming and endearing. Who knows where the hell he got that idea from. You’re tempted to gouge out his eyes more than anything.
Somehow, you manage to resist. You also refrain from rolling your eyes at him again.
(You worry if you do that anymore, they might get permanently stuck and never return back to normal.)
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Ryuhei studies his injured hand. Lying in bed, other hand behind his head, holding it up into the direct path of the silver moonlight cutting through the darkness.
He moves it, angles it this way and that. Letting the highlights and shadows illuminate your neat handiwork.
Something about this makes him feel funny. A little light headed.
He can’t recall the last time anyone touched him so kindly. Can’t recall anyone ever taking care of him when he’s been hurt before.
If he squints and looks at the neat little knot just right, he can almost see a heart shape.
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It’s odd.
Were you always this flirtatious? Was he always this coquettish with you?
Did you always return his taunts with such a sparkle in your eyes?
When did you start having so many inside jokes, your own moments snickering together?
And it’s like he can finally see you. No longer subjected to his previous tunnel vision, he finally understands what everyone has been saying.
You’re much more stunning than Ryuhei remembers.
He also doesn’t remember your smile making him feel this way before.
Lastly, he remembers saying ‘you don’t count’. His words have come back to bite him.
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Ryuhei wakes up at his usual time on a Wednesday.
It’s a nothing special sort of day.
Slinks out of his bed like he usually does, goes about his day as he usually does, teases you with intention and a quickened pulse. Which… ok, that one is new.
All in all. It’s fine. It’s an unremarkable Wednesday.
Except the dull ache in his chest, one he has had to endure for the last couple months, isn't there anymore.
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There’s a different type of guilt at play.
First-
When you’re used to something for years and years, it takes time to break out of a habit. For the first time, Ryuhei begins to see his attachment to Mitsuki as the unhealthy obsession that it is. 
He’s not fully ready to pick this apart just yet.
Second-
How do you separate a rebound from something real? That you’re not just a replacement, a new person to pass the time?
And that idea, that you’re a replacement for anything, shocks him. It’s unimaginable to think of you as a passing fancy because you deserve so much better.
That really should have given him an inkling. 
On the other hand. When Ryuhei has only surrounded his love life with the one red flag, and himself being the other red flag too… he has a lot to learn.
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Unfortunately you did get one thing right: Ryuhei is pathetic. His baseline personality is an absolute simp. 
Maybe it would have been different if his informative years played out differently. Alas.
Alone, he tries to dissect his thoughts and feelings. In your company, he is much more simple. Constantly wanting to capture your attention, which you give easily and with minimal conditions. 
Ryuhei can now read you like the back of his hand, knows your preferences so well that he’s able to anticipate your needs before they develop into needs. Wants, at best. Perhaps not even that.
And when other people look at you, the desire shown easily on their face that he has tried to tamper down, his possessiveness and jealousy flares.
Unsubtle shoulder barges and sneers are thrown in their direction.
But Ryuhei is nothing if not patient. He supposes it won’t be so bad if you turn him down and you’re happy with someone else.
He’s used to that.
Giving you the opportunity to turn him down though, he’s not sure yet how to go about.
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Conveniently, an opportunity does arise.
Celebrating the new Fifth Affiliates, Eugene had said, showing his face at the gathering for about ten minutes before leaving. 
Then the two newbies, who Ryuhei doesn’t bother to get the names of because he sure as hell doesn’t want to know anyone with tacky ‘H’ tattoos (on their forehead and neck for crying out loud!), leave shortly after.
Ryuhei also considers it a small victory when Samuel Seo departs, after a very witty verbal sparring to see who can tell each other to fuck off in increasingly creative ways.
“You’re so fucking juvenile,” you sigh, though you begrudgingly admit that you were impressed throughout that display.
“At least I got the last word in,” Ryuhei grins, giving the finger to Samuel’s retreating back.
The room empties out at a quicker rate now that the non-mandatory, completely optional (if you want to keep your job) gathering is devoid of the more severe senior management.
No more than another 30 minutes pass and only you and Ryuhei remain. Two small figures in an oversized room, full of empty tables but one.
Ryuhei rests one elbow on the table, propping up his head and looks at you with a cocky smile.
“Remember when I said I’m never going to gaze at anyone ever again? That was a lie.”
“Really.” You deadpan, resisting once more the urge to roll your eyes. It might be the most difficult thing you have ever had to do.
“I lied when I said you don’t count too.”
Ryuhei, for all his flaws, has only ever been forthright with his emotions. In his own roundabout and very sex-pest way with Mitsuki, though he did confess in the end. As for right now, well, he has learned his lesson.
You give him a response he didn’t expect.
“I think you should spend more time on your own first.”
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Ryuhei is immediately placed on a leave of absence the next day.
You explain clearly to him as he sits opposite, his very official letter scrunched in his fist and feeling extremely petulant, that while you do like him, he needs some distance to everything.
He only hears the first part. You like him? You? Like? Him? The words swim round and round in his mind.
“Ryuhei,” you snap your fingers and him out of his daze.
“Then what’s the problem?” he whines.
“Don’t make me into another Mitsuki,” Ryuhei opens his mouth to argue that he won’t, there is no way- 
“Ryuhei,” you repeat his name again in an authoritative tone that leaves no room for argument. Echoing your words from yesterday. “You need to spend more time on your own. This is non negotiable.”
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Ryuhei sulks like there is no tomorrow.
Tries to manifest you outside his door but to no avail. He doesn’t see you at all.
That just about surmises his first week.
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The week after, he thinks about you. How strange that you started as colleagues, almost friends first. How well he actually knows you.
Now months after Mitsuki has left, Ryuhei can only piece together fragments of her.
Even still, he had never seen the whole picture. He never knew her in her entirety, only the portrait he painted.
What becomes exceedingly clear is his one sided behaviour.
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The fog, the rose tinted glasses fully lifts in the fourth week.
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The sixth week he carefully pries open the past.
Gently picks apart what he wasn’t ready to before.
Moments of self reflection are painful, embarrassing. If the earth could open up and swallow him whole, he would gladly take it.
He still feels something for Mitsuki, though pertaining more to the remorse and shame side rather than anything else.
In an ideal world, he would seek her out and offer an apology for his past behaviour. However, in the real world, that only helps to alleviate his own conscience. 
He has already reached out once before and she has given her answer.
Nothing else from Ryuhei now would benefit either party.
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Two full months later, Ryuhei sees you once again at work.
Your smile still makes his heart flutter and brain short wire.
Except he can now see you as a whole person, all your flaws and faults too. What he used to ignore with Mitsuki, blinded by his obsession. 
His feelings for you don't change.
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Ryuhei wonders when he started to like you.
Thinks his heart liked you before his brain even realised. When the time is right, he needs to apologise for how long it took him to fully catch up.
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He remembers thinking of you as the moon once, paling in comparison to the stars and the great beyond. 
That wasn’t quite fair. Wasn't accurate at all.
If you are the celestial body, luminous and hung high in the heavens by the gods themselves, then Ryuhei considers himself the tide.
He understands now, with its lunar radiance, there is nothing that comes close.
Quite simply: 月が綺麗ですね
(The moon is beautiful, isn't it?)
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At twenty, Ryuhei experiences real love.
Experiences what it truly means to love and to be loved.
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crystallizsch · 26 days
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Hello! I would like to say that your art my favorite in the entire fandom, I don't know how to describe it but it just feels the best 💃 The way you draw the characters is very nice, Jamil is one of my favorites and you have his personality captured very nicely! Anyway, I hope you have a good day and I hope a lifetime supply of your favorite food drops from the sky for you 🤸‍♀️
AAHH THIS IS MAKING ME CRYYY ANON
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i've never received a compliment about my art like this before so that's such an honor to hear 😭💕💕
THANK YOU SO MUCH I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST (*chucks this out here as another thanks*)
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So uh
I ✨quit my job✨ and ✨neglected this blog due to stress✨ so sorry about that
I've filled up the queue but I'm going back to school for a career change so who knows how long until the next random hiatus lol
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the-star-and-sea · 11 months
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Here are the refs for Callisto and Seer who will be the muses on this blog! (Will update Seer's one to a full ref later!)
More info about them can be read [here]
Ask/submission is open and will be answered whenever I can C:
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[AWH, shucks… Don’t you worry! I never let any sort of insult get me down!]
I mean, I can’t tell you WHERE id be if I didn’t. Certainly not right here being complimented by my adoring fans!!
[lemonine]
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flatfuckfridays · 2 months
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Gay, do i need to say anything else?
[Bi, actually💙🩷💜]
Also I found this lovely gif and I couldn’t NOT
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ask-chubby-hamilton · 2 months
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//i like to believe that the hamilsqaud did some fucked up shit in highschool
Stuff like spreading very harmful rumors, forging fake notes to make people look bad, or just straight up humiliating them.
Anybody else wanna back me on this?
@ask-james-madison-stuff
@ouioui-lafayettes-askblog
@askh3rculesmu11igan
@ask-thomas-jefferson-1
@e-schuyler-ask-blog
@mreynolds-ask-blog
@samuel-seaburys-askblog
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liecoris · 4 days
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Starter Call! Starter Call!!
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please like this post if you want a starter!! if you're a multimuse blog please specify what muse you'd like the starter for the same goes on if there's a specific verse/au you'd like to use!!
I'll most likely pop into IMs to ask if you'd like to plot, otherwise I'll probably turn something out if I already have something in mind :3
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