#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚

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/Alright, you sexy bastards! Consider this blog archived.

You can find me and Luna over at @lunaferrous. Still in the process of setting things up, but other than that it is ready for action!

I'll have this post queued for the next week or so but for now, enjoy her on this sparkly new blog *oo* *ah*~

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #the blog name works better as a pun too #on multiple levels #not telling you which ones unless you follow #asdfgh i kid but in all seriousness i wish you well whereever you go #i'm sure i'll see some of your lovely faces over there 💕

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Brainstorming ideas for a new url:

moonstrvck

lunaraelapis

lunafaeris

luccavalis

Any thoughts??

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #i kind of like the simplicity of the first one for a multimuse blog #but i'm hella indescisive #what do you guys think? #tbd.

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/I’m low-key debating whether or not I should move blogs.

I know that’s mostly my depression talking, but at the same time this blog is backed up and cluttered and hard to navigate. And for as much as I cherish the good memories I’ve made here, there are some things other than that I want to separate myself from.

I’m tired of being taken for granted. I’m tired of feeling used.

I love my characters and the world I’ve built up for them and I don’t want to give that up. If I do set things aside here and make a new blog, it will be centered around Luna with the rest of my cast (Anton, Lucca, Elliot, etc..) being available on request. I would like to keep and transfer most of my bonds/ships over to new said blog, after contacting people and letting them know if they’d like to continue or not.

This is something I’ve been mulling over for a few days and it hasn’t gone away. Part of me knows it will just put more work on me and I don’t know whether or not I should because I’ve been feeling so low, and me even making the tiniest of mistakes sends me spiraling. I keep trying to remind myself that things will get better once I’m healed, but even that doesn’t help in the short term. I know this might feel like I’m coming out of left field for some of you, but I’m not used to talking about things like this, not without feeling ashamed and like I’m fishing for pity points and then delete anything I have to say less than a day later.

I appreciate the people who have reached out to me and if I’ve dropped the conversation suddenly... it’s on me. It’s my fault. I don’t know how to talk about these things without coming off selfish or angry or both, and I don’t want to push that on people.

I haven’t made a concrete decision yet as to whether or not to move and start fresh. I’d have to gather most of my writings, bios, headcanons, etc... and transfer them onto Google Docs, hopefully in a way that makes them more easily accessible after some tweaking. Make it dash only because I’m not bothering with theme graphics, they’ve never been my strong suit.

I’m still thinking about it. I might just start compiling all the important info I have on my characters and world lore as a fail safe if nothing else, and start from there.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #negative tw. #personal tw. #psa. #knowing me i'll delete this before tonight #but it's something that's been weighing on my mind and i don't know how else to talk about it #tbd.

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          Question... dilemma, if you will: do I be a basic bitch and make my demons rumble/purr when they’re content? For that extra bit of monster fluff?

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #like cheetahs or cougars #not tigers tho they can't purr #shame that #tbd.

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/I have to be honest... I’m not doing okay. If you've noticed how sporadic my activity has gotten, that’s why.

For the last few years, the holidays around Christmas time have just been... rough for me. And this year especially, my depression surrounding it has just gone downhill. I know, I know it’s mostly just my mind playing tricks on me, blowing things out of proportion... but sometimes, it’s not. Making me feel useless. Worthless. Like everything I have to say is just getting stomped on or trampled, like I’m talking into a void. Which makes me even more hesitant to talk about it out loud, because deep down I feel like no one is listening.

I’ve lost family around this time of year, I lost my dog only a few months ago and still find myself crying over it. My birthday is tomorrow, and I’m actually dreading it. I’m just... I’m not okay right now. My mind is here and yet it isn’t here, I don’t know how else to explain it. Anything I do, I feel like I’m doing something wrong and half the time I don’t know what, and it makes me lash out at people if I’m not careful.

Until Christmas is over, I’m going to be quieter and my presence on the dash will be less. Still lurking from time to time, unless it just becomes too much for me. I may even wipe my drafts clean just for a fresh start... so if we have a thread going on that you would like to keep, let me know. Otherwise, I just don’t think I have it in me right now.

I also don’t think I’ll have those Christmas drawings ready in time. I’m sorry... if nothing else, I just want to put my focus in drawing what I want, instead of what is expected of me from other people. It’s a way for me to visualize something rattling around inside my head or simply relieve stress... and right now, I need that more than ever. I know it probably sounds selfish, and I’m sorry. I still hope you guys have a wonderful holiday outside of this.

If... If anyone does need me, I’ll be on Discord. Replies will be slow but... I’ll be around. Just not as much here.

Thank you for understanding.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #psa. #personal tw. #negative tw. #tbd.

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/So. Bad news and good news.

Bad news. I am in the hospital right now after fracturing my right ankle in three places. From a slip on the ice gone horribly wrong. I'm being scheduled for surgery tomorrow so they can realign the bone and have it heal correctly.

Good news. It's not life-threatening. Scary and painful as hell, but not life-threatening. And I have enough money saved to pay for everything after insurance, so I'm not too worried about that.

That being said, I won't be as active for the next day or so until I get everything settled with how I'll need to adjust at home. With whatever meds and equipment and follow up appointments I'll need to discuss with the doctors. Over the next eight weeks at minimum.

Anyways, that is where I'm at right now. I'll be available more on IMS/Discord. Maybe post an inbox call if I'm feeling bored while stuck in bed.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #personal. #psa. #hospital mention tw. #tbd.

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          /Luna’s birthday is January 6th. I plan on writing a small drabble as to what she will be doing, nothing strictly related to birthday celebrations sorry to say. But! She will be open to receiving birthday-related prompts from now until then.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #psa. #when you live for hundreds of years each birthday becomes a little less relevant #she does have an outing planned for some long overdue r&r though #so i guess folks can crash that if they like asdfgh #tbd.

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          /Like this and Luna will tell your muse what kind of dog breed they remind her of. First impressions AND previous interactions are welcome.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #themed inbox call. #currently drawing more hell hounds #waiting for things to quiet down in my house #me and my introverted self... hate loud noises #so i'm laying low for now until i can focus #tbd.

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          /I’m thinking about bringing back my Open House Casino New Year’s Event that I did last year. Wherein Luna’s casino down in the second circle of Hell, co-owned by the progenitor of Lust himself ( @etlascivus​ ), would be open to everyone for the festivities. All of my muses would available at that time, during the party itself, with Anton returning to play piano for the main event, Lucca having been extended an invitation solely on the basis of family and in all likelihood getting dragged along by his wife, Rolan because he’s a good boss and wants to support Luna (while at the same time using it a prime networking opportunity, etc...).

          Even if your muse is not a demon, supernatural or just would not have access to Hell on a normal basis, on New Year’s Eve the veil will be lifted and allow anyone and everyone to cross over. More back info about the layout and what services are provided can be found here, and other additional NPCs that comprise the staff here.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #psa. #this is still a big thonk - but if enough people are interested i may revive it again #and i remember having a lot of fun with it~ #it should go without saying that caravan palace plays all day everyday #that electroswing gambling aesthetic

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          /Umpteenth day of me wanting to make a cop shop AU that involves all of my muses except it’s just Brooklyn 99.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #will i do it? nah #will i draw memes from it? you bet your ass i will #eventually... #tbd.

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          /Leaves small, one-liner starter call here. Specify muse, mutuals only.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #starter call. #i hate being stuck #i hate how tired it makes me feel even though i can't move far on a bum ankle #so yeah my muse has been kind of wiped #and i've been getting into pokemon legends arceus a bit too much so that's part of it #idc what the critics say i love it so far #so i will be there for a bit #catch me on ims/discord if you want to plot and help me get my writing mojo back #tbd.

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          /Any timeline where Anton is dead and Luna has to bury the guilt of killing her adopted son via contract regulations is a sad timeline. Even if it’s been over 100+ years... she cared that boy 😢😢.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #dash commentary. #anton is still alive on this blog because i'm clingy af and refuse to let my sun child die #also he has the biggest meme energy #but luna having to come to terms with how she had to kill him AND eat his soul to not only fulfill the contract #but to preserve himself inside her even just as pure energy is /a lot/ #also with her given name paying tribute to his memory in her own small way that often goes by unnoticed just aghhhh #... at least her last name was just ripped straight out of sherlock holmes because she can have happy reminders too #she's just full of literary cliches-- #tbd.

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          /Here, have a surprise starter call.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #starter call. #i'm super sneaky like that #drafts will come later but for now let me stretch out my writing muscles-- #tbd.

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          /A quick shout-out to @romaniescu​ who knows the way to a woman’s heart:

          It would work better than chocolates on Luna, that’s for damn sure.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #romaniescu #valentine's day 2022. #guns tw. #everyone else: take notes #luna vc: it's beautiful #even better if it kicks like a mule #with huge bullets like those how could it not? it was not made for mortal hands~

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          /I’ve been putting Luna through a lot of head trauma lately. First the head shot after an organized crime merger gone wrong, and now fiery explosions right next to her ear that probably gave her some tinnitus. Temporary of course, but still. Annoying.

          Man, being fireproof goes a long way.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #psa. #yes that is the big takeaway from this #demons being fireproof is a big plus ++ #tbd.

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          /Since we’re on the subject:

          Could Luna have been better cast? I think not.

Bonus quote:

Anton: I don’t get it... why are all these criminals weirdly attracted to you?

Luna: Fear is a powerful aphrodisiac.

#❛ i'm a total trash mammal. ﹙out of character﹚ #❛ hellfire & holy water don't mix. ﹙crack﹚ #dash commmentary. #cop shop au tag pending. #gdi you all broke me