Joel Miller x f!reader
Explicit, 18+
No use of y/n
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Series summary: Albert Camus said that "A man is always a prey to his truths. Once he has admitted them, he cannot free himself from them,â and it made me wonder how we justify romantic affairs â if we are free when we enter them in secrecy, or only truly free when we have burned the bridges we ran over to reach the arms of the other.
Warnings: Infidelity, smut, drama, no outbreak AU, age gap, mutual pining, angst with a happy ending, neglectful, toxic and messy relationships, dd/lg dynamics, daddy kink, size kink, family issues, loneliness, domesticity, marriage and divorce, fluff, emotional volatility, jealousy, fighting, soulmates AU, possessiveness, dick from a man you wish was your father, HEA, breeding kink, pregnancy, toxic fighting and conflict, resentment, marriage and babiesâ¢ïž
All chapters can be found HERE
Thanks to @5oh5 for chapter summaries and @papipascalispunk for being my second pair of eyesð€
Kinks: praise, Degradation, somno, CNC, Anal, Primal play, Role play, free use, ownership, Bondage, pussy worship, orgasam control, edging, breeding, public sex.  Humiliation, Monster fucking, mind control, objectification, Housewife(1950s) kink. Corruption. Small petplay.
Hard limits: scat, piss, raceplay, age play, knives.Â
Hey there! If youâre reading this, that means youâve stumbled into my dungeon. Welcome to my territory, Iâm a rough, mushy Domme that loves to steal hearts and give praises to my good girls. Feel free to hangout, or slide into my DMs ;)Â
Men will get a block, Minors will get a block. No messing with my mutuals, or mommy will have a problem.Â
Welcome to my blog~ My name is Xochimilli, though I'm sure some of you would be eager to call me Master or Sir
A 21 year old genderqueer boygirl cat thing, It/He pronouns (yes capitalized :3)
My asks are always open, go ahead tell me anything, I love going aaaa and talking. Just be nice. Please don't just say "hi" or try to get me to e fuck you, I'm a person
If you cannot handle different time zones and the fact others have work and responsibilities don't even bother. Asks will not be answered right away, please take situation/time sensitive asks with a grain of salt.
Time Zone: GMT -6 ⢠Mexico City
â¡ Pet
My pet is the lovely @onetiredpup, or ð« puppy who I lovee and adore so so soooo much ð THE BOYFRIEND YIPPPEE YAYY HOORAYY :3 ððððð A A AAAAAA AA AAAAAAA KISSING HIM KISSING HER HUGGING THEM SO TIGHTLY
Minors and ageless blogs fuck off, I will block you.
Typical DNI, dont be a bitch to others. Raceplay, and ED blogs also dni, for personal reasons, I can and will block anyone I want to, this is my safe space.
I also just reccomend not to interact if you just want the horny!!! I will rb anything n everything I want <3
â Kinks â Limits under cut â
Kinksâ
Petplay
Impact play
Soft Degradation + Praise
Bondage
Piss/Omo
Somno
Breeding
Pregnancy
Edging + Cum Denial
Free Use
CNC (emphasis on the consent)
Sub/Dom
Knifeplay
Intox (only alcohol)
Biting/Marking
Primal
Royalty play
Lactation/Milking
Blood
Cockwarming
Objectum
Pain/Physical Injury
Possesiveness
Gore (will not post of it maybeeeee perhaps)
Cannibalism (will not post of it maybeee perhaps)
I'm a bitch ass soft baby when being subby and bottoming, so feel free to ask beforehand about my limits!!!
Limitsâ
Apart from what is included in the DNI, do not offer to include these. I either don't enjoy them personally or can't do/write for them
Use of the word "rape" in cnc (literally a fucking victim of it, me panicking and having flashbacks about over it will not be fun so stfu!!!)
Scat
Inflation
Ageplay
Raceplay
Brat taming (I am too soft for it)
Vomit
Size difference
AB/DL
Hypno
Sissy
Weight gain/Loss + Feederism
My puppy's good boy chart â¡
Good boy chart for my lovely puppyyyyy, my sweet boyfriend @onetiredpup ð So so sooo excited for using it with him !!!! Will update it as they get stickers :3 so everyone can see what a good boy she is~
based off @/droolypupboy's chart !!!!
â More:
I'm just queer, so it doesn't matter what you are it's gay if it includes me sexually. Because someone asked: I am kind of pretty sure I am monoamorous, I will engange in sexual play but no romantic stuff :3 -> Aro adjacent thing, heart is being weird about it, might be not fully aro. I have a boyfriebd. I have a boyfriend. Did I mention I have a boyfriend? I have a boyfriend and I love him I love my boyfriend with my whole being ð My boyfriend my beloved kissing her face right now actually because I love them and my blog is kinda obviously all about him lmao
Not a transman, I am genderqueer, please respect the queer part of it, no I am not justifying or explaining my gender to you.
I do enjoy being the top dom most of the time, but I'm a nice switch vers at heart and wouldn't mind switching it up if a person came along and put me in place like the clingy kitty I am
Will be referred to as sir, master and people I frequently talk to in a sexual setting can use daddy, only as a title, and nothing more
All pet/master, d/s relations are for fun but I feel very strongly and I will care about you and probably count you as a close friend :3
Autistic and ADHD, and mentally ill, and chronically painedâ Age regressor will always log out before regressing. Also a full time worker, don't fret if I don't answer right away~
Please, please, keep in mind I am mentally ill. I am not a healthy person, do not take everything I say as the best option, nor as the best advice. I have shit memory, shit emotions and at times questionable responses.
I will log off the moment I feel myself age regressing, unless I get explicit agreement when big, to be regressed with you, and I will not click out the chat!!
Not open to sending pictures, but will keep any pictures or videos sent my way~ For any curious pet, I'm a pre op and pre t, 5 foot 2 and probably the most fem thing ever
Living in CDMX, long periods of silence are usually due to getting stuck in traffic or power outages, or when regressing.
âXochi is a real person I am not horny all the time lmao
A part time librarian! Head of the children's section of the library I work at, love taking care of kids and helping them get interested in reading. Also part time English teacher! Really just doing things I like nowdays~
I'm a pretty big softie at heart, expert crybaby, expert emotion feeler, expert at caring too much. I am also good at being dumb and laughing too much at stupid shit :3
I like stuff apart from masturbating and getting others horny~ Like drawing, Sky: Children of the Light, Sanrio (My Melody my beloved â¡), Percy Jackson, Artemis Fowl, Pretty Cure, plushies and cooking to name a few things I like, so don't be afraid to just talk about my interests! I'm not scary I promise :]
Understanding and open, don't like me being too rough? Go ahead and tell meâ Will gladly compliment and comfort you, don't be shy! Also be a sweetheart and tell me if you get excited hm?
â Tags â
#xochimilli writes -> Orignal text posts
#xochimilli answersâ -> Answering asks
#xochimilli's pets -> My pets being cute
#xochimilli comfort ->Only comfort more sfw
#xochimilli speaks ->Me bitching about stuff
#xochi is the breeding bitch -> Bottom/Sub POV writings
#importantâ -> important shit lmao
#âlynn no miresâ ->irl Xochi, audios and pictures
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#ð«puppy-> For my love, my bf, my sweetheart, the one who fills my whole heart and my sunshine :3 â¡
#ð«ð -> reblogs that make me think of them â¡
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â±ððððððâ± <- matchy matchy for my bestie my beloved HOLAAA SEÃOR GACHA AAAAAAA
ðŸðð» --- Animal themed headcanon prompts; Send one or more for headcanons about my muse!
ð±---- Is your muse graceful? Do they possess a skill that they're quite precise and never sloppy with?
ð¶ ---- Does your muse get excited easily? Is there someone (or particular people) that make them excited?
ð ---- How strong is your muse? Could they fight someone with a stronger skillset than them?
ðŠ ---- How does your muse feel about height? Do they like their height or are they ashamed of it?
ðŠ ---- What things have your muse gotten away with? Do they get sneak away often?
ð» ---- What are some strange sleep patterns your muse has? Do they sleep a lot, too little, not at all?
ð² ---- Is your muse hot-headed? Do they have a short-temper? If so, what are some signs that they're getting to the boiling point.
ðŠ ---- If they have kids, what type of parent is your muse? If not, what type of parent would your muse be?
ð ---- Has your muse ever been two faced? Do they talk badly of others behind their back? And how often are they this way?
ð¬ ---- Is your muse considered smart by their peers? If so, what do other people think of their intelligence?
ð ---- Is your muse a hugger? Do they enjoy physical affection whether it's platonic or romantic?
ðŠ ---- What's the wisest thing your muse has ever said? Are they often that way?
ð ---- Do they believe in love at first sight? If not, what's the reason?
ðŠ ---- How sociable is your muse? Do they make friends easily? If not, is there a reason why they aren't / don't?
ðŠ ---- How deadly is your muse? Do they have the capabilities to kill someone? Would they if given the opportunity?
ð ---- Has your muse ever helped someone in a tough situation? Do they enjoy helping others?
ð ---- Does your muse take their time on things that are important? Are they the patient type of person?
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Things to remember when you are learning something new.
I got my new job its kinda bitter sweet. I am living through the bell jar allegory heavy ATM.
Disclaimer: please take what I say with a grain of salt and not as the gospel. I just want to share some ideas of practicing and giving advice using the medium as often as I can with school, work, and my own personal studies and practice. But I am working on sharing my notes soon so that will be exciting! Liking and sharing does a lot ð¥°
Socials: TipJar | Insta
Pick a meme
The cards
Pile one
Bear + lady ð»Â ðÂ
Life is small of tiny litter deaths and tragedies. You can get through this using your inner strength and your mental willpower. But be careful. Maybe when learning a new skill strong arming this powerful nature could end up in tragedy. Take a second to LEARN.
Pile 2
Whip + Child ð§ðŒÂ ð¿
New beginnings rarely go off without a hitch. There may be a hard adjustment period which may be rough while you are still so young and naive to new situations like this. Its a beginning though while it will be hard at first its worth it to work through till the end
Pile 3
Lillies + Moon ð ðžÂ
The idea of a new beginning may be very alluring and dream like but TBH. Its deceitful. The hard part is when people try and make it harder. Good luck and godspeed and do not sleep w your co workers bf. (I am being silly)
Aiko has always idolised Jisoo ever since she was a trainee at YG. Jisoo helped her with her vocal training and in turn Aiko offered to help Jisoo with her english. It was a very beneficial system for the two idols, which eventually helped grow their relationship. Even when Aiko debuted in SKZ, the two still kept in contact whenever they could and both STAYs and BLINKs had begun to notice how close they were. Some fans have named Aiko 'Jisoo's daughter' due to the mother-daughter relationship between them, and how much Aiko resembles Jisoo in little ways, such as her vocals and visuals.
Same with Jisoo, Aiko looks up to Jennie and is inspired by her in a lot of ways. The way Aiko carries herself is very similar to Jennie, some calling Aiko the 'Jennie of 4th gen.' While not as close as Ai is with Jisoo, Ai and Jennie still have a cute and sweet friendship, especially since their collaboration on BLACKPINK's title track 'Lovesick Girls.'
â· SHUHUA (ShuKo)
Maknae Besties
Iconic Duo
Ai's contact name: Kokoðââ¬
Shuhua's contact name: Shushuð
Aiko and Shuhua's friendship is one that seemed to come out of nowhere, but was very fitting in a way. The two are known to be iconic maknaes, have a similar stage presence, and have a similar sense of humor, so it was almost destined that they'd be friends. It was when Aiko and Shuhua did the 'Queencard' challenge together when their friendship became known and since then their small interactions became something to look forward to.
â· EUNCHAE (AiChae)
Instant Besties
Gossip girls
Ai's contact name: N/A
Eunchae's contact name: N/A
Aiko and Eunchae was also another pair that seemed to be fated besties. The friendship started when at an award show, Eunchae had accidentally bumped into Aiko, causing a very cute interaction with Eunchae profusely apologizing and Aiko trying to tell her it's okay. The reason Eunchae was apologizing this way was because she had actually looked up to Aiko and so she was slightly embarrassed, but everything turned out okay and the two became good friends. While they might not have each other's contact info due to company restrictions, they still talk when they can.
â· YUNJIN (AiJin)
American Idols
Sarcastic Duo
Ai's contact name: N/A
Yunjin's contact name: N/A
These two was another one that came out of nowhere. They'd actually been friends for a while, even before Yunjin's debut in 2022. They had met at a concert in Seoul and became friends after some time talking, but since Aiko had been busy with SKZ schedules, they couldn't exchange contact info. So when Yunjin debuted, the two got to interact more at award shows and dance challenges, which has become somewhat a tradition for them, to do their first comeback dance challenges with eachother before anybody else.
During Aiko's short time in middle school, she had met Kazuha. While they didn't talk alot they were still pretty good friends. In present time, Zuha and Ai don't have many interactions due to schedules but they catch up through text sometimes. Whenever they can they'll do dance challenges together and go out together.
â· KARINA (KarinKo)
Visual Beauties
Pretty Duo
Ai's contact: N/A
Karina's contact name: N/A
Karina and Aiko are a pair that recently became friends. They had met at MusicCore for their respective comebacks, and engaged in conversation. Fans were excited to see the two idols interact and quickly called them the 'Pretty duo' since they were both visuals of their groups. There's not many interactions since their friendship is still new, but the thought is still there.
So, I decided to do a little something-something to motivate myself to create art and/or write. Part of this something-something also happens to involve my favorite X-Men: Evolution ship of all time ð.
I will simultaneously be posting most of these to my instagram (same name as tumblr name) and maybe other sites.
Basically, I will try to create something about Cyclops/Scott Summers x Rogue/Anna Marie each day of or before the end of the month of September.
Will I succeed? Probably not.
Am I going to try anyway? Yes!
I will try to do these spontaneously, but if any of you are particularly interested in seeing one of these art prompts completed, feel free to send me an ask including the respective prompt!
I also might include personal random head-canon/side personal fan project ideas if I have the time, though those may be mostly reserved to my instagram ð
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