#📮 request

[erwinsvow]

Imagine if Rafe let R try a joint

Like, her brains getting all fuzzy and she's even more giggly than usual, and he's just, like enamoured. He thinks she's adorable.

"one hit, that's it-" rafe says, low and quiet in your ear.

you're curled up on his lap at the party, both of you resting on the couch while you observe the scene around you with big eyes. rafe's friends were snorting powder off of mirrors, washing it down with liquor that was definitely harder than the fruity seltzer your boyfriend allowed you to drink. rafe said you couldn't handle anything harder, and you agreed without questioning him, like you always did.

you had pointed to the white lines on the table infront of you and asked him as sweetly as you could if you could try some. kelce overheard you and starts pushing the mirror in your direction, and you look at him with a smile, before rafe stares him down and delivers a tap to your cheek. it's just to get your attention, not really to hurt you, but you feel your face flushing where he touched you when he speaks.

"hey, you don't listen to him, you listen to me, right?" you see kelce in the corner of your eye, taking the tray back and offering it to the girl next to him.

"i know, i just-"

"no, no just anything. y'can barely drink this watered-down crap without trippin' over your feet." he rests back on the sofa, hands gripping your waist and leg tightly. "wants to snort coke. you're funny, kid."

you pout, taking another sip of your drink. you're only half way through the can but your head is starting to feel fuzzy, already. you decide then and there that rafe always knows best for you, but you still want to try the things he tries, show him that you can handle it. the boys next to rafe pass a blunt over you, directly to him. when they blow out the smoke, you start coughing, but watch carefully as your boyfriend takes a long hit. just as he's about to pass it across to kelce, you catch his wrist.

"can i try that instead? please?" you try your best to straighten up, to show him you can take it and that you're not already drunk. "please," you whine, and his friends turn their head to look. you're sure that they think it's silly, the way you have to ask rafe for permission for everything and anything. you don't care, though.

"kid, stop-"

"i can take it, promise. just this time. i won't ever ask again."

that's how you had ended up like this, rafe talking into your ear while he holds the blunt to your lips.

"alright, suck in. long as you can. you're a pro at that, aren't ya?" his words make you lose your concentration, breaking into a coughing fit before you can even try to inhale.

"rafe!" you whine again, pummeling your fists into his chest, still choking on the smoke. your throat feels scratchy but you know that couldn't have been enough.

"what, kid, i gotta do everything for you?" he takes a long hit, and then grips your cheeks with his hand, forcing your mouth open and then blowing the smoke into your throat for you. then he clamps it shut, holds your shoulder while you cough, and passes the blunt along to kelce.

you cough a little, but before long, you're putty in his arms, leaning your head against his shoulder and giggling at nothing. you poke at his chest and then start playing with his chain, then his hair, and then back down to his fingers. he lets you do it, watching you play with his ring and pressing a kiss to your forehead. you're cute like this, he thinks, less shy and not as worried what everyone must think about you. he thinks he likes it, that maybe he should let you smoke with him every once in a while.

"feel good, baby?" he asks in your ear, and you squirm in his touch, pulling away before resting your head again.

"mhm. really good. this is fun. wish it wasn't a crime." he laughs, taking another sip of his beer. you try to copy him, reaching for your seltzer but knocking it over by accident.

"oops," you say with another laugh. "sorry to-wait, whose house is this?"

"c'mon kid, makin' a mess," he groans, picking up the can and watching the fizzy liquid travel.

"sorry, daddy." in your state, you don't realize how loud you said it, but even with everyone's eyes on you, you don't care much, smiling back sweetly at rafe.

"alright, we're leavin'."

#thank you so much for requesting!!!!! i really hope you like it?????? #thank you thank you thank you #sorry i went a lil off path #📮 asks #rafe cameron x reader #rafe cameron

[jaes1lvr]

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[goremikey]

the way u draw gee is so cute omggg maybe u could draw im not okay mikey again? or maybe even like unholyverse idk ur art is fucking awesome and i love to see what you create man

Oh my godd thank you for such a sweet ask☹️ sorry it took awhile to get to ur request TT uhv under cut

:P just kidding im working on a proper uhv drawing rn!!

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[blake-elladonna]

Hello, could you still take a request? So, I am just wondering about Chuuya s/o, who is scared of medical instruments such as needles, stethoscopes, IV drips, and others. However, they need to go through that but refuse it over and over again. Still, Chuuya won't let them reject it due to their health. He was angry at first, but then he tried to comfort them so they could be e healthy again...

@Anonymous

Hello, Anonymous! 🤍 Thank you for submitting this request! Don’t hesitate to send any others in the future! 🤍 I hope you enjoy!

Best medicine

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐱 𝐘𝐨𝐮 (𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫) 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟓𝟎𝟓

𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞: 𝟐 𝐦𝐢𝐧. 𝟐𝟕 𝐬𝐞𝐜.

𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: When you — a person with Iatrophobia; the fear of doctors and medical tests — are rushed to the hospital, Chuuya — your significant other — rushes to see you. As your partner, Chuuya usually supports you in all of your decisions; but when you refuse necessary medical treatment due to your phobia, Chuuya loses his cool.

Chuuya’s heart throbbed inside of his ears as he scanned every room he walked past, cursing himself. He just asked the receptionist where you were, yet he already forgot. Then your voice emitted from one of the rooms;

Room 160.

“I’m not going to do it.” You were barely holding back your elevated breathing. The doctors in front of you tilted their heads in disbelief. “—But you do understand, if you are refusing treatment—”

“They aren’t rejecting anything.” His voice must have startled you. You peeked out from behind their lab coats; your eyes drilling a hole through his chest. “I’m sorry, Sir? Are you related to the patient?” They asked.

“I’m their boyfriend. My name is Chuuya. Chuuya Nakahara.” The doctor raised their hand for a handshake but when Chuuya stuffed his hands awkwardly into his pockets, the doctor cleared their throat and lowered their palm back down. “Well, Mr.Nakahara, I think you know what’s going on. Your partner is refusing recommended treatment. I’m sure the receptionist filled you in.”

“I don’t need treatment. I’m fine.” You repeated. Chuuya tried to hold back his eyes from rolling. “Can you give us a second? Please.”

“Of course. But if they are refusing treatment—” “—They aren’t.” The doctor continued. “If they are, they will be discharged. Understand?”

“Yeah, right.” Chuuya’s response wasn’t what the doctor wanted to hear but they continued on, closing the door behind the nurse that followed them out. And once the door clicked, Chuuya let out the words he held back. “What the hell are you doing?”

You crossed your arms, turning your head away from him. “What the hell am I doing?” You asked. “What are they doing, Chuuya? You know exactly how I feel about these people.”

“These people are trying to help you. I’m trying to help you.” When he walked over to you, you turned yourself further away. “Why do you have to be so difficult?”

“Why do I have to be so difficult?” Chuuya stiffened at your wavered voice. Your arms hugged yourself tighter. “Hey, I didn’t—” “—You didn’t mean it, right.”

Chuuya swallowed the lump developing in his throat. He fought himself to sit next to you on the white hospital bed then slivered his hand to rest on your thigh. “I didn’t mean it.” He repeated. “I’m sorry but please. Let them do this.”

“Do what, Chuuya? Let them experiment on me like a lab rat? Like those frogs in chemistry class? Let them use scalpels and needles to poke at me?”

“Let them do one thing.” Chuuya’s fingers squeezed your upper leg and you looked over. Tears were soaking your face but this time your eyes held hurt. A hurt he wished he could fix. “Let them, help you.”

When you failed to say anything, Chuuya removed his hand and wrapped his arm around your shoulders. His hand resting on the furthest one as he pressed his lips against your neck. “It’s going to be okay.” He mumbled. “I won’t let them hurt you.”

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[sacrees]

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[star1117-archives]

🎧 <33

FINESSE - NIJA

p.sh x gn!reader / angst / crying + toxic relationship / unedited

hwa !! : y/n

hwa !! : baby please

hwa !! : i miss you, let’s just talk

hwa !! : i didn’t mean it, please just call me

hwa !! : you know i love you baby

tears flooded down your cheeks as you hiccuped in bed, pulling the blanket closer to your face. you scrolled through each message he sent, a never-ending assault of apologies, confessions, pleads. he said everything you wanted to hear, every reassurance he’d given you all the other times you’d let him back in.

i’ll be better this time.

you mean everything to me.

we’re meant for each other, baby. you know that.

don’t go, you know i’m not good at relationships. but i’m trying for you.

i promise.

well, it had been one time too many. he’d fucked you over too many times, he’d tossed you aside like some useless rag doll too many times. when you were with him he treated you horribly, like shit. unsurprisingly though, as soon as you walked, suddenly he was crying. suddenly you were his everything. suddenly you were his earth, moon and stars. then the cycle simply repeated itself when he knew he’d convinced you into staying.

fuck that cycle shit, fuck him, fuck the world. you wouldn’t go back if he dragged you kicking and screaming. death seemed a much more pleasant option in comparison to his fucking flippancy. he couldn’t see you happy without him, but he found even you breathing bothersome when you came crawling back to him.

the knock at the door was what kicked you out of your mental spiral, leaving your phone in your bed as it laid silent. if you’d been in a better state of mind, you would’ve realised the silence was a bad sign. you would’ve realised who was on the other side of the door, and you for damn sure wouldn’t have opened it.

“baby.”

your heart dropped as a dishevelled seonghwa stood at your door, eyes puffy and bloodshot whilst his body shook with sobs. before you could process it he had pulled you into a hug, snivelling onto your neck as he pressed kisses onto your skin.

“seonghwa, how did you find my hote-“

“i love you, Y/F/N! don’t leave me, please. i can’t live without you.”

as it always did, the cycle started once again.

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[arlerts-angel]

i’ve sent a request but i’m a little scared it is like uh, not so good 😭 ong

i'm working on requests! 🤍 sometimes i post things out of order because inspiration comes to me at different times so some prompts are easier to finish than others!

whatever your request is — i'm sure it's fine!! i love getting requests and i'll always do my best to make sure they're perfect for y'all 🫶

#📮 — letters from anon #i wish i was a magical being that could just pop fics out in no time #but nooo i have to think and use my brain /s #rlly though the requests i've got in my drafts are all exciting

[kyojurismo]

Pretty please, all Hashira w/ a black s/o who's got an afro. I love my fluffy hair, it's like a cloud!!

i’m sorry to use you for this but i’m a bit tired because i don’t know how to make you ppl understand that my requests are closed for now. that means that if you send them i’m just gonna delete them. plus, i stated in my rules that i don’t write for specific readers anymore.

it costs nothing to at least check my pinned, it’s written clearly that they are close atm. please check ppl profile before requesting something.

#📮 — questions !! #i can’t write for requests at the moment; that’s why they are closed #as i said check ppl profiles better #or ask first if you can’t find anything about it #maybe u guys will get the point if i state this clearly idk

[tojisprettywife]

Are requests welcome here?

sure! i’ve never taken them before, but you can send them. i’ll try my best 💪🏻😭

#i’m scared whether what i write will be worth it 🥹 #but if you have any particular idea/request #let me know #i’ll try for sure #this made me happy 🧎🏻‍♀️ #still haven’t completed my navi🤦🏻‍♀️ #kay’s 📮

[goldyeokki]

hua!!! this was me reading my request omg thank you so much for writing it!! i loved the way you wrote nervy mark so much!! i’m so weak for him and you captured him perfectly 🥹🫶🏼 thank you again!! 🥰

moon!!!! this was me reading your reactions 🥺🥺

IM SO GLAD YOU LOVED IT WEEHEIHRKEHRKEHR

#nervy mark is so babygirl #he just is yknow !!!!! #thank you for requesting it gave me sm serotoning 🥺🥺🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 #💌 ⁺˖ ⸝⸝ letters to hua #📮 ⁺˖ ⸝⸝ mail from moon!

[here2bbtstrash]

In my v selfish heart of hearts I hope it’s drip.. because oof 🥵 xo h

i will be VERY surprised if it's anything other than drip 😂 what can i say y'all hoes love a squirt god and who am i to deny you more 💦 but i'm gonna look at the top stories for each member and just the top few overall, so don't let one outlier discourage you from voting!! 💜

#h anon #mbox 📮 #drip is truly the spiders georg of part 2 requests #that reference just dated the fuck out of me bye

[harrycore]

Can u write a story about Harry confessing his love for y/n on her wedding day while she’s at the alter then they leave together and have the hottest, craziest sex ever afterwards ?🤭😭

so Harry isn’t the one y/n is supposed to marry?

#asks 💌 #requests 📮

[jaes1lvr]

⠀ ︶⏝︶ ୨ hes a sweet boy ! 𔓘 @dollijongs ৎ ︶⏝︶

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[blake-elladonna]

Hello, I love your Chuuya x Reader comfort story. I read a lot of your stories. Anyway, can I take a request? So actually, I'm a high-achiever person. It turns out the grade that I expected was not as I wanted. The grade was not that bad, but I wanted the perfect score. In the end, I got a mental breakdown, but my surroundings didn't help me because I was just a perfectionist. I wish Chuuya could reassure me when I was crying over, telling me how useless I am. T_T

Hi! I’m really sorry about your grade and I hope this comforts you in some way! This is my first request and I tried my best! 🤍 I hope you enjoy this and feel better soon!! 🤍

Perfect

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐱 𝐘𝐨𝐮 (𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫) 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟒𝟏𝟑

𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞: 𝟐 𝐦𝐢𝐧. 𝟐 𝐬𝐞𝐜.

𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: Chuuya reassures you — a high-achiever perfectionist — when you receive an imperfect grade.

Chuuya walked into your room and immediately felt the energy shift. You were always happy, bubbly; but when it came to your academics you took it harder than anyone. He set down the mini bouquet of flowers he had gotten you at a nearby corner store and placed them on your bedside table. He figured you would like them since you had been so stressed lately.

He walked up behind your desk chair and slid his arms across your chest, resting his chin on your head. You stiffened at first but didn’t attempt to push him away. So he stayed there. Your heartbreaking test paper covered with tears serving as a reminder of why your hands stuck to your face like glue.

“I’m—” Your words got cut off by your tears and sniffling. “—I’m so useless.”

“You aren’t useless.” He reformed in a soft tone. He leaned down and pressed a kiss against your head and temple. “But I am.” You interjected but Chuuya shook his head.

You let out a heavy breath and slid your fingers across the underparts of your eyes. “I always have been. No matter how much I study, no matter how much I— I can’t do anything right.”

When you swallowed heavily and wiped your face again, Chuuya took this opportunity to take your lightened hands in his. His thumbs gliding across your soft skin. “Perfect isn’t always right you know, I’m not perfect and I think I’m pretty right for you. No one in this world is perfect. And if someone says they are, they aren’t because they’re liars.”

His matter of factness made you laugh even if you didn’t want to. “So, don’t be so hard on yourself. I know that’s harder said than done but at the end of the day, life isn’t fair and it isn’t perfect. No one is.” Chuuya shifted his chin to your shoulder and pressed another kiss against your cheek once he wiped it. “So, come on, stand up. I need to hug you.”

Chuuya knew you would resist but he turned your chair around anyway. He pulled your hands away from your face to help you stand up and once you did, he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into his chest.

“I love you.” He whispered. Your body started to break down into tears again prompting him to rest his hand on the back of your head. “I’ll always be here for you. Perfect or not.”

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[emomanswhore]

Bitch Simon says got me fucked up😭😭😭😭 literally so good you deserve more traction that shit went crazy. Ong. I don’t know if you take like writing requests so maybe I’ll just drop this as a little eh hem food for thought but like…. Ghost…..cigars….boot/leg humping…manhandling and like the finishing touch?????? Breeding 🙏��� god bless

HEEYYYY 😋 wish i could say im sorry for fucking you up with simon says,, but i don’t feel bad at all hehee <333 thank you for reading cutie pie, im so happy you enjoyed it !!! you’re literally making me bite my fist and cry with your ask, likeee,, come off anon rq so i can smooch you <3

now as far as requests go, prior to this i haven’t been writing SHDFHDH sooooo, yeah :’) it’ll def take me a minute to cater to yall n fulfill requests. BUT, with the way that y’all have supported simon says and how it’s gained traction,,,, just know your lil ask to me will have an influence on what happens in the continuation of what ghost does to his lil brat <33

#letters to lorelei.📮(๑•́ ₃ •̀๑) #nonnie.👥?? #but yeah unfortunately i wasn’t a writer so #i dunno how to handle requests or wheh ppl expect things of me skshsg #i wish i had the commitment to be a full fledged writer buttt ik me and it won’t work unfortunately #but i promise i will feed my simon says babies n give y’all more of big daddy ghost 🙏🏽

[star1117-archives]

ooo 🎧 and also how you doin' bestie

TELL ME ITS OVER - JACQUEES

c.sx gn!reader / angst / toxic relationship, breakup, argument / unedited

“san, we need to talk.”

leaning further into the sofa, san paused the movie playing on the tv, not bothering to look at you. it hurt to see him barely acknowledging you, the doting man you once knew a faded memory. a dream that had floated into the past many moons ago, though neither of you wanted to address it. it was the main problem with your relationship, the two of you could never nip things in the bud. your problems would fester and grow until they were these suffocating, dark clouds, drowning you in negativity until one of you snapped. it wasn’t an effective solution, and despite neither of you being toxic people in character, the relationship had practically become chernobyl over the last month. it had come to a point where the two of you were living in silence, san opting to sleep on the sofa most nights instead of your bed.

this couldn’t go on, but neither of you could muster the courage to say the words.

in a way, san facing away made things easier. you didn’t have to look him in the eyes as you told him how you felt, you didn’t have to hold your breath in anticipation of his reaction, you didn’t need to hold in your tears. you did however have the challenge of keeping your voice from wavering, the task now seeing more daunting than previously expected.

“do you know what I want to talk about?”

the other merely shrugged, gaze boring into the tv as if he’d scared the world would fall apart if he looked away. maybe he was being callous, maybe he couldn’t face the truth of the situation without risking a damaging blow to his manhood. in all honesty, you had no clue. that was probably the worst indicator your relationship had reached an irreversible breakdown; you didn’t know him anymore.

“i don’t… shit san, you’re making this hard for me. don’t make me talk to myself.”

san sighed before slowly turning to you, your heart dropping to your stomach when you saw his tear-stained cheeks. his gaze was intense, tears still rolling down as he looked straight at you.

“that better for you?”

sighing, you began to walk to him but he merely stood up and paced back a few steps, looking away once more.

“sannie, you know what i meant-”

“no i don’t, y/n. i don’t know what anything between us is anymore. i don’t even know who i am anymore!”

gritting his jaw san moved further into the darkness of the room, trying to escape into the abyss. you looked at him for a while, seemingly looking for something before your voice came out slowly, quiet in nature and tentative in tone.

“then you know why this has to end… why we have to end.”

seemingly spurred into action by your words, san was soon in front of you, grasping your hands and talking with fervour.

“we can try, y/n. we didn’t really try, i know if we do we’ll make it work.”

you gave san a sad smile, a single tear falling as you held his cheek before letting go, standing back.

“there was a reason we didn’t try, san. i…”

you trailed off and looked behind you, the case in the doorway only now catching san’s attention. a lump grew in his throat, cutting off his airways as he froze up, his joints locking and his muscles tensing. his face couldn’t even move as you began to put on your coat and shoes, his heart pounding against his ribs, urging him to act. he wanted to run to you, beg you to stay, hold you and kiss you and whisper sweet nothings and reassure you he’d try, he’d try so hard. but you were right, there was a reason he didn’t try. as much as it hurt, he knew it wasn’t working. sniffling, you had a hand on your suitcase as you spoke your last words, wiping your eyes afterwards.

“i’m going to yeonjun’s… please don’t come for me, don’t make this harder than it has to be.”

san opened his mouth, to speak, to shout, to beg, anything, but nothing came out. knowing you wouldn’t get an answer, you kept speaking, voice wavering as you tried to keep your bottom lip from wobbling.

“i’ll keep paying half the rent while i crash at jun’s.”

“don’t bother.”

“san, it’s the least i can-”

it was then that the emotions, the anger that had been building for months, surged up and out of san, like an uncontrollable tsunami or volcanic eruption.

“leave and don’t fucking come back! get the fuck out!”

you stood there for a second, stunned until you took your keys from your pocket and threw them at the floor, the metal making a jarring sound as it skidded to san’s feet. your voice was more hurt than angry as you replied, tone venomous as tears now streamed easily.

“go to hell, choi.”

and with that, the door slammed and the best thing in san’s life was gone forever. san’s anger quickly subsided, replaced with immeasurable guilt and pain as he fell to his knees, fingers grasping for your keys as he sobbed loudly. his thumb caressed the cool metal before he held it to his cheek, hoping to catch even the slightest hint of your scent. but, of course, it was a key, he only got the tangy smell of metal in return, the smell travelling up his nostrils and unfurling in his brain, covering it with grief as he began to hit the floor, wailing like a wounded dog.

leaving it unsaid wasn’t as helpful as he’d thought it would be.

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