you ever just think of roxy? and how she's the loneliest girl in the world? and how, even in her loneliness, she never quite lets her friends truly close, always keeping the "uglier" or less "fun" bits of her locked away for only herself to see? how all she's ever wanted is just to be close to other people, but when finally given the chance, it gets all fucked up through simple self-sabotage on all four of their parts? wild.
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ITS SO FUCKED UPPPPPP AAUGHH SHE LITERALLY JSUT WANTED COMPANIONSHIP.. [POUNDING FISTS ON THE FLOOR]
anyone else just. constantly splitting new alters even though you're not in a traumatic situation? because it feels like i'm taking notes on someone new every few days and its fucking frustrating because nothing bad is even going on. the only thing i can think of is that we still have psychotic symptoms but those arent even distressing half the time and its not like the new alters are even helping with it
i keep catching myself thinking of myself AS my introject source instead of just being sourced from him. which isn't really what this system encourages so guess i'll just have to get over it somehow