#🤷‍♀️ what can you do

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

i think the actual disconnect between nie mingjue and jin guangyao is that nie mingjue is dying and knows he's dying and has to stick so so so closely to his morals and virtues or else it'll have been for nothing and then he'll have to come to terms with the fact that maybe he didn't actually have to die after all vs jin guangyao who wants to live, he wants to live and be safe and have all the things he was told he could never have-was told he was never good enough to have-and will do almost anything to make it so. and these are two like irreconcilable point of views right (and both Correct and Wrong at the same time) and so they can't understand each other because they aren't even having the same argument and neither of them can see that

#nie mingjue #jin guangyao #nieyao #it's good!!! #i think nmj never expected to survive the war against the wen too maybe so after he's both floundering and STILL dying #characters that didn't HAVE to die like that but did anyways because societal/family/narrative pressure etc >>>>>>> #⚰️ #I've been told it's real sweet to grow old #i think there's also this disconnect between the two of them in the story as a whole re that steinberg quote i posted earlier about kleos #nostos (glory seeking vs home coming) #where jgy is the kleos or glory seeker and nmj SHOULD be the nostos (@ #(and he IS to an extent) but also he ISNT because again he is dying-he knows hes dying you cant extract that from his character #and so there SHOULD be this conflict here from that but there just isnt because nmj isnt filling that role properly and i think that's part #of why jgy cant understand him #jgy is the kleos but nmj isnt a glory seeker (not outside of like the war and he's not doing that for glory etc) but he's also not nostos #he's theseus in the king must die #(sorry for referencing a bunch of shit in th tags pls pls pls ignore my rambling to myself about characters that are barely ever on page/ #screen and so we can never actually fully contextualize them because we dont actually know them but oh boy oh boy can we try) #so like what does a guy who will (allegedly) give up anyone and anything domestic to gain/retain status do against a guy who otherwise #would be the opposite and unwilling/unable to sacrifice anyone for these things do when said guy does neither 🤷‍♀️ #mine

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[kavehater]

AAAH I have a mutual who’s 18 and he sorta kinda is flirting with this one guy who is a minor as a joke of course ( to which a concerned anon said that it’s weird ) but I can’t help but flashback to er*s

#granted the er*s situation was thoroughly complex and the reason she did those things was her copism with not being able to pull ( LLLLLLL ) #and ik that guy doesn’t mean any harm etc etc he’s not messed up like some ppl #BUT I DUNNO STILL #sobbing #they’re pretty sweet so #hes* #OH AND HES IRAQI TOO I LEGIT COULDNT BELIEVE THAT #dora daily #lowkey kinda sorta sad that a whole anon was more concerned than ppl i knew and who knew my age #and freely saw it happen so readily #and everyone else on that blog #genuinely and utterly disappointed #it’s always protect minors until the minors need protecting goddamn #this is especially directed at rhy yeah I’m not censoring that #🤷‍♀️ #too busy simping over minor characters who don’t have a time skip in canon and aging them up then complaining about it when ppl call out #the brain deadery of that behaviour #girl pls #you did not care about minors from the beginning literally bye #e[redacted] literally ruined my brain chemistry to say the least I will never go into how what she did absolutely muddled my brain never #told anyone and I don’t think I can ever tell someone ever #not to mention practically hyperventilating being unable to breath literally going into madness and ppl think that I’m overreacting and #telling me to shut up about it and blaming me for the situation as if I wanted any of this #lmaolmaolmao #all that and I was expected to do uni girl byeeee I need a good century to recover at least ☠️ #the only thing I DID want is friends but clearly that was a hard ask when ppl can get friends just by existing on this god forsaken app #atp I don’t even know what to say literally just wth #yall say mdni with your dumbass banners and decorate it like something special when yall are the ones to keep from minors you disgusting #wastes of clean oxygen 😭 mdni my foot gross ass adults should’ve never trusted them #the way I’d give them therapy to their complex traumas ☠️ imagine relying on a minor for therapy

[climbdraws]

jackson broke 2 of his canines and while they're not down to the gum line it's still pretty worrying for infection. Called the vet and explained the situation and they immediately jumped to wanting to extract?? The tooth before even having seen him or looked at it

Idk it just feels like a big red flag when a doctor / vet jumps to a pretty serious procedure without having seen the problem yet

#over the phone the receptionist was like well we can schedule his exam dental exam AND extraction the same day!! #ma'am what do you mean EXTRACTION you havent even seen his teeth is that not a bit of a fucking leap #this vet we're using bc its my brothers MIL.... #last year Jackson had a really bad reaction to anesthesia for MONTHS and they just said 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ not our problem idk #bad vibes idk keep telling my mom to find a different vet and shes determined to stick with this one because of the family connection

[ultimateaclrecovery]

I keep waffling endlessly on whether or not I want to try and get an iud

On the one hand I really don’t want to get pregnant and condoms aren’t foolproof

But on the other hand iuds make me nervous. The insertion sounds awful and then if ends not working for your body you have to wait and schedule a removal. And I haven’t a good time and previous bc (Nuvaring and a very brief stint on the pill) and there are so many horror stories about them (maybe I should stop reading redit) and while the odds are really low, you can still get pregnant on them! But honestly the thing that really makes me nervous is the comments of people going “I loved it!! It was so great!! Except for [horrifying list of side effects that I could never deal with]” because it’s like is everything is just terrible and all the people who are very satisfied with it just don’t mind the suffering because everything else is somehow even worse for them??

The more I read about birth control the options the more I want to throw the whole man away and go back to single. Ugh. Why is it so terrible to be a woman

#I mean I will keep the man #but god why are all the birth control options so terrible #idk just try a bunch until you find one that doesn’t ruin your life? #like we can do hormone panels how is that not a thing to do before assigning birth control #like there has to be a better way to predict what will work for what people #instead it’s all just 🤷‍♀️ #honestly tho it’s not #l

[swordmaid]

for me… FOR ME..!!! and for shri’iia specifically the lock in for astarion’s romance is his graveyard scene in act 3.

i think it is too quick for shri’iia to be moving on to another relationship considering her previous one was with her mistress who essentially groomed and isolated her for like … more than hundred years. learning to chase her own desires and not moulding herself to what anyone wants her to be is something so new to her…!!! and something that she’s still learning how to be comfortable with….

and what I like abt romancing astarion with her is that I usually go for the dialogue path in his act 2 confession scene where you can ask him:

- what do YOU want to do?

and he goes like honestly idk what we’re doing but /this/ is nice. it just feels like two people exploring the option to love for the first time and taking things in their own pace rather than jumping straight into the relationship. they’re going at a snails pace… they don’t know what they’re doing but they like this feeling and the vibe and they want to more of it but they’re not ready to commit to anything yet and it’s fine for them …!! and they’re only committing by the end in the graveyard scene where significant time has passed and they’ve learnt a little more about themselves and they’re both more confident about their own desires and also how they want to be loved.

like it is so fitting I think… and sweet… not to mention astarion being a high elf & a vampire and shri’iia being a drow, they have all the time of the world for themselves so I def think they would want to take their time. except if shri’iia turns into a mindflayer or drider by the end then that plan is out the window lol

#now I’m thinking who else I can romance with her .. maybe lae’zel ?? #since the thing with her is that she doesn’t get vulnerable in act 1 so the scenes where the romances #are kind of heart to hearts like shadowheart’s or karlach’s (😭😭😭) is out of the question since it doesn’t fit her … #like she’d rather sleep with someone first than actually get to know them 😭 hence astarion and lae’zel … #gale and wyll… I am hmmm about it on one hand her approval with wyll in act 1 is not even high enough 😭😭 #and I don’t think she can be sweet enough to chase after him in the party .. she was kind of like ok fine whatever when he said he’s not in #the mood … gale I think can be a contender .. I actually don’t know how his route goes so I’m not sure abt that … #but the thing is … she gets vulnerable LATER ..!! and why astarion’s romance work for her is i hc after their act 2 scene #they’re just in a situationship rather than actual relationship … like they’re dating (yes!) but also dating (hmmmm) #and it’s only in his last scene where they both lock in bc I think that’s enough time for her to process her OWN trauma and also for her #own character development … like she has to learn how to trust (ack!!!!) which is the thing that you don’t do when you’re raised in lolth’s #cult …. and her mistress manipulated her trust too so it’s even more nerve wracking for her bc she doesn’t want someone to have that power #over her again .. but now she has to learn how to give it away freely … without being scared … bites my hand …!!!! #and astarion graveyard scene where he wants to live again vs shri’iia learning how to trust again and trying to live without the fear of #someone betraying you and using you and the paranoia that comes with it … urck urgh goughhhhhh critical hit … #also I have a hc that she actually is quite good at making poisons since her mother sold alchemy herbs and components #and she gives him poison as a courting gift lol .. also like a way to protect him 🤭 but she won’t admit that … she’s like if you want it #take it if you don’t idc 🤷‍♀️ (she does..) i hc that she gets flustered at sincerity actually #their relationship for me is like they’re both two little shits and a general menace to society (both charlatans) #but if they had to hold hands she’d get too flustered too and he’s like honestly what are you a child? (smug face making fun of her) #I have this little comic idea for them when they held hands for the first time and she’s like ouggghhh 😳😮‍💨 flustered and sweating and he’s #like hihi 🤭😎 but then their hands starts to get sweaty and then he’s like ew that’s disgusting and she’s like ok if u hate it let go then #and he’s like no YOU let go 🙄 but they don’t let go now they have to suffer through the sweaty hand holding alas such is fate …

[leenesomewhatdraws]

Novembmas, Day 13: First Train / Favorites !

Transcription:

[Ingo brings a mug to Emmet working on his laptop on the couch]

(E) [Emmet] (1) "Yayy ! Thanks, you're the best !"

(I) [Ingo] (2) "So does that mean I'm your favorite brother ?"

(E) (3) "But you're the only one I have ?"

[Ingo puts his head on Emmet's and hugs him from behind the couch]

(I) (4) "But am Iiii ?"

(E) (5) "Of course you are"

(I) (6) "Well you're also my favorite brother"

#not gonna lie when I first submitted this prompt i was more thinking about angst #but then i was like “actually... i don't wanna :(” #so here we are lol #fluff <3 #i wish i could have had more time with this one i kinda rushed it #i wanted to be proud of it but i'm only semi-satisfied </3 #well you can't hit it all the time sometimes it misses 🤷‍♀️ #i want to do another version of this prompt where emmet and ingo are interviewed after being promoted to subway bosses #and when asked “What's your favorite thing about becoming a subway master?” #they both answer at the same time “Being able to do it together” <3<3 #(writing this here half because i want to share it and half so I don't forget and can actually do it in the future <3) #... i just realized i forgot to put the computer's logo in the last frame fuck #first ingo's last line now this ? urrgh >:c #aaah well #submas #novembmas #submas november #leene's art tag #blankshippers dni

[woman-of-many-fandoms]

Look, I know there are a lot of people who like this scene and think it's romantic. Ok. No big deal. I can see it.

But I saw the Barbie movie somewhat recently and now when I see it I only think

And it makes me think of the difference men and women have to the here, let me help / let me show you.

#star trek #jim kirk #let me help you #let us show you #barbie #I know people will argue these are completely different #but I seen them being the same from a male a female perspective #men think it’s an act of love and women are being told what they already know can do on their own #shrug #🤷‍♀️

[pinkplatiploo]

I have acquired a free plain hot pink zip up so like. What am I going to do with it. Like what will I do with it. Like whatever will I

#YES I WANTED TO MAKE MY OWN AND NOT PAY FOR A MABEL SWEATER FOR A LONG TIME #Also why do I always get a sweater embroidery project during the summer #this is like the third time I’d be doing this #ok whatever #I still need to plan out some logistics things about what exactly I want to do tho #like it’s not just a plain hoodie #it is a zip up that isn’t made like a basic zip up #(lowkey doesn’t make sense but I know what I mean) #so I am debating making the star a patch on the chest or putting the star on the back #I think if I do stuff by the zipper it won’t look good or I’ll mess up the zipper somehow so 🤷‍♀️ #I know I said this is my third time embroidering a sweatshirt but believe me I am no expert I kinda just go with my heart and what I in my #uneducated opinion think will work #so #then there’s the star itself #I have these cotton squares I bought from a thrift store a few years ago that I can use #problem is all I have are these teddy bear ones and yellow ones #plus the squares may not be large enough for the back if I decide to do that #I can paint the fabric (and I have before) but I think it will come off over time #because I did that with the sweater I decorated last year and the paint is coming off to the point where I plan to repaint parts of it at #some point in the near future #I guess I could dye the fabric but I do not have dye on hand and I do not want to buy a lot of dye for such a small amount of fabric #I do like tie dye so I’d probably use that dye again at some point but still. you get it #pink thinks

[raven-of-domain-kwaad]

Kelsa, moments before the galaxy once again shows how much it hates her in particular

#swtor #oc: kelsa kine #but lucky for her i am working on an au piece where she is happy and makes new lightsabers to dedicate herself to swtorpadawan's circle #admittedly in that au she is now a part of a cult of personality that preyed on her when she was at her lowest but what can you do 🤷‍♀️

[futurewife]

You know sometimes I think I dont even care about having a partner anymore lol like the longer I go without, the less interested I become and the more secure I am in my sense of self as a complete standalone person. The less enticing the whole abstract concept of a relationship thing becomes. (also literally how do people do it? i can't fathom being in the middle of one unfolding. If it happened next week I still wouldnt know what to do about it or how to respond. in all honesty that sounds like a flight situation) but I wouldn't leave self shipping comm for the social aspect + I like admiring unattainable beautiful men superficially. also it takes a fictional man to decipher me, put up with me and love me completely for who and what I truly am. like the base essentials of me.

#like either it's going to happen for me irl or it isn't. and if I give up it doesnt even hurt anymore 🤷‍♀️ #I do feel I'd just get a little annoyed about it all like how can you approach me only knowing ur idea of what I am #tbh i can be very standoffish and aloof irl bc idk how to... feel openly? Like can you be normal #I'm not socially anxious I'm just heavily walled in and whatever the opposite of clingy is. ughh #I rationalise my emotions a lot and am very self aware. this is not conducive to uhhh.... opening up and softening and being in love #I CAN DO IT it's just.... at this point it requires very optimum conditions/gut feelings of innate trust

[kavehater]

Okay hot take but I just hate it when people order you around to get better

#thanks I’ll get worse just for you pookie #😽 #I’m never given the right to make my own decisions or be involved in decisions including me #so I think I’m allowed to do what I want if you don’t like it the exit is right there #It just gives moral superiority UGH like who do you think you are ?!?!!?!!?? #it might come off as advice or help but thx I don’t like this type of advice or help #you need to do this you can’t live like this #yes I can and I have for forever #so kindly shut up omg 😭 #dora daily #life isn’t as simple as you think great you’ve never experienced hardship and you want to be in that hippie mindset that ohh sunshine and #rainbows and the power of friendship and pray and and and #literally shut up bro 😭 #toxic positivity is a thing like no I’m not gonna be thankful my mum is cruel or my dad needs time out #or that I’m constantly in pain i don’t want to think positive because that’s dumb #at least … NO not at least good for the ppl who are worse idc sorry 🤷‍♀️ #— rant over 😇🫶

[ladynerdathomeinhyrule]

I was so close not to eating sugar tonight for all the tasty candy... Then I ate candy 😜

#woops 🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️ #what can you do #just try again later #and eat more candy #sweetarts to be specific