The Fire In Your Eyes: Chapter Six
Characters: Arthur Morgan x Original Female Character
Rating: The whole series will be E, 18+ ONLY for violence, gore, character deaths, animal deaths, parent deaths, swearing, grief, sexual themes and sex.
Summary: Saved by Arthur Morgan when her town is attacked, a young woman’s past comes back to haunt her when she has no choice but to join the Van der Linde Gang.
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The Bonds of Time
“Did you think I’d forget you? Just ‘cause I ain’t visited in a while?” Colm shook his head with a soft laugh. “How could I ever forget my only niece? You was a firecracker back then, too, runnin’ around, wantin’ to hold your daddy’s guns and shoot at the rats before the cat got ‘em.”
He laughed again and all she could do was cry silently, her breaths shaky. He talked so fondly.
"Shit, yeah, you was more entertainin’ than your brother—”
“Don’t you dare talk about him, you son of a bitch—”
“But he’s a ball of fire himself now.”
She froze. He smiled, his leg bouncing up and down slightly, as if in excitement, as if he had been waiting for this.
“He’s dead,” she whispered after a few moments, unblinking.
“Is he?” Colm watched her closely, his voice softer. “Or did he just decide to stay with us?”
She shook her head, at first slowly then firmly, her jaw tightening as anger started to build. “He went after you to kill you, he would have rather died than be part of your gang.”
“Yeah, that’s what he said himself,” Colm sighed, “But... when I told him it was Dutch and not me who killed your daddy, then, well... he changed his mind.”
Her hands curled into fists and she would have given anything to be free.
“He wouldn’t have believed you—”
“You don’t seem so shocked at that particular bit of news.” Colm tilted his head, a faux frown settling on his features. “You ain’t callin’ me a liar, either. It was my understandin’ from Thomas that you all thought I was the one to do it, so I guess you found out the truth, too. How recently? Go on, how recently?” he prompted as she remained silent.
"Before we came to meet with you,” she whispered, and he laughed with joy.
“Today? Ah, shit, girl.” He grinned at her in disbelief. “Out of the mouth of God himself, I presume?”
When she didn’t say anything he laughed again, shaking his head.
“Today, I don’t believe it...” He leaned his elbows on his knees. “I reckon you might owe me an apology of some sort, then.”
“Excuse me?”
“Oh, shit, you look just like your ma when you look at me like that—"
“Don’t you dare talk about her, you bastard, because of you she is dead.”
That made him pause just slightly. “Is that right?”
“Yes, we were living in Strawberry and your men attacked it a week ago. Do you even remember?” She spat each word out.
He nodded a few times. Then, a corner of his mouth twisted up. “Yeah, I remember. We were gettin’ young Colin and Andrew out of jail before they could spill their guts to the law. We ended up spillin’ 'em nice and good ourselves.”
“You killed them?” She stared at him, horrified. “So all that bloodshed, all those lives taken—”
“Is sometimes a necessity, to keep family safe.”
“You don’t care about family, Colm.”
He chuckled, shaking his head. “It seems you don’t know me at all, my darlin’ Addy. We’ve lost out on a lot of time together.”
All she could do was stare at him, fresh tears sliding down her cheeks. She’d forgotten his nickname for her.
His smile widened a little more, before he sighed contentedly and stood with a quiet groan. “Well, I must be goin’ now, my darlin’.” Straightening up, he slid the ring onto the fourth finger of his right hand before returning his gaze to her. “Don’t worry, sweetheart, they’ll let you go, the law. You ain’t done nothin’ wrong.” He reached out and stroked her hair. This time she jerked her head away, her lips curling. He laughed. “Just like your ma... I’d take you with me, but I don’t fancy sleepin’ with one eye open. I’ll come and find you soon, though, once you’ve calmed down and seen sense.” He then gave her another fond smile. “Family should be together. Thomas’ll be so happy to see you.”
“He isn’t alive,” she half-hissed, half-pleaded.
He just smiled, then turned and walked away.
"He’s dead!” she yelled after him, pulling against the rope, ignoring it as it cut into her skin. “He’s dead!”
He didn’t know how he’d found the energy to do it, but he’d freed himself. Freed himself from being hung upside down like a God damn animal ready to be butchered. He’d swung, managed to grab the metal file on the nearby table and picked the lock that held him bound. He’d used the same file to cauterise his wound with the help of the candle and, God, he didn’t know how he kept quiet as pain spread through his shoulder once more. He sat for a moment, trying to catch his breath─
The doors above opened.
“... he’s dead!”
Annie.
Shit...
“Shut your hole!”
Shit...
“I don’t wanna go to Mexico. I wanna go home... home!” Another voice, nearer.
Keeping hold of the file, he pushed himself up from the chair and staggered to the wall near the stairs, pressing himself against it.
“Hold on, I’ll be back in a minute.”
The man, carrying a lantern, moved down the stairs, paused, then darted forward, raising his lantern higher.
“What the hell?!”
Arthur lunged.
Wrapping one arm around his neck and pressing his hand over his mouth, he started to choke the man, then twisted his neck, breaking it. Shoving the dead man side, he sucked in air, the task tiring him more than it should have.
You can rest when you’re dead, you idiot...
Searching the man’s body, he found a gun and throwing-knives. Knowing he couldn’t take them all on at once, he took the knives, opting, and praying, for a quiet escape.
Moving towards the stairs, he crouched as he ascended them slowly, straining to hear who was outside the doors.
“What’s he still doing down there?”
He paused at a new voice.
“It’s one thing torturing a man, it’s another putting him through stories of the homeland.”
A man passed by the open doors, mercifully, without looking down, a cigarette between his lips.
“He better hurry it up... I don’t wanna be here when the law comes for that side of beef.”
As the man’s voice grew quieter, Arthur started moving again, and peered out over the doors.
There was no one close by, but he could see lights shining from lanterns in a couple of places not too far off. Pressing his lips together, he stepped out from the stairs and, keeping low, turned to the left, spotting the man he’d seen speaking. Quietly, he approached and lunged once more.
It took mere seconds for him to break the man’s neck. This time he took the man’s gun, gripping it tightly. Glancing about, he headed towards the next source of light that was moving away from him. Fuelled by adrenaline now, he ran to the tree near it, paused for only a moment, then raced at the man, tackling him to the floor.
The man could only hiss out a brief, “What the hell?” before Arthur drove his fist into his face then choked him, watching the man as he died. Throwing him down, he huffed out a breath then stood, searching the area.
Where the hell is Annie?
He strained to hear once more.
“What are you lookin’ at, sweetheart?”
“Nothing.”
“Oh, are you implyin’ somethin’ there, bitch?”
Pressing his lips together, Arthur moved quietly towards the voices, coming to an old shack and pressing his back against it.
“I didn’t think you would be intelligent enough to pick up on it.”
“I think you’re lookin’ for a fight, aren’t ye? Well, I don’t fight women—”
“How noble of you.”
“You ain’t any better ‘an me, sweetheart, at least that’s what I heard—”
“Shut your mouth, you bastard, or I will kill you.”
All he had to do was wait until the man was completely distracted, Annie was doing a fine job of that—
“Oh, yeah, and how are you goin’ to do that?”
At the sound of a second voice, Arthur grit his teeth and peered through a gap in the slats of the shack. All he could make out was the top of a fire, Annie’s skirt and a man’s hand. Lowering himself, he slowly moved behind one of the crates.
“Huh? Tell us. How are you goin’ to do that when you’re tied up like that? You ain’t gonna do nothin’, are you.”
The man laughed, and Arthur quickly rounded the crate, ducking behind a stack of them and—
His guns. Exhaling a short breath, he quickly collected his revolvers and gun belt from on top of the box beside him and secured them around him as the men continued to taunt Annie.
“You just like talkin’ a good talk, don’t ye? Just ‘cause ye know we can’t do nothin’. Talk all you want, sweetheart, ye’ll be ours soo—”
Ada gasped as the man suddenly choked on his words, a knife buried in his head. He fell to the floor, his eyes wide, narrowly missing the fire.
“What the fuck?!” The moustached man grabbed his gun and made to stand, but before he could even straighten up, a knife sank into his neck. He made a gargled sound and collapsed, his shotgun tumbling out of his hands.
“Oh my God...” she breathed, staring at his body.
“Hey, you all righ’?”
She inhaled sharply as someone suddenly crouched beside her and her gaze darted up—
Arthur.
She stared at him, trying to process that he was actually there and the state he was in.
“Oh my God, Arthur—”
“Are you all right?” he asked again, more firmly, but she could see he was just barely focusing on her.
“Yes, yes, I’m fine, my, my hands...” Her voice shook, in fact her whole body was shaking, and she didn’t know whether it was from shock finally settling in or the cold breeze that now blew over them.
“All righ’, hang on...”
As he used a knife to cut through her bonds, she took the few moments to study him.
Jesus Christ...
His face was bloody and bruised more than hers, he was only in his red long johns, there was a large patch of dried blood on his shoulder—
“Arthur, your shoulder, Colm said it was bad—”
“Don’t worry ‘bout me.”
Her arms fell as he cut through the last of the rope and she hissed at the stiffness, her eyes closing tightly.
“Shit, I’m sorry.”
She felt his arm around her back and his hand on the pole behind her.
“Annie... Annie?”
She opened her eyes and looked at him.
“You have to stand up with me, all right? We have to get out of here.”
She nodded a few times, wetting her lips.
“All right...”
Tightening his arm around her, he gripped tightly at the pole and pushed himself up, clenching his teeth as his body protested. Wincing herself, she held onto his good shoulder as they rose, her legs weak. Trying to plant her feet firmly as blood rushed back into them, she leaned against him, her eyes closed.
“Annie, we gotta—”
“I know, I know, just let me...” She could hear how weak he was, could feel it as he swayed slightly against her. Swallowing, she opened her eyes and looked up at him, his face close to hers. “All right, let’s go.”
Nodding, he let go of the pole. Keeping his arm around her, either to keep her up or support himself, probably both, he started to move.
“Over there...” he murmured, pointing at at a small group of horses under a tree.
She guided them over as he searched the darkness for any signs of movement. Arthur didn’t believe Colm would have just left those four men to defend the camp, others must be around somewhere.
Ophelia and Faithful lifted their heads and each made a sound as they approached, turning and walking towards them.
“Hey, girl...” Arthur murmured to Ophelia as Annie led him to her, and she ducked under his arm, reaching up to lift his hand and place it on the back of the saddle.
“Up you get, Arthur.”
His other hand settled on the pommel and he closed his eyes, pausing for a moment. Then, he hauled himself up, grunting through gritted teeth. It was painful to watch him, but just as she went to aid him, though, he swung his leg over and sat up, his head tipping back slightly. Exhaling breaths he must have been holding, he wet his lips and held his hand out to her.
“Come on.”
"I’ll be fine, I’ll get on Faithful.”
Before he could protest, she mounted Faithful and clicked her tongue gently, prompting him into a walk. Ophelia, perhaps sensing her owner wasn’t in a good state, starting walking, too.
Arthur, clinging to adrenaline and knowing he had to not only get himself but Annie away alive, too, made himself grip the reins tightly and straighten a little, urging Ophelia into a canter. Annie followed his lead as they turned down onto a wide dirt path. A lake was to their right, waves gently lapping at the shore.
They kept their gazes fixed ahead, searching the distance for anything.
“I reckon there’ll be more of ‘em in the area, so we just gotta get far away, then we’ll make a plan.”
His quiet words were slightly slurred and her eyes darted to him. He was leaning a little to one side.
Christ...
“Arthur—”
“Shit, look, there...”
Her head whipped up as they slowed their horses. There, in the distance, were flickering lights that were growing closer.
“This way, down onto the bank,” she whispered, turning Faithful and guiding him down onto it, glancing over her shoulder to make sure Arthur was following.
He stayed behind her and they kept to a walk to make as little sound as possible. Above them, the lights grew brighter and they began to hear the voices.
“Why does Colm want us there? What’s he gonna do if he’s tied up?”
“He ain’t worried about Morgan, it’s Dutch and his gang he’s concerned about. He don’t want ‘em ambushin’ us before the law gets here...”
The voices passed and Ada released a breath. There was no way they could relax just yet, though. Turning, she looked at Arthur. He sat slumped, barely holding the reins, leaning to his right.
Shit...
“We’ve got to go faster, all right, Arthur?” she murmured, her heart racing. “Just for a little while so we can put some distance between us and them, okay?”
He nodded but didn’t respond, and she thought perhaps he hadn’t heard her properly, when he cleared his throat and urged Ophelia into a gallop. Swiftly doing the same with Faithful, they raced along the shore, Ada keeping an eye on the bank above and the other side of the lake for any lights or O’Driscolls. She could hear Arthur breathing harshly beside her, and prayed to God Almighty that he just held on for a little longer as they passed under a train track that sat high above.
Glancing down, Ada noticed deep lines and hoof marks in the sand, evidence it was used as a crossing area.
That coupled with the tracks... She knew where they were.
“Arthur, look...” she called quietly, slowing Faithful to a stop, Ophelia automatically doing the same. “We’ll cross here. We’ll go at a walk so we don’t make too much noise.”
He just nodded again, his head dropping down slightly.
Please, God...
Taking the lead, she guided Faithful into the river, Ophelia following behind. She could have taken them further up the bank, crossed in shallower waters but she knew time was precious. Cool water rose up her legs, soaking her boots and the lower half of her skirt, and she couldn’t help but shiver lightly. Arthur made a sound behind her as the water soaked his legs and she looked back at him, her eyes momentarily darting to the bank behind them to check they were safe.
“Just a little farther, Arthur. We’ll just put the river between us, all right, then we can take it a little easier, okay?”
He didn’t respond.
All she could hear was the water sloshing quietly as the horses swan across. There were no birds, no voices, nothing.
They were so close to the other side.
Just get there, just get there, just get there...
She could have cried when the water started to lower as they made it to shallower waters and the small island close to the bank, and moments after Faithful stepped onto the shore, his gait quickening into a canter.
“Good boy, come on,” she murmured, urging him up the incline to the path above, checking Ophelia was indeed following.
Finally, finally, they made it onto the flat path. Blowing out a breath, Ada gently halted Faithful and turned to Arthur.
“If we just—”
She broke off with a sharp inhale as he collapsed to one side. Swiftly sliding off of Faithful, she lunged forward and caught him around the waist before he fell, her shoulder pressing against his chest. She could hear his ragged breaths against her ear.
“Shit...” she breathed, trying to adjust her stance as she supported the full weight of him. “You’re all right, you’re okay...”
Breathing hard, she squeezed her eyes shut before pushing him up, trying to get him upright. Keeping her hands on his sides, she steadied him as best as she could.
“You’re okay, you’re okay...” she repeated under her breath, almost to herself.
Lights caught her attention.
Staring beyond him, she saw lights moving slowly across the other side of the lake, farther down.
“Oh, shit...”
Whether it was O’Driscolls or travellers she didn’t want to wait to find out.
Gripping the pommel of Ophelia’s saddle, essentially just her straining forearm keeping Arthur up, she placed her boot in the stirrup and pulled herself up. Sitting on his bedroll, she slipped her other boot into the other stirrup and gathered the reins. She guided Arthur to lean back against her, tilting her chin up and resting it on his good shoulder.
“There we go, we’re all right...” she murmured, her whole body tense to bear the weight of him.
Nudging Ophelia’s sides with the heels of her boots, she prompted her into a canter, calling quietly to Faithful to get him to follow.
Just get back to camp, just get back...
“All right, girl, come on, take us home...”
Arthur’s head leaned against hers as they rode and she listened to his shallow breathing, her chest tightening.
Please, God, let him make it.
He swam in and out of consciousness.
He was cold and hot all at once, and everything was so painful he was almost numb. A gentle voice sounded close by, so close it felt like it was in his head. He couldn’t hear what it was saying but it sounded soothing.
Hours or minutes passed, he didn’t know.
The next time he came to, though, the voice sounded a little clearer, if strained.
“We’re here, Arthur... Please wake up...”
He gave a slight groan, and he thought he heard the person, the woman, breathe a ‘Oh, thank God...’
Ada watched him for a moment as he groaned, before she returned her attention to the path. She brought them back to camp from the north side; no one had been guarding it.
Please still be here...
As they rose up the small incline, relief flooded through her as the camp came into view, the tents, horses and wagons still there.
Pulling the already slowing Ophelia to a stop, she cleared her sore throat as she dropped the reins.
“Somebody help!” she called hoarsely, unsure as to whether anyone would even hear her.
Swallowing hard, she winced as she slid her boots out of the stirrups and slowly moved a leg back, her hands gripping Arthur’s waist tightly as she dismounted. Her knees almost buckled when her feet touched the floor. When Arthur tipped to the side and leaned against her, they did.
Her body finally gave out as she collapsed, Arthur falling with her. They landed on the ground, he with a grunt, she with a gasped inhale.
She could hear how weak his breathing was and it terrified her.
“Someone help!” she called again, her voice no louder than her first attempt.
Then, mercifully, someone appeared above her.
“Arthur! Annie!” Mary-Beth gasped, her eyes wide as she pressed her hands against her cheeks.
Karen was suddenly there, too, kneeling beside Arthur. “Oh my God, are you two—”
Then, Dutch was there.
“Arthur—”
“I told you it was a set up, Dutch...” Arthur groaned.
Ada gazed up at the sky, trying to regulate her breathing.
“My boy, my dear boy, what?” Dutch continued.
“They got... me and Annie but we got away...”
“He needs help,” she finally whispered, her gaze meeting Dutch’s.
He nodded slightly, staring at Arthur’s wound. “Yeah, that you did, my boy.” Straightening, he looked around, calling out, “Miss Grimshaw? I need help!”
"... he was gonna set the law on us...” Arthur carried on as Dutch, Mary-Beth and Karen helped him to sit up, his voice straining with the effort.
"... They had us over the river from Flatneck Station...” Ada murmured over him, blinking slowly.
Charles was suddenly there, gently brushing the hair from her face as his eyes swept over her and the state she was in. He carefully slid his arms underneath her and lifted her as if she weighed no more than a feather.
As he carried her away, she heard Pearson apologising profusely.
“... I’m sorry, Arthur, I’m, I’m so sorry, Annie—”
“It is a bit late for apologies,” Dutch snapped before calling out once more, “Swanson!”
Pearson swallowed hard before gripping Arthur’s arm as he, Dutch and Mary-Beth lifted him to his feet. “Mr Morgan, you’re safe now, you and Miss Sawyer are both safe—”
“Where is she, where’s Annie?” Arthur slurred, trying to look around as Dutch and Pearson drew his arms around their shoulders so they could support him.
"Charles has got her, don’t you worry, you’re both safe now,” Dutch soothed him gently as they half carried him towards his area, his feet stumbling slightly.
“Let’s get him to bed,” he heard Miss Grimshaw order, his gaze fixed on the ground.
Was he insane or was the ground flowing like water?
With a slight grunt from both men, Pearson and Dutch lowered him onto his bed, Dutch repeating, “You’re safe now.”
Arthur huffed out a harsh laugh that startled them all. “That’s pretty, Dutch...” He dropped his head back against the pillow, his eyes already closing. “... That’s real pretty...”
Dutch watched him, his mouth in a thin line.
“Miss Grimshaw,” he murmured after a moment, “Will you sit with him awhile?”
"Of course,” Susan answered quietly. Pulling a chair from the table beside his bed closer, she patted Arthur’s arm gently. “You’ll be okay, Mr Morgan, you’re home.”
Dutch stared for a few moments, then turned on his heel and strode across the camp.
“You’re all right, Annie, you’re going to be fine now...”
She gazed at Charles as he carried her. She couldn’t quite believe it yet, couldn’t quite believe they’d actually made it.
“Am I really here?” she murmured, so quietly.
“Yes, you’re here now. You’re safe.”
He had such lovely hair. The soft ends of it brushed against her cheek.
“Arthur’s in a bad way.”
“Miss Grimshaw’s looking after him. She’ll take good care of him.”
She heard herself exhale a faint laugh, the corners of her mouth lifting slightly as her eyes suddenly filled with tears.
Good. Good old Susan. She would allow nothing to pass that she didn’t want, even death itself. Arthur would be safe.
Charles looked at her as he came to a stop and started to lower her down.
“Are you all right—”
“Put her in my tent.” John was suddenly at his side, a grim expression on his features. “She’ll need the privacy.”
“Thank you, John.”
She looked at John as Charles straightened again, adjusting his hold on her gently, and hoped he understood her silent gratitude, her eyes still shining with unshed tears.
John nodded, his hand lightly touching her shoulder, before he was gone, walking in the direction of Arthur’s tent. He passed Dutch, who was heading towards them.
She looked away, returning her gaze to Charles.
“I can’t feel my legs.”
“The bottom of your skirt is damp. Did you cross water?” He was speaking as quietly as she was, and it was so nice, like there was no one else in the world.
“Yes, it was the quickest way to get him back.”
“And you, too. We’ll have to get you warm, though.” Charles ducked a little as he entered John’s tent, and gently set her down on the bed.
A long breath left her as she sank against it, her eyes closing. She felt Charles kneel beside her, his fingers lightly touching her jaw, checking for swelling or fractures.
“How do you fee—”
“My dear girl...”
Ada’s eyes opened as Dutch stepped into the tent, concern etched across his features.
“Are you all right? What happened?”
Charles continued to carefully check her face as she spoke, her eyes half-open. “They took us on the ledge. Knocked us both out, I think, they certainly did me. When I came to, we were on the move, on their horses. We were crossing water, it was such clear water, I could see fish, and I started calling out, hoping someone would hear us. They hit me, and I just yelled louder, then they hit me again and again and again, and I fainted again...” She broke off to hiss quietly as Charles touched a particularly tender part of her cheek, relaxing at his murmured apology. “... The next thing I knew I was tied to a post. Then Colm...” She broke off again, his words suddenly flooding back.
The tears that had filled her eyes suddenly spilled, slipping down her cheeks. Charles paused his studying, one of his fingers gently brushing the tears away.
“What, my dear?” Dutch prompted gently, his eyes fixed on her. “What did he do to you, Annie?”
Her mouth moved slightly but nothing came out.
“Annie?” Charles murmured, his hand settling on her shoulder.
She turned her head a little to one side, then shook it. “Nothing. He did nothing to me.” She felt Charles relax. “He just... He’s just an awful man.”
“That he is,” Dutch agreed, anger seeping into his tone. “That son of a bitch... Miss Sawyer, I promise you, this great wrong will be righted, I will see to that.”
She just nodded, taking in a slightly shuddering breath.
“What happened after tha—”
“Where is she? Annie?!”
Sean all but burst into the tent, his eyes wide as he caught sight of her.
“Oh, darlin’, are you all right?” His frantic tone instantly softened as he knelt beside Charles, his hand finding hers.
She smiled weakly, her features crumbling slightly as she tried not to sob.
Don’t...
“I’m fine, Sean, really. It looks worse than it is.”
“That’s probably true,” Charles added, sitting back on his heels. “I can’t feel any breaks or fractures. Is there anywhere else—”
She shook her head quickly when she felt Sean tighten his grip. “No, no, it’s just my face, nowhere else.”
“Well, that is a relief.” Dutch sighed heavily before inclining his head. “I shall leave you to rest, then. Are you all right to tend to her, Charles?”
“Yes, if that’s all right with you, Annie.”
She hummed quietly. “Yes, that’s fine.”
“Can I stay, too, Annie?”
“Of course you can, Sean,” she murmured, her eyes closing.
“Very good. Rest well, Miss Sawyer.”
She hummed again, hearing Dutch exit.
“Sean, will you get me some clean cloths and water?”
“Yeah, sure.”
Her hand dropped from his, and she heard him leave quickly.
Fingers gently brushed her forehead.
“Sleep, now, Annie,” Charles murmured.
She finally gave in to the exhaustion.
Warm sunlight danced across her face.
Karen hadn’t closed the tent flap properly last night.
Ada didn’t mind, though. It was wonderful.
She’d spent a full day sleeping after their return and the next resting. She’d relayed again all that had happened to Dutch and Hosea on that second day, Hosea sparing her from having to reveal all the details by gently cutting off Dutch’s barrage of questions. After that, the girls had joined her and talked with her, Mary-Beth braiding her hair while Karen and Tilly took turns showing off what they’d stolen recently. Sadie even joined them and laughed along, and when the other women left she quietly told Ada that Arthur was still sleeping but Miss Grimshaw had done the best she could and the wound looked a little better.
On the third day her body felt stronger but Sean had persuaded her to stay abed, telling her she should take all the time she needed to recover. Secretly, she was relieved. Something in her just couldn’t face leaving the safety this tent had provided from reality. He stayed with her all day and she welcomed his distractions, listening to his stories of wild adventures that might not have been all true and making her laugh until her stomach hurt.
On the fourth day, Abigail brought Jack to see her.
“He’s been complainin’ about wantin’ to see you,” Abigail said apologetically but, again, Ada welcomed the distraction, and listened to him talking about his drawings or the books he was reading or the fish he’d seen in the lake for hours. She had to hide her dismay when Abigail came to retrieve him, as the times she was left alone...
The nights were hard. Left alone with only her thoughts and memories, she couldn’t help but turn over Colm’s words in her mind, obsessing over the way he’d said it, his expressions, the language he’d used. Was he telling the truth? The idea of her brother being alive was as unbearable as it was him being dead. She didn’t want the tiny spark of hope it had built within her. If it wasn’t that she thought about incessantly, then it was the knowledge that her father’s murderer was sleeping only a few feet away. Could he even remember the two small children that had been there when he’d killed Michael O’Driscoll?
The only brief reprieve she had was thinking about, despite what Colm had said, Arthur had saved her. He had come for her and saved her. And she had saved him.
If she did sleep, it was fitfully, waking always with a start at the slightest sound. She thought of getting up and walking around the camp but she didn’t want to talk to anyone, too vulnerable in that moment to mask her pain.
It was the fifth day, now, and she knew she could no longer hide away in John’s tent under the pretence she was recovering. She didn’t want to have to explain that while she might have physically recovered, emotionally she was still in complete turmoil. Mary-Beth helped her to dress, gifting her a slightly worn plain black skirt with pockets that went beautifully with the emerald blouse Sean had stolen for her. She then braided her hair again up into a bun, looking very satisfied and proud once she stepped back.
“There. Oh, you look beautiful, Annie! Here, have a look...”
She handed her the small mirror from the barrel on the other side of the tent that John probably used to shave with, and for the first time in five days Ada saw her reflection.
The cut on her eyebrow had scabbed over, making it look worse than it probably was. Bruises along her jaw and cheekbones were smaller than she thought, though they were still faintly purple and blue, only a few starting to turn a little yellow. Dark circles hung under her eyes, evidence that she was perhaps not coping as well as she wanted everyone to think.
What a fright you look, her mother would have said.
Mary-Beth had done a lovely job of her hair, though, so Ada smiled as she lowered the mirror, handing it back to her.
“Thank you, Mary-Beth, you’ve turned me into something wonderful.”
“Oh, gosh, no,” the other woman dismissed gently as she took the mirror, returning it to its position, “You’re very pretty, Annie, I just made your hair a little neater.”
Ada’s smile widened a little more as she pushed herself up to stand. “You’re the beauty here, Mary-Beth, neat hair or not.”
Mary-Beth beamed as she shrugged her shoulders. “I always like to look nice, so, thank you, Annie.”
Ada lifted a grey, probably once white, shawl from the end of the bed and wrapped it around her shoulders, about to follow Mary-Beth out when the other woman paused before turning back to face her.
“I think it was so brave... how you brought Arthur back like that.” She played with the ends of her chestnut-brown hair slightly as she looked at her. “You could have left him out there and saved yourself, so many other people would’ve.”
Ada looked at her, her forehead dipping slightly. “No, I couldn’t.”
Something Ada couldn’t quite place passed over Mary-Beth’s features, but before she could dwell on it the woman was smiling again. “Let’s go and get somethin’ to eat before Uncle has it all.”
Stepping out with her, Ada smiled gently as she pulled the shawl a little tighter around herself. “Actually, Mary-Beth, I think I’m going to go and see how Arthur is.”
The woman paused and the same expression appeared again, vanishing as quickly as it came. “All right, then. Would you like me to save you a bowl?”
“No, thank you. I’m not very hungry.”
Mary-Beth nodded and smiled widely before walking away. Ada watched her, her pace quickening as Uncle staggered towards the pot of stew.
Inhaling a long breath of crisp air, Ada tipped her head back and gazed up at the sky. A clear and brilliant blue.
Just go.
Wetting her lips, Ada turned and began to walk. From the corner of her left eye she saw that Dutch’s tent was, thankfully, empty.
Someone had draped more cloths and blankets over Arthur’s area, probably to give him some more privacy, so she had to pull one of them back slightly to peer in. He lay on the bed, his eyes closed, lips parted. She watched him for a few moments, her gaze dropping to his chest to check if he was breathing. It rose and fell steadily; he was asleep.
The chair beside his bed was vacant so she quietly slipped past the blankets and took a seat, her eyes remaining on him. He didn’t move, his breathing remaining regular.
Sadie had updated her on his progress over the past few days and she said he’d seemed to be starting to get a little better. They had to make him eat, but that was nothing new, apparently, from a man who was so busy taking care of ‘business’ he often forgot or didn’t have the time. Someone had changed him into dark brown trousers and a cream undershirt, which had the faintest stain of blood just around where his wound was. She stopped herself from pulling back the open of his shirt to inspect it; Miss Grimshaw had probably patched him and the others up a thousand times before and was therefore most likely an expert. The stubble that usually framed his face had grown a little longer but his skin and hair was clean. He looked... gentle, for once.
What the hell am I doing here.
Blowing out a quiet breath, Ada lifted her gaze from him and stared ahead at the side of the wagon. Then, she narrowed her eyes slightly.
Were they... photographs?
She’d never noticed them before. Then again, she hadn’t exactly been around his area before to notice them. Sitting forward in the chair, she leaned over him a little, getting a better look.
One photograph had three men in it, one standing, two sitting down, in some kind of parlour. It only took her a few moments to realise it was Hosea, Dutch and Arthur, albeit them probably about ten years or more so ago.
A corner of her mouth lifted.
Arthur looked so young.
He probably turned a pretty head or two... I bet he still does.
She had to stop herself from snorting loudly at the sudden thought.
What a silly thing to think about.
Her eyes darted to the next photograph.
It was of an older man, probably around Dutch’s age now, maybe younger, but she didn’t recognise him. He was holding some kind of board, however, and upon leaning a little closer she saw that it read, ‘Lyle Morgan. Larceny. 12-7-1847′.
It really does stay in the family.
There were a few other trinkets and items, too, like a horse shoe and an article that told of a robbery, one that probably meant something to Arthur.
Sitting back, her legs crossing, Ada grazed her teeth over her lower lip. She couldn’t stop herself from continuing to inspect. At the base of the bed was a chest with a rug thrown over it and his revolvers and gun belt rested on top, along with his hat. Beside her on the table was a flower in a bottle (a gift from Mary-Beth?), a cigar, a map and a picture of an older woman. She studied the picture, a corner of her mouth lifting. It had to be his mother.
Arthur mumbled quietly and her head quickly turned to him. His brow furrowed slightly and he mumbled something again, though she couldn’t make it out. She was about to murmur his name when his eyes opened.
Swallowing, he took in a long breath and exhaled it, then his eyes darted over to her.
She smiled automatically, wanting to put him at ease.
“Good morning.”
He watched her for a moment, as if his brain was catching up with where he was.
“Good mornin’.”
His voice was rough and low, somehow prompting her to make her’s quiet.
“What were you dreaming about?”
He looked away from her, then, his eyebrows raising slightly as he adjusted his head on the pillow.
“Deer.”
Her smile seemed to want to linger. “That hungry? I’m afraid it’s fish for breakfast.”
He grunted his disinterest.
“Yeah, I’m not jumping at it either.”
“You’ve gotta eat somethin’.”
“So do you.”
“Yeah, but you look like shit.”
A sudden laugh escaped her before she could stop it, her smile widening as she raised her eyebrows.
“Oh, really? I do?”
He glanced at her before closing his eyes, a faint smile pulling at his lips, and she suddenly found herself very interested in it.
“Yeah, you look like you’ve been to hell.”
“Oh, I do apologise. You look radiant, however, Mr Morgan.”
“Yeah? I feel it.”
Her smile faltered as she watched him shift slightly, a pained wince flashing across his face. She played with one, frayed end of the shawl.
“You shouldn’t have come for me, Arthur.”
His eyes snapped open and he looked at her in disbelief.
“Are you kiddin’ me? You might be dead if it weren’t for me.”
“I would have been fine. The law doesn’t know I’m with you all, I could have told them the O’Driscolls kidnapped me and they would have let me go.”
“Yeah, and then what?”
Her mouth opened, then closed slightly.
“What, you would have come back?”
She didn’t answer.
“Nah, I don’t think you would’ve. Maybe I should’ve left you there,” he grumbled, directing his gaze ahead, dismissively.
Why did that notion offend him so?
Her skin prickled slightly.
“Do you remember the journey back here at all?”
His brow furrowed as he glanced at her, slightly suspicious of the sudden turn in conversation. “No.”
“Exactly,” she retorted, “You’d be dead in a ditch or a river right now if it wasn’t for me so show a little gratitude.”
He stared at her incredulously. “Why don’t you show me some gratitude, woman, I got you out of there, and you wouldn’t have been able to be a damn hero if it weren’t for me.”
“Well, you didn’t have to save me.”
“I didn’t have to save you?”
“No, you didn’t.”
He opened his mouth, then swiftly quashed whatever it was he was going to bite back as she arched an eyebrow, his teeth gritting.
“You’re a stubborn, irritatin’ woman,” he muttered.
“Yeah, well, you’re an ungrateful bastard,” she shot back, crossing her arms as she sat back.
They fell silent as he closed his eyes, probably praying for strength not to murder her, and she stared at him, silently daring him to snap back because there was something so simple and easy about arguing, despite how difficult she knew but absolutely would not admit she was being.
But... the corner of her mouth twitched just slightly.
He just looked so... put out. Like a cat that hadn’t been fed the moment it was hungry.
The question of the day was still nudging at her, too.
“Why did you save me, then?” she continued. “Seeing as I seem to be such an inconvenience, and don’t give me the ‘save people as need saving’ preaching or I will choke you and I don’t think anyone would stop me.”
His jaw moved minutely. “Save people as need savin’.”
She gave a humourless laugh. “So because Dutch says so?”
He turned his head to stare at her. “Because it’s right and there was no way in hell it was righ’ to leave you with those bastards.”
Her lips twitched again. “So you’re a criminal with a heart?”
He made an almost disgusted sound, looking ahead before he closed his eyes again. “Will you shut up? I’m tryin’ to rest here.”
The twitching broke out into a smile. Tilting her head, she lowered her voice into soft awe.
“Thank you, Arthur, for saving my life, you’re a real hero—”
“Ah, shut up, woman, before I tell Grimshaw you’re ready to get back to work.”
She laughed as he grumbled, folding her hands in her lap. Her gaze dropped as she was suddenly reminded of the absence of her ring. She licked her lips, shifting in the seat.
“I do mean it, Arthur,” she said after a moment, her voice quieter, “Thank you.”
“Yeah, whatever,” he answered, though he didn’t grumble.
Silence fell again, and it felt rather comfortable. She gazed at the photographs again, her eyes drifting from the one of his father to him, comparing. She found herself wanting to know what his childhood had been like. Had his father raised him in a gang? Or had he been kept away from it all as a child? What had led him to—
“He told me you...” Arthur’s voice startled her out of her musings, his words hesitant as her eyes found his. “... you weren’t in a good shape.”
She knew what he was dancing around.
“None of them touched me. In that way, anyway,” she answered, giving a faint smile. “I was just hit to be quiet, then tied to that pole. Nothing else.”
He nodded, casting his gaze over her bruises. “That’s a relief, then.”
“Yes, it is.”
She watched him for a few moments. His gaze returned to hers.
“Annie, can I ask you somethin’?”
She raised her eyebrows a little, rather surprised.
“Sure.”
"When we were talkin’, before we went to see Colm, somethin’ Dutch said... affected you.”
Her heart dropped. Keeping her features neutral, she lifted her gaze, as if recalling the conversation.
“Did it?”
“Yeah. When he was sayin’ about how he killed Colm’s brother.”
“Oh...” She pressed her lips together and shook her head slightly. “I just... it all seems so petty, doesn’t it? How this long feud started.”
He frowned. “Petty?”
She nodded, holding his gaze. “Yes. I’m sure there’s more to the story but... to play with people’s lives like that—”
“What ain’t you tellin’ me.”
Her mouth stayed open as she broke off, her eyes searching his before she frowned.
“Nothing, why—”
“You said someone was dead, too, when we were bein’ held by the O’Driscolls. I heard you yellin’ it, who were you talkin’ about?”
Her frown deepened. “It— I thought you were dead. Colm was spinning lies, trying to get me upset and he led me to believe you were dead.”
He didn’t answer, wanting to see what she said next. She remained silent, too, just staring at him.
She probably thought she was hiding it but he could see the pleading in her eyes for him to not press the matter, to be a gentleman and let it go. But he was no gentleman. He knew a poker face when he saw it, and a liar when he heard one.
“Annie... It don’t have to go any further than you and me, whatever it is.”
She continued to stare, panic starting to claw it’s way up.
“It’s nothing,” she implored, trying to keep her voice low because, God, who knew who else was around, but she knew she had already lost.
“Annie—”
“Not today.” She had to give him something. Shaking her head a little, she murmured, “Please, Arthur... not today.”
He studied her and she didn’t dare look away. Then, he sighed and nodded begrudgingly.
“All right... Not today.” He pressed his lips together before continuing, ”If you’re in trouble, though—”
“You dead yet, Morgan?”
John Marston, her unknowing saviour, brushed past the blankets with a bowl of stew, the widest grin she’d seen from him yet on his lips. It didn’t falter as he caught sight of her, inclining his head.
“Good mornin’, Miss Sawyer, how are you today?”
“Very well, thank you, John,” she beamed, grateful to him for the second time that week. “How are you?”
“Just fine, just fine.” His gaze slid over to Arthur. “I’ve been told to feed our patient, here.”
“Oh, for Christ’s sake...” Arthur grumbled, closing his eyes as she stood, clasping her hands together.
“Oh, isn’t that wonderful! How kind you are, Mr Marston.”
“I do what I can, Miss.”
“Can I thank you again for allowing me the use of your tent?”
“Oh...” Arthur opened his eyes, fixing his gaze on the younger man. “So that’s why you’ve been lurkin’ around here, snorin’ on the ground beside me.”
“Well, you wouldn’t let me get in with you.”
“I’ll leave you boys to it.” Annie grinned as she departed and Arthur watched her, his mouth in a thin line.
How could she do that? Change from one person to another just as quickly as blinking? And what in the hell was she hiding? He’d had a feeling from the start she was and now he was so close to finding out—
“Come on, Morgan, I’m gonna feed you like a little baby bird.” John was still grinning as he sat down, holding the bowl towards him.
Arthur groaned. “Get outta here, Marston, leave me to die in peace.”
“No way in hell. Now sit up, old man, come on.”
“I should’ve left you on those mountains with those wolves.”
“But you didn’t.”
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Wheel of Time liveblogging: The Gathering Storm ch 4
Gawyn needs navigation lessons.
Chapter 4: Nightfall
Wow, Gawyn gets to appear in a Real Chapter, rather than a prologue? Moving up in the world.
Gawyn watched the sun burn the clouds to death in the west, the final light fading. That haze of perpetual gloom kept the sun itself shrouded. Just as it hid the stars from his sight at night.
Well aren’t we cheerful today. Tonight. Whatever. But of course, it’s entirely appropriate for Gawyn, because his whole issue for several books now is that there is nothing to guide his way; he can’t see the stars, can’t make out a path, can’t figure out what he’s supposed to do or where he’s supposed to be or what he’s supposed to fight for. It’s all tangled and he’s rather lost.
Jisao wants to fight because there’s apparently a party bonfire battle happening in the village below. Here? Just outside Tar Valon? Is Egwene’s army engaging now?
Three-starred insignia…okay I can’t think who that is. Maybe I should know but I’m drawing a blank, if it’s been mentioned before.
(He can’t actually make out those stars in the darkness either. I See What You Did There).
A very odd invading army indeed. However, Gawyn knew what the people would think. This army was led by Aes Sedai, and who could say what was odd or normal when Aes Sedai were involved?
So it is Egwene’s army? Unless Elaida’s is actually doing something, which seems unlikely. And apparently it’s all just a very civil patrol, so why is everything on fire?
“Gawyn?” Jisao asked. “I count parely a dozen of them. […] We could take them without so much as running up a lather.”
“And the villagers?” Gawyn asked. “There are children down there.”
“That hasn’t stopped us other times.”
“Those times were different,” Gawyn said, shakign his head.
Uh…yikes? That kind of conversation in fantasy that isn’t marketing itself as grimdark is usually an indication that all is not well. And that characters are getting a little too close to certain lines. Gawyn’s been frustrated and unsure for a while now, and it might be time to do something about it.
“No,” Gawyn said softly. “We have to know when to fall back, Jisao.”
That time was probably…eight books ago, sadly. But there is definitely a double meaning here. Though it would have been nice to have it punctuated with some wisdom he learned from Gareth Bryne or something, the way his and Elayne’s thoughts occasionally are.
“So we came all this way for nothing.”
Well, um. I mean. Yes. They made a choice, and Gawyn made a choice, and they couldn’t know at the time; it was a decision made in chaos when half the information was missing and they did the best they could. And then everything else followed from there, little by little. A series of choices that seemed inevitable, of steps that seemed only necessary, but then they just kept leading further and further into this knot that has tangled around them, and now Gawyn can’t see his way out or through or forward.
That said, Egwene is in the Tower now, so it would be appropriately full-circle if Gawyn were to get something of a second chance in a second Tower coup, choosing a different side and helping to heal it rather than break it. It wouldn’t necessarily need to be a fight against Elaida and her army, because that seems like something Egwene and the others are trying to avoid – the point is to unite the Tower, after all – but it would be fitting for him to play some role. Kind of like how Galad joined the fucking Whitecloaks but then killed their shitstain of a leader and has now apparently replaced him and will likely help redeem them.
Below, waiting in the dark with lanterns hooded, were some of the very men the soldiers in the village were searching for. Gareth Bryne must have been very displeased to learn there was a harrying force hiding somewhere nearby.
Damn it Gawyn. There wouldn’t be any fighting if you weren’t poking at Gareth Bryne like a mosquito. But then, how would he know that? All he knows is that an army showed up out of approximately nowhere, and now the harbours are blocked, and to him of course it would look like preparation for a siege and an actual attack. He has no way of knowing what Egwene is up to in the Tower, or that she doesn’t want bloodshed if she can avoid it, or any of the rest of it. So he’s doing what he thinks he has to, responding to the information he has as best he can. Which is what he’s been doing this entire time, and it’s the…tragedy of his character, really. He wants to be good, and he tries so hard to be good and to do the right thing and maybe in another story he would be heroic. But here, for all his good intentions, his information is incomplete in exactly the wrong places and he makes exactly the wrong assumptions and those lead to exactly the wrong choices, but for most of the right reasons. And as frustrating as it is, I actually rather enjoy it. It’s an interesting thing to do with a character.
So far, Gawyn had managed to keep his Younglings out of sight while pulling off the occasional raid or ambush on Bryne’s forces. There was only so much you could do with three hundred men, however.
Tell that to Mat Cauthon.
Am I destined to end up fighting against each and every man who has been a mentor to me?
Maybe that should tell you something, Gawyn. Such as that you’re on the wrong side. A third – or fourth, or seventeenth, or whatever – side in a war that should really only have two.
(For a second there, I was tempted to try actually counting out all the ‘sides’ that are currently fighting each other amongst all those who should be fighting for the Light. And then I came to my senses).
Gawyn had thought he was over Hammar and Coulin’s deaths; Bryne himself had taught Gawyn that the battlefield sometimes made allies into sudden foes.
As Furyk Karede put it, ‘On the heights, today’s ally could be tomorrow’s sacrifice’. Though in this case, I think Gawyn’s grasping at a justification for something that he increasingly feels was…maybe not the right thing to do. And that’s no easy realisation, especially because in his case it comes with blood on his hands.
Which is a large part of why he – and other characters, and plenty of people – carries on along a path that seems to grow less and less justifiable, and more and more like the wrong choice. Because admitting that means admitting a whole long line of mistakes and all the guilt that comes with them. Easier to just keep going. Until, of course, it isn’t.
Has ‘Great Captains’ always been capitalised, or is that just ebooks being weird?
He suspected his sense of guilt had to do with facing Bryne, his first and most influential instructor in the arts of war.
Yeah, I would have really liked a Bryne quote here. Ah well. Still, this does seem like it might actually be enough of a slap in the face to Gawyn to actually jolt him out of this holding pattern he’s been in. He’s been uncertain for a while, but in the end has always fallen back in line, back into obeying, back into what he thinks is his only option.
How had the White Tower’s enemies recruited the greatest military mind in all of Andor?
Well, see, Siuan has these pretty eyes, right? And uh…there was a barn fire?
And what was the Captain-General of the Queen’s Guard doing fighting with a group of Aes Sedai rebels in the first place? He should have been in Caemlyn, protecting Elayne.
Yes, well I could say the same thing about you, Gawyn. And yet here we are.
There is so much he doesn’t know, and has had no real way of knowing, and what a mess it has made.
And what of your duty, Gawyn Trakand? He thought to himself.
Yeah, that can’t be a comfortable line of thought.
Perhaps his guilt about Hammar, his nightmares of war and death at Dumai’s Wells, were due to the slow realisation that he might have given his allegiance to the wrong side.
That’s…far more blunt than I would have expected from Jordan, but Gawyn’s been heading that direction for a while. Just…slowly, and never quite reaching the point of thinking it or doing anything about it. At Dumai’s Wells he suspected Elaida wanted him to have an ‘accident’, and ever since then there’s been a bitterness and a sense of frustrated uncertainty to everything he’s done. He thinks frequently about Elayne and Egwene and how he ended up where he is and what he’s doing, and he always comes to the resigned conclusion that he is bound to the Tower, and there’s nothing he can do. But there’s definitely a long-running sense of dissatisfaction, and it would be kind of nice if Gareth Bryne, his childhood mentor, were part of the tipping point for him.
She had chosen a side. Hammar had chosen a side. Gareth Bryne had, apparently, chosen a side. But Gawyn continued to want to be on both sides. The division was ripping him apart.
Oh Gawyn, you…what was it Egwene called you? You sweet idiot. Again, this is rather direct, but it does pretty much sum up his character arc for the past several books. He wasn’t ready for any of this, wasn’t ready for his whole world and his certainties – go to the Tower, look up to Galad, protect Elayne, defend Andor – to be throw into confusion. The Tower broke and his sister vanished and the girl he loves turned up with the rebels and Galad joined the Whitecloaks and the Dragon Reborn was held in a box at Dumai’s Wells and then let Gawyn walk away unscathed and Siuan lied to him and Elaida wanted him dead and Min pleaded with him and nothing makes sense.
Some men gained experience through years spent living. Other men gained experience through months spent watching their friends die.
A few gain experience from remembering the past life in which they killed all their friends.
That’s a good line, though.
Glancing upward, Gawyn missed the stars. They hid their faces from him behind those clouds. […] “Where did we go wrong, Rajar?” Gawyn asked as they rode.
He wasn’t ready for any of this, wasn’t ready for his whole world and his certainties – go to the Tower, look up to Galad, protect Elayne, defend Andor – to be throw into confusion. The Tower broke and his sister vanished and the girl he loves turned up with the rebels and Galad joined the Whitecloaks and the Dragon Reborn was held in a box at Dumai’s Wells and then let Gawyn walk away unscathed and Siuan lied to him and Elaida wanted him dead and Min pleaded with him and nothing makes sense.
“The Wheel weaves as the Wheel wills,” the shorter man said.
“Well it wove us into a hole,” Gawyn muttered.
I nearly choked on my tea. How very eloquent of you, Gawyn.
None of the other Younglings seemed to be plagued with these questions. To them, the world was much simpler.
As it once was for Gawyn. He was raised in a palace, taught from a young age to give his life to defend his sister if necessary, but raised with a sense of certainty and duty and a moral code that works perfectly so long as all it faces are honourable textbook battles and standard diplomacy. And then everything went wrong.
And he feels a duty to the Younglings – damn it I still hate that word – because he’s their leader and he is responsible for them, but there was some of this frustration last time we saw him as well. They don’t seem to share his uncertainty, and it makes it harder for him to bring himself to do anything but continue to follow Elaida’s orders, because what if he makes it worse for them?
It would help if Bryne just captured him. Then he could sit Gawyn down for A Talk, and explain to him what is going on and why he’s on the wrong side. Not to mention his army would probably take Gawyn’s Younglings in as additional soldiers and help protect them. As it is, caught between Elaida and Gareth Bryne is not really where you want to be.
It was time to head back to Dorlan. Perhaps the Aes Sedai there would have a suggestion on how to proceed.
Yes, that sounds like an excellent idea, Gawyn. That’s sure to fix all your problems. Make a damn decision. It’s not going to be easy but it’s not going to get any easier the longer you wait.
Light, I wish I could see the stars, he thought.
Calm down, Javert. (I have had ‘Stars’ from Les Mis stuck in my head for at least half of this chapter and it’s weirdly appropriate).
Wow that was a short chapter.
It was also a very…functional chapter. Here’s Gawyn. Here’s Gawyn doubting himself. It works, and it seems like it’s about where Gawyn should be in his arc, but it felt more like an outline than a finished chapter, I guess. I don’t mind so much that the dialogue patterns are a bit different, for instance, but the way characterisation was done here felt just a bit too abrupt, a bit too easy. It seemed like something was missing – a true unifying theme to the chapter, or a sequence of action (even mild action) through which the important points could be made as a secondary but clear layer, or something like that.
I did like the star motif though. It was a good choice for a character like Gawyn who is struggling to find his way, and desperately looking for and yet never receiving guidance or answers.
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