#'what will she yell at me today for'

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[honeydots]

doodle day 2: ""decaying pirate"" severa

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#fe severa #last year i got this from a costume prompt generator and i thought it was a funny distinction #not a zombie pirate. you idiot. it's a decaying pirate #yeah the one shes yelling at is inigo but what else is new #im sick today :( sev help me #dots draws

[essektheylyss]

nothing funnier than moving with a Maine coon mix with Many Opinions

#picture taken when we'd gotten to the house and not in traffic but she did yell at me the entire 45 minute ride #the cats are being subjected to GRAVE injustices today. #carriers. car rides. imprisonment in the basement so they dont get squashed by a couch. #HOWEVER they are not anywhere near as traumatized as the last move. #45 minutes with what will be some additional freedom (on account of having an enclosed outdoor space for roamin') is a nicer fate #last time it was 20 hours across two days and they could not spend any time outdoors for two years #however i will need to reapply flea and tick meds.

[hella1975]

realising something bad about someone that means the world to you should be illegal. id like to live blindly actually

#ive been tiptoeing around this realisation for a WHILE now but today was the first time i actually verbatim in my head #went 'i dont like living with my mum'. and the moment i thought it was like no nooononono lets NOT do that #like objectively my mum is my favourite person in the world and i love her more than every other person in my life combined #but LIVING with her in HER HOUSE is just not... it. and it makes me feel awful for even thinking it bc that's her biggest fear #that we're gonna grow up to have the same relationship that she had with her mum and that ISNT what's happening like i could never #be distant from my mum in fact the reason she has such a chokehold on me is BECAUSE there's so much love there #but it would still break her heart to know i felt this way and i just feel so shitty for it. but like? i CANT relax here #like the thing that made me think it this morning wasn't even an explosive thing like it usually is with her #like every shouting screaming argument we've had ive just taken it. but then this morning when nothing exceptional happened #i was just. done. so basically i told u guys she wanted me to hoover today and already yelled about it YESTERDAY which. whatever #and she goes out every thurdsay until lunchtime and i think ive said on here before that the days we're home alone are HUGE flashpoints #bc if she comes home and perceives that not enough chores have been done/one thing has been done wrong she just hits the ROOF #like her temper is entirely disproportional she gives the same energy for the washing up not being put away that another mum would #give for finding drugs in their kids room. ive truly never seen someone maintain a temper like that woman can it's actually impressive #so yeah she was gone this morning and it just always leaves me On Edge it's never a huge thing bc im not SCARED of her but im not relaxed #and i hoovered for an hour and washed up and then also dusted the stairs and did some other tiny irrelevant jobs #and my sister did fuck all. she pulled a sickie off work and stayed in bed while i fussed about what to do with the dogs and shit #and so when my mum came home ig i was expecting some sort of acknowledgement? like not a round of applause #bc obvs it's just chores and the hoovering she literally told me to do but when my sister had been SO unhelpful and it had been #SO on my mind for hours now i was just. waiting for something? and even i didnt know what so it's not even fair #but my mum came home and decided she was in a bad mood and she had a go at my sister for being lazy and not doing the chores she said #she'd do today and she DIDNT yell at me which she sometimes does just do if she's pissed at my sister. but she just got mardy with me? #like she got up and left to go watch TV in her room and i was like 'oh i can watch it with you?' bc sometimes when they row my mum #hints at me and her going somewhere else to bitch about my sister. but she just shook her head and snapped at me for some dumb shit #like TINY shit id missed and then wouldn't even spend time with me and i was just like. are you serious #and THAT was when i had the thought bc i was like there is actually no winning with her temper #and i can never fully relax around her because of it. even when we're getting on she is at any point seconds away from ripping my head off #and it's not nice being around someone like that ALL THE TIME. and i dont mind it when im at uni bc im at my own house in my own life #but when it's HER house and she makes it very clear that it's HER house and we need her and the car if we want to so much as LEAVE #then that's just not a fucking pleasant environment to be in? right? even if it is just me being a baby? ugh idk and i hate this

[beanieman]

Someone needs to tell my eye doctor that being autistic has nothing to do with having a hearing impairment, but it's not going to be me.

#Having it on my medical chart that I'm autistic gives me quite a few stories #Today a lady thought that the only way I could understand her speaking is if she SCREAMED at the top of her lungs?? #Like even if my autism prevented me from understanding what she was saying (It doesn't) how would yelling have fixed that issue?? #Neurotypical people stress me out #mod rambles

[salsflore]

everyday i wake up and have to start a new boss challenge called dealing with my mother

#not a single speck of consideration for whether or not i'm busy or tired or sleeping #she doesn't even TRY. the text is too small? ok i'll make it bigger. but wait now she's lazy to read. doesn't even want to try to understan #we had this whole thing yesterday where she was raising her voice at me bc she didn't get that #basically free shipping if products r over $500. our Total (incl. delivery) was $488 and she wanted to add on but i told her no... delivery #is $70. and she wasnt getting me so she was raising her voice like holy shittt not everything has to result in you yelling!!!! #you wake me up when i'm sleeping just to help you. you disturb me when i'm studying omggg girl please.... #i remember her [ why does it say– what transaction? i didn't make any transaction ] the text was literally- #[ no current transaction history ] smth like that like MOTHER???????????? and i think she's been telling my sister i'm complaining abt it #should i die. 1 like i'll do it #power outage started so i'm going to stay in my room and nap until lunch fml #but i have to go out and help my mom with an app thing first bc ofc #she admits shes just not bothered to READ. when it comes to emails or ordering food or anything like ohvm mymgodog #and shes so short tempered fuckkk ?!? #AH. EDIT BC I REMEMBERED. when she got an email today.. her application was rejected #for smth smth. anyways it told her she could login to the website using her birth info. (e.g 1870....) and she was like #u typed something wrong bc why does it say 1870... LIKE MOTHER ITS AN EXAMPELREFKWKSABHAHHHHH #THE EXAMPLE DIDNT EVEN HAVE HER NAME?!?£ #💭 #cw rant #negative

[lunar-wandering]

Currently having to deal with an upset stomach at school because my mom either didnt pick up a new box of medicine for me, or she did pick it up and is sitting in a bag somewhere and she didnt want to tell me when i asked if we had any left because it was a "stupid question"

#she does this a lot. like. ill ask a question and shell give an irritated sigh #and wont answer #cause she thinks its an idiotic question #and if i ask again she yells at me #things like ''are we going to this place today or tomorrow'' #or ''when do we leave'' #or just asking about whats going on in the family #cause she ACTS like i should know shit that she HAS. NOT. TOLD. ME.

[cedarspiced]

god. i'm so fucking tired.

#had an ableism incident today with a bus driver refusing to let me on bc i was in my wheelchair #shoutout to the random stranger who yelled at him about needing to accomodate me or they'd report him to his bosses #if it weren't for her our groceries would have all dethawed before we even got on the next bus #genuinely a hero #after she yelled at him he finally let me on. kept acting like he'd done nothing wrong tho but idk what else to expect lmao #but man. the whole thing really sucked all my remaining energy away #cedar speaks #ok 2 rb

[so-very-small]

something about a giant like, instantly being “oh no, i won’t hurt you, it’s okay” and giving tiny you space is so hot because like. they’re being kind of course but also it’s proof they’re veeery aware of how terrifying they can be. they’re nice now, but a giant fully aware of how much power they hold can definitely be a dangerous thing

#im not tagging this idk if this makes ANY sense #im rewatching wwdits right and the jackie episode where laslo hovers over the waitress #and she yells and he backs up Instantly like ‘no no no no darling’ bc hes instantly aware of how scary a Vampire Must be ykno #which is so considerate. but also proof he knows he can be terrifying and…. what if he WANTED to be terrifying #anyways i want to be tiny in laszlo’s hands and have him scare me a bit #im tired. i had like 5 breakdowns today. laszlo is keepin me going

[felizusnavidad]

IN THE HEIGHTS countdown: 22 DAYS!

song for today:

so how can i say that while i was away i had so much to hide? hey guys, it’s me the biggest disappointment you know the kid couldn’t hack it she’s back and she’s walkin’ real slow welcome home, just breathe

#song for today: breathe #meet nina #she is actually my favourite character and i think so many people would say she is the most relatable #fun fact: even lin said he is not usnavi #he's nina #but aren't we all? #OBC: played by mandy gonzalez #movie version: played by leslie grace #i actually love both but i usually listen to the obc version anyway so mandy's voice is what i hear pretty much everyday and i'm used to it #but leslie is also amazing tbh #(ani don't yell at me i know you prefer leslie's version) #a little note from me about our polish nina: played by marta bykowska #of course i had to check her out because nina is my favourite character like i said before so it was kinda important to me #and i can already tell you i am in love with her #she is a perfect choice tbh and i'm sure she will make me cry #also i'm writing this with tears in my eyes because i always cry on this song if you even care #it won't be long now* #Spotify

[mozart-the-meerkitten]

Rant

I love my job because I love working with kids. I love seeing them grow and watching the ways their little minds work and helping them when they need it.

I also hate my job because I'll get used and abused all day, having to do things that AREN'T MY RESPONSIBILITY because literally no one else is paying attention to the kids, I am the only one watching even though I'm NOT the teacher, I'm NOT the classroom aide, I am a one-on-one.

But I CARE. I care so FREAKING MUCH about these kids that I can't just not do anything. I have TRIED to not do anything. It never works. And it's maddening and I hate it I hate it I hate that I can be USED in this way.

But by God these kids do not deserve to suffer just because I'm the only adult in the room willing to DO MY GOSHDANGED JOB so I do more than I should because these are LITTLE PEOPLE who don't UNDERSTAND. I want to wear a shirt every day that says, "I'm doing this FOR THE KIDS."

I just wish somebody else would do it for them too.

#rant #parapro #paraprofessional #kids #teacher #rant brought to you by: my coworker who does her job was out today and the teacher wasn't doing squat #and neither was the other teacher/aide #Idk how to classify her she's there because the actual teacher STILL doesn't have her certification #so for legal reasons she has to exist #and I GET that she didn't sign up to do this for a whole school year she signed up to do it for like a month #but crap happens and you're here so DO YOUR JOB #I 👏 AM NOT 👏 THE CLASSROOM 👏 AIDE 👏 #STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM #I'm also still sick and I am just TIRED #there was NO appreciation today #I had to YELL for them to realize one of the kids hurt me (slammed his head into my jaw not fun) #this happens at every parapro job I have I swear #one of the kids called me mean today and I almost lost it I swear #GIRL IT'S BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE DOING ANYTHING #*AND* I'M SICK #not like I wasn't the one to figure out what one of our nonverbal kiddos needed #she had like ten puzzles out on a table and I had her clean them up because the other kids were gonna need the table soon #whole meltdown but we did it #meltdown continues #she's just walking around with a puzzle crying she doesn't want to DO the puzzle but she doesn't want to put it back either #WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO JUST IGNORE THE CRYING CHILD (like everyone else)?!? #yeah did that for about a minute couldn't take it #asked if she needed a hug #got down and asked her what was wrong #she finally does uppy arms at me so I pick her up

[army-of-bee-assassins]

i know that a cat's tail being straight up is generally a friendly greeting, but every now and then i notice chai's tail also sorta vibrates and quivers for a sec when her tail is like that when she's meowing at me, so i looked it up and apparently it's just an even more affectionate version, like "omg i'm so happy to see you" 🥹

#what's funny is that when she did it today i thought she was annoyed with me cause she was yelling #but i guess she was just yelling but also happy to see me lol #anyway i know she loves me but sometimes i learn a new thing like this and i'm like #oh she DOES love me :) #i love her sm #sweet beautiful chai #j.txt

[freeforaugust]

Communicate like an adult and get results :)

#one the best things I've learned to do in the last five years is advocate for myself #new people took over the kennel I contract at and they haven't been giving me any of the boarding nail trims #I've been a little miffed about it but didn't say anything bc I assumed it was a money thing - if I do the nail trim I get commission #but if a kennel tech does it they don't get commission #today I caught them with a special baby of mine tho and they had just gotten started so I said #I'm supposed to be the only one who does her nails #and the tech was thrilled bc she doesn't like doing nail trims anyway #so after that I pulled myself together and said something to the manager about how the old owner had me do basically all of the nail trims #and he goes #great! #we all hate doing nail trims #and I ended up with 3 today and 2 tomorrow which is an extra $25 in my pocket so that's awesome #i really have found just talking about things like an adult (calmly and rationally) can get you the things you want most of the time #ig bc I grew up with a parent who would sometimes snap at me just for speaking I always expect the worst reactions from people #but so far I've found I almost always get the best #and even when I don't get what I want #nobody has yelled at me for asking

[soulsxng]

"...Not all angels are lactose intolerant, though? There's just not a lot of dairy products in Heaven, is all..." Why does this feel like some kind of joke that Azrael and Lucifer would have spread around when they were younger?

"It is rather funny to see everyone getting so lively over it though, isn't it? Don't look so exasperated, Ziri, it'll be forgotten about in a day or so!" Eno, please. This all started because of you.

#[Zikiriel -commentary-] #[Enoch -commentary-] #Yeah though this all started because I wanted some ice cream #but my tummy is a little grumpy today so I didn't really want to risk eating any and tempting the god of lactose intolerance #and so I made some comment about it and then went 'Well! we still have to think of two more random headcanons for Eno so--' #to which Kei stopped me and went '...wait what? Eno's lactose intolerant?' #then when I tried to say no he's not but there probably isn't really much dairy in Heaven #'It's secretly because all the angels are lactose intolerant or something haha' #and Kei lit up like a christmas tree slkdfna #before I could take it back she was already typing up her post and yelling 'YOU SAID IT SO IT'S CANON NOW!!!!!' lmao

[colorful-horses]

finished season 2 of miraculous ladybug!

I dont mean to sound nitpicky about a children's show meant for children. Buuut it feels a little weird to me that the neglect/abuse Adrien experiences from his father is never played for laughs, but Chloes extremely horrible mom being awful to her is literally the whole punchline of their relationship?

Like I realize part of it is "Well Chloe is mean too, so they can bond over how awful they are Together", but that just makes me feel kinda icky because it means Chloe can never improve as a person UNLESS she's fine with her mother not loving her lol

#not to overanalyze a show meant for 10 year olds #im more just pointing out the difference in how their abusive parents are portrayed and how......strange it is #adriens dad is constantly being shown to be horrible. and they never ever make a joke out of it #but i guess since Chloe is the designated 'Mean Girl' its funny to watch her mom constantly forgetting her name #constantly yelling at her and treating her like shes garbage #chloe gets really good small moments of humanity here and there #but then they had that scene where she finally gets her mother to show interest in her and #its literally just because chloe is like 'i can be an bitch too mom!!!'. which just makes me very sad #chloe redemption arc please. i wanna see her yell at her horrible mom lol #miraculous ladybug #i finished season 2 today. there was so many good hawkmoth moments this season #but i do find it very funny that he akumatized like ..... 5 different six year olds this season #i am making such an extended list of notes about this show as I watch it #im gonna make the next 7 hr long video essay. but itll be about miraculous ladybug lol #my favorite character is still chat noir btw #thanks for reading this far #i will now kiss you on the lips. mwah #tell me who YOUR favorite miraculous ladybug character is and why. i am not super into the fandom side. ive just been watching the show #i wanna know what characters are popular and which ones are hated hehehe #not pony