#( * v : people in crisis . )

[deus-ex-mona]

real talk: lxl should continue to explore romance fantasy concepts in their songs. it’s clearly working for them~

#typical prince aesthetics in romeo/julieta and nonfan… and now historical rofan in meoto… #(and there’s also whatever’s going on in tsuki no hime but that has no mv :( sadge) #sorry guys i still have meoto on the brain pls suffer with me~~~~~~~~~ #but mannnnn. i was struck by sudden inspiration for a meoto au a n d #well. ig now i understand why they skipped over the falling in love phase. romance is hardddd #i want to subscribe to the meoto expansion pack p l s i need to know what their deal is~~~~ #bc man. how in the world did they go from complete indifference to promising to stay together forever hello #what happened???????? excuse??????????? #man. m a n. ok i think im done for the night. i hope #LXL MEOTO CRISIS 2K24 #(but if anyone here wants to get into the otome isekai genre in general… i recommend starting off with ✨s u r v i v i n g r o m a n c e✨ #(it’s a great story and it’s still modernised enough to ease into the genre. and after that…) #(you can just go for the series with the most interesting premise/prettiest art/both tbh) #(though i personally recommend ✨the perks of being an s class heroine✨ ✨the villainess’s stationery shop✨ for milder content) #(and there’s also some series with both isekai and regression.) #(like they isekai after their 1st life in 20xx-> live out their 2nd life in the fantasy world -> regress to a point in their 2nd life) #(for that type i kinda like ✨i shall master this family✨ though ngl i’m mostly reading it bc i think the aunt is very pretty) #(a nd there’s the occasional modern regression story but that’s pretty soap drama-esque and the one i read got ridiculous at times lmao) #(but ofc the ones with less romance focus are fun too~~~~ like stories with multiple isekai-ed people for one) #(b u t i digress i think i’ll stop here before i lose the plot any longer ahaha~~~~)

[passedyoubyy]

gen v is the best WORST show ever for giving me a combo gender + sexuality crisis

#my posts #full of hot people + good genderqueer rep??? oh my lord what am i to do #jordan li #marie moreau #emma meyer #gen v #no but like actually im having a crisis. i thought i had it all figured out only to find im not immune to hot queer shapeshifter #(i knew a liked girls tho)

[watermelinoe]

i wish i didn't need so much external validation that i'm not worthless but my desire to perform well has been ingrained in me since early childhood

#it is v difficult when you can't function like other people #other people are operating without the pain and fatigue and jetlag #they naturally sleep at night and wake up in the morning #they don't have to rest in bed for several days after exerting themselves #they don't wake up unable to move #none of my accomplishments matter bc i'm physically too far behind everyone else #and it's hard not to see that as an indicator of my worth as a person and the value i contribute to society #bc if i don't earn money then how am i earning my right to exist #but that's a stupid way of thinking. no other animals think that way lol can you imagine a cat having an existential crisis #but still all the time i want to hear ''you're doing a good job'' ''you're not lazy'' ''you're not a leech'' ''you've accomplished a lot'' #this is what happens when you're a really good student and nothing else #until you get diagnosed with multiple Try Making it to Class Like This You Loser diseases 😐 #and then school is over and you made zero connections and have zero prospects bc it was all you could do to fuckin graduate w honors #bc that's all that mattered

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i have classes again! (i do not know if this is good or not yet) so i will not be able to draw as often. that or i will be drawing extra as a way to procrastinate working on assignments

#ughhhhh i hate transitioning from no classes to classes again this shit sucks #i love being in class but it takes a while before my brain can get used to being in school mode #i wish they just never gave me breaks i would like that a whole lot better #i'm also having a crisis thinking about changing my major #but idk if that's because i actually want to or if i'm just v uncomfortable rn at the thought of having to learn how to be in school again #at the very least i get to go to class looking great today #yesterday i got my hair dyed so now it's neon red orange and yellow #someone told me i look like someone was making their first OC and they had fire powers #another told me i looked like sunset shimmer from mlp #at the very least i look rad as hell and it will make up for whatever horrible thing i end up doing wrong today #i really should've tried to take a class with a prof i'm familiar with but nooooo i waited too long to choose classes #and now i'm stuck with people i don't know who are going to say words to me when all i want is to not say a single word all day long #also i had to wake up at 5:30 today and will probably have to again bc i don't drive so i carpool and they have to work early as fuck #and now i'm on campus and also locked out of the buildings because i can't get the ID scanner to work and the buildings don't unlock yet #at least the feral cats keep me company in these trying times #and waking up early means that i'm just tired enough to not give a fuck anymore so at least i'm not sobbing on the floor (yet) #i'll probably try to save that for after classes end #though i'm feeling strangely okay today which i think might just be the grace period between transitions where i get to act like a human #before i freak out later #or maybe i just missed being in class enough to beat the bad vibes out of me? (probably not but i can hope) #i'm just saying words at this point but that's okay #i'm sure i'm interesting enough for everyone to love hearing about my morning #in which case i want everyone to know that i got the stupidest jacket from the thrift store a while back #and i am rocking it rn #every day i get up and get dressed i look in the mirror and see someone who would fit in better as an art student #but art doesn't make you money and i've lived in poverty too long to go with that #but if i'm stuffed somewhere where i have to have natural hair color and boring clothes at an office job i will probably go batshit tbh #the goal is to be so valuable in whatever field i choose that i get to do whatever i please #like L #anyway i have said so many words

[leatherbookmark]

ootd features the words "black dress" in its lyrics and people are like oh! this is a reference to another group's song, "black dress"!

i'm unwell.

#shrimp thoughts #also 'you people just Don't Understand' part 2: apparently there will be Part Two. just like with gee idle's allergy and queen/card #which. lol. apparently 'when allergy came out people were shocked because the it was basically 'if you're ugly tough shit just get a #surgery' but once queen/card came out everything was clear!' and like. how was it clear. what was clear. #one song is 'boo hoo i'm so ugly i hate looking at myself in the mirror and no one likes me i should get plastic surgery' #and the other is like 'ya hoo i'm so hot and sexy i'm like these two western celebrities!!!! i'm so cool i'm twerking on the runway' #kp/op kinda sucks balls in that it's like.... musical equivalent of tjlc crossed with marvel. it's basic ass pop made to sell except with a #faux deep garnish. and sometimes the garnish stands on its own! like if you take guerrilla it's clear that there's actually no deeper or #more detailed philosophy behind it. it's not really n.o where the 'rebellion' was actually supposed to be against something concrete #it's like. we want to feel! we don't want... not to feel! but the sound and visuals are strong enough that you don't mind it #like fuck yeah the lads are staging a revolution now! and now they're outlaws in a western! sort of! and now it's alice in wonderland! #but v often the companies actively make use of the fact that kp/op stans will obsessively look for Depth and Serious Themes in their #cultural reset slaying sotys. a girl looks at a butterfly? oh the song is about having an identity crisis like in that one poem about a guy #dreaming about being a butterfly. it's actually very deep and you can see it was all planned because there was a little butterfly icon #above the tracklist. and the fans get so attached to their headcanons theories and interpretations that they don't stop for a second #to check if there was anything in the 'text' in the first place #remember that one magritte post? this is also how kp/op stans interpret things. she wears a blue dress here and blue is the color of summer #and summer is when you have holidays and don't have to go to school! so by this blue dress she's trying to say that you should love #yourself and strive to be the best version of yourself by embracing your hobbies and extracurricular interests. this is so genius 😭

[southernvampire]

I finally finished cyberpunk 2077 and a good chunk of it I've spent in a bad brain fog and not dealing with my health issues very well, so I didn't pay as close attention to some of the dialogue choices. I had no clue how important it was in the pistis sofia to tell Johnny if you would take a bullet for him or not. So I got V to tell him he would, and honestly it made sense for his mindset at the time.

(rambling under the read more because I have so many feelings)

But then V makes connections with more people and, most importantly, met Kerry, and that went out the window. Suddenly, he has friends, a found family, someone who loves him, even if it is still very early on. It gives V hope and a future to envision, a life worth living. But that also means going back on his word to Johnny.

It's interesting, the whole time in this playthrough, V and Johnny have never been on the same page about V's future. At first, Johnny wants V dead and V wants Johnny gone. Then, V learns how bad of a situation he's in, goes into a deep depression and is grieving for Jackie and now himself, and is just so tired. Maybe it would be better for Johnny to take his body. Yet Johnny is beginning to like V because despite what people have told V about Johnny, despite V seeing his memories and how shitty he could be first hand, he's still nice to him and cares about him. Johnny doesn't want that on his conscience, taking time and life from someone like that. As much as he is a gonk.

And then, in Mikoshi, Johnny still wants V to live, but damn is he hurt when V goes back on his word. Because even though he feels he doesn't deserve it, he wants a second chance. He doesn't want it necessarily at the expense of V's life, but V's already been soulkilled, and V had said he wanted Johnny to have his body. A man's word means a lot to Johnny and it feels like a betrayal when V goes back on his, no matter that Johnny's mind has been changed and that he wants V (well, V's construct, to be precise) to live out the rest of his life his way.

On the other hand, he understands that for once in his short but chaotic life, V found some happiness and he doesn't want to let that go so soon. Could you really blame him, jumping for a second chance like that even when the odds are against him? Johnny would be a hypocrite if he did.

It's like a dance between these two, both initially wanting their own lives and hating each other, to becoming closer than they'd been with anyone else and practically begging each other to take V's body and live. When he chooses himself at the very last minute, V breaks away from that dance and leaves Johnny wondering whatever happened to him wanting Johnny to have his second chance. It's the decision Johnny wanted him to make, the decision he had been hyping up this entire fucking time in hopes of changing V's mind, but damn does it feel like abandonment in its worst form now that V agrees with him.

Worst still, he doesn't hide his feelings. V knows Johnny well enough that he didn't have to be so obvious in his disappointment, but Johnny can't help it. But he won't say anything in his own defense either, doesn't want to put that extra amount of pain on the kid, because at the end of the day V doesn't deserve it. He didn't ask for any of this. That doesn't stop his disappointment from haunting V when he leaves Mikoshi.

It doesn't help that he feels he's disappointing Kerry in not spending enough time with him even though he's fighting to find a way to have more than 6 months with him. He's aware he might not make it back from the Crystal Palace and might be ruining their chance to have whatever time he has left to be with each other, but the chance to have a lifetime with the man he loves is impossible to ignore. He has to try or he'll hate himself for letting himself fade away.

"Never stop fighting," Johnny had said, and yet fighting for his life hurt the two most important people in his life.

#i would love to actually write this as a fic but i dont have the spoons for that so here's my rambling #i also am fascinated at the fact that an alive V is soulkilled no matter what except for the devil ending i believe #like that just adds to the identity crisis V goes through this whole game because how would he know how similar to his original self he is? #would he even know? would he recognize it? would others notice a difference in him? did he die and come back wrong? #mike pondsmith explained that johnny's memories are messed up due to the radiation and the soulkilling process so how accurate are #V's memories? #i imagine more accurate bc no radiation but how would the brain trauma from relic malfunctions play into this if at all? #would V question any of this or would he just not notice anything or not question it? so many questions #i havent seen a lot of people talking about this concept either and i find it so fascinating #cybperpunk 2077 #sun ending #dont fear the reaper #oc: vincent vale

[taegularities]

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#small rant :C #i'll delete this again v soon #but ugh why is it the time of the year again when existential crisis strikes the worst #like sometimes i rlly wonder if i'm wasting my time? or like i'm not doing enough #there are days when i'm just at home and feel SO unproductive but i'm in my mid-20s and then i think #maybe i should be doing MORE... maybe i should be doing smth more fulfilling #i just hate to only study/work/do daily life chores. it's gotten so boring i want to be more adventurous BUT UGH CAPITALISM #now that graduation's done i have less to do obviously but i genuinely always feel like i'm wasting my time and that i'll regret it one day #that i didn't use my youth more efficiently or in a better/funnier way #i feel like i didn't experience enough n it SUCKS #it just sucks feeling kind of worthless ughguhghghg #idk i usually don't vent about such things on here but i remember one anon once saying that #i listen to most people's rants so i should feel free to rant to u guys too which was so sweet so #i took the chance :C #but yeah u can ignore me too lmao i'll delete this soon 😭 #personal #tdl

[thermodynamic-angel]

Ifeeltired

#My body isn't heavy anymore and thats v good v v good but I feel #I feel sad #V sad #Idk why. I just am #There's something wrong with me #Something v v wrong #Idk what. But I just know there's a problem. #I'm probably just having an existential crisis but I think I need to talk to Her about it bc She actually seems genuinely worried abt me #Which is. New. #Normally She'd just be mad at me for not doing chores or sleeping in late but this time She seems. Just. Worried about me. #I don't know how to feel about that but it makes me kinda. Happy. I think. #I like when people worry about me. I probably shouldn't though. #Anyways. Uh. Again. Need to stop screaming into the void here what I wanted to say is I'm getting silly n changing my name :3 #꒰ঌ♡ 𝟽𝟽𝟽.ramble

[dykeredhood]

wearing an undershirt is very gender

#Arnold in his gay lil t-shirt and boxers… #…we don’t need to talk about how scandalized my mother was when she saw I bought boxers to wear as undies #*bought boxers from fucken Ross with my own money #i didn’t realize I was even allowed to wear boxers as like… everyday underwear until I saw one of my fraternity brothers #service fraternity that allows people of all assorted genders to join as brothers btw #up until then I knew I was allowed to wear novelty boxer shorts as jammies #I’m not having something so dire as a gender crisis #but I’m working through a whole hell of a lot of repression xoxoxox #anyway i saw my BEAUTIFUL dyke fraternity brother dressing in her marching band uniform and using boxers as undies #and it was a fucking revelation for me #I’m aware that I’m v repressed #it’s still wrecking me thinking of how much I wasn’t permitted to be my own person as a child #raucous wry laughter #personal #rant in tags #this got away from me

[marxistgnome]

The autistic urge to be an over the top socialite at the first part of the gathering and then slowly become more emotionally exhausted and enf up talking to one person with 0 tone and looking at the ground then leaving early

#its like #yes i can be for want of better words a social butterfly and low key flirty #usually around people i don't knowas well #cos i don't know how tk act normal sso i compensate by bejng over the top and camp #but fuck me its tiring #i always forget im bad at crowded social events with multiple people i dont know v well until im actually there #ramblings #autism #afterwards im always kinda have an identity crisis like dies anyond truly knoe me #but then i remember that i do unmask thoroughly around my friends #ag the start of college i started off in a big friend group #kinda accidentally #and they were nice but im glad i drifted into a smaller one cos j dint think i would ever have been able to stop masking properly #too hectic #i have a weird relationship with masking #it doesn't really hide any of my tisms #its more a characteristic people i dong know can interact with #kind of like a computer with a little interactive avatar for an interface

[artekai]

AHHH THANK YOU FOR YOUR TAGS ABT THE DOODLE I MADE!!!! I use they or he interchangeably but u can do w/e u want lol.

OF COURSE, THANK YOU AGAIN, IT MADE ME SUPER HAPPY TO SEE!!!! :D You deserve the appreciation! ^^ You definitely opened my eyes to all the possibilities, hehe. I think he/they Beta is a very based take :D

#ask tag #forgetmenautical #i was feeling he/it but i was also getting HUGE he/they vibes so i'm glad i'm not the only one who sees the nonbinary transmasc swag hehe ^ #in any case #i think it would be v interesting to explore beta's gender journey bc i don't think they have really experienced the social aspect of gende #having been born in the odyssey and raised with very little social interaction #and growing up believing his life purpose was only to restore gaia #i think it would've been very easy for him to see himself as a tool and see no point in exploring his identity beyond being a lis clone #so even though he does know about gender he has never really had to think about his own #and it's only after the whole zenith drama is done and after beta starts adapting to life on earth that gender comes into the equation #and they become Keenly Aware of how people perceive them not just as aloy's sister but... as a sister in the first place #and i would love to see beta working through their trauma and STILL feeling a different kind of disconnect from aloy and lis #something that they can't put their finger on. #and them having to deal with the initial panic and the crisis as they're still comparing themselves to aloy and lis and the self doubt #and the eventual relief that comes with finding answers and finally feeling comfortable with his own identity. you know? #aloy calling beta sister for the first time is OUT aloy calling beta brother for the first time is IN. #oh man. someone should get in on this and write this fic. <- remembers i literally write fic #ANYWAYS sorry for writing a whole essay in the tags lol but you gave me the beta brainrot so :) #yeah. he's just sitting there. w the baggy clothes and the shrimp pose and trauma and their admiration for varl. ASKING to be projected on #beta my beloved :')

[liquidlightning]

met my partner’s other partner for first time today. big big big emotions. fullness and loneliness all at once. feeling so much that polyamory is what makes me sososo happy but things have been a bit rocky and we r all long distance and its all a bit difficult

#teleportation WHEN #people i love mental health WHEN #me being capable of sustaining relationships electronically WHEN #my last relationship kinda went up in flames but tbh i miss being in a triad/polycule its just. the best thing in the world #so im v happy to have finally met the other partner and v happy that we get along and am hopeful that we will become close #v much doubt we will end up dating but a closeness of sorts. a queerplatonic something or other. is really what i hope we can have #(i wouldn’t date him but maybe if he has a gender crisis we can recise that LMAO)

[oflgtfol]

With the way the symbiote is portrayed with Mac I always just go you know what. I think it's fair for it to be enraged at the exact moment. Mac unfortunately got to be Venom while we were going through the Bitterly Divorced era. Eddie is also running around at this point acting like he's been 'cured' of a disease other than the cancer (which. Might be an interesting unintended allegory for catholic guilt and internalized homophobia) so they're both working through some feelings. But uh it definitely says some things that Mac has an entire section of his Wiki page dedicated to his personality and how various writers have characterized him

naw see there's a difference in my mind between like, going around killing and eating people in a fit of rage and hurt and betrayal, and going around killing and eating people because you're nothing more than like a rabid animal who has no control over your impulses, yknow? and i mean yeah i only read a handful of mac!venom comics but it definitely comes across as the latter instead of the former

this whole era in venom comics was just. so messy. im still mad about the eddie dumping symby thing because like it was so out of the blue? literally he decided to do it OFF SCREEN (unless im missing comics?) it just makes no sense and this whole era was during the whole ohhhh the symbiote is corrupting him from the inside ohhh spectacular spiderman vol 2 bullshit. and then ofc the whole animalistic depiction in thunderbolts 97. it was just a mess. it was a mess. i take canon during this era with a grain of salt, as in im more typically mad at the writers for how they depict things than the characters themselves, because the characters feel so strange and misaligned with how they were in comics published even just a few years before

as i always say i think the way it turned out could theoretically be interesting - in fact, i never thought of it the way you phrased it, as an allegory for internalized homophobia + catholic guilt (especially because it was literally watching the passion of christ that apparently made eddie dump the symbiote...??? which i also have issues with because i mean like - watching a fucking movie of all things is what changed your mind, dude? is your constitution THAT weak? do you have no backbone? #NotMyEddie) but just the way it was carried out feels less like an exploration of the characters and their flaws and more like the writers just like A. not knowing what the fuck theyre doing or B. purposefully twisting the narrative into something else, like instead of an exploration of internalized homophobia its just. Homophobia from the writers themselves

#i think if it was just changed to like #eddie having a conversation with a real life actual priest #that i think could have been a convincing enough catalyst to set that whole mess into motion #but instead he WATCHED A MOVIE #its just so. INSANE TO ME #you have EATEN PEOPLE ALIVE and still decided to be wtih the symbiote #and watching a FUCKING MOVIE is what changes your mind? #ITS NUTS. ABSOLUTELY BONKERS TO ME #i suspend my belief for MANY things when reading comics but i have to draw the line somewhere #so this is the point where i start blaming the writers instead of eddie as a character tdfghfdsfghfdgbn #ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IT HAPPENS OFF SCREEEN #WE CANT SEE HIS CRISIS OF FAITH FOR OURSELVES? #maybe then it'd be more convincing that a movie singlehandedly made him change his mind on everything #but instead it happens off screen and its just so fucking jarring #its such a huge paradigm shift and it happens off screen and for such a stupid reason like. puts my head in my hands #and then that one stupid choice then snowballs into mac being venom. snowballs into symbiote acting like this. so on and so forth #its just a whole big snowball of bad writing choices hence why im just like. Whatever. i take this whole era with a grain of salt #ask #Anonymous #v posting

[leatherbookmark]

great line, but i have some suggestions

#literally the BASIC thing kinn could have done is to ask pete's grandma if he can talk to him for a sec #like 'aw if he goes away without saying anything i'm worried! i would have let him take a break and take care of his family if he asked!' #BAM. DONE. every time someone voices a valid concern the other person/people are like what NOOO come on calm down 🙄 #This Is What You Get. #liveshrimping #that aside tankhun is great. he gives me jin mixed with hobi but amped up to 11 vibes and i love it #WHINES V SADLY they are just Saying Things. they are just Saying Things Now #god okay technically i can do the math and figure out how we went from pete freaking out about his feeling re: vegas and his idea of play #to pete having a full on crisis but like... Words #'ah don't worry i just happened to fight with a dog' i am mourning the series kp would be if it was properly written

[collidingxworlds]

{ 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓’𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐃𝐘𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐒? }

Muse: Abigail Hobbs

The brains

People are not so much your forte. You are more at home with thoughts, ideas, hobbies, skills. As such, you probably have to learn how to work well with others -- but once you do, hey, it has its moments. While you are treasured for your ability to solve problems, people also have this unique love of novelty. When you break from your schedule, when you say something no one is expecting -- that’s novel. You are as curious and lovable as the subjects you study. You are family. this place is not the same without your witty comments and wry observations. You definitely feel more comfortable when someone needs a straightforward answer than a shoulder to cry on, but it’s not impossible to give both. Know that your family loves you for more than that, though, and will (usually) remember to respect your boundaries.

tagged by @imprvdente​ (( thank you!! )) tagging: Anyone who wants to steal it !

#Victim or Perpetrator? ::about ; Abigail:: #* nature vs nurture * ::HCs ; Abigail:: #(( dash games )) #(( this is a pretty good match for the murder family verse )) #(( Abigail is the quiet problem solver )) #(( and also the one who isn't scared of voicing harsh opinion )) #(( her trust issues make it hard for her to connect to people but she tries )) #(( and she can be useful even in times of personal crisis )) #v. Picture Perfect Family ::murder family verse ; Abigail::

[fransharp]

what is with the recent shift towards full neuropsych work ups to dx ADHD? It’s something even an FNP Can do relatively simply but now we’re all supposed to drop $2k on full neropsych assessments? Why? WHY? Why are you making these dx and the help tied to them so fucking inaccessible to people who already have trouble accessing things by virtue of their neurodiversity?! We need to fix things so bad in this country and impossibly long waits/high fees for help with anything psych related is near the top of the list.

#adhd #psychology #neurodivergent #neurology #we need a psych infrastructure the same way we have a medical infrastructure #With emergency psych available the same way we have EMTs #And way more availability of therapists and inpatient options #Just as we have different units at hospitals we need different units in inpatient psych #Drugs v medical v perinatal #Etc #because everyone will experience mental health crisis in their life #Everyone will experience trauma #And many of us will also experience neurotransmitter irregularities #We need to help people not just pretend to sympathize