#( i have irl friends who have )

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[carlyraejepsans]

online harassment campaigns are genuinely terrifying and part of why they're terrifying is that they make you feel like you're going insane—especially if they're false, frame you maliciously on purpose or blow things wayy out of proportion—because like. asides from it feeling really fucking bad due to the aforementioned tide of toxic sludge coming your way all at once, you genuinely start to doubt your perception of reality because surely this isn't... right? surely people can tell this isn't real/there's no way this kind of reaction is warranted or deserved, right?

if any of your friends ever go through that the single most helpful thing you can do is reach out to them & be like "jesus christ these people are nuts, are you okay?" PLEASE do, even privately if you're afraid of being dragged in. they'll never thank you enough, it's a literal life raft for their sanity

#this post inspired by my wonderful beautiful mutuals #and my IRL friends. who now have a new inside joke after we did a dramatic reading of my callout post together #straight up felt like i removed the insanity status effect afterwards. minecraft milk style

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd splitting #lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too #haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days #irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really #I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection #like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person #then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually

[sofflepoffle]

Something I’ve seen a bit of variation on and was wondering about..

I know that some of these answers are kind of undefined but choose what best suits you!

#Sophia is speaking #personally I have one close irl friend who follows me on here #I have a friend who has a tumblr and we talk about tumblr stuff frequently but it has never ever come up to exchange urls #that’s just not that way it works for us. tumblr feels so private in a way no other social media does by default

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[ceruleancattail]

Aquarium date with Floyd Leech

Floyd x reader

There’s something inherently romantic about standing side by side with someone you love. Your shoulder leaning into his arm, fingers interlocked with one another’s. Clutching onto his palm, letting the cool blue lights of the tank wash over your body, rippling through every surface the light could touch.

You watch in awe, as schools of multi coloured fish swim right by, each with their very own appeal. Shimmering scales, deep soulful eyes, or perhaps even an astonishing speed, for one so small. Gently, you place your palm against the glass, if only to get closer to the wonderful world playing out before you at that moment.

A fish takes notice, slowly moving towards your palm. As it swims closer, all you could do was to marvel at its beauty, the flawless design of a creature from the sea itself…

“Oh, whatcha’ looking at, Shrimpy?”

Floyd leans over, draping his lanky body over yours. Hooded eyes glance somewhat listlessly towards the fish in front of you, brightening up in recognition. Opening his mouth wide open, Floyd bares his fangs at the fish, laughing as it zooms away in fright.

“I’ve eaten one of these lil’ guys before! Tasty.”

You glare at him the best you could, stifling your laughter all the while. Folding your arm inwards, you elbow him in the side playfully, chiding Floyd:

“Honestly! You don’t have to say it in front of the fish!”

His lower lip jutted out in a slight pout, a petulant whine slipping right off those lips.

“But it was really tasty… hey, how about I catch one for you? I think it’ll be easy, if I could just slip into the tank…“

Raising your hand, you smack Floyd on the arm lightly, huffing.

“I am not eating this cutie right in front of its family!”

Sighing, Floyd slings an arm around you, pulling you closer to him. Close enough for you to feel his pulse, beating right through his chest. To count every beat of his heart, the pace slowly meshing with yours. Melting into one, steady beat.

“Fine, fine… you’re so uptight, shrimp.”

His gaze flickers here and there, mismatched irises slowly scanning his surroundings. They rest on you, for a while. Staring at your features, illuminated by the azure ripples of the sea. If Floyd squinted a little, he could almost imagine you two were indeed under the sea.

Holding hands while the waves brushed against both of you, coaxing the two lovers closer. Perhaps he’ll give you a good squeeze, with both his arms and his tail too! It’ll be so fun, exploring the ocean’s mysteries with you right by his side… but maybe going straight under the sea wasn’t too much of a good idea.

Well, Floyd supposed the aquarium was a good start. At first, he didn’t want to go at all. What’s the fun of that? Floyd’s pretty sure he’s seen all the sea has to offer, considering he grew up there. However when he saw that sparkle in your eyes, the eagerness you thrusted the brochure at him with… how could he say no?

He wonder if those adorable eyes of yours would sparkle with the same sort of joy, when Floyd takes you under the sea. He’ll bring you to all of his favourite spots! A old shipwreck teeming with ancient artefacts, a particular reef, teeming with corals of all shapes and sizes… maybe even his little cave Floyd decked out with all his treasures.

But for now…

Seeing you smile is enough for Floyd.

#twisted wonderland #twst #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #Floyd x reader #Floyd leech #Floyd leech x reader #Floyd #lucky potion 🔷 #inspired by irl conversations #I’m sorry to all of the animals who have listened to my friends and I talk #sorry #it’s always the same three things #‘eh can this be eaten?’ #‘oh I have eaten this before’ #‘was it tasty?’ #urm #sorry animals

[nyctocollective]

friendly reminder that plurality is caused by trauma. trauma is defined as an event that has a severe negative impact on oneself. there are going to be dark parts of plurality that no one wants to talk about. the brain created you to cope with what it went through. it's okay to have parts (or wholes) that have “twisted” desires, attractions, innerworld or external relationships, sexual or emotional needs, etc. other people might call you disgusting, evil, immoral, but it's just part of being traumatized. it's going to be unpleasant or unsightly.

read the tags.

#shout out to our multiple pairs of siblings who fuck because of the shit our mom and dad put us through with our sister #shout out to our child alters that would put themselves in dangerous situations with irl adults if we didn't healthily satisfy them #because of what our dad and various friends much older than us did to us #shout out to our various alters with non-con fantasies‚ whether its having it done or doing it‚ because we were accused of doing it to our #family and having it done to us before we were even double digits #you might think we're disgusting but this is how the brain copes #being groomed is not an experience you shake off easily #being manipulated and abused is not an experience you shake off easily #15 years of being groomed is going to make our brain do some “twisted” shit #am i scared of posting this because a friend of mine has this account? yeah. but whatever im sure itll be fine hahah. #system #did #did system #actually did #cdid #plural system #sysblr #osdd #did osdd #osdd system #endos dni #plurality is a trauma response xoxo

[wyrddogs]

Something something just because the dog isn't flashy doesn't mean it's not driven. Just because it's not screaming doesn't mean it's not in drive.

Just because the dog is best suited for trailing, locating, and flushing game and thus rarely gets to participate in killing game, doesn't make it less important than the team members who are better at killing. The killing might be the flashiest and most exciting part, but it isn't the most important part. The dogs that kill won't be able to do that if the dogs that flush don't put the game into the position to be killed.

Grumbly venting brought to you a conversation with someone who thinks the actual kill is the most important part of hunting. And who thinks that only badass, hardcore, drivey, screamy dogs that murder are good hunting dogs.

#random things that irk me #hunting #to be clear I am not even a hunter #sometimes I hunt with my dog #but I am not a hunter #I do not live that lifestyle #but I still go out and put up rats and rabbits both alone and with friends #I put in the work #so it is annoying for someone who does not put in that work #to obliquely put my dog down because he is better suited for flushing than killing #and he doesn't have the flashiness of a terrier #he is very workmanlike and not exciting to watch #but he gets the job done #it does not make him a less important team member #than the flashy terriers who kill the game he drives into their mouths #also this isn't about anyone online #it's an irl person I had a convo with

[pokemonshelterstories]

bro he is just s

he is just sitting

#charlietalks #pkmn irl #pokemon irl #pokemon pics #kangaskhan #i love having friends who study things we dont have in paldea i get so many fun emails

[turnippencil]

I feel lamb would be unsympathetic to Narinder.

Imagine having someone stand up for you, bond for centuries and work towards a common goal, only for them to betray you after all that? Heads be rolling

A concequence of their bloodlust is that the lamb would be lonely, maybe lonely enough to consider mercy

Forever is a long time to be alone after all

Tldr, watch the god of death shit his pants

#cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb fanart #cotl au #cotl narinder #narilamb #the one who waits #cotl lamb #what have i done #friends to enemies to lovers??? #maybe #yea im not a forgiving person irl #writing lamb angry seemed more natural to me #i know i would #my art <3 #the past we shared #tpws au

[mossghosst]

ugh so very unhappy with this but idc i need it OUT OF MY BRAIN!! i’ll remake it later maybe

ANYWAY. EXPLAINATION

I have this au in my head where leo gets sent to neo edo after the kraang invasion cause portal stuff was happening in both worlds at the same time (mikey saving leo nd yuichi springing the trap) . shenanigans ensue. aka the unforeseen consequences of opening and closing inter dimensional portals at the same time

follow up here!

masterpost

#i dont have a name for it #YES ITS A LEOICHI AU IM NORMAL #tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt fanart #srtuc #samurai rabbit #leoichi #leochi #i guess it’ll tag that here since it is based around them #girl help idk how to draw backgrounds or explosions #shout out to my irl friend who listened to me be insane abt it and encouraged me to make this #thanks for supporting my brainrot ily cami #mossghosstdrawings #four swords #four swords are better than two #fsabtt

[triaelf9]

hey folks who interact with creative works online! just a tiny PSA

If you don't like a character, that's totally fine! If you have a different reading of a situation in a show & have issues with stuff that's going on, that's also fine.

What is NOT fine is to ACTIVELY SEEK OUT fans of the characters you don't like and talk shit about them, the characters they have feelings about, or the content they've posted b/c you, Freddy McHatesalot really needs to tell everyone how much you dislike a...fictional character.

You are totally welcome to consume content in your own space in whatever way you see fit. It is disrespectful of the fandom space to try to drag other people into your space and interact with you if they don't want to. And dunking on a character in writings or art of them is fucking rude as hell to the person who put work into into the creation they made out of some feelings they were having.

Also. side note, it is possible to enjoy a character who is Wrong About Some Things or Isn't Doing The Right Stuff In The Right Situation. Sometimes it's possible to like a character and disagree with them, and shitting on people b/c you can't see what they see in a character is pretty trash garbage and is 90% of why I just make silly little art for me and my own silly feels and hope folks get a chuckle or some enjoyment out of it too.

#Behave better #and if you can't behave yourself I'm not going to play into your little hate roleplay #you can do that elsewhere while I enjoy the nuance in my media thankss #don't pull me or my work into your weird vendetta against fictional characters #I draw art for me and for anyone who is feeling like I am #to jump in and be like “this person is the shittiest & I hate them” on that creation is ummmmm #why I don't interact with fandom like I used to #b/c if people can't control themselves it spoils the whole pot #I don't like some characters and stories and ships #does anyone here who isn't a close friend of me irl even know what they are? #no b/c I don't find that worthwhile to spend my time doing #I don't fill my page with hate for fictional characters. I post what I enjoy and share it to put more joy out there in the world #sorry this is so long #I'm just fucking pissed b/c I thought we were past this bad behavior #and I'm too old too tired too busy and too stressed to have to put up with this shit. Grow up.

[stellarspecter]

even if it's not actually jatp s2 but just like a tour or new music or something I would still be mega hype. I would buy tickets to a jatp tour so fast u wouldn't even believe. and I would have the time of my life there in cosplay singing the words to every song. it's my eras tour

#jatp #who would i cosplay? great question glad u asked #obvs julie has some iconic fits and i do already have somewhat of a reggie cosplay but honestly i might do carrie #bc i loveeee glitter and colorful outfits and dirty candy has all of that and more #ideally itd be a group cosplay but i dont think i have 4 irl friends who like jatp 😬 #actually fuck it kayla cosplay i love purple #*speaks

[crimeboys]

i appreciate that tommy makes dsmp references in like literally every video he makes he’s like ex-dsmp streamers chats who can’t shut up about dsmp as a person and it delights me bc he is just like me fr

#text post #mine #my friends who have gotten over d+mp vs me who cannot shut the fuck up #<- my irls i mean luckily i have amogus now and they have to deal with my abnormalities bc they are too

[th3e-m4ng0]

i apologize Preemptively for the man i will become when That trailer (tfone) drops

#.txt #perhaps i should write it on twt considering i've been more unhinged there #and perhaps i should be saying that to my irl friends who will have the Misfortune of seeing me ugly sob from excitement firsthand

[mueritos]

im glad that people r clowning on that detrans person who went viral on twitter for blaming trans people/hrt for his baldness and normal male genes, but i really hope this can at least wake up some transmasculine people, ESPECIALLY white transmasculine people.

many BIPOC transmasc people already have standards of whiteness imposed onto us, but we do not cry wolf when our genetics cause the male secondary characteristics that they do. many of us are hairy, many of us have thick and coarse hair, some of us get extremely deep voices, etc and etc. BIPOC transmascs already have to deal with the masculinization of our bodies even before HRT because many of us cannot achieve white standards of womanhood. it is just also incredibly ignorant to shed tears over normal secondary sex characteristics that everyone on HRT are informed about. Just because you have male pattern baldness, an adams apple, and a low voice doesn’t mean you suddenly lose your worth as human being. white transmascs who successfully performed white femininity and desperately still cling onto it or try to be a hairless pretty twink after HRT,,,PLEASE understand that you cannot control the way HRT reacts to your body. You cannot complain about not looking like a beautiful twink because you cannot control how your genetics and HRT will masculinize your body. Like holy fuck. 

there is definitely a time and a space for detrans people to discuss their journeys. Many of them don’t regret HRT, many of them just simply realized they don’t need to be binary passing. But when we center detrans experiences as the reason why HRT needs to be stopped, why trans people are making “serious mistakes” to their bodies...yea I dont care how much you hate yourself. You do not need to make your insecurities everybody elses problem.

I genuinely hope this makes some white transmasc people realize that its okay to look like a normal dude. Some of us feel euphoric by the male pattern baldness. Some of us love our hairy arms and legs. Some of us love being men. Some of us love loving men. Some of us love having friendships with men. There is nothing wrong with being a man. The biological essentialism of vagina=good and penis=bad is not just a gender issue, it’s a race issue as well. These ideas are inherent to whiteness; when you say you distrust all men, when you say they all deserve to die...this means ALL men...Black men, queer men, transmen, Asian men, Latino men, Indigenous men, men who are disabled, men who are GNC, lesbians who are men, butches....

Having a caution toward men or male presenting people because of patriarchy, sexism, and misogyny? Fine. Hating them, vilifying them, viewing them as inherently predatory and evil? No. Thanks for making us feel like we’re all dangerous, that definitely does nothing to the male pysche, and thanks for conveying that anyone with a vagina is inherently good.

god. destroy white ideas of gender and sexuality already. you guys are just so damn annoying. we cannot get an ounce of solidarity because of you guys.

#muerto talks #hrt #trans stuff #masculinity #sorry i became a man and sorry i love being a man and having masculinity and loving men #did you know u cud have nice relationships with men? did you know they can be your friends too? #non men really arent helping in the whole uplifting men who want to create a healthy masculinity #when u shut down our attempts at that you are literally telling us you want us gone #thanks a bunch #im so annoyed #ive just been hearing irl and online so much i hate men discourse #its all so terfy and white and bio essentialist