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#( i wANT TO CHANGE THE PLACEMENT OF WHERE I HAD THE CUP SO BAD!!! but i didn't have anyone who could like compare my placement and the photo
gayshrug · 5 months
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(belated) pit babe ep 3 thoughts
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holy fuck
- i once more have to empathise how fucking hot daddy's tony's assistant is. sorry for being disloyal, babe, but that man......
- still couldn't care less about the vlog squad, soz. i suppose they're serving a purpose by being way's PIs but a bad thing (the vlog squad) + a worse thing (way) is still an annoyance 😭 happy to be proven wrong in the future though.
- way being like "let me drive/ take you home" is so unserious like girl you've been drinking too
- i love how everybody and their cousin twice removed clowned on babe for having that 4321 door code, only for the show to make it clear that he changes it daily. he IS careless when it comes to charlie, nobody can dispute that, but he doesn't only think with his pussy (all the time).
- if tony weren't so abhorrently evil, i'd probably be simping for him. yeah he exploited all those kids but that charm when he smiles 🧍🏼‍♂️
- jeff/alan is gonna hit me hard, i can already tell. their chemistry is off the charts and the whole "i need my space" vs "i'm gonna weasle my way into your space" thing..... yeah
- TELEKINESIS????????!???????????? 👁️👄👁️
- i need charlie's actor to give me better line delivery like. he's SO cute but right now, i can't tell whether it's Charlie Wanting To Stay Distanced or the actor just not being on the same level as pavel
- that being said, their chemistry is incredible. those first kisses were SO tender. their body language!!!!! their smiles and the little pecks! thank you! that's so much more impactful than if it had happened in the middle of a sex scene. like, babe thought about that and made a conscious decision. (probably a bad one for the time being but.) 💌💌💌
- so thankful the Neck Stuff is still being catered to. ep1's throat mauling changed me as a person but i'm fine with little kisses as long as that part of babe's body is still being served. and it is. so. 💯
- pavel....... i once again tip my hat to you. he gives it his all in every single scene. (i fully take back whatever i might have said re: wanting the drama etc. btw like... babe is my heart and soul. that's my fucking baby. knowing he's gonna get hurt/ betrayed is terrible. i ride for him and him only.)
- alan seems like such a good guy. i don't trust anyone here but he gives off the most genuine vibes. there hasn't been one moment where i've doubted his intentions (so far). kim is on that same wavelength as well. yeah, he's playing for the opposing team, but he wants to stick to his morals and earn his success. (i need winner to croak btw. or get the unwarranted superiority complex fucked out of his system.)
- jeff running into the [car parts thing] after the little head kiss PLEASE he was so shaken up. if this were twins the series, he would've cupped his crotch for emphasis
- "from now on, our team doesn't have to stress about money anymore" and there's crisps with a fork, 15 chicken nuggets and some pickles on the table. ALAN. BABY. could you have maybe made this celebratory party look a bit more appealing 😭
- get those fucking product placements, widely adored omegaverse show.
- 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳 the chemistry. yeah. i love me a good bit of explicit tonguing or whatever but the way they show the growing intimacy......... perfection. and yeah, i'm hurting.
- babe breaks my heart. he wants nothing more than to be loved and to be shown that the doctrines tony tried to instill in him are wrong. he deserves honesty. i hope charlie confides in babe and shows him just that - and soon. it's all already starting to crumble but i don't believe charlie and jeff have bad intentions at the core of it.
(- babe trying to be upfront with charlie is another reason why i love him so much. he knows he's probably gonna get lied to in response but he at least tries to clear things up. because he respects and appreciates charlie. and wants to, for once, believe in the best in people. he's a good egg. yeah, the "charlie ❤️" made me feel terrible.)
- i hate that i can't tell what charlie's concern is aimed at, babe's condition/ withdrawal or himself starting to lose access. i assume it's both, of course, but....
- watching the race itself made me feel sick. all those insecurities taking over. like i said, babe is my #1 priority and losing under those circumstances, with the emotional turmoil and lack of "concentrating" + whatever the fuck winner might've done to sabotage the race + the pressure of a wealthy sponsor on his shoulders....... i kept pausing tbh. like, i knew it was coming but 🧍🏼‍♂️🧍🏼‍♂️🧍🏼‍♂️🧍🏼‍♂️🧍🏼‍♂️
- i was fuming but winner stumbling like that after a tiny shove made me giggle. and kim standing off to the side, Knowing, was the cherry on top.
- THAT PREVIEW........ FUUUUUUCK. waybabe history. tonybabe confrontation. winner being a little bitch again and getting scolded by kim (hot). charliebabe olive branch and drama. ANOTHER ANXIETY-INDUCING RACE. it pains me that i always have to catch up so late because of my jobs atm but i can't fucking wait.
- tl;dr i'm still thoroughly enjoying the show and yeah, i block every single person who's being obnoxiously negative in the tag. 😇 it's legit a good show. bite me.
until next time
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elfyprincess · 9 months
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🩸period chat🩸
I wish more women would give menstrual cups & reusable discs a try. I think a lot of women are intimidated by them because they think they’re gross ? But personally I see them as less gross than traditional disposable products. Most of the blood gets flushed away. Yes you have to wash it and a little gets on your fingers, but it’s barely any ?? I think that’s a lot less gross than having to wrap your bloody tampon or pad in plastic wrapping/toilet paper, but that’s just my opinion. (Plus there’s going to be way less trash in your bathroom’s garbage can.)
And I absolutely love being able to wear them overnight. I hate pads & I’m too scared of TSS to wear a tampon to bed. (I’ve heard of girls actually doing that ??? My mom always told me that was super dangerous…) But I can just wear my underwear with nothing else on them when I have a cup or a disc in. It’s amazing.
And I think a lot of women are scared that cups & discs will hurt. I will admit, the menstrual cup can hurt really fucking bad if you don’t know how to use it right. Because it works by creating a suction, you have to break the suction every time you take it out. I didn’t know this the first time I tried a cup and…yeah…ouch. Do not suction cup your pussy like I did !! All you have to do to break the suction is hook your finger over the cup’s lid. DO NOT PULL THEM STEM.
I think it’s harder to get the placement right with menstrual discs, but because it doesn’t use suction there is no risk of giving your entire pussy a hickey. You just pull them out easy peasy. The first time I tried menstrual discs they kept leaking because I was putting them in wrong, but I decided to try them again this month. I watched a bunch of TikToks that used anatomical models to show how to put them in and how they sit in your body. They were super helpful and I finally got it right. (You have to make sure it’s behind your cervix & tucked behind your pubic bone !)
And although I’ve been a cup girlie for a very long time, I think I’ve been converted to a disc girlie. I loved my cup, but I did experience issues with it “poking out” sometimes. When it’s in correctly, you can’t feel it at all. But sometimes it’ll slowly make it’s way out & I had issues with the stem poking my labia. Not fun. I haven’t had any issues with the disc trying to escape & that’s most likely because it sits farther up in your body. I think this makes them more convenient & more comfortable than menstrual cups.
(And let me tell you…masturbating with a disc in is so good. 🤭 I don’t have anyone to have sex with but if I did I’m sure that would feel amazing too.)
I would still recommend every woman try both because not everyone’s body is the same. I think both of these products are amazing & can change women’s lives.
However, I do have a warning for y’all about menstrual cups. Not all menstrual cups are created equal. There was a case where a woman’s cervix was suctioned out of her body. The menstrual cup she was using did not look like a typical menstrual cup. It was the FemmyCycle cup. If a menstrual cup looks a little too weird, I wouldn’t recommend using it. (If that scares you, definitely try discs because there’s no risk of something like that happening !)
I hope this post wasn’t too weird. Like I said, I really love these products & I want more women to try them because they’ve changed my life. I know they’re intimidating, but I think every woman should give them a try at least once. And if they don’t work out that’s fine ! I just want to remove some of the stigma around these products.
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mamasturn · 2 years
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want this, want you.
pairing: austin inspired male oc x fem oc
warning: fluuuuff. friends to lovers.
requested by: @sunshinetoday1 <3 i know we had discussed some changes but hopefully it still is satisfactory
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“I got this for you.” Her eyes were fixated on his as she gently retrieved the carefully wrapped box from her hands. Those baby blues were gentle and spoke to her in a language she’d yet to understand. She heard but hadn’t comprehended.
Her fingers danced along the neatly tied ribbon at the heart of the gift box. She felt his lingering stare on her as she carefully peeled back the flaps. A chill went down her spine.
A small gasp came from her and on her lips formed a soft smile. Inside the box was a collection of her favorite Shakespeare plays—Hamlet, A Midnight Summer Dream, Macbeth, and Romeo and Juliet. All in limited addition printing. Each book had a letter written on the inside of the crisp cover. For my favorite bookworm.
She placed the book on a solid surface ahead of her and moved to pull him into her arms. His warm hands cupped her waist and his fingertips danced along her waistline. Her body reacted to his touch in a way she wasn’t used to.
The scent of her perfume tickled his senses in an enjoyable way. Her fingers scratching at the nape of his neck made his stomach turn beautifully. He wanted to hold her forever.
“I appreciate it so much. I’m going to add them to my collection.” From the age of fifteen, she’d collected books, specially Shakespearean work. And being the supportive friend he was, he fueled her reading addiction every time he had the opportunity. Reading brought her comfort at her good times and her bad times.
There were days where they’d browse book stores to celebrate her graduations, job promotions, and new opportunities. On other days, he’d sit by her bedside and recite poems as her tears soaked her pillow when the going got too tough. He’d seen her through it all and their love of reading was the thing that brought them together as children, and he was determined to ensure that it kept them together as adults. He prayed one day they’d write their own story to tell.
“Of course,” he cleared his throat and peeled his arms from around her. Still, however, his fingers danced along her forearm as he let it slide from his grip. “I’ll see you later for the movie, right? My place at 7?”
She nodded with a smile. “See you then.”
Love and Basketball was one of their favorite films. During the school season, he always made an effort to have at least one movie night with her a month, and Love and Basketball was always on the top of the list.
It reminded him a lot of their relationship—growing close because of a mutual love of something they’re passionate about.
Her back was against his chest as they lay comfortably on the couch, her favorite sherpa blanket covering their bodies. She giggled at a scene and mindlessly began to play with his hand, the one wrapped around her bare waist. She thought nothing of his hand placement, until his fingertips drew small circles along her waist, dragging down to her hip, where her sweatpants sat lowly.
She shifted uncomfortably. Not because she didn’t like it, but it was different. He hadn’t touched her like that, not until now. His hand placement grew more scandalous, moving from her hip to her thigh. His large palm pressed against the flesh, fingers dangerously close to her most intimate parts. With one squeeze, a soft breath fell from her lips.
This caught his attention, and his eyes met hers. “You okay?” She nodded wordlessly. He maintained eye contact while his hands massaged her body gently. He watched her squirm. A feeling of satisfaction swirled within him. It was him making her feel like this. The first man to touch her, even if it was innocent, and her body was leaning more into it.
He hummed and turned his attention back to the movie. A good seven uninterrupted minutes passed. He’d stopped caressing her, but it was the only thing on her mind. She was confused at how such a simple touch from a man who she thought was just a friend, could leave her flustered. Heart pounding, palms sweating, and thighs clenching. She was confused but wanted to explore it.
So, she slowly moved her hand to rest on his knee. He jumped at the touch. From his knee to his lower thighs, from his lower thigh to his upper thigh, caressing gently. He swallowed loudly.
“Bell,” he muttered her nickname lowly. A smile graced her lips. “Please, don’t.” Her movements halted but her hand placement remained the same.
“What’s wrong?” Her tone was teasing. The audacity of her, he thought. To try and beat him at his own game, the one he’d mastered over the years. She turned in his arms so she’d face him. “Isn’t this what you wanted?“
He raised an eyebrow.
“The touches. The glances. Sentimental gestures. The closeness.” She closed the gap between them. The movie was long forgotten and was nothing more but background noise in the heated movie of them. She watched as his blue eyes flickered from her lips back to her eyes.
“Kiss me…” she whispered. She’d moved so close that his warm breath was fanning her upper lip. “Please.”
His lips brushed against hers just barely. A whimper fell from her lips and she tugged on his shirt to pull him closer.
The kiss was slow and gentle. No rushing, no flailing arms, no tempting touches. Their mouths moved in sync and their hearts thumped as one. Heavy breaths and smacking lips echoed throughout his quaint living room.
Her arms hesitantly wrapped around his neck, pulling his body toward hers. She leaned back against the headrest, ignoring the discomfort it brought as she settled into the new position.
Above her he was, one hand against the armrest and another on her waist. The kiss hadn’t broken since it started. It was an expression of his love, one that she gladly returned.
“I want you,” she whispered against his lips. That was enough to make him pull away and look into her eyes.
“What?”
“I want you,” she repeated softly. “I want this, I want you…only if you’ll have me.”
A blush crept up his neck and to his cheeks as he nodded softly. He pressed another kiss onto the smooth skin of her neck, slowly moving lower. “I’ll always want you.”
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freifraufischer · 3 months
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The New Zealand Problem: Painful Choices Edition
Courtney McGregor has recently given an interview where she explains that she's not being permitted to trial for Oceania championships because the criteria require results from the last two years (which she doesn't have). There is a lot of anger and frustration from the gymternet about this but I have a theory about what is going on with New Zealand Gymnastics refusing to allow McGregor to compete for the Oceania trials. It's going to seem a little byzantine as I explain it.
First, remember that Gymnastics New Zealand wants to get a WAG to the Olympics and the New Zealand Olympic Committee is the gatekeeper here. The Olympic Committee has set the policy that you have to be in the top 16 in your sport before they'll send you to the Olympics. A few weeks back I asked Courtney how that was done in 2016 for her and she said that she wasn't directly involved in the conversations but that her impression was that it couldn't be based on a single score or result. She was allowed to go based on her 2015 Worlds, 2016 Pac Rims, and 2016 Test Event placements. The fed needs to be able to make a large picture case for the athlete to the NZ Olympic committee.
Let's start from the basis that Gymnastics New Zealand already knows they can't make that case for Madeleine Marshall or Reece Cobb based on their 2023 Worlds results. Marshall was their best AAer in 93rd and Cobb had their best apparatus result in 56th on Beam.
McGregor would have no spectrum of results to make a case. Even if she won Oceania champs it would be just one result and remember she told me it couldn't just be 1 result. Her last international result was 5 years ago where she was 102nd in the AA at worlds and 17th on vault. I think McGregor is a beautiful gymnast and competitive on the basis of what the New Zealand policy wants their athletes to be. I just strongly suspect GymNZ doesn't think they can make that case for her to the Olympic Committee because of her lack of recent results.
So what's the harm in letting her compete?
Well from a strategic point of view if your goal is "get a New Zealand WAG to the Olympics" ... there is a downside to having her in the field. And yes I know what I'm about to describe is a bit twisted.
Georgia-Rose Brown came 4th and 5th at the Baku and Doha World Cup bars finals last year. She's also in the group that GNZ has elected to send to World Cups this year. Based on "you have to show a set of competitive results" I think GymNZ thinks they can make a case for her. Ideally the case for brown is 2 World Cup finals in 2023, and hopefully a couple more in 2024, with her qualifying at Oceania Championships. I believe based on my understanding of the New Zealand Olympic Committee policy they would send Brown on that basis.
But if Courtney beats Brown at Oceania championships the case for Brown changes. It's no longer a case where (ideally) Brown has a bunch of World Cup results and qualified through Oceania championships. She now has World Cup results which by themselves get her nothing and Brown hasn't qualified in her own right at Oceania championships. They've passed on McGregor for not meeting the standard, and they simply aren't going to consider someone who didn't qualify in their own right.
Is this frustrating and warped and counterintuitive to the idea of competition? Yes. No argument from me. But we're already in a situation where an athlete can win a spot at the Olympics and not be sent. Gymnastics New Zealand looks like the rigid bad guy here for not allowing Courtney to Trial for Oceania Champs. But I doubt they are. I'm sure they would LOVE to be able to to send Courtney to the Olympics if she qualified. It's not personal against her. It's triage.
All of this doesn't mean I don't hope Courtney is able to convince them to send her to Oceania anyway. I hope they do. I'm just trying to get people to see that it's not a "no lose" situation for Gymnastics NZ.
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themculibrary · 11 months
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I WOKE UP JUST IN TIME AAAAA
Can I request the tall boys (Childe, Zhongli, Diluc, Kaeya + anyone else you think you wanna add or change (except maybe Childe because I love him)) reacting to you having animal-like features (like ears and tail)
Or
What they would do if by some accident they themselves end up getting animal features (like fox ears and tail for Childe, cat ears and tail for Kaeya or Diluc, dragon features for Zhongli, etc) do they become clingy and display cat behavior of rubbing themselves on you? Something like that aaaa I'm so sorry if this doesn't make sense it's my first time requesting
experiments gone wrong
(eehe these men *cough* zhongli *cough* will be the death of me) 
Warning -> sfw, fluff (kissing, character suddenly acquiring animal like features) 
Character X GN Reader | anthology 
Includes: Childe, Kaeya, Zhongli 
As an alchemist, you really should have remembered the most important rule -> don’t leave unmarked bottles out where people can drink them …
So you couldn’t be too surprised by the turn of events that followed
Childe 
He went to bed earlier than normal, but you didn’t think anything of it. Perhaps he had a terrible day and just wanted to sleep it off, there wasn’t any reason to pester him about it anyway. 
The next morning, you felt him slip out of bed, a yawn falling from his mouth as he made his way toward the bathroom. Turning, you claimed more of the bed and attempted to sleep just a little bit longer. That was until you heard a wild cry and shot up in an instant. You were already partially out of the bed when Childe burst into the room. 
He looked at you, you looked at him, and as your eyes drifted from his ears to his tail, you understood his reaction. 
“WHAT?” He shouted into the bedroom. 
Oh archons, to see him like this … you wished it was easier for you not to think about how adorable he was, but it was impossible. The soft ears that peeked from underneath his hair, the fluffy tail that didn’t know how to stop moving, and the frantic face he gave you were all just perfect 
“What happened??” He asked, running back to the mirror before returning his attention to you. Quickly, you made your way to his aid and did your best to calm him.
“I’m not sure, did you do anything strange yesterday?” You pulled his face toward you, cupping your hands against his cheek and running your fingers through his hair. 
“Not that I know of … uh, oh! I found this …” He reached for a small bottle on the bathroom counter and handed it to you. Shit.
“Did you drink this??”
“ … yes.” 
“CHILDE!” You burst into laughter, knowing it wasn’t the right time but also unable to control yourself. His expression was distressed and worried and, as best as you could, you tried to bring yourself back to calm. “This wasn’t supposed to be consumed …” 
“A-am I going to die?” 
“No, you’re just going to be, well, this it seems.” 
“How long??” 
“I don’t know, a few days maybe.” He dropped his head into his hands, his ears drooped and his active tail dropped toward the ground. Wrapping him in your arms, you offered him reassurance while trying not to laugh. “You’re very cute though.” 
You caught sight of his tail moving slowly back and forth and added more pressure to your hug. 
He found that it wasn’t as bad as he thought, in addition to the extra features, he also was able to gain other advantages - his eyesight was much better in the dark, his sense of smell more keen, his agility top notch 
You were sure he had grown attached to them in the short time he had them - so when the option came for him to revert, you were sure it would be a tough decision 
Still - to keep him trapped like this, with features that weren’t his own - you didn’t want to be cruel 
“Here,” You put the bottle down in front of him. His ears perking up at the item and his fingers reaching to grab it. “All you have to do is drink that and everything should go back to normal.” You said with a slightly wistful tone to your voice. It was somehow sad to think these adorable additions leave would be gone soon. 
“What if it doesn’t work?” 
“I’m not sure. We will just try again if it doesn’t though.” Quickly, he took the cork from the lid and moved the vial to his lips. His ear twitched as he smelled the concoction. “I’ll miss this.” Resting your head in your hands you watched as he downed the liquid in one go. 
“It’s hard for people to take me seriously like this …”
“Did people take you seriously before?” You joked, winking at him. 
The next morning, he stirred in bed next to you, his hair brushing against your face and making you wake up before you wanted to. As your eyes adjusted, you instantly recognized what you thought was hair was actually ears and the giddiness of your heart jump-started you awake. It didn’t work -- oh no, guess you’d have to keep trying. 
Kaeya 
Waking up next to Kaeya was your favorite thing. It was an opportunity for you to be close to him, to witness his relaxed expression, and know that in these moments he trusted you over anyone else. 
So, when you woke and found him pressed against you, your hands absentmindedly began to run through his hair, over his shoulders, as you meandered your way into the waking world. There was something soft that flicked against your hand, but you pushed it away. It happened again, confused, mouth turning into a scowl and eyes rudely being pried open, you looked down to see what was making you irritated. 
You were wide awake when you saw the cat ears sticking out from Kaeya’s blue hair. They were richly shaded, deep blues with tips of white and perfectly placed on his head. Shifting, you tried to get a better view and the action made him stir. 
“Mmm, stop moving.” He mumbled, wrapping his arms around you and holding you steady. Tapping his arm, you tried to get his attention. 
“K-Kaeya …” 
“What is it?” 
“Do you feel okay?” You asked, your voice shaking and hands hovering over his ears. 
“I feel perfectly fine, why do you ask?” He kissed your chest before nuzzling back into his place. 
“You … you’ve got cat ears.”
He laughed and pushed your comment away. His legs moved under the sheets and you swore you saw something poke out from the bed. “You’re pulling my leg, I didn’t know you could be this funny so early in the morning.” 
“I’m not, see.” Stealing his hand you placed it on his head and watched as his fingers ran over the ears which were sticking straight up. When his eyes shot open and his hand began to move faster, pulling, tugging, examining the feature, you tried not to laugh as his confused expression turned into a slight panic. He shot up, his legs moving so he could sit on the bed but winced when he did so. That’s when the both of you saw the tail. 
“Hold on, let me get ready, just … don’t freak out.” 
You rushed around the room to gather up your items, your gaze continuously falling on the incredibly still, unmoving frame that was Kaeya. 
After calling on Albedo to come and offer assistance, only to find that the features would be around for a few days … Kaeya started to get more accustomed to them 
He was for sure rattled but bounced back rather quickly - in fact, the features seemed to get him even more attention than he had before and he found that the added bonuses were helpful when he needed them for his knightly tasks 
Not to mention it seemed he was more affectionate than normal, and not in the way he normally was, it was more in a … cuddly, interested, curious manner 
One evening, you found yourself reading over several books that Albedo had recommended and became rudely distracted when Kaeya pushed his way under your arms and nestled into your lap
“Hey there.” You called down to him, hand dropping to his shoulder as he nuzzled against you. 
“Give me attention.” 
You laughed at his pouting expression, his lips turned downward and ears twisting to show he could be trusted. “I’m currently trying to figure out how to fix this, I can’t do that if I’m giving you all my attention.” His eye squinted for just a moment before he moved more into your lap and nearly pushed the book in your hands onto the floor. “Kaeya!” The playful laughter that filled his ears was as tantalizing as the drinks he let touch his lips. 
“You can figure that out later. How can you possibly resist me right now anyway?” He asked, pushing against you until your back pressed into the couch and his hands weaved their way around your body. His hair tickled your face as he nuzzled into your chest and, even though his hips dug into yours, you didn’t seem to mind the closeness he was trying to find. 
“Okay. Fine, I’ll look into it more later.” 
“What excellent news.” He practically purred as he slid his way to your neck and let his body rest against you.
 Zhongli 
It’s been so long since he saw himself with such features - and, to be honest, he didn’t notice them for some time. It wasn’t until you returned and the items in your hands fell to the floor upon seeing him that his attention was captured
“Zh - Zhongli!?” You babbled, making your way to him and not knowing what to rest your eyes on first. Was it the pair of elegantly shaped horns that sprouted between his brown locks of hair? Was it the golden slits in his eyes that reminded you of the reptiles roaming around the rocky paths of Liyue? Or did you look at the scales that decorated his face in such perfect placement? 
“Has something transpired?” His expression was one of concern, but also one of disillusionment. Did - did he not notice? 
“Are you feeling nostalgic today?” 
“Not particularly, what makes you ask?” 
“Well … you look kinda like … I mean hold on.” You quickly disappeared down the hallway before returning with a small handheld mirror, one that Zhongli had purchased for you some time ago. Handing it to him, you waited until it started to register on his face the changes to his appearance, and that’s when you noticed the long claws which jutted out from his nail beds.  
“Huh, this is peculiar …” 
Sitting down across from him, you placed your hands on the table and watched as he examined the reflection of his face. “So you didn’t do this?”
“I must say that I did not, though It is rather pleasant to see …” His voice trailed off and you watched as he fussed with his hair, touched the horns on his head, and opened his mouth to check and see if - yup, he had canines much like a dragon too. That’s when it hit you. 
“Did you … drink anything strange?” 
The mirror found its place upside down on the table, his glowing eyes shifted to you as he took in your question. You let him think and finally, he gave you his answer. “I do recall there was a strange vial on the counter when I awoke. Ah - my dear, are you unwell?” He asked as your head dropped onto the table. 
The strangest thing about Zhongli holding these features was that he seemed … perfect for them and it was becoming quite the problem to hide
You were much too cautious that someone may discover who he really was with these pretty telling additions to his wardrobe, so you asked him to stay home for a while until you could get some answers
He didn’t seem to mind, and when you were finally able to gather up all the items needed to prepare an antidote for his condition, you were finding it very distracting to make the concoction at home 
The bubbling liquid warned you it was much too hot and so, with adept fingers, you turned the nobs and burners down so as to not overheat or scald the liquid inside. The aroma that filled your nose was … unpleasant to say the least, and so you finally succumbed to the need to wrap your nose in a clean cloth. 
Turning your back to the equipment, you made your way toward the drawer where the rags were kept but when your eyes caught sight of Zhongli standing by the window, you nearly fainted. 
He was wearing a robe, the material had slid down one of his arms and rested in the crook of his elbow. It gave you pause and allowed you to see the toned torso which was normally hidden by the layers of clothing he wore on a regular day. 
Since he found no need to properly get dressed, he had reserved himself to lounge about in clothes that felt ‘more suitable’ to him, as he explained. 
The light from the sun flashed across his chest, laid softly against his face, and illuminated the golden speckles in his hair - you wondered if it was because of the horns, perhaps they were reflecting the light and making him look ethereal in the warmth of the sun. He crossed his arms and shifted his weight as he looked beyond the window, almost as if he was yearning for something far beyond his reach. 
“I think I’m nearly done.” You explain, tying the towel around your face and returning, reluctantly, to the concoction behind you. 
As you began to spoon out the unnecessary ingredients until you were only left with the pure grade potion, you didn’t notice how he had moved to your side until the small vial was filled. 
“Here you -- oh!.” He stood right in front of you. His eyes were dangerous, burning, focused. “I didn’t see … you …” He reached around to the back of your head and skillfully undid the makeshift mask you had created moments ago. When it was off, he took the vial in his hands and placed it onto the counter before returning his attention to you. “Are you … okay?” You asked, tracking the movements of his face as he leaned down toward you. 
His lips hovered barely over yours and the closeness of him made your heart flutter. “You are mine, are you not?” His voice rattled your bones from the intensity, it was oppressive and supportive all at the same time. 
“Y-yes?” 
His lips pressed against the corner of your mouth, “You belong to no one else?” 
“No …”
“Good.” 
It’s a good thing the instructions never said anything about, ‘consume immediately’ because you were very distracted for some time. 
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Paintings and Peach Juice
Pairing: Ethan Torchio x afab!reader (I'm so sorry)
Wc: 1.5k
Cw(s): SMUT, swearing, oral (reader receiving), lowkey praise kink, but pretty vanilla (tell me if it sucks)
Summary: You, the reader, work on a painting during the night, but Ethan wants to bring you back to bed.
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Paint stroked across the canvas in perfect placement with your brush. It laid onto the stretched canvas like the softest butter on the warmest toast. Every stroke, every colour, the portrait was only enhanced and made that much more beautiful by your talent. The smell of the oil paints filled the room, vented out by the window across from you; the scent only relaxed you further. Your thoughts roamed to the most peaceful crevasse of your mind while your hands seemed to know just what to do.
By the corner of your eye, you caught your reflection in the mirror in your living room. You had a paint smear on your cheek, and the messiest hairstyle you'd ever seen. But you looked happy. In the bright moonlight from the window, your eyes glistened with thought and concentration. You smiled to your reflection before continuing your painting.
In just a few days, Ethan would finally be allowed to see the painting. He'd promised he hadn't seen it, and you had to trust that he hadn't ruined his birthday present, that you've been working so hard on, for himself. While Ethan was milling about and awake, you'd had to cover the canvas in a cloth, but when he was gone or asleep, you sat right on your cushioned stool, legs crossed, totally ensconced by the artwork at your fingertips.
Just as you began touching up the whites of Ethan's eyes, on the portrait, you heard his soft footsteps against the hardwood floor of your flat. You quickly but carefully covered the painting with your cloth, that once was white but now appeared yellow with a streak of blue paint. Languid and nimble were your movements, just as Ethan rounded the corner into the living room, where you were.
His perfectly sculpted lips pulled into a smile, only revealing to you that he was still partially asleep. You grinned right back at the man without any clothing, save for his boxers. Your gorgeous swain padded toward you, then wrapped his strong arms around your middle. His lips, that were still slick with lip balm, met with the most tender part of your neck.
"Bed's cold without you," Ethan whispered in your ear. You sighed with a small smile, turning your head to capture Ethan's lips with your own very chastely. Within the kiss, Ethan began to smile before he spun your stool around to place his hands on your thighs.
Once the kiss broke, you sighed, "Five more minutes?"
"Amorino." His tone was the perfect bridge between authoritative and begging, only enhanced by him removing his hands. Sweetly, you pulled Ethan toward you with your legs. His warm, rough hand traveled up your leg as he came forward, only to rest on the underside of your thigh, that wrapped around his waist.
Gently, your fingers touched to his jaw. They danced just every so slightly as your hand began to rest, cupping his jaw, with your fingertips touching the roots of his illustrious hair.  Ethan's other hand pulled you infinitely closer, with his fingers gripping your waist as if you were the most expensive glass in the world; not hard enough to break you, but not soft enough to drop you.
In a steady yet slow movement, both of your leaned forward just enough till your lips came together, softer than The Creation of Adam. Your other leg hooked around his waist, to join the first, and Ethan picked you up with ease. He'd never had any trouble picking you up, even in a sleep coated state.
The kiss continued with a warm passion that translated between both of your souls, that you could feel from the pit of your stomach to the tip of your brain. Warmth from Ethan's skin was absorbed by your own skin, only forcing your heart to ache, along with the sweet watermelon taste from his lip balm that he applied every night before bed.
His footsteps were very sure and steady as Ethan brought you to the couch. The room got warmer, despite the cool Autumn air coming in through the window. Your hands wandered Ethan's exposed body in calm and known movements, while Ethan's hands squeezed handfuls of your thigh, leading to your ass. Lightly, your nails drew small patterns and pictures on Ethan's warm back, his muscles rippling beneath your touch.
"Dolcezza mia, I love you, I love you with my entire being," Ethan mumbled against your lips. You smiled like you'd never smiled before. Without a word, your lips wandered to the corner of his mouth, down to his jawline.
Your own lips peppered kisses that were wet and sloppy, but full of love, followed a vein on his neck. Ethan hummed above you, but his breath caught when, between your teeth, was Ethan's earlobe. You chuckled lowly, grazing your teeth gently across it. Ethan captured your lips again, the passion raw yet still demure. You broke the kiss to remove Ethan's t-shirt, that you were wearing.
"I love you even more," you responded.
With the revelation of the words leaving your lips, Ethan's ferocity was renewed. His lips pressed into yours with gracious meaning, leaving your heartbeat to multiply as he grinded himself into your heat that was clothed in just a pair of thin underwear. Ethan's tongue slipped by your lips, then perused your mouth. He tasted of peach juice and mint, which went extremely nicely.
Just as you were enjoying the taste of Ethan's tongue, his mouth left yours, opting to kiss and nip at other parts of your skin. In a hot and wet trail, Ethan's mouth began to trail down your body. His eyes looked to you for consent, to which you adamantly nodded, your breathing already heavy and hot.
In a steady yet serene movement, Ethan broke the hold your legs had on him to pull your underwear off of your form. For a second, before returning, your boyfriend took a moment just to admire you in your natural, beauteous state. His smile returned with his body on yours.
His face was level with your dripping, wet heat, as Ethan looked up at you with dark eyes, clouded with lust and extremely dilated pupils. You bit the corner of your lip just as he licked up your slit, catching your juices on his tongue, then enjoying your taste. You'd both been drinking peach juice earlier.
Then, without warning, the sweetness turned to pure sex. You let out a gasp as his tongue entered your folds, your hands tangling in the roots of Ethan's long hair. Still with his tongue circling inside of you, Ethan moaned at the sensation of you pulling against his hair, which sent vibrations through your core that seemed to reach even your fingertips.
"Jesus fucking Christ, Ethan," you groaned as his thumb found your clit. Ethan circled the sensitive bundle of nerves with the pad of his finger, until his tongue and fingers switched roles.
It became his tongue that circled your clit, and Ethan's long, rough finger that entered your tight hole. You let out a pleasurable moan, which was only encouragement for the man between your thighs.
"You're absolutely fucking amazing." Who the fuck knew if your words were even intelligible? How could they be when the most gorgeous human being on the planet was taking you with his mouth, right on your couch, in the middle of the night?
That familiar pressure in your stomach began to form. It was a nucleus of sensation, your orgasm just ready to burst. Ethan noticed your breathing become more ragged, only to add another finger but keep the same pace. You began to shake, ready for what was to come, as your body began to coat in sweat. Against your clit, Ethan could be felt smiling, just before he delivered the final blow.
His lips completely captured your clit, sucking on it gently.
Orgasm hit you like the train at the end of Anna Karenina. Your legs shook around Ethan's head, your walls pulsing around his fingers, and total bliss overtaking every single one of your senses. Ethan only chuckled, lapping up the juices you produced for him. That only increased your pleasure tenfold.
"You're so gorgeous when you're getting fucked," Ethan commented after kissing your clit. You smiled, looking at him with slightly blurred vision. He laughed before picking you up in a bridal style, letting you rest against him.
Ethan brought you to the bedroom, where he then brought you a clean pair of underwear and a washcloth. You then asked, "What about you?"
"Oh, Amorino, you don't even have to touch me to make me come," Ethan laughed as he cleaned you off. You cast your eyes to his boxers, where an incredibly wet patch was visible. You felt a bit bad, but nothing could bring you off of this high. Ethan cast the washcloth away, to be dealt with when the sun rose, before changing his boxers out for clean ones.
As you both got back into the bed, Ethan pulled you close to his chest, where his lips connected with your forehead. "I really do love you," you whispered.
"And I love you."
Sleep came in a swift wind, making your senses shut down each by each. Last to go was the sound of Ethan's heart, beating in a deep rhythm, and his breathing that tickled your hair ever so slightly.
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summary: where y/n and spencer live in a world of soulmates; but how magical can it really be when the last words of your lover are the only indication of their existence.
word count: 7,054                                                                                               reading time aprox: 26 mins
warnings: character death, angst
a/n: this is my comeback fic, I hope you like it. I made sure to make it extra angsty to compensate for my disappearance :) also this fic can be read by anyone!
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Chess is a meticulous endeavor, not only in its cold and calculated nature, but also in the player’s ability to detect insecurity flash across their opponents' eyes, the unconscious idiosyncrasies that foretell future moves, and the slow descent into hopelessness that disintegrates the former’s conviction. Most will point out the cruelty of the game, how callous it must be knowing your end eight moves before it happens. However, others will oppose this notion as it is the game; one must lose to win.
It’s all a matter of who plays their pieces right.  
Before that pivotal moment, players can only maneuver through a black and white arena. Fingertips would drum in anticipation while the other would hover over their pieces, striding across the board with purpose. Regardless of the disparity between the players’ experience or skill, there is always one factor, unmoved by player attributes, that is not a disadvantage nor luxury for either party: time.  
Even in the checkered plane, nothing will matter. The players will cease to move, forced to end the game by the lack of time. This mechanism in nature acts as a failsafe if either individual is unable to conclude the game. In other words, there are only two outcomes: winning the game by will or letting time take that will away from you.  
However, what is not noticed is the growing ache in the winner’s chest, disappointment beginning to fester inside of them because of their loss in deciding. In that split realization, the winner is placed on an equal plane as the loser, wondering if they ever really won at all.  
This middle plane is beautiful and tragic simultaneously—maybe the beauty is in the tragedy. But as my palm leaves a bloodied handprint pressed against Spencer’s chest, all I can see is the world around me turning red.  
Please be okay, please be okay for me
My mouth would silently mutter in tandem with his desperate and reaching touches, a mantra I convinced myself could surpass time, all while knowing my will was seized from me the moment Spencer uttered the words imprinted at my hip.  
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October 27th
2 days before  
Water vapor collected around the coffee mug pressed to my lips. Although it’s ironic to call it a ‘coffee’ mug considering it was filled to the brim with scalding tea. The tips of my fingers and the skin of my palms tingled at the heat given off. My thoughts drifted to the explanation of the first law of thermodynamics that Spencer had kindly explained during the walk home from the night before.
  An unconscious smile brushed over my lips briefly, reminiscing the blissful moments of the team gathered around a bar table after finishing up a briefing about a local case. A warm cloud of content passed through my chest while a lightness traveled from the bottoms of my feet to the summit of my forehead. The herbal tea traveling down my esophagus countered the cold nipping of the autumn air, bringing a welcome equilibrium to my wellbeing.  
I shrugged the knitted blanket over my shoulders further, staring into the calming view that the apartment window provided. Across from the building was a small, abandoned park. Most of the neighbors had steered clear of the area as it didn’t meet anyone’s aesthetic standards—well, except for mine. 
 Half of the trees have lost their leaves, counting down the days to winter. The park benches were covered with tangled vines, even some lacking required wood boards. In summary, the place was an overgrown jungle that no one was willing to inhabit. In result, the once communal area was condemned by the normal folk for being ‘too dead.’ However, I would oppose those who claim the lack of life in the park considering life is not only just living, but it is to invite death.  
In my observation of the park, a soft reflection suddenly appeared beside the yellow oak trees. In my peripheral, I can see my roommate creeping up behind me with his limbs moving catlike. I bit my bottom lip to conceal the amused huff threatening to escape me, instead settling to blowing over the steam rising from my cup.  
Just before I saw his head bobble over my shoulder, arms stretched out above me, I whipped around his lanky figure and ducked under his arm. “You know for an agent; I expected a better performance.” An inaudible yelp interrupted the fit of giggles I was in as some of the tea spilled onto my blanket. “Now look what you’ve done! Do you know how hard it is to get dark liquids off cotton?”  
“Just some hydrogen peroxide will do the trick,” Spencer shrugged, insisting to pull off the semi-damp blanket off my shoulders. “Plus, you messed up my bit!”
  “Oh, I’m sorry. I forgot I was living with a five-year-old,” I teased, nudging him.
  Spencer craned his neck to the side, letting the sore tendons and muscles stretch out from just waking up. All without forgetting to let out an obnoxious yawn in addition to his exaggeratedly extended arms. “I’ll have you know that this five-year-old has three PhDs and three bachelors,” he boasted.  
“...and daddy issues.”  
Before I can find a way to defend myself, the same blanket that brought me solace previously was transformed into an unmerciful whip. Spencer chased me around the couch until I slipped and toppled over the cushions, landing on the throw pillows. I buried my head into the leather arm, shutting my eyes, while I replicated the nature of Spencer’s antics by emitting ridiculous snores. 
 “You can’t touch me while I’m sleeping,” I murmured, feigning my slow lull to slumber. “It’s socially unacceptable.” During my spiel, Spencer had playfully grabbed my ankles and dragged me to a sitting position.  
“SPENCER!” I gasped, clutching one of the pillows in hand and smacking him over the head with it. “You do not handle people like that! No wonder why you also have momm-”  
Spencer’s palm gently nudged me back onto the couch mid-sentence, leaving my frame to hit the cushions with a loud thud. A boom of laughter filled the empty space of my chest, my breath thinning as dopamine jumped from my brain’s synapses. An enchanted smile caressed the corners of my mouth mirroring the one Spencer was sporting.  
In these insignificant interactions, I would think back to the times where our comfortability was limited and reveled on how much our friendship grew over the years. There was a sense of solace that overwhelmed me knowing that introducing—and working on his—humor brought an auspicious light to the darkness that often clouded his mind.  
My lungs deflated with a hefty exhale, my arm slinging across my eyes in relaxation. Clamored feet and the rug shifting against the wood floor caught my attention. Freeing my line of vision, I was met with a raggedy-haired genius with barely a foot between us. I reached out to comb through his locks, the webbing of my hands catching the tangled curls. “You need to shower greasehead.”  
“Actually, the buildup of sebum and laloin in the gland of the hair follicles—coined as the sebaceous gland—offers moisture and protection, given that it is regulated upon its natural equilibrium.” Spencer leaned into the soft touch of my fingers, like how a kitten purrs against their owner’s affection.  
“Well, I don’t know about you almost-birthday-boy, but I don’t think you want to go into the next chapter of your life smelling like you just changed out of your first diaper.” I pushed myself up the couch, gesturing Spencer to the hallway bathroom. “This is the big 31!”  
“Y/N, we had a party for my 30th. I think I’m good to last for the decade,” he huffed, walking towards his bedroom to grab a change of clothes.  
“That’s not the spirit, Dr. Reid!” I yelled across the room. “I swear Spence, you’re the only person who’d turn down a party... And, you even turned down Rossi’s invitation to go all out in his backyard.”
“Another year to celebrate the ever-closing gap between my time on earth and my imminent demise—oh, and how can I forget celebrating it in an open space full of ticks and pollen,” Spencer sarcastically jested, his voice bouncing off the thin white walls.  
“At least you’d know your soulmate, right? Then I wouldn’t be the only one to deal with your ‘Debby Downer’ ass,” I added on, rolling my eyes at his usual pessimistic rulings.  
“I would prefer nihilistic, but if that vernacular serves you then to each their own.”
“Hey, maybe after you die, I and your soulmate can mourn over you—bond and all that—and then I can steal them away,” I teased.  
I looked to the lightning bolts etched into the crevices of my thighs, my fingertips tracing each design until it fell onto the carved words at my hip. In a way, the stretch marks made beautiful vines attached to the faded letters, covering the obvious red scratch marks that had resurfaced from my bad habits.  
I kissed my fingertips before planting them back onto the markings, chuckling to myself of the intimate gesture. Unconsciously, I began to rub at the tattooed words once again, hating how their protrusion made my skin crawl.  
“I mean I’m dead, what can I really do?” Spencer called out, stopping in his tracks when he reached the bathroom door. He faced me as he spoke, going on about his birthday celebration tomorrow—half of his speech unheard to me—until he requested my immediate attention. “You have to stop picking at the words, Y/N. You’re going to end up hurting yourself.”  
“I know, I know,” I sighed, letting my dominant hand fall to my side. A pout fell on my lips at the loss of the small satisfaction scratching granted me. “But the words are just so uncomfortable sometimes. I mean you got lucky with the whole soulmate placement.”  
Spencer brought his free hand to his chest, thumb tracing over the small words typed on the skin. “Yeah, I guess I did get lucky huh.” A soft smile grazed over his lips while his eyes were still trained on the unknowing figure resting against the couch.  
“What does your marking read aga-”  
“Spence, what’s it say on your che-”  
I groaned in playful disbelief at the coincidental timing. “You know at this point I’m starting to think we’re telepathic, Spencer.”  
“That’s actually what my tattoo is,” he laughed. “It’s my name.”  
“Oh yeah,” I nodded, remembering the first time we brought it up in the early days of meeting one another. “Must’ve saved a lot of name tags in elementary school” I teased.  
Spencer shook his head, shuffling into the bathroom with a lightness in his steps. With the closing of the door, my gaze fell onto the marking once again. 
 Regardless of the mechanics of soulmates, I was never worried about the possibility of not meeting them. I was already at my happiest knowing shared moments like these were good enough. However, unbeknownst to my ideal wishes, an irking desire still lingered in the back of my head while fingers hovered over the imperfect skin.  
October 28th
1 day before
“Kid, you can’t sit there and tell me that finding your soulmate can be ‘scientifically extrapolated.’ That’s not the point,” Morgan amusingly shook his head at Spencer, ruffling the top of his head as he brushed past him.  
“Okay,” Spencer tutted, “tell me. What ‘is’ the point then?”
“Well, all I’m saying is that finding your soulmate—if you have one—is supposed to come supernaturally.”
“Morgan, did you just try to win over boy genius here by talking about the supernatural?” With a tilted smirk, I nursed the half-filled flute between my fingertips. My gaze flickered over to a pleased brainiac sharing the same mischievous glint found in my eyes. I let my head fall back against the couch cushions, my eyes fluttering close to the sound of grown children bickering. 
 “Alright,” Morgan raised his hands up in defense. “All I was pointing out was that things like these can’t be solved by numbers and science.”  
“The same can be said about Newtonian physics, but look where we a-”  
Morgan flung a ball of crinkled wrapping paper Spencer’s way, aiming for his head. Spencer attempted to dodge the projectile—emphasis on attempted—only to have it hit him square in the face.  
“So much for those Newtonian physics, huh?” I teased while getting up to open another bottle of champagne. Spencer slouched in his chair, the paper cone hat on his head shifting to the side. A grimace replaced the smirk he initially wore, muttering about how he was going to get Morgan back.  
“Y/N! Bring that bottle over here when you’re done.” Morgan called out as I walked into the kitchen, pausing the ongoing discussion of the case we planned to tackle. “Also, bring another juice box for Reid here!”  
A chorus of laughter followed my ears which each step, a grin finding the corners of my lips. I rose to the tips of my toes to reach for the unopened bottle in the alcohol cabinet. I made my way to the freezer, taking out the bucket of ice I stored away hours ago. When closing the appliance door, my eyes landed on a picture magnetized to the surface.  
It was a physical reminder of the time that Spencer convinced me to dress up as Amy Pond, the eleventh doctor’s sidekick, for comic con. He too was dressed up in the doctor’s attire: a brown corduroy suit, a bowtie, and a sonic screwdriver. We both had silly grins planted on our faces, it seemed like nothing could tear down the joyous bubble we were in. Upon reflecting on the memory, the kitchen door swung open revealing a merry Spencer.  
“Hey, I was supposed to be getting you that juice box,” I joked.  
Spencer shook his head, pushing past me to get to the cupboard. “Very funny,” he droned, sarcasm dripping off his words. I leaned against the counter, setting the bucket of ice to the side. I analyzed his movements, noticing how often he fidgeted with his fingers or how his legs would clumsily turn inward at times.  
“You know,” he paused, turning around to face me, “In some countries ruled by military dictatorship, staring could be deemed as a call for execution.”  
I crossed my arms, challenging him. “Well last time I checked; we aren’t in any of those countries. Is that right, Dr. Reid?”  
“Unfortunately,” he chuckled. “Did you need anything?”  
“No, why do you ask?”  
“Well, by the way you were checking me out, I would think you needed something.” He sauntered over to the opposite counter across the kitchen, hoisting himself up on the granite. I watched as the casual smirk fell off his face after failing his initial attempt to sit. The second attempt proved to be better, although that didn’t stop me from rolling my eyes at his impotence.  
“You know,” I repeated his words, grabbing the champagne and ice bucket as I began to stroll out of the room. “I’m really starting to think you have a better chance at ‘extrapolating’ your soulmate rather than finding them.”  
“Wait!”  
I whipped around to face him with furrowed eyebrows. I nodded for him to continue, watching as a sly expression reappeared on his face. “You forgot my juice.”  
I sighed, setting the items back down on the counter before reaching for the fridge. “You are a grown man, Spence,” I gesticulated at the boy. I grabbed Spencer’s favorite sparkling water and left it aside. “You couldn’t get your own?” I raised my eyebrows at him, ducking out of the refrigerator door.  
He crossed his legs, still propped up on the counter. “Well, you did call me a five-year-old and it is my birthday,” he argued, shrugging his shoulders tauntingly.  
“I said that the other day, and considering it’s your birthday, that would mean you’d be old enough to conduct yourself,” I countered.  
“Actually, it’s grammatically inappropriate to say, ‘the other day’ when the event in question occurred yesterday,” he began to ramble. With an unimpressed nod, I began to slowly back away from the scene until I was abruptly stopped once again.  
“Wait!”  
“What!”
“You forgot to put it in a cup,” he meekly suggested, his face evident of mischief.  
“You’re clearly enjoying this aren’t you?” I groaned, shuffling towards where he was. “I’ll give you something to enjoy...” I whispered to myself.  
With a plan set in motion, I sauntered over to where Spencer sat. Once I was in front of him, I made sure to give no indication that I was moving beside him. Instead, I leaned forward, letting our chests press together as I reached up for a mug. I would be lying if I denied the faint blush warming up the apples of my cheeks or the tightness of my throat from this proximity. In a nervous hash, I could’ve sworn hearing Spencer’s breath hitch as my chin brushed against his neck.  
Feigning a confident disposition, I dropped back to the heels of my feet, finding myself to be inches away from the enamored and naive genius. “You need this?” I murmured, trying to maintain a collected tone of voice. However, Spencer did make it difficult with the intensity of his penetrating gaze or the way his breath fanned over my sensitive skin.  
For a lasting moment, I began to dissect the small specks of hazel hues in his eyes and how a dark pool of brown surrounded his irises. The tip of his nose was flushed in crimson and his mouth hung in what seemed like anticipation and hesitation battling it out. “Uh, yeah... thank you.” His Adam's apple bobbed as he gulped, linking his fingers with mine to take the mug.  
Without breaking eye contact, he set the mug aside and away from view. I opened my mouth to say something, but I soon discovered a dessert residing in the back of my throat. Slowly my composure unraveled, leaving me and Spencer in a purgatory of uncertainty and elation. I heard my heart thump against the walls of my ribcage as my eyes traveled to the parting of his lips, his tongue ever so often swiping against the skin.  
I shook my head out of the trance we were in, popping the hypnotic bubble forming around us. With a trepidatious smile, I gestured to the living room, suggesting going back out there. “Do you want to...” I tied my hands behind my back, stepping away from him slowly. He nodded in response; his mouth tightly pressed into an awkward line.  
With less than obvious movements, we both tiptoed our way back to the liveliness of the other room, soon forgetting about the juice and cup all together.  
-
“Bye guys, thank you for coming! See you tomorrow.” I politely bid everyone a farewell, sending them safe wishes home as they excited through the front door. “Pen, are you coming with us tomorrow?” I received a tipsy nod and a few stumbling feet, but nonetheless confirmation for the case. Spencer was to the left of me doing the same, enduring some last-minute birthday teasing from Morgan before he made his exit.  
With the slow creaking of the door, I leaned against the wood, letting my legs slowly slip down the floor until I was sitting. I tilted my head up, staring at an exhausted Spencer before making grabby hands at him. He snorted at the childlike request, aggressively pulling at my wrists until I landed into his chest.  
“Alright birthday boy, just because you’re older doesn't mean you can get all strong on me,” I warned, nuzzling my heavy head onto his shoulder. A pleasant silence surrounded us, our bodies maintaining an equal balance as we leaned onto each other. On another note, it reminded me of Newton’s principle of force that Spencer explained to me a few months back. How Newton’s cradle, a simple office trinket, exemplified conservation of momentum and energy. In this fragment of space, it felt like that with Spencer—it always felt like that: a comfortable momentum.  
“Hey Spence?”  
The quiet continued to spread throughout the atmosphere.
“Spencer?” I pressed my chin against his chest, feeling his arms find their way to my lower back. He hummed in response, his eyelids resting at a closed position. “I’m sorry about that thing in the kitchen... I was just messing around.”
  He took a while to react before sighing and pressing a tired kiss to the side of my head; with that, I knew things were okay. “Oh! I didn’t give you your present yet.”  
I melted away from his arms, scurrying off to the couch. In an exaggerated reveal, I pulled a small parcel from beneath the cushions, glee filling my eyes as I watched the bow on top spring out. I extended my arms towards Spencer, eager to have him open it.  
He walked tentatively towards me, taking purposefully leisurely strides. At one point he began to act like he was in a slow-motion sequence, causing me to threaten the integrity of his present. With raised hands, he sat next to me on the couch and gently pried the gift from my hands. “What did you get me this time? Let me guess. From the size and shape of his package here,” he turned the box around in his hands, shaking it up, “and the sound to force ratio-”  
“Just open the damn thing, Spence.”
He smiled at my usual impatience, letting his fingers glide against the edge of the parcel. Finally, with gentle hands, he picked apart the wrapping paper, careful not to rip the heart sticker that held the presentation together. He gathered the bow in his palm, and gently pressed the sticky side of the accessory to my cheek.  
I cringed at the feeling, but that soon dissipated hearing the mollified chuckle escape Spencer’s mouth. With a determined huff, Spencer pulled the last pieces of wrapping paper from the box and was left with a frayed book in his palm.  
“The Parliment of Foweles...” he whispered; an unreadable expression crossed his features.  
I curled into my own body, anticipating some form of reaction. “I... I remember you told me the first time we really sat down and got to know each other that your mom used to read that to you when you were younger.” I picked at the stitches on the couch, a lump forming in my esophagus as my tongue swelled. “It’s first edition...” I smiled, insecurity beginning to conquer my excitement from before.  
“Sorry, if you don’t like it... I was just-”  
A pair of arms pulled me into a secure embrace while a tender hand came around to cup the back of my head. An inaudible expression of gratitude was lost in between babbles of endearment and soft caresses. Spencer pulled away with pools of adoration, he clutched the book in hand as he pulled me under his arm. He ran his thumb along the deckles that adorned the sides of the pages, his palm tenderly feeling the roughness of the old woven spine.
To open the book, he singled out a random page and lightly flicked a few pages to the side before I halted his movements completely. “Wait!” I requested. “I want you to read it after the case so we can do it together,” I sheepishly tucked a hair behind his ear, hiding the careful blush on my cheeks. “If that’s okay with you.”  
“Yeah...that’s fine with me,” he breathed, his eyes locked onto the soft curves of my face. I pulled my hand away, tugging my sleeve further down my arm. “Oh! That reminds me.” Spencer places the book behind him and headed over the coat rack next to the front door. Sliding his hands through various pockets, he finally pulled a small box from one of the compartments.  
He tentatively approached me, turning the object in hand. “I know it’s my birthday, but... I wanted to do something because you’ve made everything better in these past years,” he confessed, fidgeting as he came closer. “Being with my mother always felt like home, and I just... you became that for me, so thank you.”  
My fingers reached over to his open palm, approaching the velvet box as if it was fragile. I glazed over its general shape, turning it a few times between my hands. “Spencer...I don’t even know what to say.”  
“Well, you can start by opening it,” he smiled.  
I shook my head, gently prying the box open. Inside laid a beautiful heart-shaped necklace with words etched into the metal. Once I read the words, a heavy breath escaped my lungs, and my shoulders lost all tension. “Spencer...”
  “I thought that it would be easier to have the words of your soulmate above your heart rather than you tracing over your hip,” he professed. “I also know that even if you deny not having any connection to this soulmate thing, it often brings you comfort when needed.”  
My attention went to him the second he uttered those words. “How did you know,” I mumbled with an enamored chuckle.  
“Well, whenever we’re in the field, I could tell the times you get nervous or need reassurance by the way you subtly touch your hip.”  
“I thought staring was punishable by death,” I joked, referring to his argument earlier today.  
He brushed it off with a wide smile, combing his hands through his hair. “I know we have a hefty case tomorrow based on what Penelope showed us last briefing, so I hoped that this would make you feel better,” he confessed, shrugging his shoulders and leaning back into the arm of the couch.  
“Thank you, Spencer...really,” I wrapped my arms above my head, trying to attach the unlocked chain around my neck. “Can you...?”  
With gracious hands, he lifted the chain from my fingertips and wrapped it around my neck. The skin of his fingers would occasionally brush the back of my neck, sending euphoric chills down my spine. I felt myself squirm under his touch slightly, although it wasn’t enough to be obvious. Lifting my hair to the side with his wrist, he clasped the necklace together, letting the cold metal kiss the skin.  
I turned around, appreciating the trinket in my hands. I shook my head in disbelief, watching as some of the moonlight that seeped through the window reflected off the metal. “Thank you, again, Spencer.” I nodded, bringing him into a meaningful embrace. My head rested in the crook of his neck, an aroma of pine, vanilla, and old books surrounding us. “This really is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever possessed.”  
He scoffed, gently wrapping his hands around the small of my back. “Everything pales in comparison to you.”  
-
October 29th
...
I twirled the metal heart in between my fingers as Hotch’s words failed to reach my ears. I would look up occasionally to see the pictures, but we’ve been dealing with an unsub who showed no mercy to anything morally reprehensible. I sighed, swinging my feet under me as I pretended to be enveloped by the case file in my other hand.  
“Since we’re dealing with a L.D.S.K-”  
“A long-distance serial killer,” Emily intercepted, nodding towards the team.  
“We’ll have SWAT patrol the surrounding rooftops. Emily and I will stay with the defense team here.” Hotch pointed to the house of the unsub’s target. “Morgan, Y/N, and Reid will go through the floors of the apartment building with the strike team—witnesses stated that he was located on the 5th floor, but we have to be ready for anything.”  
I looked over to Morgan with a determined expression. His face hardened at the words and his lips was pressed into a tight line. In my peripheral, I could see the way his veins would constrict against the skin as he clenched his fists.  
This case hit him particularly hard considering we couldn’t save the unsub’s last victim. It was a 4-year-old little girl, and we were misinformed about her possible location. By the time we got to her, she was faced down into a park well with a single bullet hole above her heart. I watched the slow diffusion of her blood, and how the water turned to a murky black. I couldn’t imagine Morgan’s guilt considering he was so sure of himself when reaching a breakthrough with the unsub’s whereabouts. The parents of the child would soon blame Morgan for his ignorance, spewing derogatory slurs in their distress.  
“We’ll get him Hotch,” Morgan assured, “This time, we’ll get him.”  
Spencer noticed the certitude in his voice, sharing a look with me to give extra attention to Morgan out in the field. I smiled at him, warmed at the concern that the genius had over his friend.  
“I’ll be working with local PD to hold a press conference to keep the public on the lookout,” JJ expressed, crossing her arms.
“Since...last time, we figured that unsub finds enjoyment in toying with us or singling us out. So, keep each other in check and make sure to report back in your earpieces every five minutes.” Hotch himself seemed perturbed by the unsub’s earlier actions considering he had his own toddler to deal with. “Penelope has sent the coordinates to everyone. Remember the profile, and don’t leave yourselves vulnerable. We’re dealing with an elusive unsub that won’t stop at nothing to satisfy himself,” Hotch spoke with a quiver in his voice.
  I bit the inside of my cheek and breathed heavily through my mouth. My hands began to drift to my hip but momentarily stopped as I remembered the chain around my neck. I slumped into the chair as Hotch dismissed the team, sending them out for their respective assignments.  
“You, okay?” I whipped around to the sound of JJ’s voice. She leaned against the doorframe with an expression full of concern. Looking behind her, she noticed Spencer noticeably pacing through the bullpen waiting for a specific someone. He attempted to disguise his eagerness by counting tiles on the floor or squares on the ceiling, but to JJ he was easily discernable.  
I let a dry laugh, shaking my head. “After what happened, I’m a bit worried—not about me—but Morgan and Spence.” I swiveled around in the office chair a few times until I landed in front of JJ.  
“You know you fidget the same way as Spence,” she pointed out, grinning at the similarity. I shook off the oncoming warmth that flooded the skin and looked elsewhere. “You’re right to worry about both of them though. But you know how stubborn and determined they are.” As she began to walk out, she left a lingering message that soothed my nerves. “Plus, Spencer may have that IQ of his, but we all know runs things between you all.”  
She wasn’t wrong. I’ve always kept a watchful eye over the both of them—maybe Spencer a little more—but nonetheless, I deeply cared about both of them. It was relieving to know that Spencer’s circle of trust exponentially grew from Morgan to JJ to me. It symbolized the growth that Spencer was mostly oblivious to, but it meant more to me than I can explain, seeing how he opened himself up to happier possibilities.  
A sharp exhale left my lungs while my lips formed into a sly smirk. Without another minute to wait, I left the round table behind JJ, leaving Spencer to stop dawdling. “You ready genius?” I walked out into the hall, not sparing a glance at the figure trailing behind me.
“With you? Always.”  
-
“Nothing here,” a voice confirmed in my earpiece. My gun hung low in my hands while I tiptoed through the floor of the apartment building. “You know Y/N, if I knew that the unsub was going to the pick a building in the area we resided in, maybe I would’ve considered having the party at Rossi’s instead,” Spencer joked.  
I bit the smile growing on my lips, focusing on the assignment on hand.  
“Maybe after the case, instead of reading that book in our apartment we can go over to that small library/cafe we’ve been meaning to go to,” he continued to drone, forgetting about the connection of everyone’s channels.  
“Reid, if all you’re gonna do is flirt with Y/N, leave the damn channel,” Morgan warned. Hearing the worry in his tone, Spencer straightened up, coughing to cover up his soft apology. Being separated didn’t help the irrational thoughts that built up in the back of my conscience; I can’t even comprehend what’s probably going through Morgan’s head.  
“You good?” I mumbled into the com; my eyes straightforward while I advanced towards the hall. Morgan didn’t respond, an inaudible huff coming through the speakers.  
“I’m moving up to the top floor. Y/N and Reid, go back down to the basement and see if we missed anything,” Morgan broke the awkward silence with an austerity in his words. The silent hum that came afterwards was worse than earlier. I turned off my earpiece, sensing a conversation about to ensue between the two gentlemen.
The thickness in the atmosphere was similar to the air that surrounded me and Spencer when competing in recreational chess. Whenever I attempted to put his king in check, he would block the move by maneuvering another piece in front of it. This would lead to a game of cat and mouse until I would figure out that the entire time, Spencer had been deluding me into false security while checking my king piece. Ultimately, I would lose to Spencer. However, there were games where I’d outmaneuver him or win by dumb luck.  
I’d like to think that I developed some sort of intuition for his behavior from playing against him, but he’s deemed unpredictable every game. He was always sharp, eight steps ahead and aware of all possibilities. I guess that’s what make him an effective profiler, always thinking in the future.
I ran down the stairs, still armed, when Penelope’s voice ran through the earpiece. “Updates! Updates people.” The joy in her voice always relived me of the gloom that usually surrounded me in the field; hopefully she has the same effect on Morgan.  
“Hey, Pen.” An invisible grin was evident in my words, knowing she’d pick up on it.  
“Hello, my love, seems like at least one person is happy to see me,” she verbally jabbed at the lack of response from Spence and Morgan.  
Still no response.  
“Sorry, they’re working out their marriage at the moment,” I teased, hoping for the usual distasteful comment I usually get from Morgan.  
Still nothing.  
An unnerving feeling crept up the back of my neck. “Penelope, can you check if their coms are still workin—shit.” Before I could finish, a long buzz of static came through the speakers. The only comprehensible words that were picked up was the beginning of my name before cutting off.  
I bit my lip, pulling out the small piece of technology and tapping it a few times. “Come on... dammit.” After playing around with the earpiece, I grew frustrated with it and stuffed it into my pocket.  
I paced in the small landing between the stairs, thinking of a new gameplan. I ran my fingers through the ends of my hair, feeling the split ends prick at the skin. I felt a mountain growing in at the bottom of my stomach, leaving my esophagus constricted without air. “What would Spencer do,” I mumbled to myself, gripping onto my necklace.  
“Spencer...Spencer...”  
Before I could finish the mantra, a shot rang out from above me, and the crashing off glass followed. In the split moment, my legs grew a mind of its own and sprinted to higher ground. Suddenly, the sweat perspiring off me turned cold, and my heartbeat slammed itself into my spinal cord as I ran. My feet forgot its exhaustion while my mind devoured every irrational thought, and combined it with adrenaline.  
The single thing that drove me over my limits was knowing that the person who fabricated and would shoo away these thoughts was somewhere I didn’t know I could get to in time.  
-
Spencer’s POV
I tiptoed into a vacant suite of the building, still antsy about the scolding I received from Morgan. The conversation after didn’t help considering it was all a reminder to be aware and focused on the task at hand. I knew Morgan was filled with the need for redemption despite the team forgiving him of his ignorance. So, I shook off the creeping feeling and abided by his instructions.  
Deciding to update Y/N and Morgan about my whereabouts, I spoke into the coms only to have static come out of it. I tried once again but failed to reach anyone. The room around me shrank as a sharp exhale left my lungs. I swallowed the buildup of saliva in the back of my throat, feeling uneasy about not knowing what’s to come.  
Seeing at the area was clear, I looked out of one of the windows. Initially I cringed at the accumulated dirt and grime in the glass panes, but that all dissipated when I spotted the quaint park that Y/N loved. No one else had any interest in the community lot, seeing as people would coin it—or what Y/N would tell me—the park of death. But to her, she saw the opposite as she always does.  
The light feeling of reminiscing my interactions with Y/N soothed the disconcerting atmosphere, keeping me grounded. Although the sentiment ended as soon as it started when I spotted one of the apartment walls was spray-painted with black letters.  
Zugzwang
A blaring shot rang out and glass shattered into the room. I ducked into the floor, shutting my eyes. My head spun as the boom impaired my hearing. The window was forcibly open, the shards resting beside me. Left disoriented, I groaned, only feeling the after wave of vibrations on the ground. However, I soon found out that the quake of the floor wasn’t from the initial shot, but the rapid clobbering of feet inching closer to the suite and a shadowy figure preceding it.  
Y/N emerged from the doorframe, panting. Eyes were laced in fear while they bore into my own. My stomach twisted into knots from previous events while I contemplated what had occurred. The presence of Y/N wasn’t even strong enough to relinquish the egging feeling crawling in my skin. I anticipated Morgan to appear, considering he was closer to the scene.
Where was he?
Another thing I didn’t anticipate, a second shot.  
“Spencer?”  
-
January 3rd
Three months after
My thoughts antagonized one another while I stared out into the world from the eerily quiet apartment. The living room was cold and empty despite the array of furniture scattered about and the broken picture frames lining the walls. The vapor rising from the cup of tea drifted into the air, vanishing into nonexistence. It’s funny how that could happen in a matter of milliseconds.  
The pain the lived inside the chambers of my heart was no match for the burning of skin I felt when holding onto the steaming cup. The only worthy adversary would be the rush of self-resentment that coursed through me when picking up the book. I deserved it though. I deserved the spikes through my stomach while my fingers trailed the deckled pages, reminding me of the first time I held the book, its previous owner present with me.
I would remember our time together.  
I would remember the promise shared between us.  
I would remember the bloodied handprint pressed against my chest.
Now all I had was the physical manifestation of what’s left: the necklace. As cruel as it was for me, I kept it in the book, using it as a bookmark while I lost myself into poems. After a while, the inked words lost their meaning to me, becoming an empty cacophony that encased the jewelry.
Every time I grasped the chain in my clutches, a numbed ache would make itself known at the pit of my stomach. It clawed at my intestines and made the entirety of my body system obsolete. With that, I was abandoned with the sinister hauntings of my own mind—a part of me that I was once praised for. 
 A genius. A prodigy. Hidden behind the real mess of a guilty man.  
I ignored the smashed chess board and pieces that laid still at my feet, concentrating on the snowflakes that littered the park across from the building. The grounds looked beautiful, covered in layers of pure white. I sipped at the tea once more letting my mind deteriorate with a sophisticated nonchalance. 
 What a tragedy it was to know my soulmate, especially right under the tip of my nose. What a cruel joke life had played.  
I wished I had more time.  
It was easier to let the guilt consume me rather than pondering on what I lost—who I lost. Had I lost myself too? Maybe, it didn’t matter. In some masochistic way, I enjoyed the guilt because it was a way to remember that at one point someone made for me existed. I used it to relive the moments I could never get back.  
All that remained was an empty shell of a man, staring out into a dull world, wondering how time took everything away from him.  
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tour troubles | jjk
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genre: fluff, angst
rating: G (no swearing or sexual content)
pairing: Jungkook x reader
theme: idol!au, boyfriend!au, one-shot
word count: 1.8k
warnings: none
Synopsis: When surprising your boyfriend Jungkook on tour doesn’t quite go as you planned, it’s up to you now to help cheer him up.
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After a grueling 6 months apart,  you were more than happy to be in MetLife Stadium watching your boyfriend live out his dreams on stage. The Map of the Soul Tour was no joke; Jungkook was practicing all day and performing all night, and combined with your final exam season passing by it left little time for you to talk to each other.
Finally wrapping up the school year, you got in touch with Jimin to see if he could help you plan a surprise visit for Jungkook on one of their final tour stops.
All of the members had become like family to you, but it's no secret that aside from Jungkook you are closest with Jimin. He was like the older brother you never had, and you always ran to him whenever you needed relationship advice or a good hug.
As you watched Jungkook on stage you noticed his smile falter sometimes as he would be slightly out of position or dance off beat. You could only pick this out because you had spent hours in the practice room dancing with Jungkook. 
You and Jungkook had come together because of your shared love for dance. He had first asked you out inside a very sweaty-scented Big Hit practice room, almost half of your dates ended with some form of dancing, and whenever one of you was frustrated you could always find the other teary-eyed, lying on the marley floor of a dance studio. You had always been there to whisper words of encouragement in his ear when he was feeling down, and you wished nothing more than for her voice to reach the stage at the moment.
Soon enough, the concert came to an end and you were flashing her pass to the backstage security guard to get to see the boys. Despite your  uneasy feeling watching the concert, you couldn't ease the butterflies in your stomach at seeing your boyfriend for the first time in months.
Ever since you had planned this, you spent your nights imagining exactly how Jungkook would react: whether he would hug and kiss you first, stay frozen on the spot in shock, or start crying right away. 
As you stepped into the Big Hit dressing room, you were instantly greeted with several smiling faces. 
I didn't take you long to do a head count and realize that there were only 6  boys standing in front of you, and that your boyfriend was nowhere to be found. 
Making eye contact with Jimin, you saw the softness in his eyes as he motioned for you to come closer so he could explain. 
“He’s not feeling well Y/N, and none of us can get him to talk about it. We’re so worried. I swear I’ve only gotten like 2 words out of him tonight, and I even tried to make a nutella sandwich for him to cheer him up. I’m sorry this isn’t what you had planned, but can you talk to him please? For us?” 
You took a deep breath before pulling back the curtain divider in the dressing room. Your nerves catching up to you, you considered just turning around and telling the boys you would surprise him at their next concert instead. 
You had dealt with Jungkook being troubled and frustrated more times than you could count, but you were worried you had lost her touch after being apart from him for months. 
Your mind also flew the other way. How many times has he felt like this after a concert and never told you? When he said "It was fun I'm just really tired now" after every concert was he truly feeling like this? 
With that, you pushed forward because you knew that you had to be there to support Jungkook today, even if you couldn't be there for all the other times. 
The sight that greeted you behind the curtain was not a pretty one. 
Jungkook was staring blankly at the monitor in front of him, dark fringes of his hair matted against his sweaty forehead, tour hoodie zipped up completely with the hood on, and worst of all, his eyes were clearly puffy and swollen, with tinges of red coming through from underneath his makeup. 
Jungkook barely even glanced your way as you sat down an ample distance away from Jungkook on the couch. It was clear from his lack of surprise at your appearance that one of the boys (probably Jimin) had probably told him about your surprise visit earlier in an effort to cheer him up after the concert, but even that could not get him out of this slump.
 Of all the scenarios you came up with for how Jungkook would react to your surprise, somehow this one never crossed your mind. 
You turned your focus to where Jungkook was staring - a TV monitor replaying video footage from tonight's concert. You watched as his eyebrows stayed furrowed as he glared disapprovingly at himself for making even the smallest of mistakes in the video, almost wincing as the TV monitor continued to play the footage.
"Do you want me to help point out things in the video?"
Jungkook didn’t even move a muscle.
You took the silence as a yes, and pulled a pen and the closest thing you could find to paper, a napkin, out of your purse to write on. 
Working as a dance teacher had taught you more than a couple tricks about how to give constructive feedback, and you were a firm believer in the "give 2 compliments and then 1 thing to work on" approach. However, you knew the issue with Jungkook wasn't that he was truly bad at dancing, but rather that he was way too hard on himself for the smallest details that the audience wouldn't even notice - so she threw in a few more compliments than usual. Unsure of how Jungkook would react to seeing the list, you still threw some of those very nit-picky details on there, knowing that if he was still frustrated he would throw the list out all together if he thought you were just coddling him. 
And so you both sat together in front of that grainy TV monitor, in complete silence aside from the sound of your pen scratching against the napkin.
June 10, 2020 MOTS:7 Tour Feedback Report for Jeon Jungkook ( by Y/N)
- match angle of arm placement in Black Swan Opening Choreo
- footwork on DNA ending choreo could be cleaned up 
- the ARMY at the corner of the screen during Euphoria had the biggest smile when you looked at her. I think she’s gonna remember that moment for the rest of her life. 
-  I like the way you wink at the camera during So What! Gave me butterflies babe. 
- could add more energy into the last Fake love chorus ( hot bod btw!!)
And the list kept going on and on as you diligently focused on the screen and writing notes, taking occasional glances at your silent boyfriend.
Upon glancing over your shoulder and seeing your list, Jungkook smiled at your thoughtful and sweet comments. 
All of sudden, a wave of consciousness and realization washed over him. 
He finally has the girl he loves in front of him again after months apart, and instead of cherishing his limited time with you he was spending it watching himself dance, which is what he had already spent the last 9 years of his life doing. Most of all, you never let your smile falter once in front of him, even though he knew you may be upset with his response to your surprise, and you went along with whatever he wanted to do - even if that meant watching a very very low-quality video of his performances on a loop. 
Grabbing the napkin gently out of her hands and placing it on the table, Jungkook cupped your face and looked gently into your eyes. 
"Thank you",  he said softly, as if not wanting to startle you with his sudden character change.
In your head there was absolutely no need for Jungkook to be thanking her for anything she was doing.  She knew dating an idol would have its challenges, and she made a promise to Jungkook that she would be by his side through it all, even if that included rewatching Euphoria on loop. 
It was now your turn to sigh. 
“There’s nothing to thank me for babe, it’s just me. I wanna be here for you when you’re like this - I didn’t just date you so I could be there to celebrate your Billboard #1s and daesang sweeps, I’m here for these moments too.”
Jungkook further eliminated the space between you both by wrapping his arms around you and pulling you into his chest. In that moment he realized that maybe all he needed was you. That all these hurdles he had been facing alone would have been much easier if he had just let you in on his problems.
“I just feel bad Y/N, I haven’t even seen you for months and the first time I see you I’m like this? I’m sorry.”
The gears started turning in your head. Batting your eyes overdramatically at your boyfriend, you smiled. 
“Okay how about we make a deal then babe?”
Jungkook looked at you curiously and let you carry on. 
“From now on, every time you feel like this you come to me okay? We can figure this out together, but I can’t help you if you don’t let me in,” you expressed, grabbing his hands in yours.
“Also, if you felt like making it up to me you could buy me some ice cream? It’s not the same when I eat it without you,” you joked.
Jungkook’s melodic laugh vibrated through the room. 
“Just ice cream? You’re selling yourself short babe. I’d buy the whole world for you, my love.”
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As you emerged from behind the curtained section of the dressing room, hand in hand with a smiley Jungkook ( a stark comparison from how he was a mere hour early), you were greeted with Jimin jumping up and cheering loudly upon seeing the maknae.
Unable to contain his excitement, Jimin ran towards the two of you, chiming “you did it Y/N!! You brought back our maknae!”  
“Good to see you smiling, Jungkookie,”  beamed Jimin as he stepped forward to ruffle Jungkook’s hair. 
Jungkook chuckled and looked up at his hyungs. 
“I think I owe you all some ice cream. Ready to go? It’ll be treat.”
If his hyungs weren’t already excited to see Jungkook feeling like himself, now they were ecstatic. And you definitely felt the same way as well. ♡
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shushiyuii · 3 years
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Winter snuggles
Here you go Blue! Here’s the fic i promised i’d make you a couple of days ago uwu I hope you like it!
Warnings: Mentions of freezing and soft vore
Words: 1.2K
Gift for: @mysticalblue09
Tommy had been feeling rather lazy lately, perhaps for the upcoming winter but he sadly couldn’t laze around since he’d had to be prepared for the upcoming winter since a lot of animals hibernated during that time and that meant that Tommy would have a servicer lack of food if he didn’t do anything about it. As much as he hated it, it wasn’t going to be the worst thing to happen in the world.
He’d done this many times before how could this time be any different? Except for this time, it was going to be so different. He was going to be spending the winter with his adoptive family and two best friends for the winter.
The 5 had agreed to come live with Tommy since well they were already living in the wilderness anyways. Being with Tommy meant warmth, food, and protection from the winter.
He couldn’t be more than excited for it, it was going to be his first winter with them and he wouldn’t have to go wandering the forest to try and find where they had gone, since this time they’d actually be close by rather than travelling around to try and stay away from the other dangerous giants and creatures around.
He loved to spend time with his tiny family, being able to playfully hunt with them, get advice and understand other creatures as he couldn’t before since his parents had abandoned him since he was a hatchling.
They had met Tommy under, well, let’s just say not so nice circumstances. They didn’t have a bad view of Tommy, to begin with, after all, it was Tommy who had saved them all that time ago from that other strange creature, so they couldn’t be more grateful than to at least give this naga some company.
Wilbur honestly found it funny that they had all taken in a naga who was gigantic compared to them and called him their little brother and son. They loved to speak to the naga as much as he was a nuisance. Tommy was overall a great person, and they couldn’t ever be more grateful to meet him!
So, they agreed to stay with him for the winter, and the two parties prepared for it with as many supplies as they could, with Tommy mainly focusing on hunting food whilst the SBI focused on herbs, wood, clothes, medical supplies and water. Since the water would be frozen for the winter.
And for the two of them it was hard food so they couldn’t be more than ecstatic for the upcoming winter where they could all talk, sing, play and relax for as long as they pleased.
Time passed quickly for autumn, so quickly did the trees die and be filled with such cold yet beautiful shades of snow. It was memorising but sadly Tommy couldn’t admire it for long without having to go back inside his cave for warmth since he was a cold-blooded animal.
That never stopped Tommy though! Well, it did but that never stopped him from staring from within his cave as his family had snowballs fights until a raging blizzard came storming in later in the day to force all of them to stay within the confines of the caves.
Everything was going as usual as they’d been in the cave for about 2 weeks now but this storm was a bit different from the others, it was colder and stronger which meant Tommy had to focus more on maintaining his body heat than spending time with his family.
They also noticed Tommy hadn’t been eating as much as usual and were worried about it, when they asked if he was okay, he only responded with a quick answer much to their dismay, every attempt to speak with him wasn’t working.
Heck, Tubbo even tried yelling directly into the naga’s ear which got a hiss and a gentle placement on the floor, normally Tommy would be having a go at him for it.
It wasn’t that Tommy wanted affection though, he allowed them to climb around on him for warmth, he even cuddled occasionally. But it never changed his behaviour.
One day though, it was different as it was one of the coldest of days yet, the family themselves were struggling to keep warm and didn’t want to try and create a stronger flame as it wouldn’t just not work, but also be a waste of supplies.
Tommy hadn’t eaten either, focusing too much on his body heat, and the family was a little too scared to bother him in case they made him feel worse, which resulted in a majority of them shivering.
As much as Phil and Techno were used to the cold, they had to admit this was one of the worst winters they’d seen and even found themselves cuddling up to the others to try and keep them warm, Techno who was usually one of the warmest being a nether-born found it cold himself which just goes to show how cold it was.
It wasn’t until Ranboo started showing signs of sickness was when they decided to, they had to do something, but before they could even come up with a plan they heard a long hissy yawn. Tommy had woken up to see his shivering family and a probably sick Ranboo.
“Oh shit, is everyone okay?!”. Wilbur immediately went on the offence, not wanting to worry the naga, “Just fine Toms! N-no worried”. He shivered which just got an unamused glance from Tommy. “Okay, I can see you guys practically freezing to death”.
“Don’t worry about us, mate, focus on keeping yourself warm okay? It’s freezing out”. Phil added, in hopes of getting the naga to calm down. “No, not when you guys can get sick! Come here.”. Before they could try to stop Tommy, they were cupped up into the naga’s hands and brought towards his chest.
He was admittedly warm with Tubbo and Ranboo not even resisting with cuddling up to the naga, which made his worries increase. “Okay, you guys are going inside, no complaints”. It wasn’t the first time but wasn’t a regular thing, they preferred to do that sort of thing during emergencies and well he supposed this was an emergency.
Tommy moved them closer towards his face, much to the disappointment of Tubbo and Ranboo but once they realised what was happening, immediately hopped into the mouth of their best friend, not wanting them to wait.
Tommy swallowed, purring as he felt them land in a stomach. The sensation of them being within him, safe was a feeling he so much as enjoyed.
Then went Wilbur and Techno, then lastly Phil, “You don’t really have to do this mate”. Phil said with a worried look, “Don’t worry about it, it’s a way we can all stay warm, but I get to stay full. So, I don’t have to worried about eating much”, he smiled.
Then carefully placed Phil in his mouth, with Tommy taking care to lick at Phil’s almost frozen wings, not wanting his wings to freeze and soon sent him down with the rest. He then curled back into his coils, his hand protectively where his family was snuggled within.
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starlightrows · 3 years
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Something Sweet
Chapter 2 - Scoops and Scones
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Pairing: Modern!Paz Vizsla x fem!reader
Word Count: 2.8k
Warnings: None!
Summary: You are welcomed with open arms into the group Paz told you about, and feelings start to bloom as the spring turns to summer!
On Tuesday you make sure to wear something kind of cute that you can wear to meet everyone after work. You want to make a good first impression, but also not be overdressed. You’re excited and a little nervous all day, the steady stream of customers keeps you busy. Springtime is a great time of year for business because lots of people have birthdays and anniversaries, lots of weddings too!
Just after 7 pm the door to the shop opens, and the bell above the door chimes. Paz steps in and marvels at how you have the shop decorated.
“Did you do all of this yourself?” he asks
“Yeah!” you reply, delighted in his interest “I love a good project, and I’ve been planning how I wanted this to look my whole life”
“Well it looks incredible, you did a great job!” he says
You blush a little and smile “Thank you”
You finish closing out the register for the day, make sure all of the lights in the back room are turned out and the heating is turned down before stepping out with Paz and locking up. He walks beside you, leading you a ways down the street towards the bar his friend Boba owns. Paz pushes open the door for you, and you see a group of people laughing and chatting sitting at a big round table.
Everyone looks up from the conversation and enthusiastically welcomes you and Paz in. They all stand up coming to introduce themselves and shake your hand. Of course you’ve already met Din. Boba owns the bar and hosts these Tuesday night hang outs, he’s a slightly older man with a bald head and a firm handshake but he’s quite welcoming. His business partner Fennec, a pretty woman with sharp features and a kind smile. Cara, who owns the boxing studio on the opposite side of the street. And Peli, a short firecracker of a woman with curly brown hair, owns the auto parts and maintenance shop around the corner.
They already have a place set for you at their table and start filling you in on all of the goings on in this city and their little group. Boba gets you a beer, and insists friends don’t pay. They tell you about the locals who come around to their various businesses, events happening at the clubs and bars a little further into the downtown area, they recommend restaurants you have to try, and ask you all kinds of questions. Where you’re from? What brought you out here? How did you get into botanicals? You answer their questions, laugh with them, talk with them and have a great time.
Then the conversation takes a bit of a turn… “That guy came back?” Cara says with an annoyed tone. The group groans, and hums with disapproval.
“What guy?” you ask, not wanting to pry if it’s a sensitive topic but she also said it in front of everyone so you figured it would be a fair question.
“Gideon” Cara spits
“He’s a high and mighty investor with a silver spoon in his ass that’s been bothering everyone that works on this street and next couple blocks,” Fennec explained “He’s trying to convince everyone that lives and works around here that we should sell out our businesses to him,”
“Why?” you ask indignantly
“He’s got this idea of turning the whole downtown area into a high end shopping and restaurant district,” Paz says “Which would be fine if this was a really big city with people that could afford to go to places like that every weekend. But this isn’t that type of city, and not the right kind of community for that,”
“Hmm” you sip your beer “sounds to me like he wants to change the city itself. Push out the locals and turn this into a major city” you say
“That’s exactly what he wants” Boba comments “that and to make tons of money”
“But he hasn’t been able to convince a single business owner around here to budge” Peli tells you “All of us are here because we want to be here. We worked hard to get to where we are and maintain our businesses. We’re not about to sell out to a sleaze like him”
“He wasn’t happy when the people I inherited by storefront from sold to me instead of him” Paz admits “and he’s probably pissed you got yours on the open market before him”
“So that means he’ll probably come around at some point and try to talk me into selling” you conclude
“Probably” Paz says darkly. He doesn’t like the idea of Gideon hanging around your shop… talking to you… trying to intimidate or manipulate you into selling out your shop to him.
“Don’t worry you guys” you assure the group “I worked too long, and too hard to hand over my dream to an asshole like that”
“Atta girl!” Cara claps your back and the group gives you a cheer of approval.
The conversation turns back to casual chatter. The group splits up so some people can play a couple rounds of pool and others can still sit and chat. You have an amazing time, it’s been so long since you actually got to hang out and have fun. You could see yourself coming to these group hang outs every week and becoming close with everyone in the group.
Eventually the night does come to an end. Din has to get home to his son and his girlfriend. Paz needs to get home and go to bed so he can be up early to get the bread in the ovens in time so they’ll be ready for customers in the morning. And you need to be getting home as well, there’s a big delivery arriving tomorrow morning and you need to be at the shop earlier than usual to receive.
You bid everyone goodnight and promise them that you’ll be back next week to hang out again. Paz walks with you out to your car.
“Thanks for inviting me out tonight” you say
“Told you, you’d fit right in!” he grins
“Mind if I come by tomorrow morning for one of those amazing breakfast sandwiches?” you ask him, as you reach your car “I’ll bring you a cup of coffee”
“It’s a deal!” he says smiling at you
There is something in the air… you don’t want to leave… he’s so kind and so attractive… but no, you steal yourself and get into your car. Pulling out of the parking lot with a gentle wave. Paz felt it too… damn he wanted to kiss you. But he literally just met you a few days ago… no matter… he’d see you in the morning.
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The next few weeks go by, spring turns into summer. You continue hanging out with the group on Tuesday nights, they teach you to play some card games you’ve never heard of and you try fun and interesting cocktails Fennec invents. No matter what you always land up laughing and having a wonderful time. Paz has been teaching you to shoot pool, and walks with you every week to join the group. Your little crush on him is growing, and people are starting to notice.
“You like him,” Cara points out. You’re sitting at the table with all of the girls playing cards while the guys are shooting pool.
“Who?” You try to sound nonchalant
“Paz” Fennec chimes in
“He’s my friend!” You try to defend yourself
“Yeah,” Peli says “but you like him”
“Okay…. so maybe I’m attracted to him, so what? He’s my friend and he brought me into the group, I don’t wanna mess that up” you explain
“He likes you too” Cara says, placing down her cards and effectively winning the round. Everyone around the table groans and slides over game chips to Cara.
Over at the pool table the guys are having a somewhat similar conversation.
“Sorry to hear about your diagnosis, pal” Din says while lining up his shot.
“What?” Paz looks over to Boba thinking their friend was actually sick. Boba is eyeing him with a quirked brow and a smirk.
“Lovesick” Boba shakes his head while Din takes his shot “incurable and terminal… damn shame”
“What the hell are you talking about?” Paz moves around the table to get a better view of the ball placements
“You” Din says with a laugh “swooning over Miss Flowers over there”
Paz gets distracted and completely misses his shot. His head whips around to look at you. Giggling and talking with the others. He looks back to his friends, and shakes his head.
Paz stands back up and rubs the back on his neck, Din’s not wrong, he’s got it bad for you. “You think she’d go for a guy like me?” Paz asked them
Boba and Din rolled their eyes, “You’ve lost your touch Vizsla” Din says “she hangs on your every word. Yes she would go for you”
Still at the end of the night Paz walks you to your car, just like always, and says goodnight without asking you to hang out one on one.
Another week or two passes just the same as always. Hanging out on Tuesday’s, stopping into the bakery to pick up some bread every now and then, seeing each other in passing with a smile and wave.
One Tuesday evening Paz is hanging out in your shop while you close, like usual when both of your phones ting with the sound of a text message. It’s Boba saying he had to close the bar for the night and he wouldn’t be able to host the group tonight. Apparently it’s not an emergency or anything, he just had to leave town to go “take care of something”
“Well that’s ominous” you joke
“Boba’s an odd guy” Paz laughs “he’s got a history, but he changes the story every time you ask him”
You shake your head and laugh, agreeing that Boba quite the character. “Well… I haven’t had a free Tuesday night in months” you joke
“Well since I know you’re free right now” Paz says, working up a bit of courage “wanna go get ice cream or something?”
“Oooh yes!” You say excitedly “Have you been to that place that makes the fancy rolled ice creams down on 10th?”
God he’s so relieved you said yes…. “Yeah, it’s really good”
The two of you chat and laugh as you walk from your storefront down a couple blocks to reach the ice cream place. You both order fun and pretty rolled ice creams and sit at one of the outdoor tables, enjoying the warm evening and each other’s company.
“See now that I’ve got everything up and running, I really want to start trying to make pastries to sell at the shop” he tells you
“Have you tried anything yet?” You ask
“Well I tried making chocolate croissants from scratch but apparently they are ridiculously hard to get right” he laughs “so I’m looking for simpler things to start with”
You laugh with him, and agree chocolate croissants are deceptively difficult to make correctly. “What about scones?” You ask
“Scone? Like those British cookies?” He asks
“Well sort of, they’re more like blank canvas bread” you explain “because the base is so simple and basic you can jazz them up anyway you want. Sweet, savory, fruity, chocolate… I even like doing meat and cheese scones”
“That’s actually not a bad idea” Paz says thoughtfully “You got any good recipes I can steal to work off of?”
“I do actually. Old family secret” you say mischievously “but lucky for you, the old family is not here to curse me for leaking the secret” He laughs and shakes his head.
“I could teach you sometime” you offer, having a moment of bravery “I mean, they’re not difficult to make or anything, but I… uh… I thought it could be fun”
“No no” he says quickly “that would be great if you could teach me. Are you free this weekend?”
Your cheeks heat up a bit and you smile “Yeah, I’m free this weekend”
“Come over on Saturday evening?” He asks “I’ll cook you dinner as a thank you?”
“Yeah, that'd be great”
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Saturday can’t come soon enough… you flip back and forth in your head between this being a “real date” or not… you thought about texting the girls but decided against it.
On Saturday you wear something cute but comfortable, something you don’t mind getting dirty from baking but presentable in case this actually is a date. You pick up a nice bottle of wine on the way over to his apartment.
At the door he greets you with a hug and thanks you for the wine, welcoming you inside. His apartment is nice, well decorated and clean. Better most men’s apartments you’ve seen in your day. It looks like he’s got his shit together.
“Dinner is almost done,” he says. You look around to see that he doesn’t exactly have a dining table, the space isn’t quite set up for it. But he does have a peninsula that functions as a dining table. It’s already laid out with plates and cutlery, with a small sweet smelling candle in the middle.
“A baker and a chef” you laugh as both of you start in on the beautiful chicken parmesan he made.
“I wasn’t always” he says with bit of a bashful smile “Just a few years ago I was exclusively a boxed Mac n cheese and canned peas for dinner kinda guy”
“That’s a pretty drastic change, what prompted that?” you ask, enjoying your dinner just as much as the conversation.
“Moving out here actually,” he says “I used to live back east in the big city… had a shoe box of an apartment with no real kitchen and a dead end job… not a lot of motivation to cook. Coming out here, changed my life for the better”
You sip your wine and listen, as he describes what it was like living in the city and commuting for six hours every day, and his life changing trip out here to visit Din.
“It was actually my dream to move here when I was a kid” you tell him “I’m from a tiny little town way up north, and everyone used to talk about this place like it was the big city ya know”
“So what prompted your big move here?” He asks
“Well I’ve been saving up to open my shop for years, and working really hard to make this dream come true… but I woke up one morning and felt it in my bones that I needed to search the property website again…. and I am so glad I listened to my gut because I got my storefront pretty much the minute it got posted”
“Man.. luck was really on your side that day huh?” He finished his plate, and sips his wine
“Oh yeah, count my lucky stars every day!”
Paz wipes his mouth on his napkin, seeing you’re just about finished eating as well, and begins clearing the table. You help him wash up, despite his protests.
“Come on chef, if we’re gonna make scones we have to have a clean work station right?”
He agrees and the two of you get the workspace all cleaned up, just to mess it all up again with flour and butter and toppings!
They don’t actually take that long to bake, but you’re both a little flour dusted while you teach him to make a simple glaze for the citrus orange flavored batch.
When the scones come out of the oven the sweet batches get glazed or sugared, and the savory batches just need to cool. You ask to use his restroom to freshen up a bit so you wouldn’t get flour or butter on his nice couch, while you wait for the scones to cool to do a taste test.
To your delight, his bathroom is clean. And not just… cleaned up like there’s no clutter on the counter. Actual hand soap that’s appears to be regularly used, a liner in the trash can, more than just a five in one shampoo/body wash in the shower, and the mirror is clean! Either Paz deep cleaned in anticipation for your… not exactly a date?.... or he has his shit together… or, more likely both!
You spend the rest of the evening laughing, talking, sampling the scones, writing down flavor ideas together, and yeah definitely flirting. Somehow you get on the topic of music.
“Oh yeah, the city does free concerts in the park on Friday nights” he tells you “you bring a fold up chair and some snacks, and get to listen to free live music!”
“That sounds so fun! This city really knows how to do community events!” You put down your pen, having just finished writing down an idea.
“It’s amazing, you would love it” he says “would you want to go? With me?”
Your heart skips a beat “Yeah” you say softly with a smile “Yeah, that sounds like fun”
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lihikainanea · 3 years
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Hi could I write something about bill and tiger on a plane on a row where he tries to protect her by getting her to sit on the inside window seat? And just like them being really close to eachother sharing headphones and his HAND PLACEMENT PLS 😭 thank you 😩
I had a dream last night that I was on a plane and I wanted to cry when I woke up, because god I miss my life so bad. Those who have only started following me during the zombie apocalypse didn't know of my usual life beforehand, where I'd travel 300 days a year and always be on a plane for 16 hours at a time. God how I miss it.
Ad I miss the tranquility of planes, the peacefulness of the kind of tired that comes with travelling. There's something comforting in a plane, where the wifi almost never works so really the only thing you can do is just...shut everything off. Disconnect. REST, in a way that my generation is losing the ability to know how to do. Planes forced me to disconnect, to switch off my electronics.
And there's something magical too when the lights on the plane dim and get a little dark, when the aisles light up, when the flight attendants distribute the blankets (even if they are scratchy) and the pillows. Everything just seems peaceful.
Maybe they're heading back from a friends vacation, or hell wait a second--maybe tiger went to meet hi on set somewhere really far away when he was almost done a shoot, they spent a week or two there and now it's time to trek back. Except the trek back is long, ya'll. 3+ flights. Long layovers. Tiger doesn't know what the hell day it is. But I also kind of think that Bill doesn't really fly Economy anymore, because most airlines actually insist that if you're above a certain height, you have to be booked in Premium Economy as a minimum or preferably--business class. It's a medical thing, I think. Bill would't be comfortable in Economy with his knees bent all out of shape but he also thinks business class is mildly ridiculous--since his knees are also bent at sharp angles when the seat lies flat and turns into a bed, and he still doesn't fit.
Either way, he books both their tickets in business class because that means that they also 1) get access to the lounge in the airports (and let me tell you friends, there is nothing like an icy shower to make you feel ALIVE again after a 12+ hour flight) and 2) the lounge means that he's not just hanging out at a gate somewhere, people all around him, potentially taking pictures. He just feels more secure.
And maybe they're already on flight 2 of 4 or something, and have been travelling for 2 days. They're both feeling slightly more alive after a shower in the lounge and some normal food, but tiger pretty much has a permanent buzz because shit they really pour heavy-handed in business class. She's a little warm and fuzzy because despite his exhaustion, her Big Dude has also just been taking care of her so well--handling all the tickets and the luggage, leading her through the airport, signing in at the lounge, booking her shower, fixing her a plate of food, giving her his sweater. Tiger is not used to travelling in luxury so she didn't necessarily know to pack deodorant or shampoo or a change of clothes into her carry on so she can have something fresh when she's done her shower (because there are SHOWERS in airports, Beeeeel?) but Bill knows, and Bill also knows that the lounge has toiletry packets. So he sets her up and coaxes her into the shower space, watching their luggage until she emerges. When she does he has a plate of food for her and a cup of tea, and he gives her a quick kiss as he heads off to take his own shower. When she's fed and her eyes are starting to close he brings her to the relaxation side of the lounge, curling up with her and setting a quiet alarm on his phone so they don't miss their boarding.
And now they're on the plane, and somehow somebody is handing tiger another glass of champagne. Despite the fact that he had the window seat, he manhadled her into it when they boarded so that she could look out the window--but also because Bill kind of sensed that she was getting a bit small, could see it in her, and this way she feels more protected. He's just so big and between him and the window next to her, she can hide a bit and feel more safe that way. She's wrapped up in his sweater and it smells like him, and he's next to her with his floppy, still-wet hair and his tired eyes and his kind smile. He gives her his bag of pretzels. And as she's gazing out the window munching on them, she feels a tap on her jaw--and she turns to see him holding out a headphone. She slips it in and he presses play on his phone--it's some sciency podcast series he's been super into, something about the connection of the human body to something or other, and he's been bugging her to listen to an episode with him. She smiles at him, kissing his shoulder--but he's not done. This one is a night flight so other than a small snack once they hit altitude, the actual meal will only be served hours later when they wake up. So he unwraps the two blankets, sets them all up in this little blanket cocoon, places a pillow on her shoulder by the window and another one between them. He gets them all comfy and cozy, reaching for her hand underneath and giving it a tight squeeze.
Tiger could just fucking melt, and suddenly a 12 hour flight doesn't seem long enough.
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sprnklersplashes · 3 years
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jdronica+I kissed you in front of my ex (also on ao3)
The 7-Eleven is hardly much warmer than it is outside, but at least it’s drier. Veronica shakes the rain out of her hair as she steps in, shaking her head like a dog and sprinkling tiny droplets over the tiles. September announced its arrival in Sherwood with grey skies and bucket loads of rain, and three days in, the downpour shows no sign of stopping. It put a little bit of a damper to show up on the first day of her senior year soaking wet (pun intended because puns should always be intended), and there’s a growing sense of anxiety among students about whether or not the rain will let up in time for football practice to start.
But, where the rain might mess with first-day plans and be a pain for football fanatics, it’s the ideal weather for movie nights. The kind that involves piles of blankets, hot cocoa, and a combination of new releases and old favourites. The kind that, funnily enough, Veronica and Martha had planned for the weekend and scheduled when the sun was still out.
Maybe the weather was on their side.
“Okay, you grab the JiffyPop and drinks; I’ll raid the candy aisle,” Veronica instructs. “I’ll meet you at the counter.”
“Don’t go crazy on the candy,” Martha warns her. “Orange soda or blue?”
“Orange, and I will go completely crazy on the candy.” Martha raises her eyebrow, a fond shake of her head, but there’s little she can do when there’s a five-dollar bill burning in Veronica’s pocket. Veronica shoots little finger guns at Martha before bouncing down the candy aisle, taking stock of all the treats on offer.
She grabs a packet of Milk Duds because they go great with popcorn and a sharing bag of red vines too. She grabs a packet of the little watermelons (Martha’s personal favourite) and chuckles as she picks up a sharing bar of Hershey’s (private joke). She drops her candy stash into her basket and is in the middle of a debate between the packets of Sour Patch Kids and the packets of chips on sale when something, or rather someone, appears behind her.
“Want a Slurpee with that?”
She only jumps a tiny bit, and she’s glad because it doesn’t show how the stranger scared the pants off her. Mostly because she was lost in her head, but still, what was the asshole expecting, coming behind her like that? She turns around, her basket still on her arm, and she has an entire rant about convenience store etiquette ready, but it dies when she sees who it is.
Jason Dean, or as he prefers to be known, JD. New kids are something of a rarity in Sherwood, Ohio, which means he’s front-page news at school. Branded The New Kid, and he’ll probably still be that at graduation. People have done their best to Make Him Feel Welcome, as Ms. Fleming brightly suggested (demanded) they do, and despite some pleasantries, no one’s quite managed to get him to their lunch table. Most of the time, he’s alone, always with a different book. He’s gone from Baudelaire to Dickens to Orwell.
Not that she’s paying attention.
“Well, hello, Jason Dean.” She leans up against the counter and gestures to the cup in his hand. “Not my thing, but if you play your cards right, you can buy me a Big Gulp.”
“Blasphemy, little miss. Slurpee is the signature dish of the house. Did you say cherry or lime?”
“I said Big Gulp.” She lets the smile linger on her lips, feels it grow wider as he turns around. He laughs it off, and she takes note of the dimples in his cheeks, the way his hair falls forward into his eyes in a way that may or may not make her heart pick up.
“You’re Veronica, right?” he asks. “Veronica Sawyer.” He holds his free hand up. “Not stalking. I just sit two rows behind you in English.”
“I remember,” she replies. “Yes, it’s Veronica Sawyer.” She crosses her arms over her chest and chews thoughtfully on her lower lip. “So… may I ask what brings you to Sherwood, Ohio?”
His smile falters then, the spark dimming in his eyes, and his free hand slides into his pocket. She kicks herself immediately, her with her stupid attempts at flirting and her stupid nose poking into other people’s business. This is why she only sticks to Martha and occasionally Heather Mac, and if the universe wanted to remind her, it could have done it less painfully.
“Uh, new foster placement,” he tells her after a minute. “My old group home got too crowded, and it turns out the only other place that would take a teenager with insane daddy issues was all the way across the state.”
“Oh,” is all she can find to say, for all her teachers praising her for her brains. One word, one syllable. “Well, that’s….” Cool? Nice? Fun? Interesting? Nothing is appropriate here, no matter what direction she turns in.
But then Jason Dean taps her arm, wearing a smile that’s equal parts charming and apologetic, and the smoke in her brain begins to clear.
“Sorry, I probably should’ve been a bit more tactful there,” he says. “I know it’s a bit of a wild thing to drop on someone. My tragic hero backstory and all that.”
“Well, if it means you end up leading a life of crime-fighting and protecting our town, it all works out.”
“Maybe. Not sure if I can pull off the tights and leotard.”
“Oh, I’m sure you’ve got the legs for it,” she replies, and when he bursts out laughing, so does she. It feels weird, almost familiar. Like she’s known him for far longer than three days. She shuffles closer to him, pulled forward by her curiosity.
He eyes her basket and opens his mouth to say something else, but then the little bell rings at the shop door, and Veronica lets out a soft curse when she sees who it is.
What exactly her ex-girlfriend is doing at the 7-Eleven, she can’t fathom. This was on her list of places she could most definitely keep going to regularly after they broke up, and that list is depressingly small. This is meant to be the part of town Heather Duke, or any of the Heathers don’t grace with their presence, not even Macnamara. If they divided up the assets after breaking up last month, the 7-Eleven was definitely in her pile.
Or maybe not, she thinks as she watches Heather cross the floor in her heels, loose change in her hand.
The universe just will not let her be.
Duke notices her after she does, dark eyes widening at the sight of her. Veronica’s at a loss for what to do, whether to wave at her, flip her off, or just ignore her completely. She needs to think of something soon because Heather is moving closer towards her, and the last thing she needs is a not-so-subtle reminder of how she’s doing so much better than she is.
Her brain turns off, her body going into autopilot.
Instinct says to grab the closest thing to her, and the closest thing happens to be JD.
She whispers, “I’m sorry,” just loud enough so he can hear a second before her lips touch his, and by that point, she can’t exactly back out.
She doesn’t know what’s crazier; her kissing JD or the fact he kisses her back.
His hand is flat against her back, his other one cupping her cheek. She doesn’t know how experienced he is in these matters, but damn, he’s not bad. She’d even call him good. Maybe great. He tilts his head slightly but still lets her keep control, and his lips are soft and slightly cold from the Slurpee. It’s just slow enough to make it interesting, and he doesn’t pull away when she kisses him again.
When she does pull away, Heather is far past them, her pace too quick to be calm, and Veronica smugly counts it as a victory.
That is until she realises her hands are still balled up in JD’s shirt.
“I am… so sorry,” she begins. “I just… I know I shouldn’t have, but I just needed to do something to-”
“Woah, woah, woah, Ronnie,” he says. She only blushes slightly at the nickname. “Just answer me one question.” She nods, words catching in her throat, and he points up to where Heather is. “Ex?”
“Yup,” is her meek response, and to her shock, he laughs.
“Okay, Veronica Sawyer,” he tells her. “No hard feelings.” She untangles herself from him and retrieves her basket from where she dropped it on the floor. She looks behind and finds his Slurpee sitting on the shelf, standing out amongst the candies.
She’s tempted by the Slurpee offer, after all. She needs something to stop her cheeks from burning.
“I should go,” she says. “My friend, she’ll be wondering where I am.” She backs up, her eyes unable to leave his grinning face. “Um, thank you very much. For being so understanding about… that. All of that. Uh, see you around maybe. Yeah.”
She manages to turn herself around and takes the opportunity to stop hiding and let out a silent scream. She moves to go, to run and pay for her candy, and start plan to avoid him as much as humanly possible-or change her name and flee the state, that could work-but then he calls after her, and she stops in her tracks,
“Hey!” he says. She turns to face him again, and while he keeps a respectable distance, she can still see the smile on his face, all soft angles and laugh lines, and the telltale butterflies begin in her stomach.
“You’re busy this weekend,” he says. “What about next?”
That’s the story of Veronica Sawyer and Jason Dean’s first kiss.
For those who want to know, their second involves her pinning up against the wall of a McDonald’s bathroom and him breathlessly whispering her name against her lips.
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seriouslycromulent · 3 years
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Random thoughts on ZSJL after 1st viewing
So dear DCEU fans, before I sit down to re-watch Zack Snyder’s Justice League again tonight, I thought I’d share some of my first impressions and thoughts on the film. I really wanted to take part in the watch party yesterday, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to give the film my full attention if I did so, especially since it would be my first viewing.
But now that I know what was inside my birthday gift (my birthday was March 18th), I can chat about it with others and discuss to my heart’s content. 
However, this is NOT that post. This is not a review. It’s just some of my initial thoughts and reactions, which may or may not change after multiple viewings. 
And yes, I will mark this post as “ZSJL spoilers” for anyone trying to remain unspoiled until they get a chance to watch it at their own pace.
Here we go ...
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Question #1 - Why does Barry only burn out of his shoes, but nothing else he’s wearing when he moves to save Iris? Is it the friction against the floor? Or is it just convenient for the sake of visuals? We know the suit he made is designed to withstand wind and heat resistance when he moves, so when he’s not wearing it, are his clothes in danger of getting shredded if he moves fast enough? 
This isn’t snark. I’m genuinely curious. :-)
Reaction #1 - I know it’s blasphemous to speak positively about the theatrical release, but I kind of miss the opening credit sequence with the song playing over the images and interactions of people arguing, fighting and falling into despair after Supes died. I felt it was an apt response in the world in the wake of his death, and it suited Zack’s overall tone connecting BvS to this film from the start. I’m not saying the new opening is bad. Just that I kind of liked the theatrical one better.
Question #2 - Now this is kinda snarky. But does Arthur just leave sweaters and shirts littered all over the place whenever he goes below the surface? What if there’s no one there to pick it up like that lady in Iceland? 
Reaction #2 - I’m love, love, loving the much bigger role of the Amazons in this version. That battle scene with Steppenwolf is still brutal to watch, but the extra screen time is much appreciated.
Reaction #3 - I’m now calling the arrow shot into the Shrine of the Amazons the “Hanukkah Arrow” because it was a miracle the fire stayed lit during its entire journey to the Shrine and how it stayed lit until a film crew caught it on the news. 
R#4 - Even though I knew Victor’s car accident was coming, I was still shook when it happened. Like, I genuinely screamed when the other vehicle crashed into them. That’s how emotionally invested I was in that scene at the time.
R#5 - I liked the juxtaposition of going from Victor’s dysfunctional relationship with his dad to Barry’s sweet, but heartbreaking relationship with his dad. Way to mess with our emotions, Zack.
R#6 - “gorilla sign language” Tee-hee!
R#7 - Great placement with the suicide prevention billboard. It was both seamless and poignant. 
R#8 - As a fellow tea drinker, I like that Alfred is particular about how tea is made, even when the cup of tea isn’t for himself.
R#9 - It’s interesting to see how jerky Victor’s movements are in Chapter 3. I know he will move more smoothly as the film progresses, but I feel like that growth and development in his movements were missed in the theatrical release, which is a shame because it’s a great mirror to his psychological development as well. 
R#10 - It’s a shame how easily Steppenwolf captured the 2nd box thanks to King Orm’s incompetence. Ugh. I can’t stand that guy. 
Question #3 - Why is Arthur responsible for retrieving the box that was lost on his brother’s watch? He’s not king yet, so why does it fall to him? Whatever. Orm sucks.
Question #4 - OK. So I know this was in theatrical release, but how is it that the other team members disappeared when Commissioner Gordon turned his back and Barry didn’t notice it happening? That technically should be impossible unless Barry was distracted by a squirrel or something.
Favorite Hell Yeah Moment #1 - Barry saving the kidnapped people from being hit by the falling debris outside after the team rescues them from Steppenwolf. Go Barry! Do that shit!!! You don’t need lessons on how to be a f*cking hero!
R#11 - So Barry did trip in the original script. Interesting. I still don’t like that. It’s in character for where he is right now on his journey, but I still don’t like it.
Question #5 - Architectural question for the design nerds out there. Why does Lois have a glass pane in her front door in an apartment building in a major metro area in the US? That’s an odd design. Is it a renovated office building? Was her apartment at one point the office of a private detective in a noir film? I need answers.
Favorite Hell Yeah Moment #2 - The J’onn J’onzz reveal is officially one of my biggest thrills of the entire DCEU franchise. Years ago, when people were speculating about who was the 7th in the phrase “Unite the 7,” I said it’s J’onn J’onzz, and fanboys corrected me and insisted it had to be Hal or at least one of the Lanterns. And I was like, “Nope. I bet you it’s J’onn. He could easily already be a part of the story and we don’t even know it.” This is the part where I say to you ... Called It! Like 6 years ago! I f*cking Called It!
R#12 - Yep, by Chapter 5, Victor is moving much more smoothly.
R#13 - Dude!!!!!! The “Not Impressed” moment was better than anything Supes ever did in the theatrical release. Anything. It was just so epic and smooth and smoothly epic. I’m accepting that scene as a part of my personal birthday gift. Zack did that for me. That’s why that’s in there.
R#14 - I know Barry got a couple of hero moments earlier in the film, but none of them compare to the actual reconstruction of f*cking time in order to save everyone. The way the ground literally formed under his feet as he ran had me holding my breath without me even realizing it. Thank you, Zack! Thank you for making Barry more than the comedy relief. Thank you for giving him this moment. He deserves this.
Favorite Hell Yeah Moment #3 - I know everyone is talking about how they cheered when the team goes charging into the building altogether (sans Supes). And don’t get me wrong. That moment is pretty f’cking sweet. But dude, my all-time favorite, jump-out-of-my-seat, and jump-up-and-down moment was when Arthur speared Steppenwolf from behind and lifted him up in the air. I was like ...
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The fangirl in me was unashamed and unbossed. Arthur deserved that moment. He spent half the film being tossed around like a ragdoll or brooding like a hot stevedore. He deserved that shit! Yes, yes, he did.
Epilogue thoughts ---
Again, this is the longest film epilogue I’ve seen since LOTR: Return of the King, but I’m not hating, just noting.
The extra scenes with J’onn J’onzz and Deathstroke made my day after everything else made my night. They are 2 of my absolute favorite DC characters who were all but cut from the theatrical release. I’m taking those scenes as ... again ... my personal birthday gifts.
I know we may never get JL2 and JL3, but I felt like the cliffhanger was pretty good. It leaves you wanting more, but not feeling as if you’ve been left high and dry. For those who doubted Zack’s decision to keep it a cliffhanger knowing he may never get to finish the story, I say to you, “Aren’t you tired of doubting this man?”
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fa-headhoncho · 4 years
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Unlike The Rest: Part 4
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George Weasley x Reader (eventually)
Prompt: You’re home for Christmas and you’re terrified of what Draco has told your parents about your life at Hogwarts.
Word Count: 1429
Reader: Female
Warning: Very much a filler chapter
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You pick at your food, it’s only been a few days since you and Draco have returned home from break and it’s been very uncomfortable. You’re not sure of how much he has told your parents about your life at Hogwarts but you just know he has. How you act at home was very different from what you act at school. You hope he hasn’t mentioned any of that though. The lines are blurred now that Draco is attending Hogwarts, he sees both sides of you and you’re not sure how he’s going to react to it.
“Thank you.” You whisper to the house-elf that refilled your glass with water. Dobby gives you a small smile at your kindness. He seems to be the only house-elf that acknowledges it, the others just ignore it, not wanting to get in trouble.
“So,” Mother speaks up, “Draco has told us about your… activities at Hogwart.” You look up at her with a worried expression, then you glare at Draco. “Very interesting, it seems.”
“Ok.” You say, looking back down at your food. You try to compose yourself, everything you’ve done quickly cycling through your head. Grades aren’t bad, no detentions, Quidditch team has been doing alright, you’ve been doing great this year. The only thing that seems to stand out is you telling off Draco in November and you spending some time down at Hagrid’s.
“Yes, very interesting.” Father continues, your heart drops. He told him. “Seems you spend a lot of time with this Diggory boy... He seems like quite a character.” 
Your body immediately relaxes, if he was going to mention anything, you’re glad it’s your best friend.
“Yes, he’s very nice.” You say, a small smile on your face. It’s been known that you’re grateful for this boy. 
Silence fills the table again. Your mother looks at your father, giving him a look and he looks back at you. 
“His father works for the ministry, yes?” He continues, “Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures.” 
“Yes, he does.” You nod. “I’ve never met him though.” 
“Purebloods, as well?”
It takes everything in you to hold back an eye roll. It shouldn’t matter. “Yes, I believe so.” 
“Not the most affluent household, though, are they?” He adds, a brow raised slightly. “They live by the Weasley's so you know they’re not that well off.”
“I’m not too sure.” You answer, “I don’t really ask those questions, we mostly talk about school and Quidditch. Cedric has top marks in my grade and he’s a seeker on the team.” You try to divert his attention to something more positive. “An alright one, at that, as well.”
“Well, I’m glad you’re associating yourself with the right people then.” Father praises, you look at him with wide eyes. Is he actually complimenting you? “Not those trouble-making traitors, the twins, what are their names, again?”
“I don’t know…” You lie, your heart pangs a bit. With George being in Divination with you, you’ve gotten a little bit closer to the pair. They greet you in the hallways and George always partners up with you in Potions or DADA when you have to be with another house. You’ve learned they’re not as bad as your parents say. Their whole family seems to be a sweet bunch, honestly.
As silence, once again, consumes the four of you, Dobby continues to refill everyone’s cups. Switching to a bottle of wine for your parents halfway through. He stands on a stool, reaching over to pour your father a glass of wine. The stool then wobbles, sending the small elf off balance and making him knock over the red liquid as he falls off.
You and Draco just stare, wide-eyed at the whole thing. You share a look, knowing what's about to happen. 
“You stupid, house-elf!” Your father abruptly stands up, sending his chair flying to the floor. The wine has gotten onto the white table cloth and his white dress shirt. Usually, he wears all black but Mother had encouraged him to change it up a little bit recently. 
“Worthless little,” He sends a kick to the creature, Draco’s head snaps down while you jump up. 
“Leave him alone!” You demand, all of his attention turns to you now. You almost crumble at his intense sneer but you stand tall, “You shouldn’t treat him like that.” You dare to say, an act of newfound courage taking over you. “Imagine if the minster did that to you every time you made a mistake.”
He’s furious and all of you can tell. You’ve seen your father this mad but it’s never been direct to you. He’s always been passive-aggressive with his comments and you’ve learned to ignore it but something about his glare sends shivers down your spine.
“Lucius…” Your mother tries to step in but he doesn’t give her a second glance.
“Room. Now.” He demands, you turn around and head straight to it. You poked the bull and you don’t want to anger it even more. “I’ll treat you like I treat him if you dare to disrespect me like that again, you little brat.” He calls after you causing you footsteps to pick up.
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You lay on your bed, staring at the ceiling. Regret is the farthest thing from what you’re feeling right now. The house-elves have always been treated poorly in your house and it always bothered you but seeing Dobby get kicked like that for something he couldn’t even control just set you off.
Letting out a loud groan, turning on your side. You’re so frustrated. You understand the history of house-elves and how they’re used to being beat and picked on but it still makes you angry. Especially when it’s directed at Dobby, the kindness little elf you’ve met. He’s been your friend since childhood. When your parents would bring over other families to interact with, you always locked yourself in your room and played games with Dobby.
When you were sad, Dobby would appear with a small flower from your mother’s garden to cheer you up. He always would comfort you when your parents were off who knows where. He even has taken blame for things that you’ve done like breaking a vase or a glass. He’s been there for years and it upsets you to see him treated so badly. His kindness deserves so much more than this hellhole.
You decide to direct your attention to the moonlight that cascades through your window. Some of your plants that line the windowsill glisten in the light. Belladonna, your cat, is sitting just below them on the cushioned bench. You can hear her purrs as she slowly dozes off.
A knock on your door echoes throughout the obnoxiously large room, waking the feline up. She lets out a hiss which you chuckle at. She’s always been a lazy cat so when her naps are interrupted, she’s mad.
“(Y/N)...” Draco’s small voice calls. You stare at Bella, silently telling her to attack but she just turns around and tries to go back to sleep.
You sit up against your headboard as he takes a few steps into your room. “What do you want, Draco?” 
He awkwardly stands there, his free hand pulling at the hem of his nightshirt. Shy Draco is something you haven’t seen since he was five. The sight makes your heart melt a bit.
“I just wanted to see…” He carefully picks his words, not wanting to tell you why he’s here. “Could you help me a bit with Potions?” He quickly changes the subject, lifting his other hand which holds his large book. “Snape has us writing an essay over break and I can’t seem to get a grasp on it.”
A small smile appears on your face. Before Hogwarts, you and Draco were homeschooled. Your mother taught you the basics of magic as well as the more essential things in life like reading and maths. It brings you back to the endless nights where you would help Draco with a writing prompt he was too embarrassed to ask his mother help for.
“Of course, Draco.” With that permission, he plops onto your bed. He settles in, crossing his legs while his other things laid out in front of you two. Once he’s satisfied with the placement of everything, he looks at you.
“Oi, wipe that smirk off your face.” He spits, there’s the Draco you know. “I’m only asking because I know my useless partner won’t do rubbish over break.”
“Oh, don’t ruin the moment, ferret face.”
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latte-fairytaekwoon · 4 years
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𝑀𝑦 𝐺𝑖𝑟𝑙 𝑃𝑡.3 (𝑃𝑎𝑟𝑘 𝑆𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑔ℎ𝑤𝑎)
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<Part One> <Part Two><Part Four<
Pairing: Badboy! Park Seonghwa (Ateez)/ Reader (Female)
Genre: Fluff, Angst, College AU.
Summary: Spending more time with Seonghwa, Y/N gets to know more about him and realizes he's not just playing with her, he truly does like her. But the question now is how does she feel about him?
Warnings: Mentions of smoking and drinking, if you're sensitive to such topics, read at your own discretion.
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"You can lift up your face now doll, we're here."
Y/N slightly opened one eye, then the other. Indeed they were right in front of her apartment complex.
"I'm not dead?"
Seonghwa burst out laughing even though it was a slight jab to him.
"No. I'm not reckless so as to crash myself or this baby onto anything."
Y/N nodded and let out a silent 'Oh'. So much for trusting him though.
"So is the kitten going to finally retract her claws and release this tight grip on me, or does she want me to carry her all the way inside?" Seonghwa teased, poking one of her arms, which were currently wrapped around his waist like her life depended on it.
Well in a way one could say it did.
"Huh?" Y/N looked at her arm placement and let go. "Oh sorry!"
She got off the motorcycle and began to fumble to take the helmet off.
Seonghwa let out a tiny pfft.
"I was seriously hoping you'd choose the second option."
Y/N nearly dropped the helmet when he said that. She cleared her throat and handed it back to him.
"Anyway....thanks for the food, and your company..." She began.
"So essentially, you're thanking me for our little date?" He wiggled his eyebrows at her.
"It's not- wasn't- Oh!" She cried out and stomped her foot, turning on her heel and speed walking to her door.
"Wait! Y/N! Come back!"
Seonghwa called out to her, but she ignored him. She did not want him to see how flustered he got her to be. She was about to reach into her bag to get her keys, when it dawned on her: she left her bag in Seonghwa's motorcycle. She turned her head back to him, and of course, he was holding up her bag, with a look on his face that said 'I told you so.'
She sighed and took one step to go back, but Seonghwa signaled her not to.
"I'll bring it to you."
Seonghwa got off the motorcycle and walked up to her. He held out her bag to her, but before she could get it back, he suddenly got an idea and held it over his head.
"Hey! What was that for?" Y/N exclaimed as she jumped, trying to snatch her bag back.
"You haven't properly thanked me for taking you out on a date. Once you do, you can have this back." He smirked.
"Park Seonghwa! You're unbelievable!"
He merely shrugged at her comment.
"Your choice dollface. Either thank me and tell me you enjoyed it, or stay out here in the cold."
Y/N huffed and crossed her arms. She couldn't believe she was actually going to fall victim to his blackmail.
"Thanks for the date.....I..... actually had a nice time." She finally said, her voice barely whispering but Seonghwa was willing to take it.
He finally gave her the bag back and watched her fumble around to find her keys.
He snorted. "You girls should really have better organization in your purses."
Y/N lifted her eyes at him and glared at him, making Seonghwa step back with his arms up.
"Whoah, ok. Calm down kitten. Don't attack and get scratch marks on me...."
He paused then continued.
"Unless it's my back. Then I don't mind." He bit his bottom lip as he stared her up and down.
Y/N blushed intensely and stammered to try to tell him something, but couldn't.
"What? Kitten got caught her own tongue?" He snickered.
Y/N pouted, furrowing her eyebrows as her arms crossed in front of her chest.
"Aww come on doll. You know I'm just kidding. It's just cute to see you get all hissy or to see you get that pink tint on your cheeks."
Seonghwa's hands went to to her upper arms, his thumbs lightly rubbing her shoulders. He looked at her face for a while, just admiring the way the moon light shone on her features. Then he remembered he shouldn't keep her up so late.
"So....will I see you tomorrow?" He asked after a few minutes of silence passed.
"Huh? Oh the party...... I don't know. I'll feel out of place. I wouldn't know anyone there." She replied.
"You know me and I guess if you want to count them too, you know Wooyoung's loud ass and Yeosang's insipid ass." Seonghwa reminded her, causing her to giggle slightly.
"Seriously, smile like that more often. You look even more beautiful."
She immediately stopped giggling when he said that and was at an even greater loss for words when he leaned in and kissed her forehead.
"See you tomorrow babe. No ifs, ands or buts." He winked at her before racing back to his motorcycle.
Y/N just stood there, watching as he got back on the motorcycle, started it up and waved goodbye to her before speeding away out of sight. She stayed there for a few moments before a light breeze reminded her it was cold and unless she wanted to wake up with a stuffy nose, she'd better go inside and get some sleep if she wanted to make it to the party tomorrow.
And if she wanted to see Seonghwa again.
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Y/N took one last look at herself in the mirror. She didn't think she looked bad. But for some reason she wanted to look extra good. She looked at the time:
9:22 p.m
Seonghwa said he'd pick her up at 9:30, so she had no time to change into something different. Or could she?
She began looking through all the scattered articles of clothing she pulled from her closet, taking a double look at certain blouses and thinking if she should just change as fast as she possibly could.
Honk. Honk.
"Crap." She muttered as she stood up and ran to the door, nearly slipping on a pile of clothes.
Grabbing her bag and phone, she sped out her door and slammed it, making sure she locked it though. She wasn't going to risk someone breaking in.
"Hey! Y/N!"
She turned around and saw a familiar purple haired boy waving his arm at her, half his body coming out from the window of the car. She waved back awkwardly and walked slowly to the car, wondering why Seonghwa didn't tell her Wooyoung would be there.
Wooyoung got back inside the vehicle and opened the door to her.
"You're riding in the back with me. Isn't it fun!?" He exclaimed enthusiastically.
"If you want to throw him out the window, I wouldn't blame you." Yeosang's voice said from the passenger's seat.
Y/N got inside and was expecting to see Seonghwa behind the wheel, but instead she saw a red haired man she'd never seen before. He turned to her and held out his hand.
"Hi. I'm Jongho. Seonghwa couldn't come himself so he sent me and Yeosang to pick you up." He introduced himself as Y/N took his hand and shook it.
"That idiot wasn't part of the plan, but before we knew it he was already inside the car before we could run him over." Yeosang explanation, pointing to Wooyoung.
Wooyoung sat up and smacked Yeosang on the arm, causing Y/N and Jongho to laugh slightly.
"Ok seatbelts on everyone? Let's go."
Shifting into reverse, Jongho smoothly pulled out of the curbside and then drove south towards their destination. All throughout the ride, no one said a word: Y/N because she was too shy, Yeosang because he didn't talk, and Jongho because he was concentrating on the road.
Wooyoung however, was dying from how gloomy and silent they were. He opened his mouth to say something, but Yeosang beat him to it:
"If you dare ask or say anything remotely vacuous, I will make Jongho pull over and drop your ass in the nearest dumpster." He warned, causing Wooyoung to shut his mouth and pout.
"Why must you be mean to me?" Wooyoung complained.
"Relax Hyung. You know Yeosang is just playing with you." Jongho assured him.
"Wait. Hyung?" Y/N couldn't help but blurt out when he mentioned the honorific.
"Yeah. Jongho is the baby of our friend group. 00' liner." Wooyoung sat up and poked Jongho's cheek.
Jongho simply rolled his eyes, not a stranger to the older men's antics of reminding him he was younger.
"Seriously? I thought you were older!"
She didn't mean for it to come out that way, but soon Wooyoung and Yeosang were laughing.
"I get that a lot, don't worry." Jongho shrugged, not at all bothered by the fact she'd think that.
"So if you're the youngest, who's the oldest?" Y/N asked.
"It's actually none other than your boyfriend." Wooyoung responded, giving her a side glance to see her reaction.
She straightened up.
"He-he's not my boyfriend....." She corrected him.
All the boys kept quiet but a smirk was plastered on all of their faces. Jongho looked over at Yeosang and that's all it took for them to burst out laughing. Y/N just looked at them in confusion. They certainly were an odd bunch.
"Aren't you going to ask what we're laughing about?" Wooyoung asked as he leaned his face close to hers.
"I think..... I'd rather not." Y/N answered, scooching away from him.
"Good choice. And Wooyoung, I may not throw you out the window, but I was instructed to make sure you behaved so..... keep at least an arm's length away from Y/N. Or I'll tell Seonghwa." Jongho warned.
Wooyoung groaned in annoyance and scooted away while mumbling:
"I wasn't going to do anything, geez this boomer being all possessive."
Y/N heard him clearly, but she pretended not to and decided just to enjoy the ride and calm her nerves which were getting more and more out of control the closer they got to the house.
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Y/N looked around the place. It was already packed with people, some dancing erratically in the living room, while others were just chatting away, cups of beer in their hands. She had never been anywhere near the fraternity or sorority houses, but damn was this one huge. She was glad Wooyoung insisted on holding her hand so she wouldn't get lost.
"Hey! There's Hyung!"
Without warning, he yanked her in the direction of the kitchen, where Seonghwa was in the middle of a conversation with a slightly shorter grayish green hair man. Seonghwa immediately straightened up when he saw Y/N, completely ignoring what his friend was saying.
"Hey." He was the first to talk.
"Hi." She responded shyly.
They both stared at each other, the other two boys looking back and forth between them in confusion and annoyance. Wooyoung and the other male looked at each other and tried so hard to hold back from laughing at Seonghwa's awestruck expression.
Seonghwa looked down at the attire Y/N was wearing when his eyes caught something unpleasant: Wooyoung was still holding onto her hand. He looked back at the younger male who just raised an eyebrow at him.
Seonghwa merely pointed to their adjoined hands and ordered: "Off."
Wooyoung snorted and let go of Y/N.
"You're right Wooyoung. He's got it bad." The other male snickered before nodding in Y/N's direction.
"Choi San. Pleasure to finally meet the girl that makes this old man loose brain cells." He teased Seonghwa, who merely stared at him with a warning look.
"Hi." She returned the greeting.
"Ok enough chit chat. I came here to get wasted and make out with my one of my boy toys. So if you excuse me."Wooyoung took a hold of San's wrist and pulled him out to the crowd gathered at the drink station.
Seonghwa shook his head and sighed. "And then they'll be complaining in the morning and I'll be the one taking care of them."
"So are Wooyoung and San..." Y/N gestured with her hands.
"Hmm? Oh! Honestly...... I don't know. Between San and Yeosang, no one really knows who's the official item of Wooyoung's affection." He answered.
If Y/N had been drinking something, she would have seriously choked on it.
"Yeosang?" She asked incredulous.
"Yeah. It's complicated." Seonghwa rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly.
Y/N giggled. "But if you think about it, it's a cute match."
Seonghwa whipped his head to look at her.
"Seriously?"
Y/N nodded.
"You know what they say, opposites attract. Maybe someone as loud and eccentric as Wooyoung needs someone more quiet and level headed like Yeosang."
"Ok but, don't let San hear you say that. He might just cry." Seonghwa said.
Another awkward moment of silence fell over them. It seemed to happen quiet often. Seonghwa stepped over to the door beside the kitchen and opened it.
"I'm going out for a smoke." He simply told her.
Y/N debated whether or not to join him outside. Sure she didn't smoke but she'd rather not be standing alone like a total idiot. Then a voice popped up behind her.
"Go after him."
She jumped up and turned around to see Yeosang standing there with a cup in his hand.
"Jesus Yeosang, don't creep up on people like that." She clutched her chest, trying to calm down from the fright he just gave her.
"Sorry. Force of habit. But seriously, go keep him company."
Yeosang looked towards the crowd and squinted his eyes when he caught sight of San getting too close to Wooyoung for his liking.
"Meanwhile, I have to go make sure some idiot doesn't break something." He lied.
Y/N watched him walk over to where Wooyoung and San were dancing. She chuckled as she watched Yeosang pull Wooyoung onto him, wanting his attention, a clear pout on his lips. Then San tried to squeeze himself in between, almost shoving Yeosang away, while Wooyoung tried to calm them down.
"All is fair in love and war." She quoted before going outside to search for Seonghwa.
She looked around before a strong scent filled her nostrils. Finally spotting him, she quietly walked over to him, propping and sitting herself up on the railing he was leaning against.
"I thought you'd rather stay inside." He said as he blew out a smoke from his mouth.
She shrugged. "Wild parties and alcohol have never really been my thing."
Seonghwa hummed and held out his nicotine stick out to her, which she promptly refused. She was not planning on contracting cancer anytime soon.
Seonghwa chuckled.
"You're right. Maybe opposites do attract."
"What do you mean?" She tilted her head to him.
Seonghwa took a final puff of his cigarette before throwing it on the floor and stepping on it.
"I mean here I am, the famous bad boy of the school, trying to court the perfect goody two shoes student." He explained.
Hey!" Y/N shoved his arm lightly. "I'm not a goody two shoes!"
"Oh? Then what are you exactly Y/N? Who are you?" He mused more to himself than actually asking her a question.
She opened her mouth but then shut it back up when she didn't know how to respond. It was a question she had the answer to but no one had ever asked her before and now she didn't know how to explain. If she even wanted to explain.
She began swinging her legs in the air as she pondered over what to say.
"I guess..... I'm just....normal?"
Seonghwa snorted.
"Y/N trust me. You're not normal. A normal college student would either be getting their face shit wasted at a party like this, hook up with their classmates or teachers, and overall make stupid decisions they'll regret when they're older, but right now they don't give a damn cause they're young and feel invincible."
Y/N looked over at him.
"Is that how you feel?" She teased.
"We're talking about you, not me. You already know me. But what about you? What's so special about you?" He continued to pry.
"No- nothing. Absolutely nothing." She replied.
"Really? Nothing?" He scooted closer to her, trying to read her facial expressions.
"I guess I'm just a boring college student. Only trying to get through school and finish with as high grades as she can so she can land a decent job and live a normal life with 50 plus cats in the future." She let out a chortle at the last part.
"Cats are cute. But is that what you actually want?"
Y/N's smile gave her away immediately.
"No. I actually want..."
She stopped herself before she said too much. She was embarrased to say this to anyone, let alone Seonghwa.
"You can trust me. I won't judge you." He encouraged her.
Taking a deep breath she confessed:
"I actually want to be an editor......"
She looked up at him to see his expression.
"An editor?" He was genuinely interested in why she was passionate about it.
"Yeah. I major in English and world literature. I mean, I do now after I switched from finance." She explained.
"Not very good without a calculator?" He jokingly said.
"I thought you said you wouldn't judge." She reminded him.
"Sorry sorry. It just comes naturally." He apologized.
She continued.
"I mostly took it cause my parents wanted me to land a job in some bank or something. But I don't want that. My plan is to graduate with a bachelor's degree and start a job at as an intern at a book publishing company, and eventually work my way up. Simple as that."
Seonghwa blinked at her explanation, making her think she did sound boring.
"Are you judging me now?" She questioned him.
"No, on the contrary, I'm proud of you, really. You got your goals set and it's obvious you're working hard to achieve them. How many of those people in there know what they're going to do after college?"
He looked up at the sky and sighed blissfully.
"And you say you're just ordinary yet here you are being the most extraordinary person I've met."
Y/N looked down at the ground and smiled brightly to herself. It felt good to hear Seonghwa say he was proud of her. That's all she ever wanted to hear, but hearing it from someone like him, so sincere and honest, made it ten times better.
"So in theory, you want to be an Anastasia Steele?" He joked with her.
Feeling a little bold, she winked at him and answered:
"Only if you'll be my Christian Grey."
Seonghwa's eyes went huge as he snapped his head to look at her, trying to process what she said and if she really did say it. She swore she also saw a light hint of a blush on his cheeks and that made her burst out giggling.
"What? I can flirt a little too you know."
Turning his body, Seonghwa stood in front of her, both hands grabbing the railing on opposite sides of her body and therefore trapping her.
"Don't test me kitten because I won't hesitate to bend you over my lap and spank you." He warned.
Seonghwa smirked when he noticed her swallow harshly. His eyes scanned her every feature: eyes, nose, and then her lips. They looked so plump and soft and he just really wanted to feel them. He bit down on his lip as his thumb grazed over her bottom lip. Y/N held her breath when she noticed him leaning in closer. She closed her eyes and waited to see what happened.....
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