#( so I don’t know what to do ;;;; )

[fromunderdreamingspires]

I have moved into my new home and on paper it is so so good — a nice flat, clean and warm, very central, and shared not with random strangers but with a dear friend. But! Despite it all!! I just cannot picture myself living here?? I keep thinking okay I’ve been here long enough, it’s time to go now…. And of course there is nowhere to go! This is my life!! This is reality!! It just doesn’t feel like it. I expected leaving my mum and settling in here to be so hard and painful, but I haven’t even cried once. I am totally calm, but it’s the calm of a sleepwalker. I feel like I’m dreaming and soon I’ll wake up and this temporary dream world will vanish and I’ll be back at home, wherever that is. How do you wake yourself up from that?

#I know I am dissociating but I am too afraid to stop #everything wrong and nowhere to go #i am suspended in this dreamlike state and it isn’t living but at least it doesn’t hurt #so I don’t know what to do #personal #phd diary

[teacupofdrpepper]

I hate that Crunchyroll is an anime site and because of that I can’t actually call customer service because they’re all a bunch of fucking dweebs who don’t know how to talk to a presenting femme and therefore I have to email them and google everything I can to fix this stupid fucking account

#I hate you I hate you I hate you #Crunchyroll die by my blade #I just want to continue kny for my son and it doesn’t want to add payment method even with PayPal #so I’m at a loss #because now I can’t even log into my old account under the wrong email #so I don’t know what to do

[stereopticons]

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#the thing about growing up in a house where asking for help was a Bad Thing #is that I don’t know how to do it #i assume that even the smallest request will be a huge burden #i am trying to work on it #but when you grow up being told that asking for help is a moral failing #it’s a hard thing to unlearn #so I don’t know what to do #this week has been an utter disaster #so I am over sharing on the internet

[dxntloseurhead]

when will she come home to me…

#so sick of going to walmart and not seeing her there #and idk who to ask about her bc there’s never anyone active In the toy department #bc i assume someone who works in that section would be best to ask?? but no one’s ever there #so i don’t know what to do

[actualtoad]

okay but i need advice. what three things am i going to do to take care of myself this summer i have to tell my teacher by monday

#i. don’t know. what im supposed to do for self care #i feel like i used to have something #im not sure if i do anymore #so i don’t know what to do #im taking advice #i don’t know. i can try to figure it out on my own i just don’t know #maybe i’ll count reading as one of them. there we go. i have one thing #me. my post. mine. #delete later #i really am taking suggestions if anyone has anything #but i don’t want it to just be an empty answer that i give him as a lie #so i have to make sure it’s something that will really help me #but im taking any suggestions #thank you #i have band in around an hour but until then im hopefully just going to stay here

[romansmartini]

hey guys if you’re planning on making a vaguepost on the dashboard can you message me with the details and some of the lore behind the vague post you’re making. a vaguepost for the dash and a detailedpost for me. because i like to know what’s going on. if you do this i will automatically take your side because you’ve done the right thing by letting me know what’s up. thanks in advance ❤️

#jillian.txt #believe it or not there is not an active vagueposting situation happening so you don’t have to worry i’m doing the vagueposting here #100% serious about this btw i will keep your secrets and hype you up. i just like to know what’s going on

[sunglassesmish]

no judgements at all here. i was thinking about the possibility of moving out and wanted to know what age other people did

#i don’t know a lot of what i want in the future but i do know i want to at least get my driver’s license and have my own place #hopefully in the next few years after university #in my family it’s typical to get married and then move out but i’m not sure if i ever will so i want to at least live by myself

[zytes]

this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

#misc #I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to. #also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped #it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially #the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm #which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water #as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun #it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here #I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances #also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential #so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export #but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image

[bluebeesknees]

They’re being obnoxious at work 💙

#just imagine the collective sighs of the first years in the background lmao #satosugu #gego #satoru gojo #geto suguru #gojo #geto #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen #my art #I needed something sweet y’all more misery next time lolol #I need them so happy they don’t know what to do!! #art #bluebeesart #digital art #art on tumblr

[louvbite]

i mean I’m fucked either way but which one is the mature option to go about it

#my best friend (who I chat with daily) is moving abroad #6hr difference #and I don’t know what’s best for me to do because spending a lot of time together for these two remaining two months is going to fuck me ove #he is one of my most important people in my life #I talk to him 24/7 #and see him at least once per week #we also fuck lmao #idk what to do to protect myself #I’m trying to be supportive and I want him to do well obvi #I encourage him to move abroad #but I know I’m gonna miss him so fucking much it’s going to be hell #i know he will too as well but I think it’s going to be harder for me #once bc I’m more emotional #two because I’m the one staying so I’m the one who will see their routine changed #there’s going to be a big hole in my life #I might be wrong but he will be okay his whole life will change his job his house his routine his friends #he will be very busy #soon he will forget about me and time difference and such #like even if I’m wrong it seems unlikely that we will remain as close as we are today #so I don’t know what to do #I need to protect myself #should I ask him to try to not talk anymore #?? #lower the intensity? #that way it won’t hurt as much when he leaves? #I feel that’s childish

[colinprovolone]

the low quality children

#FINALLY. ALL OF THEM #it’s fun how the colours on this ended up similar to the only other time i drew them all #d20 #fh #fhjy #fantasy high #my art #riz gukgak #fabian aramais seacaster #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #fig faeth #kristen applebees #the bad kids #i’m so glad i don’t have to draw tiedye i’m eternally thankful for kristen’s new outfit #god what is fabian wearing. i do not know

[guardian-of-soho]

The more I think about the last minutes the more I’m sure Crowley was saying goodbye from the minute Aziraphale told him he’d said yes to Heaven. He doesn’t confess his love like he’s hopeful, he confesses it like a eulogy. He doesn’t kiss him to make a beginning, he kisses him to seal the end. He watches him go like it’s the last time.

Crowley knows Heaven. He knows they’ll want to either make Aziraphale just like them, or destroy him. Either way I think he believes he’s seen his angel for the last time.

#‘nothing lasts forever’ #‘no I don’t suppose it does’ #that look on his face is despair #to be clear I know this won’t end like this #but he doesn’t #he’s spent six thousand years keeping a little space for them both #he doesn’t know what Aziraphale can do without him #(neither does Aziraphale) #(maybe they need to learn) #(maybe he’ll find he has more help than he thinks) #(if Gabriel and Muriel were so ready to leave who else up there is questioning?) #good omens 2 #good omens #a/c

[ciearcab]

musing over a priest or something like that

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun maximum spoilers #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash the stampede #u ever draw something so far outside your usual style that you don’t know what to do about it but like enough to keep it #this piece haunts me it’s like two months old and i don’t know how to deal with it anymore so. begone #ygeah the compositions not centered yeah the values are kinda wonky yeah the textures are messy. but it’s ok. #it is still something to share

[averytirednerd]

#bro is going through it #also what a drama queen #yes a separate photo dump for Al was 100% necessary #I am very normal about him wdym #hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor #hazbin alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin hotel screenshots #my post #I’m so sorry to the person who was asking about image descriptions #I don’t know how to do that #aaaaa please forgive me

[lil-prince-who-did]

big vent in tags cuz i have a lot of feelings

#i realized i dont regress a lot anymore because i feel unsafe #im so scared of being small and being taken advantage of it not being able to say no #or that something is gonna happen while i’m small and either i won’t be able to do anything or #it’s gonna terrify me because i’m small and then i’m causing more issues #it’s just inconvenient #and i font feel safe around anyone while small #so i don’t know what to do #do i just accept the fact that i’m never going to regress again without having a panic attack? #i could just try really hard not to anymore #but god forbid my stupif brain cooperates becquse #that’s annoying too #i should be able to deal with something happeninh without freaking regressing and crying over it #it’s so dumb #idk #i just wanna feel safe again #it’s unfair #crying child 🌧️

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #the rat grinders #adaine abernant #kipperlilly copperkettle #watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!! #this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk #like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was #what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god #my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season #the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands #also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally- #changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk #but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up #they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here #there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows #the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!! #anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance