#((It feels so sickening.))

[girlatrocity]

Request idea if u wanted! Thinking about an Eri n Toga interaction and it's just them dancing with Eri stood on Toga's feet cause she's still a child....

the sisters......

#this is sooo up my alley tysm for the request 🫶🏻 #literally thinking about them and how they were both made to feel like monsters until somebody finally told them otherwise. sickening. #they're actually so cute i wanna put them in the oven #bnha #mha #bnha fanart #toga #eri #toga himiko #eri aizawa #to ME #eri bnha #boko no hero academia #mine !!

[vulpinesaint]

off of last post! do ace people know about the black ring on the right middle finger!! are the kids aware!!! do you guys know that we have a community symbol that you can wear out in public without scrutiny? do you guys know that we have something physical to tie us together? a way to recognize each other???

#i just think it's SO important #i wear my ring every day just like. for me. it makes me feel like myself. #and also i live in hope that someone will recognize it someday :) #it's just. it's really good. #i get emotional about the black ace ring. #come on asexual community let's get sickening #ace #asexual #asexuality #ace pride #aroace

[letitbehurt]

Phrases someone could say to comfort a person in immense pain that they are causing. Eg. Taking a bullet out or field surgery. Thank you my Darling, I love your page!

Thank you Dearest! Field medicine with reluctant Whumpers: an underrated trope, methinks. Here are some relevant phrases that make a little bit feral:

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”

“Bite down on this.”

“It’s almost over, I promise—“

“Trust me.”

“Deep breath.”

“Close your eyes. Don’t look.”

“Shh, shh. It’s over. It’s done.”

“This is going to hurt.”

“Try not to scream.”

“Let me see it.”

“Don’t move.”

Additionally, some lines I adore from Whumpee in this scenario:

“Fuck, that hurts—“

“I don’t need that.”

“Just do it.”

“Holy shit, that’s disgusting—“

“Don’t touch me.”

“Stop. Stop, please—“

“Hurry up, just hurry the fuck up—“

#field medicine is so overlooked #it’s sickening #ohhh but when it happens <3 #can you tell I adore Caretakers who get shit done but feel so horrible about it #can you tell I adore Whumpees with severe trust issues who suddenly have no choice BUT to trust someone #and it’ll stay that way #whump

[shahareen]

never has there ever been a ship that goes through this cycle like asaden does

#IMAGE NOT MINE. ITS FROM THE TWITTER FOLKS #almost fooled myself into thinking that i got over this ship.. i was finally gonna live my best life but this chapter reeled me back in DAMN #like SIKE u thought #theyre so ENDGAME otp it actually hurts #the chokehold asaden has is unmatched #asaden #chainsaw man #csm spoilers #chainsaw man 149 #denji #csm #asa mitaka #denji hayakawa #csm denji #mitaka asa #DENJI AND ASA ARE SO STARVED FOR LOVE IM SICK #ASADEN IS LIKE. TWO POOR STRAY PUPPIES LEFT OUT IN THE RAIN TRYNA KEEP EACH OTHER WARM DESPITE THE WHOLE WORLD DROWNING IN A NEVER ENDING #ONSLAUGHT OF MURKY PUDDLE TYPE WATER #SICKENING. I FEEL PHYSICALLY ILL

[renonv]

Good news community! I am no longer fighting for my life ❤️

#man 23 hits and you can’t fucking bounce back as easily the next day #sickening #but after 5 grueling hours of feeling like my eyes are gonna pop out of my head I am FREE #and so is Antonio now #hws spain #hetalia #antonio fernandez carriedo

[rewritingcanon]

scorbus but it’s interchangeable

#i feel like scorp is usually the one being carried. hes so aware of his own looks and grts self conscious 😭 #whereas albus just accepts that hes mid looking but he doesnt really percieve attractiveness in other people #and then both of them view the other one as the epitome of beauty like theyre so obsessed with the craziest parts bro #albus just stares at scorpius knees and fingernails and throat #scorpius is so obsessed he be liking albus’ stink 😭😭 and then he’ll blame it on his pheromones 💀🙏 #harry potter #hp #hpcc #cursed child #scorpius malfoy #scorbus #albus severus potter #rewriting #i love reading a scorbus dynamic and theyre so sickening sweet and down bad for each other ahhhhh

[meredithbeckham]

when you grew up like we did, it… it impacts how you see the world. everything is filtered through a very specific lens. and ward got that.

i think it’s important to realize you can miss something, but not want it back, paulo coelho.

#daisyjohnsonedit #daisy johnson #aosedit #daisy x ward #anti skyeward #to be clear this isn't meant to romanticize them it's just exploring a facet of their dynamic i find interesting (and utterly terrifying #and sickening) #how much of daisy's connection to ward to begin with was in their shared abusive backgrounds #how he specifically could understand how she grew up and the impact it had on her and her worldview #it physically hurts me to think about how vulnerable she was with him and how much she trusted him with as her s.o #how much she would have felt for him in regard to his own abuse and wanted to help him and what a role that in of itself would have played #in their relationship and in her feelings #something i think aos does really well is allude to daisy's history - how clear it is that she is a survivor of abuse and how consistently #present that is in how she perceives and navigates the world #it's subtle but so very there #her face in that scene where ward goes off because of the staff. CHILLS #and it hurts me so very much to think of how connected she felt to ward in that regard while he himself was preying on and manipulating her #tucking away every vulnerable detail she shared for later use #how he convinces her to trust him and that he won't turn his back on her just to be yet another person who has abused her #how when he starts talking about how he isn't a good man it must be so easy to think he's just like her - thinking she's bad and worthless #and wrong and unlovable because that's what abuse does that's what it does to you #and daisy is so keenly aware of that so much more self-aware than she's given credit for #abuse / #daisy who is actually able to articulate what ward was to her and who maybe misses what she thought he was sometimes because how could #it not be nice to for a moment have someone who understood #but who is also so keenly aware of who he is and what he has done

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

really weird poll time!

#i always thought everyone was like this #but i was talking about it to my boyfriend earlier and he said he never feels this! #so maybe i'm a freak!!!!!! #this conversation was inspired by the vaster wilds by lauren groff which was a Very Tough Read For Me D: #my ankles also always go weak in a very queasy sickened fashion when i see or think about anyone experiencing injuries etc. #because i am a victorian waif apparently

[londonfoginacup]

.

#prefacing this in saying that this isn't directed at anyone reposting these from twit or reblogging them #I need to get this frustration out though #and maybe some other artists will feel seen with this #but like. #AI is a devaluation of everything fandom is built on and i am disgusted by it #the economy of fandom is based on creation made and gifted and created in return #everything AI makes is stolen from what other have created #their fan art or their fic or their manips or their photography #ALL of it is stolen #every bit of it #that has been taken from someone who has made something out of love #AI might create fun images #but ive seen so much ai 'fanart' on twitter today #and i can so CLEARLY name every artist that that 'fanart' has stolen from #its fucking sickening #and we dont have as many manip makers in our fandom right now but we have a rich history of it #and i feel sick thinking about how they will think its useless to even try now #when people can just ~make ai manips~ #BUT ITS NOT THE SAME #with fan art and manips i spend so much time zooming in and looking at details and expressions #knowing those have been created with a purpose #theyre made to be found and admired #ai 'art' has none of that #and im just #so mad #fuck ai fuck ai fuck ai im so MAD #it is a DEVALUATION OF FANDOM I AM SO MAD #not at the people using it as much #because i feel like they havent thought through that #although i hope they will

[krikidilly]

Pokemoned... i simply think they deserve to be in a land of wonder and trade eachother luvdiscs like losers

#their outfits are based on the ace trainers! enmus is the kalosian one and Doumas is hoenns :-] #enmus peeved because he thought he was being so creative with the luvdisc. #they also give eachother applin. sickening... #endouma #lotus dreams #enmu tamio #douma #kny #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #my art #enmu definitely has a musharna and a hypno (secretly theyre service mon..) #douma has a liligant :-] i feel it in my heart

[possession1981]

just jacob gifs (7/?)

#the boyz #tbz #tbzinc #jacob #jacob bae #kpopco #kflops #kpopccc #malegroupsnet #*mywork #ult #justjacob #eyestrain #i don't wanna talk about it. #however. #handsome.... i feel like james dean.... i feel like anthony perkins.... i feel like rock hudson..... i'm sure u get my drift #u cant even tell he was wearing weird contacts with my colouring so its even more sickening. #sry abt the quality i had to do it. #anyways. here u go miha i made a set. #it was entirely for u. #*ults

[snzluv3r]

welp. i had to stop the antibiotic for my sinus infection because i Am indeed allergic to it and it keeps giving me anaphylaxis so yeah executive decision was made that i shouldn’t risk it :( i’m so frustrated and i’m really starting to feel sick to a point that i could collapse at any moment

#literally had a guy from work i see everyday stop in his tracks and ask me if i’m okay #and i purposefully put on mascara today to mask how horrible i feel #sometimes my sinus pain/pressure and migraines get so severe that i think i would rather just. keep taking the antibiotic #because even though that horrible indescribable dread during anaphylaxis #it’s such a scary horrible sickening feeling like it’s so distinct idk but idk…it eventually goes away #the pain doesn’t unless i finish the whole course of antibiotics #this is so fucking frustrating and i’m so tired i don’t have time #i’m scared i’m going to get pneumonia again #i won’t even be able to go to #the appointment they’re scheduling for me tomorrow until at least tomorrow night and that’s if they even have that #otherwise i’ll have to wait til saturday #god by then i’ll be miserable #i’m so drained and it felt like friday all day for some reason but it’s not ugh #random probably delete later just so annoyed

[beanghostprincess]

sanji going through all that shit in wci to accept that he's not part of the vinsmokes. that he's human. he has empathy. he's a good person. he's not like them. to then suffer the torture of physically becoming just like them. it makes me sick. i can't do this.

#i don't know if i want to cry or throw up or both this is just #this is sickening #and extremely relatable #and i see myself in him so much #i can't do this #i'm genuinely feeling so bad i- #one piece #black leg sanji #wci #wano

[laniemae]

I am going to take a break from milgramblr

[important please read]

ok now how do I start. Im going to take a break from tumblr for about a week. Things have been absolutely awful for me here since the very beginning of 2024, even if it may not look that way at times.

to retell the situation it happened with the new years gartic phone game, where someone made a prompt about a ship that made me heavily uncomfortable. To put it loosely it reminded me of an extremely bad experience with a fandom a few years ago when I called out a ship for being creepy and having a huge age gap but I was constantly dogpiled and harassed. It was probably the worst experience I’ve had on the internet and to this day I get really scared of people hating on me and I apologise for everything likely stemming back from the situation.

I tried to persist with the game but I got really upset and left. I expressed on my blog how uncomfortable I felt about the whole situation. Then this one person, who’s a prominent figure in the Milgramblr community, I won’t name them but I think you’ll know who, replied on my post saying that “it’s ok because…” in such an awful tone. It’s hard to explain but basically it felt really bad as they completely dismissed my feelings about the situation just to justify their creepy ship. And even worse, they way they responded was EXACTLY the same way that everyone else responded back in to at old fandom. At the point to I’d much prefer hate and harassment over that false positive attitude.

I freaked out and immediately blocked them and basically went into a panic attack. I was freaking out on my blog and just to make things worse I saw a post praising them and things got so bad. It was the start of the new year and I was on holiday and was supposed to do a bunch of things but because of that situation I was bedridden and couldn’t stop crying. I had so many nightmares about everyone here turning on me and the original incident and I still have them.

the way the person reacted to my situation was absolutely awful. After my breakdown they immediately went to their blog and started posting about how the ships good and you should praise it completely disregarding everything that happened. I’ve always been uncomfortable with them but this pushed me over the edge. And later on I got in contact with someone who was (presumably) trying to help me and we decided to see if that person could make an apology. But they took way to long to even think they gave any attention to the situation and the apology itself didn’t feel that genuine.

This person was still posting about it and didn’t change their pfp and title despite how bad it was to me and they did not do anything at all. Again I’m not naming anyone but I highly recommend you do not support them anymore. I said I’m going to be leaving for a while but if you want clarification on who it is you can just ask, I’ll check my stuff tomorrow morning before I completely shut off for the week.

I don’t know who it was but there was even a throwaway account hating on me and saying awful things. I didn’t care that much as things had already gotten so bad for me that I didn’t care about the opinion of an anon. But like I said, the sickly positive response that person gave was way worse than actual hate.

and that’s only one part of the story. Another thing happened much more recently with the person I mentioned who was trying to help me. They were the first person I followed on Milgramblr and the person who inspired me to join and make all these theories, so with this and them helping me I really looked up to them. It was a few days ago I think but they posted something on their account about that person and wanting attention to them. I expressed my uncomfortable feelings about the situation and they didn’t do anything about it. Instead they decided to KEEP POSTING about it, like constantly and me getting more upset at the situation and how they responded made it clear that they didn’t care at all. I blocked them and we were mutuals for a while.

It’s been a month and I’m still suffering very badly. I’m not constantly crying as I was when it first happened but it still pains me. I’ve been feeling incredibly distressed on this sight knowing that the original person hasn’t done anything about it and they’re still very close. No matter how much I block them or blog tags I still see them in reblogs or bought up. I had to exclude anything relating to the earbuds collab from my milgram archives as it gives me back really bad memories to the pfps involved. I just can’t feel safe in this place anymore and especially that no matter how I feel, nothing has changed since when it happened and no one’s even actually trying to help me or change things.

I’ve just been feeling so bad that I’ve been going days without eating. Just because I can’t be bothered to get out of bed. The only solace for me is sleep but even that’s not good enough as I might have nightmares and I often feel much more tired afterwards. Things are changing for me as I actually have to get up and do something now and it’s surprisingly going kinda well, but that has nothing to do with this situation.

just to note I will be continuing my milgram archives series, I’ve scheduled quite a few posts for this week so they’ll keep going. For me I’ll completely cut off all activity for this week, and may return on Wednesday.

it’s just. I hate how nothings changed. I want something to happen but no one’s helping

#I don’t know how many people will see this #i don’t even know if people will care about this #perhaps I just come back and everything’s the fucking same #I’ve been considering leaving the fandom because of this and I guess this would be to see what’s it’s like #If it’s better to stay or to leave #I’ve blocked so many people from this situation it’s hard to believe #people I thought I could trust… #To say it once again #If you know the person I’m referring to please unfollow them and don’t support them #I can tell you if you ask for a while #And just seeing all the praise the fandom got with people saying the fandom is such a nice and wholesome space is sickening #It was right after what happened and it’s just awful seeing people say that like they don’t care about what happened #They even started a minecraft server which I wanted to join #But avoided like the plague when I realised it was the person who started the original prompt #There was also a thing that happened recently where someone drew all their mutuals as cats #I ended up seeing that person in one of the cats and knowing that they followed them I instantly unfollowed #The cat pfps just make me so uncomfortable as it constantly reminds of the situation #It sounds stupid because it is but I’m at the point where any little reminder can set me off #But it’s not as bad as the collab pfps which I just can’t look at anymore #Although it’s only with a few characters that really make me feel that the art style in general just gives bad memories #To what I said earlier I don’t know anything about the person the originally made the prompts stand on this #I don’t know if they’re purposely ignoring me I don’t know if they even have no idea this is happening but I’m worried #I’ve also had experiences with a bunch of people I used to follow blocking me #And I’ve talked about it here but no one pays attention

[bloogers-boogers]

Second chances part 22 > 21 > 23

#south park #eric cartman #kyle broflovski #kyman #sp kyman #'second chances' (kyman comic)♡ #kyley b is not an antagonist! he's a alter ego of kyle's that can freely express his sickening obsession for cartman #-in a way kyle allows it kyle b can be as many things as kyle wants but something that can never change about him is that he's the most #-emotionally opened kyle can be #kyle b has something kyle deeply craves but fears to be which is being more opening vulnerable around cartman #cause if there's something kyle b is sure of is that he LOVES and would protect cartman at all cost and he's not afraid to admit that #kyle has so many repressed feelings in this comic but the most painful of it all was cartman dumping him and just having to deal with that #okay I'll shut up now #oh and bradley is kyle's butters heheheh