#((anyway dm me for my other blogs or my discord if you wanna reach me for the next few days. I won't be touching this blog for a while)) | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

ventrue-in-control · 1 year

Text

Jackie Mczyne

since I never made one before cuz im bobo the fool

Name: Jackie Emanual Abdul Mczyne Pronouns: he/him they/them age: 25 forverer but 68 in total Nationality: British-Tanzanian Species: Vampire (VTM) Clan: Ventrue Sect: Camarilla Location: Andover (primarily) and Swindon (secondary) Personality: egotistical anarchistic idiot Partner: @misericorsalvator Sire: @keeper-of-lions Notes: This man is a germaphobe and has a bit of OCD. Also can NOT handle physical toutch what so ever. If he was a bird he would be an impundulu

There are no specific rules for interacting with my blog! Just dont be focking racist cuz ill feed your kidneys to the dogs

THINGS ARENT TAGGED SO BE WARNED OF GORE BLOOD AND WHAT HAVE YA NOT you can of course ask me to tag certain things I will appologize because I may very well forget orz plz do remind me.

More rambles under the cut off

You've unlocked the extra rambles! congrats! Im so sorry as this may just be incomprehensible

first of all Hi! Im birdy, 24 years old, a black trans animator from the netherlands. I do da drawing and da makin of da gaymes. I stream on twitch you are always free to reach out to me here in DM's or else on discord The-Nerdy-Birdy#0918 <- JUST BE AWARE I was terrible social anxiety and I may be slow to respond THAT'S NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU PLEASE KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU Im just silly :3 and have my moments. I promise ya tho I love to talk and ramble.

WITH THAT OUTTA THE WAY MY BOI OH HOW I LOVE HIM SO HE CAN SOMETIMES BE A BIT OF A BITCH AND I AM SORRY. HE CAN BE MEAN. ITS JUST A CHARACTER THOUGH BUT IF I EVER GO TOO FAR LET ME KNOW PLEASE I DONT WANNA HURT NOBODY

anyways, quick summary about jackie.

Jackie went through a lot in his living years! going through the 50s to the 80s as a black man in the uk certainly was something! He used to be a genuine sweet and caring kid and now he still cares but hes very jaded by the world. He used to be part of the british black panther party and he has many opinions bout stuff and politics! but he has quited down quite a bit after his embrace.

he has a bit of a shortfuse cuz folk keep threathening him and hurting him so he is quite defensive. sadly he does not have the brains to see yet that he himself also hurts people and he should be a bit nicer to folk sometimes!

He cares tons about his friends and those who he considers fam. he does not enjoy seeing folk get hurt but.... if push comes to shove he will always choose himself. hes all he has. and all he can rely on and nobody is worth destroying himself over. atleast he'd like to think that. he does however often finds himself choosing his friends over himself and he hates it.

EHHHH FASHION WISE. He basically runs a GIANT company called SALMON which both makes ready to wear as haute couture. he is not the sole designer of it al. but he is most well known. he is a bit of a control freak with his company (not much better outside it either) so he will pick up more work than he should resulting in him always stressing about something.

he has many other companies also and a whole buncha other lore PLEASE ASK ME BOUT ME BOI HE IS ALMOST 10 YEARS OLD AND HE MEANS A LOT TO ME.

EHHH IDK WAT ELSE TO ADD SO U GET SMALL FUN FACTS!

Jackie is terrified of moths his handwriting is actually a perfect typewriter font he is really good at math! unlike me! cant see shit without his glasses was part of the british black panther movement HIS FEEDING RESTRICTION IS FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO FIGURE OUT TEEHEE He wishes to become prince someday fave color is salmon of course.

HAVE SOME MORE ART OF HIM ALSO

HIS COTERIE BTW HOW COULD I FORGET! He is actually from a still active chronicle! though I most things on dash arent like canon lol In order the characters are: Tommy Riley Jackie Ada and Chris. they all hate each other and they has an awful time together :)

#long post #ooc #because i litterally cannot stfu #cuz im silly :3 and I love my boi a lot #IM ALSO SORRY AS I DIDNT SPELL CHECK IT AND I HAVE SCATTERBRAIN SO THIS MAY NOT EVEN MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL #I AM LITTERALLY SO SORRY FOR ANYONE WHO DECIDES TO READ THIS

14 notes · View notes

minerwarfare-suzuya · 10 months

Text

Y'know when something should remain dead and moved on from. It should be said and done with good intentions.

I said with "good intentions". This isn't one of them, so it finds its way to be relevant again.

Nicole recently hit me up my inbox. I assume scoffing on her opinions caught her attention to my blog but hey welcome to the blog. (:

She's previously reached out to Cagney and Kevonica on topics about the Mobox87 drama which resulted in altercations. Nicole's been called out and shown to start these arguments or disagreements by being one sided on the drama when trying to interview Cagney and Kevonica. You can check that all out by pressing this underline sentence.

So yeah, keep note that most of Nicole's statements are like what this image says.

Anyways, here is the translation of Nicole's message.

"Hey, isn't it a bit gossipy or intrusive of you to talk about me"

"I don't know, I say *this* because well, for you to talk about it without being someone who has to do with it is something rude and gossipy on your part"

Yeah, I shouldn't really have to explain why this message is dumb but it's here for y'all to see.

Apparently you can't have an opinion or provided info to criticize someone without it being labeled as harrassment or rude.

Y'know same could be applied to you Nicole. I don't understand why you're feeling entitled to be untouched by others criticism when you came around feeling like this when you got into the drama.

Don't go off talking about how you don't wanna have me or anyone put your name out of their mouth because you claim they are someone who has nothing to do with whatever bullshit that you spat out.

You're so quick to say something about this drama that you have nothing to do with it by inviting Mobox87 in a discord call to do an interview for you to stream, get into a dm conversation with Cagney and Kevonica for you to have a feud.

Then what? Come to me as a victim cause Oh Hey What I Say is Gossip? As if your shit show doesn't imply as well cause you're a supporter of an artist's public image when they've done messed up shit behind everyone's backs and have a literal gallery of art they wanna excuse was manipulation to make child porn, snuff, glorify domestic violence?

Oh hey but let's not forget-

Anyways, quit clowning cause I already went off once and you made me had to do it twice. Just when I stated we have moved on from you, Nicole. You just had to come around and talk to me when you've made it clear that you're non-negotiable from what has been shown by the screenshots revealing your conversation in full context.

Nicole if you really want out of this drama and not be brought up again then shut up and leave it alone.

Now to address the people who actually been harassing Nicole and by spamming her on Instagram, YouTube and her Tumblr blog which she's posted previously.

For this user who's attacking Nicole. I'm going to be generally honest, kill yourself.

No seriously like wtf is your actual problem, we're at least being professionals while you got some asshole giving the critics a bad rep with this harrassment so quit it.

1 note · View note

kurtzbergsiblings · 4 years

Text

PSA

//Look. I didn’t want to make a post. This may destroy what little I have on this blog, but here’s the thing. Is stalking actors bad? Yes! In every fandom! No one said it wasn’t? But “spamming the tag” is not a punishable offense that should be put in your same post. Block buttons exist for a reason.

And someone being worried it was them being talked about because they are one of two blogs that fits a description is valid, okay? Don’t attack them for getting defensive when they think people are talking behind their back. This isn’t a “you’re so vain” issue when the fandom is the size of a pencil eraser.

Honestly? For a second, I thought it could be me too. Before things got specific, I was scared beyond belief that I had done something to offend. I posted on another blog. Now I’m thanking high heaven I didn’t post it here or I would’ve been the one burned at the stake.

Let the bridges burn. It’s not like I’m a stranger to this feeling.

#((I am so tired))#((I had an awful shitty day before any of this))#((and the moment I try to write and relax I have this shit thrown in my face))#((maybe I'm being unnecessarily cruel but Jesus))#ooc #negativity tw #((I honestly should just let this blog die shouldn't it?))#((anyway dm me for my other blogs or my discord if you wanna reach me for the next few days. I won't be touching this blog for a while))

2 notes · View notes

monsterenergysimp · 3 years

Text

Permanence

corpse husband x fem!reader

summary: you meet corpse on a stream and you’re surprised when he reaches out to you

warnings: cursing, mentions of tattooing

word count: 1.9k

notes: This is proof read but could have missed some stuff. This is my first corpse fic and my first time writing fanfic since I posted that super cringey book on wattpad when I was like 12 or something. I’d appreciate feed back so please reach out to me :)

main blog @itsmysleepover

read part 2 here!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

You were cleaning up your station so you can get home and stream. You loved your day job as a tattoo artist but you also really enjoyed streaming. It started as a way to promote yourself as an artist and the shop you worked at but it eventually became a really fun way to destress at the end of the week (or day if you were really itching to stream). “Hey Y/N was that your last client?” your boss, KC, asked as she walked to the front of the shop and put new flash drawings on the walls.

“Yes ma’am!” You said back excitedly. You finished cleaning your station and tossed your black gloves in the trash. “And you can’t trick me into staying and taking walk-ins,” you joked with her. She rolled her eyes and walked back into her office “It was one time,” she said as you slid on your jacket. As you walked out your phone buzzed in your pocket and you checked to see who had texted you. It was a message from Sean asking if you were free to play Among Us with him and some other streamers. You replied that you were on your way home right now and totally down. You were excited to see who was playing this time around since their Among Us streams are super entertaining and have gotten really popular.

On your way back you tweeted and posted to your Instagram story that you’d be streaming soon and set up all your stuff once you made it home. After a few minutes, you had a couple of thousand people watching. You entered the discord chat and Sean spoke up. “Everyone this is Y/N she’s sensitive so be gentle.”

“It’s nice to finally meet you guys and I’m not gentle, I'm ruthless,” You say into your mic and notice the chat calling you a liar. Everyone was in the lobby waiting for the game to start. “You sound way too sweet to be ruthless,” Corpse said. The countdown started and you were imposter with Charlie.

“This should be fun,” you told the stream. Yout tried playing strategically but after such a long shift your brain was mush. You saw Poki in nav and killed her then vented into shields. Not long after the body was reported and you were sure you were going to get voted out or at least sussed.

“Where was the body?” Felix asked. “Nav and I didn’t see anyone near there so whoever is imposter must have vented,” Corpse responded. Felix spoke up again. “I think I saw Y/N walk that way and I haven’t seen her since.”

Shit, shit, shit shit. “I’m in shield right now so-” you said trying to defend yourself but Charlie spoke up. “I was doing tasks with her earlier and I saw her walk into shields so she’s safe but I’m still not sure about Rae.” Everyone discussed a bit more and some people, including Corpse, voted for you but Rae got the majority vote and was ejected. You released your breath and kept playing being extra careful.

“Okay, guys that was super close. Corpse knows and is out to get me,” you said to the chat. You were eventually voted off but one round later victory was written across your screen with your ghost and Charlie’s avatar. “Good game guys,” Corpse said.

“I told you guys I was ruthless!”

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

You sat at your station doing nothing because a client had canceled a four-hour session. You were listening to music and sketching some stuff but you were bored out of your mind and you didn’t want to leave in case you got a walk-in. The music got quiet as you received a twitter notification saying someone had messaged you. You reached for your phone and saw you had gotten a dm from Corpse.

C: hey :)

You didn’t know what to respond. You were mostly confused as to why he decided to message you out of the blue. Did he want something? But what would he want?

Y: Hii! This is sudden

C: was i bothering you?

shit sorry!

Y: Youre fine I wasn’t doing anything rn

C: how has your day been

i dont usually do stuff like this

Y: Im glad you did im doing better now I was so bored

C: what were you doing that was so terrible

Y: NOTHING! thats the problem :(

C: im sure youll find something to do

You stared at his message. Unsure what to respond.

Y: Im gonna give myself a tattoo

C: what?

NO!

You tossed the needles you used for your tattoo into the sharps box. “Oh my god you didn’t,” KC said. She noticed the wrap on your calve from the tattoo you just gave yourself out of boredom. “It’s not my fault I didn’t have anything else to do!” You said trying to defend yourself. She sighed and just shook her head. “Just go home business is slow today.” It was raining so the shop probably wasn’t going to get a walk-in anyway and you didn’t have any more clients for the day. It was only 2 pm but you drove home and after making lunch for yourself decided to stream. You weren’t expecting too many people so it was bound to be super chill. Your leg felt sore reminding you of the tattoo. You snapped a quick pic of the fresh jack-o-lantern on the side of your calve and messaged it to Corpse.

Y: [image] it came out nice!

C: thats super cool actually

i was concerned why you would just give yourself a tattoo but i found your instagram and youre super talented

Y: Thank you!

For some reason, it felt strange to just have that be the end of your response.

Y: Im about to start streaming if you wanted to watch

[link]

C: ill be watching ;)

What’s that supposed to mean?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

You sat in your apartment watching tv, hand lost in a bag of Doritos, and scrolling through twitter. You had stopped paying attention to the anime playing on the screen since you’ve watched it a hundred times and knew you wouldn’t miss anything. It was Saturday and you usually take those days off. Take the time to do chores or meet up with some friends but today you felt like not doing any of those things. As you continue your endless scroll (not helping the twitter addiction you told yourself you’d try to get a handle on) you got a message from Corpse.

C: wanna talk?

You looked down at the message unsure of how to answer. It was a simple yes or no and the obvious answer was yes. You and Corpse had started talking more regularly. You still didn’t have each other’s phone numbers but it was fine. Your conversations weren’t too big-- just you sending him memes, tiktoks, and telling him how much you liked the songs he would drop. Or him complimenting a tattoo you did. Sometimes he’d message you during streams telling you funny stuff his fans would say in the chat and you’d do the same. You learned a bit about each other but nothing too deep or serious. Like how you two lived a few cities away and you both really liked Donnie Darko. When Sean first invited you to that game out of everyone else there you were most excited to meet Corpse. He’s just so sweet and funny. Of course, you’d love to talk to him but you were also itching to talk to him and the last thing you’d ever want to do was make him uncomfortable.

Y: Yeah id love to talk

Here goes nothing.

Y: Wanna facetime or something?

No pressure or anything it could even be a regular call

I think facetime is just my default lol

You sent those last two messages quickly after you had sent the first. You wished you could know what he was thinking. It was killing you to think you had turned him off from talking to you completely. You put your phone down on the couch and went to wash your hand of Dorito dust. When you got back from the kitchen you turned off the tv and tossed yourself onto the couch.

Still no message.

Why am I so fucking stupid?

Just as you were standing up to stretch from sitting on the couch all day your phone buzzed. You reached for it fast and looked to see that it was him. You became super excited still not even knowing what the message said. It could have told you to never talk to him again for all you knew.

C: sure lets facetime

xxx-xxx-xxxx

You had his phone number. You added him to your small but growing contact list and called. You sat on your couch waiting for a response when he finally picked up the screen was black. It didn’t upset you; you kind of expected it and didn’t care what he had to do to make himself more comfortable during this call.

“Hey,” he said. His voice was raspier than usual.

“Did you just wake up?” You asked and looked at the time. It was about a little past noon and you had only eaten Doritos all day. Shit, you should probably make a decent meal.

“Not that long ago but yeah,” he responded and giggled. That giggle.

“Well, I’ve eaten nothing but Doritos all day while rewatching Ouran High School Host Club, so you’re welcome to join me as I make myself something to eat.”

“Sounds like fun; what are we eating?”

“I don’t know yet,” You said as you stood up and made your way to the kitchen. You opened the pantry and looked. You noticed a can of diced tomatoes and reached for it then checked the expiration date. It was still good. On your counter were some onions and garlic. “How about some tomato soup?”

“Sounds delicious.” you smiled at Corpse and your phone screen not knowing if he was also looking at his screen or not. “You’re really pretty-- you know that?”

“Thanks, but you don’t have to--”

“I’ve already told you what an incredible artist you are so many times I bet you’re tired of hearing it, but you already know what a talented artist you are.”

“That is very kind of you Corpse,” you said to him bashfully as you chopped the onion and opened the can of tomatoes. “But once again you don’t have to reach so far to compliment me.”

“I’m not reaching you are talented and beautiful and--”

“I thought I was pretty.” You could hear him chuckle with a smile on his face. “You’re both,” he said. You could feel your face getting warm from blushing.

“Fuck you you’re making me blush. My face is all hot and stuff.”

He laughed at how flustered you got. “That’s the cutest thing ever.”

You didn’t know how to respond so you just put some olive oil in a pot and tossed in your onions. It became silent but it was a comfortable silence. You turned the stove on and watched the flame for a few seconds. “If it was dark we could pretend we were together and having a bonfire or something,” you said to the phone as you turned the camera to show him the flame (still not 100 percent sure if he was looking at you or not).

“I’ll put it on the list of things to do when you visit me someday.”

#corpse husband #corpse husband x reader #corpse husband imagine #corpse husband imagines #corpse husband x y/n #youtubers #caffeinated ramblings

1K notes · View notes

decembermoonskz · 3 years

Text

· the wilting wisteria · {a stray kids fic collab!} · 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊

⿻ wis·te·ri·a

/wəˈstirēə/ | noun

Historically, Wisteria symbolizes long-life and immortality. ... In Japanese Kabuki theater, the symbolism for the Wisteria is Love, Sensuality, Support, Sensitivity, Bliss and Tenderness. The abundance of the Wisteria flowering vine also signifies our own expanding consciousness.

· {𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰} ·

⸻ hello and welcome to izzy’s birthday celebration fic collab event! this is: the wilting wisteria event!

♛ the theme of this collab is ✨𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐲✨ if you know me, you know that I’m an avid lover of all things fantasy, so this event’s focus is fantasy and romance!! you can range from anything! from vampires, to werewolves, to royals, to witches! high fantasy or modern fantasy! let your mind run wild! 💜

♛ you can create your own original story and/or find inspiration from books, songs, legends, movies/shows, or whatever your imagination can come up with!

note: the definition of wisteria doesn’t have to be incorporated haha I just liked this definition of what it means. the reason I came up with “wilting wisteria is a take on it’s meaning of immortality; wilting immortality. almost like a god finding out they’re not all-powerful like they may think. it sounds angsty and I’m rambling ANYWAY

· {𝐝𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐬} ·

♛ UPLOAD DEADLINE: DECEMBER 7TH (my birthday >v<)

please don’t hesitate to reach out to me if you need more time! <3

♛ WITHDRAWAL DEADLINE: NOVEMBER 10TH

there is no problem if you need to withdraw from the collab! simply dm me here or on discord saying you’d like to pull out of the event :) there is no explanation needed either.

♛ there will be two slots per stray kids member! (should the slots fill faster than expected, or more people ask to join than anticipated, I’m willing to go up to a max three slots per member)

· {𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬} ·

minimum age to join this event is 16.

please don’t create drama in the collab (if you don’t get the member you want, lie about your age, etc)

all fic intros should include:

summary

pairing - please include the pairing in the beginning, must be reader insert, reader can be any gender you prefer (fem, male, gender neutral).

word count - minimum word count is 1k. please place a read more after the first 500 words max.

warnings - please list out all warnings and things you think would be triggering at the start of your fic. (especially any heavy warnings)

please include the link to the wilting wisteria masterlist

accepted genres - the focus should be fantasy (high or modern) and romance, but other genres are: fluff, angst, humor, healing/comfort, slice of life, happy ends, sad ends, thriller, horror, mystery accepted content types - one-shots, drabbles, series

readers must be inclusive: please try to refrain from describing race, hair lengths/types, skin color, body weight, or anything that would discriminate/exclude people.

this event is sfw. no smut please - suggestive themes such as heated make outs, or talking about sex are acceptable, if you’re not sure about something feel free to ask me if something is okay to put in or not and I will tell you.

fics posted for the collab should be posted under the tag wilting.wisteria.collab and will be reblogged by me under wilting.wisteria

· {𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐛} ·

it’s easy! simply reblog this post and dm me @bangchanisms with the member (also with a second member in case slots are full) you wanna write for, and whether you’d like to join the discord or not!

note: (bangchanisms is my side blog! if you experience any issues though just dm me directly here. just wanted to clarify.)

discord server: the discord server is totally optional! however it is helpful to keep up with information about the event/any updates or changes, upload schedules, as well as meet, interact and bounce ideas around with the other writers in the collab! :3

{member list is under the cut! please check to make sure the member you want is open thank you!}

· {𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭} ·

ʚïɞ chan ⸻

@decembermoonskz @orphic-chan

ʚïɞ minho ⸻

@lixesque @wingsofimagery

ʚïɞ changbin ⸻

@sleepylixie @wingsofimagery

ʚïɞ hyunjin ⸻

@pufflix @sunshinelixie-lee

ʚïɞ jisung ⸻

@sunshinelixie-lee @moonlit-han

ʚïɞ felix ⸻

@dom--minnie @sweetrainwrites

ʚïɞ seungmin ⸻

@speckled-sunshine @blossom-hwa

ʚïɞ jeongin ⸻

@dreamescapeswriting @spookybias

see masterlist here! ⇐

#wilting.wisteria #skz imagines #skz scenarios #stray kids imagines #stray kids scenarios #skz romance #stray kids romance #skz fantasy au #stray kids fantasy au #skz collab #stray kids collab #skz collab call #stray kids collab call #skz fanfic #stray kids fanfic

75 notes · View notes

favoniuscodex · 2 years

Note

i hope u dont mind this question, but as a writer on tumblr, how do you make more friends/moots? I've been seeing people do it so effortlessly like.. 😮

idk if i'm the best person to ask this haha i think i just have a lot of moots because i've been around since december of 2020, making me one of the oldest still-active genshin writing blogs. most of my moots were people who approached me first and were like "hey i like your writing!"

... also i don't talk to like 90% of them on the regular

people will have discord servers and stuff. i met a few good friends tht i tag in posts on super rare occasions on here through a discord server but tbh i don't really join them either. like. i mean this in the nicest way. i don't have any close tumblr friends and u can kind of tell from my writing LOL when im moots w ppl on here its usually just because we respect each others' writing and that's all, so we interact on occasion.

i guess that'd be my advice? if you like an author, reach out! but also be understanding that if you're a minor, someone my age isn't gonna wanna be super close besties.

i'm going to use this time to do a psa: hi minors, adults shouldn't be messaging you. if you're like 16 and you have a friend who is 18, that's fine but use your judgement and don't discuss weird stuff with them. but like, according to me and all other 20+ year olds i know that are normal, we're not exactly eager to dm anyone under the age of 18 enthusiastically. in group settings, it's cool. let me rephrase this: if you're under 18 and someone of age 20 or older is trying REALLY hard to be friends with you PRIVATELY / IN DMS, that's usually NOT THE GREATEST SIGN and you should FIND FRIENDS YOUR AGE. you're not "mature for your age" or whatever they may tell you, they may potentially be trying to take advantage of you.

granted, it is possible for adults to be friends with minors normally but........... generally they should know your parents or be involved with your school system or have some form of accountability. random strangers on the internet aren't exactly safe to befriend. you mig- ok you guys get it. internet safety lecture over.

had to go on my internet safety lecture because a lot of times teens are like "AXIA LETS BE FRIENDS!" and in my head it's like a baby in a diaper asking to be my buddy and i kinda scream in horror at the thought because like . anyone under 18 to me is like . a baby ??? i dont want to dm a baby ill go to jail??? anyways. ill help u with ur math hw but outside of that,

#//mail #i got so derailed

12 notes · View notes

ahlis-xiv · 3 years

Text

welcome to my blog!

Hi all!

So, it’s been a long while since I made an updated post for my tumblr and with the pinned post feature now added I figured I should take advantage of it. So, hello! I am Mandy and this is my FFXIV-centric blog for my OC/WoL Ahlis Ildilayan that is part RP, part writing shenanigans, and part Aesthetic Reblog Central.

If you’re here because maybe you have an interest in role play, how my rp writing style normally goes, and/or you might wanna see if we’d be compatible in that regard please check out my rp tagged posts! For the record I do not do RP in game, it’s either here or on Discord. Sorry ‘bout that!

If that’s not your jam and you just like XIV fiction, please help yourself to my writing tag or head on over to my AO3, although it does not have all my works! This tag has everything from my longer fics/chapters, to my FFXIVWrite entries too! Keep in mind that some of these longer fics are kinda old, and I have not edited them in some time...but they mean a lot to me anyway as I’ve learned over the years and I’m a sentimental sort of person, haha.

I also have lots of character art that I’ve commissioned of Ahlis over the years that I love to share and reblog from time to time. This tag might prove useful for those of you looking for new artists to support and to create something special for yourself! Imgur is also a place I store artwork, and you can find some of my ultimate faves over here!

And finally, if you just want to see all-things Ahlis, be it inspo or aesthetics, please peruse my various tags as well. Also, for those of you who have multi-muse/rp blogs be it from XIV or from other fandoms, hello! I would love to interact with you too! I am open to exploring other verses/AUs for Ahlis, if the theme and ideas are ripe :)

You can find me on other social media sites, such as twitter, if that’s your preferred stomping grounds. If you’re feeling social you’re more than welcome to reach out to me here via DMs, twitter-side, or in game too if you also happen to be on Adamantoise :) I’d love to say hello!

With all that being said, welcome and I hope you stick around! Cheers~

(updated: Feb. 2022)

#; ooc #meet the mun #mandy says a thing #hey I did a thing!#all the links! all the fic! all the...stuff etc lol #I hope this is useful to some degree

87 notes · View notes

hajimine · 3 years

Text

LEX’S 2020 APPRECIATION POST PT. II !

— to the lovely moots & followers who i talk to quite often (or pretty much everyday), this one’s for you.

thank u for being in my life, you made my 2020 so so much better. i’m so grateful october lex decided to make a tumblr acc 🥲

i’ll try my best to keep it kinda short 🥲👍

in alphabetical order:

@4fterh0urs — my omega phoebe 😩‼️ ily so much bc you’re both extremely stupid n extremely smart at the same time. u mean so much to me and i love talking to u even if u call me such weird as nicknames every damn day 😃 you’re so sexy n hella intimidating smfh idk how i was able to make u my bitch (JK PLS DONT KILL MEE) anyways, thanks for being a real one bae + you’re the person i block the most, so you’re special ig 😹👍 ily you’re actually such a sap but u pretend to be all tough heh <33

@archivednikes — my solar system, my wh*re (lovingly) hi bae 😣 ok yk how much i love u but. im gonna tell u again: ILYSM!! OKAY??? please know that you’re such an amazing human being and you’re SO incredibly talented. god i love u so much please take care of yourself baby, you’re always so kind to other people and i hope you can do the same to yourself. once again, i am so fucking glad you decided to slide into my inbox that day, because now i look forward to talking to you every single morning. insert grabby hands ilysm <33

@boosyboo9206 — onyx hi babes! i’m so so grateful for you omg u dont even know it. you always manage to cheer me up with your antics and you’re always here to support me 🥺 whenever i’m down you somehow aways manage to make me feel a lil better. i love talking to u whether it’s about sth as mundane as the weather or even your obsession with the word peepers. thank you for being you, please take care of yourself and stop sleeping so damn late. ilysm <33

@ch4jime — chloe bae!! 😁 hi omg ilysm you’re so cute and cool and nice urghh thanks for always checking up on me! i love love seeing you in my asks, you’re such a lovely person to be around. i seriously need to be better at dropping in other people’s inbox, so just know that i’ll work on hanging out on your blog more often this year bc ily! i wish u all the best and please never stop being you baby mwah <33

@fairyoomi — hi bae 😣😣 how are u?? i know we don’t talk much anymore, and that’s okie, but i still wanna write u this lil note because i’m so thankful i met you here on tumblr. you’re an amazing writer and u were so sweet to me even when i was a teeny blog who didn’t know anyone. i admire u a lot, yknow? thanks for being such a friendly and welcoming person, ily <33

@gu3to — mochi bestieo 🙀 idk if you’ll even see this smh so i’m just gonna text u after this (if i don’t forget to rip) okay so. hello?! you’re so mf cool and you’re a trendsetter 🤩 yes yes im fueling your god complex it’s bc ily smh. you’re so dumb i wanna choke u sometimes but i won’t bc i’m also just as dumb 😁 pls stop disappearing from the face of the Earth okay ilysm you always keep it real and i know i can always count on u to listen to uh... my shit. okay so when are we gonna make out? 🤨 oki bye <33

@hoekageyama — wifey!! maddie baby urghh yk how much i love you, you’re one of my earliest moots im pretty sure? and aaaaa i’m so so glad i decided to be weird as hell and slide into your asks that day (pancreas. sighs. iconic.) you’re my numero uno whenever i wanna bark about hot 2d boys and what i’d let em do to me coughs err yea hehe. please take care of yourself baby you’re such a sweet and kind and loving person and i’m so glad to have you in my life. smh we text each other lovey dovey texts anyway but i still wanna do this for u 😋 ilysm!!! <33

@honeyskawa — lani baby hi! i know you haven’t been super active lately, but i just wanna tell u that i appreciate u so so much!! you honestly made my goddamn week when u sent me that ask about how i inspired you bc what the heck?? never in my life have i expected to have such an impact on someone. you’re a wonderful writer honestly. i love u so much and i hope everything’s going well baby, i’m excited talk to u more whenever you decide to be active on tumblr again <33

@jougogo — kaybae hi!!! you haven’t been on tumblr much lately but hi sexc it’s me lex lol i’ve moved accs hehe 😎 i hope u see this whenever u get your phone back cries. you’re such an amazing person to be around, always so cheerful and friendly, you exude so much positive vibes and ilysm. you always manage to lift up the mood with your sexc self and i admire u for that. you’re so incredibly chaotic and fun to be around ahrgehxhh i appreciate u sm and i hope you’re taking care of yourself bby ily <33

@kemochie — my waluigi, my favorite f*rry, hi 😝 urghhh god we just started talking everyday pretty recently but god. you’re so funny??? and i love bullying u bc u give me so much material to bully u with (ok jkjk i love u that’s why i bully u smh) also, you’re so incredibly supportive and u were actually the one who pushed me to finally post that atsumu fic, even tho stupid me accidentally deleted it LMAOBSBD anw, u bring sm joy in my life, so thank u for that. we’re a small lil filf and you’re the milf to my dilf LMAO ilysm mwah!! <33

@kenmaki — gabbae! virgo bestie!! hi hi !! you’re such a talented person and you’re an amazing writer, and i hope one day u can get past your insecurities and see yourself as the wonderful person u truly are. i love how we were able to relate to each from how similar virgos think + our initial conversation of dick measurements and such will forever be seared into my memory. and congrats on getting a daily railing on the dash HSBDH i don’t look at em i promise lol 🤩🤩 jdbdhdh ilysm bby <33

@miyams — ren sweet babie hi! you’re so incredibly talented please don’t listen to stupid hate anons. i’ll stab them with a serrated knife if i have to 😠🔪 you’re so flippin cute and sweet i love talking to you, and i love love love whenever u come by my inbox to say hi. i hope we can talk even more in 2021, my dms and asks are always open for u bby (even though i suck at replying right away, sorry abt that huhu) i love u sm baby please take care of yourself <33

@miyasangel — ardie bae 😜 hi sexc!! i still cant believe we talk like everyday now lmaoo i used to think you’re so freaking cool (i still do) and now i’m friends w u whattaheck 🥲 you’re such an amazing writer wtf. i hate that we had to start our friendship on such a sour note (ehem discord ehem) but i’m really glad it brought us closer together. ily cockarden i’ll be sure to bully u even more HAHAGS IM JK makes out w u so hard bc you’re so damn hot ily 😣‼️ <33

@owlywrites — owly baby hello! ily so so much and you’re so talented, you deserve so much recognition. i hope i can read more of your fics soon bc they’re so well written ugh 😣 thanks for always checking up on me and always being so incredibly sweet. i love u so so muchhh huhu i wanna give u the biggest hug in the world :( please take care of yourself and never stop being your genuine self kith kith <33

@rilacry — milfy gorlillola 😜😜‼️ hi sexc. omfg i was so intimidated by u wtf (and i still kinda am smh) bc you’re so cool?? and your writing n carrd making skills are amazing as hell wtf. u just exude BDE bc you’re hella hot AND bc u wanna peg everyone. anyways,, i’m glad we got closer recently, even if it was out of really wack circumstances. ily bae pls stop sticking your memojis everywhere mwah <33

@rintaroll — my kue tete ☹️☹️ ilysm smh bye i can’t believe we’re close now wtf you’ve always been so cool and sexc 😩‼️ oh god i rmb when u were still on your old acc and u seemed so out of reach and i was a lil intimidated ANDBDJD SHHH but yea now ik you’re just a big h word dork and i love u for that 😣 i wish u all the best for your singing career bby you’re such a talented writer AND singer wtf. also you’re so pretty???? wtf how rude 😠 JKJK HAHHSBD ilysm kithes u so hard <33

@tetsoleil — geegee!! hi baby 😣 thanks for being such a sweet human being ily! it’s been a while since we actually talked yeah? but i still want u to know that i love u a lot and i appreciate u so much. i’m so so grateful you’re in my life because you’re such a joy to be around. you’re an amazing writer bby and i hope you get the recognition u deserve. i’m always here for u if u need anything. ilysm bby <33

@velvetfireworks — rachie bae 🤩 my bakso goreng, my golden kiwi!!! ily!! hehe im so glad i decided to slide in your dms when u asked me if i was indo. but ahhhh you’re ao sweet and cute and supportive ilysm. an amaaazing writer and i admire your work so much, but i think you’ve heard me say that multiple times before. i’m so glad we became closer recently through our love for greasy food and wonky lil faces 👁💋👁 kith kith ilysm <33

@yato-o — yato baby hi!! urgh honestly i appreciate u so so much?? i feel so lucky to be able to get to know you. i don’t even remember how we met but ahhh thank u for always stopping by and have a chat with me even though i know you’re a busy person. please take care of yourself and get some rest whenever u need to! don’t feel pressured to come on here if you’re tired baby, im so grateful to have u in my life, i luv youu <33

HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU SEXY BAES!

kisses, lex

#💬#bye this took me so long #the biggest kithes for u all mwa

45 notes · View notes

newvessel · 3 years

Text

hi guys! you can call me lee. i’d prefer to be anonymous on this account so people i know don’t find it, but you can dm me and/or ask for my discord if you want to talk (and then id be fine sharing my real name lol)

this is a sideblog, so if i follow it will be from my main (again, dont wanna say my url but i have a bunny icon---so if u see that inting with your posts its me! i know many people only want fellow ed blogs inting with their posts, but i really dont want to remake T_T)

anyway, im 22 (edit: 24 now lol), and i suffer from .. idk, either ednos/osfed or anorexia b/p type (i dont have an official diagnosis yet) as well as anxiety and bpd (diagnosed) (edit: also bipolar ii dxed now)

i dont seek to encourage eating disorders & i would never want to contribute to anyone else going down this path. this is simply a safe place for me to express myself & find community with other people who already have similar struggles. if you don’t have an ed please block but don’t report. i need this space to keep me sane and i’m not ready to recover yet.

i mainly post personal text posts and memes/relatable content, but i also post thinspo, sweetspo, binge prevention tips, comfort & validation, & recipe ideas! i post meanspo privately (only for myself) and im anti-fatspo.

aside from ed stuff, im an artist, a stoner (lol), a nerd (mainly cartoons, anime, cosplay, video games & board games). i like the paranormal, music esp alternative rock and lo-fi, and cute things. i watch more youtube and netflix than probably 5 average human beings combined and i waste my life on pinterest....gotta cope somehow <3 trying to get my college degree but having hope for the future is hard

again, feel free to reach out!✌️

#txt #about

2 notes · View notes

threephasebird · 3 years

Note

Hello friend, it's Nicole from TAD discord, so sorry for awkwardly & randomly sliding into your dms. I've noticed that you've been reblogging a lot of The Untamed recently and I have just finished The Untamed & literally cannot think about anything else. I'm obsessed. Anyway, I've also noticed from your blog that your favorite seems to be JGY and I find that *fascinating*. He's very much not my fav, but he's such a complex character that I would love to hear your thoughts & feelings & analysis?

And to be completely clear, I will never try to debate with you or say your opinions are wrong or immoral or anything. I'm not an anti, I've stanned plenty of villains in my time. I'm just genuinely curious. I think the fact that you have such different feelings about this character is part of the beauty of stories and a testament to how complex and smart this particular story is.

Hello friend! First of all, thank you for your ask -- I love talking about my fictional faves, so there’s no need to apologize at all! There are definitely people out there who have already posted much more cohesive and succinct character analysis for JGY, but I’ve sat down for a bit to find an answer to the question of why I, personally, like him so much. I ended up finding six possible ways to answer this question, which I’ll list below and then go into (a lot) more detail under the cut. Hope you enjoy!

1) I like him because his motivations as a villain are complex and understandable

2) I like him because there’s no easy solution to his conflicts

3) I like him because he interacts with the story in a unique way

4) I like him because when we see him on top of his game, it’s fun to watch

5) I like him because LXC likes him

6) JGY is very small and has dimples

So, onward! (2.7k)

1) I like him because his motivations as a villain are complex and understandable

One possible way of looking at JGY is that throughout the entire story, his end goal is to eliminate all of the Jin family and come out on top as sect leader, chief cultivator and most powerful person in the cultivation world. However, I personally find it more intriguing to think that his specific plans shifted throughout the story and that he didn’t follow a long con the way NHS did, but that the common ground in everything he does is that he’s motivated by wanting security. Then, everything that he does afterwards is a step-by-step escalation when no matter what he does and how far he comes, his goal is always dangled right in front of him, but ultimately impossible to reach.

When he joins the Nie clan, on a superficial level it seems that this place could offer him the security he wants and needs, especially with NMJ protecting him -- but on the flip side of the coin, no one apart from NMJ and NHS seem to respect him, and his security entirely depends on NMJ’s goodwill. It’s an exteremely fragile position that could probably only ever last for a limited amount of time. Even if JGY never killed the guard captain and wasn’t thrown out of the Unclean Realm, how would the future have looked like for him? NMJ’s life expectancy was low to begin with, and once he had died (of natural causes, in this hypothetical case), NHS wouldn’t have been able to hold the same protective hand over JGY as his brother, and JGY would have become the disrespected advisor to the disrespected clan leader. (On a side note, I personally don’t think JGY released XY to get the yin iron -- I think it makes more sense that he wanted to use XY as bargaining chips against WC, seeing how he goes to free him immediately after WC asks for NMJ to release XY, to save the Unclean Realm and, in extension, his own ass.)

After JGY is thrown out, he’s basically out of options -- it’s go big or go home, because which other clan would take him in now? So he sets his sight on being recognized by JGS once more, and in order to succeed, he derives the plan of becoming a spy under WRH and do something so “heroical” that after the war, JGS has no other choice but to accept him into his clan. And at first, it seems like he succeeds and that he finally gets everything he wished for -- his father recognizes him as a son and gives him a position, he’s part of the Jin clan, he has power, he’s secure! But then it turns out that he was wishing on the monkey’s paw. His father doesn’t truly recognize him, and even in the Jin clan he’s disrespected (by JGS, by Madam Jin, by Jin Zixun), he doesn’t truly hold power (he just has to do whatever JGS tells him to), and he’s not secure (JGS instrumentalizes him because he’s useful to him right now, but does that mean he’ll be useful forever? So there’s a constant threat there).

I think the only reason JGS officially adopts JGY is that it allows him to claim the victory over WRH for the Jin clan and to expand his own power. Instead of JGY being recognized, JGS instrumentalizes him from the very first second and to make it worse, he makes JGY his attack dog the same way WRH did. I think the things JGY does under both WRH and JGS are absolutely horrifying, but I can’t help but also feel horrified for him. Under WRH, I think he tells himself that whatever he does is the lesser evil because it’ll end the war quicker, and that it’ll all be worth it in the end, and as a result, he loses parts of his own humanity there. And then under JGS, it’s the same fucked up shit again, except that this time, he also wants so very badly for JGS to value him, and in addition, he’s also completely out of options now. Without wanting to excuse the things he does under JGS, the only alternative at this point is for him to leave the Jin clan and the cultivation world as a whole, and I do think there’s a definite possibility that JGS would have him killed if he did because he knew too much about JGS’s plans.

Without passing judgment on his involvement in JZX and JZX’s deaths, as well as him killing NMJ and JGS for now (the latter being the one thing that I’m personally most horrified of), I don’t see JGY as a villain who enjoys being the villain the way XY does. I think he’s constantly horrified at himself and compartmentalizes to a degree where he’s actually derailing his own plans. Him throwing out XY immediately after killing JGS reads to me as him wanting to close the chapter of everything they did under JGS -- I think he must have acted out of a visceral emotion there or else he wouldn’t have left XY to die at the side of a road so carelessly (and, in effect, allowed for someone to live on with detailed knowledge of his own deeds). After rising to power (and finally, seemingly, really getting the security he’s always wanted), he doesn’t use that power to become WRH 3.0, but instead to do genuinely good things (such as building the watch towers). That’s not supposed to mean that him not being a cruel despot makes up for everything he’s done, but I find it interesting to think about from the perspective of, what kind of person could he have been if this opportunity had been given to him freely -- if his own class and social standing didn’t prevent him from that? I think he’d have become an incredibly powerful cultivator and clan leader if he’d have the same privilege as JZX.

In a way, I see JZX, WC, and JGY as narrative foils. WC shows us who JZX might have become if JGS treated him the same way as WRH treats WC. But, JGS doesn’t -- he shields his own son from this part of the Jin clan, and basically allows him to live in a completely different reality as JGY! JZX’s whole character arc is one of personality development, and becoming a hero, and falling in love -- he doesn’t have a clue about his father wanting to get his hands on XY and the Stygian tiger amulet and arguably about at least part of the war crimes he commits against the Wen clan. It’s not part of his life. In a way, JGY is the sacrifice being made to allow him to live his life unaware because in him, JGS found someone else to do his dirty work.

2) I like him because there’s no easy solution to his conflicts

Sometimes, when you want to be a villain apologist, all you need to do is point at one or a few bits of the story and say, “well if they hadn’t done that...”. (See, for example, Anakin Skywalker -- you wanna write a RotS canon divergence fixit? Just have Obi-Wan come back approximately one hour earlier and you have it, because before Anakin kills the Jedi even the Younglings he’s basically completely redeemable.) With JGY, you don’t get to have that. There’s no single turning point where you could say, “if he had picked the other option, he could have had a happy ending”. And part of the reason for that, which makes him a tragic character in my eyes, is that he crucially lacks options at many turning points.

In order to write a canon divergence AU for JGY where he comes out unscathed and redeemable, you’d have to go pretty far back in the story, and even then, you’d have to work hard to find a solution to his story that doesn’t a) rely on someone saving him (such as: LXC brings him to Cloud Recesses, or: JGS has a change of heart, frees his mother, and sends them a comfortable monthly pension), b) having him be dependent on someone else’s goodwill (such as: staying in the Unclean Realm in a delicate position).

If we don’t want to go back right to the very beginning or change fundamental parts of the story, well... As I’ve mused about above, if we let him stay in the Unclean Realm, he’d have never reached his goal of security either. If he never became a spy during the Sunshot Campaign, he wouldn’t have been accepted into the Jin clan and would have been out of options. If he never committed the atrocities for JGS, JGS would probably have kicked him out or killed him. (I do think there’s a lot of truth in what JGY tells NMJ in the empathy flashback, on that instance.) If he didn’t kill NMJ, there is a distinct possibility that NMJ would have killed him -- we see him try three times on screen, after all. (I’m leaving out the parts about him being directly responsible for JZX’s and JZX’s death in the show, as well as for controlling the corpses at Nighless City and JYL’s death, because it’s not in the book and I think it takes away from WWX’s character. As for QS’s and their son’s deaths...I personally do not see strong motivation for him to kill them, but in the end, we just don’t know which is, on a side note, a thing I really like about The Untamed/MDZS! Sometimes we just don’t know because the only people who know for sure can’t tell us anymore.) One option could be for him to confide to JZX, bring him over to his own side, and non-violently overthrow JGS, which would be a good and satisfying ending both to his and JZX’s character arcs -- but I also think there’s a high possibility JZX would hold JGY responsible for what he and JGS did, and never trust him with power again.

(Again, one thing I really do not wish to excuse away is how he killed JGS, and I just. Desperately wished he didn’t.)

I’ve been going over and over the possibilites for fix-its and canon divergence AUs, but in the end, I’ve arrived at the conclusion that the only real choice JGY has throughout the story is whether to remove himself from the narrative or stay in it. He could make the choice to give up his mother’s dream, reject his father, and leave cultivation world (and, on a meta level, the story!) to become a “nobody”. (Small side note, though -- living on which skills?) If he doesn’t -- well, as soon as he enters the game, the cards are stacked against him.

To pick up on the meta level comment, I do find it fascinating that in a sense, JGY not only has to struggle for respect and recognition within the story, but that what he does also serves to keep his character part of the story. He could choose to give up and leave (and thus come out of the story redeemable), but then he wouldn’t be part of the story anymore.

3) I like him because he interacts with the story in a unique way

Continuing with the last point, JGY interacts with the story in two unique ways that distinguish him basically from all the other characters. He’s not actually supposed to be part of the story, but that he basically claws his way in. But that also means that his class and social status cannot be removed from any of the conflicts he encounters in universe -- they’re at the heart of all of them. In the empathy flashback, he says to NMJ, “You always scold me for indecent scheming. You always say that you are just and straight [...] A decent man shouldn’t resort to devious stratagems. [...] You’re of noble birth and have profound cultivation. What about me? How can I be the same? First, I don’t have the foundation of cultivation. No one has ever taught me that since I was a child! Second, I don’t have any background. Do you think that my position is very solid in the Jin clan of Lanling?” What I find so intriguing about this scene is that he’s right when he says he’s different from the others both in text and on a meta level because most of the other characters are never faced with the same decisions and have a natural place within the story (apart, to some degree, WWX and XY, where also interesting parallels can be drawn). And the other characters are, in a way, self-righteous to judge him when almost none of them come out of the story without blood on their hands -- WWX’s revenge, JC torturing demonic cultivators after WWX’s death, and so on...The entire cultivation world (even NMJ! even LXC!) were complicit in the war crimes against the Wen. But when the cultivation world turns against JGY, they are the most appalled by the things I as a viewer would be the most lenient towards (murdering JGS), and don’t care at all about the thing that horrifies me the most (murdering the sex workers).

There’s an interesting post by @pumpkinpaix analysing how class dynamics work in the story, which I highly recommend! I don’t want to repeat what has been said there already in much better ways than I can, but among other things, it makes some really interesting points about how much JGY’s class is tied with his motivations.

4) I like him because when we see him on top of his game, it’s fun to watch

Aside from any analysis, part of the reason why I like him so much is that when he’s acting as a villain, he’s just so much fun to watch. When WWX breaks into his vault in paperman form and JGY has approximately 5 minutes to get rid of the head, the torture bench (?) and anything suspicious, contact and inform Su She, run to a different building and come back, and nonetheless he manages to convince everyone but WWX and LWJ that he’s the victim in this situation, it’s just. Peak entertainment? For a short time, he’s on top of the game, and then he’s backed into a corner and becomes sloppy, and finally loses it all due to sentimentality (if he didn’t want to take his mother’s body with him and say goodbye to LXC, I’m sure he could have fled the country). I think Zhu Zanjin did an amazing job as an actor to portray how JGY is constantly assessing everything, how 23638 emotions flicker over his face in half a second, how his whole body language shows the constant anxiety and pressure and stress and fear he’s under, and how we actually get to see in his microexpressions when JGY chooses a path and commits to the acting and emotional manipulation to follow it through.

5) I like him because LXC likes him

Here’s a secret: Actually, LXC is my favourite character. And LXC loves JGY a lot. So I’m kind of contractually obliged to at least love JGY a little bit as well?

On a more serious note, I’m very intrigued in their relationship because I do think what they had was genuine. I view it as two people being very open and honest and true with each other, while placing a lot of things outside the brackets and crossing them out. LXC even says that he was aware of some things JGY did (which ones? how? I need to know) but that he justified them to himself. I think they both realised that they could have had something very special, but under the given circumstances, LXC wouldn’t have been able to help JGY (see: point 2) even if he knew everything. Still, they were obviously very close and trusted each other as much as they could. I think in the end, when LXC seemed to have decided to stay and die with him, JGY pushed him away because he was the only genuinely good part of his life, and he felt like he couldn’t rightfully deprive the world of LXC. It’s all very tragic, and I’m very intrigued to explore what they could have been in a slightly softer world.

6) JGY is very small and has dimples

I can only speak for myself, but when I was watching, I was so prone at any point to believe in him no matter what was revealed. Look at him! Could this man do something wrong?

#buttercup-the-bard #ask #jin guangyao #the untamed #cql #meng yao #mdzs #my post #cql meta

10 notes · View notes

darkestaken-archived · 3 years

Text

SMALL HIATUS UPDATE --

slight vent under the cut and personal stuff. tdlr; hiatus is still going on on the same terms as before, i need some time away, you can ask for my discord if you wanna reach out.

i’m okay !! more or less. i want to thank the peeps that reached out for the kind messages and those who sent birthday-related stuff that i didn’t get to, it was all very kind so ! thank you !

i’m not going to lie, i’ve been in a very bad place for the last few months, and it’s been creeping on me while i was doing my best to brush it off. this, plus some other events in my life ( including but not limited to: school work, quarantine stuff, and my mom ) have made it hard to keep up.

so. i’ve been going back to therapy, and it’s been good for me. it’s been a few weeks now and it’s been rough still, but it’s been good and i’m getting there. i want to improve as a person because no matter how much i’m awesome and kick ass, everybody needs improvement, and i’m in dire need of it. i’ve hurt people in the past by being sometimes insensitive, sometimes by blowing off in their faces, sometimes by involontarly being a jerk, and those are things i want to fix. i’ve got my anger issues and my anxiety, my trauma, but those aren’t excuses for my behavior and are things that are gonna stick with me for most, or even my whole life, so i gotta learn to deal with them and live with them.

that doesn’t mean i’m away from tumblr or roleplay -- i just need a space that is less stuffy than the pokémon rpc. something smaller, and i’ve found it, but i’m not gonna share the blog here, as i want it completely cut away from everything. i’ll avoid the places where i’ve got a large following.

if you want to contact me, like said before, you can always ask for my discord via DMs ! i still come to check how things are from time to time here, so i’ll be sure to check it.

anyways, thanks for your patience. i dunno when i’ll be back, may be a week or a few months, but what i know is that i need to pull the plug ( at least mid-way ) and spend time with those who care about me, i need to refuel and work on myself. i’ll still be working on atoma, because in the end, i love that fanregion, and i love streli too, and she’s always on my mind.

kuddos, see y’all later !

#✦ 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬 ► ooc.#vent*#[ tagging just to be sure ]

12 notes · View notes

telesthisia · 3 years

Text

HANDY DANDY RP PLOTTING CHEAT-SHEET FOR PRINCESS ZELDA (A Link to the Past)!

Want new-and-exciting plots for your character? Long to reach out to more of your followers, but don’t know where to start? Fear not! Fill out this form and give your RP partners both present and future all the of juicy jumping off points they need to help you get your characters acquainted.

Be sure to tag the players whose characters YOU want more cues to interact with, and repost, don’t reblog! Feel free to add or remove sections as you see fit. Template here.

mun name: Amber!! ooc contact: My DMs are always open for mutuals and non-mutuals alike (I think at least, if not don’t be afraid to send in asks either I try my best to get to them ;v;)! I do have a personal blog but weeps.... me no longer active on there. And a twitter but weeps once again, it’s an oc twitter despite my yellings of off topic things. MY DISCORD TOO!! Though my activity is very inconsistent somedays I’ll be on others not so much! Don’t be afraid to ask for that uvu

who the heck is my muse anyway?

HOHO!!! For those who never touched The Legend of Zelda in their lives, I’m sure it’s pretty dang confusing to see more than one design of both Zelda and Link, I’ll try my best to explain this! The series follows a very, very convoluted timeline filled with plotholes, as such the Links and Zeldas we see throughout different titles of the game are actually reincarnations who are destined to seal away whatever darkness may threaten the lands known as Hyrule.

The Zelda I play as is the princess of Hyrule during a point in the timeline known as “Downfall Era” where the Hero of Time in OOT lost against Ganondorf in the final battle; Ocarina of Time is the reason for why there’s multiple timelines with each having their unique era depending on the choices in that game. The Downfall Era is known for having games known as A Link to The Past, Oracle of Seasons, Oracle of Time, Link’s Awakening, A Link Between Worlds, Triforce Heroes, The OG Legend of Zelda, Annnnd Adventure of Link! The Zelda I play as comes from A Link to The Past as well as the Oracle series and I guess Link’s Awakening despite having no appearance. The events of A Link to The Past and Oracle Series has deeply affected my Zellie in that she suffers from unspoken traumas as well depression. See, before the events of ALTTP there was a war known as the Imprisoning War, that war ended where the seven sages seal away Ganon. Peace reigned for a while until a series of plagues and droughts struck which affected the kingdom. It wasn’t until the antagonist of the game, a wizard by the name of Agahnim, would put an end to the misfortunate blighting Hyrule with his magic, gaining favor with the king. He was able to worm his way into court and from there act on his plans in breaking the seal to the sacred realm where the triforce and Ganon rest. Doing so, he must capture the seven maidens who are descendants of the seven sages and sacrifice them in order to break the seal and well, guess which princess happens to be one of those seven maidens? Suffice to say, he was successful in breaking the seal with Zelda being the final sacrifice. Here we find out that he’s actual the alter ego of Ganon (don’t question it too hard) and we also find out she’s not dead! Hooray! But she is trapped in a plane known as The Dark World, once the sacred realm corrupted by Ganon’s greed. So as all LOZ stories goes, Link saves the day. Happily ever after, right? Well... no, see unlike in the game where the ending is happy and everyone who died is alive I follow both the 90s comics and Himekawa manga where those who died in the games did not come back to life. This includes Zelda’s father, Link’s uncle and some of the maidens. It’s very bittersweet in that, the day is saved and Ganon is gone forever but at the cost of loved ones no longer coming back.

Well... Ganon comes back! In the oracle series! Two years after ALTTP, Twinrova tries to resurrect him by using the blood and body of Princess Zelda, meaning she can actually die this time around. But Link saves the day once again. Which leads us today, the main verse of the blog which is a year after Oracles and three years after ALTTP! NOTE: That my smash verse more or less follows this timeline I have in place for this blog.

things you should know

I sound like a broken record but. She’s a glass canon of sorts. Where she’s very powerful thanks to blood of the seven sages, the light force, and having hylia’s blood in her veins. As such, she’s very powerful and her magic super potent which is why so many people wanna sacrifice for dark rituals... BUT!! She has super power health issues that affects her magical stamina and body as such she can’t even use half her powerful magic and this upsets her greatly. It’s a small headcanon of mine because in the games and manga, she doesn’t really do much despite being a powerful magical princess. Keep in mind that ALTTP came out before the retcon that is Skyward Sword and before they decided to add more to Zelda’s abilities throughout the course of the series... so my brain went to: she’s powerful but can’t use magic too much due to poor health. It worked!! Before smash came along but I swear I’m not at all salty. To be fair, it was my fault for assuming things but imagine: glass canon Zelda. It sounded super cool at the time!

She represses a lot if only for the sake of her nation and to appear as a good leader for her people. As such, she’s almost always calm and has a gentle smile on her face despite radio static sounds resounding in her thoughts. Give her time, she’ll open up and show you her playful side!

She’s been surrounded by death considering before ALTTP, during ALTTP and kinda with Oracles if you count Twinrova, as well as having a connection with the spirit realm due to freaky PSI powers. So, she doesn’t really have a negative view on death and has actually gained that edgy romanticist view as the result of her life experiences. She’s very much someone who likes to live life to her fullest as the result... and well, it doesn’t help that she’s aware of her short life span thanks to her future vision. Something she won’t reveal to anyone more than likely as to not worry them. She’s more or less accepted her fate... speaking of which

She hates fate/destiny/etc but accepts whatever happens because again clairvoyance has proven that there’s no changing what’s been planned. So, she doesn’t bother fighting against it. But, what impresses her are those who manage to overcome destiny, something that Link does sometimes which is why she looks up to him. He’s that variable that the future can’t keep track of due to how ever changing he is.

She loves exploring creepy places, ruins, caves, and dungeons that are scattered throughout her kingdom, for both history and the spooky aesthetics of it! So if you see her outside the castle she’s more than likely getting ready to explore some spooky place. She’s almost always wearing her cloak but there are rare moments where she’s not either ;v; she’ll always go by the name Elle... worth mention she doesn’t bother hiding the mark of the triforce on her right hand.

Speaking of which, only people from the capital known as Castle Town and even some from Kakariko village as well know of the princess’ appearance. Various small towns throughout the land of Hyrule however, only remember her appearance from ALTTP where her hair was a more golden blonde rather than the platinum color that it’s taken from the various fear and stresses from her life. And also, she’s more freckly due to not wearing coverup when outside the castle. Ok well,,,,, here’s the best side by side comparison I have...

If you ask her what the light arrows are, she’ll look at you funny. She comes from a time where silver arrows are a thing :’) the few things that can defeat Ganon

Closet romantic, as in she loves love and wishes for a romance of her own but when it comes to her own feelings she’s an idiot due to repressing feelings.

what she’s been up to:

main verse: Which is during the events of Skyward Sword, as such she’s no longer in Skyloft nor does she have the full knowledge that she’s Hylia but Zelda is suspecting that there’s a connection there. She does not know how to wield her magic as it comes and goes in spurts. She’s seen throughout the Surface so she can be anywhere! Even in other timelines due to using the Gate of Time, we can just say that something screwed up causing for her to end up in another time period or even verse! LOZ series is pretty flexible in time travel.

where to find her:

Graveyard + Sanctuary: It’s a soothing place to visit and also to pay respects to the fallen in ALTTP.

One of the three provinces (my rendition of Hyrule is a little bigger than the in game map so don’t be afraid to add places that aren’t in ALTTP but in other titles, I know I tend to do): aka anywhere in the fields, she’s a woman plagued with wanderlust and doesn’t like being confined to one place

Kakariko: the villagers who know her true identity are hella nice to pretend that it’s not the princess but Elle! Guards tend to be here after a certain time though, so to avoid them she always avoids going to the village when it’s nearly sundown

Ruins, catacombs, abandon shrines etc: again she likes creepy or historical places or both!

Haunted Grove: Well... it’s haunted! So :’)

Castle: it’s possible to meet her here too! Whether as princess or someone sneaking either out of the castle or back into it.

current plans:

Lead her kingdom to the Golden Age, something her father tried to do before his demise. While wishing to see Link once more.

desired interactions:

I would love the usual adventure threads!!!

FRIENDSHIP!! She needs friends, pls!!

ENEMIES!! It’d be fun to write a more angry Zel who doesn’t get along with someone!

ROMANCE!! I’m a sucker for cuteness ;v; and slow burn ;v;

HORROR AU!! HORROR AU!!!

Creepy gothic threads of Zelda running into a creepy cryptid in a gothic castle on a stormy night.... this is very specific but listen, cries...

Comfort thread ;v;

things that bother me:

People who know she’s the princess right off the bat ticks me off ngl. A-ok if you muse is unaware of her otherwise!

PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT SHE’S FROM A BLOODLINE OF A GODDESS AND SAGES DHSJAKJADB no one really knows that the royal family actually did descend from gods, unless your muse is an immortal and is aware of the events that goes on they shouldn’t know this fact. The only thing the public is aware of is how the royal family have mystical powers different from the population.

uhhhh that’s about it? Mostly metagaming pft, not too much bothers me now that I think about.

tagged by: i pirated it ;v; from myself!

tagging: whomst ever! i recommend doing this since it’ll help a ton with those who still are unsure with your muse but feel too nervous to ask questions.

#dash games.#ah yes.... where amber spews a bunch of words #i will add to this but eyyyy partners check it out if you wanna know some things #anyway uhhh writings coming out soon uvu

5 notes · View notes

wobbuffet-propaganda · 5 years

Text

Steer clear of the pokeganda discord server.

Hi everyone! Former member and mod of the ‘ganda server, here. If you’re any form of marginalized identity, I would recommend you stay far away from it.

In this post I’m gonna be talking about my experiences with it. While I so fucking wish I had receipts to prove a lot of this, the server had an incredibly weird obsession with “avoiding drama” and if you ever got into any kind of disagreement with another member, you were pressured pretty quickly to delete all your messages on the matter so other people weren’t exposed to them. So I didn’t end up saving a lot, unfortunately. You’ll have to take my word for it, although I did get a few screencaps at the end as I realized how south things were going.

TL;DR: the mods of the pokeganda server are incredibly tyrannical, more or less play by their own rules, and are far more concerned with a “peace and love for all, even abusive people! we don’t want to be mean!” environment than one where the most vulnerable people actually feel protected.

So! I joined the pokeganda server through lea / leavanny-propaganda, and it was pretty standard as far as servers go. Open to all, shitposty and friendly, def my cuppa tea.

Some time into this, i wanna say a few months (weeks? idk) I had a disagreement with another user (Nix of granbullyganda) they used some cissexist language and I asked them to not do that. They egged me on a little, I got a little mad, and after a few hours of them talking to me like a 4chan troll and thinly implying i sounded like a crazy SJW, mods intervened and they were banned for abusive language. Pretty much everyone in the server was on the same page at this point, and Lea elected to call for some more mods.

I applied, having modded like a million other pokemon servers, and got in. Sheep, the original owner of the server, turned tail and left quietly and none of us really noticed. Lea’s a minor and still in school, so naturally they needed some extra hands.

For the most part things just kinda carried on, modding didn’t entail much beyond asking people to format their intros correctly and cleaning up vulgar or offensive posts that slipped the minds of members posting. Until a week or so ago.

I can’t remember who, but a member of the chat posted a meme that referenced drug use, and Steph (absol-propaganda) said something like ‘don’t do drugs, love yourself instead.’ I, a recovered addict and absolute beacon of self-love, joked--‘Bold of you to assume I can’t do both.’

Steph then started going off on a much more serious tangent about how she lived with an abusive addict, talking about how much of a piece of shit the addict was, phrased in such a way that it was very very clear she was blaming this person’s abusive behaviour on the drugs. I was... shocked, honestly. I thought it was a joke at first. My initial response was kind of an incredulous “woah, okay, please don’t fucking say that!” it definitely could have been more polite, but I was. Kind of unable to get my bearings, I felt like I had the wind knocked out of me.

Eric of magikarp-propaganda then jumped in with a similar story to Steph’s of an abusive addict they knew. I tried to explain to them that this talk was making me uncomfortable. I also tried to keep a level head and explain to them that addiction was literally a disability, a disability that I had, and told them that what they were saying was like implying that I’m abusive because I’m autistic, or abusive because I suffer from chronic pain (two other disabilities I have, don’t worry!)

To her credit, Steph backed out but Eric kept on. I was getting visibly agitated and yeah, I lost my temper and got emotional and probably shouted some. I didn’t say anything abusive or terrible to Eric but I was just short of begging them to please stop saying what they were saying. Lea cut us off and I went back and (regrettably) deleted all my posts.

Steph then left the server without a word. We had a brief DM session after that, where I gave her a piece of my mind for what she had said to me. Steph was one of the only people in the server who openly defended me, previously, and I was heartbroken that now she saw me as sub-human. In this interaction, she told me--an addict--bluntly, that despite what psychology, science, and common sense say, addiction is not a disability. She told an addict that people do drugs because they want to, and no genetic predisposition has any effect on this. Then she blocked me, as I was breaking down at the horrible shit she was saying.

I asked the other mods what was to be done about Eric. They said nothing to them, even though they had been horrible to me. Regardless of what you think of our disagreement, I kept asking them to stop saying something that was triggering me, and they refused. I slept on it.

I woke up the next day and nothing had changed. There was nothing in the admin chat about what consequences Eric’s actions would have. I asked if anything was going to be done. They kept asking me what I personally wanted done. I told them that I had no say in the matter, because I was literally the victim in the situation, and for me to decide what happened to my perpetrator would literally be an unethical use of mod power. They pushed back against me.

At some point, we reached a consensus that Eric was to be given a warning for their behaviour. None of the mods wanted to give this warning, almost all of them claimed they were “too nervous” about “being mean” and “constantly reminding people of the rules. I tried to bring up the point that this was... LITERALLY our job as mods. This was literally why we existed.

Rather than any of us giving Eric the warning, one of the mods who IS FRIENDS WITH STEPH, A PERSON WHO IS AN ENEMY OF THE VICTIM IN THIS SITUATION, literally HAD STEPH MESSAGE ERIC THE WARNING. You heard that right: A mod, who’s job is to MOD, asked someone who is no longer in the server to mod for them. This was when I started feeling like I was literally going crazy. I pointed out how unethical this was, how sketchy this was, how uncool this was. I was more or less immediately villainized. The mod in question then started acting like a child who’d been caught red-handed and tried to guilt trip me. I’m paraphrasing, but they said something like ‘Fine, maybe I’ll just LEAVE. I’ve been wanting to, anyways!’

Because I called out a super fucking sketchy thing they did. There were NO rules at this point. No one in this chat could be bothered to tell anyone that something was not okay. This was the last thing I sent before my termination. No one in the mod chat responded to it.

Maybe it’s the autism, but I don’t see anything wrong with what I’ve said here. What the mods were doing in this server, if I may use an analogy, reminded me of in politics when someone will say they “can be friends with anyone regardless of beliefs.” On it’s surface, it sounds sweet--peace and love for all, right? But if you actually think about it, nothing about it is good. It leaves the vulnerable vulnerable and the bullies bullies. It means you stand for nothing. It’s equality but not equity.

Another member of this server literally implied I was born an abuser because of something I cannot help, and I did what you are supposed to do--I asked the mods for help, I asked the mods what was being done about it. I received nothing.

This was their response to my above message. To literally take my privileges away because I questioned their authority. I did not use my mod power to abuse anyone, control anyone, harm anyone, anything like that. Even when I could’ve taken the wheel and just banned Eric for acting shitty to me, I acted not as a mod but as a normal user in the server with no more power than anyone else. And they literally took my influence away because I dared to question them.

“you took the situation too far”-- I did not. I got emotional because my trauma was literally public forum, quickly realized it was unproductive, deleted my posts so they would not reach any more eyes, and asked the mods for help.

“harassing us for not doing anything”--I did not. You can see my messages above. I asked for clarification on what they meant by this. They refused to tell me. If it was just that I sent a lot of messages, I don’t really know what to say to that. I ramble and overexplain and ask a lot of questions when I’m scared and confused. I’m fuckin’ autistic.

“harrassing messages I sent Steph”--Steph sent me harassing messages, and apparently either cherrypicked them in such a way that it made me look like the inciter or doctored them. I asked them to show me these messages. They did not.

“inappropriate post you made on your blog”--I did not make an inappropriate post. On my personal blog, a blog not at all affiliated with my work as a ganda blog, a blog that very few people from this side of tumblr follow, a blog that at one point was INCREDIBLY active in the addiction community, i made this post.

It is not inappropriate. It is a post about an unsafe person that I made so other addicts who might be emotionally compromised/triggered in the way I was can preemptively block them/avoid interacting with them. I said nothing about the situation on this blog, not wanting to incite any drama but wanting to keep my friends safe.

None of this breakdown I am describing was public. It was all behind closed doors and I literally did everything in my power, short of being a fucking dictator myself, to get the mods to lift a single finger about it. They couldn’t. They couldn’t even give an abusive person in their server a warning. They had to get someone else to do it.

I asked them why they were doing this. They refused to clarify. They just kept saying “it’s for the best.” They made a private chat to decide this behind my back. I was given no say in my own case. I was given no voice to defend myself. I questioned their authority and they took my voice.

The ‘answers’ were not answers and the chat was short lived. Here’s what I got.

This was a little under an hour ago. They have not replied, and I doubt they plan to.

Right before this, I went to the server to say goodbye to all the friends I’d made there. I didn’t make a big deal, just said I was heartbroken and needed to step away. Invited them to join me on my own pokemon servers, of which I have plenty.

The mods removed me before any of my friends could say goodbye. I was not allowed to even keep in touch with any of them. I did not see a single goodbye before I was banned.

So yeah. This is apparently what happens if you speak out against anyone in this server, no matter how politely, professionally, and calmly you do it. They will not only take your voice but they will erase you entirely and cut you off from the community. I am literally just a marginalized person who asked the mods for help in dealing with some oppressive language and a person who wouldn’t let it go, and I got my privileges revoked and about a hundred of my friends stolen from my hands.

I applied to be a mod in this server because when Nix started attacking me, I realized that a community had been fostered where they felt it was acceptable to do that. I wanted to change that. I have a loving heart and a firm hand and I wanted to use both to help settle disagreements and let the most vulnerable know they had someone in their corner. It seems, however, that was a futile effort. Historically people see me as an angry bitch because I speak my mind and when I see someone I say something. But you can’t have one angry bitch in power, because when she’s the victim, she stops being an angry bitch and starts being a crazy bitch in all her hysterics. There weren’t any other bitches on the mod team, and you know what they say about representing yourself in court.

You may draw your own conclusions from this. Do not harass any of the people mentioned in this post, do not send them asks or any violent rhetoric. In my heart I do not want to hurt anyone, and that is why I am making this post. If someone had told me this was the community I was getting myself into, I would have never joined and got attached. I want to spare people from what I went through.

I am also not looking to discourse. My mind is made up on the way I was treated, and more importantly, the way I saw others treated in my time as a mod. I do not intend to change my mind. I intend to protect.

In my heart, I am a pacifist, and I will not pick a fight with anyone who does not deserve it.

Mirror Coat.

#pokeganda

146 notes · View notes

trackinghallownest · 4 years

Note

-slides into your dms- tell me about your vessel ocs!!!! Whose your favorite. Everyone has a favorite even if they don't like to admit it! And is it ok if I draw them interacting with my vessel ocs?

HHfngfh gh i’m,,, thank you for this ask i’m dying,, i will absolutely go off if you dont mind me taking this chance!! ft doodles!! because i can!! and you absolutely can draw them with yours i will probably cry and definitely draw interactions back udfkfhvdf;;

some of this i may have mentioned in other posts but i cant for the life of me keep track of what ive put here compared to the discord so! i’m just going to fact dump! and put under a cut so i don’t completely fill peoples’ dashes shkfd

first is gonna be spindle since. i love them. theyre probably my favourite. and also the first i made. theyre just babie

they really are just babey,,

kind of accidentally an endless source of lifeblood which is a long story but its not.. very fun. to be constantly covered in plants. by adulthood most of their torso and one of their limbs is almost completely replaced/encased in plant matter

they take this pretty well actually. even if it gets a lot harder to move

for a vessel they grew up to full size much quicker than others of their kind, likely due to the lifeblood’s properties, but really nobody has much of a clue. didnt have time to get used to their size and still has VERY bad spatial awareness

broke their horn tip by smacking it on a low ceiling hkfdnfbdmvdf

plants bursting out of their shell and eye have pretty badly damaged it, and they can’t see out of the broken eye

theyre trying their hardest!! always!! they can’t move around very well and sometimes get lonely sitting at home in dirtmouth but they’re friendly to just about anybody and have so much love to give

seriously they dont even eat but they like to make sure they have food and drink at home in case anyone drops in and needs it

they’ve never been able to fight, and shy away from violence or combat in all forms

very scared of the dark and carries a lantern with them at all times, usually around their neck

discharges excess lifeblood into soil and grows a garden from it - keeps it from overtaking their body any further, and it’s something to do

not the best at communicating since a wood arm makes signing stiff and tricky, but they’re not much of a talker (signer?) anyway

then we have scratch n thimble who are kinda twins but not really. yeah those are matching scarves they are Bros (sibs??)

scratch FIGHTS THINGS and USES A REAL BIG NAIL

the biggest of all my vessel ocs, just in general. a big and strong friend

made it to the palace but got tossed for starting to care too much and takin a blow for another sibling. saved thimble from dying down there too and they were absolutely inseparable since

really just the embodiment of the ‘you befriended x! x would now die for you’ meme not gonna lie

has almost literally died for Multiple siblings n friends before but they wouldn’t let them. which is, a good thing

too reckless for their own good especially in their younger years but thankfully mellows out quite a bit by adulthood

tries to keep up a strong stoic front but also doesnt hesitate to abandon it if needed. theyre big soft really (they wont admit it tho)

has The Biggest soft spot for kids do not let them tell you otherwise

fought for the sake of it in the colosseum for many years before Stuff And Things involving yet another vessel happened and they kinda trashed the place and never went back

their nail is about as big and heavy as their entire body and they’re surprisingly good at using it for something so unwieldy. could probably crush most bugs just by virtue of it being So Damn Big

spends a lot of time when grown at the howling cliffs keeping an eye on those travelling into the kingdom, and deterring those with malicious intent

they got that eye wound from their sibling… it was technically an accident. they still don’t talk about it though

contrary to their twin thimble is the smallest vessel (as a babby at least - they do end up standing taller than spin and ruth when fully grown)

they have the very unfortunate problem of their shade having fused with void tendrils from the abyss sea as a babby

as such their shade is very violent and kinda has a habit of literally bursting out their shell and lashing out at anything around them under stress

eventually they get a handle on it and learn to control the literally overflowing void inside them but until then their entire life is pretty much a big clusterfuck of trying not to kill people, which they hate

they’re very timid and shy and cling to familiar figures (especially scratch) probably too much, but strike out on their own much more growing up

theyre very strong and capable, moreso than most magic users, but you wouldn’t guess it. the only time they’d even consider showing it is in another’s defense

uses void tendrils like extra limbs. very functional! can hold many things (or offer many hugs) at once. may be slightly slimy though.

their cloak is very long and would probably benefit from being trimmed shorter but they absolutely refuse to let anyone touch it. its kinda grimy at this point and they trip a lot but don’t do anything about it

friends with a bunch of mossflies they picked up in the gardens! they all have names

can communicate with other void-creatures by sharing some of their own void! this was discovered entirely by accident but very useful, if awkward to explain

sure they’re kinda timid and like being on their lonesome, but they’re also very level-headed and friendly, and get along very well with low-energy quieter sorts of people especially

ruth is a small vessel rn/as far as i’ve worked out a timeline for! i know what they look like big but as far as the content on this blog currently goes theyre just .. smal

actual infant. hadnt actually been wandering out of the abyss that long before being dragged up to the colosseum to fight for sport

really doesnt have much of a clue how to act at first, other than ‘stab things before they stab you’

their name comes from ‘ruthless’, a nickname they got in the colosseum because they literally did not (appear to) give two shits whether they lived or died in battle. they’d just come back, anyway

scratch was the one that found them flinging a nail around and immediately went ‘oh thats a baby. this is bad, actually’

for the first short while of freedom scratch is the only one they’ll let even get close to them, and pretty much clings to them relentlessly. not a moments rest

they were actually pretty badly infected by the time they were broken out but theyre better now (another long story)

doesn’t have a natural cloak - it was ripped out and never grew back in. they make do though! their ‘new’ one was made from part of scratch’s that they ripped off and fixed together. they love it more than anything

once they actually figured out not everyone was out to kill them they stopped fighting back, and became a lot more curious and lively in general

still has a very warped and guarded sense of trust, however

kinda iffy around weapons and reacts badly to confrontation but does eventually learn to fight again (just.. in a better way)

pretty short even when grown, and going by height alone is the shortest when they’re all big

likes picking up pretty trinkets and things and carrying them around. has a few tied to their horns (as well as many pockets)

i have just now decided that spite counts as well! they dont actually survive to adulthood in any timeline i have currently (sorry spite) so big spite is entirely a theoretical but theyre fun to draw so

now spite? spite wins the babiest baby award

has one single braincell that bounces around their shell like a windows screensaver

their name indicates they are capable of feeling any negative emotion or hatred which is entirely untrue. by the time this was figured out they already wouldn’t answer to anything else

absolutely no sense of self-preservation or common sense. they are, in most regards, a very cute and very stupid dog

got lost on their way out of the abyss the first time around, ended up in the lighthouse and met friend mori!! was almost caught but eventually smuggled out and away

spent a lot of the time on the run in city of tears with said friend who was pretty much presumed dead by then. got taken in by a family, enjoyed themselves for a while

…but were eventually caught and thrown right back into the abyss along with mori killing them both for real this time. unfortunately.

cut to MANY years later and oops! their shade fused with the corpse and for some ungodly reason theyre both alive. time for the worst buddy comedy ever ft. literal pile of goop and body parts

spite does not seem to know nor care that theyre dead however

mostly happy to sit up there on mori’s shell and nap for hours at a time or fiddle with literally anything in reach. give them a cool rock and they’ll be entertained for hours. they are but a simple creacher

they do actually eventually learn to use a nail but who’s idea was it to give a child a sword. seriously i just wanna talk

#crazandlion #asks #if you actually read this far i would kill and die for you this took me 3 hours to write #and i think it was maybe worth it #hdfkfdvkjfdhvdhf #it was good to gather my thoughts on em i guess? hell yeah #tthank you;;#my ocs #spindle #thimble #scratch #ruth #spite #this was such a great ask to get i am still reeling i. yes #ohyes!! one last reminder theyre all agender/nb and if you gender them on purpose i'll break ur knees (they/them for all please)#(jk but i will correct you)

32 notes · View notes