#(I want to be good)

[onetiredpup]

Do other subs just get this feeling that they’ve been bad without much reason to it , no broken rules, just this lingering feeling that you’ve done something wrong so the praise starts to take less affect and you feel the need to be punished constantly. Maybe with the punishment comes reassurance that you can put that feeling behind you. Maybe it doesn’t.

I don’t know, I just want to know that I’m being good

#not sure how to tag this #weird feeling #i wanna know that I’m not alone #i want to be good

[anxiously-artistic]

Taking a smoking break!

Finally, it is complete.

Turns out that if I'm not reading wolfstar fanfic I'm probably drawing fanart, what a wild life I have.

I like to think that this is a moment from "All the Young Dudes" but maybe also this really good fic called "I want to be good" by mightyd0lphin on AO3!

#wolfstar #all the young dudes #digital art #digital oil painting #the marauders #sirius black #remus lupin #I want to be good #smoking #cigarettes #harry potter #james potter #fuck jkr #this took so long dear lord #my mental health is not as important as this art #krita #fan art #wolfstar fanart

[goatposter]

gaze

#i want to be good at digital painting #or like even juat regular painting #i want to be good #in general #text #art #oc #digital art #procreate

[serpulalacrymans]

Awww.. You're adorable. Always have been. ♡

- V

thank you thank you.. you really think so?

#i remember our talks #i take it back #talk to me however you want #i want to be good

[keow]

I’m not ready to face God. I hope I don’t die any time soon because I’ve done such an awful job of loving Him and His creation. Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh

#I want to be good #I want to love Him #But I’m so ungrateful

[sagittariangirl27]

Taking a break from this for a while.

#this doesn't exist without the person I love #2023 took everything from me #we had a pretty good year though #I finally feel safe #that he won't leave #the irony of that is not lost on me #I want to be good #I want to make him happy #I will give until there is nothing left #and then I will give more #I will take this time #to be better for him when he gets back #I want him to see me and know #that I was good #and to be proud of me #today I will grieve #but I pray he finds what he needs #please just come back to me #I love you

[mostesteemedgingeroverlord]

Perhaps a month alone in a log cabin would fix me.

#gosh my flight response has been horrible the last couple weeks #I’m just so freakin tired #I love life #I want to enjoy things #I want to be good #to be kind #to be discerning and fair #but I have felt so trapped this year #multiple friendships falling apart around me #reaching levels of hatred and bitterness so far beyond the scope of the conflict #bc of poor communication and letting things fester #and I am a healer #but some things I cannot heal #least of all these fractures #least of all myself #I need to run a long time #I need to be free of this weight #but I cling to it #bc I keep trying to wrest heartache from those who would never give it up #so I make the burden not half but double #and I am now the last single friend in my circle #I do not begrudge them a thing #but I am so weary #and I do not have another to shoulder this #even for a moment #I have made myslef atlas #and it is a role I do not know how to step out of #I try to give up these sorrows #to leave them by the side of the road #but holding pain is the only way I know how to heal. the only way I know how to say I love you.

[nevertrulyset]

Sorry I don't know how to converse like a human. I was already a little less-than-stellar at it pre-covid, but I think losing my job, losing my partner, losing my car, and losing my independence led to the further losing of my mind as well. Being back in the working world for the last 18 months has shown me that I'm not alone in this social delapidation, but nothing I've tried has helped me actually improve. In fact, the more I try to make friends, IRL or on the internet, the more alienated I feel. I want to blame it on circumstance, but it's pretty obvious that the problem is me. I've never been one to say that anything or anyone else is hopeless, but...it's about time to call this spade a spade and put a period at the end of the sentence.

#personal journey #i'm tired #i want to be good #i want to be someone people look forward to talking to #but the more frequently i do awkward things the more i fear doing more awkward things which leads to me doing more awkward things #man...life is hard #there's too much to juggle all the time #I'm not sure i was ever meant for this

[tempusrkive]

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#i want to be good #i want to be #myself

[feralattentionwhore]

Is it a bad idea to start posting insanely explicit photos, that I haven't shown them, somewhere I know they won't see for at least a few days, just so I can get attention?

#once again if you're reading this love no you aren't #i didn't post this #you're just imagining it #i love you have a good day at work #i need to put this in queue but idk when i should ket it post?? #eh midnight sure #anyways 😐 #someone come hit me so i stop being a brat #how am i meant to be a good girl when theres no way to ask for things i want other than communication #i promise im a good boy #i promise #tell me to do something and ill do it #anything you want #i want to be good #please #🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[slayingandserving]

everyday I just make my little do to lists and check off my things and hope I’m doing good.

#me talking #if I’m being productive I must be doing good??? #i want to be good #i am alresdy good tho #everything I’m manifested this year has come to me #literally just wait and watch I’m about to be so hot and powerful and be in so much control of my life #literally just watch #my check list is gonna bring me to the life I wanna love #live not love * #this tumbr is a random little diary of mine #just trying it out

[cherrysnax]

I’ve become cold. empty I guess. i strive towards that warmth but it’s mostly .. I don’t want to say acting— more like faking it til I make it? I’m still there, it’s just hard to be me, hard to feel. but I still want to

#as my depression gets worse again I can feel my warmth fading away again and it’s upsetting #I want to be good #I want to be kind #I want to be a real person #but I’m starting to think I never was

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[linktoo-doodles]

resurrection is sort of romantic, isnt it

#farcille #falin touden #farlyn thorden #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my art #Linktoo art #lets get that yuri on the road. who has a good analysis of these two. they have a lot of symbolism but I want to see like #someone get into the feelings they have for each other about how they see each other romantically. if that makes sense #tw blood

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

#this is just me ranting sorry #im very tired and hungry #and i want to sleep but brain go brrrrr #well i used to be nice and smart and now im neither of those or however the song goes #pretty sure he was exaggerating cause looking back. it was good. but some of the wording was a lil wonky #adhd #actually adhd #executive dysfunction #actually neurodiverse #adhd paralysis #adult adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #adhd hacks #academia #neurodivergent #adhd skill regression #confessions of a burnt out gifted kid #<< i guess #former gifted kid #burnt out gifted kid #gifted kid burnout #realizing i sound rly pretentious here sorry -- formal speech patterns i picked up as an autistic child and never put down again haha

[nipuni]

the snake of eden 🥰

#good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #crowley #anthony j crowley #my art #I love him!!! #something quick because I'm very busy im sorry 😭 #I have a ton of gomens sketches I want to work on when I'm done with my current deadlines I can't wait #I'm also making new outfits inspired by them!! #and I have a couple of poto paintings to finish!! and more poto content to share very soon eughuehg #also tempted to make doctor who fan art because I love tenth is there even still an audience for it? lmao #the audience is me 😌 #I'm always the most inspired when I'm busy as hell 🥲 #aaaaaa