#(i can get so ahead of myself)

[salmoncakepls]

🗝️🔒

#I was just thinking about this one thing on tvtropes #claudia as the key * i need szn 2 to come out so i can fully annuciate what i need to say w/o things bein not confirmed #and yk if we keep up the metaphor & this go around (essentially the two / one are inside and the key is thrown away....forever trapped) #save for later #but i rlly neednt get ahead of myself bc idk everything #i will revisit when it comes around anyways #random thoughts #iwtv #vampterview #claudia #spark in the dark #Like Angels Put in Hell by God #rewind the tape #amc interview with the vampire #claudia iwtv #promo pic

[mintjeru]

sunlight on water

open for better quality | no reposts

#kaveh #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #doodle #i must confess i looked up a wet shirt tutorial After i had drawn it so if it doesn't look right that is why #this is my first time rendering water like this too and i'm surprised it looks decent #midway through drawing kaveh i was realized i needed to tone it down on the details otherwise i'd get caught up in them #the metal accessories alone took hours #i'm seeing a lot of areas i can improve on but dare i say. this is printworthy? #no.. i shouldn't get ahead of myself hehe #on god i will get over my fear of contrast and kaveh is the beginning #my contrast and vibrant color era begins now #i want to upload a work in progress post for this piece #maybe later bc i need A Break

[puppyeared]

Jitterbug

#whenever my meds kick in it feels like im gonna piss myself. not literally but its really really feels like it #and now whenever that happens my mind goes back to pancho (grandmas dog) at a xmas party years ago #bc he peed when we arrived bc he was so excited to see ppl and my cousin had to clean it up :o) #well for better or for worse i know that feeling now when im pumped on 20mg of adderall #im still getting used to this whole diagnosis thing cause ive gone untreated and undiagnosed for the longest time. so theres probably a lot #i still dont know and have to learn to get myself to be.. functional on my own? self managing???? #i even set up reminders on my phone for work periods meals and stuff. but the problem is actually getting myself to stick to that to a T #because the minute i slack off or something gets in the way it throws it all off until i can be bothered to get back on track. it sucks #at least ive built up other habits like writing notes and setting alarms ahead of time.. but i feel like i could do better #its always hard to change something if youve been doing it wrong for the longest time. especially behaviour and thinking patterns. sigh #in other news my glasses bailed on me so i have to get a new pair sometime. i just realized i never draw my sona with glasses but thats #mostly bc i forget. id love to get some browline glasses like my old pair but im picky and its hard to find one id like for the next 5 year #i also finally managed to collect all the fish in my animal crossing file!!! pulled out a char last week and boom now i have a poster :o) #THAT was a moment where i almost peed myself for real. id love to get all the bugs but i cant stay up late on the switch :o( #yapping #my art #myart #doodles #personal #diary

[wrathofrats]

pebble, swiss and alpha? Do you think they'd share him? (Him being alpha)🥺

Anon I’m going to dox you on Twitter how dare you make me think about that

I have awful brain rot about all of them can you tell is it that obvious anon feel free to let me know if you’re stalking me

But.. yeah no I do yeah yeah yeAH YEAH.

Pebble teaching swiss that alpha is all bark and no bite. Really just humiliates him for Swiss since pebble knows so much about him, and oh Swiss is more than happy to exploit that.

Coos at him, calls him easy, tells Swiss that alpha is just a brain dead slut that only ever thinks with his dick. Just get a hand on him and he will do whatever you want.

And I’m sure alpha puts up a fight, tries to argue with pebble and list all the nasty things alphas done to him, but Swiss is having none of it.

“Oh pebble, your dildos got quite the mouth on it”

That goes straight to alphas dick, immediately chubbing up a bit and stammering out some protest but pebble and Swiss are fucking laughing at him.

“Think it may be broken. Wondering if you could help me fix it”

Would just be a shame if they got alpha tied up on a chair. Hands behind the back of it, legs securely attached to the wooden legs of the chair. Maybe they make him watch as they work each other up, put on a show for him.

Has to sit there and watch as Swiss makes pebble melt in his hands, immediately sweet and pliant. Sloppily making out while Swiss reaches behind him to open him up, honestly it’s all fucking obscene.

God and I’m sure once pebbles nice and loose for him they just take turns completely using him. Pebble bouncing on his cock as he talks to swiss like alphas not even in the room. Probably has to gag him at some point because he keeps protesting and growling. Toy must still be broken.

If alpha calms down enough Swiss will give him the reward of letting him have his cock in his mouth, may even cum down his throat if he stays real still.

Probably just completely cover him, get him real messy like a good toy should be

#cw objectification #cw dubcon #I got carried away can we tell #ohhh my god these fucking three #Swiss just thinks alpha needs to learn a lesson #doesn’t know why pebbles let him act like this for so long #and don’t fucking get me started on if it was Swiss and alpha using pebble #good cop bad cop my beloved #holy shit #they’d ruin him #I’m getting ahead of myself #pebble ghoul #alpha ghoul #swiss ghoul

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

Has anyone else heard about the Monster High celebration event happening at St. Pete’s Comic-con in January??

Garret Sander wil be there doing free doll signings, and him and a couple voice actors from the OG show are going to be there doing guest panels!!

And the Con itself is having a MH event with a cosplay competition/fashion show, doll sales, a MH scavenger hunt and there’s going to be makeup artists doing MH character/cosplay makeovers!

I found out about it a week ago and it’s all I’ve been thinking about since 😭

I’m trying my best to save up so I can go, the only real issue is I’ll most likely be going by myself and that’s absolutely terrifying as an autistic person with anxiety who’s never been out of the city with out someone I know- let alone out of the state 😅.

But this is probably a once in a lifetime opportunity for me (or at least a rare one) and I’ve already prepared a cosplay and taken time off work for it sooo I think I’m kinda obligated to go at this point lol.

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If anyone is going and wants to maybe meet up, let me know! It’s always fun meeting mutuals in person!

#monster high #monster high dolls #actually autistic #I live in Virginia so it’s not like a HUGE distance away #but it’s still another state and that’s scary enough #but I also think it’ll be a good experience if I do end up having to go alone #one of my biggest worries is getting lost. bc I have a terrible sense of direction #i can see myself calling my mom in another state crying abt how I can’t find my hotel lmao 😭 #but I’m planning ahead and getting myself prepared now. so I think I’ll be alright

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

It's Pride Month! How would Pep and the others celebrate?

(Happy Pride month!!!

We will get into how the others celebrate pride later, but this would technically be Pep's first pride, and he's still figuring that out!

(Spoiler alert: He'll be queer in some way, bc everyone here is, hehe)

#ooc post #tower didn't really have the concept of sexuality and gender so it is all pretty new to him! #and even before then as Bruno he didn't really know #sure he married a woman but he sure wasn't hetro hehe #she wasn't either but I am getting ahead of myself again! #it's also still march in the story and I need to hurry UP #or I need to be nicer to myself I am doing my best!!! #well I say that but I haven't worked at all today and played cotl instead jdjsdjasd #I'm sorta having a break but once I announce I am having a break #I will want to work again immediately bc my brain is weird like that #so if I don't know I'm having a break I will be having a break and not burn myself out do you understand me? #it is okay if you do not #I got very off topic but yeah!!! #everyone is queer and there is nothing that can be done to stop this!!!

[sehtoast]

me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK

also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up

my hairline: two hops this time!

#i'm so stressed man #sehtoast rambles #sehtoast vents? fuck if i know #i just feel like i can't get ahead #i used to be able to get all my shit done by friday and have the bulk of the weekend to myself #but that's not doable at all this term #i just had a whole ass mental breakdown over fucking homework #like i'm almost grateful T made it near impossible for me to cry bc like #i was going to have a whole sobbing crying breakdown and at least i only had to feel the mental and physical anguish of it instead #it's 3am and i just made coffee so i can do the rest of my work #luckily the last two are super little in comparison but #i can't keep doing 30 pages of notes with 10 pages of homework and a 40 question 'quiz' for math #on top of making like 7 excel spreadsheets a week #not including the 50 page readings for management plus the 50 questions that follow and the writing assignments #i'm so glad my ids class is easy. dr s is my personal jesus christ for being so gentle with her students #idk i'm just... really not doin well rn #at all #idk if anyone read this far in #if you did ily and appreciate you

[sugawara--san]

imagining this percy falling into tartarus for this annabeth i'm SICK

#getting ahead of myself #BUT I CAN SEEM THEM SO CLEARLY #IT'S GONNA HURT SO GOOD #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #otp #walker scobell #leah jeffries

[zerothisnero]

Imma be honest with yall

I'd let her full heartedly beat me to death

#She's so fucking hot to me #She's kinda under-rated in my opinion #She slays so hard and i live for that #every time she came on screen i was on the edge of my seat #Grell please step on me i beg you can have my soul after wards #GRRRR BARK BARK BARK GRRRR #sorry im getting ahead of myself #black butler #grell sutcliff #black butler grell #nero blabbing #im quite the silly little fella

[isfjmel-phleg]

This is a personal post.

#random personal stuff #personal whining ahead feel free to ignore #I made the mistake of dipping into the folder of emails from That Man (which I've kept just in case) #just to see if I could take it I guess? which was a mistake #they're full of pretentious rambling and posturing and jargon to establish himself as The Authority #then they drip with flattery: he says I'm brilliant and have so much potential to live up to etc. etc. #but then the little jabs - and the big jabs - the condescending 'I know you can do this' #he would rip me apart in class until I quit speaking up because I was afraid #and then send me emails informing me that my participation grade was lowish and I needed to work on 'playing the game' #and tell me that I was free to disagree! but it had to be based on more than silence #as if he didn't know that he was the reason I shut down #you're not really free to disagree if disagreeing means you get mocked and belittled? #so I couldn't even protect myself from the verbal attacks because I had to provide him fodder for mockery or else get marked down #he made me apologize to a classmate for my 'reticence and impatience' during her presentation on a loaded topic #that I didn’t want to discuss my views on in front of him #and he was so so careful in those emails not to say the worst things but in class...! #and my replies were so subservient #I wouldn't bend on my views but I wanted approval so badly as if what scum like him thought actually mattered #it's over now he's not my problem I know it was not my fault #do I still want to scream at him? yes #do I still want to tell the VP of academic affairs (my old adviser/mentor) the whole story? yes (can't - pointless now) #anyway I am going to go do chores and move on with my day thank you for listening

[starbuck]

well, today i read 100 pages of my book, made a (currently) complete calendar schedule for the entire year that encompasses work, school, and free time activities, and got myself completely set up to start the next semester on Monday, so i may not have gotten everything done that i wanted to, but i’m still proud of myself!

#also planned out my future restaurant trips in detail #because i want to go to new places but it also Scares Me #so if i plan exactly When i’m going and What to order - it becomes less scary #because i have a Plan then nothing is left up to chance #ideally in the future i’ll be more confident and won’t need this #but it’s helpful for now #and honestly pretty wise considering my food allergies #it’s really not a bad thing to plan ahead when possible #which is why i’ve also planned so many city trips and books and films #if i tell myself exactly what to do ahead of time - i can do it #but ONLY then #i need the structure and organization or it falls apart #and this is working and i’m so happy #i’d love to finish the book this week but i’m only about a sixth of the way done so there’s no way that’s happening #not with the Moby-Dick reading monopolizing my weekend #but getting it done in two weeks is the official goal #which i think is entirely manageable #so !!!!!!!! #wish me luck!!!!!

[nordic-language-love]

Sorry for banging on about NaNo instead of posting language stuff but I'm actually enjoying writing again for the first time in years and I could honestly cry of happiness!

#nanowrimo #writing #giving myself permission to do it badly and just word vomiting as much as i can in a given time is WONDERFUL #and having my outline/plan has been super handy! #gonna have to add to it more over the weekend i think #i still have like. 10 chapters ahead more or less outlined. but that only takes me to like half the book #so i've gotta get the other ~12 chapters (or however many) outlined asap #not languages

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[mangle-my-mind]

Sandy Powell and Peter King: Styling Velvet Goldmine

ER: When you worked on the Bowie-inspired film "Velvet Goldmine", the costumes apparently came from your own memories of Bowie as a fan, rather than actual research about him during that time period.

SP: Yes! I mean, I did do research of course, but you’re right that it was both. I’d heard that film was being made, and I was just desperate to do it, because that was my early teenage years. That time in your life and what you’re soaking in has a lasting effect on you, you're like a sponge, when you're that age. At the time we were seeing things we’d never seen before with glam rock, and then punk, and all of that. It was new stuff and rules being broken. And so that’s how I came to Velvet Goldmine, and of course I did the research but a lot of it was just based on how I’d felt at the time, and what I remembered. It sounds very exuberant! (Laughs) And I think it shows in the film that we all just had an extraordinary amount of fun making the film.

ER: The costumes really reflect that, they are so larger than life.

SP: Yes, and you know, it wasn’t easy! It was very, very hard. We had hardly any money, but it didn’t matter. It was a deeply personal experience, I think, for all of us. I would stay up all night making things, not just because it was necessary but because I really wanted to do it. (Source)

"[Glam] was about going out on the street and pushing it as far as you can; almost, in a way, pushing it in people's faces a bit, saying 'I don't care,' and 'You can just get out of my face if you don't like it'." - Peter King (Source)

"I love Velvet Goldmine. It was one of the most fun films I’ve worked on. It was hard because it was a really small budget, but it was also big in terms of the number of costumes we had to make. A lot of them we couldn’t actually find and we had to make from scratch, but we also used some original costumes... I just had the most joyous time working on it. I was obsessed with David Bowie between the ages of 13 and 14. I remember hearing ‘Starman’ on the radio and thinking, ‘What is that?’ I used to make my own clothes back then and that’s what I wanted the costumes in the film to look like – I wanted it to have a homemade feel. I did it mostly from my memory of how I felt at the time, not so much from research, mainly what it meant to me." - Sandy Powell (Source)

"The greatest challenge was really just making it be believable, even though you're dealing with something that's quite extraordinary. We had to make sure it felt real. So that's when, for instance, dealing with the audience and the fans, and the kids, trying to make it look like they've done it themselves." - Peter King (Source)

#25yearsofvelvetgoldmine #velvetgoldmine25th #velvet goldmine #i LOVE that SP came at it from a fan's point of view - because this era was deeply personal to her as a fan! #getting ahead of myself - the fan week of this challenge isn't for another two weeks #also the attention to detail and touches of 'ugliness' and 'realism' (i guess? idk if those are the right words) #are partly why the costumes/hair/makeup are so special. #jack's green-stained fingers are something that can actually be so personal

[crownconstellation]

as a guy who’s been using delta for like two years on and off when it was really annoying to keep up with (had to install smth on your computer called alt server, which could download an app called altstore on your phone when synced to pc, which you could then download delta thru, and you had to refresh the apps every week) i have to say the official version of it is really fantastic to have

not bc of the convenience of not having to refresh the app weekly that’s a bonus. but bc of all the cute ds skins people r making now LMAO someone made some sanrio ones and the cinnamoroll one is soooooo cute

look at it… adorable

#can ppl make some cute gba ones next…. i don’t like mine #side note re alt server i keep the time on my computer like 5 mins ahead bc i use my pc before i get ready for work a lot #so i try to trick myself into thinking it’s later than it is so i get ready for work earlier lol. it does actually help #but altserver doesn’t like when the computer & phone time don’t sync #so i’d have to keep changing the time back every time i wanted to refresh the app #it got v tedious. thank u official delta release #bri.txt

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy