#(it was too late we were already friends)

[blujayonthewing]

thinkin again about the time elyss's DM cut in to stop a conversation between her and a semi-retired player character to hurriedly take back control of him as an NPC before he could give her, as an extremely kind and thoughtful gift, one of his own personal belongings, and then said 'elyss can probably buy it from him though :)' instead

like. what an egregiously fucking shitty thing to do, actually.

#I think we were caught SO offguard that neither of us was able to articulate a good resistance although we both tried #eldryn's player: ...I mean... he WAS going to just give it to her #DM: haha well I don't wanna just give you guys too much stuff [???] #me: I mean-- you JUST gave us like? ten thousand gold and a castle that we didn't even ask for ......? #I HAVE the money [2000g????] and I don't actually care about losing it but.............??? #DM: yeah so I just feel like I've already given you guys a lot lately #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS: THAT WAS A GIFT BETWEEN CHARACTERS NOT 'THE DM GIVING US TOO MUCH'. #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'YOU ARE CHANGING A KIND GESTURE FROM A GOODHEARTED MAN INTO A CRAVEN EXPLOITATION OF ELYSS FOR MONEY.' #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'TAKING OVER A PLAYER CHARACTER IN THE MIDDLE OF A CONVERSATION BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT ELYSS TO HAVE A THING #'IS AN ABUSE OF DM POWER AND AN EGREGIOUS BREACH OF DM/ PLAYER TRUST.' #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ELYSS AND/OR ME PERSONALLY.' #and like. the actual consequences are so small. we were in a between-arcs timeskip we had BBEG Treasure Hoard money #Elyss loses 2000g and doesn't even miss it. Eldryn being a good friend IS canon and the DM can suck my dick about it #but on principle. on principle the fact that he did that. that is so incredibly shitty. you don't see that? #and for what? over an arbitrary price tag that I could afford without even missing it anyway? #over a magic item that's more psychological security blanket than anything particularly overpowered? #over powerplay dick waving over who REALLY gets to control Eldryn now that he's technically been retired as a PC? #what?? what is the reason??? ALL it accomplished was a fucking character assassination of a sweetheart character #which I think we've all privately decided didn't actually happen anyway because it's stupid and terrible and not fair of DM to Just Decide #and my already pretty flimsy trust in my friend as a DM sinking to unforeseen new lows #god. god. #about me #my OCs #elyss

[shelli-gator]

A PSA. Be careful where you take on water... 🚂🏳️‍🌈

#ttte #ttte shitposting #we have a crisis on our hands! #the amoebas in the water turning all the trains GAY #its already too late for most of them #i wish trains were real #the railway series #thomas and friends #can't stop won't stop

[mxcottonsocks]

[ID: The "was anybody going to tell me" meme, edited to read, "Okay, was anybody going to tell me that Dracula's house was across from Queen Victoria's or was I just supposed to read a map of London myself?"]

So I'm sure this is obvious to anyone who knows London well, but for those of us who don't, it turns out that Piccadilly is not an area of London, but a single long street.

The blue line below shows Piccadilly.

The red line is the part of Piccadilly Dracula's Piccadilly house is on (Jonathan walks westward from Piccadilly Circus, and comes across the house "beyond the Junior Constitutional". The Junior Constitutional club was at 101-104 Piccadilly, so the house must be between that and the West end of the street.)

[ID: An extract of the Ordnance Survey six-inch map 'London Sheet VII.SW' revised 1893 to 1895, published: 1894 to 1896 showing the area of London around "Green Park". Blue, red and purple lines have been edited onto the map. The blue line marks out Piccadilly, a long street stretching from the junction Piccadilly Circus and running roughly South-West. Approximately the west-most half of Piccadilly has a park called 'Green Park' to the south of it. Approximately the last third of Piccadilly on the west end of the street is marked in red. Roughly opposite the red line across the Green Park is an area of land marked "Palace Gardens". Within the gardens, Buckingham Palace is shown, circled in purple.]

#count dracula #dracula daily #ok so i was actually looking at the maps and figured this out back in january or something #but didn't get my act together to post this until after dracula daily started #so i thought i would wait until the time the piccadilly house was mentioned #then i was away with limited access to internet #so this is a bit late oops #i know back in the 1970s the president of the dracula society or something supposedly identified the exact house as 138 piccadilly #but i don't think 138 really works without 139 as 138's steps are very low but 139 has probably the highest steps on the street #138 and 139 were built as one property but were split by stoker's time #but regardless of whether you include 139 or not #138 and/or 139 doesn't technically have 'a bow on it' - according to the list description 138 has a 'canted bay' #to me 105 has a more compelling front elevation and position on the street #but it lacks a yard at the back and just backs directly onto the mews #but at the end of the day i don't suppose stoker was trying to say any of the actual houses along piccadilly was dracula's house #i think his description of the architecture was just trying to evoke an incredibly fancy house on an already-very-fancy street #can you tell i spent far too long researching and thinking about all this? #anyway if you've got this far in the tags what are we thinking? #did the count just choose piccadilly for easy access to high society and powerful people? #or when he was 'creeping into knowledge experimentally [...] making use of [renfield] to effect his entry into friend John’s home' #was he intending to use what he learnt to 'effect entry' to buckingham palace to sip on queen vic? #02 october #03 0ctober

[dov6doll]

#image I took with my camcorder I thought Tumblr might appreciate although I am not tagging it (yet?) bc I can't be bothered #Context: invited a close friend over to give her some books and makeup & my shopping addicted ass immediately started showing off new shoes #I got these in January apparently. Anyways the moment I brought these into the room she said she started feeling ill and said that she #felt a really negative energy so naturally I got out my giant bag of candles and incense and tried to code word: tried to cleanse them #it didn't work obviously so we wanted to take them to a priest to bless them so we went to church but alas we were too late since all #of the priests had already gone home so we left. Previously to that and still we also want to take them to a - now bare with me I forgot the #exact English word for this but it's бајачка something akin to a fortune teller - to cleanse them however we don't know any in our country #Also another thing is apparently right before coming over she had a strong feeling an urgency even to bring her tarot deck with her to my #place although she had no idea why since none of the plans we made involved a tarot deck or anything similar #and when she saw the boots she said something along the lines of “this must've been why (I felt the urge to bring my tarot deck)”

[recallthename]

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#I am so annoyed rn #and I’m trying to find the space between swallowing it and completely freaking out #the thing about being me is normally people ask things of me and my brain is like ‘it is my job now to do this thing’ #regardless of my actual feelings on the matter #and I’m trying hard lately to… not do that #but idk how without feeling like I’m going to another extreme #I just consider being generous and picking your battles very valuable? #but then I’m like ‘bitch why are you considering playing dnd with your friends a battle?’ #anyway I’ve died in every combat encounter we’ve had including twice in the most recent one #I’m playing a class that I already wasn’t interested in and only chose for party balance #and my dm put restrictions on which subclass I could pick cause she thought some were op #and is now reaching out saying she wants to nerf me cause she thinks I’m to op #yes the girl who was dead for literally the entirety of our last combat encounter is too op #playing one of the THREE subclasses she recommended #I just don’t even know what to say #it’s especially frustrating because she can’t 1) wait and see if it’s actually a problem #or 2) come to me and say ‘I’ve noticed this and I’m worried’ #she’s just like ‘this is what we should do is that cool’ #i love dnd but man I kinda wish I wasn’t playing dnd with these people

[somethingexcessivelyphallic]

So far on my snow day I’ve: watched that gay furry porn anime, written gay homestuck porn. I think I’m gonna make a pumpkin loaf now.

#unproductive day #or really productive #seriously tho I had no idea that furry anime was so furry #which in retrospect is really fucking obvious and all my friends are making fun of me for not realizing #I just thought it was like. a normal anime where everyone was animals #i realized too late I’d already seen the bunny tiddies #in my defence I had it on in the background and wasn’t really watching it #until the sexy bun bun and looked up and was like whaaaat #like I can see why it’s so popular #I just personally would’ve preferred if the characters were not animals but we #beastars #homestuck #snow day #me myself and i #personal

[flower-biter]

really really feeling the grief of the unlived life tonight

#Some of my bffs from several years ago when I lived across the country reached out tonight for the first time in nearly a year #and I was already thinking about that time in my life and that friend group and how much I missed them #and then bam there they were on my phone #and now i’m crying #because I miss them so much #and that’s a time I can never go back to #and I’m not currently where i’d dreamed I would be by now #and I feel like a total failure #I thought I was leaving something good for something better #but the better never came #I left something good for something worse #I don’t regret a lot of things but I do regret that #but it’s too late now we’ve all scattered #and can’t go back to what we were #and I’m just #full of grief #and handling it badly #anyway #tmi probably

[tiredsadpeach]

Losing my fp is gonna fucking hurt but I just idk I can’t find a way this is gonna end well so I’m coming to terms with it

#it’s was a fine 4 years #the last year was already hard as fuck lmao #funny we got into a fight exactly a year ago too over him saying if you’re too sensitive don’t be on social media #I still have his Christmas present because we haven’t gotten to see eachother since #October I think is when we last met in person #just a week ago he was offering to hang out because of all the shit my mom said to me #I also have the other friend that’s involved in all of this’s Christmas gift #I was gonna mail it to him #oh well I guess #I just idk I’m so hurt #but this feels like what I’d been worried would happen ever since their obsession with each other got worse and worse #like I get it bpd does that you get obsessed believe me I know but y’all have been feeding into it with these ‘jokes’ lately and well #all the times y’all have said to each other you don’t need friend you only need me as a haha joke is gonna become true if y’all don’t get #some help and soon and like I think one of their psychiatrists said that their relationship was unhealthy and also one sided once #which unhealthy YES one sided?? nah not at all #but they both were like baffled and just didn’t believe the unhealthy part #I commented on it only saying how was it one sided because I knew if I agreed with the unhealthy part they’d both hate me lol #because believe it or not mutual obsession is not healthy lmao idc how romanticized it’s been getting it will never be healthy #I have a bf now and I strive to never be like that to him because i don’t want us to become mutually obsessed like that I don’t want us to #isolate ourselves for eachother whether knowingly or unknowingly just today he apologized because he’s been busy and I always let him know #it’s perfectly okay if he just never has time to message me one day because I know that’s healthy even if my brain is screaming #like yeah I still have intrusive thoughts I get jealous of his friends like way too jealous and I want him all to myself but I stop myself #from acting on any of those thoughts because I know it leads to a controlling abusive realtionship and I don’t want to be that he doesn’t #deserve that so it is so fucking confusing when they ‘joke’ and tell the other to delete a photo or tweet and then the other actually does #idk how they can’t see that that’s fucked #okay sorry lol but hey if y’all read the tags on the I’m so lost post and know what I did wrong please tell me because no one else will!

[timeisacephalopod]

I saw a post the other day that kinda pushed back on the way all coming of age movies are about sexuality and all high school stories basically center around who wants to fuck who and how that's like. Not really all coming of age and high school stories should offer since you know. Youth isn't about who you have a crush on and probably coming of age stories in particular should be far more diverse in subject matter than they are.

Honestly as someone who, when I was 'coming of age' age, hated coming of age stories and still do for the exact reason listed above (see the weird scene in It where we all sexualize a 13 year old girl because boys have crushes and surely there's no other way to portray this than feeling a child up with a camera to demonstrate boys have ~feelings~ Bev gets no equivalent scene because she's the object of affection rather than the subject feeling desire) I also wish there was diversity in those stories. And coming of age stories about adults- we don't stop going through huge life moments that change everything forever, but back to kids. When I was a kid I could have desperately used a coming of age story where the character has a sick and dying parent who does die by the end of the story and what happens after that. Granted I did just fine without it, but even without being asexual it's always irked me that coming of age stories don't seem to appreciate that kids have way larger problems and way better stories to tell then first crushes and first kisses for shit sake give kids who went through what I did as a kid some kind of story about what happens when your parent gets cancer and how complicated that is and stop assuming the biggest thing that happens around puberty is discovering sexuality that, if you were queer, you probably already noticed what you felt wasn't in a coming of age story anyway.

#winters ramblings #id actually LOVE to see a coming of age story about an immigrant child moving to a new country #and have the coming of age center around THAT instead of these bizarre vaguely adult explorations of sexuality #that honestly ive never related to anyway like maybe the allos get it but even THEY deserve more diversity in stories #SURELY even your local allos have a dad dying of cancer they desperately need to know what to do with #like deadass a therapist told me at 26 i was robbed as a child because of what i went through and i STILL cry when i think of that #but no coming of age is all sex shit because children according to adults dont have real issues #which tells me adukts writing the stories are MASSIVELY privileged or stunted by execs or straight up assune kids wont watch #a REAL coming of age story. also i want a coming of age story about a 40 year old who is going through a career change #and the struggles that come with late career change. the benefits of a late career change. all the complicated family goo around all this #just give me decent stories that arent too focused on fycking RELATIONSHIPS for once. have them there sure i dont care #but for FUCK sakes can we stop pretending a 13 year olds biggest concern us who they have a crush on?? #my dad was DEAD and i knew only one other person who lost her mom way younger than me at 8 #we did not understand each other and how could we when our situations were so different. BOTH of us were so highly alienated #because NO ONE not even each other could relate to a lot if the people around us. the only thing we DID have in common #was the sick feeling we got when someone would bitch about their parents having fair expectations or not giving them literally everything #we both had an 'at least you HAVE parents to hokd you to reasonable standards and all you do is SQUANDER it' even if our feelings werent #faur to our peers anymore than their feelings were fair to us. wheres the coming of age story about THAT #tell me a story about a 16 year old whos mom has been dead HALF her life already like my friend. i was lucky enough not to deal with that #until i was 24. she deserved better out if high school and coming of age stories too. believe it or not kids have REAL lives and problems #and im SO tired of no one writing anything but some sad kids books about it even if the books are SOMETHING to start with #like for shit sakes must NICEthat the worst thing YOU went through was realizing you had a sexuality but my queer ass #ALWAYS knew i was different and highschool highlighted that a BUNCH so unless we're exploring aroace teens that doesnt appeal either #great yet ANOTHER story about straight teenagers because THEYRE the ones who need guidance on how to express themselves #like they dont see strsight people storoes and sexuality EVERYWHERE plus the ACTUAL opportunity to date in high school #that most queer kids dont get or dont get in the same way. why is THAT the only story being told when its the most saturated and BORING #and also ignores that kids have REAL issues and NO angency. explore THAT. do ANYTHING but yet another fucking coming of age story #about straight kids having crushes on each other and thats IT like come on SERIOUSLY

[peaceeandcoolestvibes]

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#wTf #folks friends and colleagues in class text me and I’d like to publicly apologize for seeing them texts super late #sometimes it gets to the point that it’s pointless to get back to y’all LMFAOOOOO #I get too many messages PER minute 😌😂 #two friends are like BIH LMAOOO YOU DONT SEE SOME MESSAGES DO YA #sorry bae 😌 #lmao I’m trynna work on this #this happens w Sofi Marina heids and Carla the most #I manage to see 4 other people’s messages just in time #LMAOOOO #goddamn.txt #w Dani I got no problem #same w 2 other people lmao #today I had 6 people asking for medical advice and it’s like 😳 feeling fulfilled 😳 when I can help y’all #bae Joselyn called me today but I was in class already and it’s like I can’t pick up but we were texting back n forth ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #Scorpio sis you need to put in the work bc you’re smart already #I tell Christian the same thing … y’all wanna be nurses? put in the work #it’s never easy #same goes to people who wanna go to 👨‍⚕️ or 🦷 #nobody said it was easy lmao #como dije … de oftalmo si que pocos consejos os puedo dar lmao hice cositas en el cap pero me lo dieron condensadito y en un tema de 1038193 #páginas así que #el resto? lo que queráis 🥰🥰

[sluttyten]

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#my parents just got home from my grandparents so obviously we’re not driving to visit my brother tonight because it’s almost 10pm and he #lives like 6-8 hours away but I asked if we’re going tomorrow or not at all and her answer was ‘we’re not going’ #then she was like ‘are you sad?’ and I’m like no #because I’m not sad I’m annoyed #annoyed that I canceled my plans for this weekend trip that they came up with just a couple days ago just for me to have to cancel my #piercing plan (which they don’t know about to be fair) but also canceled on my best friend because I thought I wouldn’t be here and then I #told her no I wouldn’t come over tonight either bc I thought maybe we might leave early in the morning tomorrow #but we’re not doing that either and I could have gone to target like I wanted to also but I didn’t want to leave and go anywhere bc I didn’t #know how long my parents were going to be or what the general plan was until it was too late and dark for me to want to go anywhere #anyway I’m just annoyed like what was even the fucking point? I hurried home from work threw all my stuff together fully packed and got my #pillow and my blanket my chargers and everything #I even unplugged all the electronics in my room bc I don’t leave stuff plugged in when I know I’m gonna be away for a few days #just for us to not go at all #if either of my parents had packed before today then we would’ve already been on the road by the time my aunt called #would we have just turned around then or what? #also ugh it’s like my parents knew I had plans they wouldn’t approve of bc it was almost right after I made the plans for the piercing with #my friend from work that they threw these plans at me and then once I’d told him I couldn’t do today but maybe next weekend they suddenly #wanted to switch our trip to next weekend but decided to keep it this weekend when I was like uh no #and now that my plans are to go next Friday to get pierced like neither of my parents really shared any plans or even packed anything until #today almost like they just didn’t really plan to go which I know sounds dumb and paranoid to say but we didn’t even have a hotel #reservation like we normally would like these plans just seemed very tentative this weekend and it’s just so annoying to me #I wasted my entire afternoon basically thinking maybe we would get to go and thinking maybe tomorrow and ugh #I’m just in a mood I’m sorry #I need to translate this annoyance into writing chp 10 before I fall asleep #also my best friend is updating me on her house sitting alone and she’s freaking out bc she’s not used to sleeping alone in a house by #herself and the power just went out on her and if my parents would’ve made our lack of plans more clear I could’ve at least been there with #her so she wasn’t so freaked out or at least so we’d be freaked out together #but tbh girl just lock yourself in a bedroom that’s what I always do when I have to sleep in my house alone. and put my car keys right #beside my head so if anything crazy did happen I could at least like set my car alarm off to alert the neighbors

[theyarebothgunshot]

bby, you're not third wheeling, you're the potential temptation to a poly lifestyle 💗. jk, jk. it's all about reframing situations! 😁 i hope you had a nice evening! - 🧩 (also, i am sorry. it' 04:09am as i am typing this which is the excuse i am running with)

lmaooo i am not gonna lie, that one friend who was there who has seen spn is super hot. i spent the entire evening with her and her boyfriend, and if they were to ask...... well....... dshfshf

#her boyfriend is super smart too and it was nice talking with them tbh #the party was kinda meh overall but i was glad they were there #i hope you got some good sleep in the end!! (i was already in bed when you sent this shdfhs) #puzzle pieces anon #also let me just add a weird tangent in the tags here #usually when i go to parties of this particular friend whose birthday it was #it gets super late like 6 in the morning #and we drink way too much #and its fun but then i wake up super tired and kinda hungover #and last night i paced myself and i was in bed by 3 #and i was so happy when i woke up with a clear mind #i could get used to that ngl

[beskad]

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#ohhhh #this is also PROBABLY partially because i FOOLISHLY had a glass of wine yesterday smh how dare i #i cannot drink at all. AT ALL. on this medication. #and i still have 2 weeks of it before i stop taking the pills #and another 2 after that before it's out of my system #like SHOULD i ever go back to killing a full bottle of wine in one sitting? no. obviously. 2014-2019 me had a problem lmao #I've had a lot of therapy since then #but I'd like to have 1 damn glass with dinner or friends without wanting to die #I'm down to a half a glass of wine a month and it's still too much while on this medication. and honestly lately ive even skipped that #but i reaaaaaaaally wanted a small glass yesterday while we were eating takeout and then cleaning #i didn't even finish it #and I'm already paying for it #the most fun part of this is that this medication I've been on for like 9-10 months didn't even help #just loaded me up with side effects and pain and no depression relief #so i love that for me #tbd I'm just so freaking tired and this broken filling/tooth is freaking me out and i hate hate HAAAAATE the dentist #tbd

[lemonpoppyseedmuffin]

What are we doing here. Like why.

#and we already know the song sounds like shit! #i didn’t want to accept it for a long time but it has become irrefutable: #her pc music friends were what made her interesting #and most of them have gone super normie as of late too