#(level with virgil ofc)

[i-am-bitterly-jittery]

On Death's Doorstep (pt 39/?)

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Word count: 1381

Rating: Teen

Pairings: familial Losleep, past Logan/ofc, minor Karrot Kings & Anxceit

Warnings: dysfunctional family dynamics, past character death, I may have killed the therapist but we’re still managing to work through some feelings, google translate Spanish

~~~START~~~

A lot was happening in a very small amount of time and Remy suspected another move was in her future. Virgil’s dads — who were really nice — had been moved into the building and were now living in Janus’s spare room; Patton's room was still technically Roman’s spare room, but he’d been sleeping downstairs with his grandpas for the past few days. It would make more sense for them to have their own floor, besides Remy had been living in Roman’s room on Roman’s floor essentially all by herself ever since Virgil left. 

Not that this really counted as living by herself, Barbra — who she wasn’t comfortable calling grandma just yet — or the twins, or Virgil’s dads were constantly popping in to check on her. Janus hadn’t been around much, and Remy knew they were up to something, but no one would tell her what it was.

She hadn’t seen Logan since the day after Virgil left, and she was perfectly content to go on not seeing him. 

But all good things — not that this was very good, it was neutral at best — must come to an end, and when Remy heard at knock at the door, she found that it had been Logan. 

“Remy,” Logan inclined his head, making no move to try to step past her into the apartment. 

“Logan.” Maybe she was imagining it, but she thought he winced at the use of his name. 

“You can’t hate me forever,” Logan stated, a faint undercurrent of anger coloring his voice. 

“Wanna bet?” Remy arched an eyebrow and crossed her arms. She had plenty of experience arguing with would-be father figures from arguing with Mike, Logan had no idea what he was in for. 

“I did not kill you–”

“You think that’s what I’m mad about?” Remy demanded, cutting him off vehemently. 

Logan frowned, attempting to push his glasses further up his nose despite the fact that they had not slipped down even a millimeter. 

“I do not see any other reason for your hostility towards me.”

“Estúpido!” Remy hissed, throwing her hands up in frustration. “Completo idiota! Lo siguiente que me vas a decir es que no sabes de dónde vienen los bebés! Eres un genio, te apuesto–”

“El príncipe es estupido!” Logan interjected suddenly, completely derailing Remy’s train of thought as she struggled to figure out what that meant. 

“What?”

Logan’s gaze locked on the door hinges as he actually looked embarrassed for the first time since Remy had met him. 

“I–” he started, cutting himself off and starting again. “I am ashamed to admit that spoken languages have never been my strong suit, and even when I was living with your mother I never reached a level of fluency required to understand native speakers when they truly got going.”

“…so you told me that the prince is stupid?” Remy asked. Surely there was something she was missing that would make this whole interaction make sense, she just couldn’t see what it was. 

“Yes,” Logan agreed and refused to elaborate further. 

The two of them stood in awkward silence for a moment before Remy decided to bite the bullet. 

“So what happened?” She asked. “Between you and mom, I mean.”

“Your mother, as you likely know, does not like superpowers,” Logan started slowly. 

Remy nodded, her mom had never said as much — not to her anyway — but over the years she’d gotten the sense that Remy’s powers stressed her mom out quite a bit. The manner of Remy’s death probably hurt her almost as much as her actual death. 

“I was well aware of that while I was dating her, but as I had no intentions of becoming either a hero or a villain, I thought… perhaps I could be an exception.” Logan was clearly deeply uncomfortable with this conversation by the way he was twitching and shifting, but he continued. “I did not tell her that I had powers. One day, a month before your third birthday, she found me using my technokinesis in my workshop. She decided to leave and take you with her.”

“And what?” Remy demanded. “You just let her go? You didn’t want me?”

“Of course I wanted you!” Logan snapped. “But your mother wanted nothing to do with me! She threatened to turn me in to the authorities should I ever try to contact her or you again.”

“For having powers?” Remy asked. “That’s not a crime.”

“For selling my technology to supervillains.”

“Oh.”

All the fight drained out of Remy then, she was still angry, but she couldn’t exactly be upset at Logan for leaving if her mom had been the one to leave him. 

“Technokinesis sounds cool,” She said eventually, grimacing at the way Logan lit up at the clear opening. 

“Thank you. Successful inventions do require a knowledge base to build off of, but just allowing the technology to control itself does allow for some interesting experimentation. If you don’t mind me saying, I have noticed that you’ve added some interesting technology of your own to your repertoire.”

Remy shifted in embarrassment. “Yeah well… I just reverse engineered some shit I stole off of Gemini, which… were yours, weren’t they?”

“It was indeed my ‘shit’ that you got from Roman and Remus,” Logan preened. “I have been very impressed with your engineering talents; your ability to recreate and improve upon unfamiliar technology is astounding!”

“Uh, thanks,” Remy mumbled, not quite used to this level of excitement or encouragement from a parental figure. “Is that what you wanted to talk about? My ‘engineering talents’?”

“Ah, no,” Logan shifted from excited to almost embarrassed quickly. “I– I am aware that you are uncomfortable in my presence as I am your absentee father, as it were, and a supervillain, but I would like you to move in with me. On the top floor.”

Remy narrowed her eyes. “Why?”

“For many reasons,” Logan replied, slipping into teacher-mode. “For one, you are a minor, and living by yourself would supply you with undue amounts of stress–”

“I’m seventeen,” Remy objected. “And I’m hardly living by myself.”

“For another thing,” Logan continued, heedlessly. “Janus has informed me that living with their pseudo in-laws is ‘incredibly awkward’, and moving the Flores-Sanderses and Patton to their own floor would benefit everyone involved immensely. And finally, I cannot live with my mother anymore, she is driving me up the wall, so to speak.”

“Babs?” Remy asked. “What’s wrong with Babs?”

Logan’s eyebrows twitched every time Remy called his mom “Babs”, but he declined to comment on the use of the nickname. “As I’m sure you are aware by now, my mother is clairvoyant. I do not appreciate my every thought being taken as an invitation to have a conversation. I love my mother very much, but living with her is an exhausting exercise in control.” 

Remy couldn’t help the way her lips twitched into a smirk. 

“It is not funny!” Logan snapped. “I am a grown man, I do not need my mother weighing in on my dietary decisions!”

“That’s rough, buddy,” Remy deadpanned. 

“Do not think I don’t recognize an Avatar quote when I hear one, my brother was quite a fan of cartoons and he was very insistent that I watch that particular one with him. He said I was very much like Sokka and was adamant that there were many important lessons to be learned from the program.”

“He sounds smart,” Remy commented, well aware that the twins claimed Logan was reluctant to talk about Emile Picani. 

“He was very smart,” Logan agreed with a far off look in his eyes. “His methods were unconventional, but effective nonetheless. He would have been an exceptional therapist, or anything else he set his mind to.”

Remy shifted uncomfortably, she knew what was coming, but she still couldn’t quite believe it when the words slipped past her lips. “I’ll move in with you.”

“…really?” Logan asked incredulously. “You do not need to decide right away.”

“No I– I’m sure. After all, someone needs to save you from living with your mom well into your seventies.”

“I am not in my seventies,” Logan frowned. 

“Not yet,” Remy teased, relishing the way Logan’s frown deepened. 

He wasn’t ‘dad’, not yet, but so far, he was a vast improvement on Mike. 

~~~END~~~

It’s been three months since the last time I posted a chapter 😅 I had a two-ish month writing slump that I’ve finally managed to work through, plus

It’s the TWO YEAR anniversary of ODD!!!

ODD taglist:

@royalty-of-all-things-snuggly @pixelated-pineapple @arsonic-knight @misunderstood-shadowling @lost-in-thought-20 @remy-the-lemon-berry @jinxcrafter @apinkline2715 @gothfoxx @donutsarepartybagels @xoaningout @meganmoneky14 @lunatatic

#ts sanders sides #sanders sides #logan sanders #remy sanders #on death’s doorstep #superhero au #thursday writes #my writing #sanders sides fanfiction

[goodgirlsharpteeth]

“you never asked me”

those r words none of us spoke

“I wouldn’t be here right now if I was alone”

Emily is draped on Virgil im sure saying beautiful words to him

I’m so grateful to be here right now.

being on shrooms feels like an orgasm

wisdom in this life means knowledge of self

I feel secure with who I am because I pay attention to what I think and do

I can always back myself up. rational

forgetful. unreliable. I’m a work in progress!

I understand why my parents want me in university. You have to pay attention and realize what people are telling you is so valuable.

Every “I think youre on the right path” I receive from an older human I cherish greatly.

they are a flourishing human reassuring me that it will get better. on a stranger level ofc.

I know I will flourish in this life. I will carve out a space for myself to exist in.

I always want a camera on me to document.

“Can I take a picture of you”

They can always say no!

but if they say yes then you have something beautiful that exists that you can all read and it’ll transport you back to that point.

we are on the beach right now

people can tell you how they want u to change

but we are all perfect already

the way our hair falls or noses slope

we are beautiful

ok so right now

I need to send Madeline from Washington ballet $20 for her yumiko that I legit stole from her accidentally

I want to host a party in NYC like themed rent out a space charge an entry hire security a dj get drinks all of ittttt it’d probably be crazy profitable if I did all the math correctly.

I am going to teach my kids to always make a fuss. Yes don’t be super rude but if you are feeling uncomfortable or unsafe speak up. There are resources to make sure you are gonna be safe if you allow them to connect.

music requires focus.

[ent-is-undecisive]

Logan sanders tries so hard to help and he deserves to be listened to

#i've been crying inside about his playlist all afternoon #i have to go back to work sadly #but if y'all have fics based on his playlist #or adressing that issue with at least a partially happy ending #or even just logan content #pls tell/send it to me #i'll reblog it when i take a break #i know im mostly emotional bc ive slept less than 4hrs #but i reserve the right to be upset about the treatment of my favourite character #(level with virgil ofc) #ent talks #logan sanders #ts logan

[patt-off]

but imagine sides karaoke night. each week there’s a new theme. this week, roman decides it’s a high note challenge (*cue groaning from logan and virgil*)! the winner gets to pick everyone’s outfits for a week.

patton volunteers to go first with sia’s chandelier. he doesn’t quite have the range but he puts his whole voice into it so it must count for something.

roman can’t handle anyone else going before him so he takes next with halo (by beyoncé! ofc!). he manages to hit all the notes perfectly, to nobody’s surprise.

janus unexpectedly shows up with death of a bachelor by p!atd, which is impressive but doesnt quite hit on the same level as the previous songs. patton might be pretty impressed but those notes weren’t high enough to warrant a win.

remus isn’t one to back down from a challenge by his brother, so he tries his hand with i will always love you by whitney houston. it’s about as pleasant sounding as you’d think. whitney’s beautiful high riffs are replaced by (and i quote logan here:) “the sound a hard boiled egg might make if it were tossed into a very aggressive garbage disposal”.

logan takes the silence after roman asks who’s next for his cue to go on. he takes the unexpected route of stone cold by demi lovato. its… beautiful, in all honesty. there’s a few quick glances exchanged amongst the other sides, likely attempting to decipher who he could possibly be singing about. patton is personally moved to tears when logan starts to put his entire soul into the song. the singer claims that anybody that saw him start to cry a little himself was just tricked by the light. janus just laughs.

virgil is the default last. he takes a minute to have the confidence to begin. he picks praying by kesha. he starts out so quietly, he can barely be heard even in the small apartment. however, when he needs to, he raises his voice to reach the notes the original singer does. he begins to get into it as he continues on. you’d think that maybe he was directing it to someone standing in front of him. then, he hits THE note. jaws DROP. patton has never looked prouder of virgil, roman looks both shocked (someone beat him in this challenge so well fitted for his skillset?) and a little in love. even remus has the decency to look impressed.

nobody minds wearing the cute personalized patchwork sweatshirts for the rest of the week.

holy shut this is amazing i love this

#patt’s asks #logicality anon #at least i think? #sanders sides #thomas sanders #patton sanders #logan sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #remus sanders #janus sanders

[rotating-pebbles]

okAY can we talk about this special

cw newest sanders sides spoilers

just some things i noticed

-Roman was SO SAD in this video

>"and i'll be the son!" "whose only dream is to...Be a star.." Roman said that last line so depressingly (grammar). Does he not just want to be seen as the side who only wants Thomas to be the star? Is he becoming more aware of how egotistical he can be? Although he did start off normally (i loved that sm)

>"patton" grimace. "and logan" less of a grimace "and,,,virgil!" big happy, geniune not-just-for-show smile. So, he's still holding a grudge against Patton which is understandable. Logan though? Is he angry at him for siding with Janus too? I feel like it's going to end up with everyone else trying to reason with virgil and roman or something

-Roman was so ICONIC in this video

>pissy

>The freaking opening of his bit was GOLD

>He loves Nico so much omggg

>The energy is stunning we love to see it go off queen

>"Who broke this vase???" this remains my favourite sanders sides bit ever so far

>Stock images=iconic

>please dont kill remus he'll probably love it

>the beef with janus 👀

"oh i regret not throwing paper at logan first"

-Logan was such a sassy bitch and we love to see it

>Should we be concerned about the amount of wine he consumed in those few minutes? He was literally holding a salad bowl before straight up holding the bottle with ✨class✨

>Logan you can't deny your mom title

>"not our most feminist moment" YHRCYUBTEC

>*long ramble* "my point is i dont think we deserve an anniversary"

>Logan calling Thomas out for the listening yes please

>validating virgil=you have feelings dude

-Patton was the softest little puffball we got but also angsty??

>proud papa x100

>please dont cry

>PUPPY

>overprotective dad? inner resentment? scared of change? listening to janus?,,, "Nico,,,,seems like a nice guy" You seem very hesitant there sweetie is there something you'd like to tell us

>still glossing over mistakes by changing topic to ice cream? relatable and would love to see a boys night but you gotta stop padre

>we applaud the energy levels

-Janus being Janus but +100 confidence levels

>Janus shared stuff and t e c h n i c a l l y part of the group=even MORE self confident i can feel it oozing off him through the screen

>the s a s s oh g o d the s a s s just can o even pick a quote? just the whole time

>Logan wins the wine drinking this time sorry

>The fandom already dubbed you the wine aunt you just accepted it and now everyone's going crazy

>Ah yes e v i l p l a n s yes ofc

>Let us see the hamster

>*casually sprays remus with soap* *Remus accepted it and drinking it*

>those character evaluations *chefs kiss* nothing more but excited to see some crazy deep theories of t h o s e

>DIGUISED AS PATTON????? AGAIN??? YOU'VE GROWN?? WE LOVE IT BUT YOUR SCARING THOMAS HUN

>snazzy dance moves my guy

-Remus,,,need i say more?

>REMUS SAID HONEY REMUS SAID HONEY REMUS SAID HONEY spending too much time around Janus perhaps??

>I love that he's now officialy the cool jail uncle

> "see i'm roman! get my better side~" icon

>fan-artists take notes now we know where his embylum is

>ah what lovely brotherly bonding

>Remus stop trying to k!ll yourself in this video wtf put the soap d o w n

>no spoilers >:(

>calling thomas out abt mindpalace (i'd love to see what remus has done with the place)

>very true is there a correct way to sit? the gays would agree

>snazzy dance moves my guy

-Virgil was unusually energetic yet still edgy

>emo cousin? i can agree with that but would that make remus his dad and patton your uncle, or patton your dad and remus your uncle we need answers people

>thats sure one long list you got there,,,

>WHY DID HE HAVE SO MUCH ENERGY TODAY JESUS CHRIST MAN FROM THE OPENING TO THE QUESTIONS

>he got so mad about the makeup comment please also what a great use of swear words

> you got it spot on now i require someone to marry me in space with gandalf and dumbledore

>oh yeah he d i d egg on the falsehood thing a true hero

>everyone:hands him affection him:ew what am i supposed to do with it

>so he likes being a puppet i can respect that

>WHEN HE MENTIONED 'LIES' AND JANUS HAD A TANTRUM IT KILLED ME I LOVE JANUS/VIRGIL INTERACTIONS

-Orage side revealed 😱

>he's patton's snack 😳

-c!thomas (and thomas) getting us all to doubt everything about the entire series for a split second /lh

>he's a great interviewer and definately doesnt almost fall off chairs

>oOOOOOooOoOoOo you liiiiiiike him you're blushinnnng seriously he were so flustered when roman beought up nico and i can understand that for him

>he's so terrified/annoyed at janus and remus that its funny

>dont mention the word... callback >:o

>"no not a literal hand"

>we love and and are proud of you

-The new series trailer

>HOLY FUCK HOLY COW OH GOD THAT'S KINDA GAY THE ANIMATION THE CHARACTERS THEY ALL LOOK SO PRETTY OH GOD OH JEEZ I'M SO PAN I'M SO EXCITED

>d&d style thing? roleplaying? i love it

and thats all i got, please add on!

#archie rants #long post #sanders sides #thomas sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #roman sanders #janus sanders #sanders sides theory #sanders sides notes #sanders sides 5th anniversary #Have I Grown? - Five Years Later #i'm so excited wtfff #angst levels sure be rising highh #i'm loving the directionss and the minor character development! #i really liked ot when they did a q&a so i'm really happy they did smth similar #because i really wanted the dark sides included on the next q&a #aaaaaaaa #happy stim hours #please add onto this half shit-post with actual ideas #x

[heist-family-content]

Consider: heist family Disney vacation. How chaotic does it get.

Okay so this ask maybe might’ve perhaps been sitting in my inbox for like a month because of how freaking amazing it is, but I am on a roll today so we’re getting to it, apologies for the wait, love. I send a fuckton of credit to @hawkswithvideocameras for extensively helping me out with this one, love you, babe.

First off, let’s just get this clear, no one is allowed to steal cash. Like after they’ve gotten through the security gate and they’re all standing right in front of the iconic Mickey Mouse shaped pattern of flowers, an all around pact is made that no one will be stealing money from the most magical place on earth. Swiping Tinkerbell’s paycheck is not only low, it’s sacrilegious. 

Snacks and props, though. That’s not off limits. 

For example, during that particular weekend, certain things around the park just start to go missing. Cotton candy machines, animatronics, props from Pirates of The Caribbean... the possibilities are endless. Basher considered straight up yoinking the boulder from the Indiana Jones ride but ultimately decided it wouldn’t fit in the hotel room. The twins deadass just grabbed as many lightsaber parts as humanly possible. At some point a literal fucking BOAT ends up in their possession, don’t ask about that one. 

As you can imagine, the situation does get very chaotic, at some point, Danny actually has to make a slide presentation on Why Committing Arson On The Pirates Of The Caribbean Ride Is Not A Good Idea, And No, The Water Won’t Necessarily Put It Out. In case you were wondering, Basher and the Twins are not allowed to go on that one without supervision. Virgil argued that Linus can’t count as supervision because he’s like 12, which led to Linus having another hyperventilating episode of quietly screaming that he’s four years older than them. 

Now, to the good stuff: Rollercoasters. Livingston can Thoroughly Enjoy them, but only after calculating the risk factors, most, if not all, of which are pretty low. Linus can easily vibe with most of them, but on the really extreme ones he usually ends up shutting his eyes and trying not to scream. Danny, however, refuses mostly all of them, as if he’s simply Too Cool to fuck up Space Mountain, but Rusty knows it’s because he doesn’t trust em. Too many loops, too many chances for death. So naturally on one of them, Rusty is all like “I’ll do this one with you” and right when they get to the top, just before the biggest drop Danny’s ever seen, Rusty just casually says with a grin “Did you know that x amount of people die from theme park machinery accidents a year?” and Danny will never forgive him.  

Notes:

No one even tries to get Rusty away from the Churro machines, but his level of audacity just flies through the roof when he’s high on all the sugar. 

Saul and Frank’s favorite thing is to look at the ride pictures where they flash at the scariest moments. Those photos are priceless. 

Linus formed an accidental crush on Princess Tiana. Danny and Rusty ofc try to get her number for him, and even though he’s not a frog, she gives him a kiss on the cheek. 

Rusty shamelessly hits on Prince Phillip every time they’re in the square. He’s gotten more than blush to come out of the poor actor. 

Reuben had the audacity to rent It’s A Small World for a couple hours. 

Saul brings a chessboard on a ride. The attendant barely gets two words in about it before he shuts them down. 

Danny’s favorite ride is the Haunted Mansion and Rusty’s favorite is Indiana Jones. The holograms on THM give Danny some new ideas for a job, and Rusty just loves that part where the boulder’s coming and everybody freaks the fuck out. 

[illogicallyinclined]

Can you give a breif summary of the Virgil's bad day thing in the hockey au? I wanna read it but every time I try I get too bothered by the angst, so could you give a summary? I still wanna know what happens but hnnn,,,,, angst.

ofc; here’s a rundown of parts 1 through 5

(i’d say “brief rundown,” but it’s me, so who am i kidding. sorry)

tws: self harm (strangulation), fighting (Roman, Virgil, and Logan exchange some Low Blows), general sadness 

Part 1: Virgil awakens to find Logan curled up on the couch staring at his cell phone. Logan claims to have woken up early for some unknown reason, postulating that it may be because his recent change in medication, and after reassuring Virgil that he’s alright, Virgil heads off to team Zumba. it goes disastrously; neither Patton nor Roman prepared for it, too distracted by their ongoing conflict, and Coach Thomas punishes the team for their mistake, forcing everyone to run laps at the track instead. Virgil’s day grows even worse as he struggles in class, and his frustration peaks when Roman texts him only to end up berating him for leaving Logan in the apartment on his own. Virgil lashes out at Roman, insinuating that he’s failing the team as their captain, and Roman retaliates by pinning the blame of Logan’s concussion on Virgil’s shoulders. furious and upset beyond belief, Virgil’s stress levels hit an all time high as he reads a text from Logan requesting that they talk about his concussion right as Virgil enters the apartment.

Part 2: Virgil, already frustrated from the days events, tells Logan that he will not talk to him about the game where he got his concussion, which immediately puts Logan on edge. Logan pushes the issue, insisting that he -- as the one who got concussed -- deserves to know what happened, and when Virgil remains persistently tight lipped, Logan begins asking pointed questions about what he could have done to embarrass Virgil and the team so badly that they would avoid talking about his concussion with him. Virgil, horrified at the insinuation that the team is embarrassed about Logan’s injury, snaps at Logan to stop talking lest Virgil “prohibit his breathing,” and Logan snaps right back, claiming that Virgil is being selfish and implying that Virgil has failed as his defenseman for allowing his injury to happen in the first place. Virgil, now thoroughly crushed, tells Logan that he was withholding the information to protect him, but Logan can feel free to ask someone else on the team if he cares about it so much. he then tells Logan that Logan sometimes makes himself “easy to hate” before storming out of the apartment.

Part 3: Virgil tells Coach Thomas that he will not be making it to practice and then goes to the local pond to break down and then sulk (in that order) over his arguments with Roman and Logan. he spends a while blaming himself for Logan’s injury only to be pulled out of his thoughts by Payton, who had to miss practice for a presentation in one of his classes and who happened to come across Virgil’s brooding. Payton urges Virgil to talk about what’s wrong, and upon learning of his argument with Logan, he comforts Virgil, reassuring him that no one on the team blames him for Logan’s injury and that he sincerely doubts that Logan blames him either. Payton closes off his argument by stating that people tend to lash out when they are hurt and that, at this moment, there are very few people on the team who are hurting more than Logan. Virgil, heartened by his conversation with Payton, decides to go back to the apartment to apologize and work things out with his roommate; however, every bit of hopeful optimism that he has completely drains out of him when he walks into the bedroom only to find Logan watching the video of himself getting concussed on repeat. 

Part 4: Virgil takes in the scene even further, noting that the video of Logan’s concussion is on silent and that Logan is now wearing old scarf that Virgil had once bought him at an away game. Logan, after watching the video a few more times, turns to address Virgil. Logan apologizes for the argument before Virgil has a chance to say a thing, claiming that Virgil has been "unfathomably helpful, on the ice and off of it” and that to insinuate otherwise was a “blatant falsehood.” Logan goes on to reassure Virgil that the concussion was not his fault, and although Virgil is somewhat appeased by Logan’s reassurance, his horror returns in full force when he realizes that Logan had asked Virgil to talk about his concussion earlier that day because the alternative was watching the video of it. Virgil asks Logan why he would put himself through the trauma of reliving his concussion like that, and Logan responds that it was because having a two week gap in his memory was worse, although he now understands why Virgil had wanted to avoid talking about the game seeing how “pathetic” Logan made the team look. Virgil finally breaks at the self-condemnation, telling Logan that there was nothing shameful about his injury, admitting that the real reason he didn’t want to talk about it was because it hurts him to think about Logan’s pain, and profusely apologizing for the shit he said when they were fighting. they hug it out, and things seem like they may actually be alright, but then Virgil makes the mistake of pulling at Logan’s scarf only to discover that it was a hiding a large, fresh bruise wrapped around Logan’s neck.

Part 5: Virgil drills Logan with questions about the bruise around his neck, learning that Logan inflicted the injury on himself and that he has self-inflicted similar injuries a number of times in the past in order to help ‘ground him” when he is particularly stressed or panicking. although Logan doesn’t say it outright, Virgil realizes that he specifically chose the scarf that Virgil had given him to choke himself with because of their argument and that the phrase “prohibit your breathing” was particularly triggering given Logan’s penchant for self-strangulation. Logan tries to reassure Virgil that it’s fine and that he was simply overreacting to an argument that he himself escalated, but Virgil cuts him off, apologizing for threatening him, acknowledging that it was a fucked up thing to do, and reassuring Logan that his feelings were valid, even if his reaction wasn’t a particularly healthy one. they proceed to spend the remainder of the night further reconciling and discussing Logan’s proclivity for self-harm, eventually striking a compromise: ***Virgil will not mention any instances of self harm to the team, but in return, Logan will allow him to make sure that no further self harm is occurring by being permitted to periodically check his neck. the next morning, Virgil heads to team weightlifting, and as he walks to the gym, he searches for the video of Logan’s concussion only to find that it is no longer on the internet

(***i should note that Virgil did not blackmail Logan in any way, shape, or form. he never threatened to tell the team about the self harm -- because that would be what we in the scientific community call a “Dick Move” -- but he did plead with Logan to confide in them until Logan himself asked for an alternative)

#hockey au #logan crofter #virgil fosc #fighting tw #stress tw #cursing #self harm tw #strangulation tw #im like halfway through the next part and might try to one shot it later today or tomorrow #so uhhhh heres a summary of the previous parts #i also edited the end of part 5 because i restructured the timeline a lil

[nonasidesstuff]

the dimension travel au

aka Virgil’s terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week

so this is like half bullet fic half outline half word vomit but here it is!

this is based on a set of art drawn by @greenninjagal-blog that you can find here with the original version of this au

i dont mind if anyone wants to use any of these ideas just tag me/send me a link if you do!

this got SUPER LONG so its going under a cut

ok lets start with

virgil

his world is medieval-with-magic

the magic here tends to take on different elemental forms depending on the user

people who use magic are called witches

his is storm based (lightning, rain, wind, etc) and is good for both offense (shooting fucking LIGHTNING at someone is great in a fight) and gardening (the ability to call rain at will is pretty nice)

he can also make potions but in his world ANYONE with magic can make potions

the thing is,,,,, magic is illegal in the kingdom he lives in

so when he found out he had magic at like age 11 he fucked off in the middle of the night

he found another witch (a water witch) fairly soon after he left and they taught him how to control his powers and how to make potions

also how to hunt bc hed planned on living out of cities

5 years later hes 16 and has learned all he could and leaves to go to the woods in the middle of nowhere

his teacher had told him about a cottage they had built in a clearing in the woods and said he could go there bc they were leaving the kingdom

they left behind a lot of books on magic and he learned more reading those

the cottage was actually in pretty good shape? the roof was a little leaky but the furniture inside was fine

the outside was a nightmare though. overgrown plants all over

as the years went on he restored the area around the cottage and found a bunch of neat stuff

like a vegetable garden that had been overgrown and wild but still had healthy plants he could cultivate for food. there were also some spice plants that had gone out of control that he harvested and dried for later use

he found out the woods around his home were full of berries (wild strawberries and blackberries. shhhhhh idc if they dont grow in the same places this is a Magic World) and discovered that one of the trees in the clearing was actually an apple tree so yay fruit!!!!

so he was living the good life

cut to 3 years later

hes 19 now and a full-blown weather witch and potion maker

he has sectioned off his garden into 3 parts: spices, vegetables, and potions ingredients

unfortunately some ingredients just wont grow well in a garden and have to be harvested from the wild

virgil realizes hes running low on a couple of said ingredients and decides to make a run to the patches of potion herbs he knows of

he only gets halfway there

a swirling blue-and-yellow vortex opens up 20 feet in the air to the right of him and something falls out

something human shaped

holy shit its a PERSON

he rushes over to make sure this person is okay and.

they have reddish brown fox ears?????

and a reddish brown and grey tail????????

he pokes one of the ears and it twitches

holy shit theyre REAL????!!!!!!!!!

he gathers up this person and takes them home

he puts the strange person in his bed and tends to the minor injuries they obtained from falling 20 feet

this is when he realizes that this person is dressed,,,,,, very strangely

now, people in virgil’s world have some freedom in what they can wear. they can wear whatever the FUCK they want. virgil is partial to dresses and skirts himself

but what this person is wearing is different. the material was like nothing hed ever seen before and in a strange style

(it suits him. its really cute)

he slept for a little over 9 hours

(virgil slept on the floor)

and when he woke he was disoriented and woozy

so he ate a small meal and drank some water and fell back to sleep for another couple hours

when he wakes again, he feels much better and is able to introduce himself

“I’m Patton Baker! Where am I?”

patton

his world is like if you took every single magical girl/boy anime out there and mashed it into one world.

so its chaotic

theres aliens/demons/monsters attacking every other week

this attracts magical creatures like a magnet and they start giving magical girls/boys powers. these are called magical guardians

these people are public figures and are treated the same way idols are in our world (not allowed boyfriends/girlfriends etc)

its a tough job

patton became a magical boy when he was 14 and has been for the past 3 years

the powers his magical guardian are able to give are based off of endangered or threatened animals (yes im sort of copying tokyo mew mew shhhhhhhhhh)

patton became infused with the dna of the island fox

his transformation is triggered by a small tattoo-like marking given to him by his guardian. it’s on the base of his neck

he Absolutely has a magical girl transformation

when he’s transformed, he has the ears and tail of an island fox as well as claw-like nails. his hair is the reddish-brown of the fox and his eyes are silver

his outfit is light blue with silver and white accents and dark blue sleeves

when detransformed he has blond hair and blue eyes

his magical boy weapon is a bow that he can shoot arrows of light from

his group was based out of florida and has been going strong for about 15 years. magical teens come and go as they gain their powers and retire or, tragically, lose their lives fighting

at the moment there are six people including patton

their most recent foe is a monster that has the ability to make people and things disappear, and they’re not sure what happens to them

theyre fighting this thing at night when it happens. the creature has already taken the streetlights out and the teens are fighting in heavy darkness. patton, who has better night vision due to his fox genes, sees the monster about to grab the leader, and strongest, of their group

and he makes a choice

he pushes her out of the way and gets grabbed by the monster instead.

there’s a single moment of searing pain and then the world dissolves into swirling lights and dizziness

when he wakes he’s in a strange house. he introduces himself and the person who’s taking care of him introduces himself

he’s told he fell out of some sort of portal and virgil tries to help him figure out where he is in relation to his home but. virgil doesnt recognize any of the places patton is talking about. and patton doesnt recognize any of the ones virgil says

virgil asks patton about the fact that He Is Part Fox and patton talks about the magical system back home and thats when they realize theyre dealing with dimension travel

patton stays in bed for the rest of the day and by the next hes feeling much better! so he helps virgil around the house and they get to know each other

the day after that, virgil remembers that he really needs those herbs, so he tells pat hes going out for a bit to gather them

he gets about a quarter of the way there when Another Portal Opens and dumps out a person. this time right in front of him

this person is also wearing odd

clothing, but in a different style than pattons

he checks to make sure theyre not injured (they knocked their head a bit but other than that seem fine) and carries them back home

the person is unconscious in virgil’s bed for a couple of hours longer than patton was, but he wakes up entirely coherent

he introduces himself as “logan croft”

logan

his world is one full of magic

magical creatures of all sorts live there and magic is a welcome part of society

there’s elves, fairies, merfolk, unicorns, any you can think of

magical schools are also big parts of it

people who have mastered their magic to the highest degree are called mages

everyone else are called wizards

the way magic works in this world is with spells (think harry potter but without wands)

some people are born with more magic than others and as such have a harder time controlling it when it manifests at around 10

so theyre sent to magic schools where they learn how to safely do so

if they want to stay at these schools after they learn control then they move on to higher forms of magical education to continue learning

logan is one of these students

he was born with a MASSIVE amount of magic and when it manifested he. accidentally leveled his house

everyone was fine!!!!!!! but the poor boy had absolutely no control

so he stayed at a school for people with high amounts of magic and by the time he was 13 he had enough control to leave if he wanted to

of course this being logan he Absolutely wanted to keep learning so he moved on

he was so good actually that he ended up in the best magic academy in the world

he consistently learned magic at a faster rate than his peers and so by the time he was 18 (people normally didnt until they were like 21/22) he was a mage in all but name

so he was ready to take his mage exam

the mage exam is considered both easy and the hardest and most dangerous thing you could do

its easy in the fact that you only have to cast a spell correctly

its hard and dangerous bc its a spell that NO ONE outside of historians have ever seen before and you only have 10 minutes to memorize it. things go wrong Frequently

needless to say there arent many mages and people tend to either quit before reaching that stage or fail

and failure can be painful

so logan decides to take the mage exam

the spell they are given is a long string of words dug out of an ancient book of spells and historians arent entirely sure what it does

so ofc its given to the best in the academy

logan takes his ten minutes to memorize the spell and begins chanting

now in this world, when spells are used a runic circle made of light appears under the person casting

small spells have small circles and bigger spells have larger and brighter ones

the one this spell called forwards was massive and so bright that it blinded the exam practitioners (i think thats the word?)

when the light died down logan was gone

theyre unsure whether it went right or wrong but unfortunately theres no trace of where logan had gone so theres no way to see

when he wakes hes somewhere he doesnt recognize and is being taken care of by two people

they all introduce themselves and logan gets the story about what happened to him

and he realizes hes in a different dimension with different magical rules

naturally he wants to learn everything

so he and virgil have long discussions about the differences in their magic systems

(with patton chiming in every once in a while with how bonkers magical girl powers are)

after logan gets back on his feet virgil really REALLY needs those herbs and so he decides to go back out

logan tags along this time bc he wants to see the differences between the flora and fauna of this new world

they get about half way there and once again.

a portal opens

its light blue and yellow

virgil goes “jesus christ AGAIN??????? am i a MAGNET for these things??????????”

and a person falls out

theyre another animal person. this time with scales covering the side of their face and down their arms

virgil and logan carry this whole other person back home and as soon as they walk in

patton is like “janus????!!!!!”

janus

turns out

janus is from pat’s world!!!! and the same mg group!!!!!

he became a magical boy about a year before pat did and was merged with the dna of a golden lancehead viper

so hes been a mg for like 4 years

his outfit is white with yellow bows and a black cape thing with a yellow inside. his scales are bright yellow and his eyes are heterochromatic. one is a normal eye (brown) and the other is a bright gold color with a snake-like pupil

his marking is on the inside of his left wrist

his weapon is a set of knives made of light that he can call at will and either slash with or throw

he and patton got along rather well in the current time

in the past, they,,,, didnt

it wasnt violent but they were kinda snippy at each other and janus was aggressively sarcastic which pat Did Not Appreciate

but after working together for a few years they got to know each other better and saw each other through low points in their lives and became close

janus was still a sarcastic little shit but now its more playful

he likes to suggest “pushing it down a flight of stairs” for any problem

“man i have a big math test tomorrow with a mean teacher that i didnt study for im screwed”

“push it down the stairs”

“the teacher or the test?”

“yes”

he will also aggressively remind you that Self Care Is Good And Needed

(“patton youve been patrolling for hours every night this week. go sleep”

“but i-“

“go 👏 to 👏 sleep 👏”

“bu-“

“go sleep or im going to knock you unconscious and THEN youll sleep”

“ok fine”)

anyways the dimension monster came back and despite the whole group being more careful, it got janus

luckily (to every one else) this time they managed to defeat it

once again, the pain of dimensional travel fucking SUCKED and janus was unconscious for about as long as patton was

he woke and ate a small meal and fell back asleep for like an hour

when he woke up that time he was shocked and happy to see patton

they reunite and everyone gets to know each other over the next couple days

and then virgil remembers that he STILL HASNT GOTTEN HIS HERBS and they all decide to tag along when he leaves to get them

virgil just like sighs and said “nothing better happen this time i swear to god-“

and they make it most of the way there!!!!! virgil feels a little hope!!!!

then another portal opens

its red and green

(virgil: “GODDAMMIT”)

this time TWO people fall out

the group gather up the two portal people and take them home to heal bc

holy shit they are in bad condition

theyre unconscious for a solid 2 days

Roman and remus

their world is BAD yall

the world is very scientifically advanced, and a group if scientists decided that they wanted to prove the existence of alternate universes

and they did!

but they accidentally opened a portal to a hell dimension and they couldnt close it

so the whole world became an apocalyptic nightmare

this happened when the twins were 15

theyve been surviving on their own in an apocalyptic hellscape for just over 4 years now

remus is the close range fighter with a variety of Large Sharp Knives and roman hangs back and snipes the ones going in for remus’ blind spots with a modified rifle. or if he has to fight closer range he has a modified pistol

roman also is the one to carry their medical supplies bc remus did Once and never will again

they travel together bc even though they cant stand each other some days (remus makes gross comments a Lot and roman likes to complain about the lack of conditioner)

(roman once found an old bottle of perfume and dumped it on remus’ head. in retaliation, when they were relatively safe remus found a dead squirrel and chased roman around with it for a solid 15 minutes)

theyre still twins and theyre all each other have left

currently, roman and remus are running from a creature that caught them off guard while they were sleeping

it had managed to get a few good hits on them before they managed to fight back so they both have a couple injuries

roman has a long slice down his arm and remus has some real bad claw marks down his back

the two of them find a building they can hide in while they wait for the creature to move on and discover that its some sort of science lab

they decide to explore for a bit bc they have 0 braincells between the two of them

what they dont realize is that this is one of the labs that the scientists were using to build their dimensional machines

what they do realize is that the monster found them and it starts chasing them through the facility

the two of them are in really bad shape

malnourished after living on just what they can find for 4 years, both bleeding profusely from open wounds and various injuries from other run-ins with the creatures

they arent able to run as fast as they usually are able and so they get cornered in a room with a large machine

they back up to it to stay away as long as they can and

one of them presses a button

the machine behind them whirrs to life and the two are sucked into a portal oh so similar to the one that ruined the lives of everyone on their world

roman wakes first

he wasnt hurt as badly as remus so the portal didnt take as much out of him as remus

everyone introduces themselves and roman has the his first full meal in. a long time

(he might cry a lil bit but shhhhhhh)

and now that hes awake, virgil can give him a potion to help speed up his healing

thats when romans like “holy shit MAGIC?????”

bc there was none on his world

and they all talk and get to know each other

(the other four are Horrified at how awful his world was

bc like, patton and janus’ wasnt very good either but it wasnt an apocalypse

the next day virgil leaves logan in charge and FINALLY goes and gets his GODDAMN HERBS

nothing happens this time :)

and when he gets back remus is awake

hes fed and virgil gets him a potion too

the two heal and just kind of marvel at the fact theyre safe for the first time in years

also that theres GODDAMN MAGIC!!!!!!!!!!

they still can’t believe theres actual magic

the five dimension hoppers eventually meet thomas, virgil’s talking magic cat

(virgil: “he can think and talk like a human hes not my cat”

thomas: “im totally your cat stop denying it”)

he decided to wander around the forest for a while (he does this often) and only got back after all of the portal shit ended

he is the only cat with magic and says he ALSO fell out of a portal but it was a few years before he met virgil

i dont really know what happens after this

maybe they go try to figure out how to get home?

maybe they decide to stay and live in the woods for the rest of their lives

 maybe they decide “you know what? FUCK the government” and stage a coup to make magic legal

 whichever it is definitely has a lot of found family goodness

can you tell i started running out of steam like 3/4 of the way through

#My posts #sanders sides #tss dimension hopper au #virgil sanders #patton sanders #logan sanders #deceit sanders #janus sanders #roman sanders #remus sanders

[remuscore]

Newly Deads

Summary: Janus was there to bring all the ghosts together. He was there for their deaths and helped them live after death.

Warnings: Death (ofc), car accident, gore, broken bones, ask to tag.

(Pt 1), (Pt 2), (Pt 3), (Pt 4), (Pt 5)

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Janus couldn’t lie and say that this one didn’t surprise him. Usually people that get hit by a car are still alive until they get to the hospital, but the ambulance’s sirens were still a block or two away when he died.

Logan held a hand to his head, feeling the blood flowing like a river down his face. He limped, unaware of his twisted and broken leg and simply thinking it was a minor injury. He looked at the people screaming in confusion and worry.

“Oh, it wasn’t his time yet,” Patton moaned sadly from beside him. “He still had so many more years and memories left to make.”

“Fate is not one we can escape, I’m afraid,” Roman responded. “She’s a tricky little bitch.”

Remus laughed and Virgil glared at him. “This doesn’t seem to be a time to be joking! He just died and he could hear us.”

“Virgil is right,” Janus looked back at the others for a moment before returning his gaze to the man. “Though, I do appreciate a little dark comedy from time to time.”

“I’ve rubbed off on you.” Remus giggled like a child.

Janus ignored them and held up a hand for them to stay put. He walked towards Logan, face neutral and indifferent. Once Logan caught his eye, he dropped his hand from his head. 

“What happened!?” He shouted over all the commotion. “My glasses are broken and it’s harder to see with blood in my eye.”

“No one else is hurt,” Janus said at a normal level. He stopped in front of the man. “I’m afraid you’re the only one suffering.”

Logan looked confused. “I feel fine? My pain is moderately low, head injuries look worse than they are and my limp is nothing more than a sprain most likely.”

“I would agree if your brain wasn’t visible and your leg wasn’t facing the other direction.”

Logan looked down at his leg and his eyes widened, seeing the bone jutting out and blood staining his pant leg. He reached his hand up and felt the open gash in his skull, brushing over squishy, smashed brains. He pulled his hand back with a piece still stuck to his finger.

“H-how—” he stopped short, shaking his head. His eyes met Janus. “How am I still alive?”

“You aren’t,” Janus waved a hand towards the accident and Logan looked back in time to see his mangled body be shielded by police. “Died as soon as your head hit the ground. We believe you were supposed to survive this, but something about your position made that impossible.”

“We?” Logan tore his gaze away from his body and looked at him again. Janus waved to the men behind him this time. Patton waved sympathetically, Remus with inappropriate enthusiasm, and the other two awkwardly and uncomfortable. 

“They are friends of mine I suppose. All died over the years. I’ve been working to help them move on and rest in the afterlife.” Janus turned back to Logan. 

Logan stared at them a little longer, before his eyebrows pinched together and he looked at Janus in confusion.

“Why?” He asked. “Why are they ghosts? Why is it your job to help them move on?”

“Many people have reasons to be ghosts, even if they don’t entirely know it yet. Remus over there doesn’t know why he’s still around after his brother died and Patton is watching over his family. His grandson Thomas lives not so far from here. And Roman is still in a bit of denial for why he is still here.” Janus avoided Virgil’s story of revenge. He still needed to work on that with him and make him see that that is not going to help him in the long run.

“And you?” Logan questioned. Janus looked back at him, the one eye not swollen shut trained on his. 

“I am a reaper. It’s my job.”

#remuscore #janus sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #remus sanders #sanders sides #ghost au #tw death #tw car accident #tw gore #fic

[babysizedfics]

My initial question, having found out the (frankly epically awesome) lore of the outer world, is this.. does Virgil ever get a little bit grumpy at Lo or Ro for making people that could be so mean, since he was ofc subject to the cyber bullying and it affected him on such a deep level?

this is a very intersting question

i may change my answer as i'm sure this will fester in my mind

but for now i think i will say not particularly? I think first of all since it happened so long ago no one really discusses it, and Virgil didn't join the light sides until he had already existed for about 15 years so perhaps he didn't really associate the mindscape world (gonna say ms world) with being created by anyone he just accepted it as how things are

maybe the dark sides were negative about the existence of the ms world roman and logan had created? and tried to push this idea onto virgil who rejected their negativity quickly because he saw the merit to the ms world though he never said this aloud in the dark household because he feared they might tease him for defending the other sides?

maybe virgil does hold a slight grudge though not necessarily towards lo and ro but more the fact that the REAL world has such people which is the real reason they exist in the ms world? - i dont think he would blame ro and lo, he knows they are just doing their jobs

though virge definitely struggles a lot with the mindscape world, when i write him it's always in the back of my mind that i believe he has incredibly high anxiety to the point where he very rarely leaves their house so i would certainly say he has a form of agoraphobia - he is very fearful of leaving the comfort of their home

so on days where his anxiety is particularly difficult and overwhelmes him i can see him lamenting about the existence of the ms world and wishing they didnt have to have it - i imagine him doing this to patton in frantic whispers and patton talking him down from it and reminding him why its important for them and thomas - vee would never complain about it to ro and lo because he doesnt want them to think he resent them for all the hard work they did

i have to admit this is again just me needing to project onto vee.. i just want to say if anyone reading this struggles with agoraphobia ur not alone and there is help available, i know its hard but it won't be forever 💕

again i might change this, i hadnt thought about this before!

#little/big concepts #asks #anon #little/big insights

[oh-theatre]

You Can't Force A Fairytale (Chapter 1)

Chapter title: Into The Unknown

A/n:  aaaaAAAAAA me starting another series?? but ofc!! I'm actually so excited because um yes! Also, this seems so confusing I'm sorry!! I'm trying AAAAAA!! Anyway, I hope you enjoy it, please please leave me comments!! Also!! Objection! is still going and will still be updated regularly (probs more than this tbh) I just really wanted to get this out 

also if this is confusing i understand, so please tell me and ill try and clear it out!

words: 2064

summary: Virgil is suddenly thrown into this magical world of kingdoms and royalty. Coming from the modern world into this fairytale land isn’t easy but he meets some eccentric people. He has to collect 3 amulets from three princes to return home. The loveable Prince Logan, the radiant Prince Roman, and the passionate Prince Patton. Of course, all fairytale have dark and evil just wafting through… It definitely isn’t what Virgil expected to get up to during his winter break…if it even was winter here

pairings: Eventual logicality, eventual prinxiety, eventual demus, eventual remile (These might change but for now im love them)

warnings: bow and arrow, violence, injuries, magic, swearing

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“Come on!” Patton squeals as his horse simply races faster. He takes a step stabilizing himself as he takes upon the holster. He looks behind him, steadying his bow as his eyes make contact with one of the king's men. He aims a little lower, firing away instantly grabbing the reins of his horse. He smiles giddy allowing himself to take a right turn into the forest, disappearing in the ember trees ablaze with a fiery passion.

“You're going to get caught one day” Logan chides helping Patton down from his steed, Patton laughs falling comfortably into his arms, his boots landing on the rough terrain. “Pat, it's not funny!”

“No, it’s not” Patton pouts, hardly keeping his giggles under control. “I’m sorry, it's just ah! The excitement!” Patton keeps a hold on Logan’s hand, their gloves keeping them apart. The rustle of leaves alerting them as they reseat themselves upon Nork. “My liege” Patton teases, Logan flicks him gently wrapping his arms around Patton's waist. A shivered tickle runs down Patton, Logan lays his head on the prince’s shoulder.

“Ready” Logan tightens his grip, nervous even though he'd been on the horse a million times, Patton allows his face to dust a light pink.

“Giddyup!” He taps the reins lightly, and off they go. “Try and come after us now...your highness” He mocks sweetly, Logan laughs simply deepening his hold.

~~~

“Ow, my head” Virgil groans sitting up, his body feeling heavier than it had. His clutches the ground around him seizing as the grass tickles his fingers carefully. “What the…” He watches the world around him, realizing the snow had disappeared and the roof keeping him safe to play games all day was gone. Panic set in but he allows it to be surface level, don’t let it dig through you...don’t let it.

“Are you alright?” Virgil didn’t mean to jump but the voice had felt embodied. Like if it was in his head of sorts, but alas. Virgil fears what might come should he look up but does so anyway, meeting a curious young boy around his own age. “Oh! I’m sorry! I hadn’t meant to startle you!” His voice was so...posh? His clearly English accent felt so sophisticated, Virgil was embarrassed to speak. His gruff mumbles nothing compared. “I’m Dolion” The boy extends his hand, allowing Virgil to caution his way towards it.

“Virgil” He greets, dusting himself off. Should he have done that? What if this kid was trying to murder him? He takes a breath, reminding himself of what his therapist had told him should he find himself in a dire situation. Being transported millions of ways from home definitely qualified, right? “D-do you know where we are?” He wonders, still taking in his surroundings. Dolion shakes his head, looking just as confused.

“Peculiar” The boy decides, picking up a small flower. The yellow radiated from his hand before exploding shortly after. The boys jumped back, fear upon their faces.

“What the actual hell?” Virgil questions, now much more aware of where his feet were. “What was that?” He murmurs, treading lightly as he joins Dolion, examining the remains.

“I have absolutely no idea” He replies, his hand grazing the grass, more curious than frightened. “Oh...my! Virgil look!” Dolion taps incessantly, Virgil turns ready to condemn him but his eyes fall widening as they lay upon a castle.

“Holy…” Virgil trails off, he must be dreaming. Quickly rubbing his eyes he takes a deep breath. Ok, scenarios. One; he was kidnapped. Two; He’s dreaming. Three; He’s been drugged.  This couldn’t be real? When had his breathing felt short, hold on...focus? “Eyes” He mumbles

“Eyes?” Dolion repeats, Virgil shakes his head, the world becoming less of a blurry image.

“Sorry, I’m good” He lies “Let’s just figure out where the fuck we are” How he was so calm? It had to be the weird aura the floated softly over the land, he felt...at home

I gotta get out of here

…

Wherever here is

~~~

“Mm tired” Patton mumbles, his eyes barely fluttering as Nork continues slowly. Logan nods hopping off of the horse, steadying himself as he leads them over to a sheltered cove. Patton falters awake, sliding off the horse carefully, allowing Logan to snake his arm around his waist. “Thank you Lo” He mutters sweetly, Logan nods keeping him stable.

“Of course, you should get some rest. You’ve been at it for hours” Logan advises, setting Patton down in a bed of leaves, the twigs barely poking the surface of his cloak. Logan goes to his neck, a quick rush as he realizes something is missing. Patton hears his quick shuffles, opening his eyes.

“Logan? What is it?” Patton sits up, his demeanor becomes alert as Logan’s eyes dart frantically around.  

“My amulet, it’s gone” He identifies, Patton jumps up taking a shoulder, allowing comfort to seep through him, knowing full well his next words aren’t going to do so.

“No its not” He mumbles pulling his bow, his arrow pointed down as he examines the terrain. “Logan, move very slowly” He warns, the prince nods. He aims his arrow, allowing it to fly through the air, knocking something out of a tree. “Who’s there?!” He questions

“Patton” Just a distraction. Patton turns quickly, to find Logan isn’t where he left him. He simply watches as two men grab hold of Logan, doing the same to him on his end. His bow clatters to the ground as he struggles.

“Logan!” He cries, fighting against the brute forces that hold him. “Let him go!” He begs, he could care less what happens to him. But Logan had done nothing wrong. Soon the world silences as slow steps crunch upon the forest leaves.

“Hello Patton” The voice, as always, was deep. Not formal enough, but authoritative as it spoke.

“Your majesty” Patton seethes, Logan hates the sound. He knows it’s only reserved for certain people, but even then never should something so awful fall from Patton’s mouth. “Let him go!” He tries once more, the king has to admire his resilience. A swift kick and a graceful twirl and Patton could have these men staring down his bow but that would put Logan in danger.

“You know what you have to do Patton, it's really quite simple” The king smiles, evil drips from his perfectly punctured face.

“I’ll go with you just, please… let him go” He surrenders, his eyes watching Logan, the prince shakes his head. The prince doesn’t need his help but it was easier to go down without a fight. The king snaps and Logan topples to the ground, his knees sink into the dewed grass.

“Your father misses you dearly Prince Logan” The king turns now, facing a recovering Logan.

“I doubt that” He mumbles, the king laughs. A bellowed sound as he snaps once more. “My amulet?” He requests, the king mutters but with a flick of his fingers, a deep blue amulet returns to its rightful place around Logan’s neck.

“Take him home” He instructs, Patton pulls more, tugging as hard as he can. “Now now, don’t make this worse” The king mocks. Patton sighs defeated, his gaze never moving from where Logan is. A quick look is shared between the pair as Logan is promptly stuffed into the back of a carriage, ill find you again. “Now him” The king points, Patton stands shaking off the men. He grumbles as he kicks the floor beneath him, following the king to a separate carriage. He looks around making sure the area is clear as the rest of the people pile in. He waves his hands swiftly, watching as his bow disappears behind a cloud of glistening mist. He smirks triumphant, taking his place next to the king, trying to drown out the sounds of Nork whining for him as they attach him to the carriage.

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“Are we there yet?” Virgil moans, Dolion stops turning to him. His head cocks.

“There where?” Dolion questions “I hadn’t realized we had a set destination” Dolion quips, at first Virgil found his naivety charming, adorable even but now? Now it was getting on his nerves. They had no idea where they were, they didn’t even know each other. Virgil had to wonder why he felt so calm, maybe it hadn’t set in. Or maybe he knew truly deeply, he was dreaming. He had to be. He also had to be distracted as he lunges forward tripping over a newly appeared rock.  

“Ow..” He grumbles, sitting up. Dolion catches up to him, kneeling beside him.

“Are you alright?” He asks for what seems like the millionth time. He helps him stand once more. “That’s odd, that wasn’t there before” He turns, Virgil follows his gaze realizing the entire scene had changed. Not even a moment ago they had been traversing through an open field yet somehow...they now seemed intertwined in a dark forest. Looming trees watching their every move. The shadows were already uneasy but the hidden rustles of movement didn’t help.

It also didn’t help that nothing felt real, Virgil almost couldn’t feel his innards. Typically he’d be freaking out, but instead, he felt defiant. As if he should have a sword in his hand, ready to fight his way to victory.

What the hell is wrong with me?

“Oh, you’re not from around here, are you?” Virgil was going to need people to stop doing that. He jerks his body towards the source, feeling Dolion mimic his movement. It took a moment to adjust as the light settled and the mist cleared. A bright pink cloud disappeared as a figure descended gracefully landing upon a clearing. Talk about sensory overload, Virgil blinks. The figure was dressed from head to toe in a mixture of pink and brown. His clothes flying around him, as he himself simply was. Glasses sat atop his nose, drooping ever so often, little crinkles as he smiles through their conversation.  “Oh! I’m sorry! I hadn’t meant to startle you!”

“I’m not..startled” Virgil pouts, crossing his arms against his chest.

“I’m Emile” He greets moving forwards, Dolion marvels as he doesn’t walk but...hovers. He whisks his wand and finally plants himself on the ground. He waves it once more, Virgil watches as the glitter follows him, dancing around him before disappearing leaving his head clear.

“What are you? Some kind of fairy godmother?” Virgil mocks, Emile laughs a sickeningly sweet sound.

“More like a fairy godfather!” He exclaims delighted, Virgil’s frown stays. “I’m here to help you!” He smiles, Virgil wonders how long it’s going to take until he gets sick of that. Nobodies’ teeth should be that white.

“I just wanna go home” Virgil begs, feeling now how desperate he is. His entire body exhausted as it trails behind him. His eyes plead softly as they meet Emiles. The fairy figure pouts sadly, his glasses drooping “Can you help us?” Emile hesitates but nods

“Of course i -“ Another poof as a darker cloud surrounds the forest, another figure appears. His hair falls into his face covering his eyes, a grey streak lining it. He wears an extravagant outfit mixed with black and greens, a mischievous smile. Around his neck lay a simple necklace with a name engraved; Remus

“And then Emile the fairy godfather said ‘No fuck you’” Remus narrates lazily, Emile groans but slowly his eyes grow wide. Virgil jumps right into Dolion, the boy keeping him steady. “Yeah hi,” Remus waves, Dolion waves back, an intrigued smile spreads.

“Prince Remus! What are you doing here?” Emile inquires, Remus turns to the fairy figure cocking his head.

“It's not prince anymore” He hardens, something raw about it. “And Im...not entirely sure. I was hoping you could help me” Remus says honestly, Emile nods waving his wand hoping something should occur.

“I don't...I don't understand” Emile dims, his gaze falling towards the floor.

“And so, a newly discouraged Emile and two confused travelers would embark on their journey” Remus recites, quickly covering his mouth. “I...I don't know where that came from” He admits. Virgil sighs, comfortably allowing his head to fall upon Dolion's shoulder. The other boy not sure why, but he doesn't mind the gesture.

“And now the show begins” He mutters as the group ready themselves, for the unknown.

#fairytale au #sanders sides #logan sanders #patton sanders #deceit sanders #remus sanders #remy sanders #emile picani #roman sanders #virgil sanders #youtube #thomas sanders #writing #my writing #ao3 #archive of our own #logicality #prinxiety #demus #remile #royal #royalty #fantasy

[fangirlkats]

all i'm saying is that roman was literally born out of the divide that existed between the light and the dark sides. his and remus' entire existence has been shaped by the knowledge that they exist because one of them is good and one of them is evil, which was just reinforced for literal decades. roman has expressed in the past that he is terrified of being like his brother because in his mind he's evil and there's nothing wrong with that. deceit used roman's clear issues during selfishness vs selflessness and lied complimenting him as a plot to get him to do what he wanted him to do. and deceit's opinions sent everyone roman cares about into a depressed state and all he could think to do to fix something he felt he had helped to cause was give up something that meant a lot to him. so in his head not only is deceit a part of the group of evil people he was literally made to hate but he's someone who manipulated him into hurting the others. so of course he wouldn't want to entertain anything he's saying! of course he's defensive! hes trying to protect everyone including thomas from someone he has NO good reason to trust at all.

was he right in laughing at deceit's name? of course not. he was a dick. but the thing is you cant expect roman to unlearn something ingrained in him to that level in one day. with virgil he got the luxury of a long space of time, with janus he didn't.

but even so, was he an asshole? absolutely. boy will have to apologize for that like he apologizes every time he messes up. but he DIDN'T deserve what janus said to him. that was the worst possible thing that he could have said and he KNEW it. roman is an idiot but hes never aiming to hurt, janus chose his words carefully to do as much hurt as he could. do i blame janus for lashing out? ofc not. but it WAS cruel. very cruel. and roman didn't deserve that, and he didn't deserve patton and thomas to act like janus was right, and he also doesn't deserve everyone hating him for this.

#ts spoilers #roman sanders #janus sanders #deceit sanders #antis come at me i literally dont care #tell me which part of what i said is wrong

[bumpscosity]

what was your favorite part of the portal series?

Oh my GOD there’s so many fantastic parts I can’t just pick one! I guess I’ll go by game...

Portal: I like the fire pit bc I remember it took me like 5 tries to figure out what to do lol. Also the boss fight, a classic, and of course the end cutscene (we stan hoopy in this house)

Portal 2: Wheatley’s betrayal DESTORYED me the first like 3 times I played (the first time I had to pause in the fall bc I was literally crying) it’s just SO well written and the lighting and GOD. I love caves storyline he’s just rly funny and THE FINAL FIGHT AND SHOOTING THE MOON OFC A GAMECHANGER

Portal stories mel: literally the whole game its perfect lol (seriously tho the ending is a MASTERPIECE and who could forget rainbow core. Pretty much everything abt Virgil is my fav tho)

Aperture tag: Im very vocal about my..... distaste.... of this game but I liked a lot of the visual gags, Nigel being in random places on the monitors and “Aperture Science Cryptid Hint System” come to mind. I liked the timed parts too, Soaring thru the air like an eagle piloting a blimp at high speeds was SUPER fun

Lego Dimensions: I HATE THIS GAMEEEE IM SO GLAD ITS NOT CANON FUCK THE CAVE CORE I like that extra level where GLaDOS talks to HAL9000 lol, I actually like the extra level better than the main story part, the writing feels more “portaley” to me ya know? I also like the ambient music, I mean it’s more like white noise but I vibe with it

AND THE SONGS ARE HIGHLIGHTS STILL ALIVE WANT YOU GONE YOU WOULDNT KNOW AND TIME AND TIME AGAIN ARE ICONIC

#i havent played dimensions but ive watched a playthru so 🤷‍♀️ same diff #sassy speaks #portal #asks #mystery friendo

[homeforchristmas-au]

Character bios/descriptions

Here’s some descriptions of the sides in this au cos i wanna talk about them like all day lol

Patton Sanders (formerly Shepard):

Age: 29

Pronouns: he/him

Height: 5’6”

Straight chestnut brown hair, chocolate brown eyes, hint of a tan but nothing too extreme, rectangular glasses with black frames, usually wears clothes that are comfortable (especially oversized jumpers), loves wearing beanies (often steals Logan’s, who hesitantly allows it) (mostly cos he’s really freaking cute in them)

Really good with kids (ofc) and is such a people person, but can get shy around older people (specifically men old enough to be his dad)

Very good at reading emotions and knowing what people need, whether it’s a hug or alone time

Has asthma, but it’s not nearly as bad as it used to be

Is an only child to a mother and father, but ended up running away cos his dad became really overly aggressive

His uncle on his mothers side is Emile, who is married to Thomas, and they both took Patton in once it became clear that emiles sister and her husband were unfit parents (although Patton’s mom was much better with Patton and actually helped him run away) which was when he had his last name changed to Sanders

He met Logan when he ran away and they both went to emile and Thomas’s house together (I actually wrote the story of how they met for 25 Days of Ficmas on my main blog uwu)

They started out as friends for a long time until Patton found himself falling for Logan, who revealed that he had been crushing on Patton for quite some time

Their relationship started out rocky as neither of them knew exactly how to date (theyd dated other people before, they were just remarkably bad at it) but they made it through in the end

Logan Sanders (formerly Adams):

Age: 28

Pronouns: he/him

Height: 5’11”

Curly, light brown hair, amber eyes, moderately fair skinned, a lot of freckles on his face and arms, round glasses with silver frames, dresses much differently depending on if he’s home or in public - at home he’ll wear T-shirts and casual lounge pants and beanies and stuff, but in public typically sticks with a polo shirt and jeans, sometimes with a necktie depending on the setting

Has a tendency to put up a cold exterior around strangers or when in a public setting, but around loved ones he’s much more relaxed and casual, but still usually struggles to express his feelings.

He’s an amazing father, although sometimes he doubts this despite how much his kids absolutely adore him (he also has a tendency to doubt his own intelligence, even though he’s incredibly smart)

Is autistic, on the high functioning end of the spectrum, and has worked with professionals for basically his whole life to work on reading social cues and such, which he’s much better at now

Has three younger sisters - from oldest to youngest, Ellen, Renae, and Ashley. Logan being the oldest sibling, he’s always felt quite protective of his sisters. Can and will physically fight the whole planet for them

Their father died when Logan was 16. He was completely distraught over this and ran away from home. It was the most reckless, impulsive thing he’d ever done, but he doesn’t regret it for a single second, because that was how he met the love of his life

He did end up going back home to his family, because he knew they needed him

Virgil Sanders:

Age: 4 (birthday December 19)

Pronouns: he/him

Height: idk however tall four year olds are

Floppy black hair, gunmetal blue eyes, about as pale as a vampire, always wearing something purple (most notably the light purple polo shirt Logan couldn’t resist getting him, as well as his dark purple jumper that’s a size too big)

He’s fairly shy, though Patton and Logan tend to avoid calling him as such (they typically say introverted), but once he warms up to new people he’s a delight (it took him quite some time to fully trust Janus, but even from day one it was clear they connected on some level). He adores insects and arachnids, and much to Patton’s dismay, his favourite is spiders. He wants to be an entomologist when he grows up, but he can never remember the word for it, so he says “bug scientist”

Is suspected to be autistic but has yet to be tested for it

He was adopted by Patton and Logan when he was an infant. His mother was sixteen years old and had to give the baby up, due to her parents insistence, plus she knew she was unfit anyway, and it didn’t help that the father completely abandoned her. Patton and Logan matched with her in the adoption process when she was three months pregnant and it was quite the journey from start to finish

Roman & Remus Sanders:

Age: 8 (birthday June 14)

Pronouns: both he/him

Height: uh average

Both fairly tanned having spent over half their childhood in the sunlight, Roman has short dark mahogany brown hair and forest green eyes, Remus has longer, curly dark mahogany brown hair with jade green eyes, they both have dark freckles, Roman’s mostly on his cheeks while Remus’s are basically all over his body, and Remus has a gap in his extremely crooked teeth as well as green braces. Roman has all manner of Disney apparel, but he especially loves wearing his white Mickey Mouse shirt with the long red sleeves, and he’s also unafraid to wear traditionally “feminine” clothes like dresses and skirts. Remus... prefers not wearing clothes at all honestly but Logan and Patton insist on it, so he tries to wear as few clothes as possible, usually his neon green tank top and dark brown cargo shorts

They’re very different from each other but they do have similarities and can work well together. They pretty much never admit it but they do love each other despite their differences and near constant bickering.

They’re both dramatic, but in somewhat different ways. Roman is dramatic in that way that’s like “I’m literally tinkerbell because you have to give me attention or I’ll die”, while Remus is more like “this little tiny thing inconvenienced me so I’m gonna overreact and formulate murder plans against whoever/whatever dare make my life unbearably difficult”. They’re also both very creative, but of course they have different views on creativity (I doubt I need to get into specifics). They also both love Disney, but roman is more into classic Disney while Remus prefers Pixar

They both seem to exhibit traits of ADHD but haven’t been tested for it yet

They were around three years old when their mom and dad both died in a car accident. It was two years after that that Patton and Logan decided to adopt them both, despite only planning on adopting one child. Virgil was a year old at this time, and they wanted an older kid, and they ended up with two. And really that was fine by them, they just knew that this was it; no more kids, at least for a little while

Janus REDACTED

Age: 15 (birthday February 3)

Pronouns: he/him/they/them

Height: 5’7”

Medium length light golden brown hair, two different coloured eyes (right - cognac, left - chartreuse), fair skinned with a red birthmark taking up most of the left side of his face, missing right leg where he had to get an above-the-knee amputation, which causes him to need forearm crutches, he usually wears clothes that cover as much of his body as possible, and he oftentimes - if not constantly - wears foundation and concealer to hide his birthmark, although Patton and Logan insist it’s not necessary

He tends to avoid people when possible, since he’s developed quite the trust issues over the years. Going from foster home to foster home has made it difficult to allow himself to get close with anyone. In spite of this, he always seems to find himself bonding with the kids in his foster families. Especially the Sanders family when they first took him in (their original plan was to simply foster him... that plan fell through as they very quickly decided they wanted him to be part of their family)

Overall they’re a sarcastic cynic with a knack for storytelling, and while they seem cold and reserved on the outside, completely uncaring about the world around them, really deep down they just want to feel loved by someone, they want to feel accepted and like they’re really part of a family, like they’re actually wanted

They developed a bit of trauma from their birth family situation but a lot of it has been worked out, although they still have issues to work through even after all this time

They were ten when their dad got blackout drunk, forced them and their mom into the car, and started driving. Janus still has no idea where he was trying to go, but they never made it. They got into a monumental car accident, and Janus was lucky they made it out alive, although it costed them their leg. Their mother died unfortunately and their father was on life support last they heard. They never found out if he woke up or if he was taken off of it, so they have no idea if their dad is dead or alive. They tell themself they don’t care, they don’t wanna know either way, but they do. They feel like they shouldn’t, since their dad hurt them and got their mom killed, but they did have fond memories of their dad, which made the entire situation that much worse

So yeah on the happiest of notes there’s the main fam-ILY!!! :,)

I might continue this post with descriptions of the entire extended family, who knows!!!! :D (let me know if I missed anything in the tags btw, although I reached the limit so oof if I did)

#ts ​home for christmas #thomas sanders #sanders sides #sanders sides au #patton sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders #remus sanders #janus sanders #autistic logan #autistic logan sanders #amputee janus #logicality #creativitwins #long post #death #death tw #death mention #death mention tw #car accident #car accident tw #car accident mention #car accident mention tw #alcohol mention #alcohol mention tw #trauma mention #trauma mention tw

[not-safeforsanders]

Remus pissing in front of the other sides and jerking off in front of them too (with their consent ofc bc we Don't Stan unconcentual shit in this horny house) - Chem

Explicit Content; 18+ ONLY. Minors don’t interact with my blog.

Ship: Remus/everyone except Roman. 

Notes: I threw in some pet play because that’s the bitch I am. Human!AU where they all live together but Roman just basically doesn’t exist or doesn't live with them idk it’s a porn fic I don’t care about the details. (Edit: I wrote that and then made half the fic background story I’m)

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They’re not actually sure when this started to become a collective thing. At first it had been Dee and Remus, and the other’s simply were briefed on everything that entailed in their relationship and consented to witnessing the occasional weird thing, like Remus wearing a collar around the house. Dee was Remus’ master and in that sense they knew precisely what that meant but had never quite given the idea much thought.

Then, on a night that the house was supposed to be empty, Patton had had a bad night and a bad break up and accidentally walked straight into the absolutely lovely image of Remus, wearing a collar and a lead and nothing else whilst having his face fucked by Dee. They’d, or rather Dee had asked with Remus’ permission, if Patton would like to stay and watch. He ended up doing a little more than watching. 

The interaction had opened his eyes to a new form of control that felt comfortable and easy, and soon find himself very easily and almost naturally becoming a part of their relationship. He became Remus’ second master, the person who controls him when Dee isn’t there to do so; and Remus most certainly was not arguing.

The next person to end up involved had been Logan. Logan who actually did have some level of experience in BDSM and was quite comfortable with it, he’d just never quite been in the same position as Dee and Patton, he fell more easily towards Remus. This is how Remus ended up with a playmate and Patton fell in love with Logan, as well as falling in love with a certain set of extra curricular activities. But Logan and Remus still differed greatly; Logan being more cat like, elegant, he had his own rules.

Remus is simply messy. A pup. He willingly obeyed every command given to him.

Virgil had mostly just sighed and said “I’ll give it a try,” once he realised he was the last man standing in the vanilla section of their sex lives. He gave it a few tries, and he was incredibly good at it, to the point in which on a stressful day Dee would just wave his hand and tell Virgil to take care of Remus. The man has quite the temper and the last thing he wants is to seriously scare or upset Remus.

They all discussed rules, boundaries, who takes care of what, then specific kinks and types of play, safe words. Thus, this whole system had been born.

After this Remus would spend most of his days completely naked, with nothing more than a collar and a lead; he sometimes easily forgets himself in his pet space too. Like today. He’d whined a little, poking at Patton’s leg for some attention but the elder had been busy making lunch for everyone. So he’d simply huffed, sat back and let himself pee on the tiles floor, warm piss pooling around him whilst his cock twitched a little. Technically, Patton had been to blame so he couldn’t really punish the other, nevertheless Remus got a firm scolding. 

Still a little damp, he’d nuzzled against Patton’s thigh, grinding his hips lightly against the other for some relief. “Are you hungry pup?” The elder had asked, running a hand through the other’s hair. When he’d been given an affirmative nod, Patton sighed and unzipped his pants, letting Remus suck him off as he relaxed back against the kitchen counter. The pup is very rarely satiated, even as Patton’s grip grows tighter and he fucks the other’s mouth more insistently, filling up his throat, Remus whines for more. To which he gets a chuckle “Go and see if Logan wants to play,”

Logan is happily lying on his side and watching TV in the living room when Remus interrupts him, being nuzzled onto his back as the other man crawls on top of him, burying his face in Logan’s neck as he ruts against him, letting the other feel his hardness against his bare skin. The two grind against each other lazily for a while, neither allowed to cum without their masters permission, but whining and mewling at the pleasurable, but frustrating sensation. 

Finally, when Virgil comes and sits in the living room and finds two pets on their knees by his side in seconds, he lets them have their relief. Remus kneels up, putting himself on display as he’s given permission to properly touch himself, stroking his hard cock slowly at first, letting Virgil take in as much of him as possible before he finally speeds up. His hips shift into his own grip, body trembling as he feels bliss nearing him, eyes fluttering closed before he begins to gasp and pant, spilling over his hand. 

“Good boy,” Virgil praises, running a hand through his hair. Logan whines a little “Now I think you should probably take care of Logan, don’t worry I’ll still have a treat for you when you’re done,” He squeezes his own hard cock teasingly, and that’s all the incentive Remus needs before he’s pushing Logan onto his back again.

#ask #Anonymous

[we-need-a-sexy-skeleton]

The Hanging Tree: Chapter Three

Characters: Logan, Patton, Virgil, Roman (Unnamed), OFC (The Woman With Too Many Teeth), Dot (Mentioned)

Warnings: Magic, wolves, visions, headaches, body horror (eyes and teeth)

Tag List:  @rileylastname @unicornlogan @kittycake574 @lemme-use-a-thorn @why-should-i-tell-youu2 @librowyrm @dorkoverse @ultraviollettt (Ask to be added)

Chapter One Chapter Two

“Hey, real quick,” Logan said. “That was the dumbest way to start this conversation. I’m trying to find out about my own personal history, and you’re over here asking me about some German book published in 1911?”

I’m trying to help! Jesus! Just tell me what you know about this stuff!

“I don’t really know anything about it,” Logan sighed, rolled his eyes. “I know it’s a German book from 1911, but that’s where my knowledge ends.”

Virgil nodded. Nineteen years ago, Dorothy and Leonard Memrys found a baby boy underneath the Haning Tree of their town.

“Yes. My mother and father took me from the Hanging Tree at its urging.”

Logan, you were not the Hanging Tree’s to give away. You see, the reason it is dangerous for you to cry or get overly emotional, is because you’re a mandrake.

“Those gross little baby things from Harry Potter?”

No. Mandrakes, also known as Alura Une, are German sprites. While generally female, they can also end up being intersex, however no male mandrakes have ever been recorded. Mandrakes are born from the blood of dying criminals. Well. Some say it’s blood, but legends can differ to include semen, or just any sort of bodily fluid. A hanging tree is a good place for a mandrake to form.

What’s confusing me is that the hanging tree of Ravensbend went out of use one hundred years ago. It makes no sense for you to be nineteen years old- especially given that mandrakes don’t mature until they’re at least one hundred.

Logan frowned. “A-are you saying I’m over one hundred years old? Virgil, I have pictures of myself, as a baby, with my parents! I can’t be that old!”

“Actually, you can,” Patton said, piping up for the first time. “You see, mandrakes - especially as babies - need to be taken care of, no matter what. If you weren’t getting enough care from the Hanging Tree, or your true parents, then it’s likely you could have reverted to a form that would encourage that care. Mandrakes want to be wanted. They need it, so they’ll conform to anything they think will get them love.”

“I’m  a gay albino who ran away from home more times than I can count.”

“Because you thought that would get you love. It doesn’t make sense to you now, but it made perfect sense back then. Running away means your parents go looking for you, meaning they’re very happy and attentive when they find you. It’s a strange way of thinking in a more adult head, but to a younger mind it makes perfect sense.”

“So I, what? Blocked out memories of my true childhood because I didn’t think I was getting enough attention?”

“Logan, the childhood you remember is still your true childhood, as you put it. It just wasn’t your first.”

“So I’m a plant made from a dead person’s blood, or possibly semen. Awesome. What does that mean?”

“It means that you have certain powers. Plants will respond to you, especially a certain kind. From what Virgil told me, some sort of plants are what your true form is the closest to. The other power is your voice. Similar to a siren but much more dangerous, mandrake voices are deadly. Especially when you sing, cry, or scream. Do you ever remember crying or yelling? Or any anger at all?”

Logan shook his head. “No. My parents were always quiet when they were angry, and I learned it from them. I didn’t cry or yell or even feel significant emotions.”

“It’s likely that your parents knew what you were and taught you certain behaviors to prevent it from negatively affecting you.”

“Right, because hiding what I am is so positive.”

Don’t think like that, Virgil chimed in. Your parents love you, Logan. They wouldn’t have taken you if they didn’t, and you wouldn’t have stayed with them if you didn’t feel loved. 

Logan sighed and rested his head in his hands, a headache building behind his temples. “Okay. So what do I do?”

“There… isn’t much you can do,” Patton said, shrugging. “It doesn’t take much to control your powers, just a level head.”

“How can you hear Virgil?”

“Oh. Virgil and I are bonded in a similar way to you and him. I’m not his familiar, but we are very close. So he’s able to project his words into my head. It isn’t that complicated when you think about…”

Patton’s words seemed to become muffled and dissipate as Logan’s headache grew to a piercing pain just behind his eyes. Logan let out a smaller whimper as images flashed behind his eyes. The men from the first vision - one he now knew was Patton - and an unidentified man that looked frighteningly like Remus. More images flashed in his mind; himself and the Remus look-alike kissing, an address, a tall woman with white skin and blood-red eyes. More and more images flashed behind his eyes until Logan could no longer decipher them. They were just mindless pictures, no rhyme or reason.

And then it stopped.

The scene around him was peaceful. He was in some sort of field with the type of sunlight that would usually hurt his eyes and send him indoors. He was laying on a bed of clovers and grass. Not soft grass, like in movies. Just normal grass and bunches of half-broken clovers. Overall, not very comfortable. The woman from before was laying beside him. He turned to her, and she gently cupped his face.

“My baby,” she said, smiling with too many teeth.

“You’re not my mother,” Logan heard himself say absently.

“Oh, but I am,” said the woman with too many teeth. “I raised you.”

“Who are you?”

“I am your mother, little one. I have always been your mother.”

“No. My mother is the Hanging Tree, and so is Dorothy Memrys.”

“Yes, I suppose they do count as your mothers. But I was the one who raised you first. The one who shaped how you look,” she traced a long, sharp nail around his eyes. “I’m the one who gave you your name, little Logos.”

“No... “ Logan said, frowning. “No, my name is Logan.”

“Oh, my little one. It is now, but it was not always. No matter, you’ll find out who you are soon enough. Mommy promises.”

“You aren’t my mother…”

“Yes,” the Woman With Too Many Teeth said, digging her nails into Logan’s eye sockets until blood dripped down his face. A sense of calm washed over him as she plucked his eyes out, watching his body lay there from the outside. “I am your mother, little one. I’ve always been your mother.”

“No,” Logan repeated. “No. NO!”

Logan’s eyes snapped open, his breathing heavy as he looked around the darkened room. Patton and Virgil must have taken him somewhere, because this wasn’t the office had been in before. Opening up the curtain on the windows by his bed, Logan reared back at the sunlight that flooded the room. He quickly looked away and to the bedside table, where Patton had plugged his phone in. Opening up his phone, he noticed two things. The first was that he had slept until the next day. The second was that he had a text from an unknown number.

[[From: Unsaved Number: Hey, Logan! It’s Patton. I just wanted to let you know that Virgil and I are heading back to his house to search for clues. Get some rest, keys are on the hall table by the door if you leave.]]

Logan frowned slightly at the text and saved Patton’s number, quickly pulling some spare clothes; based on how big they were on Logan’s slight frame, they were Patton’s. He sighed softly and headed out, locking the door behind him and looking around for his car.

[[From: Patton: P.S. we borrowed your car.]]

Looking down at the new text, Logan sighed louder. “This is fine,” he muttered. “Looking at the address of Patton’s place, it isn’t far.”

He was planning on finding Remus’ look-alike, and hopefully getting some answers. Whoever this man was, he knew something that Logan and Virgil didn’t- possibly something that could help them. And so, Logan set off down the street to the address in his vision.

Getting to the address wasn’t the hard part. What was hard, was actually going up to the door of the imposing frat house in front of him. Logan had never been to a frat house before- not even in the line of his duties with Virgil. So just going up to the door and asking for someone who’s name he didn’t even know was more than a little unnerving. But he needed answers, and so he knocked.

Whether it be fate or just plain luck, the man from the vision opened the door. He was tall, muscular, handsome, and very, very shirtless.

“You!?” the man screeched, voice tinged with the same strange accent that Remus’ had held.

“Me?” Logan asked, feeling confused. “Uhm. M-my name is Logan…”

“I know,” the man said. He looked around behind Logan and grabbed his arm, swiftly pulling him inside. “I’ve been having visions of you. Come on.” Ignoring the jeers of his housemates, the man pulled Logan through the hallways of the frat house.

“H-hey, what are you doing!?” Logan demanded.

“We need to talk somewhere more private,” the man growled. “Come on.”

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