#(which i know is super dumb and irrational)

[janmisali]

been a while since I've done this but check out this comment. what are they talking about (transcription under the cut)

/hj is simple. It just means when you see it, youre supposed to go, "ha". Not "ha, ha, ha" like fully laughing, or " " like its not funny, just "ha". Thats all it means. /j means you go "ha, ha, ha" and /s means dont get irritated because they are not serious. You dont have to laugh but you dont have to cry either. No tone indicator is created for you to go back to the text to figure out what the tone indicator means, because most people will never do that, hence the meaning is created by the response and not whats inside the text. Thats natural language for you. Created by people doing illogocal stuff, not logic. Technically it is logical though. Its just not using the logic you would assume it to. You cant just assume that. You have to take everything that can affect the creation of language into account.

The tone indicator is useful when you want some1 to react by something. There are these awkward moments when you in a group (irl) tell a joke and every1 half laughs, but one guy goes fully laughing and its weird. This tone indicator is so that every1 knows to half laugh so that people can know that online as well. Communicating just isnt created like a certain word in a certain place or some word combination always should create a defined response. Tone indicators just try to control that response, which is why they exist. Its not complicated.

And yes its too stupid imo, ive given up on real language a long time ago, created languages are much more interesting to me at least.

Let me just go off the track completely and also super personal and define autism, because why not. Ive tried to do this before but i feel like now ive found the tools to do it better. Autistic people are people who are sensitive to information. Any kind of information, any kind of sensitive. Any kind of sensitive includes being non-sensitive and sensitivity fluctuations. Any kind of information can be sound, visual information like light or subjective information like text and it includes information fluctions. That is why autistic people can be very smart. That is also why they can be very dumb. Or both at the same time.

For example, here you show extreme intelligence for making an 18-minute video about language that doesnt make sense by logic, which it doesnt, which is a pretty important realization, but you also show a little of assuming your logic is the best which it isnt. Your logic is unaware of how the logic that goes into creating that language we all speak. It is the average human that creates language, because natural language is the most accessible to the average human. And so you have to think how does/would the average human react. The average human will laugh when they see /hj. They need no reasoning, thus reasoning is not needed in the language. I could literally say a comment of "hi. /hj" and for the average 100 iq person, that is a good joke or not, and it needs no reason to be or not be. Thats why comedy is so hard because for the average person it needs no reason to be funny, hence it either is or isnt. The best laughs are the laughs that have no reason, because thats when your instincts take over and make you feel good about yourself.

We obviously know autism with lights and sound is pretty much chronic. But i wonder, how chronic are they with logic. Because you can certainly be less sensitive to certain kinds of logic and more sensitive towards other kinds, it just isnt generally included in autism since its pretty common in neurotypical people too. I would go as far and say that autism was created from people doing irrational things with logic, and surviving better because they bamboozeled the people that used logic, thus the genes caught on and were like, "bro, were currently just taking in information, and treating it like its random, and we survive better, how about we cut the middleman and just interpret the information randomly straight away since it seems to work so well". I could be wrong but if its true that there were no autistic people before or there arent autistic animals in any other group of animals, that could be the reason why - our ability to think better caused us to also be able to get confused by randomness, thus people acting randomly can cause people to get confused and thus have the randomly acting people survive better and thus evolution of genes can catch on to the way of acting and make it genetical.

#jan misali #youtube comments #autism

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for refusing to babysit?

I(17 ftm) frequently babysit my siblings, D(4m) and J(7m). J doesn't need to be babysat as much as supervised, but he's very needy / always wants to be doing something together, so I usually spend as much active time babysitting him as much as I do D(for example, J refuses to read on his own and prefers it when I read to him).

We're currently in the middle of moving, and my mom(44 W) often will drop me and the kids off at the library or the park or something for hours so that she can pack. I don't super mind this, but it's exhasting. They fight like cats. And I love them, but I'm also going into my senior year in a couple days, so I've been a little irratable too from the stress of packing and school and whatnot. This is all to say I've been babysitting a LOT recently.

My mom wanted me to babysit tonight for about two hours so she could take J to his open house and meet his teachers for the upcoming school year. I was 100% okay with this, and came downstairs when it was about time for them to leave. D gets a lot of seperation anxiety though, so when I heard my mom and him in the kitchen near the back door I knew she was probably trying to leave, so I got up came in to try and help. I tried to distract him by getting him to play with me at the table, but he wouldn't listen. As things progressed I also tried to comfort him and say we should go watch a show on the couch, but that also didn't work. At this point J is in the car and mom is standing in the doorway.

Mom then leaves to walk to the car, but doesn't shut the door, which makes D try and follow her out. He's crying and yelling at this point about how he "wants to leave". I was trying to very gently pull him back and say we could watch them go and wave as they pulled out, but I didn't want him leaving the doorway, since it would be 100% harder to get him back inside once he actually left the house.

A huge ass butterfly flew by while we were doing this. I tried to distract him and say "look at the butterfly!!" but it didn't work and he kept yelling he "wants to leave". MOM them mishears and starts yelling at me to let him go, so I do, but then he's outside and I'm frustrated. She tells me he was ACTUALLY saying he "wants to SEE", i.e. the butterfly, and now it's gone and he's more upset because I wouldn't let him see. When asked, he cried and said he WAS saying he wanted to see. But I KNOW he was saying leave at first, and tbh Mom was kind of asking him leading questions when asking if he was saying wants to see about the butterfly, so I tried to explain that he was at least not saying see at first.

She keeps pushing it though until I'm done and I say "Whatever, are you going to leave or not?", because at this point there's only 20 minutes left to get there. I genuinely didn't think this was a huge conflict at this point? Like yeah we were arguing but I didn't think we were being personal, idk. It was pretty dumb and we were both stressed. I thought it was gonna be one of those things where we're both friends again by the time she gets back and we've cooled down.

But then she told me to go fuck myself. And that was too much for me, because I feel like cursing at someone is just really disrespectful, and something I try not to do at all in arguments, especially with people I love. I'm not against cursing during arguments, but cursing at me like that felt really mean.

I was properly angry at that point and told her to just go so I could babysit. She told me to get a job(???? she's refused to get me a workers permit for years now), and I finally snapped and said she should just take D with her, then shut the door.

I did NOT lock the door. I didn't even fully close the door. I just left the kitchen and sat on the couch instead, staying downstairs in case she came back in and told me again to babysit(which I still would have, for J's sake). For context, D WAS allowed to go to the open house with mom and J, she just didn't want to have to take him too.

My mom is now giving me the silent treatment. They apparently weren't even able to go to the open house because mom's car wouldn't start, and now J is very sad and anxious about the first day of school. Mom's also been snipping about how if I hadn't refused to babysit and wasted so much time arguing with her, she might have been able to get a different ride.

Idk. I know he argument was dumb, but I feel like she crossed a line with cursing at me like that. But I could also see how me refusing to babysit from then might have been too far. AITA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[just-dino-maggie]

Could you write about arguing in the rain with briss? It's like super dramatic, but so hot

Thank you so much for the request!! I hope you like it!

Making a deal to be friends with benefits with Brendan was a terrible idea. Well I mean it’s been good when the benefits are happening if you get want I mean, but when they aren’t its really frustrating.

I assumed that we were exclusive. Well I think we are until I catch him flirting with some girl. He always says, “I’m just flirting its not a big deal. Why do you care anyway?”

I always just agree that its not a big deal and say that I’m being irrational. I don’t want to admit that our little arrangement has lead to feelings on my part. The more it happens though, the more upset I get. I never flirt with anyone else.

Now I’m getting dressed up for a party. I know it’s stupid but I want to look nice so that Brendan notices me. I wear a dress that brings out the color of my eyes. I even put on some makeup on which I generally don’t do.

When I walk into the house I spot the hockey guys. I go over to them but I don’t see Briss anywhere. I decide instead to talk to Thomas.

“Woah there, you look hot!” A smile spreads across my face. Bords always knows the right thing to say to me. I think that’s why he’s my best friend.

I smooth out my dress. “Ugh thank you, you’re the best. I would tell you how handsome you look but you already know that.” As I’m talking to Thomas I hear Brendan’s voice. I look over and I see him with some girl who is practically on his lap. My face drops but I try to put a smile back on.

“You’re right I do know that. So what’s up with you?” He furrows his eyesbrows like he’s trying to figure me out.

I sigh, “I have a thing for this guy but he’s all over this other girl. I know it’s dumb but I’m a little upset.”

“It’s not dumb. I can help you get back at him if you want. We don’t have to do anything crazy, I mean we already hug a lot so it’s not a big deal.”

I pause to think about it for a second. “Yeah, screw it lets do it.”

He wraps his arm around my waist and he leans me against the wall so he’s hovering over me. With anyone else this would be a lot but Thomas just starts talking about classes. Mostly about why his professor sucks.

I’m laughing along to his rant about teachers and I honestly forgot what we were doing. Suddenly my arm is being grabbed and I’m being pulled to the nearest exit. I catch a glimpse of Bords shocked face. I don’t have anytime to explain before I’m standing outside, in the rain, face to face with Brendan. “What the hell y/n!”

I almost laugh, “what do you mean, what the hell?”

“Why were you and Bords all over each other like that?!” He looks so mad and the rain is soaking his body making him look incredibly hot.

I try to put on my most innocent smile. “It was just flirting. Why do you care anyway? You and that girl seemed to be having a great time. Why can’t I?”

“That’s my teamate! That girl didn’t matter! I was having a miserable time because you were flirting with Thomas!” I can see him try to calm himself down. He runs his fingers through his hair and takes a deep breath.

Now I’m upset so I just blurt out, “We’re done! I can’t see you anymore.”

“What!” He nearly screams, “If this is because of Thomas I’ll kill him!”

I roll my eyes. “This has nothing to do with Thomas. I’m done with you not knowing what you want. You flirt with dozens of girls and I’m just supposed to deal with it! I flirt with one guy and you freak out. This is stupid and I’m done.”

“You think I dont know what I want? I know exactly what I want.” He spoke in a low voice. He starts walking toward me and he looks crazy. His gaze is piercing, his white shirt is soaked through, and his hair is completely wet and in his face.

I refuse to back down so I stay exactly where I am. “What do you want Brendan? Please enlighten me.”

“You know I want you.” He puts his hand on my hips but I keep my arms crossed over my chest. “What do you want?”

I sigh, “I want us to be together. I want to stop being some secret you hide whenever you’re in public!”

“Fine! Just look at me and tell me that nothings going on with you and Thomas.”

“Nothing is going on -” He cuts me off by slamming his lips onto mine. My hands make their way into his hair. Our clothes are soaked so I feel every part of him as he’s pressed up against me.

I push him off for a moment. “Take me back to your place.”

Brendan doesn’t respond he simply grabs my hand.

#brendan brisson #thomas bordeleau #umich hockey #umich imagine #brendan brisson imagine #umich blurbs

[misc-obeyme]

I have so many things running through my head right now (all about Barbatos 🫶) but I feel weird sending multiple asks so I hope you don't mind if I put them all in one!

Firstly, owl Barbatos has been flying around my thoughts for DAYS. As a long-time bird lover, I can wholeheartedly say that he's very owl like in general! But this is less about him being a cutie patootie little bird and more about his onesie thing. I NEED TO HUG HIM. He looks so soft and comfy and squeezable EEEEE! I just need to spot him from across the room and then rush up to him and envelope him in the biggest embrace ever! Place several little kisses all over his beautiful face before he's had enough and just kisses me... 🙏 He actually looks like a dream to cuddle with in his onesie I cannot stand it.

Next, I am terrified of butterflies. This current even had me thinking all about how Barbayos would deal with this. Like, I am so scared of them that when I was a child, I was kicked out of the butterfly sanctuary for screaming and crying and scaring the other kids. Anyways, LMAO, I think he'd think I'm silly (I am) but still never make fun of me. That's what's so wonderful about him, he'll never judge!

I just realized these are all completely self-indulgent, and I apologize for that, but I have one more djmsjdwnwkow. So, I had left over chain from a previous DIY project, so I made Barbatos' collar chain that he has in his demon form!! I think it's super cool, and I think he'd think it is, too. I wouldn't even tell him about it, I'd just wear it one random day and see if he notices. (He will. He notices everything. More evidence towards owl Barbatos propaganda.) But, yeah, we'd match. I was wondering if you had any silly things you'd like to match Barbatos with! Personally, matching pajamas and keychains are SO cute.

Final thought, Barbatos would make you his home screen. Anyone can see a lockscreen if you look at their phone, but only he gets to see your face on his home screen <3

Listen, I always have Barbatos brain so I totally understand. You're free to send in one long ask or several smaller asks, it's whatever you're most comfortable with! I don't mind either way 💕

Ahh, owl!Barb is truly excellent. Like I definitely think that's a good choice for him. Owls have a reputation for being wise, right? And while I think in reality they're probably just as dumb as any other animal, I still like the association of wisdom for Barb, you know?

I actually have an owl that lives behind my house. I've never seen it because it gets dark here at night, but I've heard it hooting. It's actually pretty loud lol. But wouldn't it be cute if that was something Barbatos could do to like check in on MC in the human world? I think something similar whenever I see the crow gang that lives across the street from me, except I imagine it's Mammon. That's probably pretty silly, but I can't help but think about them, you know?

I think there are a lot of bird associations with the characters, I mean we also got peacocks for Luci. Though I have never seen or heard a peacock around my house lol. If I ever see a cow in the street, I'll blame Belphie.

Anyway, getting off topic here, which is that Barbatos in his onesie is absolutely adorable and I love him. He would be a delight to cuddle with.

OH suffering from lepidopterophobia?? LOL yes okay I looked that up because I was curious. I was like there has be a word for being afraid of butterflies. Anyway, I don't think Barbatos would judge you at all. The fact is, most phobias like this are irrational, it doesn't matter if they don't make sense. For you the fear is real and Barb cares a lot more about your comfort than anything else. He wouldn't want you to be scared or anxious about it!

Yo, no worries about self indulgence. I have so many self indulgent fics it's not even funny, this is what we're here for. I think Barbatos would be flattered that you would want to match with him. I especially like that it's something from his demon form, which he isn't in all the time, so it's like you're matching with him in a subtle sort of way. As for me, I don't know if I'd want something that's exactly matching, but I like the idea of something that's like clearly about him, you know? Like wearing a ring with a teal stone or something like that. I initially thought about wearing a teal septum ring, but then I realized I would like to be able to see it without a mirror so a regular ring would probably be my choice. I do like matching pajamas, though, that sounds adorable!

Oh yes, I like him being possessive. He's like, only I get to see this picture of MC, so it must be home screen. We'd kinda match that, too because this man is already on both my lock screen and my home screen yes I have a problem.

#it's so funny because I haven't been this obsessed with a fictional character since Legolas #I don't know what this says about me #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me barbatos #mjoria #misc answers

[funkymbtifiction]

Hello Charity! I am ISTP and either a 9 or a 5.

Based on what you write below, I’d say a 9w1 so/sp. Too much concern for not upsetting people, remaining positive an upbeat (positive core, 9 pushing away from discomfort and avoiding being the wet blanket), and some super-ego self-criticism about being untrue to people in repressing your true feelings (1 wing). 5s are less emotionally attached to other people (non-attachment types; they are core ‘rejection’ types which means pushing away from others’ expectations; you are leaning into them with a core attachment strategy, even if you hate it).

But anyway....

Probably dumb question but how do I open up to someone? My friends always describe me as someone who is very stoic and has a cool head on their shoulders, but lately I noticed that the way they view me makes me feel sort of trapped. I am always expected to be the reasonable one and to never, god forbid, express any negative emotions other than mild irritation.

Let’s stop here. Inferior Fe tends to not read the room well, so... have you asked them or been informed of this, or is this a self-made observation that is keeping you trapped in your own mind and avoiding of expressing yourself? In other words, have they reacted with negativity to your own negativity, or are you assuming there is no room for your negativity within the relationship? Low Fe users can sometimes over-focus on keeping others happy as 9s, and not want to in any way rock the boat -- but they also don’t realize that higher feeling types are fairly accommodating of people’s various emotions and moods. Feelers in particular swim in that kind of an ocean -- so there’s room within most types for even their thinker friends to be upset, negative, complain, etc.

All emotions are permissible, by the way, and since you are not a robot, you are allowed to have and express them. One way to handle this is when others praise you for being calm and level headed, to say -- I am, yes, but I also have feelings that swell up within me and want to overflow. I get angry, I get sad, I get upset.

True friends are okay with your good days and bad days. If your friends are really your friends, it’s okay to be honest with them on an emotional level. As to how you start doing that -- take a breath and just... do it. Opening up means finding a moment and unfolding what’s on your mind or your heart. As an inferior Fe, you may struggle to know the right moment, so watch for it. Pick a time when you are being honest with each other, or it seems “right.” (Bad moments are when sharing your feelings would interrupt whatever is going on with them, or be disruptive in some way to the task at hand. Good moments are quiet talks and catch-ups about your day, week, life, etc.)

It’s very annoying because it’s like everyone else is allowed to be sad and get support for it, but hold me to that standard that I can’t get upset or act irrationally.

You are allowed. What’s more, you don’t HAVE to uphold their standard. You get to make your own choices about what to share and what to withhold, and how you react, and when you react, and you are allowed to get upset/be immature or irrational in certain kinds of situations. That’s called being human. Nobody is perfect and nobody gets it right. You can get sad and ask for support. You can vent, complain, or admit that life is hard, because it’s true.

And at the same time, I feel deep shame for desire to express my emotions because if I do that, I will sort of lose the only good thing I have - rationality, and that, somehow, it will turn out that I deceived people.

I suspect your friends like you for many reasons, and not JUST your cool head. But the problem is that you are seeing a momentary lapse as a make-it-or-break it kind of situation, where if just once you let down your guard and express true feelings, your life will be over, people will see you as totally irrational, etc. That is not true. Inferior Fe often thinks that their feelings are much more irrational and unstable and upsetting than they actually are to higher feeling types. They see a loss of control and stoicism as being “irrational” -- when your friends would probably just see it as a “bad day” or “legitimate feelings given the situation.” It’s important for you to separate what feels to you like “losing it” from how others are going to interpret it -- which is more than likely not a “big deal” in their mind, the way it feels like a big dealt to you. You are still going to BE logical. You will still BE rational, the other 23 hours a day. This won’t kick you off the cliff. It’s fine!

I never tried to “market” myself in any way, I’m usually just being myself, but people (who don’t know each other, so it’s not like it is only in eyes of one group) collectively branded me as “smart, cool and apathetic”, and if it turns out that I’m not like that, then I’m a fraud. Dumb part is that I don’t even consider myself these things. With every compliment I get on being level-headed, I feel more and more that I should keep up with what people think of me. And also, I’m afraid that after I finally show someone that weak side of me, I will be left behind because I will become a disappointment. Thanks.

No, people will just think of you as human. And since you are one, that’s not a bad thing at all. I do understand the attachment need to mold yourself into what others want from you ... but feelings are going to happen whether you admit to them or not, if you don’t make space for them in your life and learn to process, admit to, and deal with them, they will bubble up and cause real problems. You can still be level-headed and get upset. One doesn’t eradicate the other.

#question #istp #mbti #enneagram #enneagram 9

[childofaura]

I apologize for sending you an ask regarding Byleth's VA and it’s sort of insensitive of me for doing that so to make it up….

What are your thoughts on Mela Lee aka the one and only VA for Tiki?

No worries, there was nothing insensitive about that ask! Honestly I know I’ve got an irrational dislike of Byleth, I just didn’t want to be unfair to both Aguilar and Tirado. Especially since I don’t watch much dub stuff anymore so I wouldn’t be able to even gauge their outside stuff (even though we strictly review the FEH work only). But your ask wasn’t rude at all.

I really like Mela Lee! She’s also the new voice for Jade in Mortal Kombat, which I think she was a great pick (Now if only they didn’t shoehorn in that dumb Kotal Kahn romance… and also if only her living costumes were as good as her Revenant costume because whoever decided to go with brown fabric on a brown-skinned character, I am going to sit their ass down and drill in the importance of good costume color scheme.). I’m also fond of Linda Lee in MK9 for giving Jade the perfect balance of sass, concern for Kitana, and also confident/flirty energy, but Mela was a fantastic casting as well for the stern air she gives Jade in certain moments. And I’ll always love her “By the Gods, no” response to Johnny’s pass at her.

So Mela plays Tiki (child and adult), and Naga. I’m actually kind of surprised that she doesn’t play Nagi since Nagi’s supposed to be a reincarnation of Naga.

Performance-wise, Mela is a lot of fun to listen to. It’s funny because her voice isn’t exactly young, per-say, but somehow for baby Tiki the way she captures the childlike energy kind of overrides any disbelief you might have with the voice. Baby Tiki is so innocent and sweet, and her lines are adorable to listen to. I still think Legendary baby Tiki has the best baby Tiki art. Now adult Tiki is an absolute gear-shift, and while the child-like tone is gone, there’s now an air of maturity and a whisper of the days long since passed. But there’s still a bit of silliness in her lines or demeanor, like her Brave alt about falling asleep. And finally, Naga. Adult Tiki might be mature, but Naga is majestic, ethereal, and noble in her voice. In Awakening and in her base Mythic form, she has an air of distance, but we were blessed last year to get a Halloween alt for her, and now we get to see a side of her that’s playful and loving towards humanity in a more personal way. Honestly, I wonder if Mela has ever voiced any audiobooks for children, she certainly has the voice for it. Also gotta say I feel like she’s super un-utilized for Western cartoons and movies, I can see she’s done some VA work for TV but I’d be casting her as ALL the princesses/queens if it were up to me.

I think she was a perfect fit for both versions of Tiki and Naga, no doubt about it. With a performance like that, you’d be hard-pressed to find someone who can outperform those lines for Tiki and Naga.

Ok so range… I’d have to say not really, no. But that’s not always a bad thing, and definitely not in Mela’s case! There’s some actors that just have that specific voice that casting directors are looking for, and Mela just has a really good specific voice for that. So maybe there’s not much range, but that’s more on Mela being a certain type of character most of the time.

So overall, Mela would sit at an 8/10 all things considered with the range, but personally to me she’s a 10/10 with just how great her performance is. Let’s hope we somehow get another Naga alt in the future, and let’s keep it up with the Tiki alts!

#Fire Emblem Heroes #FEH #ask game #Mela Lee #Also hopefully with MK “1” coming out Mela will be playing Jade again #We’ll have to wait and see

[kadoodles-on-ao3]

Hey there!! Thank you for the kind ask (this is Zanthe's "Main" blog) I didn't want to reply to it directly because i'd like to keep it in my inbox to treasure, but I wanted to say thank you. It truly means a lot!

We are 🤝 over rarepairs in this tiny little fandom, though I do admit I love the anonymity nowadays! I've been here for years and it's very comfortable and nice being an older, more obscure artist lol.

I do recommend at the very least, sitting down and writing down your amv ideas. There are many i've never drawn, but i have a ton written down to chip away at the day I have the energy to, and it's very good to keep those ideas with you, i hope you're able to realize them one day, I'd love to see them!

Also, I'm glad my checklist can be of help!! If you're curious, it took about 4 days to make it, in which i was completely hyperfixated on it!spreadsheets my beloved. Good luck on your project!! If you'd ever like to chat, feel free to send a message ^w^ have a lovely day

Oh!! Of course, I'm glad it made you happy! To hear you liked it so much you want to preserve it is really touching and made me smile, thank you! :>

(I hope it's alright that I'm replying to your ask directly, if not let me know and I'll take this down and copy-paste what I said below to you in a DM if you'd like!)

Haha it's really true that rarepair fans are like their own group that crosses fandoms and/or specific ships, a little subculture inside a subculture of a subculture :)

I definitely can't blame you for not wanting a lot of attention since I feel the same way, I'd be terrified to be a big name haha.

Oh I really appreciate the advice! The fact that you think my ideas are worth preserving is very kind of you haha :) I'm very much the type who gets random inspiration at 3 AM or while eating dinner, and would otherwise forget my epiphanies if I didn't write them down. So ever since I was a kid I made a habit of it! Although back then I used pencil and paper haha, but now I have a 22-page-long semi-organized google doc. The AMV outlines are in there somewhere! Knowing there's even one person out there who wants to see something I've made or plan to make is an incredible feeling, thank you so much ;v;

Anyway, how did you learn to animate and make AMVs? And what drawing software do you use? If you don't mind me asking of course!

Oh thank you again for that checklist!! Wow 4 days seems like nothing compared to how extensive it is, that's amazing! I've been working on my own Xenoblade excel sheet project for a long time now, and it took me months and months to get that near completion. But if you're much better at organizing/planning than I am it saves a ton of time, I went through like 3 major restructurings of stuff that took days to finish... only to redo everything like a week later haha

And you're also very kind to read my silly tags and wish me luck on my project!! (It's a different one from before haha, that one is a comprehensive list of when all the party members' and bosses' voice lines play and under what circumstances. I'll be making it public on the upcoming anniversary!) For this other one, it's a challenge run of XC1 of sorts! But I have a dumb irrational fear that if I go into detail about what it is, someone else will swoop in before I get a chance to do it myself and take the world-first credit of it hahaha. But one day I will do it, I really want to, and your checklist will be immensely super helpful in planning my route and keeping track of everything, so thank you again! And thank you again (again) for this wonderful message, it really brightened my whole day! :))

#ask #i am once again nervous at intimidating the poor people who send me asks by typing a novel in response #but at the same time unable to stop myself lol #every time i get an ask it makes my day though!! #especially one as long and as kind as this one!! and from someone whose art i've loved for so much time as well!! :)

[schneizel]

the story of how I became a fujoshi

a funny story but it's personal at the end of the day!

It all began in summer ... Kidding, I have no idea what season it was. But this person was but browsing the Internet innocently when she started seeing that word floating around her favorite forums, boards and general "otaku" communities on the web: "yaoi". Actually, "shounen ai" too.

(Thunder would strike now, totally.)

So at first obviously I had no idea what that was. I was very young - not even reached puberty yet - but I was a bit younger than my fandom friends at that time, so they were kinda "eeeerrm" about explaining that to me, but as I was a well-known conoisseur of yuri (because my nickname was Michiru Kaioh for quite some time and even though I liked her for other reasons, of course by then I knew ... way more than a 8yo should about yuri) they chose to explain anyway. But of course... well, yaoi in general was quite raunchy when compared to yuri so they had to tell me that too and I was kinda "ew" at first. I used to read yuri manga but that was basically, um, shoujo with two girls really (which made it LESS problematic than most popular 90s shoujo where the boy would almost always be a rapist or an asshole in some way...) so of course I was kinda "thanks but no" about yaoi in general also because yaoi fangirls were rabid and all that (remember yaoi paddles?!) so anyway for some time... I was like "yaoi? Oh yes, I know. No, I don't like. No I'm not homophobic I just don't like it lol" about it honestly. Even though my best friends at that time liked it I was quite "ew" and "that's ok man to each their own" .

That's how it all began. My first anime fandom (as in series I religiously followed weekly episode releases) was Ouran Host Club and even though it was well a shoujo parody anime (and I was into it for the parody as I was Haruhi To A T and didn't get along with rabid fangirls) it was a very smart one that made me rethink my irrational hatred of rabid fangirls a bit and also some other things. And among these, well... Basically my best boy (that was Kyouya Ootori yes) had great scenes with the protagonist just like everyone else in that reverse harem, and I shipped them loads, but he ... was 100% driven by his relationship with dumb best guy friend Tamaki I guess. It definitely seemed to me more like a love triangle. The more I saw into it, the more I got into the triangle and from there I also began reading "TamaKyo" (actually, KyoTama was my fav lol) fanfic and stuff because I couldn't get enough of my husbando lol. Anyway, from there I learned more about all of it - uke, seme, erodoujin, mpreg - wait but no really but I wasn't entirely sold on "liking BL" yet though my best friend reeeeeally wanted me to just indulge in BL too lol. At some point I watched Princess Princess which was similarly to Ouran a shoujo parody (but in this case of BL manga and its tropes) and was super into it, but the author was also a prolific BL author under another penname so there was a gay ship/couple between the main characters that of course was better than every other ship in that series. But I STILL wasn't entirely sold. Come on! Don't care for guys fucking (actually, I was so Haruhi To A T I didn't really care for anybody fucking - took me a while to realize I was Actually Asexual really ; ; ;) nor am I a guy so why should I actively seek M/M stuff?

That's when, well, It happened. By "it" I mean she set a trap for me. (... This is such a good story I tell people to this day, sorry @ friend. ) She sent me an episode of Gravitation on Messenger saying I had to watch it and I was like "yeah yeah ..." because I couldn't refuse it anymore or maybe it was a dare or something. I downloaded it so she'd be satisfied and had it on my PC thinking "well, let's just let it rot..." and then she asked to come over on the weekend and to put it plainly she robbed me of my mouse and keyboard and played it on my PC. Here I am screaming internally because I'm 12 and my parents are around and she's like "watch it. Just watch it." and I didn't want them to realize I was making a fuss over it so I just watched it. I was very annoyed at first really, but by the end of the episode I was... kind of glad Shuichi didn't really look like a guy anyway and thought it wasn't THAT bad just kinda lame. Anyway, nobody got hurt (maybe?) and then she went home and begged me on Messenger to watch more of it. I think I gave it a try for whatever reason and before I knew it I had fallen in love .......... with Ryuichi Sakuma ; ; ; ; ;

COME ON RYUICHI IS AMAZING. Easily on my top anime guys to this day. He is pretty, talented, famous, slightly batshit has a split personality and one is cool and the other is cute and funny I meannnnnndfbndn !!! Also I hated Yuki but I was RyuShu trash and that never really changed. Murakami Maki was dumb for not exploring the ship better. Anyway, this is the story of how my fandom bff and Kyouya Ootori and Taishi Zaou and Ryuichi Sakuma turned me into a BL fan. From there I watched other friends' recs like GetBackers (fell in love! ALSO, KAZUKI ..........) and it all went downhill from there. By 2007 I was like "but there are bishounen ... and we SHIP" and that's kinda how it goes to this day lol. So after that I lost all of my pride and went on Gaia to ask for recommendations of "anime with great slash ships", discovered Code Geass ... and that's where I'm now I guess.

Fun story.

#blogging

[dreaminginpastels]

hi lovely!! thank you so much for sending this in, and sorry for the delay in answering (was finishing a dumb assignment) 🥰

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19. do you have a best friend? how long have you been friends?

I’m actually really lucky, I’d consider my sister to be my bestest friend and I’ve known her for as long as she’s been alive haha, but I have two really wonderful in-person best friends and some lovely online friends I’ve made too that I’m really thankful for. for my in-person best friends, I’ve known them for two and a half years for the first, and 9 months for the second 🥰

20. what/who do you miss?

I miss a lot of things haha, some deep and some shallow. 

for the deeper ones, I’d say family members that have passed away, friends that I’ve lost, and most of all, my childhood. that was a really wonderful time in my life. 

for the shallower, I used to have really lovely thick hair, but now it’s thinned out. also kinda miss having really beautiful natural blonde streaks all through my hair. and I miss living near the beach, my childhood house was so beautiful and I miss it everyday. 

21. how was your day today?

It was actually really nice! had some lovely chats with friends, got an assignment done, laughed so hard I couldn’t breathe, and am about to go to a friend’s house to eat pizza, cuddle her cat, and talk about a play I’m directing later this year!! 

22. how much sleep did you get last night?

I can tell you exactly thanks to my health app, I got 5 hours and 13 minutes last night, which is actually a lot less than I’ve gotten lately. I’ve been so good, I think my weekly average is 7 hours? so pretty happy with that! never really liked sleeping until I have to get up haha

23. do you believe in aliens?

I honestly have zero thoughts about this. I’ve been asked a few times and people are so confused that I don’t have an opinion but like, I don’t know, it doesn’t feel relevant to me? I hope we’re not alone, though, big star trek fan so that would be so cool. I feel like an alien a lot 😅

24. when was the last time you cried? why?

hahahaha literally a couple of hours ago because of my assignment and the stress that I wasn’t going to get it done. turns out it was completely irrational and I smashed it in an hour or so 🙃

but I’m actually really grateful for tears, I’ve found it super hard in the past to access tears even when I feel deep grief, so really excited that they’re coming a bit more naturally now.

25. what’s your favourite decade?

hmmm favourite decade that I’ve been alive? it’s a tough combination between probably the early 2000′s and... the 2020′s, ironically 😅

the first because my childhood is a really cherished time for me (got a pinterest board based on it and everything), and the 2020′s is where I’ve really felt like I’ve gotten to know myself, and I’m starting to like who that is. 

26. what are some seemingly childish things you like?

oh god, so many! my favourite movies are pretty much all animated, I absolutely LOVE the original barbie films, I like playing nostalgic games a lot, I love colouring in (but only if it’s super easy), and just the other day I bought gold scrunchies to look feel like a fairy character from my childhood. 

I’d say I’m really in touch with the things that I used to love as a kid. I also describe my dress sense as “toddler chic” so that probably tells you enough haha

27. what’s your favourite book? or just one you’ve read a few times?

I’m a massive book nerd and always have been so this is a really tough question. my favourite standalone book from my childhood is “the lost island of tamarind” by nadia aguiar, and my favourite standalone books as an adult are “the night circus” by erin morgenstern, and “the charm offensive” by alison cochrun

aaaand also “loveless” by alice oseman (but tough because it hits home hard because I’m a sex-repulsed demi), and the entire “heartstopper” series 💌

28. how are you, really?

thanks for asking this, people really don’t do this enough!

I’m getting better every day. really starting to feel like I like who I am, and I’m finally starting to attract the people around me that make me feel loved, accepted, and supported. there are still really big struggles and I’m nowhere near loving myself, but I’m trying to be as compassionate as possible and let myself enjoy love as it comes to me, because even though for ages I didn’t think so - I do deserve it. 

#lovely mutuals 🥰 #daniella answers asks #⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ lexi ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆

[theskyexists]

Oof. At least now I know that actual professional DND players (cr) can also get low energy unfocused bleed type sessions - and it's not pretty either.

But goddammit. All the viewers who hate on Marisha. I recognise the shape of that hatred....it's irrational, it's instinctive, it's automatic...it's disgust. It's a fascinating response, it's also deeply....irritating, and baffling, and infuriating. It inherently flows from some kind of double standard. Marisha has to better than everyone else, she can't be cringe, not one second. Her character cannot be played as abrasive or flawed (even though I find it often brilliantly done, and always clearly deliberately done.) Marisha carries SO MANY SCENES, improves SO MANY CHARACTERS AROUND HER. Out of all the roleplayers at the table only Laura does better in that sense.

But I understand the shape of that hatred, because I felt the beginnings of that for Taliesin when he was playing Molly. Because quite clearly he could not manage to play the character. I did not hate him, because I chose to see that that is a ridiculous idiotic and caveman response. I cringed - by god did I cringe, (the cringe is a mirror of your worst social fears is it not) but I did not accuse him of being a brainless dumb bitch for always failing at everything in-game.

Back to the hatred for Marisha. It cannot be anything but misogyny. But what does that mean. Why does she push people's buttons? I cannot relate at all, because I think Beau's generally the most sensible person in the room when it comes to strategy or tactics, and her communication goofs are generally for character or comedy sake. What is it that makes people hallucinate that she's super dumb and self-righteous. That's it. They don't believe she has a right to exist this way, and there's always this conflation between Beau and Marisha. Like Beau should have know better because Marisha should have know better and because Beau didn't, she's dumb and so Marisha's dumb. If something goes wrong, it's not just a game, a play, a scene, it's a crime. But thing is, what do these people fear in Beau and Marisha? The cringe getting stuck and exploding and turning into sheer hatred must be because of what she represents. Also a kind of failure. She's cant be a woman like this and a failure, she doesn't deserve to exist as she does (bold, abrasive) if she's a failure. She should pay for her daring to be as she is with being loveable, and when she isn't.... To me, Beau is deeply loveable. I wonder what these people see or feel when she makes hilarious jokes or does really cool insane monk shit and saves everybody, or facilitates incredible roleplay. Did they enjoy the whole thing with Keg? Which was both hilarious and quite sweet? Do they turn on her only when she doesn't quite hit every beat right, or is nothing she does quite as it should for them?

#that magic tower attempt ....hm #my stuff #personal #vidi #cr #i imagine much better treatises on this treeatment must have been written

[hottakesbyz]

fears

I'm not someone that has irrational fears or many rational ones even. Though there is one that always gets me on edge and it's death. I've always had a weird "relationship" with death. I can easily guess it started after my grandfather passed away. I was 12-13 years old? If I remember correctly. Him passing away broke me to pieces. I still remember the morning my dad woke me up and shared the news. I took it hard, maybe a little too hard, but I was a kid and had never experienced someone I love passing away. It was an odd concept. This activated a weird down spiral with my mental health which resulted in suicidal tendencies years later. (Not only that being the reasoning for this ofc.) My fucked up brain didn't calm down for like my whole teenage years, which is typical, you're a kid and do dumb shit anyways, so it's unlikely. Only when I was about 17(?) I started to realise what a useless idiot I was and got my shit together. And now we are here. I'm 23 years old and fucking terrified of death. Not so much as other's death... but my own passing. The pure concept of not being able to be is just way too hard for me to grasp at. When you die, you're just done for. There's nothing else. You die and that's it. Even though I don't spend my life curing cancer or finding new galaxies, I value my life and my silly little fucking hobbies way too much to just let them go. (bro i'm ranking up at overwatch rn, can't let that shit go) I'm content with a small job that's enough for me to get food on the table and buy a dumb game once in a while. And if possible, I'd like to do that forever. I've shared few times how I'd like to be immortal and I know many disagree with this ideology, saying what about your loved ones that you leave behind. True, that will fucking hurt, but still I'd rather not lose my own life. Maybe it comes down to being selfish (which I know I am)... but I truly do not want to die. Then there's also the people who ask if you believe in anything and no, I do not and most likely never will. The concept that some bible that was written by man and translated by many others says that some kid told you to do this and this and never to that is just pure comedy to me. My family never really even has been religious, which I'm super glad for. That shit is cult like if you take it too far. But then again... if I get to old age and lose my shit or my knees crack under pressure, just dig the hole ready for me. I'd rather face my fear than lose my value of life. Life needs a good balance and if it tips off the scale, I don't care for it anymore. 14.07.2022 eight post. -Z

#death #fears #death mention #suicide mention #text #blog post #ramblings #this is all over the place #but its late #im going to sleep

[sweetlywriting]

Howdy do~! I would like to request a headcannon in which the Dorm Leaders fall for a fem! s/o who is like a Disney princess: sweet, kind, gentle and loving. Super fluff, please! Thanks! She/her pronouns, please!

Scenario-With a Disney princess s/o~

Includes-Leona Kingscholar, Malleus Draconia, Azul Ashengrotto, Riddle Rosehearts, Vil Schoenheit, Idia Shroud, Kalim Al Asim

A/N-I love this idea <3

Leona Kingscholar-

Every time you prance up to him and put flowers in your hair he wants to scream

But still he respects ladies so he just grits his teeth

Eventually gritting his teeth turns into hiding smiles

He’s normally used to people who put themselves first and do what benefits them, and the way you act is completely different

As much as he thought it was dumb to be so loving, wanting nothing in return is honest, and loving, he feels so free around you

He doesn’t want to admit that though

As much as he likes to tease or sneer at you he’d kill anyone else who’d do the same to you

Gets flustered whenever you scold him for spelldrive wounds and then gently wrap them with precision-makes him feel cared for

Constantly poking fun at you with nicknames, “Aw you care that much sweetheart?” but when you confidently agree he’s the one with a red face

Malleus Draconia-

He’s touched. Not many offer him kindness, and honestly he didn’t think you were being earnest until you stayed with him during the opening ceremony

Why would you give up something so important for . . . him?

As a prince he notices how much you princess you act, it reminds him of his home, and how he was also trained to be a good prince and ruler

Genuinely thinks you are a princess, and is confused when you’re not actually one

Oh well it’s okay, you can just be his queen instead

Kisses your hand, very gentleman like

People get confused when they see you together, it’s almost as if you’re beauty and he’s the beast

Azul Ashengrotto-

He’s not used to kindness, why would you be so nice for nothing in return?

It confuses him and scares even more. But when he sees you helping someone with their books, or giving study tips for nothing, he can’t fight the blush on his face

It’s irrational and he hates that but he simply can’t hate you

You have so much power over him and the only thing you use it for is helping others

Loves you buying things he’d think you’ll like, flowers, ribbons, chocolate, dresses you’re a princess but he treats you like a queen

A little protective, he knows that many would take advantage of your loveliness, and a more selfish insecure part of himself is afraid you’ll find someone better.

Riddle Rosehearts-

Your Disney princess attitude doesn’t confuse him like the others, in fact it helps him calm down quite a bit when he’s angry with someone

He becomes noticeably laxer with you around, but denies it vehemently

He cares rules and quite enjoys your elegance and grace. Also you follow most of the rules? Very grateful for that

Tea parties. 24/7, so many tea parties.

Will melt if you make him strawberry tart. Enjoys baking with you a lot and sometimes he’ll invite Trey too

Though sometimes he thinks it's silly, he really loves your princess personality

Vil Schoenheit-

He’s a bit intimidated by your grace and kindness, it’s everything he wants to be

So expect some gossip and mean comments at first

But you never seem bothered? Your sweet nature astounds him and he can’t help but start to like it

He adores picking out dresses for you or just helping you get ready

You both look like royalty

Power couple

Idia Shroud-

He’s shy. It feels as though you’re too good to be true

He’s never thought of himself as much of a perfect prince so he’s confused as why you care about him

Nevertheless he’s found you and he’s not going to let you go. Coming from royalty he is familiar with princess like personality, and thinks it’s quite endearing

He takes interest in the things you like, and his family is so pleased that your princess-like traits are rubbing off on him

He’s just happy to spend time together.

Kalim Al Asim-

You both compliment each other beautifully, both kind souls, it’s not a surprise to anyone about how much you adore each other

He treats you like a princess whether you are or not

Constantly buying you pretty dresses from his home, rich on color and full with gold

Adores your feminine nature. Literally calls you princess, it was a silly nickname at first but it reminds him of you, and now it’s his favorite word!

#disney twisted wonderland #fanfic #x reader #fluff #fanfiction #leona kingscholar #vil #vil schoenheit #azul ashengrotto #azul x reader #kalim x reader #twst kalim #idia x reader #idia shroud #vil shoenheit x reader #vil x reader #riddle rosehearts x reader #riddle rosehearts #riddle x reader #azul #leona kingscholar x reader #leona x reader #princess #female reader #Expect a prince version sometime soon :D

[ceilingfan5]

hi bestie have you thought any more about superhero lads? i thirst for more

i honestly don't know if i ever posted this? ive just spent 10 minutes searching different things on my blog, but we all know how good tumblr's search feature is. so if this is a rerun. enjoy it again.

yes i have been thinking deeply of my villain boys but i want to make it a Proper Fic and it would be Long and Multichaptered and Horny. is there still a market for this? i have many thoughts.

Taako wakes up disoriented, mask still on his face, and panics for a second--has he finally gotten his dumb ass caught??--before he realizes where he is. He’s at the safehouse with his Reaper, their limbs still tangled. His skin is bizarrely cool against Taako’s overheated body, and it’s grounding, in a funny way that isn’t funny at all. It’s a mess he’s gotten himself into, and deep, and there’s no sight of the sun anymore. All he has is Kravitz.

The weird feelings from last night come back in full force, and following that nauseating journey, thunder cracks again overhead, loud and nasty and world-rending, and Taako’s heart stops. He registers, belatedly, the hammering of torrential rain on this shitty little house’s shitty little roof, the storm sounding so much closer than it would if Taako was home in his apartment. If he was home, he’d turn his music up real loud (fuck the neighbors) and hide in the bathtub until the stupid thing was over.

But he’s here.

And so is his Reaper.

Kravitz stirs in a strange way at the noise and Taako’s movement, going from full unconsciousness to eyes wide open, hand reaching for a weapon, and it makes Taako feel some type of way knowing that he, too, has had to become a light sleeper to keep his stupid ass alive in dangerous situations. The more he realizes they have in common, the sicker he feels. He’s inventing a new fucking disease. Name it after him. Should it be Flux, or Taako? Does he want to be unmasked after death? Who fucking cares about his secret identity? There’s one person on the planet, and he’s got Taako in his arms already.

Fuck, he’s molten-core-of-the-planet deep in this mess.

“Flux,” Kravitz whispers, voice rough and sexy, for sleep reasons and also last night reasons. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, my man, nothing.” Maybe if he lies it’ll come true? Ah, nope, that’s not his super power, even if it is close. “Just a storm. You can keep snoozing.”

“Your heart rate is up.”

“Fuck you.”

Kravitz raises an eyebrow, which is a little hard to tell with his mask still on too (it’s not comfortable in a physical way, but it’s been easier to slowly let this become something entirely new when they don’t have to look at each other’s full bare naked faces), but Taako’s got practice reading him now, and he flushes hard at the implication there.

“It’s just a storm! It’s nothing! It- It’s nothing. I could leave if I wanted to. It’s fine.”

“Right.” Kravitz still looks skeptical, but he lets the shadows slip back from the shape of the weapon he’d been forming. Can’t sword a tornado. Even if you’re a relentless badass with a bod that won’t quit and a mouth like a fallen angel discovering Hell 2. “You don’t have to tell me.”

“You’re right, I don’t.” Taako fully sits up now, folding his arms and turning away, even though he wants to be back in those strong arms. Thunder claps again, and he jumps, damn it. Usually he can mask this better. Becoming vulnerable with his nemesis has made him soft and weak and...far too happy to last. “Don’t you say a fucking word, Reaper.”

Kravitz nods, and yawns, and sits up too. He pulls Taako closer with those terrible, strong, evil, incredible hands of his, and Taako glares, but accepts the embrace, because at least it didn’t come with some bullshit take on his weakenesses and the childishness of his fears and stupid reassurances he doesn’t need because he knows it’s fucking irrational, damn it, but every time, every single time that thunder bowls the primordial soup, it rattles Taako’s bones like a cartoon in a Halloween candy commercial.

Kravitz smells good. Taako doesn’t know how he’s let that smell become so familiar and comforting, but it is, and he accepts it for now, because it’s keeping him from completely shivering himself apart like a neurotic purse dog.

And Kravitz doesn’t say anything, because he knows when to be a brat and when to be serious, and maybe he’s not so good at being a civilian yet, and for sure, he’s no hero, but two villains like them almost sort of deserve each other, if you think about it. Taako sure won’t, but he can’t stop anybody else from doing it. He doesn’t know what he’s thinking, or if he’s even thinking at all. But something deep within him, something stupid and delicate and vulnerable and small, that something feels those arms around him and thinks safe.

He’s not a bathtub, but he’ll do.

#fan5fics #taakitz #taakitz fic #taz #tazb #taz balance #the adventure zone #the adventure zone balance #honestly what are your thoughts. should i go all in on this train. it's already off the tracks...