#(which ok isn't a lot but still)

[elk-scribe]

you know what since I was talking about the rain world ending and i rambled a little about the karma system and how its all fake.

Big spoilers ahead and whatever I will be talking thoroughly abt the game lore (excluding downpour i don't consider it canon).

Karma in rain world isn't real and we've all been tricked to think it matters at all.

Here's a list of things we should consider regarding the information about karma.

We start on the lowest karma, and as slugcat rests it goes up until it caps at 5. Each of these karma levels represent the basic animal urges. Violence, lust, companionship, gluttony, survival.

The ancients are the ones that considered shedding the base natural urges of an animal necessary for ascension.

The ancients are also the ones that proposed the idea of ascension, and declared that the cycle of life, death, and rebirth is so awful that no creature would want to be a part of it.

(light blue pearl, outskirts)

Now, a lot of this game is about religion- and in the case of the ancients it touches upon the idea of the opressiveness of religion and exploitation therein. Anytime I think about how the ancients left behind the iterators to "solve the problem" for the rest of the creatures, it makes me think of how missionaries go to places to try and "save" the people there.

The ancients' religion is a manipulative cult. First, they convince (almost) all of their people that life is awful. Then, they continue with proposing the idea of solving that problem- no longer living. But there's a catch! You have to die correctly. You have to EARN this "blissful" release from the horrible fact of living. Either by rigorous torture (living off of tea and starving yourself) or by paying money.

(Bright red pearl, farm arrays)

Then, they make it a societal norm- an HONOUR to die in the way They Think Is Correct. But you HAVE to do everything they say to shed yourself of those nasty animal urges and be ready for ASCENSION. And they put a price on it.

But we have to remember, not only did they create a religion that convinced them all that living is horrible...

They destroyed the entire ecosystem that used to be there and replaced it with ruins or whatever managed to descend from purposed organisms.

The ancients were able to alter cells of creatures- the ability to do such a thing at all is described here.

(Gold pearl, Chimney Canopy)

So who is to say that they didn't alter the cells of their own people? That they didn't create all purposed organisms with that idea of karma inside of them? The gates respond to the slugcat, it reads something about its karma. Its a machine reading something within its genetic data. The guardians respond to creatures with karma- and in fact are hostile to anything NOT at karma 10.

But the guardians were made by the ancients to protect their temples. To prevent anyone "unworthy" from going down.

The iterators are forbidden from altering their own karma- how is that something you can do if its not an actual, physical trait somewhere within them? Somewhere within their genetic code that the ancients tampered with?

But most notably-

Cheesing your way past the guardians using flashbangs and throwboosts is an intended feature of the game, and you can go down and into the sea and ascend with no issue. If karma truly mattered for ascension, then why can we ascend without the approval of the guardians?

Slugcats are descendants of purposed organisms, they have this "karma" meter wired into their bodies.

So anyway karma isn't real and the ancients forced a mass suicide of their own kind as Im sure whoever benefitted from exploiting their own citizens had been long gone, leaving behind nations of people desperate to leave the world behind as they have been convinced its the only thing to save them from the horrors of living.

#There's still a lot of questions to be figured out regarding what the hell echoes are #the whole ending sequence #what even are the worms #etc etc. Which im still mulling about but man if there's one thing I am confident about its that karma isn't real. #six grains of gravel is a fucking liar btw #we found a way my ass you're an echo buddy #you didnt find shit #not art #rain world #rw tag #im having big lore thoughts ok leave me alone

[thedreadvampy]

The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy. #anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is. #but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen. #I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still. #then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage? #and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting. #like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

[todayisafridaynight]

do u think mines feelings are reciprocated? idk from how they handled mine and daigos relationship in y3 it felt as if they were hinting that they had some under the radar relationship going on or smtging

im not sure really. i do think daigo loved mine though, at the very least cherished him immensely.

#snap chats #hang on im rambling about rggo for the ninety millionth time #cause i was gonna initially say 'i dont think his feelings were as intense as mine's but he did love him' #but then i remember daigo shilled out a billion and got shot Day Five into knowing the dude #that could just be daigo's character and he's just. Ride Or Die like that for ANYONE close to him #he was happy to give shinada all the money he lost even though the two were mostly just schoolmates #which is. The Funniest thing to me still but anyway #but isn't mine like that too? the circumstances are different of course though .. #theres the angle that its as exactly daigo says: the tojo are his family and he wants to protect them #but then that bar fuckery ...... everything homosexual happens at that bar i stg #im crying now cause first theres the obvious You Single line #but then the bartender fuckin snitchin on daigo to mine bein all #'oh yeah no daigo talks about you a lot and says youre one of the most reliable guys in the tojo #and he's afraid you're not being yourself around him and he hopes your relationship with money is ok' LKE YOU SNITCH #i still think of daigo calling mine 'stupid' at the end of that story though. lke girl .... girl i know why yu sayin that ... #my sons pissed mine threw himself away thinkin he wasnt worthy to daigo when it was the exact opposite .. #im gonnna thrw up now bye

[rose-lalondde]

the difference between the tumblr and twitter reactions to the boruto time skip designs has been so funny omg

#boruto #naruto #moon posts #im not gonna lie to yall i think the kids are serving DOWWWWWWNNN #like they kinda ate im sorry #there are def very fair critiques like why is sarada wearing louboutins in what looks like a sleeveless dress but is actually a romper #i don't even know a thing about sumire but why does she still look like she's going to school #i actually rly like inojins fuckass bob his whole look is very gender to me actually #chocho looks stunning too but i wish they had went for a crop top instead of a sports bra #i also just remembered inojin isn't wearing a crop top but thats ok b/c he's his own person but he would've slayed that crop top hoodie #kawaki looks sick as always #boruto i actually have no notes for like sasuke passed down looking cunty no matter what as a lesson too #did yall see his sandals yeah he ate that #shikadai got a bigger jacket which i love b/c i think jackets make everything better #i haven't rly seen mitsuki that much but i think he needs to fire his barber #himiwari looks sooooooooooo cute !!!!! my daughter is a teenager now waaaaahhhgg #ive seen a few posts comparing her to hinata which ofc they look similar but i have something to say #she reminds me of naruto a Lot and kushina too #ok thats a separate thing tho #moon tags

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Alright tumblr it's been real but I gotta take a break for my own sake, which knowing me could mean for 2 days or 2 months. In any case I'll still be checking tumblr just hopefully a lot less- as per usual don't be shy to @ me if you wanna make sure I see something, and my ask box is always open! And do take care all of you 💜

#idk why I always feel the need to notify people when I'm gonna be away lol I guess I don't want anyone to think I'm ignoring them #but anyways yeah no way I'll be able to keep myself away from tumblr completely but I've been overwhelming myself a lot #once again at a point where fandom is sort of getting in the way of me actually being able to enjoy the podcast too #which isn't anybody's fault just y'know how it is. #which is also why I probably won't be in certain discord servers very much either at least for a bit #this and well socially I often find myself a bit overextended and that can be overwhelming at times #but friendos don't be shy about DMs! #Oh! Clip requests still open btw. Nobody's sent any in haha but for the record they're still open. #ok ok that's it that's it lol seriously though take care folks <3

[spectrearia]

hhh found some photos of old disney trips from several years back and it just made me really sad that the parks are nothing like what they were back then anymore. i still feel like it was probably best in the 90s and early 2000s (from what i've seen in videos documenting that time frame, and from the few trips my fam went on as well), but i ended up visiting more often in the 2010s and i still really enjoyed it;;

i miss walking around and just drinking in the atmosphere and theming honestly. sucks that its a mess now and you're paying so dang much for lackluster quality and there's no room for spontaneous flexibility within your visit because of the stupid genie+ app and insane wait times for Everything. the fact that there's no real "off season" anymore because it's Always Busy is a terrible reality as well. *sigh*

#nothing compares to the atmosphere of the disney parks and thats what makes it so sad that it's changed a lot #i've also heard that cleanliness has degraded a lot as well #which isn't . good. #never been big on most universal IPs #so that park never interested me cuz i have no attachment to anything offered within it #but i have been a few times since i stopped going to disney and i did enjoy it; mostly just the islands of adventure #but even still i do miss wandering around epcot and animal kingdom the most :'c #universal doesn't really come close to that but hopefully the new epic universe will prove to be better than where disney's at now #anyway . i just got hit with a wave of nostalgia for a time that can't ever be replicated again i guess #i'm glad i could enjoy those trips while i could tho #spectre says #(not letting anyone reblog this because i dont want to accidentally start any Discourse lol) #OK WAIT CORRECTION. #universal's portofino hotel is absolutely GORGEOUS and i genuinely loved it so so much #and volcano bay was really fun and immersive too; mega props to them for that one #so universal does have some offerings that i really liked!!! #but as a whole i just like some of the theming of the disney parks better; mostly the stuff that doesn't rely on existing IP

[doctorweebmd]

coming out of my baldurs gate 3 delirium (aka i am working a night shift and can't physically play it. at work.) to say that horikoshi. horikoshi when i GET YOU. you are NOT leaving izuku with no quirk and no arms. i am in your walls

#bnha spoilers #also. more evidence that horikoshi read zero-sum game #like come on the twins thing the izuku losing his quirk thing the losing his arm thing the shiggy getting decay from afo thing #TELL ME THE TRUTH HORIKOSHI. DID YOU READ MY FANFIC. #i'm joking of course. he's just done a really good job of foreshadowing through the series. its a marker of an amazing author #and i know that izuku probably won't lose both his arms and his quirk. i fully expect it to be a happy ending in some way shape or form #this is a sixteen year old boy who sacrificed EVERYTHING. more than he ever had to give #and he had less than a year. LESS THAN A YEAR. #sorry i'm already crying thinking about the scene of him holding shigaraki's hand even though it will decay him........ #izuku who knows better than ANYONE what shigaraki's power can do.... reaching out to him. caring more about others than about himself. #he's just. he's so good. he's SO GOOD. he deserves the world #tbh i feel like eri HAS to be involved at this point. she's the deus ex machina in all this #that or overhaul #both of their abilities can at least physically restructure izuku's body #it would actually be a very interesting redemption point for overhaul....... #i mean WHY ELSE RESCUE HIM. and why give him THE SAME FUCKING INJURY #what a powerful thing it would be to have eri give overhaul his arms back #and overhaul learning about goodness and forgiveness from this girl he's done nothing but abuse and torture #and saves izuku........ #its about ATONEMENT. its about GROWTH. its about IT NEVER BEING TOO LATE. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU MY HERO ACADEMIA #... ok. i'm normal. its fine. #on another note #i loved the ending to my first bg3 run which i think i finished Tuesday/Wednesday. i cried. #IMMEDIATELY started a durge run where i'm playing a male human bard instead of the female half-wood elf ranger #i was like 'haha. i'll make a character based on hisoka from hxh! i'm gonna be SOOOO evil! >:)) #and guess who still isn't good at being big evil. ME. at worst i'm probably chaotic neutral. #its wild i'm already finding SO MANY new scenes i missed on the first playthrough even though i'm making a lot of the same choices #so it still feels super fun and fresh. more so now because i kind of know the characters and the mechanics better #my current playthrough i'm with lae'zel shadowheart and asterion with no intention of switching out

[intertexts-moving]

soo many of u guys on this website are like. offputtingly angry and vicious and slavering at at the mouth to gloat at bad things happening to some nebulous incarnation of 'rich evil people'.

#like i just don't understand it..... i didn't get it when it was the boat thing i don't get it w the burning man thing... #i get the satisfaction of gloating at 'bad people who get whats coming to them!!!!!' but hows gloating over some undefined #vague type of Bad Person (because no one ever knows shit about the person who gets it until the bad thing happens) #making u actively happier or ur life actively nicer or better... u could be doing something constructive with #those emotions! instead of going HAHAHAHSHSHS KILL THE DISGUSTING RICH on a dead website... #anyway idk. my first thought with the burning man thing was 'oh man i know that's thr shitty techbro thing now but i bet #there's still just a lot of normal people without massive RVs who just enjoy coming there yearly... i hope they're ok!' #not EVERYONE WHO GOES THERE IS ONTOLOGICALLY EVIL AND OBVIOUSLY A SILICONE VALLEY SYNCOPHANT. #idk. obviously this isn't important im not a fucking cop. u can do whatever u want im not saying whatever is #Right or Wrong. it just is more important 2 me specifically 2 try and have my kneejerk reaction be compassion even #if its something that i personally think sucks. which maybe makes me a centerist to some people? who give a shit. #anyway. i used 2 be like this and then i realized that it wasn't making me happier or #my life any better and also anything that inconveniences someone who's truly obscenely wealthy will just hurt more normal people around the #than the person themself. hdktjfd #txt

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

Kidcat AU? Who is the kid? are they a literal cat at any point?

KIDCAT AU KIDCAT AU this is mine and @lady-stormbraver's baby (Lady gets credit bc she's my brainstorming and plotting partner on it)!!!! the kid is Tim because I watched The Batman 2022, saw Bruce and Selina being weird stalkers (affectionate) and I went oh hey you know who else is a stalker and has a lot of love in his heart? TIMBERLY. and decided I wanted a Reevesverse Stray AU. this version of Selina sooooo needs a weird little nerd kid following in her shadow. also a big part of the premise is that 1) Jason and Tim hit it off, realize that they consider each other brothers, and decide they're going to Parent Trap(TM) Bruce and Selina, and 2) Dick is in his Hot Mess Era and is wearing a leather jacket with the Discowing suit and at one point ill-advisedly bleached his hair because he thought it would tick off Bruce and he's not great at being an older brother to one little sibling, let alone one (official) little sibling AND the cat-themed tagalong who's hanging around nowadays. this scene takes place a fair bit through the AU and is kind of a turning point in Dickie's character arc in this 'verse.

Batman is out of town, which means Nightwing is in town.

B isn't actually that far, just swapped cities for the night because a lead he'd been tailing ended up taking him to Blüd and he asked Dick, stiltedly and struggling, to cover his patrol route in Gotham tonight. Dick had agreed, because he's been on better terms with Bruce lately and is trying to keep it that way and not completely live up to his name, like Jason likes to say. Anyway, he's not patrolling alone. He's just babysitting, really, though he figures if Selina is out she's keeping her eyes on the kids as well, and possibly him, too.

Robin and Stray took a separate patrol route from his, and Dick had argued with Jason for ten minutes before they took it to Alfred, who cleared that they're allowed to split off like that. Dick does not really want to be babysitting, but he also really doesn't want to screw it up.

"Nightwing!" Comes a sudden, loud cry through his earpiece that almost makes Dick, even with a literal lifetime of practiced balance, miss his landing. "Dick, something's wrong," Jason says, voice tight. "Tim passed out and won't wake up and shit, I'm breaking the names rule, just- Dick, help."

Dick feels like someone's dumped a glass of ice water over his head and maybe broken the glass on his skull for good measure. The chill settles directly under his ribs. Jason never asks for help, not his help, at least. His mind plays a dozen scenarios of gas or gunshots or gang fights and he grapples to the top of the nearest building almost on instinct. When lost, climb to a high point. He deliberately stills at the top, takes a slow breath so his voice won't shake. That one momentary pause is better than the minutes he may have to spend calming Jason if he lets him hear the terror Dick is feeling. "What's your location, Robin?" He asks, sends the request to Alfred, back at the Manor, at the same time.

Jason replies immediately with two street names, the closest corner he remembers, at the same time Alfred pings with a precise coordinate. The running leap Dick takes off the building isn't as smooth as it would be otherwise, if he wasn't responsible for Jason and Tim tonight. If he wasn't freaking terrified thinking of things that could have happened to Sel's tiny little shadow who, yeah, okay, Dick is a bit fond of himself. What Jason could be dealing with, the goddamned protective instincts in that kid has for everyone but himself sometimes. No extra flips tonight, no wasting time on showing off or having fun. It wouldn't be fun, anyway, tonight.

Dick isn't Nightwing when he touches down, not really. He's just a teenager looking for another teenager and the little kid they've both claimed as brother. Sometimes he thinks that's all that holds him and Jason together, other than Bruce. He finds what he's looking for on a roof, tucked away in the nook formed between a high concrete railing and the roof access stairs to the building below.

Jason is a bright flare of red and green and Dick rushes toward him, only remembering too late that Jason flinches, and badly, and that he should have slowed down. Tim is slumped in Jason's arms, black cat-eared hood already pulled down away from his face, the older boy curled protectively around the little black form.

"Robin," Dick says, snapping himself back into Nightwing mode, "Report. What happened?"

"I don't know," Jason snaps, eyes flicking back and forth from Tim, who looks half-conscious, at least, to Dick like he thinks Dick is going to try and take Tim away from him. "He seemed off all night, kinda slow, I guess? We were patrolling like normal, nothing weird, but he just... collapsed. He's burning up."

"Okay," Dick says. "Okay." Slowly, this time, a lot like how he acts with victims — although he hates thinking of it like that, because this is, essentially, his brothers — he reaches towards Tim.

Jason all but growls at him, holding the smaller boy tighter. "Don't touch him."

Dick sits back on his heels. "Jason," he says, "Jay, you've gotta let me check him out, okay?"

Jason eyes him from behind his mask, and it feels a lot like he's taking that one second that Dick took earlier to calm himself. It feels like Dick is becoming both a big brother and Nightwing at the same time. "Okay," he says, and visibly makes himself relax when Dick reaches out again.

"It's okay," Dick says, briefly placing a hand on Jason's head without even thinking about it as he checks Tim's pulse with the other. It's quick, fluttery but not uneven. "You're right, he's running a pretty high fever." Tim's eyelids flicker, and Dick brings a hand up to his face, taps his cheek gently with one gloved finger. "Heya, kitten, you with us?"

Tim blinks sluggishly, eyes half-lidded and clearly not totally lucid. "Nigh'wing?" He mumbles, body suddenly tensing like he's trying to sit up, but Jason holds him tight.

"Relax, baby cat, be still," Jason says, frowning down at him as Tim squirms momentarily. He glances up to make eye contact with Dick, but mostly they both stay fixated on the youngest of them.

Tim stills, his head resting against Jason's shoulder. "Jay..." he breathes, relaxing against this older boy, whose face goes softer than Dick even knew it could.

"We should get him home," Dick says quietly. Jason looks up at him, and Dick can see the but you only have a motorbike counter coming a mile away. "I'll call the 'Mobile."

"F...reakin' autopilot," Jason scoffs, but Dick can see some of the tension ease out of him. "Dick?"

"Hm?" Dick stands to watch for the headlights of the Batmobile. Hopefully Alfred has been on comms tonight and already sent a message to Selina, because Dick feels like he's juggling and not very smoothly.

Jason hesitates long enough to make Dick turn, catching the moment Jason turns his wide, greenish-blue eyes from staring after Dick back to focus on Tim. "Will you call B, too?" He asks, his voice just a little shaky.

Dick sighs. "Yeah, Jay. I'm calling him."

At the end of the day, or in this case, at the end of the night, he wants his dad too. Maybe that's another thing that holds them together.

#dickie thinks of selina as ''sel'' a lot bc he's known her almost as long as he's known bruce. she's like his mom #even if she and b aren't technically married. #which means that when she starts apprenticing tim dick is a little... hesitant to accept that?? #but in a different way than how he's upset about b letting jason be robin #bc robin was his parents' legacy and jason is bruce's adopted kid but DICK was his parents' (all three) kid FIRST #whereas with tim it's more like... dick loved selina like that first and he was her little birdie so now that tim's around #dick is like.... do u still love me.... can u have a birdie(s) AND a kitten... why's everyone seemingly leaving me behind... #it's a whole mess all the dynamics are SO fun #jason isn't as close with selina as dick or tim are. he likes her and thinks she's awesome but she's... not a mom figure to him #anyway hey remember being 14/15 when you needlessly felt like you were on your own against the world and making up stupid #conflicts in your head just bc being 15 is Like That? no? just me?? yeah that's jason here #Lu writes #batfam #batpat kidcat au #OH WAIT ALSO. selina calls tim kitten. dick is accidentally mirroring her without meaning to. #ok i think I'm done #probably the last one for the night unless i REALLY can't sleep akdkfjdjfjsk

[ozlices]

ok now that the rage is out, actual rational reason for why this pisses me off so much.

if my love & devotion to pandora hearts didn't make it clear enough, my favorite niche of media is alice in wonderland inspired works. if i know something is inspired by aiw, i'm gonna at least look into it automatically. dunno why, honestly. but, it's been like this since i was SUPER young.

that being said, im obviously p versed in alice in wonderland inspired media. i haven't consumed them all, i'm sure there's many i'm unaware of, but. i've consumed enough to confidently assure alice in borderland is the first time i personally have ever seen an alice in wonderland inspired media portray alice as a guy, while still having him be named alice.

and, like! it's honestly SUPER clever to get away with doing this by having alice be ryohei's last name instead of his first. because, obviously, 'alice' is not typically a male name. it can be bc gender is a concept yada yada, but. like. u get what i mean.

so, like. baring that in mind. if somebody who has absolutely zero concept of how japanese pronunciation works stumbled across alice in borderland, & watched w the english subtitles... they'd have no reason to question if 'arisu' is meant to be 'alice'. bc. why would it be? they're expecting 'alice' to be a female character.

& so, like. it honestly rly fucking sucks that this really interesting way of taking the alice in wonderland inspo & portraying its references as it does gets completely sacked & made out as pointless by having alice not be referred to AS alice.

& even more so bc additionally, the white rabbit is a woman in the show. so, we have these two prominent characters from alice in wonderland being swapped. but, like. that doesn't even get to be properly appreciated bc they don't let u know alice IS alice. it genuinely just comes across as 'huh, weird this show named alice in borderland, & that's v clearly inspired by alice in wonderland, has a MALE lead & his name is arisu. weird this aiw inspired media has no alice.'

tbh part of me wonders if that's why they decided to go w that decision. to blatantly erase how silently groundbreaking it is to have an alice in wonderland inspired work where alice is still named alice, but is a guy instead of a girl. the silent way that breaks down gender stereotypes and such. but, nope. that all gets lost.

fucking bullshit.

also yes ik im v stupidly passionate abt this, but again. aiw-inspired works is my FAVORITE niche genre of media ever. my favorite series of all time is literally an aiw-inspired work. ive never seen an aiw-inspired work do this. not saying no others exist, & if they do, pls lmk! but. yeah. it does suck the only example ik of doing this gets stomped by refusing to let alice be named alice.

#mine #i think tsukasa is the only other alice allusion character i can think of that's a guy. #but. like. he doesn't count against my point bc his name isn't alice. #& he's also meant to represent multiple aiw charas. not JUST alice. #so. yeah. this is the only media ik where alice is still named alice & gets to be a guy & they just do not let him stay alice #it's weird & feels lowkey v shitty. for the aforementioned dismantle of how silently groundbreaking that decision is #& how clever it is to get away w it by having it be his last name #esp since obviously. in japan u typically refer to someone as their last name until u know them well. #so. just. HNNNG. bothersome. #it doesnt actually keep me up at night but it does like. bother me. a lot. #idk how that decision even got approved w how much it actually fucks up the viewing experience of a completely #uneducated viewer when it comes to knowing anything abt how japanese words are pronounced but. #tbh the only explanation i can think of for it IS they just didnt want u to know he's alice. bc they're cowards. which is weird but. #idk. literally no other reason to do that. u can't even like. try to claim it's for accuracy sake. #bc it's. literally not accurate. if ur gonna translate the name of the series completely into english. the namesake chara should also #have their name completely translated. to avoid confusion. #UGH OK IM DONE BACK TO ACTUALLY WATCHING AND ROTTING AWAY IM SORRY IM JUST RLY PASSIONATE ABT DUMB SHIT #alice in borderland

[vse-kar-vem]

What do you think about Vem da greš?

NOT TO MAKE PEOPLE WANT TO DRAW & QUARTER ME but it's a bit. eh personally because it just did the least for me on the first listen. but i'm starting to come around :^) i prefer the live version to the studio one but everything sounds lovely in it either way!! the mv's really sweet as well

#joker out #OK i'll be real i was about to write something a lot less flattering about vem da greš becuz it just. isn't one of my favourites #it's just a little too repetitive for me #but i gave it a listen to answer this ask and it's better than i remembered!!!!!! which is great. again still not my favourite but i think #i can be swayed #as per usual thank you for the ask!!!!! 💞💞💞 i love saying things #vee rambles #reminds me of sunset at the park with friends on a humid day

[todayisafridaynight]

@ father time can we run it back to june so i can make a joke really quick

#snap chats #sorry I Only Legally Go Here but still i have to make a pride joke. i blame vegeta. dont know how i just will #spoilers. for smile. i fucking guess #ANYWAY am i surprised that my theory was right No it was p obvious but still i liked how we got to the conclusion. anyways. #i was just fence sitting on smile the other day LMAO naw i liked this scene i really did #i feel like i have to make the strongest disclaimer ever as if anyone actually thinks this is about queerness and say the context is-- #tf it called when your parents have diff ethnicities ANYWAYS THAT. ITS ABOUT THAT. #but yeah no it can be about That too. i guess. if we want. lol #the show doesnt really focus on vito being filipino/japanese all too much. which is surprising to say and a lil disappointing #like its relevant but not overly so which. dont know how i feel about it yet like ig i get it ??? idk ill have to review later #but anyhow its why i like this scene i finally got to have my He's Just Like Me Fr moment </3 #unfortunately nakai's character isn't also filipino/japanese. no pinoy represent 2x. he's korean/japanese WAH SPOILERS #but still a lot of what was said in this scene resonated really personally with me #i wont get too sappy and sentimental about it i just appreciate. being validated in some way idk #its not a fair comparison probably but still its nice sort of seeing a character that has similar issues and thoughts to me #and i guess that can apply to both. instances. if we catch my cold LMAO dont make me say it #ok bye uhhhh i should probably watch the next episode #big trial episode..... then i just have two more eps... then garden of wind time...

[lunarharp]

never done one of these so i thought i'd try it.

my 2nd full year as an Artist.... developed a lot. looking back at stuff from a year ago is painful as usual. first half of this year was mostly takarazuka. in march i started "painting", in the summer i started doing "lineless", then i realised that's basically painting but now i understood it and was having fun.

in september i started doing tons of black and white stuff to clear my head and because i was so inspired by witch hat atelier.

i want to keep improving

#this isnt so much The Best Thing I Drew That Month as what represents the month artistically/emotionally to me. #like november was simply the persona 5 month. and december has to be lucifer. #(also i made a LOOT of comic-type stuff that isn't really represented in this image but was lots of fun.) #it's not like before 2020 i had never picked up a pen. i just Didn't Know Anything. i just doodled on paper and showed no-one #i feel like i both drew a lot in 2022 (which i DID) and still didn't draw or learn enough or at least not efficiently enough. =_= #i also finished two fics and worked on two zines. next year i want to print my own things and do more stuff. and make artist friends. #i barely socialised or did anything other than drawing. i'm glad i had so much free time but uhh i also want to Live More. #sometimes i feel like Getting Serious now and drawing Properly and sometimes i feel like stopping drawing altogether. idek. #i just dk....... #hope there were some people that enjoyed my stuff. it seems like there was. i feel like i'm at least at the beginning of the next stage #2020...we don't talk about that. 2021 ok starting to be able to draw. 2022 finally able to draw closer to what i want. i love a lot of it. #i guess that's something. #especially in sept/oct i was really inspired. i barely used the internet except to post art it was so good. my own world #i didn't use the internet basically at all in june either - but it was the total opposite. i barely drew at all. *examines myself* #onwards i guess................. *picks up my bindle*

[deadtower]

me after spending the past 12 hours or so in a blinding panic of anxiety like. hm. things are really gonna be okay, huh

#like. i have a job. my first shift is tomorrow (it's a stage shift but like i have the job it's already concrete) #(and i've staged there before so like i know how the place works) #yeah i don't have rent but my brother might be able to help me out #he's more willing to help me out than he is a lot of people #and he knows i'm really fucked financially this moth #*month #even if he can't — my landlord isn't allowed to start the eviction process til the 15th #she told me to tell her if i ever had an emergency and we can work smth out #(bc last year i was in the psych ward and she said that she understands and she's here for me) #not to mention my first paycheck will definitely be before then #i also have an interview tonight at 6 for what /looks/ like a manager position #the guy asked for my portfolio re: photography/graphic design/etc #so i may be getting like. a Social Media Manager type of job which would be SALARIED #even if not. this place pays their HOSTS what i was getting as an EVENT COORDINATOR #yeah finances still suck but they won't for long #this week is gonna let me know just how things are gonna go from here #and what i'll be able to afford #i just have to calm down and be like ok. this happened. what's my next steps #at the VERY worst my situation would be that i would have to move back in with my mom #which is not great but like i won't be homeless #just gotta take a deep breath and take one day at a time #i mean i keep reminding myself my best friend's roommate was 7 MONTHS LATE on rent #bc he kept buying... eurghghg [redacted] #and while im sure my landlord wouldnt let me go 7 MONTHS #the fact im this stressed about being on time with rent AND IT AINT EVEN JUNE 1 YET #like girl chill #ok. (does a bunch of deep breaths in succession) it's gonna be ok

[elytrafemme]

i have so much homework to do and i am a little desolate about it. i also have to text the girl i’m going out on a date with to tell her in the nicest way possible that my mom fucking hates her proposed plan because she doesn’t want to drive that far. so. 

on the bright side that same girl explicitly made a group chat with me and two of her (our?) other friends to send us a Pinterest screenshot of a tweet that says “that’s great man have you ever been evaluated for autism”. so i guess that’s how my day is going 

#nightmare.personal #i laughed really hard when i saw that text like neptune PLEASE #my hw isn't really that horrible but i just wasted a lot of time talking to my sister which. i guess is fine but #it wasn't super fun as a whole and i STILL have work #and i don't want to send this text message god dammit!!! #i also have to send an email and i don't want to do that today #i think my anxiety spikes while PMSing so im hoping its just that but im like very panicky rn sob emoji #its ok ill be ok

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

thinking about her (Scully in Little Talks AU)

#is it ok to make posts about things in the series that i haven't posted yet shsjsbsnsnsns #Lu rambles #it's just. she's a shade sadder than in canon but she's also determined in a slightly different way #and there's this gravitas to her in ltau that i love thinking about/writing SO MUCH #bc she's the same soft girl as before and as she is in canon even post-abduction arc #but she's also got more going on than just what happened to her #she's lost her former partner and best friend and then has to have this crisis of faith due to the fact that UHHHH #he's slightly haunting her #which in itself adds a lot to what she's dealing with bc she doesn't believe in that stuff!!! but now this!! #and also just the fact that he died trying to save her. that probably is rough on her for a while. #and she's taking over and carrying on his work both bc what happened to her (and is still happening bc: ghost bestie) is unexplained #and thus falls under the x files #but she's also carrying that on in mulder's honor — bc as seen in canon #she steps more into his role when he isn't there. she carries that fire; as it were; when he's gone #and there's just... a lot. she's still herself. she'll never be anybody but who she's always been ya know??? #but there's more she's carrying and stepping into now and there's a Vibe about her in the AU that i think about a LOT #Lu writes #little talks au #dana scully #lu don't lose this #bc... i just wrote a bunch of my own notes here and i want to save them shdhsjjsjsjsjs