#(with my shitty little stories)

[lotus-pear]

bsd rewatch w my friend means obligatory art of my fav found family ever

#WAAAAAAAAAUUUUGHHHHHHHH I MISS THEM SO FUCKING MUCH YOU GUYS GENUINELY DON'T UNDERSTAND.............................................. #LIKE. NOT A DAY GOES BY WHERE I DONT THINK ABT THEM UEUUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #bro i didn't mean to make atsushi that short LMFAO it's ok tho bc he's their little boy. their son #literally was in the trenches drawing kunikida bc i've been drawing twinks for so long i forgot how to draw actual MEN😭😭 #when will my family return from the war..................................................................... #rewatching bsd made me realize its just a rly shitty slice of life romcom featuring ml dazai and his tired work partner/husband #and the story of how they got their first kid. sopping wet pathetic kitten of a boy they picked up off the riverbank #anyway theyre all so dear to me you don't understandddddd i love these dumbass partners and their little tiger boy :(((((((((((((( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #atsushi nakajima #nakajima atsushi #doppo kunikida #kunikida doppo #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws

[nanstar200]

HI‼️‼️

MORE FNAF/SPAMTON!!! LOVE U GUYS 🫶🫶

#haiiii back again w my bs #art #the little shitty one is Sundrop and Dave Mustaine (megadeath) #LMAO IT WAS MY FREINDS IDEA #my sketchbook is pretty much full of crappy little doodles me and my friend draw during classes #super silly they’re so fun! #fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf dca #sundrop #sundrop fnaf #moondrop #moondrop fnaf #five nights at freddys security breach #fnaf security breach #security breach #OH ALSO SECOND TO LAST ONE IS @Shirajellyfish ‘s RILEY!!! (my interperetation of them!!!) #idk if I should @ them because I’m not sure if I’m being annoying LMAO #Anyways if u see this shira ily and your story #the brain mold is real and it’s infectious #also #fourth to last one is a little something I’m working on!! I just liked how that frame turned out 😈😈😈😈 #my art #nuttdoodles #spamton #deltarune #spamton g spamton

[speakofcompersion]

For jjong month ♡ part [1/4]

#jjongmonth #my little tribute to jjong month :) i love that everyone coming together to celebrate him this month! my heart is full <3 #analook #tagging u because ur tags r the reason i knew about jjong month!! (new to shinee tumblr) and i thought u might want some jjong content :) #gifs sure are looking crispier~~ antlantis-area darling thank you!!!! <33 gif mentor advice coming in clutch! when i master this i will be #so powerfulllll i will ascend the stratosphere into space #the agit “the story by jonghyun” vcr #shinee #jonghyun #mygifs #speakofgifs #kim jonghyun #kpop #i also had the unfortunate discovery that gifs look great on the computer but pixelated on my phone. i think my phone screen must be #pretty shitty so sad lol :') i hope it looks good on other ppls phones at least heh~

[no-light-left-on]

"Fuck you."

I've been re-reading What Lies Between Sorrow and Longing and since I am unwell about this entire fic I drew a scene from Chapter 4

#dh #dishonored #knifecrow #corvodaud #corvo attano #daud #daud dishonored #this is such a good scene. the Tension #enjoy my shitty attempts at drawing transversals #reminds me #comic #ert #there I put my tags in #experimenting with style with this one it was a lot of fun #kept me a little more sane since Ive been pretty unwell these past few days and not in an insane over the fic way #its such a good fic tho... like so good #I know corvo doesnt take his hand in the story but grabs his wrist but shhh let me live my dreams #should I @ the author? I know they have a tumblr but I dont wanna bother them #either way go read the fic #I was slightly drunk and listening to AtR's cover of Hibana the entire time I was drawing this. great song for the fic too #some of the scenes in this fic made me cry so hard it made me violently ill so theres your heads up

[arinmoss]

Lilith wip (he/him!)

#oc #original character #i never posted this here i guess lol #anyways heres my guy Lilith he has a terrible personality and works at some shitty jo bin a seaside town and meets this mermaid creature #life for him gets weird idk it story is v vague as of right now lmao #i just know that he used to be kind of a normal character but then iw as like what if he was kinda horrible #anyways this wip is VERY old and im very mad i never got to finish it cause there is so much i want to fix -____- #anyways i love giving my boys long hair and a bang moment lmao #prettyfying every oc i have #hes also missing earrings -__- #art #digital art #sketch #wip #work in progress #trans oc #trans masc #trans man? maybe? stilll figuring that out #in the story itself hes explorign that sorta thing idk maybe he's a dude but like only a little lol #who knows man

[fckedupnerd]

Mathew Baynton in the Dodges and Feints music video for DM Stith

Video here:

#mathew baynton #mat baynton #his ARM in that third gif #the little muscle and that SHARP freaking tendon or whatever there connecting it to his elbow #you could CUT yourself on that (/pos /affectionate) 🔥 #his body is so fucking tight and flawless it drives me crazy looking at him #he’s gotta be like 0% bodyfat for real omfg 😭 I wish I looked like him so bad y’all #perfect perfect human wtf #also his face is so pretty #those HUGE EYES #oh my goodness #and the most expressive #aaaaaah just too pretty #also James Corden posted the music video to his story which… 👀 I’m hoping means he has a reason to be publicly consorting with Mat again?? #pleeeeease say they’re working together again soon now that James is back in the UK #I know a lot of people dislike him #and it’s not like I’m a huge fan of James on his own #but I am NOT above admitting that I always liked them together and I always thought James genuinely liked seeing Mat shine which he deserves #anyway have some shitty watermarked gifs of Mat being sexy in black and white #because I hadn’t seen any yet and sometimes if you want something done you have to do it yourself 🥰 #bbc ghosts #wonka 2023 #tagging for Mat-related visibility #Youtube

[uncanny-tranny]

The opinion that ultimately, transition affects the person transitioning more than anybody else is true, I think. I also think that this isn't the full story per se.

I say this because transition has affected other people. Pre-transition, I was so dysphoric that I was making plans to die, I was a wreck and self-destructive. That dysphoria bled to the point that my dad and I had a horrible relationship. He didn't understand me, and I was so hurt I couldn't talk. We fought so often and so intensely that it was hard to be around him.

But now that I'm transitioning? We understand each other so much better. We talk about so many things now, we agree on things. I haven't heard his yelling in so long I've forgotten what it sounds like. He now has pictures of me smiling - that was literally unheard of. My dysphoria was so bad I refused to laugh, and that scared the fuck out of my dad.

I think transitioning can do that. So many people think that transitioning will solely affect the trans person or that transitioning will negatively affect the people around them. I think both aren't the right outlook for many. Transitioning mostly affects me, yes, but when it affects others, it affects them positively. You cannot tell me that a healthy relationship with the little family I have left isn't positive. I celebrate it all the time. I am so grateful that modern medicine has given me a life. That is a beautiful thing, I wish it for everybody.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #suicide #suicide tw #suicide mention tw #dysphoria tw #i literally cannot understate how intense and LIFE-RUINING my personal dysphoria was #not all trans people have dysphoria yes! they are real and i adore them. however that isn't my story to tell y'know #i talk about my dad so much because he has consistently been the little family i have #i was really destroyed when our relationship got shitty because i was so close to him before

[miraluking-respectfully]

felix being referred to more or less exclusively as "your soldier" in-game speaks to how little the writers put into his character beyond his noggin full of sith secrets & his relationship with the consular; still, i do find it kind of sweet and funny, in a way. he's not a republic soldier, not even your personal bodyguard; he's your soldier. the consular is a small nation-state in and of herself

#accurate. #felix iresso #swtor #jedi consular #open tags for My Rant: #going back through rishi and doing the cute little holocron quest got me brooding - as i often do - on my best boy felix #that the writers could not think to give him anything in KOTXX that wasn't Torture Angst is deeply shitty but a little understandable. #all the other consular comps kind of have a way forward that isn't consular-related when the consular goes away #nadia has the jedi. zenith has balmorra. tharan has his old illustrious career. qyzen has little baby clan and also his religious directive #meanwhile felix isn't involved with your order or a supergenius or a politician or even someone with a lifelong goal #he was a guy doing his best at a dead-end job that turned into a far more enjoyable but still lowkey dead-end job #i would argue they could (should) have sent him to ossus but i can see them balking because Doc was already there #that's a little narratively redundant especially bc Doc has an extremely useful set of non-martial skills you would want to center #when telling a story about survival and persistence against the odds like with ossus #(also he was in the group of companions second-closest in proximity to the emperor in base game) #HOWEVER. #because i am immensely sexy and cool and have a huge brain i think i've cracked it #the way to give felix a compelling story post-consular is to put him the fuck in charge. #no longer your soldier or anyone's. his own. maybe even in charge of a large group of people in need of someone to follow #considering he used to be really good at that #a group like...idk...maybe the rest of the people incarcerated on his prison colony? #much to think about.

[marcusagrippa]

every time i remember this movie exists i take one hundred billion psychic damage

#amores 1.9 or something #im going to BITE SOMEONE WHAT THE FUCK!!! #there are so many things to say about it and i cant put all my thoughts into words right now bc i am running on. very little sleep. #objectively shitty yes historically inaccurate of course but. but !!!!! buttt !!!!!! for reasons including but in no way limited to #gestures vaguely at agrippa. all of this. there are some really interesting and kinda cool choices they made with the story and which direc #tion to take it and the relationship between octavian and antony and the parallels between antony and agrippa and the proscriptions and #god this film is so compelling but. utter dogshit. why am i trying to analyse it #imperiumposting #guys tag

[inevitablemoment]

twisted: the untold story of a royal vizier, dream a little harder // ghostbusters: afterlife

#Ghostbusters #Ghostbusters Edit #GBEdit #Ghostbusters: Afterlife Edit #Ghostbusters: Afterlife #Egon Spengler #Web Weaving #Harold Ramis #Twisted #Twisted: The Untold Story of a Royal Vizier #Team StarKid #StarKid #Dream A Little Harder #Twisted Edit #Twisted: The Untold Story of a Royal Vizer Edit #Dream A Little Harder Edit #My Shitty Edits #Baby's first web weave #TW Canonical Character Death #TW Character Death

[ehlnofay]

Efri thinks she’s found the library.

“Woah,” she says, letting the door swing shut behind her. (Loudly. The doors here are so heavy.) Her voice echoes off the stone walls. She feels like she’s stepped into some story, like an exaggerated version of what a mage’s college would be.

It’s not that she’s never heard of a library before or anything. She understands them, conceptually. But the most books she’s ever seen at once was the small set of shelves in Rorik’s manor, and even that blew her away the first time – all the pretty bindings and close-written words. This is –

The College library is something else. It’s a lot bigger than a set of shelves.

Winding, narrow hallways bend and squiggle around like a set of earthworms trying to squish together to make a solid shape with no gaps, and every single wall is lined with books. Each shelf is like a rainbow of covers and colours. Half the spines are thick as at least two fingers put together and written over with words she can’t read. Efri has to bring Sissel here. She’d lose her mind.

“Woah,” she says again, and steps further in to look at the books on the shelves. All the bindings in blacks and blues and browns. One has the title written down the spine in gold lettering that shines. She brings up a hand to touch it.

“What are you doing?” someone demands. Efri stops. She looks.

It’s a grumpy-looking orc man in a bright yellow tunic, glaring at her much fiercer than seems necessary for the crime of looking at books in a library. He looks like he might be old – his hair’s white enough that his beard’s the same colour as his sharp sticking-out teeth, and he’s wrinkly.  Efri wrinkles her nose and tells him, “I’m looking at the books.”

“Wash your hands first,” he barks, turning his much-too-angry glare on Efri’s hovering arms. “You look like the sort of person to have grubby fingers.”

It’s true, but Efri is offended anyway. She wipes her palms hard against her orange wool skirt. (The skirt is grey at the hem from playing in dirty snow. It does not make her any cleaner.)

“Who’re you?” she asks the rude man. “I haven’t met you yet.”

He does not stop scowling. Maybe he’s perpetually angry. Maybe he just has an unfortunate face. But he says, “I’m the Arcaeneum archivist. Urag gro-Shub.”

The Arcaeneum, that’s what the library’s called. Very fancy name. (Sissel will love it. And has Kazari been here yet? They might like it too. She’s pretty sure they can read, though probably not these fiddly little paper books.) “What’s an archivist?”

“I maintain the library.” The archivist Urag gro-Shub might be grumpy and not very nice but at least he didn’t do the thing where he sighed all annoyed at Efri’s question. “I choose when and to whom the books are lent, and I ensure they are not damaged. Hundreds of years have gone into assembling this collection, and it’s going to stay pristine.”

“Is that book hundreds of years old?” Efri asks, pointing to the showy tome with the writing in gold.

Urag barely glances at it, dark eyes flashing in the vague direction of her pointing finger and flashing back again. “No. That’s historical fiction written in 185. That copy was made within these last ten years.”

“You didn’t even look at it,” Efri says.

“Bejewelled Tragedy. Four hundred pages. Horrendously inaccurate. Frankly, it wasn’t worth acquiring in the first place. Feel free to look for yourself.”

Efri will take his word for it.

“This section is for the books that are up for purchase,” he tells her, gesturing. “The worthwhile ones – and the old ones, if those are what you’re looking for – are further in.”

Efri squints down the passages again, their bright lights and cosy winding walls. She can’t tell where this section ends and the next one starts. She feels like if she went any further into the library she’d get lost. She says, “Thanks. I’m Efri, by the way.”

“I know. You’re that kid who showed up.”

“One of,” Efri corrects.

Urag keeps talking, rolling right past like he didn’t hear her. “Don’t know why in the name of all that’s been called holy they let you in. You’d think this would be a step too far, even –” he huffs and snaps his jaw shut, tusks digging into his moustache. He says, “At any rate. You’re here now, and you’re subject to the same rules as everyone else. You treat these books as careful as if they were your own firstborn children, understand? And if there’s something you want to find – or especially take out of the Arcaeneum – you come talk to me.”

Efri nods obediently. What time would it be right now? The lecture Sissel went to was almost two hours, and it’s definitely only been about one. She asks, “Are there any books with pictures?”

She’s not sure if it’s just the shape of his mouth or if he’s sneering. Urag says, “That depends. Are you going to respect the books enough to try to read the words too?”

“That depends,” Efri retorts, nettled. (She gets that he’s protective of the collection, but there’s no need to be rude about it.) “Are your books going to teach me how to read?”

Urag stares.

“You can’t read,” he replies, sounding vaguely offended, as though she, at six years of age, had refused to attend the village school for the express purpose of spiting him four years later.

Efri pulls a book out of the shelf without looking at it, ignoring the way he huffs. There’s nothing embossed on the spine or the cover, but there’s a title scribbled on the first page. “That’s a B,” she says, pointing to the first letter of the first word, and then stops, squinting. Switches her focus to a different word. “That one says off.”

“Of,” Urag corrects over her shoulder.

Efri shrugs. She snaps the book shut and slips it back into its place on the shelf. “I can read a bit,” she says. “I know my letters and that. The books here are just big.”

And given that she’d failed to correctly identify of, even small stories might be a bit beyond her skill level.

Urag is quiet. Efri looks back at him, mostly expecting him to still be looking affronted, as though she’d stolen food out of his mouth and thrown it at a wall – instead he looks oddly, blankly thoughtful.

“We don’t have anything suitable for early readers,” he says, tapping his fingers against his leg. “That might be an oversight.”

Efri really doesn’t think it is. “It’s a big fancy library, right? I think it’s normal to just collect the big fancy books.” All the ones that are hundreds of years old, or about magic or important things, or both.

Urag’s knuckles rap against a buckle on his belt. He says, “No! First misconception. A worthwhile collection archives all the work on its focus possible. The Arcaeneum is a collection of knowledge in every form. Therefore, we have as many books as we can access, on all sorts of topics. Half of them aren’t even good!”

“You sell the bad ones,” Efri says, trying to follow.

“Some of them. If they’re wholly without merit. Mostly I sell duplicates. Or works no-one has ever used. There’s things to be learned from everything – if not now, later. I’ll think on it.”

He looks back at Efri, looking a bit like he might have forgot she was there. “Regardless. Do you need anything, or can I get back to work?”

He’s still all rude and prickly. Efri bristles a bit. “I wasn’t keeping you,” she says, flicking her eyes again over the strange and wandering walls.

Urag sighs again like he’s got any right to be annoyed with her, but then he asks, “Would you like a tour of the Arcaeneum?”

“Do you want to give it?”

“You’ve already distracted me,” he says. Adds less irritably, “And I enjoy a chance to show off the collection. Long as you don’t interrupt me.”

“I’m going to interrupt you,” Efri informs him. She doesn’t like to be told what to do.

She lets him show her the library.

#I need to post more of efri in winterhold... it's sooo much fun #I'm slowly making my way through the story still. figuring out mzulft rn #this piece I wrote a while ago but I like it #urag is going I cannot BELIEVE we don't have any early reader books. this is a grave archival oversight!! #and efri is going ok man. #(he is very earnest about this. he wants the arcaeneum to have Everything in it. the idea that it doesn't is not to be borne) #after this scene ends efri is appropriately impressed by the library contents #and urag makes her a shitty little booklet made of stitched-together scrap paper to help her learn to read #(man cannot interact with children for the life of him but he is very invested in literacy) #oc tag #efri #the elder scrolls #skyrim #tes #tesblr #fay writes #my writing #urag gro shub #college of winterhold #arcaeneum #microfic

[mazzy-rockstar]

Monday blues are hitting me hard today

#you can ignore this if you want cause im gonna talk a lot of shit and sads and feelings #but as i’ve realised i literally have no one to empty my heart out to irl #and it’s fucking heartbreaking cause i love my friends but I don’t think they love me back #which is an insane though but I genuinely think it’s true like #i moved away 4 ish months ago and i know that communication comes from both side but like i wanted to test smt #so i stopped texting first and guess what?? only 2 friends texted me #1 because she’s genuinely a good friend i think and the other because she needed money (which i gave her like a fucking fool) #my heart just hurts cause i realised i’m not as important to them as they are to me and I’m completely misreading our relationship and #it sucks because I thought they were going to be my friends for life but now they’re all posting recaps of 2023 and im in none of their pics #even in pics where i was present at the time #and i dont know if it’s intentional or if im just being an insecure little bitch but it fucking hurts #i just want to be important to someone #i want to be someone’s person #not a last resort like #they keep doing stuff together which i get like life moves on and i’m the one that left #but not a single text or a pic or a ‘we miss you!’ #not even a fucking heart on insta stories #am i being desperate?? or do I actually have shitty friends #like i have impostor syndrome in my own fucking friendgroup??? #I can’t just drop them either cause then I’ll actually have no one #idk i must exude some sort of energy #i dont think ive ever had a genuine good best friend like for some reason they leave after 3 years #(and this is why i have trust issues and attachment disorders) #anyway I’ll probably just suck it up and go about my day #ive lived 24 years like this what’s an entire life #it’s wild cause i have a good time whenever i’m with them (i think) and then i leave and it’s crickets #i feel like hired entertainment sometimes #idk my head hurts so I’m probably overthinking but like these feelings come from somewhere right? #i have to stop

[grassbreads]

Shoutout to Xie Lian for being a protagonist with absolutely no goals and no involvement in driving the overarching plot of his own book

#like Xie Lian just wants to do his little god jobs and be helpful #and his only overarching goal is like. fixing up his shitty little shrine #the plot is absolutely not driven by him or anything he wants #which is very funny for a protagonist lol #he just keeps volunteering to help solve other people’s problems #scum villain is driven by sqq trying to gather b points and not be killed by binghe #mdzs (in the present day at least) is driven by Wwx and Lz trying to solve the mystery of the dismembered body #and Wwx trying to avoid being killed for being Wwx #but Xie Lian has almost no role in dictating the direction of his own story #beyond just constantly volunteering for shit #and if my suspicions about where the story is going are correct #Hua Cheng has a way bigger role in driving the plot than his boyfriend does #andie reads tgcf

[welcometogrouchland]

Stories abt teenage girls who are unabashedly cringey but still treated seriously as the hero of their stories and given depth and nuance by the narrative I am kissing you on the mouth

#ramblings of a lunatic #this post was inspired by ppl talking abt how lumity is literally a couple comprised of two teenage nd girls #who write like fanfic abt their favourite shitty ya series together. #and how it doesn't make a big deal out of it like. this is just how gay little teenage girls behave #and they're so true and correct but thinking abt luz got me thinking abt my childhood love of the first vol of ms marvel #(i never read past the first cause i pirated it off janky websites as an 11 yr old jdbsjfn( #and literally they come out the gate in that series with kamala as the epitome of a cringey fandom obsessed teen girl #and then they go all in on still letting her be a hero without sacrificing those traits #I'm forgetting other examples of stories w/ this rn (turning red comes to mind??) #and I know these are all series targeted at like a teen girl audience but a) i am a teen girl and b) bitch they need it. badly! #no more being 'that girl'! embrace the urge to be weird and off putting but happy! and still be given depth and love by the narrative! #(also. fellow audio drama enjoyers. antigne fun is just a toned down 35 yr old version of this. y/n?) #(also i took some letters out of her name in the hope that keeps it from showing up in tags cause while this feels okay to post- #-in the tags of the other examples mentioned i felt a bit bad abt putting it in the wo tag lol) #anyway yeah. literally this genre is braver than any us marine

[sportsthoughts]

.

#oh i am a bit tired tonight folks. had a nice time yesterday trawling through old pens forums and linking back some posts to here #(all with links because like - it's nice to share where you've found fun stuff right?) no point gatekeeping at all - we don't own content #and then the same old people once again somehow by chance post the exact same five or six photos 5 minutes after #and yeah. great minds think alike right? you were probably trawling a not touched since 2015 forum too at the same time. it's possible #and out of the hundreds of photos on there you decided to make the exact selection i did. it's possible right? #and truthfully i don't really care because i'm posting this stuff because my blog is MY personal archive and it's stuff I want to catalogue #but when you have blocked as many blogs and sideblogs as you can and people are still finding you and send you shitty anons for just... #daring to use the player tags? cataloging stuff by literally tagging the player's name? ughhhhh it's exhausting how can i block you when yo #are the tumblr equivalent of hydra regrowing a new fake sideblog pretending to be a different person every week. #sorry i know this ranting into the abyss is pointless but i have a few more posts scheduled for tonight and i know i'll wake up tomorrow #and miraculously the same ones will be posted on the same people's blogs 5 minutes after me and it's just so childish #but yeah. we all know who they are and i'm just a little tired of it and hearing the stories of people being harassed in their inboxes/dms #anyway anyway anyway. i think i shall just take a break from posting stuff because feeling a little disheartened! and uncomfortable #because i feel watched. please stop using other blogs to find me. please stop talking about me in your tags. touch some grass my friends

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

You know, I think what i fear most about all these soulless Disney remakes is that one day they'll take Hunchback of Notre Dame, one of the strongest and most daring Disney movies ever in its depiction of showing the dark sides of religion without demonizing faith as a whole, and that they'll take Judge Claude Frollo and either make him "sympathetic" or way less extreme than in the original, since Disney is nowhere near as ballsy to do something like directly criticize religious extremists anymore, I think, and that would just DESTROY the great impact that movie's messaging had.

That's not to say I have anything against sympathetic villains, but Frollo is one that was so strong BECAUSE of how awful he was and the position he held, and that fierce kind of villainy should NEVER be changed in his case imo. Very strong teaching moments in there for kids.

#Not that any kids these days are watching Notre Dame or anything 😂 But yeah. #Hunchback of Notre Dame was literally the movie that helped make it click for me that my parents were NOT very good people actually #Kids need these kinds of movies to help them learn when they're being manipulated for the worse #and it would be a shame if this strong example of that were given a crappy half-baked shlop of the original story #It wasn't Little Mermaid specifically that got me thinking abt this bc Ursula was actually still decently evil in it #But more stuff like Cruella and Pinocchio #Well anyways. I'm sure this has been pondered on in much better ways already. I'm just ready to fight someone if they dare change Hunchback #May be the only situation that being a financial flop might be good for it lol hopefully Disney will leave it alone rather than crap on it #In a shitty remake I mean #Frollo is a goddamn legendary untouchable villain and I just KNOW a remake would ruin him #Wow sorry for the random and completely irrelevant rant but I just feel VERY strongly about this lol #OP #Disney #the hunchback of notre dame