#* checks myself into the psych ward *

[inkykeiji]

yakuza mikey: exists

me:

#no seriously #i’m trying to figure out whERE those few images are from #i’m going to drive myself insane looking but i dONT CARE #THE GLOVES????? #THE FUCKING GLOVWS #I LITERALLY #SN GOING TO CHECK MYSLEF INTO THE PSYCH WARD #HES SO #!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #Daddy <3 #clari chatters #inky.tr

[leos-soggy-wolf-nuts]

"This perfect, subservient..thing."

#yeah im gonna need to check myself into the psych ward #jenna route

[ablednt]

Girl help I'm feeling homicidal about psych ward nurses making tiktoks again

#'I'd check myself into the psych ward but i work there' shut the fuck up #'I'm a psych ward patient who gets paid to take care of the other patients' die #'me when that one patient-' kill yourself #suicide bait

[thetiniestdeath]

I apologise for the person I'll become if taylor announces 1989 tv tonight

#taylor swift #1989 tv #if i wake up to any news i'm gonna check myself into a psych ward

[urheartsamess]

and when i gif seojoon looking at jiwoo then what

#i’ll be checking myself into the psych ward thank u very very much #to my star

[ttlmt]

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#every finals/move out season i ask myself if i were to check myself into the psych ward do you think id get an extension on my projects #(half joking) #im thriving #bee buzzes #i will hopefully be back to more regular posting soon

[kiitchensiink]

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#if psych wards weren't a fucking horrifing place I'd check myself into one #my therapist had a stroke and so I can't talk to her #idk I'm gonna try to chill n answer some asks

[doctormage]

✨don’t fucking rb✨ doesn’t seem normal to be actually suicidal every single time I’m about to get my period and yet. what could even be done about it. every birth control pill I’ve ever used has made me extremely emotionally unstable (and if I have to choose bw feeling this way 6 days out of every 4 weeks and feeling this way All The Time, why would I pick the latter) and at this point who even knows if that’ll be an option much longer anyway lmao. I just had a meltdown bc some guy was kinda rude to me in a meeting & now I feel like I’m a shit person and a shit employee and I can’t do anything right and everyone and everything would be better off without me!! and this happens every single fucking month!!!

#lol!!!!!!!!!!! #hate it especially bc this is why no one took it seriously when I was literally trying to check myself into a psych ward last year lmao #like. babes I was screaming for help! #but how can anyone take me seriously when I feel this way once a month!!! #god!!!!! #(also it wasn’t no one. 2 of yall irl actually believed me so thank u) #(but no one who could’ve done anything did anything. lol.) #p #suicide tw #does anyone need menstrual stuff tagged ….? lmk pls

[urbanfiltered]

can’t breathe

#i am so fucking overwhelmed and depressed jesus!!!!!!!! #i feel like i’m unwraveling i feel like my parents sit at night and scheme to make sure i lose my grip on reality day by day #i can’t fucking breathe #it’s like the millisecond i get off work i do not have one single solitary second to myself #any moment not spent with my parents is such an ultimate sin #it’s making me sick #i feel like a parent in many ways #and my parents are the todflers and i spend all day just like #managing their emotions and planning play dates and playtime activities for them and putting on movies and shit #and i HAVE TO bc if they don’t get enough enrichment time they start getting restless and begin ripping into me instead #better to take my mother shopping for the fifth time this week instead of be her punching bag #im like crying in the bathroom as i type this im like not built to live like this #i lived on the floor of a 1 bedroom apt for 2 months with no privacy whatsoever and then i live here with my parents and #i just spent a whole week couch surfing on my various friends’ couches and it’s like #i just never get to be alone unless i stay up till 3 am which makes my next day so much worse and i just don’t think it’s #long term sustianable #might need to check myself into a psych ward or something #to sit in a solitary confinement room for a few days idk #i might genuinely die if i don’t #i can’t explain what i’m feeling but i think my actual body is breaking down #the sickest thing is all the weight i’ve gained in the past few motnhs making it harder on my body to just do things #like i’m never this heavy and i FEEL IT slowing me down #and my mom will yell at me till the cows come home about my eating habits but i can’t find time to go the gym if i’m constantly sitting #there with them participating in the 10th conversation of the day #i’m a wittle introvert baby i wasn’t meant to handle this #also if i try to leave the house alone they narrow their eyes because ‘going to the gym’ means i must be out there doing every drug #known to man or something #tbh in many ways moving away from each other was harder bc now when i’m around they pay unbearable amounts of attention to me #i can’t sleep anymore idk i wish i was dead a little bit

[imsofuckintiredbruh]

i am like. at my wits end honestly

#feel like checking myself into a psych ward fr #but that would just add to it not take away #how do people do this??

[antspaul]

niche hyperfix is all fun and games until the bestie u always consult for writing help gets swallowed by the math vortex and no one else is around

#AND YOUVE BEEN STUCK ON THE SAME SCENE FOR TWO WEEKS....... two more days of this and im CHECKING myself into the psych ward #how WOULD two ostensibly mild mannered footballers in a secret gay relationship have a lowkey argument that escalates into a fight #because I DONT KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[peroxideprincet]

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#it's days like this that make me want to check myself into a psych ward #like 72 hours in a padded room sounds genuinely preferable to my life at this moment #i'm teetering on the edge of a mental health crisis and it's too fucking much

[myyearofeternaltorment]

I'm so glad that wanting to kill myself every time I clock in at work is in fact not just me and is instead every single person at my job and every job across the world.

Peace and love 💞✨💕

#talking to myself #if this is all life has to offer id rather die. so clearly hospitalization is in order. #forreal tho im gonna quit this job and check into the fuckin psych ward asap because this shit is stupid.

[brokenbutunbowed]

I quit my job today without calling in or telling anyone. My manager hasn't even texted me to ask me where I was, which I was expecting her to do within 5 minutes of me being late this morning. I knew she hated me but she hates having to get up off her lazy ass and work even more so I figured she'd be all up in my phone trying to figure out where I am.

This was a long time coming, tbh, the place was hell and I've been borderline thinking about going to the ER for suicidal thoughts for the last couple weeks because it's been *that* bad, but I still feel horrifically bad and guilty over it. I don't have another job lined up, and this job has left me so fucked up, burnt out, and just fucking fatigued to hell that another job just feels unbearable right now. I can survive up to a month or so, maybe, if I'm careful and smart with my money. I'm hoping it's enough time for me to rest and recover from the hell that place and those people put me through.

I'm not sure why quitting was so hard this time around. It's not like I haven't left a shit job before. But I've always had something else pretty much lined up, and weeks of scrolling indeed hasn't come up with many options for me. Downside to moving to the middle of buttfuck nowhere. I guess I just have to hope things work out when the time comes, cause it's kind of my only choice now.

#I'm so fucking exhausted it's insane #i should feel relieved but I'm swinging wildly into bouts of guilt so bad it's practically making me vibrate #hoping i can spend the next few weeks catching up on my to-do list cause some of its been on my list over a year #i just hope I'm not fucking myself up with this decision cause one of these days I'm gonna actually have to check myself into a psych ward #personaljournalposts

[reltna]

my brain is so funny bc i will literally try to find a way to kms but i’ll stop myself in my tracks bc “wait i cant do that i have work tomorrow”

#multiple ppl have told me to get professional help #if i didn’t have this job i’d check myself into a psych ward #also have been told that i probably have borderline but idk i just think im autistic

[thou-shalt-cha-cha-real-smooth]

lmao was it just me that as a child pretended there was a flying hag/monster that came to my bed every night randomly and would kill me if i didn't have my blanket up to my chin? no? just me?

#dies #lmao gonna check myself into a psych ward now #young and stupid #children