the problem is i wanna play skyrim but i don't wanna update/fix my mod list but i don't wanna play vanilla
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"nooo you don't want to be a vampire immortality is a burden" pshhh it's only a burden if you're boring as fuck like I could learn how become a master chef and still have the time to paint and learn instruments and party for a century like how is that a bad thing???
honestly but I did just remember how much I like italian food mm I still wanna get bit but I would be sad if I couldn't get a lil bit a garlic when I want
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.........lmao
so I was remembering the way I had to start wearing a training bra when I was like. seven or eight. and I hated wearing it so much that I would like hide it at the bottom of my drawer and try to sneak out of the house without it. (I was not allowed to go out without it, my parents were always on me about that.)
and I'd always conceptualized that as me just not liking my body being talked about the way it was now being talked about but sitting here in bed at age 33 I finally was like
wait there are times that I have to be really careful about wearing bras (or really anything that puts any pressure at all on my ribcage, including just well-fitting shirts) because that can cause rib subluxations. also, I regularly dislocate my shoulder while putting on bras.
and now I've got my head in my hands over here, because I swear, part of having chronic illnesses is just constantly recontextualizing your weird childhood behavior!!!
like I used to get in trouble a lot as a kid for sitting scrunched up at the dinner table (like crosslegged or knees pulled up to my chest) and when I went to Mayo to get diagnosed at 17 the doc was like "does she sit all curled up a lot?" and my mother was like "???? yes?????" and it turned out that was a behavior they'd noticed in a lot of kids with POTS because we had such weird blood flow problems.
(and yes, my mom then felt bad for yelling at me for it for all those years. lmao)
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Starting to feel bad about my lack of any career advancement or satisfaction so I think time for bed before I start blaming myself for my many limitations
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