#*CRYING* LET ME EXPLAIN

[inkskinned]

one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.

one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.

i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.

the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.

my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.

i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.

#writeblr #i was doing a lot with high school students. over and over again #other teachers kept asking me what i was doing differently - why the kids listened to me. i am not particularly foreboding #and i have a pretty firm personal policy of never reacting in anger #godhelpme. #i was always kind of taken aback #because in general the kids were pretty easy. i explained i needed to keep everything “PG-13” because this was my workplace #and it was kind of their workplace #too. besides #i love swearing #and since i couldn't swear #neither could they - so if they were going to say “fuck” or become violent #they needed to choose a really specific time #because we only get “the one”.. sure enough - nobody wanted to waste the one very specific “fuck” utterance. kids listened. #i think just because - that rule makes sense. the kids understand that i don't want to be unfair to them #that censorship is stupid #but that i'm under these rules too so like let's ride it out together #also i look young and tbh between me and u nobody wants to make the nice english teacher cry #the way these kids defended me to their friends was really genuinely so heartwarming bc the Grouchy Frat Boy #would be like MISS RAQUEL DOESN'T DESERVE THAT KIND OF AN ATTITUDE BRO DON'T TALK BACK TO HER

[julijbee]

girlbossing too close to the sun.

#art #ive literally just been treating this game as a library simuator #i walk from bookseller to bookseller opening up all of their books #vivecs sermons are either a highlight or the point at which i stop reading #ive been trying to convince the ordinators that imitation is the highest form of flattery but it hasnt been working #let me wear your helmets please theyre so funny.. #posting morrowind in 2024 isnt a cry for help but youre not wrong to be concerned. #morrowind #almalexia #vivec #im going to explain the chitin armor give me a moment #so the bonewalker nerevar on the shrines is adorable and it was only after drawing it however many times that i realized #it looked relatively close to a modified chitin armor #and so i modified chitin armor a few times and this was probably the cutest result #i also know i drew almalexia relatively pristine and untouched by years and vivec not so much but my thought process was #vivecs role as if not a favorite then the most accessible divine or the most “hands on” in a manner of speaking #acting in ways visible to the general population or actions explicitly brought to their attention #like not that almalexia isnt doing anything she is #but the dissemination of information regarding that is very different etc etc etc #anyways to a certain extent a god is the face on a shrine or in art or upon a statue or carving #but vivecs presence is interwoven with the geography of vvardenfell especially and his actions and writings with pubished materials #and the arts and culture and customs etc etc etc #so to me the face of a god you know and feel a commonality with or a god that walks alongside you is a face you would recognize #and vivec is already otherworldly looking enough #the simple mark of the years on his skin in some way grounding him in reality felt more right #that and i think the ways in which he and almalexia care about outward appearance are slightly different- they prioritize different things #and the ways they present outward power and their embodiment of their respective attributes share some similarities as they both have that #important preoccupation with physical power and physical strength to a certain degree #oh my god nobody read this i am yapping so bad. #tes

[iguessitsjustme]

It’s about how Cha Yeowoon represented everything everything everything that Tae Myungha hated about himself and he fell in love anyway. He fell in love with the broken sad boy who just needed someone there.

It’s about how Myungha took care of everyone else but neglected himself. He neglected the sad boy who just needed someone there.

What Myungha needed was nothing more than himself.

It’s about how Yeowoon fell in love with Myunga and in doing so learned to love himself enough to advocate when he was unhappy and he’s needs weren’t being met.

It’s about how Yeowoon learned to give people he hated a chance because he gave Myungha a chance and he learned people are wonderful actually.

What Yeowoon needed was to give himself a chance.

And now they have each other and they’re both happy. But more importantly, they are choosing each other and choosing happiness. They no longer need each other to be happy but they get the choice and they choose each other.

#love for love's sake #feeling completely normal about this show #how am i supposed to watch anything else tonight #cause this show did something to me and i cant even explain what #the storytelling is just on a completely different level #this show makes me want to sing and laugh and never take a single moment for granted #but it also makes me want to cry and let myself feel what i need to feel #that ending really took its audience by the hand and led us into a warm embrace #it walked us right into the safest hug #and i am absolutely and completely fine #and for once i mean it

[melatien]

My submission for @aimportantdragoncollector's trioholders event (bonus round)!!

they are at the beach

#why? to smash childrens sandcastles and so yoichi can force third to let him give him a sand mermaid tail #jk its because yoichis pale ass needs to photosynthesise #even just a smidge of tan would be a miracle #anyways it took me 16 days but i did it yall #im gonna go cry in a corner now this was a PAIN to draw #was nearly gonna draw thirds hand on yoichis waist but then i realised i'd have to draw hands 😔 #i was gonna give yoichi sunglasses but i ran out of time (ironic isnt it) #i had to make sure my first proper piece with the third ofa user was immaculate. i simply had to go plus ultra on him #....then the abs came #suddenly my will to art vanished #dont ask what happend with yoichi.... i cannot explain this phenomenon/miracle #something snapped in me after all my horrible yoichi arts i did the previous month #third only took me 3 days to draw. BLAME YOICHI FOR HOW LONG THIS TOOK!!! #his prettiness became the weakness for me finishing by the deadline #mha #shigaraki yoichi #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #third ofa user #my art #Three Weeks Of Trioholders #ichisan #i swear if i forgot a tag in here im gonna cry ITS TOO DAMN MANY #being someone that overdoes everything and is a artist AND writer is so painful. limits dont exist in the eyes of tien #just like sugis many ways to store me away #YEAH YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE HUH SUGI NOW EVERYONE KNOWS YOUR A VAULTER #i will escape from under your shoe. one day.

[trunklewunjle]

I did some twists and turns to the Dreamtale I included in the server me an my friends rp in, and I’ve been kinda hyper fixated so I did a little thing

I don’t like perspective but im going to have to eventually learn, soul shattering I will never be the same once i dominate it

Yea the fucking tree told him to shoot night because everyone is so mean to him so I just yknow she might as well also be mean to a fucking seven year old who knew no better 

Dreamtale (Dream and Nightmare) Belong to Jokublog

#undertale au #utmv #dream sans #nightmare sans #dreamtale #wow jaja im actually normal for once?? I don’t have anything to bark at but WROFO WROOF AUUUUUUUU howling in pain for them they are devasta #I love them sosososo much I have been putting Dreamtale animations on loop and songs that remind me of them I love them I want to hold them #and give them hugs and tea and give their little heads little kisses and and show them that they both deserve to be loved #I want to show Dream how to read and write and I want to comfort nightmare i want to tell him that he’s capable of being loved too and he #deserves the world #I cried I cry I always cry when I think of them I will always cry for them I will always mourn for them they have my entire being and soul #would kill for them please be nice to them they have done nothing but suffer and cry and be angry I need them to be happy please let them b #happy please I cannot explain how much I want to scream and bang my head on a wall when I think of them and their relationship I break and #cry urgrurghr why why why why why I have such a brain rot I just want to see them hangout and smile and call each other brothers and call #each other family I need them to gossip and pinky promise and cook together I need nightmare to teach dream to read and write and dream to #teach nightmare how to have fun and heal their inner child I need them to do brotherly things and cause destruction together

[mitchmarner]

Rielly from O’Reilly for the overtime winner!

Round One, Game Three | Tor @ TB

#morgan rielly #toronto maple leafs #i can't speak about what i went through making these lmfao #i cried 3 times with frustration #photoshop is my enemy #it wouldnt let me gif the goal in any way that looked like a real gif #i can't explain it #i'll start crying again

[lilpatison]

[Moulin Rouge 2001] art dump

(Because this movie lives rent free in my head.)

#this movie has such a little fandom… AND IT MAKES MY HEART CRY BECAUSE I LOVE IT WAY TOO MUCH. #anyways. I kin Christian and am head over heels in love with Satine. (barks respectfully) mommy - sorry. #let me explain the rat on the last slide. In Russian CRIS means rat. So to me #CHRIStian sounds like RATtian. which I find oddly amusing. actually… He would make for the most precious and adorable pet rat #moulin rouge 2001 #moulin rouge musical #ewan mcgregor #nicole kidman #moulin rouge! #fan art #my art #artists on tumblr

[earlgreycoffee5]

nobody loves ols m o r e than me alright but hear me out- Jane remembered Augie through his knife right??? but how would Jane and August both have known his knife? for Jane to recognize the knife, it should've been after he ran away from home and left Suzette behind, at which point all the letters were being intercepted anyway so it's not like he s e n t his sister a knife?? or he couldn't have given it to suzette directly bc he never went back home. but August said her mom said it belonged to Augie and it's passed down from him?????. am i missing smth here????? HOW DID JANE RECOGNISE THE KNIFE????

#casey mcquiston #one last stop #jane su #august landry #august x jane #someone pls explain this to me #ols fans rise #please dont let this be a plothole i will cry its the greatest book to ever be written

[writterings]

first therapy session in years with a new therapist let's gooooooooo

#am i shaking and crying ? no. do i want to? kinda like #i did just explain all my trauma and disregulations to a stranger #but i like this new therapist and she seems able to help me!!! so!!! yeah #let's see where this goes

[theinfinitedivides]

not KBS finally posting the footage from the 2011 TVXQ! comeback performance of KYHD in the Tokyo Dome right after the DB5K split like why the ever loving F*CK were they holding this hostage

#tvxq #dbsk #i was trying to figure out why watching this was making me emotional for whatever reason and then i read the comments #and everything made sense. explains why all the BIGEASTs and Cassies the camera zoomed in on were crying buckets like #sh*t a couple months ago they weren't even sure if they'd ever have this again #they really said 'let's see if they make it to 20 years and then we'll clear the vault' smh

[raintides]

AUGHHH AGHHHH anyway i got to episode 84

revolver throwing the duel as his way of apology and soulburner being so angry but also not being able to land the final hit MADE ME SO!!! also shouting and crying at the convo afterwards that was like

revolver: are you satisfied?

soulburner: of course not! i don't even know your identity! i can’t duel you! what am i supposed to do?!

revolver, resolutely: i am kogami ryoken

#vrains liveblog #trying to control my livetweeting tendencies but i cant anymore #sorry tabby for screaming into your dms for an hour straight #crying at how ryoken was basically like. yes. i wont defend or explain myself. i will simply let takeru beat the shit out of me #and yusaku watching in the distance like (thoughtful nod) these two need to sort their feelings out

[autistic-katara]

just watched Nimona with my dad and over the course of the film felt myself going

eh its not too bad but it’s seriously overhyped -> heh she just like me fr -> oh god she just like me fr -> oh god she just like me fr

#“i don’t know what’s scarier. the fact that everyone in this kingdom wants to run a sword through my heart #or that sometimes i just wanna let them” #cut fucking deep bro #also when Nimona got super overwhelmed and was remembering all the stuff everyone said to/about her #and turned into a massive distructive monster and tried to kill herself #i just- #damn how the fuck did they manage to capture that feeling so perfectly pls #i was like holding back actual tears and that’s saying smthn #(i like never cry at fictional things no matter how sad or whatever they make me) #and i was only holding them back cause i was with my dad and don’t think i would’ve been able to explain yk allat #but yeah that fucking hit me dude #it deserves all the fucking hype and more #will definitely be rewatching it soon #nimona

[ff2-soda-pop]

I'm starting to question if I should even bother with the stupid paper.... I'm probably just gonna fail anyways lmao

#ive been running around stuck on Babysitter Duty for the past three days and the teacher only gave us any instructions on thursday yet #somehow expected a full paper done and edited by sunday. even if i wasnt stuck on babysitter duty she'd get a shitty paper just due to how #little TIME that is to get things done. but because i am on babysitter duty uhhh..... well so far there's no paper #ive been spending practically full days having to take care of my sister and i cant just Ignore Her so i havent done my paper while watchin #her because again: my focus needs to be on Her. and shes incredibly loud which makes it super hard to focus. fun combo /s #so i was like 'i'll just stay up Really Late and do it then' but that hasn't worked because my sister WONT GO TO BED if im awake. i was up #until 4am last night hoping she'd fall asleep and shut up and i could work but Nope! #and then i got too tired to even care anymore #i've tried explaining this to others and they're just like 'ok well you just need to find a way to make it work :/' which is very much #easier said than done! and im scared about this paper because this teacher doesnt accept late work at all for pretty much any reason #and im sure she wont understand my situation. because shes also the teacher that didnt understand that i didnt have the textbook on time #because it was still being shipped and i dont control the rate at which book ships and she was like #'..........okay well you still need to have the book by tomorrow at least <3' when i told her the book had Just shipped and idk when i'd ge #the dumb thing. so yknow i dont have high hopes about this #also just as extra 'make stuff more difficult' i have zero accommodations because my mom cant keep track of my fucking IEPs and they wont #let me have accommodations unless i have that and idk how to get a copy anymore. so i've also been running around with no help in that area #and it's not great </3 #idk im just stressed out and frustrated and i Want To Cry :) #vent

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

*Alexa Play Already Gone 

+Bonus

#alexa play already gone #im not crying you are #sobbing #this scene is heartbreaking but also beautiful #i cant explain it #i love them #faves #favorite of favorites #olicity #oliver x felicity #felicity x oliver #felicity smoak #oliver queen #stephen amell #emily bett rickards #i don't want to let you go #that ruined me #gifs #gifset #gif #arrow #arrowedits #arrowedit #4x16

[uniiiquehecrt]

s/b: i don't like that thor features a love story

me: well let me tell you about how mcu!thor's core trait is his love and that includes love for his people, love for his homeland/home planet, love for his family and his brother in particular, love for the nine realms and earth in particular, and how that all boils down into love for jane— who's the most human of humans to him; who taught him how to be human too — so of course in the film where we're introduced to the mcu depiction of thor, his story is quintessentially a love story in both hope (jane) and tragedy (loki) and how those two things constantly conflict and contradict one another, and leave thor stranded in the middle because he loves both so dearly; patrick doyle crafted a beautiful OST featuring STRINGS and PIANO instead of just drums and horns because thor is strong and heroic, yes, he is, in fact, a hero but he's a beautiful hero because of his love because he is SOFT and it's reflected in the strings in both of his themes and—

#don't even get me started on how the avengers continues this particular theme so well #god the shot when loki has flung him from the ship and he moves to pick up the hammer and hesitates #y'all they intercut dialogue that someone speaks to banner overtop thor at that exact second #AND YOU KNOW WHAT IT SAID? “you fell from the sky” #he knew dang well he was worthy he /just/ used the hammer to get out of the hulk drop but he was thinking of loki #//who let go ... who was presumed dead for a year// #who .... //fell from the sky// #don't even get me EXTRA started on tdw and how it just keeps this train rolling lord the music of thor's 2 themes in that one too i just #lose my marbles every time gang i wish i had more technical terms and fancy composer lingo to explain this #alas all i have is a lifetime of choir classes and HS band + orchestra #which means that i know what i /feel/ but i can't explain it too good BUT HEAR ME OUT I'M TELLING YOU #his themes in TDW and 2011 both spell out /love/ what makes him a hero is his love !! he's love !! #&&. whispers #&&. meta #&&. | marvel. | #&&. thor. #so anyways guess who's listening to earth to asgard + sons of odin again and crying

[daminini]

remembering that one time I got yelled at by my teacher for laughing during a 9/11 memorial announcement

#mind u I wasn’t even laughing at that but the bitch didn’t let me explain myself #if it’s 1 thing New Yorkers take seriously it’s them goddamn towers #every year we had 2 hear stories from the teachers who were there first hand #one time my principal said that she was working at a school on SI and when they made everyone go home there were a bunch of kids panicking #and crying because thier fathers were firefighters and nobody was coming to pick them up #my other teacher said that he had a brother who saw the first building get hit #and then I had another teacher who talked about how her son had to walk all the way from deep in queens to thier home bc #all public transportation was shut down #funny enough I got to high school and nobody seemed to give a shit anymore outside of a moment of silence