#*feels meaningless

[boccher]

Would you would to a now world when they world is everything beautiful left

#sometimes i just feel like writing something thats completely meaningless #it clears my mind

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Call that a Cave Story.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen chao #wang lingjiao #mianmian #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #I had to cut the comic with JC 'holding WWX back from fighting the Wen Assholes' but it is with me in spirit. #It reads (to me) a little bit like JC is scared of Core Melting Hand and wants to have an excuse to hold on to WWX for comfort. #As far as I can recall they are around 15-17 in this arc. #And a guy who can rip out your golden core? The thing we know JC truly puts so much weight upon that he feels meaningless without it? #Yeah that's pretty terrifying. I hope WWX hugs back (he will not) #I have a lot more thoughts on Wang Lingjiao and Mianmian but I will keep them for later. #WLJ is a character I feel got done a little dirty because she has a ton of interesting potential that gets pushed aside for Mean Villainess #Let's be fully honest. Wen Chao and Wang Lingjiao are *THE* characters the Protag of one of those 'Reincarnated as the villain!' stories #Set up to be assholes to the main character and meeting a horrible end in retribution. #Do you think MXTX thought about that? How Wen Chao is basically the original Shen QiugQiu? #Who's going to be the brave soul who writes A transmigrator in wen chao's body (accidently makes wwx fall in love with him) story? #Though If we are going with “any mxtx character sho dies transmigrates to another book” WHO is the transmigrator? #Hear me out. I think it should be Original Liu Qingge. I think he and wwx would make a funny duo and I want to see it so bad. #AND the contrast of womanizer Wen Chao VS 'What is a woman' LQG.

[lyinginthesnow]

something about childhood in succession.. the way it casts its shadow over the entire narrative, the rotten root of the roy siblings’s pain, all wrapped up in Logan’s power and abuse and love. The opening credits are filled with images of them as kids, beginning every. single. episode. by emphasizing the importance of their childhood: the siblings posing for a photo, playing sports, standing on a manicured lawn, riding an elephant, etc. and then the shots of logan, in which he is always shown from behind, or far away. It is a childhood the viewer never gets to see in any other context, since there are no flashbacks in the show, and therefore as integral as it seems, we know almost nothing about it. What exactly happened? What are the details? We feel its presence, we can tell how it informs their relationships, we can put together the pieces of incomplete and contradictory memories expressed through dialogue, and if we trace their struggles and dysfunction back far enough we know it leads there, to when they were kids. But there is so much empty space we can’t fill in. It’s almost like their childhood is presented in that horror technique where you never get to see the monster clearly straight on. It’s always in darkness, and chopped up into close-ups so that the viewer’s imagination is forced to invent something, however vague, and that is far scarier than it would be if we could actually see it — a monster that is terrifying BECAUSE it’s unknown. The roy siblings’s childhood is a major force behind so much that happens on screen, but what specifically occurred is out of the reach of our understanding. We are shown the monster’s shadow but not the monster, we are shown the frightened faces of the characters as they look at something behind the camera we never get to see, we are shown the running or the fighting or the blood but never the true, bigger-picture, clear details of the horror itself

#sorry succession as horror scratches an itch in my brain and the idea of their childhood makes my brain explode <333 #just!! even showing this shaky blurry footage of mundane childhood moments feels ominous to me— #it’s like. a documentary abt something awful that begins with #a ‘before’ montage of seemingly benign family life #and of course when the videos were taken they seemed meaningless. but now looking back at them we can see they mean so much #like the tragedy was woven into them right from the start #eeeeeeeeeee i need to be sedated i think #roy siblings #connor roy #kendall roy #roman roy #shiv roy #logan roy #succession #ruby (unfortunately) watches succession #succession as horror

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[iamnmbr3]

Can we just take a moment to think about the fact that what Voldemort did to the Malfoys was so bad that even though he didn't even kill them and even though Voldemort regularly tortures his followers when he's annoyed, all the Death Eaters know about it and are scared it will happen to them too and see it as a notable and exceptionally bad punishment?

He must've hurt them so much. I mean Lucius still has VISIBLE marks on him even though a lot of time has passed. And all this happened because Draco didn't identify any of the members of the Trio even though he recognized them, thus giving them a window to escape. And he also didn't put up much of a fight when Harry went to take his wand. He had lived with Voldemort in his house for a long time. He knew what he was risking. And he did it anyway.

#Maybe afterwards he regretted it though. After all #everything he has been taught would have primed him to view himself of disgustingly weak for his actions #- for loving Harry #for letting his feelings dictate his actions #for hoping Voldemort could be defeated #for not being able to harm Harry when it's meaningless since surely Voldemort could never fall. #Draco Malfoy meta #Draco Malfoy #drarry #Harry Potter #hp reread #q

[virgothozul]

I-

hum.

#That 21 one questions meme #I don’t know if I should feel sorry yet. #Maybe there are several reasons why the people tried to discourage me to play this- #Have I ruined the thing for you ? #If so ; I’m moderately sorry ; also it’s never too late to unfollow -you know that right ? #I have forgotten many many things. But a few - probably meaningless or barely relevant - things seem a little clearer to me. #I hope this year will go ok. I don’t want to completely lose my mind. That’s my single wish right now. #these tags make less and less sense. #Don’t you find it easier to organise ur thoughts this way tho ? Little entries of words. #disco elysium #I need to say; I’m only day2 but if something ANYTHING happens to Kim .. #I’ll gun everyone down in this hellhole

[stinkythehutt]

also. something about palpatine being so adept at seeing into the future that all of his successes feel completely joyless by the time he achieves them because he’s just going through the motions… how fucked up and nihilistic and brutal that would make you…

#teddy talks #anakin is like the opposite of this bc he’s tortured by his future failures #so he lives in constant terror and denial #whereas palpatine is lowkey tortured in a different way though he’d never ever label it as such #but the boredom of it all. the inescapability… #in a sense of course you would long for ultimate power over the force. because you would feel so much just like a meaningless vehicle #of its will otherwise #and anakin would be a PERFECT toy for someone like that. because he is so bewildered. he’s easy to tangle up in knots #i’m just doing some character Thinking #but yeah. of course one in palpatines position might hate the force and feel a need to lash out and dominate it #and he manages his own repressed bewilderment by manufacturing it in anakin to an extreme degree #but. importantly. while also having complete control over the machinations of anakin’s experience #and by crushing the force and all knowledge of it #CHRIST i’m back sorry but all the stuff he does to extend his life. he obviously is terrified of death #and rather than face it he just creates My Apprentice: The Guy Super Fucked Up About People Dying #to punish somebody else for his own horror…. it’s giving projective identification. not to bring freud into this

[demadogs]

the mlvn breakup has the potential to be one of the best scenes in the entire show if it coincides with mikes first time coming out to someone and im SICK of people wanting a meaningless breakup in episode one just so you can skip to byler. does heartwarming platonic love and comfort MEAN NOTHING TO YOU?????!!!!

#i HATE WHEN PEOPLE ACT LIKE THEY DONT CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER AT ALL #THEY DO THEY LOVE EACH OTHER JUST NOT LIKE THAT #THEY LOVE EACH OTHER LIKE STEVE AND ROBIN OR DUSTIN AND EDDIE BUT THEY BOTH FEEL PRESSURED TO ACT LIKE ITS MORE THAN THAT #MLVN DOES SERVE A PURPOSE GUYS NOTHING IN FILM IS EVER UTTERLY MEANINGLESS ESPECIALLY RELATIONSHIPS THAT LAST ALMOST THE ENTIRE SERIES #and it WILL be a heartwarming emotional scene no fucking way theyre just gonna casually break up as if it was some two week fling #i am an elmike stan i think they will be so amazing as friends and i want their break up to be BEAUTIFUL #also again i do not at all think that leaked scene is their breakup #byler #elmike #byler predictions

[pacificobadiah]

@staff could I PLEASE get a Dracula badge for this year's bookclub?

#re: dracula #dracula daily #dracula #badge #i crave the meaningless icons #they make me feel whole

[ganondoodle]

even if i didnt love botw as much as i do, totk drives me nuts bc, similarly to pokemon, this series is so SO SO full of potential, they have so many games they can pull from, theres so many themes, characters and worldbuilding thats just left to rot, you dont need to connect anything with a chain to old titles, you dont need to bring back any things that already had their ending, but PLEASE harness at least a fraction of all this!!!! and they just refuse to do it beyond shallow references

totk jsut drives it all home to me, bc this isnt just the next game in the franchise, but a DIRECT SEQUEL no 10 years apart from botw, yet they cant even, they REFUSE to even keep the continuity with its OWN lore it established in botw together, and that, i think, is what truly makes me so insane (derogatory) about totk

it PROVES they do not care, they dont care to build on anything of the lore of old titles beyond references in form of amiibos or whatever, they dont even care to make a sequel to their most successful game in the franchise coherent with its own lore

botw established a captivating detailed world full of potential, while lacking in active storytelling, it had environmental storytelling, characters and ideas that were the perfect ground to build on-

and then they do away with it bc idk .. they want you to build mechs and make videos of it that go viral and thats all they care about or something

shiekah tech? forget that existed character being the character you know? act as if you are seeing them for the first time just like they are lame story? dont think about that just be distracted by the epic presentation of it lore the previous title established? forget that, all that matters is what is here and now beloved character from old games beign brought back? hes a new guy and has no background and no lore and just sits waiting for you at the end to have a flashy fight with references from old titles and their lore? just here for nostalgie bait, dont you remember? you LOVE this series, now give me 70 bucks for a glorified DLC that ruins what you loved about the series and makes you realize that nothign matters and nothing is interesting anymore

you are supposed to take it all at face value, to not think about anything, to see a character say something and just go with it, and forget it the second its over, be distracted by good music and pretty visuals, but dont think about, dont think about anything but what is directly said to you like you have no critical thinking skills, forget there was a game before this one, only the one you play matters, empty your skull and dont let yourself feel anything but what the game tells you to feel

if they dont even care to make the sequel to their most successful game actually build on the previous title, dont even care to keep their continuity of two games supposedly directly happening one after the other in tact- maybe they never cared, and all the meaning we thought we saw them build into their games was all accidental and meaningless

and that is absolutely soul crushing for fans like me to discover

its a game. its not a story, its not a world, its not themes, its not characters, its not lore. its a product made to make you pay money, not to make you think about anything.

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #ganondoodles rants #i know it sounds silly to say this game makes me mad bc its so clearly a game #but do you get what i mean?? #and the worst part is #they dont even keep the lore said in the SAME GAME in line #the people in hateno where links HOUSE used to be that is now ZELDAS not remembering him #the children acting like they dont know him #where has link been? #did zelda put him into the forest and just let him live with the boars? #even so the house is here so link must have been here to buy it- #but no forget that #its somethign that happened in botw and that never actually happened or mattered remember? #to have balloons and rocktes and people with WINGS in this world but none of them going up to the sky islands everyone is obsessed about`? #well its for YOU to play around with with meaningless rewards not for the NPCs living in this world #the godly goat guy and the hylian priestress directly saying zelda is their distant descendant to her and then #not show nor say not even hint at them having any offspring and then both die a stupid meaningless death to try and make you feel something #“doing the dragon transformation robs you of your soul forever and you will never return” #*returns via deus ex machina without even letting the player take any part in it but by -getting to the end tm-* #also i HATE how totk constantly dangles set ups in front of you #only to NOT follow up on them #the intro giving you a taste of what you might expect for- NOPE zelda is gone immediately its jsut botw but worse again lol #zelda getting the hang of her time powers so she might return to her time on her ow- NOPE dragon lol her powers are irrelevant actually #impa being the only one you can tell about zelda being a dragon and her going oh no im gonna search for a way to bring her back- LOL NOPE #its solves itself and you dont even do anything for it and just watch a cutscene #oh no link lost his arm and its beyond repair- LOL NOPE have your arm back like it was freshly made no matter how few of the light things- #you actually got- the things that where supposedly to battle back the thing destroying your arm #also howt he game gives you endless busy work without any good reward #krogs - mayoi signa - poes - scematics - lightroots - sign guy

[crimeronan]

thinkin about how gansey was the first person adam ever fully loved and also the first person adam was ever scared to lose. feeling extremely normal about it btw.

#feeling normal about how this confusion desperation and terror colors the entirety of their early relationship #the raven boys and the dream thieves are ALL ABOUT THIS #adam's character arc is literally nonexistent and fundamentally meaningless without him loving gansey. do you see. do you See #trc

[geryone]

Wish celebrities would stop thinking that its okay for them to put out poetry collections

#feel the same way about celebrities writing childrens books #like it’s NOT GOOD #anyway listening to megan fox’s audiobook and she keeps talking about sacrificial lambs and Adam & Eve and it feels SO vapid and meaningless

[emblazons]

"This is...my sin to bear. And for it, I must atone."

Dion Lesage in Final Fantasy XVI

#idek how I feel about these honestly. but. We're working through video game coloring after SO LONG with TV #my natural color tendency is STRUGGLING but. its a wip. and also...you should expect much more dion on this blog too lol #dion lesage #ffxvi gifs #ff16 #ffxvi #final fantasy 16 #final fantasy XVI #ffgraphics #ffgifs #ffedit #final fantasy xvi #ffxvi spoilers #gamingedit #videogameedit #dailygaming #my gifs #final fantasy #ffxviedit #its meaningless without queue

[uncanny-tranny]

Your life isn't a to-do list. You're allowed to exist, to take life as slow as you'd like. The dreams you have won't suddenly disappear. It's okay to stop and smell the roses, or to engage with "childish" things, or to recover, or do what you need to.

#positivity #encouraging words #life doesn't need to be a speedrun or a 100% run #sometimes it feels like i'm wasting my life but... who gets to tell me what is wasteful? i'm surviving out here and that's okay #and it's okay if you're also somebody who people think is 'wasting your life' #that's such a meaningless and frankly a very cruel thing to say to a person #because you'll see people call somebody's life wasteful because they're simply coping with disability/mental illness/grief/ect #it's a meaningless saying to tell somebody how YOU think they're wasting life. your life isn't a waste point-blank #we ought to be kinder to ourselves for choosing what we want/need out of our lives rather than placating to what is imposed on us... #...or the expectations we impose on ourselves #be kinder to yourself whenever you can. it's hard as hell but please choose kindness toward yourself #just something i thought about and felt like it was impirtant to me #i couldn't complete high school 'on time' because of covid and because i was in crisis. i felt so much shame about that. i felt stupid... #...i felt unworthy. but who decided that i am those things? the crisis i was in could have killed me. i couldn't deal with school then... #...it humbled me because i had to learn that i am not immune to needing to be kind to myself. i am human - i'm not a mindless drone... #...you aren't a mindless drone either. you are an individual. you deserve to feel safe. you deserve understanding and compassion... #...but not ONLY from others. you deserve it from yourself as well

[communistkenobi]

now that I haven’t lived with my parents for almost two years I’m starting to come to terms with myself as a full human being. and like idk I can’t really complain about my parents too much in terms of their overall parenting of me, I feel like I’m lucky in a lot of respects just based on the horrific shit some of my friends/family have gone through, but I feel like one consequence of how much my parents fucking hated each other for my entire life is that I feel like I have no reference point for showing affection or being emotionally considerate/vulnerable, those things tend to make me deeply uncomfortable and disempower me to do nice things for the people I love. I feel like I have to really concentrate and spend time on emotional reciprocity and spontaneous gifts/gestures of love. genuinely just kind of sucks how much my parents despise one another and how their constant fighting and days-long silent treatments over the course of 25 years has made me feel inadequate to the task of showing the people I care about how much I love them

#also protestantism will do this to you which is definitely some of it #my therapy insurance renewed for this year maybe I should do a couple sessions about this lol #I feel like I’m making progress on it but it genuinely feels really difficult. It’s like I don’t know what to do with myself #also the middle class thing of just buying shit to express affection #it’s so hollow and meaningless & it’s given me a really cynical and utilitarian perspective on giving gifts #which sucks! I don’t like having that view of gifts. possibly one of the oldest human social practices in all of history #aside from maybe art

[shepscapades]

Don’t talk to me for the next 5 months I’m going to be in mourning

#/silly #jimmy solidarity… like okay #did I want the curse to be real? yes #did I want it to happen this way. NO. #I didn’t want it to be jimmy’s fault. I didn’t want it to be an accident. I didn’t want it to feel silly or meaningless. #I didn’t want it to be full of regret. #I didn’t want ‘’I’m sorry’’ pinned in the comments #I didn’t want ‘’I’m just so bad at Minecraft’’ #I didn’t want ‘’I hate myself. I actually hate myself’’ #this is devastating and I don’t know how I will recover. #…/silly #limited life spoilers