#*has a therapy session under the watchful eyes of the void to cope *

[bvcchanals]

❛   ｡   ✩   ﾟ is that really ( alex fitzalan ) ? no wait , it’s just ( gabriel knight ) , that ( twenty-six ) year old ( soundcloud musician ) , who is a ( visitor ) . i heard they’re very ( astute, captivating ) , but still ( somber, untrustworthy ) . most people recognize them by ( smashed pills, sunglasses at night & bloodshot eyes ) & i can’t wait to see what pandora digs up about ( him ) !

hello everyone !! i’m ron & i’m excited to be here & to read all ur intros n get to know ur muses. i’m 23 n i reside in the gmt -3 timezone & i spend most of my free time watching tiny meat gang videos on youtube and making unnecessary graphics on photoshop. so here’s gabe, the Trash king. i’m gonna try to keep this v short. so let us esketit

originally from chicago. his family is like rich Rich. beyoncé kinda rich. it’s ridiculous.

his parents aren’t really bad people, they’re just very absent. leaving gabriel and his younger sister natalie to their own devices while growing up.

gabe took care of his sister and was actually responsible for her. picking her up from school, making sure she did her homework, keeping her fed and driving her to her extra curriculars. nat was the apple of gabe’s eyes like, he truly loved his little sister.

however, a year or so ago gabe & nat were involved in a car accident, leaving gabriel in the hospital for a month but killing nat instantly. so you can tell that after he woke up and found out that bit of information, gabriel was in shock.

after the accident happened, gabe never really recovered. there’s a lot of guilt and a lot of wishing that he could somehow swap places and it got to a point where everything gabriel thought about or talked about was the accident, and he just had to find a way to cope. and the solution was to numb himself to everything.

though they never outright said it, gabe knows that his parents secretly wish that gabriel and natalie could’ve swapped places, too. they lowkey blame gabe for the accident, and the reason why he ended up in santorini is a wasted attempt of running away from the guilt that he feels. ever since natalie died, gabriel dropped out of college and started burning through his trust fund. his parents would be mad, but they prefer him out of the picture tbh.

personality wise, he’s not the greatest person to be around. his mood is fickle and he goes from extremely charming to arrogant & cruel sometimes. when he’s in that kind of mood he doesn’t really want to talk to anyone, just prefers to lock himself up in his room until it goes away.

the drugs are an escape to him. he’s tried everything. cocaine, heroine, every single thing that can opiate his mind and make his memories of the accident foggy. he tends to lean more into pills, which is why sometimes his mood is terrific and he almost behaves like the old, charismatic gabe. 

the ugly truth is that gabe is a junkie, and he doesn’t want to change his condition, tbh. he prefers the feeling of emptiness to the guilt that eats him up the moment he gets out of bed. before the accident happened, gabriel was a perfectly normal, friendly person. but everything is eclipsed by the trauma now.

on his good days, he’s chatty and agreeable. likes to stroll by the beaches and relax on the sand, usually reading a book or just taking a nap, really. though he spends most of his time moping, sometimes he cracks a joke, makes an observation in his signature dry humor.

always in sunglasses, because no one needs to see the circles under his eyes or how his eyes are always bloodshot.

does he hate himself??? absolutely. no doubt

listens to a lot of sad music

honestly isn’t??? the life of the party

has a cynical attitude towards life. the sooner it’s over for him, the better

terrible self-preservation skills

bought a few plants to make himself feel better but they’re all dead now

always dresses in linen shirts bc they’re light and he escapes the drug induced sweat, or at least it doesn’t show as much

his favorite hobby is locking himself in his hotel room eating pringles, snorting pills & watching pawn stars

honestly needed therapy about 500 years ago but somehow still hasn’t gone to a single session

desperate. pls help him

here’s his depressing pinterest board: https://br.pinterest.com/namorbe/g-knight/

okay, so if you’d like to plot something w this mess of a man, pls like this post or yell into the void & i shall slide into ur dms. thank u 

#drugs tw #depression tw #wow this is Terrible #theraintro #also death tw #this is late i was watching toy story 4