#*i don’t claim any right to this*

[theminecraftbee]

task: answer the following question. do you believe in curses? respond as completely with relevant information as possible.

Grian: Well, that's a lie. This isn't a task. I know it's not a task, I set the things up! Not sure why we're getting a question as pointless as this one, but sure, mysterious scroll, I'll answer. There's no such thing as curses, unless you're Timmy, in which case it's funny, yeah? Besides, I didn't actually kill Etho. Even if that did count, self-fulfilling prophecies aren't the same thing as curses, and I know which one I fall under.

Joel: Do I believe in bloody curses what kind of question is that? Do I really get hearts just for answering this? This feels like a prank or something... well, whatever. There are no such thing as curses, except the Boogeyman curse, which I sort of had today, but it wasn't actually the same at all. A lot of the bloodlust, sure, but a lot more... Etho had to be the one to do it, huh? And it's not the same. Not comforting. That's a stupid thing to say actually. Take it out of wherever you're putting this. Cut it out of the recording. Comforting. Please. As if it were ever... Yeah, I'm done actually. Don't have a good answer. Go away.

Scott: What, other than Jimmy? Bless that man, he may not have died first, but he sure tried his best. Sure, I'll believe Jimmy is cursed. I mean, mostly he's just kind of stupid. Lovingly so. I mean, despite him being stupid, I put up with him, right? That seems like a complete answer to this question. Jimmy's an omen but we put up with him anyway. That's all.

Mumbo: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

Pearl: Oh, I mean, I'm probably cursed. That's what everyone liked to say at one point. I think... I mean, I think this time I have good friends, which is nice. They don't think I'm cursed. And it's not like I--I mean, it's surprisingly fun, acting cursed! And I am just acting. Acting scary, blowing up dance floors, all of that. And I don't really have to this time, so... Maybe I'm not cursed? And since it's acting, it's not real? This is a weird question.

Etho: Oh, man, that's a question. Um, do I have to answer? Because I feel like if I say no, that's really just asking for it, but if I say yes, I have to explain myself. Uh, I think I'm abstaining, unless the zombie thing from earlier counts. That was scary and I hated it. Curses are scary and I hate them in general, but apparently I'm good at them, if you ask everyone else. Um, it's not the only thing I find scary that apparently I'm good at.

Scar: Why, of course I believe in curses! Look at poor, poor... Timbert? Timmy? Jim? Gosh, sorry, I'm very tired right now. That's more proof of curses, by the way! That I'm tired. I've been tired straight since the desert, let me tell you what. And that, my friends, is a curse like no other. What a terrible beast, loneliness is. Wish me luck breaking it, because it's not happening this season!

Cleo: Oh, you mean the thing people like to blame instead of their own actions? Nah. My soulbond was kind of a curse, I guess, but even that's at least half just... bad people. Bad relationships. Good ones, too. We're all just doing what you can, you know? No script, no curses, no characters, just... Oh, I hope everything turns out tomorrow. Sorry, that's unrelated. It's just nicer to hope than to preemptively blame things on curses that don't exist.

Impulse: Well, I mean, I didn't until you just asked me that, but now I feel like I should. Wouldn't that be nice? Being cursed instead of just sort of unlovable? Sorry, no, that's mean to Gem. I shouldn't say that about Gem, she's been good this season. Super, super cursed, mind you, in the like, game mechanic sense? But she's been good, no backstabbing or inability to get love involved. Um, and I guess that's not fair to Bdubs, kind of, except it also totally is and I haven't forgiven him. So I guess if they ask I said I believed in curses, and that's why my life keeps circling clocks? Don't put any of that other stuff down, I'm trying to work on that.

Lizzie: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

Gem: I was just cursed for a task, but that probably isn't what you're asking about, right? I'm new, so I don't know! A task is a concrete thing to believe in, like bloodshed or victory or fun and games. You don't have to believe in those to know they're real, either! They just are, whether you like it or not. I understand that much!

Tango: Gah, don't talk to me about... Deep breaths. Look, I don't care if it's a curse, or if it's just me being really bad, or what, I'm not going out pointlessly this time. Jimmy managed not to die first, I can manage to not go out to a stray arrow or my own bomb or a misstep this time, right? Is that so much to ask?

Skizz: Huh? Curses? I mean, I don't think so, and to be totally honest I think it's kind of mean the way people sometimes rag on people about them. Everyone's got so many good things about them! Why do people like to focus on the unfortunate luck, huh?

Bdubs: Hah! Curses! Let me tell you about curses. When I see curses, I eat them for breakfast. I don't got curses, I've got better things to do! I've got my buddies with the Mounders, and I've got-well, I'd say keeping Etho safe, but he's being weird at me again this season. Not that it matters. It never matters. Etho and I, we're... The point is, that doesn't matter anyway, because I have the Mounders, and they're the ones who matter here. And because I'm a strong, independent Bdubs, who doesn't need anyone but my bow and my perfect, flawless fighting prowess! Sorry, what was the question? I've been thinking so much lately that it's just sort of made everything else pop out of my head, so it's hard to keep track. I'm sure I answered it flawlessly, though.

Martyn: Of course there are curses. That's half the fun for you lot, isn't it? Putting your little curses on us and watching us rail against them. Bet you think it's real cute to ask us what we think of the things, too. "Oh, what do you think of curses," like we have any control over them. Please. If I had any control over curses, Jimmy--or, well, no, I guess that one was technically broken, wasn't it? Sure doesn't feel like it. Point is, curses are bad, and they're definitely real, and I hate you for them, got it?

BigB: Look, man, if you're trying to get me to write my character out for you, just say so! I won't tell anyone. We can come up with a hole thing about holes and red tasks and the Backrooms together! It'll be fun! After all, you probably don't know what kind of curse to say I have, right? Haha, just kidding. I have no idea what I'm talking about. Luckily, neither does anyone else, so I think that evens out between the lot of us.

Jimmy: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

#secret life smp #a bee fic #not tagging everyone in this because it's. everyone #anyway i have wanted to write this for like TWO WEEKS so i figured that now's as good a time as any #anyway this is probably as thinly disguised as my character meta gets #we talk a LOT in this fandom about curses #we talk about whether we like them as fanon we talk about whether we dislike them we talk about who has them we talk about why #we talk about if they're here or broken or anything else #so i'd like to think the characters have an opinion on curses too after how much talking about them we've been doing #...at least the characters around to tell us their opinions do. #(anyway for all I claim this is thinly disguised character meta it IS actually of note that this isn’t actually about if they believe) #(but instead about how they’d respond if they were asked) #(hence why half of them don’t even answer the right question) #(this is why I’m not good at character meta btw)

[pink-satin]

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dabi x reader drabble

MNI

tw: blood, use of “daddy”

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dabi’s been gone for a while and you’re soo bored. you stop doom scrolling and open your texts to him.

“miss you so much :c send me a selfie.”

it takes a second for him to respond, but when he does you immediately open it.

“not now doll, i’m busy. you’ll see me soon.”

you pout and kick your feet typing back rapidly.

“pretty pretty pleaseeeee daddy need to see you or i’ll die!!”

dabi smirks at his phone. “little brat.” he mutters under his breath.

moments go by and you’re tidying up the apartment to waste time when your phone dings. you jump onto the bed quickly to check your messages.

there you see it. him. covered in blood, smiling, holding up the dude he just beat up, nearly killed, forcing him to take the picture.

“you better fucking smile. this is for my girl and she always gets what she wants. hear that? don’t want to hurt you anymore than i have so say cheese, dickwad.”

you giggle and press your thighs together feeling the rush of being with someone so deliciously violent and yet so gentle with you.

you send a selfie back wearing one of his ripped up t-shirts and nothing but dainty little panties showing off the wet patch that’s started to form- you immediately get a response from him.

“you’re going to be the death of me. on my way, doll.”

“don’t clean up.” you respond giddily.

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#satin-writes #dabi x reader #mha #dabi #mha drabbles #this isn’t that great but w/e #just a thought in my silly little head #wanting him so bad right now #blood kink #bnha dabi #my hero academia #i don’t claim to be a writer by any sense

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

I think fans want Jason to be a good person or be becoming one. To have a character that is well meaning and compassionate but decided murder is ok and to stand against main heroes who’s beliefs and actions go against the people he cares about and wants in his life. It’s confusing for people. People want their fav characters to be happy. But Jason can’t have his family’s support and follow his moral code. He’s cares about people and Gotham, and he’s an asshole who kills. It’s messy. It’s not black and white. I don’t even think Jason cares about being a good person or in the right anymore. I think he cares about what will save the most people instead.

Oh my goodness gracious I’ve been bamboozled

Batman’s definition of Good is not synonymous with absolute good/right no matter how much dc insists it is. Torture, battery/assault, surveillance, those are all condemnable actions too. I won’t get into the exhausting and frankly dumb debate of comic book morality wrt killing because I’ve already reblogged plenty of posts from other people who explained my thoughts on the matter far better than I ever have the patience to sit down and articulate. I also just think the notion that there’s something to be done about fictional characters who kill nazis and senseless murderers is stupid. Jason’s point is that the “main” heroes’ sanitized definition of right has its unaddressed holes and flaws which ultimately result in more preventable fatalities, and that he’ll work to correct those missing spots.

He doesn’t not care about doing what’s right. What he doesn’t care about (at least during his Winick characterization) is whether Batman thinks he’s right or wrong, because he sees the flaws in Batman’s methodology (and since he has a mind of his own). Batman’s methods alone cannot address Arkham’s revolving door and the rogues that come and go through those doors who have no intention (or capability from the doylist pov) of ever changing or undergoing redemption. Jason knows that he’s minimizing the number of preventable deaths by killing his targets, typically Characters Who Simply Do Fucked Up Shit Just Because, Why The Fuck Not?

Secondly, Jason is compassionate … to a fault. That was his fatal flaw. If he wasn’t so hell-bent on saving his potential birth mother he just met from that bomb despite everything she did to him prior, he could have protected himself instead, however slim his odds of survival were. What about his relationship with his other parents? He was a caregiver during his early childhood years for Catherine, until her death. Even mature adults who are financially stable find being a caregiver to a dying parent to be extremely burdensome on their bodies and minds, but he never complained about it or resented Catherine for being unable to care for him. Despite how none of his parents have really been what he needed them to be, he doesn’t blame them for their failings, and even continues to think highly of them (Bruce included).

And post-death? Enter Lost Days. Despite being dead set on plotting his revenge on Bruce, he constantly sidelines this in order to save other victims who are helpless like he once was. His own anger, trauma, and mission don’t remain his priority. (Sound familiar? Something something my own trauma above my son’s, mission above all else, etc.). Why would he waste precious time and risk his own life to do this if he wasn’t empathetic towards these victims or didn’t care about doing the right thing. He is simultaneously horribly traumatized and full of rage, and also incapable of ignoring what’s happening to victims around him (even as he claims that it’s indeed not his priority). And in that same vein, the entire premise of his rebirth outlaws run was that he doesn’t care if the public views him as a villain, an outlaw, so long as he can protect Gotham. And anyway where is this portrayal of him not caring about being in the right anymore. Almost every modern Jason story is about him grappling with where he stands with Bruce/Batman. During the early 2000s was probably the last time he did not care (hello, tentatodd??).

Jason has very evidently been portrayed as a kind and compassionate character. He is also simultaneously a calculated killer who doesn’t hesitate to kill when he deems necessary, and does so without remorse. It’s called being a Complex Character With An Edge™ that as you said, people so often claim to love. However when he fulfills that latter part, that seems to upset people because “killing bad”, and they then try to shave off and round out all his edges and claim he shouldn’t be that angry. In that case I guess you should just stick to liking traditional one-dimensional characters instead of claiming to like Jason but then encouraging his character assassination attempt by dc. Lol.

Lastly, who said anything about the batfam making Jason happy? Just because he’s written nowadays to want acceptance from Bruce (a shoddy attempt at forcing a non-existent nuclear batfamily), doesn’t mean that it’s a sound decision or that it does his character justice. I certainly don’t empathize with the idea that Jason needs the family’s approval or acceptance to be happy. (And anyway he has enough outlets for angst and pain aside from the batfam hello explore his other sources of trauma and do more deep dives into how he thinks when he’s alone). I don’t want them to magically make up and become one big happy family. This is not disney Lol. Besides, there are plenty of stories from dc that have that type of “wholesome” (hate that word utilization) characterization for Jason (Li’l Gotham, Tiny Titans, wfa, and even new stuff like the brave and the bold mini) and that is sufficient imo. Jason fans who are invested in the character deserve accurate, nuanced characterization and well-written stories, whether they be from his robin days (e.g., Batman: The Cult) or as red hood.

#fellas. ya know what else is wholesome? avenging your own death #you can have moments of ‘reconciliation’ or peace but still maintain a strained relationship which is far more realistic #‘he’s an asshole that kills’ and Bruce is an asshole who doesn’t kill. lol. #you can’t claim Jason’s conflicted and disturbed but go on to say Bruce is perfectly sane those two are mutually exclusive #also please realize that a character acting out of anger does not mean they lack compassion. #implying that he doesn’t care about doing the right thing is saying the same thing that person said; #that he doesn’t actually know what he’s doing. that he hasn’t thought through his moral stance. #‘Jason didn’t put any thought into anything he did in utrh he’s just a poor mentally ill lost soul who needs the batfam’s love to heal 💔’ #🤝 #‘jokers just a poor victim of society 😔 he just needs someone to understand him and maybe one day he’ll heal and realize he’s wrong’ #what they both have in common is that they’re misunderstood in opposite directions #the joker doesn’t have a point to prove. there’s no deeper meaning behind what he does. everything is a joke to him. #he isn’t unaware of right vs wrong lmfao #jason todd #dc #asks #my post #and I think you’re implying that he’s utilitarian based on that last part but I don’t think he is #user mintacle posted a few metas regarding that and again they explain it much better than I prob could #anyway it isn’t difficult to understand his character if you know why you like him and you actually read his stories #that post specifically was from someone who clearly said they did not read the comic so. technically they’re on their own wavelength #edit: grammar

[quietwingsinthesky]

See, the thing about the Amy episode that makes Dean’s actions so reprehensible is not only the part where he doesn’t trust Sam and goes behind his back to kill Amy or even the hypocrisy of Dean ‘you can’t change what you are so you’re going to kill someone eventually’ Winchester sparing the kid right after stabbing his mom, it’s that Amy is very explicitly supposed to be a Sam parallel. There is no other way about it, from the they’re both freaks part of it to Dean dropping the line about ‘the other shoe’ right before he kills her, she is Sam, how Dean reacts to her is supposed to give us insight into how he feels about Sam. And Dean. kills her.

The not very subtle subtext being that Dean is ready to off Sam if he goes too far off the deep end? He’s aggressive and mistrustful of Sam at every turn in the episode, lays the feet of it all at Sam’s hallucinations maybe leading him astray, but end of the day, Sam’s crimes here are A) was tortured in Hell and B) is traumatized by that in a way that makes Dean’s life more difficult.

And it is hard to watch. To spend this whole episode with Sam being completely functional on his own, making a rational decision based on past experience and on all the information about Amy he has available, and for the episode to end with, ‘but yeah, if dean thinks sam goes too far, he’s probably gonna kill him. because sam can’t change or be fixed, so it’s for the good of everyone that he be put down.’

#and then of course there’s the issue of the subtext setting something up that gets no resolution like. there is no point where dean is ever #really going to be able to kill Sam. no matter how bad his hallucinations get. not even a mercy kill crosses his mind later that season #which means that the Amy episode gets rewritten later from ‘explicit Sam parallel’ to ‘well we can use this for Brother Drama™️’ #god. god. and really what gets me about the Amy episode in general. like Thee Horrifying Part to me. #most of their hunts are very life or death. that’s how we get around the morality of it. either they kill the monster or it kills them. #Amy’s. not that. Dean tracks her down while she’s running and kills her while she’s asking him not to. #like if she had attacked him the scene would be totally different. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t even fight back. and he kills her. #like she has a kid and Dean is an unfriendly hunter in her motel room. it wouldn’t be out of the question for her to try to kill him #to protect herself and her kid. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t. I don’t know what you can take away from that except that she was telling #sam the truth about not wanting to be a murderer. if she won’t even try to kill Dean to protect herself. #there is no way to look at this episode that makes Dean come out looking good unless you’re willing to claim everything Amy said was a lie #AND that Dean would be right to kill Sam for *checks notes* Being Visibly Mentally Ill #fucked up. why’d they do this. #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #amy pond #like to be clear if you’ve got a different view on this that’s. not the above thing I just said. please tell me. #because from where I’m standing Dean doesn’t come out of this clean in any way

[theneighborhoodwatch]

i don’t think this is likely to happen at all, but i hope the fact that a lot of newer WH fans seem to be younger doesn’t make clown feel like he has to hold back with any of the horror and/or tragedy elements. not bc of any, like, “this ain’t your NEPHEW’S mascot horror… THIS story has THEMES” posturing (although admittedly i am not immune to this) but bc i think having your entire sense of self rearranged on a molecular level by something you really get but don’t have enough experience to articulate why just yet is a fundamental part of adolescence and i think it would be a shame to deprive The Youths Of Today of that.

#not to say that there weren’t any teens into WH before the night mind boom bc that would be a Demonstrably false claim #but like there’s definitely a lot more Younger ones around than there were before right? like 13-15? #on the one hand i feel like that should worry me more #but on the other hand what’s done is done and i don’t have the jurisdiction to tell strangers on the internet what they should be into #public notice #welcome home

[mxtxfanatic]

What does it mean to be morally grey? I've seen so many takes on this and at this point, I'm back at square one. What does it mean in the context of MXTX?

I saw someone say that LWJ and JC are 90% the same, but I only see WWX as a commonality, but nothing beyond that screams "we're the same".

Anyone would be confused about what “morally grey” meant just hearing it from this fandom lmao. In this context, a morally grey character is one whose morality cannot be said to be either moral/just/righteous/good or immoral/evil/bad. Instead, their morality lies somewhere in the middle, usually only dictated by their personal desires and motives. For instance: a morally grey person may have no qualms with murder of innocents if it achieves their end goal, but they may always repay a debt because that is important to them, personally (and the hows of that repayment will likely also be outside the bounds of morality). Idk if you’re American, but if you are, Red X from Teen Titans and Deadpool from Marvel comics would be considered morally grey characters. (Hell, most gods from ancient mythologies, particularly trickster gods, would be considered morally grey by our standards!)

In this fandom, however, “morally grey” is used as a bludgen to argue that Wei Wuxian, the moral compass of the story, is actually a bad person for his actions in the narrative while the other characters—that whoever is using this argument is stanning at the moment—are actually good people despite supporting genocide. This usage of the term completely negates intent, circumstances, or the characters’ own morality in deeming them “morally grey.” Therefore, the morally grey discourse in this fandom is ultimately meaningless because it is only used to paint every character as “the same” without prejudice, rendering the morals and themes of the story irrelevant. This is how you can see people who seriously argue that Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji are “90% the same” despite them sharing nothing between them but Wei Wuxian’s presence (which jc loses in the end).

#mdzs asks #gonna leave it here cause I don’t want ro rant #but people are just talking out their asses #particularly people claiming jc and lwj are ‘practically the same!’ #at most they are foils for each other #they are not mirrors in any way #ao you are right in not seeing it because it does not exist in anywhere but fanon #anon

[imzadi-deanna]

🚨BREAKING NEWS🚨

Chris pine officially worst Captain Kirk.

How much of a fuck up do you have to be to be WORSE than BILL FUCKING SHATNER

Yeah sure Kirk would kick Shatners ass behind whatever that American store that post said— but let’s be so for fucking real about how disgusted he would be at Zionist Pine

#all my girlies who have any variation of this is a willam Shatner hate blog I’m expecting at MINIMUM an added disclaimer about how pine can #jog off into obscurity like the hippie jiggy fuck he claims to be #because it’s not just a oh he just wants the hostages to be release he’s just a confused baby but he’s hearts in the right place #the cunts actively showing his true colours by showing his hard on for genocide #with the bullshit Israel occupiers rights to murder #I will never be quiet I will never let it go #Paulie boy I am grabbing you by the hair and hiss whispering in your ear to not fucking blow this for us don’t continue the wrong legacy #be the Tennant be the Nimoy just shut the fuck up and go get them acting credit and we will stan #chris pine #whoops think it’s too late to tag #Disney

[dykestache]

hi anon i was intentionally not referring to capital H the Holocaust, but *a* holocaust. yes that is a real word that existed prior to the 1940s. my wondering was if israhell’s genocide in palestine would be in line with this specific definition, hence why i did not capitalize it, because it has a different meaning uncapitalized. you can check out the multiple definitions and historical origins of the word holocaust here

#idk i was taught that holocausts still occured globally before and after the Holocaust in like 8th grade #however i’ve also read a lot more about deconstructing Holocaust exceptionalism and how dangerous it can be to claim its inability to be #replicated. i’ve seen israelis calling for gaza to be made to look like auschwitz so it doesn’t quite sit right with me what you said either #‘4. any mass slaughter or reckless destruction of life.’ i quite think it fits the bill don’t you?

[villainsidestep]

smth smth fawn’s self rivalry in the siblings!au

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #bc we keep randomly thinking abt how Absolutely Devastating the museum is in sibs!au it ofc led to #us thinking abt the heartache of having to see river take up the sidestep name #to have (who you think is) some stranger waltz in and just stake a claim on arguably the single most important thing in your life #(read: the sidestep name bc it’s all you have left of ur brothers) #BUT. then we started thinking abt how they Also take up the sidestep name again #and the agonizing self-loathing and Constant Mourning that they go through every time they commit a crime #bc it’s not just their own hero memory who they are corrupting and bastardizing but Their Brothers’…….. #fawn in the sibs!au is literally the equivalent of being so broken and bloodied and still dragging yourself onward #bc what other choice do you have? #ALSO !!!! bc we love to discuss fawn treating destroying the exhibition as a self-inflicted funeral. #knowing that in the sibs!au they probs only intended to remove their own self ?? but spare cyrus and river’s?? #except then cyrus goes and blows up the fucking museum !!!!!! #I know for a fact they’re too busy helping w evacuations to actually manage to detour and save any of it too #bc they def would’ve considered it. genuinely inconsolable later when ric talks to them abt it. #bc here’s the thing. it may not have happened in actual book canon but I know in my heart he would sit them down and explain that nothing #of the sidestep exhibit could be recovered. which is fine for Just fawn but when u include the brothers ??? absolutely not #angie also is the one who chases fawn off which makes it even more fun bc they Just run from her they don’t super fight #and genuinely…. idk if they could have right then !!!! I think they’d be way too distracted and shocked to manage it #keeping up with the beckers

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i hope the new superman is soooo good that it reintroduces superman back to the world on a big-ish scale and gives everyone a good story and gives back some good classic characters to truly love and that the music is great and that it reminds everyone (everyone) what superman is really about

#truth justice and the american w- [gets shot with a kryptonite bullet] no i’m jk #but i just remembered that it’s called superman LEGACY bc it’s gonna focus on both of his parents…. IM SO EXCITED #immigrant superman on the big screen for real mr gunn don’t fucking blow this for us #give us a kind wonderful complex superman #and please let this movie kick any dudebro who tries to claim superman as a paragon of (toxic) masculinity directly in the nuts #AND ANY DUDEBRO OR PERSON AT ALL WHO THINKS SUPERMAN HAS TO LOOK GRITTY OR DARK OR QUE LOS CHONES NO SON REALÍSTICOS O WHATEVER THE FUCK #GIVE HIM HIS RED CHONES GIVE HIM HIS SILLY LITTLE MY MOM MADE IT FOR ME SUIT #LET HIM BE RIDICULOUS LET HIM BE SILLY #HE’S A SUPERHERO FOR CHRISTS SAKE HE’S THEEEEE SUPERHERO #SUPERHEROS ARE INHERENTLY SILLY!!!!!! #let the whimsy into your soul you will be happier for it!!!!!!!!!!! #bluebird.txt #anyways i am absolutely asking for like way too much from this movie #and i don’t expect much from it as of right now #but it’s far away enough that i can hope and be excited without worrying too much if it’s gonna do my boy justice #so #yeah #new clark kent and lois lane dropped :]]]]]] #also can we get a jimmy olsen can we PLEASE GET A JIMMY OLSEN #now the question is who’s gonna play jimmy (PKEASE LET THERE BE A JIMMY WE HAVE BEEN DEPRIVED OF LIVE ACTION JIMMY FOR TOO LONG!!!) #and who’s gonna play perry white and THE KENTS WHO’S GONNA PLAY THE KENTS!!!!!!! #superman #david corenswet all my hopes and dreams are riding on you no pressure though /hj

[seilon]

you know im realizing now. with the exception of a few resident psychiatrists, ive had like. no good experiences with mental health professionals

#most recent occurance is eating my brain alive right now because I feel just so. degraded and offended by how she chose to evaluate me #I won’t get into it because it will make me spiral even more and get angrier and more overwhelmed but tldr she didn’t acknowledge #anything I said about my symptoms both out loud and via written test. chose to ignore or dismiss anything that came from me #as if I couldn’t be trusted to recount my own experiences and feelings. also did not take into account that I am an adult and thus have Had #to learn to mask and shit so while she brushed off So Much Shit because i seemed (in the three hours she met/saw me) #functional Enough. that’s only becuaee I put in a Lot of effort every day to do so. and that effort does not last forever #and of course because. like I said I’m an adult. I’ve been yelled at I’ve been punished I’ve been put through courses and #through the ringer of Society in general to the point where I mimic Normal Person Behavior at least somewhat decently when im prepared to do #so. she treated me like a child and didn’t acknowledge most of my major issues. ignored me when I said I don’t avoid social situations out #of fear/anxiety I avoid them because it takes a lot of energy for me to mask and try and read people and act accordingly #and in her report suggested generalized anxiety. part of the reason I was there is because anxiety HASNT ever properly described my #avoidant behavior. #and just. yeah I said I wouldn’t get into it but here we are. this always happens #it’s just eating at me because I keep realizing more and more things she just fucking disregarded. literally wrote that I ‘listed many #relevant symptoms’ and kept it at that. did not actually give those symptoms any validity. basically just implied I was listing things #just. becuase? #some shit was just blatantly wrong like claiming that I have a variety of interests when I told her outright that I can only be interested #in one specific interest at a time- example being the entirety of last year being only interested in One (1) video game. and this is to such #an extent that it’s difficult to make and maintain friendships because I have no interest in anything else but that One Thing for however #long and won’t care about other things people try to get me into in order to have something in common with me or whatever or just. yeah. #issues. #she didn’t acknowledge the issues I have with low empathy or overstimulation. didn’t acknowledge my history of taking things literally to #such an extent that it has caused problems with people. didn’t acknowledge anything that was self-reported and not being displayed in that #moment right in front of her eyes. it’s just. really really disappointing and. yeah degrading honestly #especially because it took months upon MONTHS to get this fucking appointment #and to just be not listened to and dismissed. #anyway. yeah I’ve also just only ever had really shallow relationships with therapists (at best) #and have never felt helped by them or like they ever put in much effort to try to Get to me so to speak. only my psychiatrists have #been open minded and Listened to me. but they were always residents so they’d leave in a year or so. I don’t have one at this point. #kibumblabs

[pollenallergie]

ignore everything i said back in late may/early june. i was hypomanic and, consequently, unreasonably angry for most of that time. 👍👍👍

#or at least both myself and my therapist hypothesize that i was #this is about all those times i claimed that i could no longer be a fan of a very specific celebrity #i’m not gonna say i agree with everything she did at that time bc i don’t #but also who am i to judge i’ve literally never been in that situation before??? #anyways i was cutting ties left and right with people for no fucking reason back then so um… #i wasn’t exactly stable #i was just itching to be insanely mean to people and i said some shit that i very much regret!!! #saying that i hated/could no longer support said celebrity is definitely not the thing i regret the most… #i mean i literally blocked my aunt and uncle and refused to speak to them for the stupidest reason imagineable #the reason? they sold their house #do/did i have any emotional attachment to that house? nope. they literally only lived there for like two years. #and i’d only been over there like six times during that time??? #so yeah… that’s definitely my biggest regret (esp since i’m still working on mending those relationships) #but like publicly denouncing said celebrity when i actually still really like them is definitely on the list of regrets from that time #like i feel like a flip-flopper but IN MY DEFENSE i was really fucking angry for no reason back then!!

[n--n]

I had a really great time going out to dinner with my mom and nana tonight at a nice restaurant but nana believes in conspiracy theories and my mom and I have to keep debunking the bs sources she pulls out in a joking way to keep her from getting too defensive about how we don’t agree and I’m so tired. God fucking help me.

And then they’re like. Both loudly and condescendingly agreed about the whole “men and women can’t be friends” thing and that men and women have completely different brains/ in general most men are waiting to fuck you instead of genuinely caring about you as a person (and they did that FUCKING CONDESCENDING exaggerated laugh w/ eachother over it. I know most men have misogyny and treat women badly. And that they talk about us differently behind our backs. No fucking shit. But it’s not everyone, and believing so stringently that it’s impossible to have a true genuine friendship without either wanting to fuck eachother annoys and hurts me. How can we ever move forward to a less misogynistic world if we ourselves refuse to build real friendships with the opposite sex regardless of gender.) and frankly that kicked the Gender Issues bruise in my heart and I just Was Not Having It at the end of the night

#still a great dinner and I’m almost cooled off from how annoyed I was and I was very fucking patient about it #but GOD DAMNNNNN IIIITTTTTT AAAUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHH #my patience was unusually thin tonight because they both kept bulldozing over any attempt to talk I made #and they’re both LOUD #because my nana won’t STOP TALKING TO LET SOMEONE ELSE TALK #and she yells because she can’t fucking hear but refuses to acknowledge it and when someone yells it makes me aggressive #and she INSISTS that we’re BRAINWASHED because we DISAGREE WITH HER #this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to using my tumblr like a diary I’m that fucking close to my limit #I still have to wrap the presents and pack #but I really really need to decompress #and I fucking hate that they’re both like. staunch believers in gene essentialist bullshit to cope with the shitty men in their lives #because like. that perspective that men and women are totally different animals just. #always brings up the memories of every debunked sexist claim about women and men I’ve worked so hard to un-internalize for my own sanity #and self confidence #I’m a cos woman I don’t even have the added pain of questions/transition but it’s still excruciating when that hornets nest is kicked #because it makes me think like. if they’re right and men and women have completely different brains (not just some differences) #does that make every nasty cruel misogynist claim about women- and thus me as a person- true? #are all my male friends really just. not actually my friends then #it’s just our biology motivating us to keep our options open #might just kill myself if we truly are nothing but a set a of steps towards fucking (which we aren’t btw. if we were we’d be more like #cicadas #or those moths with no mouth. #and we sure as hell wouldn’t live so long beyond our reproductive years. we are built for survival #not just reproduction)

[labyrynth]

*opens jgy tag*

“the difference between WWX and JGY is that JGY is straight-up evil. he isn’t a victim of circumstance or anything, he was just BORN dirty evil. he had so many options and he GLEEFULLY chose to murder little boys and girls.”

“(unlike WWX, who is NEVER selfish and is ALWAYS selfless and ALWAYS knows what’s RIGHT and WWX saves CHILDREN’S LIVES. how many children did jgy save?? NONE.)”

…*closes jgy tag*

#mdzs talk #jgy tag #this…can’t even be called analysis adjacent #they couldn’t even bother with factual accuracy??? #like you’re really gonna sit there and claim that torturing hundreds of people to death wasnt selfish?? #that relishing in their suffering was for the greater good?? #you’re gonna sit there and pretend that jgy had power before nmj and jgs kicked it?? #you’re gonna sit there and pretend that the watchtowers don’t exist??? the hundreds to thousands of people who have benefitted #from the safety the watchtowers provide?? #quite frankly if number of children saved is the metric we’re working with here #jgy FAR surpasses wwx!!! #wwx’s total is one (1) child saved almost certainly dozens of children orphaned #and at least one child’s body desecrated in death! #and you’re gonna tell me that mister ‘the power is ALL MINE…! so how do we feel about public safety infrastructure?’ is the problem?? #god i’m so tempted to reply to op bc this POST #it sounds like they?? haven’t read the book at all? or seen any version of the show??? #i mean for crying out loud mdzs is not a story about ‘good guy wwx defeats the evil jgy and all is right with the world again’ #mdzs is not a story of good vs evil #and if that was your takeaway you should probably still be in school

[lucysweatslove]

I told my best friend about some of the school shit and how I’ve felt a little micro-aggressed and discriminated against bc disability.

Her: “I will fucking slap a bitch.”

Me: “At least I have two friends who actually care and value me for me and don’t suck and aren’t performative and just like, value being a good human.”

Her: “I mean, I try. It’s hard when others suck and you want to punch their face.”

☠️☠️☠️

#I know I talk a lot about it lately and tbh i think I’m annoying some people IRL #like they don’t reallly GET it and they think like #‘but why are you leaning so heavily into your disability and autism?? it’s not that deep’ #‘nobody means any harm and it’s not the same as [insert other bias here]’ #never claimed it was comparable to other prejudices and will never compare it #but yeah I’m gonna speak out because it is part of my identity and discrimination hurts?? #im not ‘leaning into it’ because I’m a special snowflake or whatever tf you think #I’m ‘leaning into it’ because it’s part of my identity and experience and so many people are harmed by the biases and it’s not right #it’s not quirky or cute for me but a real ass disability #and newsflash!!! disabilities ARE still treated awfully! #not just mine but like all of them!! #’i don’t speak up because it’s not a disability to me and it’s not a big deal’ #okay congrats I’m glad you are doing well in the world! doesn’t mean other people aren’t hurting #I love that you’re doing well and it’s not a big deal to you- truly love that for you and want to hear the good things!!! #but all voices matter mean ALL voices matter including ones you disagree with #I will happily listen to your voice; give me the same courtesy back #when you fail to hear those discriminated voices you perpetuate their discrimination #sorry I’m ranting again

[binders-and-beanies]

If u tell a trans disabled person to call the cops or tell someone else to call the cops abt them u do not care abt that person’s safety

#or any marginalized group but this is in reference to me #thinking abt when a customer pulled a gun on me and i told my bf at the time abt it and rather than ‘omg are u ok’ #his immediate response was to get upset w me for not calling the cops after the guy had already left #as if i could do so while he was there either like obviously he had a fucking GUN what was i supposed to do #cops would have done nothing IF I WAS LUCKY + i could have gotten in trouble at work #told my best friend at the time abt it and how my bf had gotten mad and my ‘friend’ was like actually he’s right and ur a horrible person #like it was part of what ended our friendship #neither of them acknowledged or cared that I’d just been thru smth scary. just immediate rage w no apology afterwards #not even a ‘I get that that was probably scary’ like hello?? instead of being relieved I’m safe ur gonna use it for ur cop agenda?? #and then say acab online for clout?? #also thinking abt when another ex for some fucking reason told her ex that i was having a depressive episode and that she was like stressed #and her ex (who has never met me) was like ‘your bf is abusive and if u don’t call the cops on him I will’ #literally bc i had told her that like i was having a hard time and was going to seek help #anyways if ur like ready to jump at an opportunity to Insist on sending cops after a multiply marginalized person #then u cannot use our rights movements or anti cop sentiments to like try to get pussy #and u don’t get to claim it’s for our safety if we’re telling u explicitly cops make us feel unsafe. if the individual wants to then whatev #but if it’s a situation that affects me and not you then my consent matters and it’s a hard no #fucking anyone with education in these areas understands this! i told my psychiatrist abt these instances n why i feel unsafe w cops #and she was like ‘thank u for telling me this so that if there were ever an emergency situation involving you i would know to not do that’ #WHAT A CONCEPT #now im scared to tell ppl in my life abt serious things bc i think they’ll say call the cops n then scream at me if I say no #and if I tell them these stories and they’re like ‘omg that’s awful’ LIKE A NORMAL PERSON then im like omg this person is safe <3 LOW BAR #mine #txt #gun tw #personal