crowley must have known that aziraphale was also in love with him, he tidied the bookshop, he was planning on taking him to the Ritz after his confession, he had their song queued in the car these are not acts of someone who wasn't sure what the outcome will be.
which makes it so much more painful that he still confessed his love for aziraphale with tears in his eyes and on the verge of a full blown panic attack, he left saying "don't bother" but he still waited by his car til the elevator doors closed. all because
so i fucking spent the entire afternoon recording and editing a video for my psy class only for my prof to change her mind and decide to just have it as an online discussion.........
Fellas is it gay to hold hands with your best friend/familiar/bodyguard while holding a stake to your neck and speaking in an ancient language to let them know you can’t live without them?