#*whatever else

[aikselddaiks]

idc paint will always be so good for landscapey paintings

#ms paint #landscape #study #art #whatever else #hi im posting on tumblr again but dont expect me to be active here really #i made this

[samwinchesterism]

my tweets from a few days ago when this who knows dean better discourse hit twitter being immediately proven right by the deangirls and deancas fools in the notes of that stupid poll i just reblogged like "well ME and MY sibling are like THIS which means DEAN is like that and also [something that sounds smart but doesn't have any reference to or any support in the actual text of the show but is what i personally feel is true about the characters]" so i think ive cracked it

#this goes out to the person saying samgirls are excessively cruel in those notes as well #discourse #Anti destiel #Whatever else #realized this when i joked abt dean's ged and got 10 of them screaming crying about how i couldn't go to college r u saying im dumb

[sorryimdyingrn]

I just wanna say. I just wanna say.

If marauders went to Hogwarts in the 70's, then probably they did NOT dress like the marauders that fandom shows most of the time (in grandpa sweaters, 2024 fashion or like rockstar style that I don't remember the name of)

Imagine you're Snape trying to have a normal day and you suddenly get attacked by them

And this of course goes to every single character, but do whatever you want I AM JUST STATING MY OPINION 😘

#pro severus snape #anti james potter #anti marauders #whatever else #🥰

[itagerhardcoreyaoi]

tis one is pretty old but i still fw it..

#hetalia #tw blood #cw gore #whatever else #gerita #(??) #in the business we call this freaktalia #im not taking my fixation srsly

[lubotomies]

the ultimate tordedd amv

#eddsworld #ew edd #ew tord #tordedd #eddtord #whatever else

[konpyuuuta]

God smite me down if I forsake you

#i didnt wamt to draw RAM at 1 AM soooo AM posting it is #ive been on that no mouth grind lately #i'll be posting aso stuffs soon... #abd gijinkas #whatever else #okay thats it #ihnmaims #i have no mouth and i must scream #am ihnmaims #allied mastercomputer #chat this is literally AM gijinka #this may be real...

[silly-guy-enjoyer]

i <3 redesigns of totk zelda where shes still a little dragon-y. hell yeah

#totk #totk zelda #light dragon #legend of zelda #whatever else

[mechanicaldroning]

sometimes the side hoe isnt even a hoe. it's this specific printer at work

#perfect size slow and calculated very cute noises #objectum #osor #os/or #posic #whatever else #sighs

[necroromantics]

Properly addressing the drama

For the millionth time (The tone on this entire post is lighthearted and not mad)

I'm gonna start this off by saying that I have made multiple posts apologizing for my past actions, and acknowledging the harm I have caused in the past. I have apologized sorta- directly to Void (my friend sent my apology to them cuz Void didnt want me to contact them which I respected). I know I bring up my ASPD a lot, but please try to understand that personality disorders are dysfunctional behaviours ingrained into someones way of thinking/acting. I never want to excuse my bad behaviour, which is why I am fully open to hearing the others side. I do fully acknowledge that the jokes I made a year ago were in very bad taste now. At the time, I was very deep into drug addiction, in communities that encouraged my bad behaviour, and I grew up with people who held very discriminatory beliefs. This is my explanation for why I made those jokes. I'm trying to explain how my brain works, because it very clearly doesn't work how "normal people"'s brains do, which is why I was diagnosed in the first place. I understand my behaviour was harmful and incorrect, I take full accountability for what I have done, and I am slowly learning how to combat these habits and mindsets that I have grown up with. Its just very hard to do so when these things are heavily ingrained into me, and Im constantly bombarded with drama and being dehumanized and treated like a problem rather than a person. This is the ableism I have faced my entire life, and it follows here too.

I have mental disabilities of my own (very severe ADHD), I have been bullied a lot growing up for it, and also why I actively reclaim the R slur. But I grew up around people who would make fun of me, and people like me, and the way my brain works is that I'm not able to empathize or feel bad for people struggling with things like disabilities or whatnot. At the time, I didn't acknowledge that it was wrong, because to me that was normal and ok. I know now that it's not, and I'm in a place where (for the most part) I am able to try and consider right/wrong.

I do apologize if my tone in my posts or anything has come off as hostile or aggressive. I have a bad habit of that because of my hyperactivity where I speak faster and louder than I can control, which reflects into my tone in text. I have said numerous times that I'm not interested in fighting with minors. My intention was never to cause drama, but to defend my name against people making posts on me, which I have every right to do after they have spent 5 months straight constantly stalking and harassing me.

I do understand that they are all minors. In the past, they got mad at me for not wanting to interact with them due to their age. So it doesn't make sense that they're pulling the age card now. I swear from the bottom of my heart that I am not interested in any of this drama. Ive said it before, but I dont expect forgiveness or people to like me. All I want is to be left alone, and given space to continue my recovery for my mental health issues.

The reason why I bring up their ableism towards me isn't because I want to play victim, or to turn away from what I have done, or use it as an excuse. I take full accountability for what I have done, and talking about my ASPD is my way of explaining why I may think, talk, or act in certain ways. I have been very open about my ASPD from the beginning of this account, and on Discord. My issue is the fact I am being harassed, and have been for nearly half a year now even though I have long cut contact and blocked all of them, because I have "no morality", and I lack empathy. I think that is entirely dehumanizing and stimatizing towards people, not just me, who suffer from these things. If I am expected to take accountability for my ableism, which I have been, then I expect the same from these people as well.

I have screenshots where these people have talked about "cancelling" me on Tumblr way back in January. I have screenshots of death threats, and inappropriate things they have said about me. I understand they are all minors, but my ASPD doesn't excuse my bad behaviour, and their age doesn't excuse theirs.

This was never about caring about those effected by the jokes I made. These people have a long history of trying to cause drama for the sake of drama, and they have tried to do it with another big creator who I wont name. Also my DMs are open if anyone has any concerns, or wants to communicate about this maturely, I've always wished them well and hoped they would find peace and happiness in their lives as I have been trying in mine. Constant thriving off of drama is not good for anyone. Ive stated in the past Im not interested in that. I would like to move on from things that happened half a year to a year ago.

I have already been contacted by those who were involved in the January drama to get on better terms, which I very much appreciate.

I do not have the time or energy to cause unnecessary beef with random kids online. I have kept entirely to myself about this until they made a very public "call out post" about me where I do appreciate them showing me what I still needed to acknowledge and own up to in my past, but they cropped screenshots, not shown context, twisted stories, and have lied about me publicly on other things. My posts have only been about clearing my name and sharing my side. My only concern is telling my side. Anyone else would do the same with the things they have been saying.

I wish them all well wholeheartedly, and I want to make it clear I'm not mad, though I will admit I was for a bit there which is understandable when I have reached a tipping point after 5 months or so of non-stop harassment that I have tried my best to ignore.

I never cared to take any of this too seriously because it's the internet, and I know more than anyone who I am, what I believe, and how hard I'm working. No one else can speak on that, because none of you know me, really. But I have seen how they have insulted people who have nothing to do with the drama, calling someone a 'freak', flooding someones comments on a completely unrelated video, harassing random people in their DMs simply for being in my server. Many people of these are minors. I'm not going to let them do that to random, innocent people. That is entirely unfair how I am not allowed to say a slur I can reclaim, but they are allowed to go out of their way to bully innocent people who have nothing to do with me.

Thats where my issue lies. Thats what makes me upset. I'm a grown man, I have a life, I can defend myself and speak on my own issues. I've said many many times I don't want anyone to involve themselves in the drama, because honestly I think its a waste of time. If they truly cared about what they say they do, they would reach out to me, and we can talk maturely about it as I have done with some people previously associated with them.

I'm not asking for forgiveness, or for people to defend me, or take my side, or anything. All I am asking is that you stop stalking and harassing me, let me live my life in peace as Ive been trying to do, and please leave people alone who have nothing to do with this situation, and that includes my friends. I'm sure none of us want this to continue. Thank you.

(Also, I wanted to add onto the ASPD aspect of this cuz Ive been bringing it up a lot and I wanted to make it clear why. The way my brain works due to my mental health conditions is that I don't have the same emotional responses to words and others problems as most people do. Theres many studies on this, you can read up on it. When I hear certain topics, or words, or phrases, I'm unable to respond with the appropriate emotions and in all honesty it rarely ever bothers me, because I'm unable to empathize with those effected for the most part. I have a very strict moral code, but it's not the same as most people have due to this. I am learning how to combat this, because it causes issues like this. To me, saying hateful things is not the same as believing or doing it. Which I fully understand isn't the way most people see it, and I'm taking steps to unlearn this view. Of course my behaviour and views are going to be socially unacceptable, that is the entire premise of the disorder. Pleaaaase understand that when you berate and dehumanize me for that, youre berating and dehumanizing people with ASPD in general. There are many many other people out there who deal with the same things I do. What also bothered me was the obvious fakeclaiming in the comments of the post, when I have always been open about my diagnosis. I was diagnosed when I turned 18 in a forensic setting and my father has it as well. I have talked countless times about it. Thank you for all who understand.)

#tombtalk #creepypasta fandom #creepypasta #laundry and taxes #axefreak #whatever else #aspd #antisocial personality disorder

[murmurmurl]

I love drawing I love creating it makes me so happy and alive I never want to stop doing that

#in my element #flourishing #moisturized #whatever else

[aikselddaiks]

#furry #furry art #i made this #art #digital art #weirdcore #subway #public transportation #I LOVE TRAINS #etc #dreamcore #whatever else

[joanofarc]

midsummer pearls and plumes, shelleyan orphan (1987).

i'm stealing through arteries i'm coursing through veins of pearls that once fell from eyes gazed in plenty

#midsummer pearls and plumes #shelleyan orphan #1987 #rough trade #helleborine #caroline crawley #jemaur tauyle #post-punk #chamber folk #chamber pop #indie pop #sophisti-pop #neo-acoustic #whatever else #literally perfect #sing a song

[landofthepotatos]

Day 4 content. Cuddles are nice, wish I had some cuddles. I put Madara’s hair in a braid because I just know that man’s hair gets tangled to hell, if he doesn’t put it up in some what when going to sleep.

#art #digital art #drawing #madara uchiha #naruto #tobirama #madara #tobirama senju #artists on tumblr #madatobiweek2022 #madatobi #tobimada #cuddles #IKnowThatMansHairGetsSoTangled #whatever else

[lubotomies]

what have you done

#eddsworld #ew edd #ew tord #tordedd #eddtord #whatever else #history books said they were good friends #menswear5

[toadstool32]

picture to go with the utau cover i made for sickness and blue

#ddd #ansatsu kyoushitsu #assasination classroom #nagisa shiota #blood #whatever else

[m4ur]

I recently stumbled on Caravaggio’s Judith Beheading Holofernes when I was at the Minneapolis Institute of Art and was so overwhelmed I stood there frozen with a few tears running down my cheeks. It’s not my favorite painting by any means, or even my favorite Judith painting (Artemisia Gentileschi’s is my pick), but there I was standing with this beautiful 16th century masterpiece I had studied in high school and in college when I was an art history major… how often do we get that chance?! I was overwhelmed with the history contained within the object, all the eyes that had witnessed it before me. Imagine standing next to someone from 1600, how completely different our worlds are, yet we both are compelled to look. I am convinced that art is what makes us human. And now I’m crying again

#ngl I do think Caravaggio’s is prettier #but sometimes it’s not about pretty #Caravaggio #judith beheading holofernes #minneapolis institute of art #blood #whatever else