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lunarianillusion · 3 years

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A change in fate

a maribat fanfic

Chapter 02

Along with the changes to her room, Marinette had also changed her wardrobe. She now wore a cropped baby blue hoodie over a grey-purple shirt, that matched her leggings. Over her leggings she wore a high waisted demin coloured skirt with matching heeled ankle boots. A new larger purse, more a satchel really, hung from her shoulder. It allowed her to carry her sketchbook and other tools more easily. Her hair now mostly hung lose over her shoulders with two braids coming from the sides and connecting at the back of her head.

Once she was ready Marinette walked at an easy pace to the agreed meeting spot. Duusu Had taken to hiding within her hood, so that they could drink in all of the sights. Being both not used for a hundred or so years and being broken, made this a real treat for the little peafowl. Marinette could practically feel the little god vibrating with joy, to be outside in the world again.

The sun was shining through the clouds and a soft breeze made the early autumn leaves rustle in the trees, as the two reached the park. Marinette could already spot the red-haired omega sitting on a bench close to the pond in the shade of a willow tree. He was fidgeting with a pencil and his sketch book lay on his lap. His posture looked tense.

By the look of it he too had a wardrobe change. Marinette was gonna bet that Marc had helped with the ensemble. Those two were inseparable. He wore a white long-sleeved turtleneck shirt with grey stripes on his chest. Faded navy pants and a jacked tied around his waist. A black and white backpack with rainbow details sat beside him.

“Hey, Nathaniel,” Marinette called out, gaining said boy’s attention as she neared.

“Hey, Marinette,” Nathaniel greeted, his shoulders losing the smallest amount of tension. “Glad you could come. I hope you weren’t too busy.”

“Circumstances made it so that I had nothing scheduled today. But I do hope you were not lying about it being important. Otherwise I will send the Fury’s of art upon thee,” The blue-eyed girl exclaimed in a posh voice. Marinette hoped that it would lighten some of the tension that was flowing through the air and it seemed to work. There was no need for an Akuma today.

“Oh, I beg mercy of thee. Do not condemn me to such a fate, for I would not dare to break my vow,” Nathaniel exclaimed in kind, placing his hand on his heart. It made both of the omegas chuckle and the hidden kwami purr softly.

“So, what is it you wanted to talk about?” Marinette asked, as nonchalant as possible. As she sat down on the bench and pulled out a thermos from her satchel. Which held the gods elixir, coffee. “It sounded quite urgent from your text.”

“Yeah, it is,” Nathaniel said sheepishly, scratching his neck. “But it is not an easy subject to start a conversation with. Or to talk about in general, I believe. So, let me first ask you how you are feeling. I know you have probably had this question asked to many times already. But I know what it is like to be akumatized and of the nightmares that follow so don’t try to say that all is just hunky-dory great.”

Marinette hummed at his words, raising an amused eyebrow at the last bit. Before turning her gaze away from the redhead. Her sharp eyes scanning the surroundings for any uninvited guests. While she knew Nathaniel would keep to his word the scent anxiety kept her slightly on edge. Paranoia had settled deep into her over the past few years. Only the little hidden kwami’s presence was what kept her calm. For Duusu would inform her if someone with bad intentions was to come close.

After a moment of thought Marinette answered. “I was a bit shaken after the whole event, who wouldn’t? All considered though, I think I am doing pretty good.”

After the whole reveal of her being a true soul, Duusu had helped sort out her emotions. They had given her a few suggestions on how to more healthily coupe with the more negative ones. Who knew writing your problems down on a slip of paper and then watching it burn could be so therapeutic.

She turned her gaze back to Nathaniel. “As for the subject of our meeting. Just be blunt about and we will go from there. Keeping it bottled up and it will only stress you out over time and I really don’t wanna deal with an akuma right now,” She accentuated the last part of her statement.

“Yeah, that would really kill the mood wouldn’t it,” Nathaniel sighed. He took a small breath to collect his courage as Marinette took another sip of her coffee. Then Nathaniel bluntly stated: “I know that you are the original ladybug.”

Cue spit-take from Marinette. Mental panic has reached its peak! Abort!! ABORT!!!

“Uhm…I don’t know wha-”

“Don’t even try Marinette. The amount of times I saw ladybug land on your balcony only for you to leave through the front door and vice versa. Was a big enough give away. After that your physiques just matched up,” Nathaniel boldly interrupted. Leaving Marinette in a stunned wide-eyed stare. “Hey, I might not be a fashion designer, but I am an artist and have an eye for these details just like you.” He said quickly with a small stutter. Since he was feeling a little unnerved at her wide-eyed stare. It was as if she was staring into his soul.

“How long have you known?” The female omega asked tentively, her scent spiked with anxiety. Her body language screamed that she was ready to bolt.

“For maybe seven months now,” Nathaniel replied carefully.

“Did you tell anyone?” Marinette asked further, the tension not leaving her.

“I told no one, not even Marc. I know of the importance and reasons behind a hero’s secret identity,” Nathaniel told her sincerely, allowing Marinette to breathe a small sigh of relief. The redhead then let out a small growl of annoyance. “Unlike a certain tabloid reporter and two-faced liar.” Now that that really got the noir haired girl’s attention even more than him knowing her secret.

“The spell broke,” Marinette whispered as his words settled into her brain as her eyes widened even more, if that was even possible, in surprise. While she had been frightened at the fact of him knowing her secret, but he had not told anyone. She could tell that he was honest in the fact that he had not told anyone. Since otherwise her identity would have probably been public news by now. Secrets like this would spread around like wildfire with the slightest slip off the tongue.

So, she was now more interested in the fact that he called Rossi a liar. It meant that he had broken through her spell and she wanted to know how he came to this revelation. Had it come after he had fond out about her hidden I.D. or was it something else. She was practically vibrating with a curious need to know and asked him about it.

Nathaniel turned his eyes to the sky, several emotions running trough them. Most prominent was the look of shame and pain. “It did weaken her hold over me, but what really made me realise she was a liar was when she promised to introduce me to one of my idols. One I know to have passed away. I won’t say their name, but that really broke the illusion for me,” He spoke bitterly.

Marinette let out a pained hiss at that. Knowing how painful it is to have someone disrespect your inspirational idols in that manner. She softly rubbed his shoulder in comfort and gave a small apology. Nathaniel let out a gloomy laugh and turned his eyes to the ground. “You have nothing to apologize for Marinette. I should be the one to apologize. For never mastering up the courage to stand up for you even after I realized Lie-la’s grandeur was nothing more than empty words. And I am truly sorry for that. Because after everything you have helped me with, I really should have.”

Marinette felt her heart flutter at his apology and then he just kept on rambling about how he should have stood up for her. How he should have trusted her. Making her feel hot tears gather in her eyes. She had waited so long to have one of her friends back and here was one. Trying his best to make amends and unlike the rest of her class, he had never hurt her in the same way the others had. He always remained kind to her even before he knew of her secret. He may have been afraid to stand up but did not try to ruin her life like the others. So, she had no trouble pulling him into a hug. At first it shocked the boy, but he gratefully returned the gesture.

“Don’t blame yourself. You did not do anything wrong. You did not turn your back to me like the others did. I don’t blame you for not standing up against Rossi. You would have only painted a target on your back, and she would have made you feel miserable. Like with me,” Marinette whispered. “And I need to thank you for keeping my secret all this time. It means the world to me.” Nathaniel tightened his hold on the girl as a few tears of relief and gratitude fell from his eyes, as the words left her mouth. Duusu nuzzled against her neck in comfort. A feeling of pride washing over the kwami of emotion at his little bird.

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After they let go of each other they settled back into more comfortable sitting positions. The atmosphere feeling lighter than it had been around them for a long while.

“If it is okay to ask,” Nathaniel spoke carefully. “Is the new ladybug permanent? Because if I am being honest, I don’t really trust her.”

Marinette let outa pained sigh. “I made a grave mistake and because of that this new ladybug has the ladybug miraculous. I don’t know how to rectify this mistake, but I will find a way. That is a promise.”

“You always find a way,” Nathaniel assured. “I’ll keep my eyes open as well. I might not be the bravest, but I want to help. After everything I need to help. Even the tiniest bit.” Marinette wanted to say he did not have to. He did not let her say it. “You have forgiven me, but now I need to forgive myself. So let me help. Paris is my home to.”

It made Marinette smile as she felt the sincere emotion and determination flood of her fellow omega. “Now if only I knew how Lie-la is capable of keeping our classmates and others at her bag and call. That might help take bit of stress of my back,” She sighed. Her eyes scanning the sky, hoping it held the answers.

This made Nathaniel scratch his neck again sheepishly. “Marc and I may have a theory on how she keeps everyone under her spell, actually,” He mumbled off.

Marinette whipped around so fast it was a wonder she did not get any whiplash. She grabbed the redhead’s shoulders and looked straight into his turquoise eyes. Her own silvery blue crystal eyes were ablaze with a cold fire. “Please explain how that two-faced bitch is killing all the fucking braincells of the people around us and turning them into fucking sheep,” Her voice had an icy chill to it that sent shivers up the Nathaniel’s spine.

“I didn’t know you could curse,” Nathaniel said trying to curl away from the internally raging female omega.

It resulted in Marinette raising an eyebrow, unimpressed. “Trust me when I say Chloe can swear like a bloody sailor. So, I learned a few things from her,” She huffed a small smirk on her face. She then let go of his shoulders, giving the redhead some room to breath, as a curios gaze replaced the once cold fire. “Please share. My curiosity is going to kill me.”

Before Nathaniel could start telling her about the theory however, a loud explosion penetrated the air. Both omegas turned to the source of the sound. A good distance away they saw a person a top a glider. They cackled madly as they threw loud explosives around.

Really Hawkmoth, can’t they have one day of peace?

The answer: Nope.

“How about we continue this conversation tomorrow over lunch. Chloe and Marc can join in on the theory. I do believe Chloe will be thrilled to know how Lie-la is capable of maintaining the utterly ridiculous situation at school,” Marinette proposed. Her eyes never leaving the new akuma.

“You are going to investigate, aren’t you?” Nathaniel asked nervously. Marinette simply nodded not looking at him. He sighed, “I won’t be able to change your mind, will I? How can I help?”

“It would be best for you to get to safety,” Marinette advised. Turning to look him directly in the eye and stopping him from objecting. “You have no need to worry about me. I still have an ace up my sleeve. So, trust me,” She assured with a mischievous look in her eyes.

Nathaniel stared uneasily at his fellow omega before nodding. “Alright but be careful, okay, I better see you at school tomorrow.” Was the last thing he said before grabbing his stuff and turning away to go to one of the akuma shelters. Leaving Marinette alone.

Taking a quick survey of her surroundings, to make sure the coast was clear, she asked Duusu to come out. “Are you ready?” the little god asked. Marinette smirked in reply. Let’s see what they were capable of.

“Duusu, Spread my Feathers”

Authors note: hey i hope you enjoyed reading this chapter. a few people have been asking me about adding them to my taglist and being honest i am not sure of how to do that. i am still very new with tumblr, but once i finally stop being dumb i'll be sure to do that. i hope you will stick around to the rest of the story. stay save.

#maribat #timari #timinette #marinette dupain cheng #nathaniel kurtzberg #ml duusu #duusu #miraculous ladybug #peacock miraculous #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir

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kinkymagnus · 4 years

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Do u think after marriage,magnus would try to be good enough for Alec...Whether in sex or in regular life? Would try to be "perfect",not let the "spark die"?:)) would try not be a brat and be good for Alec during sex but for more angsty reasons than kinky?

you are absolutely correct and now i’m crying, thanks pasta

i strongly think that like. after that breakup magnus is gonna be MESSED UP. they don’t really talk about it in the show but alec--for good reasons or not--hit him right in the absolute worst insecurities. and even if he later finds out that alec didn’t leave him for breaking down or being upset or being a “burden” or losing some sort of spark, there was still that long moment (hours? days? even longer? not sure what the piece of shit timeline even is) where he was devastated, crushed, and absolutely certain that all his worst fears were true, and he was unlovable and worthless without his magic, that the worthwhile parts of him just boiled down to his magic and what he could do to help people, that he couldn’t break down or be vulnerable with people he loved because then he was burdening them, he had to be perfect and happy and flawless at all times

that’s gonna fuck a guy up, my dudes!

so magnus trying way too hard to be perfect and unaffected by everything and do whatever alec wants (it’s not like he suddenly goes into Complete Pushover Ragdoll Mode but like. he’s suddenly a lot more willing to do whatever alec wants even if normally he might banter--like maybe alec wants to order pizza and normally magnus would tease him or they’d debate the pros and cons of pizza versus chinese jokingly, but now magnus is just like “i mean okay :)”--it’s mostly silly things, things that don’t bother him that much, he just.... would rather not risk it. just in case. he tries to make himself more--pliable. likable. his use is in helping and giving, so he will help and give all he can. he doesn’t always succeed because he can’t just Stop Being Himself no matter how hard he tries but he tries. so. hard. meanwhile alec is like magnus is acting a little weird. i hope he’s okay and starts trying to make magnus feel better even tho he doesn’t necessarily know what’s wrong.)

and like if he’s upset he hides it, if he has nightmares instead of cuddling closer into alec’s arms or letting alec comfort him he hides them, or leaves the room (he hasn’t done that since the body swap so you Know it’s serious) because he can’t break down, he can’t burden alec, he’s happy and fine and look! he has his spark! he is happy and fine! haha!!!!!!! he is perfect and there is no need to leave him!!! all alone!! and sad!!!

and then during sex!!! magnus normally likes to be a little bratty, he likes to tease, likes alec to snap and “make him take it” you know, it’s fun for both of them and it lowkey makes magnus feel safe bc he can push and push but alec only ever makes him feel good for it, you know? does that make sense? like he knows his boundaries with alec and knows where they stand, and he knows that when alec “snaps” it’s about making magnus feel good, and he knows if alec was actually uncomfortable or annoyed he’d say something.

but now magnus is afraid to push, he’s afraid to go too far, to be annoying or to upset alec. he isn’t sure of the boundaries anymore, because if he let himself be vulnerable before and then realized he’d misstepped and “burdened” alec, maybe he’s wrong about this, too. maybe alec’s actually annoyed with him. he just wants to give alec what he wants and not push it.

plus, feeling less assertive in setting his own boundaries--being more likely to go along with something even if he isn’t in the mood, because it’s fine, alec wants it, and it’s not like it will hurt, why is he being such a baby (i feel like alec notices this tho, he’ll be kissing magnus like they’re bout to start taking off clothes and he’ll notice magnus seems reluctant and will just. slow down and magnus is always relieved)

and just generally he’s so much more eager to please. he already was before but now it’s more prevalent. he just wants to make alec feel good, wants to please him, wants to be good enough.

and if maybe he doesn’t want something, well, it doesn’t really matter, does it?

i do feel like magnus would be in a bad enough state that, especially after a while, he’d be willing to completely ignore his own wants/needs/boundaries during sex for alec’s sake. however, i also think at this point alec would know his boundaries and what he likes/dislikes pretty well, and would notice if he got really uncomfortable, so it wouldn’t turn into magnus having sex he really doesn’t want to have, even if it could from magnus’s actions alone. if that makes sense.

but eventually you know they gotta sort that shit out!! and talk!!! alec noticing magnus is pushing himself too far and never letting himself be upset and being more Agreeable and pliant than usual and being like...magnus....are you okay....?????

idk how this breaks, either something forces the issue (like a “Reveal A Secret Or There Are Consequences” or a truth spell or mind reading/telepathy or dreamwalking or some sort of situation that forces magnus to talk about his feelings or alec to confront magnus) or magnus just snaps (has a breakdown again?) or alec confronts magnus strongly enough that he ends up giving in and hesitantly admitting his feelings, the point is eventually alec Finds Out

and he’s fucking heartbroken that magnus feels like this, that alec inadvertently broke his trust and made him feel like he can’t be vulnerable around him

and of course, magnus doesn’t blame him (which is partly because he’s way too forgiving of people who hurt him oops) because he understands the choice alec makes, and understands that while he would have wanted alec to COME TO HIM, part of the deal was that he couldn’t and alec would never have forgiven himself if he’d lost magnus’s magic for him forever. he understands logically that alec didn’t leave him for “being a burden” and isn’t using him and does love him, but he can’t help how he feels and what his previous experience have taught him and all the niggling doubt at the back of his mind

but alec just hugging magnus tight and then they talk and Healthily Communicate and alec is just. trying to get magnus to understand that he isn’t going to leave magnus at the drop of a hat and loves him. obviously this isn’t solved in one talk, but like, alec works on showing his love for magnus Even More and encouraging communication, for magnus to accept comfort and be vulnerable and show when he’s upset, and like. also alec just like. stays. time helps, you know? it’s easier to believe alec isn’t going to leave him when alec has been with him for eight centuries and counting with no signs of leaving :)

just...magnus slowly healing, both just. himself, learning to be confident in that again, and with alec’s support. and like, standing up for himself more (i wanna be clear again it’s not that he’s suddenly become a total pushover who lets people walk all over him. it’s specifically he’s scared alec will leave him, and insecure about being “too much”, and he hides his imperfections/negative emotions and bends a little more to what he thinks will please alec because he doesn’t want to be left alone. it is NOT he’s suddenly got a submissive personality or that he wouldn’t stand up for himself in a serious situation.) and setting his boundaries more (and AGAIN alec isn’t crossing lines, it’s more this willingness to concede them that magnus has that is Sad. and maybe sometimes it pushes it before alec notices or magnus says something, but not like, anything Serious, you feel?) and like, during sex teasing more and starting to push again ;))

dgflkhjfgh this whole response feels incoherent and badly worded but it’s fine

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whippedkoalas · 6 years

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Noora opens up

Hi! Thank you for your prompt. I hope you’ll love what I’ve written about this one. I promise I love Vilde, I just think sometimes she doesn’t have a working brain to mouth filter.

“We can go back to mine if you want, girls. William isn’t there, he left this morning” “Oh, where he is going?” Chris asks. “He went to Amsterdam with Chris” Noora replies, putting her coat on.

Their apartment is just around the corner of ‘The Kollektivet’. They lived there for a few months but decided quickly that it would be better for everyone involved if they got their own place.

It’s a two rooms apartment in a small building. It is tiny but it’s theirs so it’s great. They have a living room (or more like a study room) with a tiny kitchen corner, a bedroom with a dressing and the tiniest bathroom they have ever seen. Noora fell in love with it the moment she stepped in the apartment. The small balcony was just a plus.

It’s not the first time the girls come over - far from it - but when they arrive, they’re a bit taken aback by how clean it is. The thing is, Noora is surprised too. Noora hangs her coat, takes her shoes off and looks at the living room, confused. She sees the flowers on the kitchen counter, and it clicks. “Oh!” she lets out. She goes to the kitchen counter and smells the flowers with a smile on her face. It’s a huge bouquet of camellias. Of course, the girls all followed her steps. “There’s a card” Vilde points out. “Signed by William” she adds. “No shit, Sherlock!” Sana laughs. Noora takes the card from Vilde’s hands because she doesn’t really want her friends to know what William has written. She doesn’t really know why, but she doesn’t really talk about him to her friends. Obviously, as they’re living together and have been together for a few months (or years, depending on how you want to count), sometimes William comes up naturally in their discussions and the girls have definitely seen the two of them being affectionate with each other. However, apart from ‘I have a boyfriend and it’s William’ she can admit that her friends do not know much about their relationship. Noora doesn’t see why she would disclose that.

“Noora, I know you’re stressed out by your upcoming exams, and I’m sorry I can’t be there this weekend. Chris would definitely kill me if I bail on him, though, so I’m boarding that plane. The fridge is stocked up so that you can study in peace. There are homemade lasagna in the fridge that you just have to reheat if you’re too behind to cook. I made you a batch of cookies too. I tried to clean the apartment before heading to the airport, I know you study better in a tidy and clean space but I didn’t have time to clean the bathroom. Sorry! I hope you’ll like the flowers :) I miss you already I love you. William”

“Well, if you are hungry, William left lasagna and cookies before leaving” Noora bites her lips, trying to suppress the smile on her lips.

“That’s sweet,” Eva says. Sana smiles in agreement. Noora is taking glasses from the cupboard when Vilde speaks. “Don’t you find it suspicious, though?” She stops what she’s doing and turns over. “Suspicious?” “Your man goes to Amsterdam with his very single best friend for a weekend and he does all of this before leaving for no reason? Don’t you think he has something to be forgiven for?” “Vilde!” Sana scolds. “What? it’s true!” Noora laughs. “Oh, you think that he went to Amsterdam to cheat on me? Yeah, no. I’m not worried, at all.” She resumes preparing drinks for her guests. “You don’t even seem that surprised” Chris notices. “I’m not,” she says. “I mean… it’s not that unusual, so.” “So, what you’re saying is that William cleans up, prepares food and buys you flowers regularly and you don’t find it suspicious?” Vilde says, sitting down on the sofa. Noora rolls her eyes. “Vilde, do you really think that William would live here, in a tiny apartment in Oslo, studying his ass off in law school and working at the library on his spare time when he could call his dad and say ‘hey dad, I’m going back to London, give me some cash’, only to cheat on me?” As Vilde doesn’t react, Noora continues. “William is a really attentive boyfriend. He didn’t do all of that for no reason. He did that because he knows that I’m stressed because of school and that when I’m stressed, if everything is not in order, I psych myself out really quickly. So he prepared food so I can eat healthily, cleaned up so I don’t fret, and bought flowers because he loves me” she feels herself blushing. “What did you say about his dad? Is him being in Oslo a problem?” Sana asks. Noora sighs. “His dad cut him off when he chose to stay here, with me. He gave him an ultimatum. It was me or his money” “And he chose you” Chris states. “Wow.” “Well, I’m sure the London life wasn’t as appealing as he had thought, but yeah” “Why didn’t you tell us?” “I don’t know, I mean, I thought us living here was a bit self-explanatory” Noora shrugs. “I know some things about you two because of Chris, but it’s true that William is like, your secret” Eva points out. “My secret?” Noora laughs. “I don’t keep him away from you” “No, but you don’t talk about him or your relationship” Sana explains. Noora smiles “And what do you want to know?” “I don’t know” “I won’t talk about our intimate life, like… ever. That will never be a thing” Noora looks at Vilde, who is known to disclose a lot of information that Noora consider private. “But, if you wanna know something, just ask” she chuckles. “Why are you so sure William wouldn’t cheat on you?” Vilde asks. “Vilde! Come on, girl. Drop it!” Sana scolds, rolling her eyes at her. Noora chuckles. “Because… he loves me. I don’t know, girls. I just know it.” Her friends nod. “I always wondered something but it’s kind of sex-related, so…” Eva plays with her lips. “If you don’t want to answer, that’s fine. Why did you trust him?” Noora sets her glass on the table. “Oh. hmm… Before what happened with his brother, our relationship was very… how can I say that… physical? but not in a sexual manner. William was very clear that he wanted me but we just kissed. I realized pretty soon that I was in love with him but by the time I admitted it to myself, everything went down. After that, I realized that William never lied to me. He didn’t want me to know his brother, and I realized also that… the morning Niko showed up in the apartment, William acted like a jerk because he was actually afraid of his brother. William tried to be here for me when I was completely freaking out. He didn’t even know what was wrong but he didn’t leave my side. Okay, I don’t really know how to explain. I realized that he cared about me for real and that …. was sexy, I guess” Noora laughs nervously. “I think that I just understood that he never gave me a reason not to trust him. Every suspicion I had, it was because of everyone but me. So I decided to listen to me for once and here we are” “Did you ever regret it?” “No. Never. Of course, we went through some hard times, and we will probably go through hard times in the future, but I could never regret it.” “Well… We might not get great details but we know for sure that Noora is having good sex!” Chris declares, bursting out laughing.

#noorhelm #drabble

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