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csacskamacskamocska · 5 months
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Ledőlő bálványok
Kell-e csodálat egy kapcsolatban, ezt érintettük meg futólag egy beszélgetésben. És e körül keringtek a gondolataim aztán tovább. Egyikünk szerint nem kell, az ember pont azért szereti a másikat mert látja a rossz tulajdonságait is, a bálványozás pedig a jótulajdonságok felesleges tupírozása. Szerintem meg kell a csodálat. Kell valami vagy valamik, amihez fel szeretnék nőni, fejlődni szeretnék, mert úgy gondolom, hogy azt ő annyira jól csinálja. És persze szeretem érte, hogy azt ő olyan jól csinálja. Mivel felmerült, elképzelhetőnek tartom, hogy a csodálat iránti vágy valamiféle gyermeki igény, a szülőt csodáltuk és mellette biztonságban éreztük magunkat, de ha így épült be, akkor ezzel kell együtt élni. Nem feltétlenül baj, ha a mértéke nem kóros. Hiszen, hát felnőttkorban is imponálnak emberek, néha olyanok is, akiket amúgy nem kedvelünk, de a manóba is, annyira látványos az esze, a tájékozottsága valamiben vagy az egészséges dominanciája. Szeretni nem szeretjük, de csodáljuk. Bizarr, de van ilyen. Néha meg... néha magunkat helyezzük lejjebb, hogy fel tudjunk nézni a másikra. És amikor ezt tesszük, akaratlanul lehetőséget is adunk rá, hogy a másik megtaposson.
A csodálat és biztonság iránti igény így ismételhet valami gyerekkori traumát.
Életem Kínszenvedős Szerelmével álldogáltunk egy bemutatón, amikoris megérkezett egy régi-régi exe. Egyrészt rém kínosan érint, hogy kizárólag hülyékkel járt, de velem nem, de ezen azért túltettem magam, van amit nem lehet befolyásolni, meg: valójában nem lehet tudni mi történt és hogyan. Nade a nő nem csak jó alaposan és birtoklóan megtapogatta (grrrrrr), de eleresztett egy olyan mondatot, hogy „jöttem megnézni, hogy mi lett a kis Pubikából”. Meg sem fordult a fejében, hogy ez az anyáskodó, de némileg lekezelő mondat ez kellemetlen. És a pasi erre nem reagált semmi férfiasat, hanem csak hagyta magát tapogatni és anyáskodva lekezelni. Hát, nem lett Pubiból semmi, most is csak Pubika – volt a fejemben és rém rosszul éreztem magam. A nő amúgy az agyát leszámítva teljesen rendben van, kifejezetten jó nő lehetett fiatalabb korában, és aktív, kommunikatív, most sem néz ki rosszul. De a bálvány nem a nő lekezelésétől billent meg, hanem attól amit Pubika utána mondott a nőről. Azért tartom Zsuzsát, hogy lássam milyen leszek majd 5 év múlva. Hogy mi a fasz? Csak lapítottam csendesen és próbáltam a billegő bálványt visszatuszkolni a piedesztálra. Gondolom, ő meg csak próbálta érzékeltetni, hogy nincs ennek a találkozásnak jelentősége az ő életében. Csakhogy nekem meg az, hogy valakit, „tart” az egy gusztustalan dolog volt. És talán engem is csak így "tart" valamiért.
A csavar a dologban, hogy a hibát nem Pubika követte el. Én voltam az, aki akkor ott, nem mondta azt, hogy WTF? Baromságokat beszélsz. Hülyén gondolkodsz, valami teljesen érthetetlen faszság az egész, beszéljük csak ki! Én voltam, aki nem merte kimondani a gondolatait, mert nem akart azzal szembesülni, hogy akik nem számítanak „Pubinak”, azoknak bármit lehet, a szabályok csak rám vonatkoznak, csak engem "kell" püfölni meg alakítani. És ezzel szembesültem később is, és újra és újra. Azt hiszem, jól elkanyarodtam. De minden jobb pszichológiai ülésnél így szokott lenni.
Most még talán sírni is fogok. Hogy akik leszarják egymást, azok boldogan tartják egymással a kapcsolatot. Nekem meg mennem kell.
Remélem, lesz még olyan, amikor oldalba hugyozom ezt a bálványt és ő meg mosolyogva nézi: de jó meleg!
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“Five Hundred Eyes”
Season 1, episode 16 - 7th March 1964
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[id: French orientalist Paul Pelliot examining a manuscript in the Library Cave of the Mogao Caves (the Caves of a Thousand Buddahs). He is sat on the floor, and around him are stacked many other manuscripts and books. /end id]
Okay, this review was going to be the part where I talked enthusiastically about the genuine attempt to depict Chinese culture in this serial, maybe talk about the lovely sets, and centre the entire discussion around Ping-Cho’s story in the middle of the episode. Fortunately, I decided to do some research around that story before writing it. You will see why I needed to do research and this may end up being a bit long and a bit of a rant but hey, I’m a history nerd and I don’t want to misrepresent anything, and I now have a lot of opinions about how John Lucarotti went about crafting a historical story. We’ll get there.
Is it an entertaining watch: 3/5, yeah, not much happens but I love the production and while watching it this was the point where I started to like this serial. Upon further research, I don’t any more.
Does the production hold up: 2/5, again, yellowface, but some of the sets in this serial are really nice, althought the Cave of Five Hundred Eyes itself really looks like shit from what I can tell.
Does it use its time well: 3/5, the first half drags a bit in a way that feels like it’s trying its hardest to move on, but by the middle it’s settled into a slow pace that feels deliberate, with time for Ping-Cho’s story (we get there when we GET there, I’m saying nice things at the moment) and the slow build-up of the threat at the end leading to the cliffhanger (more on that side of the story tomorrow).
Are the characters consistent and well-used: 4/5, yeah, they all get something to do, and there’s at least one fun or interesting scene for each of them. I saw some reviewers complain that Ian giving out fun facts about etymology
Is there anything actually going on under the surface: 1/5, as will become apparent, I suddenly don’t have much faith that John Lucarotti put any thought at all into this serial, and just wanted to put to screen as many things that Marco Polo said happened as possible.
Does it avoid being a bit dodge with its politics: 1/5, ah, and now we get to the good stuff. And by that I mean that bad stuff. I’m gonna have to actually organise this into paragraphs to properly explain what I mean.
As I mentioned earlier, in roughly the middle of the story, Ping-Cho tells a story about the Cave of Five Hundred Eyes, in which “Ala-eddin, the Old Man of the Mountains” uses “devious schemes” and the hashish drug to trick his soldiers into believing they were in paradise, then using that faith to convince them to give their lives for him, or else they would never see that paradise again, as only he had the power to take them there. Then, “mighty Hulagu” besieged their “lair” for three years, before killing them.
In my initial outline for this review, I praised the writing and production for giving the only actually Asian actor the monologue in which she tells a story from her culture and history. Unfortunately, upon even the smallest amount of research (I only had a day to write this, but I spent several hours reading various wikipedia articles and their sources to confirm this), I learned that this story isn’t a traditional Chinese legend about the Hashshashin, nor is it an accurate historical source. It is something that Marco Polo and other European scholars believed, as Marco Polo himself documented the story himself and is one of the original sources, but its authenticity has been thoroughly debunked.
The real history is that of the conflict between the Mongol empire, under Möngke Khan and Hülegü Khan, and the Nizari state of Alamut, ruled by Alā ad-Dīn Muḥammad, in which 100,000 Nizaris were massacred by the Mongols. However, this part is not the focus of Ping-Cho’s story, more of an afterthought and an explanation for why they aren’t around any more. The  bulk of the story revolves around the story of The Old Man of the Mountains, which has a complicated history too. The real “Old Man” was Hasan-i Sabbah, founder of the Nizari Isma'ili state in c.1090 and its fida'i military group, who would eventually gain the name “Assassins”. The origin of this name for the group is disputed, but it’s not because of the hashish drug, Ian.
The most compelling piece of evidence I found against this story of the Nizari fida’i was that of Peter Willey, who argues that according to the esoteric doctrine of the Nizari, the Isma’ili understanding of paradise was spiritual, not simply physical. Therefore, they would not have been fooled by a pretty garden and hot women into believing they were in paradise, or that only Hassan-i Sabbah was able to get them there again. Willey also points out that Juvayni, courtier of Hulagu Khan, surveyed the Alamut castle where the Nizari were, and found no evidence of any garden - and given how Juvayni destroyed texts in the library he deemed heretical, it would be surprising if he saw the drug use and temptation of this supposed garden and didn’t make note of it.
So if, even in contemporary non-Ismaili Muslim sources which were hostile to the Ismailis, there is no evidence of this story or any link of hashish to the Assassins, where did this come from, and why did John Lucarotti put it here? Well, that’s part of a long history of orientalism that I don’t have the time, energy, or knowledge to get too deep into, but I’ll give it my best shot.
The Nizari fida’i soldiers were known for not fearing injury or death, and the Crusaders, being the Crusaders, didn’t understand how they could be so loyal to their cause as to throw their own lives away (one story of similarly dubious origin describes them literally throwing themselves off cliffs at the order of their commander, as proof to an enemy leader that they were more loyal and therefore dangerous than the other larger army).
The term “hashishi” was used by 1122, with derogatory connotations of outcasts and rabble, to refer to the Nizaris, by their enemies, the term having its origin describing criminals who were mentally absent, and therefore similar to the effects of the hashish drug. However, no evidence points to the drug being used by the Assassins, or there being a link to the word being used for them and the taking of the drug, not even from the anti-Isma’ili Muslim sources at the time. However, the Crusaders and other Europeans at the time didn’t know this, which is why Marco Polo describes a legend involving the drug.
The fear of the Isma’ili as deadly, radical, and bloodthirsty assassins was linked to the hashishi term and therefore the hashish drug, and also to William of Tyre’s “Old Man of the Mountain” description of the Isma’ili leader at Alamut, and was filtered through various orientalist tropes around the secret practices of the Nizaris created by Crusaders ignorant of Islam, and through the 12th and 13th centuries this combination become a legend similar to that which Ping-Cho describes. These stories were popularised in the 19th century by orientalists such as Joseph von Hammer-Purgstall, and presumably through these sources, along with translations of Marco Polo’s writings, eventually reached John Lucarotti.
Now, my first instinct after learning all of that was to think “ah, but it was the 1960s! The main book that you looked at was published in 1995, there just wasn’t much research put into this by the 1960s.” And while yes, there wasn’t as much research, there was still some. Modern Isma'ili scholarship, pioneered by historians such as Vladimir Ivanov at the Islamic Research Association in the 1930s and 40s, laid the groundwork for disproving these legends, and all of that could have been researched by Lucarotti when writing this. Now, maybe he didn’t think to check that Marco Polo wasn’t 100% right about everything, or maybe the intention was to provide a depiction of Marco Polo’s perspective on ancient China, or maybe Lucarotti thought that since this legend was around at the time, telling it in the story was historically accurate. However, I think all of this is giving Lucarotti too much credit. I think what happened is he read Marco Polo’s diaries, and adapted stories into this Doctor Who serial, and then, despite this being a supposedly educational show, didn’t think any more of it, resulting in an uncritical regurgitation of orientalist tropes and etymological misnomers that had me fooled into thinking he was providing an accurate depiction of this culture and time period. Ugh.
Overall Score (oh yeah this is a Dr Who review not a history essay) - 14/30
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zivazivc · 4 months
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i have the usual brainrot so here's a bunch of drawings of the brozone bros standing in the void
something something their paint brush hair is just a stage look, they are actually their parents' children
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moodcafe · 4 months
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name moodboard: order for “wiktoria” | ♫ now playing: the view by D.O.
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⭐️ NOVA: A variable star that tremendously increases its output of light before returning to its original luminosity after a period of time--often a result of the star undergoing a cataclysmic eruption.
"You are a poor excuse for a knight- NOVA"
Fanart for @gotogull's comic Gardom. The art is so good it had me inspired :)
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rystiel · 4 months
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look. i view the doctor as asexual but the implication that he’s had kinky handcuff-escape sex with houdini is a bit funny so i’ll accept it
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chalkrub · 1 year
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my SLOPPIEST lady muscanston, emerging from somewhere. would you give her a kiss? be honest
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420technoblazeit · 11 months
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watching spn is wild because every time satan's aunt or something pops up they have to come up with a plan and it's always like. attempt genocide on the angels. open up an ancient portal to the place monsters go when they die. literally just try to kill death. (this one happened more than once with two different incarnations of death) take on the makes-you-want-to-kill-everything curse. absorb thousands of dead souls and turn yourself into a ghost bomb
and every time without fail they're like surely this will have no consequences whatsoever. like no fucking wonder there's been like 8 apocalypses you caused half of them, you guys are batshit insane and youre running purely off of beer adderall and coffee. crowley's the only one who comes up with any logical plans and half the time he's not even on their side. at this point maybe god was right to try and kill you
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Imagine the red hair pirates helping you with your depression
Unfortunately, it's that time of year when seasonal depression, and regular depression team up and beat my ass. So new content will come slower than usual, and I'm sorry about that, but appreciate your patience and understanding.
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Shanks: *enters your room* are you gonna get up anytime soon.
You: *in a cocoon of blankets* I don't want to.
Shanks: *stares at you for a minute* are you okay?
You: no
Shanks: should I get Hongo?
You: there's nothing he can do for me.
Shanks: *thinks back to Roger's illness* ... What sort of illness do you have exactly?
You: depression,
Shanks: oh... Well staying in bed isn't going to help
You: I don't have the energy to get out of bed
Shanks: then let me do it for you, *scoops up your cocoon and carries you outside* sun light ought to do you a lotta good.
Hongo: what's going on?
Shank: they're depressed.
Hongo: oh, I have just the thing for that *goes into his office*
Benn: hmm, I suffered from depression as a young man.
You: back in the Stone Age?
Benn: *playfully rolls his eyes* yes, back in the Stone Age. My life kind of fell apart because I couldn't care for myself. I could not wash my clothes, or bath, or brush my teeth.
Shanks: that explains the state of their room then.
Benn: elaborate
Shanks: their laundry bin was overflowing, trash on the floor, and the whole room was dark and smelt bad.
Benn: ... Cleaning it would probably help them recover.
Shanks: would you go evaluate the room and see what needs to be done.
Benn: we're probably gonna have to clean it top to bottom, I will go get some volunteers.
Hongo: *comes back* no I need you to eat these supplements, and this mushroom.
Benn: how come they get to have some of your hallucinogens.
Hongo: multiple studies have shown they're very effective at treating depression long term and because they're mine, and I get to decide who to give them to.
Shanks: *pulls open your cocoon, and hands you a cup of water.*
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While you are tripping
The crew: * cleans your room, does your laundry, and puts said laundry away*
Hongo: I think the main cause is seasonal depression, they were fine a month ago when the light was at its fullest.
Shanks: hmm, would installing another window in their room help?
Hongo: probably.
Shanks: okay, while the shipwright does that, (y/n) can stay in my room.
Benn: you just wanna fuck them.
Shanks: A few orgasms would probably do them some good. Plus I can help them better if they're close to me.
Hongo: he's right, but you need to make sure you're not taking advantage of them.
Lucky Roux: we also need to make sure they're eating, I noticed a while ago that they're only having one meal a day.
You: eating is inconvenient, and having a corporeal body is like being stuck with a pet you don't want.
Shanks: *pulls your head into his lap and strokes your hair and shushes you* sh sh sh, I know darling, I know.
Hongo: we should also make sure they exercise more, in fact we all should.
Benn: we can take up daily training practice.
Shanks: totally
You: I dun wanna
Benn: well I expect you to at least try it out for a week, if it doesn't help then you can quit.
You: really?
Benn: no
You: aww
Benn: we'll find a nice activity you like, or don't mind.
You: ugh fine
Shanks: thank you
You: ... You have pretty eyes, kinda like storm clouds
Shanks: we should get you high more often.
You: do we have any music snails?
Shanks: *pulls out his collection of Uta's music* Yes we do.
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goldenpinof · 5 months
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go piss girl (spooky week 2023 edition)
bonus:
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beetle-freak · 2 years
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Misztikus és bizarr
épp akkor megtudni, hogy az oroszok rápottyantottak két rakétát a lengyelekre, amikor egy külügyi szakértő előadásán ülsz és az orosz-ukrán háború álhíreiről hallgatsz előadást. Bizarr és kibaszott nagy szerencse mert öt perc alatt átnézte az aktuális külföldi sajtót (a hiteles forrásokat) és némileg megnyugtató volt amiket mondott. De teljesen persze nem. Meg gyorsan telefonált párat. Azért nem mondom, hogy felhőtlen arccal jött vissza. Ha most megerősített légvédelmet tolnak az ukrán határhoz (és azt fogják csinálni), remélem a határnál élő rokonaim nem lesznek semmilyen módon érintettek. Amúgy kurvajó előadás volt, elég drámai befejezéssel. :(
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“The Forest of Fear”
Season 1, episode 3 - 7th December 1963
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[id: Ian Chesterton and the Doctor look at each other, the Doctor says “Aren’t you a tiresome youg man?” and Ian responds “And you’re a stubborn old man.” /end id]
It’s honestly a miracle the show survived past the first episode order when this is the first story they told. God this is dull. Everyone makes fun of “capture, escape, repeat” as a trope in longer episodes like The War Games, but this is a 3-part story which succeeds in using it because there’s barely enough story for the 70 minutes it runs for. Genuinely what is there to say about this one.
Is it an entertaining watch: 1/5, no, not at all.
Does the production hold up: 3/5, there’s some tomato ketchup blood and Barbara has no reason to be as terrified as she is at a prop that looks that fake. If the story was better I’d be more willing to suspend my disbelief. Waris Hussein is trying his fucking hardest with what he’s got, and there’s some nice camera work here and there
Does it use its time well: 2/5, not really. Things certainly happen, and it makes some sense that they’d have to escape and then be recaptured in order to gain ug ug fire leader man’s trust (I have already forgotten the caveman names), but that doesn’t stop it from feeling repetitive and boring.
Are the characters consistent and well-used: 2/5, these two points are entirely for the scene where Dr Who is about to kill an injured caveman with a rock. Top tier Doctor Who right there, we will never stop making fun of him for it. Everything else sucks.
Is there anything actually going on under the surface: 2/5, no. It’s not actively trying to be stupid but it’s not really trying very hard to do anything.
Does it avoid being a bit dodge with its politics: 2/5, if it was Barbara and Ian who were both slightly losing it due to being in a dangerous and unfamiliar situation, I’d understand it. But Susan and Barbara are the ones who scream because women amiright, meanwhile Ian is the Strong Heroic Leader immediately. Great.
Overall Score - 12/30
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yesokayiknow · 27 days
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human au. some of these guys spend too much time on here and it shows
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moodcafe · 6 days
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name moodboard: order for “devika” | want one?
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lonestarflight · 8 months
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The original Moon landing sites
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"NASA contracted to have 15 flight-worthy Saturn V rockets produced. Apollo 11 achieved the first landing with the sixth Saturn V, leaving nine for follow-on landings. The following landing sites were chosen for these missions, planned to occur at intervals of approximately four months through July 1972."
Note: I've updated this list with the original tentative planned launch dates.
G-type Mission
Apollo 11: (G) Mare Tranquillitatis, July 1969
H-type missions
Apollo 12: (H1) Ocean of Storms (Surveyor 3 site), November 1969
Apollo 13: (H2) Fra Mauro Highlands, March 1970
Apollo 14: (H3) Littrow Crater, July 1970
Apollo 15: (H4) Censorinus Crater, November 1970
J-type missions, the extended stay missions
Apollo 16: (J1) Descartes Highlands or Tycho Crater (Surveyor 7 site), April 1971
Apollo 17: (J2) Marius Hills or Marius Hills volcanic domes, September 1971
Apollo 18: (J3) Copernicus crater or Schröter's Valley or Gassendi crater, February 1972, later July 1973
Apollo 19: (J4) Hadley Rille, July 1972, later December 1973
Apollo 20: (J5) Tycho Crater or Copernicus Crater or Marius Hills, December 1972, later July 1974
As we all know, plans were changed and missions were cancelled. But it's nice to see what was initially planned.
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To compare with the actual landing sites and dates:
Apollo 12: (H1) Ocean of Storms (Surveyor 3 site), November 1969
Apollo 13: (H2) never landed, April 1970
Apollo 14: (H3) Fra Mauro, January-February 1971
Apollo 15: (J1) Hadley–Apennine, July-August 1971
Apollo 16: (J2) Descartes Highlands, April 1972
Apollo 17: (J3) Taurus–Littrow, December 1972
NASA ID: link, link
Information from Astronautix: link
Information from Wikipedia: link
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