#13 is like COMFORT ME

[inkskinned]

oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.

oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.

oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.

which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.

but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.

which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.

and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!

and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.

the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!

and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -

what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.

and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.

#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right #what should i have done better #i did it ALL the right way #(not that there is a right way) #it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money #whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!! #and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences! #and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere #i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker. #i have always excelled at work and i work hard #i have been working since i was 13 #WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!! #ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical. #i am neither of these things. #it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much #but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are'' #.... don't i? #do i need to be luckier than someone else #or is it possible we are BOTH victims? #and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it #not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

There is a platonic explanation for all this. Right?

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #[accidental kiss] is a purposeful misspelling to reference an old meme. I will blast anyone who tries to correct me with the crunchiest png #The kiss looks like wwx is biting lwj's cheek....It *does* have the consistency of a soft marshmallow so he's not in the wrong. #Once again: wwx was never *ever* oblivious to the implications of the situation. On the contrary: this entire scene + the prior shows- #that he very much understands that this looks gay to the viewers. #He just doesn't think its possible to be loved like that. *Especially not by Lan Zhan.* #Do people forget that LWJ had 13 years to process his feelings VS WWX's (give or take) week? #This is the moment he realizes wwx has feelings and he HATES HIMSELF FOR IT. He feels like he's betraying lwj's trust! #The demi feeling of having spent so long in a comfortable platonic relationship and then getting struck by the 'oh shit' moment. #Its not a soft 'Oh' - Its a 'Oh god they are going to hate me and I can't bear that. I need to be so normal about this or else'. #Pour one out for all of us who've had to go through the trials of trying to conceal the painful realization of deeper affections. #Anyway. *both* lwj and wwx fall in love kicking and screaming and miserable and clawing at the walls about it. #Continuity acknowledgement: wwx's hands are unbound at this point but I had a hellish time with blocking and this was a bit easier.

[kingofmyborrowedheart]

The fact that Taylor has released the same amount of albums under Universal/Republic in less than half the time when she was with Big Machine, really makes me wonder about all of the potential things she could’ve done if instead of having to fight tooth and nail for everything, they had granted her more creative freedom and trusted her.

#adding these clarifying tags since this post has gained some traction #the point of this post isn’t ‘omg she could’ve released so many more albums!!’ it’s about the creative choices she could’ve made on existing #projects either in terms of sound or collaboration or what #it’s about the difference in trust the two labels had/have in her #bmg did have a lot of trust and belief in her but as she grew wildly popular there was an effort to rein her in #she’s at a point with umg where she knows they have trust in her that she’s comfortable with releasing music on her own terms #her gut instincts are usually spot on and toward the end of the relationship bmg started to push back #her relationship with them wasn’t horrible from start to end there were a lot of good moments it just started to crumble at the end #taylor swift #midnights #like the difference is absolutely crazy #she’s been with umg/republic for only four/five years and was with BMG for 11 and has released the same number of albums #okay forgive me it’s like 7 am but it’s more like 13-15 years #obviously she didn’t really have to start fighting for stuff until red/1989 but it really makes me wonder #and how she talked in the long pond sessions about being nervous and scared to turn folklore in and their confidence is like 180 from BMG #like they have completely trusted in her and let her do whatever she wants to amazing results #🗒 #this got notes*

[always-ghosting]

give it to me..... GIVE IT TO MEEE.....

(not my photos)

#I used to break the ink cartridges in pens and smear the ink all over my hands to look like this #since i was like 13 years old #they've always made me feel much more comfortable :) #dont do this tho you will get in trouble there was always ink all over my clothes #I think i've only just connected the drawing on my hands to look like that #and my nonhuman identity #nonhuman #otherkin #foxkin #ghostkin #spiritkin

[carlestin]

ouuuuu husker let me save you

suspenders version but its hidden cuz i like it less

#i dontr eeven wanna tag this bruh why am i drawing ha*bin h*tel #hazbin hotel #...... #hazbin hotel husk #HH human husk #he wouldve been so good if he wasnt a v*vz*epop oc #i NEED him #carl art tag #this whole like week i been drawing husk and huskerdust each time i was at my pc #which wasnt a lot cuz i have a JOB now #so im miserable now #but at least i have husk fantasies to comfort me at my 13 hour daily shifts bwaaaaaa #im gonhna post my huskerdust too #just a bit later i think #maybe tomowwoww #yapping in tags tag #i think thats gonna be a new tag #contaminating my blog with this #will probably delete someday

[yes-asil]

During a trip in search of insects, Martin gets swept away by a stormy river current, leaving a guilt-ridden Chris to comb through the forest for him.

Have fun with this 8 year old plot bunny I took out of a dusty folder

#wild kratts #chris kratt #martin kratt #asil and writing #hoo boy this one got long #I doubled the page number just to make the plot make sense #I really tried to make it SOMEWHAT like a WK episode #but it just turned into me infodumping about moths through Martin #and then going full blown comfort #but yeah finally 13 year old me can quiet down

[randomjreader]

Fuck you Disney, well and truly

#im so disappointed rn #this series was seriously such a comfort to me #one of my favourite series to this date #ive never seen more of my 13 year old self in a character than i did in elena #and this series did so much good representation #and so ofc disney is taking it down #pls pls let another platform pick it up or something idw say goodbye like this #diary of a future president #doafp #disney plus #tess romero #charlie bushnell

[keyunto]

you're beautiful

#this was so hard to draw #unique angles my beloathed #this totally flopped on twt HSHS #which is fine ig #i like this drawing tho #makes me :^) #drawing fanart pushes me out #of my comfort zone #which im glad abt #my art #art #joongdok #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #april 13 2023

[broflovski-brah]

yeah reminder not to interact with me if you’re under 16 thanks fellas 💚

#i had a 13 y/o follow me #major uncomfortable vibes #it’s not like i post anything inappropriate #it’s just that i don’t wanna be held responsible for things kids might see on my blog that they’re too young for #also i don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone who qualifies to be of age to be in middle school #like nuh uh #i know a dni list may as well just be a suggestion because nobody listens to it #but you will be hit with the block hammer if i find out you are below age to be interacting with me #so here my warning and dni please thanks #i’m saying kids as a general term like i know in a minor myself but like #you get it

[katierosefun]

god, even in the midst of all the sad things happening, i somehow got to remember why i love writing fic. which, like, there are a million reasons why i love writing fic--i got to meet so many special, beautiful people through fic, and i got to explore the worlds of my favorite stories through fic, and arguably, i got to strengthen a lot of writing muscles through fic too . . . but also. sometimes, i swear to god that writing fic feels more like i'm just hanging out with old friends.

#caroline talks #me: i feel tired right now #me: i want to see what my favorite fictional characters are up to right now. #and like. i have this vivid memory of being 13 and writing fic was kind of my way #of escaping my own reality and finding some comfort and bravery amongst fictional characters when i could barely find my own #and how bizarre (and funny) it is that ten years later. it's the same feeling.

[spiked-mall-goth]

funny how i thought that drinking some coffee would help me better study for my next exam but in reality i just spent 30 minutes researching how to replace the batteries in my old mc donald's hello kitty watch

#spikes rambles #i dont think it can be done btw :(( #i have tried prying that thing open like 20 different ways and i canNOT get it to open #they used fucking rivets to i have to melt the plastic around them or smash it with a hammer #hammer sounds bad bc like... i am a strong man i will break this plastic cat watch #and i am not too comfortable using a soldering iron next to a 13 year old battery #sounds like a bad idea to me #also i know they locked this shit up good so babies cant eat batteries but like DAMN #could have at LEAST used a triangle screw like most other fast food toys for longevity of play!!!!!!

[alrightbuckaroo]

7 Comfort Movies

Tagged by @jesuisici33!

You've Got Mail (When Meg Ryan said, "I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly" my brain was never the same)

2. Just My Luck (14% on Rotten Tomatoes, 100% in my heart)

3. 27 Dresses (Looking for hot babes in my area to avenge Katherine Heigl)

4. The Princess Diaries 2 (Enemies to Lovers blueprint)

5. Last Holiday (A Christmas movie I will watch year round)

6. Julie & Julia (Amy Adams making dinner with Chris Messina is something that can be so personal)

7. What A Girl Wants (No one was seeing Amanda Bynes in the 2000s)

updating this post to add:

no pressure tagging (i just love learning about people through the media they love): @reyesstrand, @heartstringsduet, @carlos-in-glasses, @strandnreyes, @welcometololaland, @bonheur-cafe, @freneticfloetry and @rmd-writes

#ya'll when i say i watched mid 2000s rom-coms religiously growing up 😭 #if you tried to pick me out of a crowd it'd be easy; i'm dressed like a nora ephron character #(a really big sweater) #13 going on 30 is the bible because it is THEE rom-com for me #but it makes me want to cry so i don't call it comfort fully 😭 #tag you're it

[valleyofdeaddandelions7]

Questionable life choices wins!

My favorite comfort anime is about a traumatized,monotone,religious,mentally unstable 13 year old befriending an illiterate serial killer who pukes rainbows and together they go on this horror,Alice In Wonderland-esque journey to escape the building that they are trapped in.

#Can you see how edgy i am? #Ir should i scream it louder ? #Idk why i always keep coming back to angels of death #It's just so nostalgic for me #Maybe it's cuz it was one of the first anime's i watched ? #I mean while knowing it was anime #Like geniully why????? #Sometimes i wish the series was longer #I know that there's a game too #Maybe i should stop rewatching the anime again and again and read the manga #13 year old me really thought she was better than the edgy kids yet she was obsessed with this shit #Can you say ✨ OBLIVIOUS ✨ #satsuriku no tenshi #Anime #angels of death #Idk what else to tag #The characters from my comfort anime need more therapy than I do #comfort anime #comfort characters #comfort media

[ladsofsorrow24]

every time i find out my favorite artists are not the kind that received formal training or education it makes me feel just a tiny bit happy about myself and my own development

its an irrational feeling, i know, but the way so many people around me always... ridicule me for chosing this path take a toll on my extremely low self-confidence, not gonna lie

so yeah finding out that kind of stuff makes me feel just a bit more... confident to say the least

#did you know how many times i'm thinking of giving up art #every part of my life since i was 13 is like #i don't deserve art i'm not good at it #i need to pursue something else #hell i tried to apply to a degree and got rejected #but the professor who interviewed me... idk who he is but i still treasure the words he told me #that art can be found in many places #that official certificate doesn't make someone an artist #its about creating #and i know maybe that's just him trying to comfort me from crying right there #but... it helps #it helps a fuck ton #tmi tag

[atopvisenyashill]

i accidentally went down the fake dany rabbit hole on reddit and to be clear, i think it’s fun to think about but it’s absolutely not gonna happen BUT one of the main pieces of evidence for this is…A Thing and that’s Dany’s memory of the House With The Red Door:

…one night Ser Willem Darry and four loyal men had broken into the nursery and stolen them both, along with her wet nurse, and set sail under cover of darkness for the safety of the Braavosian coast.

She remembered Ser Willem dimly, a great grey bear of a man, half-blind, roaring and bellowing orders from his sickbed. The servants had lived in terror of him, but he had always been kind to Dany. He called her "Little Princess" and sometimes "My Lady," and his hands were soft as old leather. He never left his bed, though, and the smell of sickness clung to him day and night, a hot, moist, sickly sweet odor. That was when they lived in Braavos, in the big house with the red door. Dany had her own room there, with a lemon tree outside her window. After Ser Willem had died, the servants had stolen what little money they had left, and soon after they had been put out of the big house. Dany had cried when the red door closed behind them forever.

She mentions the lemon tree more than once:

All that Daenerys wanted back was the big house with the red door, the lemon tree outside her window, the childhood she had never known.

And again she sees it in the house of the undying:

And there outside the window, a lemon tree! The sight of it made her heart ache with longing. It is the house with the red door, the house in Braavos. No sooner had she thought it than old Ser Willem came into the room, leaning heavily on his stick. "Little princess, there you are," he said in his gruff kind voice. "Come," he said, "come to me, my lady, you're home now, you're safe now." His big wrinkled hand reached for her, soft as old leather, and Dany wanted to take it and hold it and kiss it, she wanted that as much as she had ever wanted anything.

But we get it mentioned several times that there are not citrus trees in Braavos. Sam says it here:

Trees did not grow on Braavos, save in the courts and gardens of the mighty.

And then there is Arya's description:

Braavos, devoid of grass and trees ... They have no trees, she realized. Braavos is all stone, a grey city in a green sea. ... In the forest, they see all. but there are no trees here ...

Now, this could mean she stayed with the Sealord of Braavos, since he signed the marriage contract with Dorne as a witness:

"It is a secret pact," Dany said, "made in Braavos when I was just a little girl. Ser Willem Darry signed for us, the man who spirited my brother and myself away from Dragonstone before the Usurper's men could take us. Prince Oberyn Martell signed for Dorne, with the Sealord of Braavos as witness." She handed the parchment to Ser Barristan, so he might read it for himself. "The alliance is to be sealed by a marriage, it says. In return for Dorne's help overthrowing the Usurper, my brother Viserys is to take Prince Doran's daughter Arianne for his queen."

Except George has been Cagey As Fuck about this when asked TWO separate times:

Q: “Dany remembers a lemon tree outside the house with the red door in Braavos, but citrus trees shouldn’t really grow in Braavos’s cold, foggy climate. Is this discrepancy significant? Does it point to future revelations about Dany’s past. Thank you so much.”

GRRM: “Very perceptive of you. Yes, it does point to … well, that would be telling.”

And again here:

Question: “How old was Daenerys when she left the house with the red door, was it located close to the palace of the Sealord of Braavos?”

Answer: “That’s a interesting question. But I don’t think I’m going to answer it. There’s a certain revelation about the red door that will come into the books that I have yet to write. So we’ll keep an eye to it.”

Obviously there’s the whole lemongate thing, with some saying this means she’s a fake - some say Blackfyre, some say Rhaegar’s daughter. I think it’s more likely her memory is just faulty; she was so young when this happened, and we see Ned, Sansa, and Bran misremember things that traumatized them because it’s a very common coping mechanism. There’s theories around her memory as well - she was in Tyrosh or she was in Dorne.

But for me, it’s more about WHY he’s being cagey and WHY there’s this discrepancy in her memory. If she was really in Tyrosh or Myr or Dorne, why does that matter? I think it’s something that will only matter to Daenerys, and not the plot at large. Will she find the house with the red door or hear the story from Doran (or Areo??) and find out she misremembered that way? And why will it affect her? I’m not sure if “Daenerys realizes even those memories are tainted by the fact that she was only in Dorne because of politics and was sent out of Dorne and safety and now holds a grudge” because…the memories are already tainted by how sick Willem Darry was as he was dying.

Like, “Dany was Rhaegar’s daughter raised by Willem Dustin then sold to Illyrio and passed off as Rhaella’s last child who actually died, because it puts Viserys ahead of her in succession and gives him a Targaryen bride to marry or sell off and Viserys has spent the last few years torturing her into thinking she’s his sister, the same way Ramsey tortures Theon into being another person” is such a crackhead theory lmao but a revelation like that would shake Dany to her core. “Dany misremembered Dorne as Braavos” like that’s such a nothingburger so WHAT IS GOING ON. If she just invented a happier memory for herself to hold onto, what is the original memory hiding? Is it not even real, and while the lemon tree is our sign the memory is fake, the real secret is the red door and it’s going to be some metaphor for something?

The House With The Red Door represents everything Dany really wants from her life deep down and that’s to belong somewhere. So what I’m leaning towards is it’s not even a real memory, just something she cobbled together from several of Viserys’ stories. It’s not just that the lemon tree and red door were in the wrong place but none of it existed. Not the peace she had, not Willem Darry. That seems devastating enough that if none of it was real, that she can never find peace, that the red door she was chasing all these years never existed. I think it might be, emotionally, a big step in her deciding to burn king’s landing.

But it was not the plains Dany saw then. It was King's Landing and the great Red Keep that Aegon the Conqueror had built. It was Dragonstone where she had been born. In her mind's eye they burned with a thousand lights, a fire blazing in every window. In her mind's eye, all the doors were red.

and later on:

She saw sunlight on the Dothraki sea, the living plain, rich with the smells of earth and death. Wind stirred the grasses, and they rippled like water. Drogo held her in strong arms, and his hand stroked her sex and opened her and woke that sweet wetness that was his alone, and the stars smiled down on them, stars in a daylight sky. "Home," she whispered as he entered her and filled her with his seed, but suddenly the stars were gone, and across the blue sky swept the great wings, and the world took flame.

If there was never any red door, never a lemon tree, if even her sweet memories of Willem Darry are somehow false, just a scared child trying to make sense of the world, I think that loss will completely push her towards the path of destruction, and she won’t just embrace the dragon, she’ll embrace its devastation as well. Behind the red door isn’t her salvation, only destruction.

The door loomed before her, the red door, so close, so close, the hall was a blur around her, the cold receding behind. And now the stone was gone and she flew across the Dothraki sea, high and higher, the green rippling beneath, and all that lived and breathed fled in terror from the shadow of her wings. She could smell home, she could see it, there, just beyond that door, green fields and great stone houses and arms to keep her warm, there. She threw open the door. “… the dragon …” And saw her brother Rhaegar, mounted on a stallion as black as his armor. Fire glimmered red through the narrow eye slit of his helm. “The last dragon,” Ser Jorah’s voice whispered faintly. “The last, the last.” Dany lifted his polished black visor. The face within was her own.

GEORGE I AM IN YOUR WALLS

#the point is the emotion so WHAT EMOTION SILL TBIS MAKE HER FEEL #getting on my soap box #anti daenerys targaryen #if the red door never existed im literally gonna cry. she makes me so sad. it’s like seeing cersei age 13 you know. not just the after where #she’s already evil but instead all the moments in which she breaks and becomes a monster #a child weaned on poison considers hurt a comfort #daenerys is old valyria risen again

[shoechoe]

I only lurked on the Internet for a long time and still do not post on most websites I visit but it really is nice to have a place where I can talk about things like animated shows and music and other assorted interests without being judged

#personal #i will go on and on and on about the things i like and IRL it makes people sick of me #especially because my friends when i was younger were mean about my interests #i remember one time (i was 13) i was hanging out w/ my friends and we were watching shows so i put on invader zim #and then in the middle they said ''turn it off this show is so stupid'' and the rest of the night they watched superstore #i had to uh... resist the urge to run and jump out the window the rest of the time #people including my parents would make fun of the music i liked since i was like 11 #it would get to the point where i would snatch my headphones out of people's hands and obsessively clear every tab so they wouldn't see it #i would also get made fun of because i was bad at drawing (by my own parents too) and was kind of awkward in general #it made me very self conscious about so many aspects of myself i really wasn't happy #i think i am only starting to get a little better about it #and i'll be honest i'm not innocent when it comes to making fun of people for harmless interests too. the behavior is contagious i think #i try not to do it now i'm not proud of it #not to be too incredibly vent-y. but i really like feeling more comfortable talking about things i enjoy somewhere #i have found more friends that have some similar interests to me now and old friends have apologized and gotten less harsh #which helps. but also posting paragraphs on the internet about random shit helps too