#13 is so difficult

[smallblueandloud]

i keep feeling like. there's something parallel between rose and yaz's endings. maybe parallel isn't the right word -- but i keep wanting to draw comparisons, i think because they're two characters who really defined specific doctors and for whom it's basically confirmed the doctor returned their (romantic) feelings

(they're not the ONLY ones who fit this description, but i'm in no way qualified to talk about clara or even river, so bear with me)

it just feels. i don't know. rose never leaves on purpose. she is separated from the doctor, forcibly, every single time. the doctor sends her home, or she gets stuck in an alternate universe, or the doctor leaves her in the same alternate universe. every single time, she fights to get back to the doctor. the writers had to create a perfect happy ending for her (half-human version of her doctor who'll age along with her, in the alternate universe where her father is alive) because otherwise she wouldn't stop fighting to get back to the doctor, and the show can't have that. the show needs to move on. we need rose to fade into the past.

i haven't seen all of yaz's episodes, but her arc seems very similar from the limited amount i've seen. she keeps fighting to get back to the doctor. she's in love with the doctor, and the doctor basically confirms returning her feelings, albeit in a very stilted, hesitant, doctor-y way (compare "imagine that happening to someone you--" with "and if i was going to, believe me, it would be with you").

but when yasmin's doctor regenerates... yaz is just expected to. step away, go back to living her life, never see the doctor again. kinda like the abandonment that most companions have ever experienced -- getting dropped off once and then goodbye forever! -- except with more of the onus on her. the show has to move on from rose's era, so she gets dumped on a beach. the show has to move on from yasmin's era, so yaz has to accept that the doctor is going off to die alone. she has to make her peace with that information.

i don't know. i think yaz's ending is trying to go hand-in-hand with graham and ryan's purposeful exit -- it seems like the chibnall era tried really hard to have Not Terrible endings for companions. which is very admirable! but honestly? yasmin's ending feels crueler than most, including rose's. yaz was in love with the doctor. the doctor reciprocated those feelings. they should've gotten their equivalent of s2-era 10rose! she should've gotten a chance to stay with the doctor through their regeneration, the way other love interests have been able to (s/o to river and clara!).

i know this is because of the limitations of the show. bad ratings meant chibnall left after only one regeneration, and new incarnations of the show rarely bring in characters from other eras.

but i'm still very sad for yaz :( like yes, she wasn't just dumped on the curb without warning. but she was still expected to say goodbye to someone she loved, knowing that person was dying, and not say a word of protest. if the previous history of the show is any indication, she's never going to see the doctor again. she doesn't get a half-human version of the doctor to live out her days with, and she's not "allowed" to fight to get back to the doctor, either, due to the way the show's structured (but also the way the doctor talked about them saying goodbye). she has to live the rest of her life knowing that the doctor is out there, perfectly capable of visiting, and the only reason they won't visit is because yaz is from a specific time of their life that they've moved on from.

i know she has the companion support group. and i know she'll move on! she's yaz. she's strong and self-actualized. she'll be okay, eventually. but she has to be okay, you know? she has to learn to live without the doctor. rose never had to do that.

it just makes me sad :(

#doctor who #thasmin #yasmin khan #thirteen x yaz #i guess maybe this post can be summed up by ''yaz is kinda the (nuwho) doctor's first actual ex. and her being an ex makes me sad :('' #sb and l rambles #sb and l watches dw #this post has been brimming for awhile but i sat down to write dw fic tonight and went ''i can't do this without talking about yasmin'' #i'm not criticizing the show necessarily. i know why they had to make these choices. #i think i do prefer for 13 and yaz's ''breakup'' to be a mutual understanding as opposed to 13 leaving her on a curb w/out any warning #they were doing the best they could with a limited hand #it just makes me sad :( and it makes me hope that they mention yaz in the next season #essbie? hoping the show calls back to a love interest that isn't rose?? it's more likely than you think! #i am just so attached to yaz. i didn't expect to be but god she's so great and she just gets dealt such a difficult hand :( #and she copes with it! of course she does! ....but rose never had to deal with that kind of difficulty.

[hetagrammy]

Back at it with the Regency AU! Here we have Francis' daughters, Genevieve and Michelle. They are the apples of his eye, and he dotes on them incessantly when he's not out at sea.

Genevieve (Monaco) is Francis' elder daughter and his only child with his late wife, Jeanne. She was born in 1801, so she's roughly nine when the story begins. Being without a maternal figure, she tends to emulate Francis, though more reserved than him. She also tries to act more grown up than she is largely because of Francis' military absences.

Michelle (Seychelles) is Francis' younger daughter. He had her out of wedlock with a free Seychellois woman living in France. She was born in 1806, more of an age with Arthur's children. She's very bubbly and sweet, and she hates it when Francis has to leave. She relies heavily on her older sister for guidance and emotional support.

Francis adores them both and when he's not spiting Arthur, much of what he does is to preserve his daughters' status and prospects. Having been through the turmoil of the French Revolution, and been a refugee, he only wants the best for them in everything. If increasing his own status and pushing for France's expansion can do that for them, then by God he will do it.

#hetalia #historical hetalia #regency au #my art #hws monaco #hws seychelles #hws france #fyi michelle is heavily based on figures like dido elizabeth belle/chevalier de st george/alexandre dumas #at least in terms of her upbringing #her outfit here is based on that portrait of belle actually #francis is very much so attempting to give her equal opportunities as genevieve does bc she's also his daughter and he loves her very much #also god help me i cannot draw adolescent kids for the life of me #toddlers and young kids i can do #but that 9-13 range is very difficult to me for whatever reason

[tamorii]

Hello folks !! My apologies for the radio silence, I've been working very hard on a comic for a magical girl anthology! My comic will feature my ancient OC Kameko as an adult in her late twenties, I'm having a blast working on this :) ✨

#here is a crop from one of the early pages #you can follow fikasha.manga on insta for updates about the anthology! #It'll contain original magical girl stories by 13 stories and right now the book is already over 200+ pages #And we're still working on bonus material hehe #It's gonna be awesome !! #OH YEAH about my own comic #It features my OC Kameko who I designed when I was 14 #She's now in her late twenties (just like me) and about to pass on her duties to a new magical girl #But she's having a difficult time since she was a magical girl for 13 years and watched many of her allies fall in battle #so she's conflicted over passing on her duties #the comic is short but bittersweet lol #I'm putting a lot of love and effort into it !!

[devildom-moss]

March post plan

The goal for this month is to finish all the requests under the shorts category. I'm going to aim for one post a week for a while.

Saturday (10pm PST)

3/2 – Signs of affection: Kiss (Mammon, Satan, Asmodeus, Belphegor, Solomon)

3/9 – Signs of affection: Gift (Beelzebub, Thirteen, Raphael, Mephistopheles)

3/16 – Flowers (the demon brothers)

3/23 – Hurt/comfort (the others)

3/30 – Hard core sex with aftercare (the sides)

Poll story: 3/31 midnight PST

#moss update #getting the first one and the poll story up so quickly after the last request might be a little difficult #but I already managed to get the first one done in just a few days so yay #I realize it's not a lot since I'll still have 13 requests left after this month #but my guys...for real February was not good in my brain

[milligramspoison]

#revenge has 13 songs and polls only have 10 slots so #i’m sorry to make this difficult #my chem #my chemical romance #mcr #three cheers for sweet revenge #gerard way #frank iero #mikey way #ray toro

[capriclonus]

Time to bang my head against a wall and hope words fall out of it 😂

#no idea why this is so difficult lately #difficult difficult lemon difficult #ao3 capriclonus #ps. i wont actually hit my head against a wall #i wanted to have the princess au finished in a month and ive written.........one and half of the 13 scenes i have planned #ITS ALL PLANNED AND PLOTTED DAMMIT #and now its been a month and i am nowhere near done

[caffeiiine]

i would like to see either nikolai or sigma's sentences please :3 /nf

THANK YOU!!! YOU ARE FUELING MY TWO FAVORITE THINGS!!!

under the cut bc length. [it got REALLY long]

anyways, nikolai and sigmas prison sentences as they would be in michigan.

note: i’m not using the wiki for this. i doubt it covers everything, so im going back through the manga and analyzing everything from there. aside from finding out manga appearances, everything else is research and pre-memorized info.

note 2: i may have made a few mistakes with the sentencing but it should be accurate enough give or take 10 years.

note 3: there’s no minimum sentence since majority of research i’m doing leads to me picking the minimum years since it usually states “punishable by life imprisonment or any number of years” which is unspecific and sucks so i just dropped the category

nikolai!!! - crimes - sentence - reference state - references/citations

Crimes :

first degree murder [7 accounts]

second degree murder [1 account]

domestic terrorism [16]

mutilation of a corpse [1 account]

shoplifting [implied, counted as 1 general account/misdemeanor]

assault with/using a deadly weapon [1 account]

impersonation [2 accounts]

[1]

disturbing the peace

theft of public property [2][3] [1 account]

verbal assault/threat [4] [1 account]

aiding and abetting

aiding in prison break

drugging [1 account]

attempted poisoning [5] [2 accounts]

fleeing arrest [1 account]

[6]

robbery/general larceny [4 accounts]

unlawful possession of explosives

attempted first degree murder [implied] [7]

kidnapping [4 accounts]

aiding a convict

breaking and entering [1 account]

sentence :

at maximum = 14 life sentences + 61 years + 186 days and/or up to 7,063,000$ in fines; no parole

reference state : michigan

references via michigan legislature : [first degree murder] Section 750.316 Act 328 of 1931 + [second degree murder] Section 750.317 Act 328 of 1931 + [domestic terrorism not counted, i can’t find definitive punishments and it'd probably be with the supreme court] + [mutilation of a corpse] Section 750.160 Act 328 of 1931 + [shoplifting] Section 750.356 Act 328 of 1931 + [impersonation] Section 750.217 Act 328 of 1931 + [felony assault] Section 750.82 Act 328 of 1931 + [disturbing the peace] Section 750.170(?) + [theft of public property] section 750.356 act 328 of 1931 + [terrorizing/verbal assault/harrassment] section 750.411h act 328 of 1931 + [aidinh and abetting] section 750.450 act 328 of 1931 + [aiding in a prisoners escape/aiding a convict] section 750.183 act 328 of 1931 + [attempted poisoning] section 750.91 act 328 of 1931 + [fleeing arrest] section 760.479a act 328 of 1931 + [robbery] section 750.529 act 328 of 1931 + [unlawful possession of explosives] section 750.200 act 328 of 1931 + [attempted first degree murder] section 750.91 act 328 of 1931 + [kidnapping] section 750.349 act 328 of 1931 + [breaking and entering (with explosives)] section 750.112 act 328 of 1931.

Sigma!!! - crimes - sentence - reference state - references/citations

[8]

threatening an officer [2 accounts]

domestic terrorism [16]

unlawful possession of explosives

attempted first degree murder [1 account]

criminal negligence [9]

aiding and abetting

negligent attempted mass murder [10]

attempted first degree murder by proxy [several accounts] [11]

felony assault by proxy [12] [3 accounts]

[13]

attempted manslaughter [14] [2 accounts]

attempted second degree murder [15] [1 account]

aiding in a prison break

aiding a convict [1 account]

breaking and entering [1 account]

felony assault [3 accounts]

sentence :

at maximum: 5 life sentences + 45 years 93 days and/or up to 8,000$ in fines; possibility of parole

reference state : michigan

references via michigan legislature: [aiding and abetting] section 750.450 act 328 of 1931 + [felony assault] section 750.82 act 328 of 1932 + [aiding in prisoner escape/aiding a convict] section 750.183 act 328 of 1932 + [unlawful possession of an explosive] section 750.200 act 328 of 1932 + [attempted (any type of) murder/manslaughter] section 750.91 act 328 of 1932 + [breaking and entering (with explosives)] section 750.112 act 328 of 1932 + [threatening an officer] section 750.478a act 328 of 1932 + [criminal/gross negligence] section 8.9 michigan legislature

#[1] i wouldve included something about his gun but the laws vary so much state by state itd be difficult to find a proper middle ground and- #-gun control laws are really iffy and varied in general with a lot of uncertain elements like concealed carry etc #[2] referring to the poles he used to fight atsushi chapter 58 #[3] not entirely sure since nobody stole support infrastructure before so theres no law for it #[4] verbal assault is an umbrella term so its a little difficult to pin down; when he asks one of the government people if theyre ready to- #-“say bye-bye to their lower halves” going based off the context; it fits the legal definition of verbal assault #[5] taking the syringes at face value and assuming theyre actually poisoned despite inconsistencies with approximate death times #[6] not entirely sure how nikolai got the floor plans to the prison; and as far as i looked; the act of possessing them doesnt seem illegal #[7] its implied that he tries to kill fyodor very often; i cant find examples but 111 fyodor states nikolai has tried to kill him on - #-several occations #[8] at about chapter 72 sigma states the casino is run under international law; i’m not running nikolai’s sentence in japan so i’m ignoring #-that piece and giving him the same reference state as nikolai #[9] the coin explosives being held in a customer room #[10]the coin bombs that were to be distributed via the casino and explode once distributed enough #[11] via the customers in the casino and security; sigma really likes his crimes by proxy doesn’t he. #[13] the gun in the comms room is definitely illegal but to keep things in line with Nikolai i’m not counting gun law violations unless its #-obvious like murder or manslaughter #[14] attempted manslaughter in of itself is a contradictory term; the way it’s defined and the way i’m using it is in reference to sigmas- #-state of mind right then. where he was engaging in a desperate attempt to save his casino via stopping teruko by any means necessary- #-and was not in a proper state of mind to be accurately tried for attempted second degree murder as he normally would’ve been.- #-the legal term for this is “in the heat of passion” i believe. #[15] trying to take teruko with him in death #[16] i can’t find punishments for terrorism so it’s not counted in the final tally #i spent actual hours on this [not regretted one bit] #oh my hod i don’t want to look at the michigan legislature for another month after this #it was so much fun though ty xan #soda incarcerates your faves #bsd #bsd nikolai #bsd sigma

[youdontloveme-yet]

Fort Thitipong as Prapai in Love In The Air [2022]

#love in the air #love in the air ep 13 #love in the air spoilers #love in the air finale #asianlgbtqdramas #love in the air prapai #lita #lita spoilers #lita ep 13 #fort thitipong #thdrama #thai drama #thai bl drama #thai bl #bl drama #i saw only one set of this #so i made mine #and it is not yellow ! #this was incredibly difficult to colour #it is darker on purpose #tw: violence #vx:gifs #vx:tv:lita #vx:t.edits #if somebody reports this i swear #.......

[come-down-that-tree]

uh warning: if you have a fear of storm and lightning, this chapter may not be for you. Also there is a bit of body horror (no heavy gore description, just bits) in the dream part at the end (part is in italic), you can thank the bad influence of @diofasolia for that. Someone gets hurt.

Prologue Previous

Come Down That Tree! (an aftermare story)

Chapter 13:күк төшә

Water pouring down from the sky. 

It was nothing like Waterfall however. The steady but gentle strength of the constant rain, the powerful roar of the waterfalls ones should stay cautious of and the slippery rocks that he could navigate without tripping, eyes closed.

It was nothing like the tempests in Snowdin either. The almighty winds that drove everyone home and made the trees sing, carrier of coldness and snowflakes and making everything a beautiful pure white.

It was something else entirely.

The Twins were fast asleep, bundled under the only blanket they owned. They went to sleep after he assured them he would be ok.

Would he thought ? 

The sky was screaming. The ground was grumbling. Water was hitting him from all sides without giving him any rest. Dirt was trying to trap him. He could see the forest at the east dancing to a desperate tune; he ignored the steps, they creaked and plowed under unknown deities.

Geno was standing up there on the hill, paralyzed by the war happening all around him. 

He shook with each thunder and squeezed his eyes shut with each unexpected noise.

And those two were sleeping…

Unbeknownst to them, the end of the world was tonight.

Noises were crackling around him. Silence’s disappearance rattled his sliver of a soul. 

Under the tree, the sky’s furious tears were still reaching. The air smelled heavy and sour.

An horrifying shriek fell on earth not so far from here and orange and yellow made an apparition in the corner of his sight.

Was- Was that tree down the hill just suddenly burning?

Geno’s shorts were even more wet from the water-saturated ground.

When did he sit down?

Those two were sleeping and did not even twitch with each bang.

It had to be normal?

HOW COULD THIS BE NORMAL?

Did surfacers just accept the crazy concept of mother nature having a weird feud with tall trees once in a while???

Absolutely crazy.

The monster racked his hands and did his best to calm down his shudders. Thinking rationally was what got him out of many weird situations so he was going to do that.

Rain was annoying but it could only get stuff wet. They were on a hill, there was no danger of flood and potential drowning.

Wind was harsh and unforgiving. It could make things fall and bring objects at a dangerous speed.

Tall bones erupted from the earth, cutting the way to any large objects who dared coming this way.

A glance up to the strange apple tree assured him this one was not going to budge regardless of the chaos.

Now.

The electricity flying down the dark clouds to strike anything it fancied frying. 

The lightning, it started from high above in the clouds and seemed to try to get to the ground. The easier path was surely through tall elements… Or conductive elements…

He glanced at his arms. Bones were not a very good conductor but…

Branches loomed over him.

They were on a hill.

Under a tree. 

A tired sigh escaped him.

It was always just a possibility but…

Down the hill, an oak remained, split into two equal fuming parts.

Bones were dismissed and wind started to slap him anew. Not missing a bit, he got up and wobbled away from the apple tree’s protection. Rain seeped inside his skull, making his insides cold and heavy.

He trudged until he was far enough away and summoned bones once again. However this time it was not a defense but more of a glaring offense toward the sky.

It went high.

High above the tree.

High above anything.

Geno grunted from the sudden effort, making bones giant were not his speciality.

He watched his work with a careful eye. It should drive away any luminous and powerful threats from the easy that was a lone tree up a hill. 

His hand found its way to the rough surface as he stroked it, pensive.

A lightning struck it.

Geno screamed.

Liquid fire spread through his entire body in a matter of seconds, lighting up pain sensors in every part of his body. Pops and cracks filled his non-existent ears. The world turned white and grass welcomed his sizzling body for an unplanned nap.

Firecrackers. They fizzle. They bloom between his joints. The sun is glaring into his socket but he does not look away. It makes an itchy nest between his ribs, unbothered by his small soul whimpering for space. The lake lap at his fingers gently but burning his toes. Soft touch cradles his thoughts that make bubbling meaningful sounds.

It is hard to be whole.

An arm lays there, away from his reach.

Away from his sight who is running, running away from an owl. The bird picks it up, admiring itself in a mirror before exploding in a myriad of bloodish little parts who fly towards him fast. 

A corridor. He’s standing, he’s sitting, he’s running.

The exit is in front and behind him.

He reaches towards it and it swallows him whole. 

Everything is soft and green, tickling his nose. 

The pain is gone. His arm is translucent and he can see fish swimming inside. He reaches and puts his fingers in the cold water, reaping apart the limb with joy.

A purple mouse screams at him to stop but he doesn’t. He’s giddy and watches the liquid drip on the mirror floor.

In it, he’s the mouse and screams at someone who is holding their head so hard it seems it’s going to explode.

Purple eyes stare and, in a hurry, stretch and strangle him.

He’s happy. 

Something tingles and his feet are wet, wet, wet, wet like the moon. His brother is there but not.

Dreams fly down and make him tumble. Right onto a safe.

The door opens, the door closes. Inside is out, out is inside.

An old yellowish paper flies around, a soft melody escapes. He turns around huffing and puffing, trying to sleep in the small space.

But to no avail.

Time is a slug and reality a fly.

Both are on a bench talking about their family. 

The sky is a mixture of red, purple and yellow with a dash of overwhelming white.

It hurts.

End of chapter 13. Go to chapter 14?

@dragon-tamer-1 @shinechermont

Geno belongs to @/loverofpiggies Dreamtale belongs to @/jokublog

#come down that tree! #aftermare #chapter 13 #it's not a long chapter but it got shortened because Geno was struck by a lightning and it was fairly difficult to continue like that #woops it was not the initial plan sorry? #yeah I didn't follow the plan at all #I hope it won't cause me troubles in next chapters XD #no promise #yes the twins are so used to stormy nights they just klonked out #I don't think I'll ever get bored of writing nonsensical dreams it's just really fun #this one was really uh special

[defensivelee]

some scene/dialogue ideas for the hypothetical NSO-esque Louis dating sim in which you play as a mistress of him (sorry no male MC). I think the point of it would be to try to ASSERT YOUR INFLUENCE on him until you basically run the country yourself, which he makes extremely difficult for you to do. idk why I'm thinking of it so much 😭

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Louis: Do you think this looks good on me?

He'll probably be asking this a lot when he tries something on. You basically get to dress him since he'll usually listen to your opinions as you are very important to him.

Upon saying it looks awful but he secretly disagrees:

Louis: Well...just a little, I suppose.

Upon saying it looks awful and he agrees:

Louis: Who thought of this?

Upon saying it looks good:

Louis: Not much of an observation, love, you know everything looks good on me.

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Louis: I have a question. Do you love me? Really really really love me?

He'll ask this every night, just in a different form. Usually you would have three choices, all of which say the same thing: "Yes, I love you." I doubt it's because he's insecure, he just wants to hear you say it.

After a bad day in which you didn't really make him happy, though, he'll say:

Louis: I thought you loved me. You told me yesterday. Do you really really really love me?

He usually stares at you with a smile, sitting pleasantly on his bed, but at this point the music stops briefly and he sort of glowers at you. You have three choices again, and only one is different:

Player: No, you know why I stayed with you at all.

Louis will look down and smile, and the music will start up again.

Louis: Ahaha....you are not wrong.

If you say you love him, he looks vaguely suspicious but accepts it anyway.

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To increase the Trust & Love bar (probably the least important for your status, but necessary nonetheless if you want him to keep you around) you would have to give him a gift. I think you should be able to give him a little carp because it would be funny and he likes them.

Louis: You got me another fish? See, this is why I love you. You give me stuff.

Louis: She is so beautiful...can you name her for me?

Whatever the name is that you choose, he'll find it very endearing. Unless you attempt to call it Louis, in which case he'll feign offense but actually be laughing a little.

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You can make it your goal for him to just have awful days constantly so that his Happiness & Certainty will go down. Eventually he will start getting really personal at night instead of having sex, and he'll tell you things you may not have known about him. This makes him easier to manipulate/blackmail later on.

Louis: I will never understand Philippe. A boy kissed me once.

Louis: *his eyes now widening* I wanted to kill myself.

Louis: He said he was going to kill me if I told anyone--

Things like that.

#some fun historical details thrown in there ig #he loves the carp #i think historically he made himself very difficult to manipulate so ig thats what the flattery is for #he was allegedly sexually assaulted when he was 13 but we dont know by who so #i want to make this real but i have no time for everything im currently doing LMAO #also it's louis who even wants to date lo amirite #we love him but he is insufferable <3 #nso au #? might change the name later #louis xiv

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

yaz letting herself float into space on a rope like shes some kind of balloon only tethered to the tardis by missy holding the end of the rope:

#justgirlythings

#theyre bonding <3 #theyre looking for the edge of the tardis oxygen bubble <3 #theyre playing suicide <3 #i like these two so much 13 is so difficult and then these two come along and see in each other a mutual #uhhhh #self-destructiveness in their love for the doctor and theyre like #hey. same hat. wanna indulge that a little? #it's honestly the most fun i can squeeze out of this doomed doomed scenario #it's basically like #13 and yaz is like 'this never had a future but while we're here lets be ABsolutely Miserable' #and MISSY and yaz is like 'this never had any future but while we're here lets have bonkers fun' #and they DO

[burinazar]

It's a bit funny that to parts of my circles I'm 'the fandom one'/'the fanfic one'/'the shipping one' as the person they know most prominently into such things

because as much as i love writing my fics and shipping my ships my interest in both of those things is, I think, very narrow and specific compared to most people who are into them? due to my habits being like. very particular

#i think some ppl think of me as ahh my buddy who is always reading fanfic and i'm like. look. i would LIKE to be that. but i'm not #it's comically difficult to get me to sit down and read a new fanfic. for no discernable reason #the fandoms i like to read for don't even have big fic scenes but i've still checked out such a narrow portion of them #(and these fandoms are like. just a few. leaving aside MiA's dead tag. LOGH + T&B + Vorkosigan + ...anything else here would be a lie) #(Queen's Thief + Temeraire + TMA are on the backburner rn for reading fic but they were faves before yet i read SO little of what existed) #(everything else i just check out very occasionally or when directly recc'd) #i think mmmaaaybe 'my buddy who reads tons of fic' would be the case if there were new fics about the sages coming out every day #they're sort of a unique hyperfixation for me lol #but there are NOT. instead there are ((checks)) #four (4) english language belavue fics on AO3 that are not by me #AND two of them i would say do not actually have any ship content and were likely just tagged that to be safe #as far as non ship content there are ((checks again)) 21 English language fics tagged with Belaf and I wrote 13 of them ........ #(and 17 for Vueko and i wrote 10. two of the others barely mention her and shouldn’t be tagged lol) …guys i'm starving............ #ok you read to the bottom of the tags you get to hear a selfish wish #i kind of hope that someday...someone will...write some fic about the sages either because of me or for me #gen or ship it doesnt matter #but this kind of thing usually happens in AO3 exchanges though and there aren't ones in this fandom because the fic scene is so miniscule #i'm literally running one right now off AO3 but have a feeling it will end up being mostly art and also didn't put myself in as a requester #since the people participating have largely made stuff for me as gifts before and i have a glut of lovely work from them #and again that exchange will mostly end up being art i feel and not fic. but some other time... i still wish ... more fic... pleae..plaeabs #there are very specific reasons i don't want to host an MiA fic exchange through AO3. i can guess the kind of stuff some people will reques #(the kind of stuff that's already in the tag.) and it's not stuff i feel like moderating an exchange involving >_> so i won't #but god.. ... ..... someday......i hope....there can be an exchange where i ask for somethinga bout these people.............

[bahoreal]

ok paris trip! cheeky summary :-) (limited by image count lol)

we went up to the artists streets bc i wanted to see the big church and i was fully charmed by the buildings, different areas have very different charms to them. i took a lot of photos of fragments of buildings like these two. i always take pictures like this, the charm of a city comes through in the life reflected in ordinary houses

also big church. pretty. i dont follow Christianity but they sort of went off with the architecture

TWO pyramid selfies for your viewing pleasure. i didnt know there was an upside down one as well! i also did a really bad job at aligning my hand to the pyramids ndjshdjddn

louvre. i love a statue. miss venus was so incredible in person.

this was my second favourite statue(tte?) in the louvre. after miss venus. its from mexico 300-400AD and its a little fella with a WARRIOR INSIDE.

and on the final day we went to the eiffel tower. the scale of it is always insane to me, they have this other teeny eiffel tower built near it which looks big when youre next to it. then the further away you get the scale of the real eiffel tower becomes evident (its in the second photo, on the right behind the trees)

tumblr has limited me to 10 photos :( so not pictured: me getting immediately addicted to petit déjeuner with cafe créme, the teeny apartment out of the city centre we were staying, with a bistro where a guy gave me a free shot of limoncello because it was my birthday:)) the fancy dinner we went to, the selfies i took with liberty leading the people (!!!!), the little video i took blowing a kiss to spain, photos of other tourist-y and less tourist-y areas, the 100 other louvre photos i took 😂

#literally only there for two days total - arrived Friday afternoon left sunday afternoon - but packed in a lot! #my dad lived in france and speaks fluent french which was helpful bc i decided on the last day that i wanted to get crepes #and the highest rated place we could find only had french menus and the staff preferred to speak in french #i struggled with the basic baby french i know but its difficult for me cos i havent studied it since iw as like 12?13? #so when i reach for french my brain usually goes to spanish or if i rly dont know the word. chinese. its embarrassing #the number of times i wanted to ask where the bathroom is and my brain went zai- no donde- no ou - yes! #clown wig: ON #.jtxt

[theshadowrealmitself]

Part of what is cutting into my studying time is that, forgetting I had an exam today, I made an appointment to get a couple of vaccines 💀

But I now have the first dose of the hpv vaccine! Being a responsible adult! (Although I’m still chronically single, but still better to get it out of the way anyways, right?)

And I got the meningitis one or whatever that you’re usually supposed to get much younger but it’s not my fault I was medically neglected, so I’m gonna need doctors and nurses to be less judgmental about that pretty please

#also gonna schedule an appointment to finally get my hands looked at #heart is gonna be after I figure out how to get a basic checkup #their website is so difficult for no reason #no fandom #‘you know you’re supposed to usually get this around 13 🤨’ #oh yeah how dare I not be aware of that at 13 and make the appointment myself

[luminouslotuses]

i’m gonna say it i don’t give a fuck how old you are in this situation. your age, even if you’re younger, is not an excuse to continue supporting wilbur. this behavior is fucking disgusting

#i get that those who are younger may not be fully comprehending this #but i’m sorry if i were 13 and this was happening i would open my fucking eyes and see the facts. #would i have a hard time accepting it? sure. but that doesn’t mean it gives me a right to still support an abuser & rapist #and even so keep that shit off the internet. you can feel it in private (and even then that’s still not good) and not fucking broadcast it #to everybody it’s not that difficult #abuse tw #sa tw #wilbur situation

[fridayiminlcve]

if i dont move to nyc or london or paris by age 27 what is the point of anything

#i looooove my city so much you guys like if i wasnt who i am (queer) rn i would be so fucking glad that i am in my current city but #i loooove art and history and fashion and stuff and this citymight be about second best for all that but its still soo crowded #people WILL judge no matter what you wear something cutesy and people dont shut up especially when ur 16 and tagging along with your mom to #the mall or something and everyone just stares and even among your classmates ive been complimented so many times #for my unique style or whatever (aka i have beaded shoelaces and wear lots of jewelery and absurd ass eyeliner) and theyre like oh #n******** is so fancy itni stylish bandi hai woh and its so attention grabbing but i dont want it to be a big deal !!! #i want to like 20 badges and wear insane makeup and dye my hair without calling much attention to myself!!! #of course i know that will change slowly as you go in to uni and meet ppl of your type instead of a bazaar market and youll pick ur own #friends who r like minded but considering this is india how many people can you truly find. #also my next two years are going to be spent in a college for jee and neet kids #you can wear what you want theres no dress code but you have to appear serious studious and simple if you want to be taken seriously #elle woods at harvard law type #i asked my mom to get an industrial & second lobe piercing and actual dyed hair and shes like turn twenty get into a good college then do #not bc she minds she allowed me to get my hair dyed at age 13 but to go in th college im going to there is SO SO much rigour #and if you dont show yourself as professional and shit they will keep you in lower effort self study classes instead of best of the best #i KNOW how difficult moving abroad is bc my family does not have that money i need to do it myself its so so expensive bc the money #itself has such a high value compared to here (you see americans cribbing abt 30$ hourly wage but here that is 2500inr) #2500 inr is as much as an expensive pair of jeans here. expensive clothes here r 30$ and in usa its 300$ . see the diffence #im changing topics so much but sometimes i do feel this place is suffocating #its a priviledge i have that i can even think about going abroad comapred to other indians but still #dp you get what i mean #and ik movies and all are very romanticised so it might not even be this way in western cities and just an idealisation but still #if things change around here then the entire question of going anywhere is out the window anyway #smalltown boy will byers moment #dni if you read all this and plan on replying unless ur a close mutual (close mutuals u know who u are) #also if someone says why would you want to go to usa uk paris when they colonised your country shut up <3 shut up very much <3