#13x01 lost and found

[gentlemancowboy]

#happy evermore season to all who celebrate #spn #destiel #spn s13 #13x01 lost and found #dean winchester #my edits #spnedit #destieledit #lyric edit #swiftnatural #cowboycoven #spncreatorsdaily

[gh-0-stcup]

Kinda wish shows like this would just let the characters raise a kid in normal time.

#i get it's a little bit of a nuisance to write around #but how fucking cute would be the heroes raising a baby that ages every season #spn #spn s13 #13x01 lost and found #ats

[hurricanejane]

I would die for Jack.

#13x01 lost and found #jane watches spn

[insanesonofabitch]

Carrying Cas is one of, if not the most intimate gesture Dean could ever bring himself to do for him, it’s the closest they could ever be, and it’s only when Cas is DEAD and he’s ALONE and there’s nobody else to see—not even us—that he gets to do that.

#we didn’t even get to see it. #the same way we didn’t get to see him alone in the finale. #do you ever think he remembers that and thinks about how they could’ve had more? #I’m gonna commit su—serial murder. #supernatural #spn #spn 12x23 #all along the watchtower #spn 13x01 #lost and found #destiel #deancas #casdean #dean winchester #castiel #dean x castiel #widower arc #reiotalks

[bloodydeanwinchester]

🩸Bloody Dean Every Episode🩸- 13x01 Lost and Found

#ohhh widower arc my beloved<3 #these scenes are so sad 🥺 #bloodydeanseries #bloody dean #spn 13x01 #lost and found #spnedit #deanedit #cowboycoven #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #tusersana #usermoogs

[winchestress]

#supernatural #dean winchester #lost and found #13x01 #spn rewatch #deancaps

[shallowseeker]

There is...one more Cas-adjacent car to discuss, but I don't quite have it all straight in my head.

LOOK! It's not the same tan sedan, but it IS interesting. (4x03 & 13x01) Isn't it? Let's ramble:

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Look at this cute little tan sedan that Dean drives in 4x03 In the Beginning!

This is one of his very first interactions with Cas, and our first on-screen date car drive.

They've interacted very little at this point! Previous appearances with Cas n' Dean were 1) their first meeting in the barn and 2) the very tense middle-of-the-night meeting in the dream kitchen.

Anyway, this is the vehicle Dean drives throughout the episode. It's our first car ride with Earth and Heaven teaming up.

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Dean is ghostly as he bears witness to the tragedy of Samuel Campbell's death (stabbed in the gut, just as Mary was before she burned), Deanna Campbell's death (broken neck), and John Winchester's death (broken neck).

Azazel is killing all of Mary's support system to better weaken her resolve and entrap her in a deal.

Young—afraid—alone—distressed. Mary would have taken any deal, surely.

(Mary's Fate is not unique, exactly, but it's definitely got its own signature. It's an off-rhyme parallel in Supernatural. She did not, in fact, barter her soul, or go to Hell, as John and Dean will eventually do. No, she unknowingly Rumpelstiltskin'd her second child.)

Mary looks sadly over her shoulder at Dean, who was unable to help her. Then, John breathes in air with a shuddering gasp—returns to life.

Dean gasps, too, and Cas returns to his side. They disappear together, leaving only mysterious tan sedan in their wake.

Mary turns to look one last time, and we now have the setup of the scene: John—Mary—tan Cas Car (lights on)—black Dean Car.

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Mary’s voice was so small when she asked if Azazel would revive her parents, “M-my parents, too?”

(Of course Azazel said no. Mary has to take what she will get, and she may have made a terrible mistake, but she knew enough not to barter her soul.)

So, Mary gazes at her father—the protector—lost as he failed to protect her, just as she will fail to protect Sam. (Oh, and her mother? She's dead, too. Mary's world has shrunk. And the world is so, so much scarier after your father dies. He’s supposed to be invincible.)

This failing of his child will haunt Samuel Campbell beyond the grave and entangle him in a demonic deal of his own. (Just as Cas, too, will be drawn into an Empty deal for Jack, post-resurrection.)

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"I'll tell you one person that you're not gonna save. Your Granpappy."

Deanna, very nearly victorious in her bid to go for the gun on the ground, gives herself away with a grief-stricken scream:

We've seen this ghost before. The demon comes through the door. It kills the protector. Then it seeks to kill the second line of defense, before moving onto the rest of the vulnerable family members.

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Now, we come to 12x23 All Along the Watchtower and 13x01 Lost and Found. And well, it hurts.

Nothing is one-to-one in Supernatural. All parallels are based in the specter of missing bonds and of lost love—whether that's a child, a comrade, a sibling, a parent, or a lover. It's a symphony of harmonizing pain. :(

So, in 12x23/13x01, Cas dies. Dean and Sam are stunned speechless.

In 12x23, it's Mary who leaps into action, and Dean can only stand, a paralyzed witness to Jack's twin fate of The Lost Parents. (Jack's mom, Kelly? She dies. Dean can't save her. Jack's chosen father, Castiel? He dies, too. Dean can't save him either.)

(Both Deanna and Kelly die with their eyes open.)

But Mary is triumphant. She is a Doomed Child fighting back. She protects Jack from Lucifer, even though she could not protect Sam from Azazel. (Echoing this, Crowley serves as an inverse: he spurned his mother's protection from Lucifer and bit off more than he could chew to further the security of his career/position. His death, surprisingly, tears Rowena in two and unfreezes her heart.)

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But thanks to Mary's heroic efforts here, her own kids are spared this time, and Jack, too. (From here, Mary will go into another world where she never made her deal, and she will make peace with her past.)

Of course, Dean bears witness to his own off-rhyme parallel fate to Mary, The Death of the Lover, at the hands of a Luciferian figure. Cas falls at his feet, and Dean falls to his knees.

Dean is also like John. He can only watch as his loved one's sacrificial debt comes due, with no hope in sight, like how Mary's sacrifice came due--those cosmic consequences.

(And later, Jack, in a painful echo of Azazel, will resurrect The Lover but become destined to kill Mary.)

Later, still in North Cove, Dean pleads with God on the landscape of his broken dreams—Washaway beach, (a cruel nod to the beach trip he will never take), a valley without people or friends in it, and a car.

Like Mary, he looks over his shoulder to find a mysterious tan sedan (but its lights are off & it's enshrouded in darkness).

And there's nothing for Dean here. No miraculous resurrection. No deals that can be made. Not for Dean. Dean's happiness, and the happiness of his loved ones isn’t important enough. The universe turns a blind eye. The father doesn't care if he lives or dies, and his happiness certainly never mattered to Him.

It isn't fair.

His voice shakes, and his lip trembles. "Please. Please, help us."

But God's not listening. "He doesn't give a damn."

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And we're left with a similar setup to Mary's tragedy, another off-rhyme: we return to the lakehouse and we have...a black Dean car. A tan Cas truck, at cross positions to one another, as they were in 4x03.

But like John, Dean is now left with just Sam n' Jack, and he's ill-equipped for parentally supporting either of them.

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But Dean just keeps looking and looking and looking. Hoping.

He looks like he's about to faint, actually.

(A kitchen. A dining table. An empty chair at its head.)

But this is how it goes with Cas. Dean tries to stop him from walking away, and in reality, he's powerless to stop him from going anywhere.

Having faith when miracles happen and when they don't? What good is it? It just hurts more.

#spn + grief #car meta #cas + cars #dean + cars #dean/cas + cars #tfw + vehicles #spn 4x03 #the tan sedan #spn 13x01 #spn lost and found #spn in the beginning #deanna campbell #mary cambell winchester #samuel campbell #the lost parents #the death of the lover

[samepisodebracket]

Round 2; Group 7

#samepisodebracket #sam winchester #spn polls #spn #lost and found #american nightmare #my bloody valentine #13x01 #12x04 #5x14

[soullessjack]

not to be weirdly sentimental and sappy but the sheriff’s “everyone is normal in their own way” line from 13x01 is just so.. like .. it���s so. yeah. .

#every day jack gets more and more autistic #ladies can we co-opt this as an autism community thing .. Can we … please #cal.txt #spn #jack kline #spn season 13 #spn 13x01 #lost and found #autistic jack kline #autistic coded character #autism posting #I need to fucking sleep sorry guys

[mybrainproblems]

anyway i think everyone needs to let dabbnatural into their hearts a little more bc he's literally Just Some Guy and often enough, an actually good writer who's given us some really key character moments over his 12 years on the show

#[waves at all of dsotm] #too much heart was always castiel's problem #it's just people trying to do the best they can in a world where it's all too easy to do your worst #burger date my beloved burger date!!! #hunteri heroici ''talk to me'' 😭😭😭 #12x23 all along the watchtower // 13x01 lost & found #heroes' journey ''i always thought i'd be a good dancer'' #10x22 theeee prisoner!! #like 70% of drowley tbh #nobody agrees with me except pearl but 09x20 bloodlines was good actually!!! #also oh man do i recommend his resident evil show for netflix in 2022 which was cancelled on a cliffhanger but fuck was it good #this is only a small amount of the juice my brain has been pickling in #i feel like this is a poll opportunity 🤔

[highfunctioningflailgirl]

Okay, Chuck. Or God, or whatever. I... I need your help. See, you left us. You left us. You went off... You said... You said the earth would be fine because it had me and it had Sam, but it's not, and we're not. We've lost everything. And now you're gonna bring him back. Okay? You're gonna bring back Cas, you're gonna bring back Mom, you're gonna bring 'em all back. All of them. Even Crowley. 'Cause after everything that you've done, you owe us, you son of a bitch! So you get your ass down here, and you make this right, right here and right now! Please. Please, help us.

#that hurt #oh dean 😢 #jensen killing it once again #i’m very here for the god exists but he doesn’t give a flying fuck theme #13x01 #lost and found #spn #supernatural #dean's prayer #dean winchester #jensen ackles #winchester woes

[gentlemancowboy]

4.10 Heaven and Hell // 13.01 Lost and Found

For @winchestergifs’ 5k Celebration ⤷ tearjerkers + sea & sky tones

#winchgifs5k #spn #dean winchester #4x10 Heaven and Hell #13x01 lost and found #my edits #spnedit #dean edit #spncreatorsdaily #cowboycoven #kitchencule #useralison #userkels #emeraldcas #donestiel

[gh-0-stcup]

Jack meeting his first boyfriend.

#spn s13 #13x01 lost and found #spn #jack kline

[bvtchcas]

Season 13

#tag list #13x01: lost and found #13x02: the rising son #13x03: patience #13x04: the big empty #13x05: advanced thanatology #13x06: tombstone #13x07: war of the worlds #13x08: the scorpion and the frog #13x09: the bad place #13x10: wayward sisters #13x11: breakdown #13x12: various & sundry villains #13x13: devil's bargain #13x14: good intentions #13x15: a most holy man #13x16: scoobynatural #13x17: the thing #13x18: bring 'em back alive #13x19: funeralia #13x20: unfinished business #13x21: beat the devil #13x22: exodus #13x23: let the good times roll

[castiellesbian]

[jackexmachina]

spn + text posts

image description: clips from “Sin City,” “After School Special,” “The Rapture,” “The Great Escapist,” “About A Boy,” “Our Little World,” “Lost and Found,” “Various & Sundry Villains,” “Unfinished Business,” and “Proverbs 17:3” paired with tumblr text posts

13x01: Jack is across from Sam in the holding cell of a police station, and he moves to sit cross-legged on a bench. His brow is furrowed and he looks concerned, then he looks up at Sam saying, “Will you tell them that I’m sorry?” text post from jame7t reads [sorry for being lovable and cute & sweet. AND adorable.]

15x05: Sam picks up his cell phone from a table in the bunker, it shows several unanswered texts to Cass which read “Hey Cass checking in.” “How are you doing? Everything ok?” “Cass call me we need to talk.” “Didn’t realize you were taking off.” “Service sucks in the bunker, want to make sure you’re getting these?” “Call me when you can.” “Want to make sure you’re ok?” text post from papayajuan2019 reads [people who dont double text are in such mental prisons. i will text seven times if it requires it]

13x12: Dean stands in front of Sam in the bunker, he makes a sweeping motion with his hand saying, “It is gorgeous outside.” Sam puts a hand on his shoulder, telling him to stop as he turns away, but then Dean punches him and knocks him out. Dean winces as he watches Sam fall to the floor. text post from fungalfaggot reads [oh you’re touch starved? here eat up *fucking punches you*]

4x13: young!Sam in a flashback turns in his chair to glare at a school bully, saying, “Yeah, sure.” text post from evilvillain123456789 reads [fifth grader’s report card with straight As and at the bottom the teacher wrote “extremely violent and dangerous young man”]

11x06: Several moving close-up shots of Castiel standing at the door leading outside the bunker, he is suffering from PTSD flashbacks. He looks haggard and disoriented. text post from elytrians reads [“you look tired” well the torment is relentless and the horrors never cease]

4x20: Sam moves away from a demon and the lower half of his face is covered with demon blood, his teeth are bared and his eyes look animalistic. He turns around to stand up and sees Dean and Castiel in Claire’s vessel watching him, disturbed. His face falls, caught. text post from dogmotif reads [haha hey i love the blood dripping from your face and the animal rage in your eyes whats your pronouns]

13x20: Gabriel watches Sam, calculating, but then he turns to look at Dean. Dean rolls his eyes, shrugging in acquiescence. text post from annabelle--cane reads [it’s rotten work. especially to me especially if it’s you. I’ll fucking do it but christ alive.]

8x21: Sam stands in front of Dean in a hallway, slightly delirious and telling Dean about a memory from when he was very young. He says he was thinking, “I could never go on a quest like that.” He is almost smiling as he finishes speaking. text post from soulmvtes reads [trying to outgrow the deep shame and embarrassment woven into my existence wbu]

10x12: age-regressed Dean stands in front of Sam outside a witch’s lair, saying, “First time you ever had to say that, huh?” and grinning. Sam glares at him, bending down a little to respond, “Big talk coming from the dude wearing underoos.” text post from monelyslave-noscopekween600thou reads [I’m at the doctor office and this baby keeps yelling “I want donow” (mcdonalds) and the big brother (I assume) said “all the mcdonalds burnt down, there’s no more mcdonalds”]

3x04: Sam stands at the door to an office he’s just broken into, telling them, “Have a nice day?” He tries to smile but then quickly leaves, cringing painfully as he walks away. text post from kristina100000 reads [we should all be 6′5 with 250lbs of muscle mass with a heart of a darling]

#I want to be sorry that these are mostly sam but like. I'm not really. everybody else needs to be more text post-able. #sam winchester #dean winchester #jack kline #castiel #gabriel spn #3x04 #4x13 #4x20 #8x21 #10x12 #11x06 #13x01 #13x12 #13x20 #15x05 #*mine