#2016 skam stans

[pixijelly]

a rejected substack article

So there's this story that I wrote around June. It was completely stereotypical and useless, never to be seen by another unless ur name was [REDACTED], [REDACTED], [REDACTED], and my priv twt. Around that time, I was applying to internships and parading myself around as someone fully capable. I don't really know when it started to sound good, but at some point SOME POINT!!! i thought “Yeah, holy shit, that’s it!”

I finally found the script I could tell people about!

lasted about two seconds until I wanted to melt onto the screen again. [Suicidal ideation, much? How 2014]

Back into the workshop .. *sigh*

I so dangerously call myself a writer. I burrow myself inside once it gets a little cold. I smoke a cigarette after every class.

These are all things I think writers do.

I wouldn’t introduce myself as a writer, but when people ask me about my major, I say, “Blah, Blah, Blegh, * Writing.” The implications are there, and people understand to some degree that I have dedicated myself to collecting words and experiences in order to call them a story. It’s verryyyyyy pretentious.

I started calling myself a writer around my 12th birthday when I posted my very first fanfic on wattpad. WATTPAD! It was a HTTYD fanfic where the characters all attended self-help group therapy LMAO. I was going to group therapy. Anyway, people commented, people liked it, whatever.

Fanfiction was a very integral part of my self-discovery as a writer. I was 15 talking to 30 year olds about their creative work. I did beta work, or editing, and I felt like I finally met people who understood what it was like to post on AO3, tumblr, fanfiction. net! Thank God!

Am I really a writer if I started on the internet?

This article has taken a lighter tone… I need to reassess.

The internet is a place I frequent. Chronically Online. I have been since middle school, and it’s shaped most of my lingo, tastes, and personality. It sounds strange if you are a middle-aged corporate worker or Normal young person. I’m very different, I was living vicariously through the internet! It looks like I crawled out of the cyber gutters! *gag*

Now, I can usually tell when someone else is *also* chronically online. Kpop was a very stan twt THING (even though sometimes I’m not so sure nowadays). Do you rapid fire say words like AJKDFHJDHFJDSKFJDGHOGNJAENJGNIEURNVJKDFNVKJNFGJFGNFDKJGHRWTEYUIFOVUYADSGNVHOUYVNFIJDOASLKNGHUFBGIUVAJSFDNVJBOUGIERUAOJNVJDFKVAIUERGJOIEQ9-347THUFJEVBIE.

It’s cool to be on the internet. It usually means You Know What’s Up. Allegedly.

If you were on the internet around 2014, you understood the Indie Sleaze Revival. If you were on the internet around 2016, you understood After. Phan, Lolita, Anorexia, 2018 Dark Harry Styles Fanfic, Magcon, Red Scare, Hello Kitty, Diet Coke, Red Sunglasses, Oil, Ripped Black Skinny Jeans, Matty Healy, Skins UK, Skam, Tommy February 6, American Apparel, Wong Kar-wai, Male Manipulator Music, Female Manipulator Music, Harajuku Fashion, NGE, Faye Wong, Ai Yazawa, The Love Witch, whimsigoth. Tumblr Stuff like that.

I will let you in on a secret. The internet does not give you a personality, but it gives you a great starting point to be a cool, trendy, multi-dimensional person! You can pretend to be so Effy Stonem from Skins UK. You can loudly profess your eating disorders (I shoved a toothbrush down my throat this morning hahahaha)! You can like weird things! There will be people there to see you, share thingsss, expose you, love you. But you already know that. It’s 2022, of course YOUUUU understand the internet.

At 20 years old, NEARLY 21, I am afraid to confess that I still love tumblr. I’m afraid to confess that I feel really fucking old already.

There are no other secrets I can share with you.

Except maybe that script I wrote back in June… And maybe some creative writing I tried to write.

I feel like I can only share my writing on the internet because on here… you have no idea who I am, or you do, but I love you enough to trust you with my corny dialogue lines. Because I can act like a SERIOUS WRITER, a GOOD writer, someone who knows what they’re doing…

In actuality, I feel like the distance I’ve created from calling myself is rooted in some deep twisted imposter syndrome. People can do hard things! Like go to therapy, and not talk about their eating disorder on air like that. Chuu from the Kpop group Loona nearly made me cry. Bulimic girls need to stick together!

Which is whyyy I say everyone should watch the Crown s4. I’m obsessed with British Royalty when they’re depicted as fictional, not real people. Kinda like what fanfic writers do to Larry Stylinson LOL.

I want to become so indistinguishable, fake, raw, and unreal that you are able to see me as a fictional character. I’m not real, but I am?? Real enough so you can find enjoyment in my writing.

When people ask me who I write for, I usually say for the girls. But I guess what I mean is, I write for myself, a lonely, hating bitch. What’s coolerrrr than that!

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Time to get into the nitty gritty pretentiousness!

For about a year now, I have come to terms in being a film girl. I like to watch movies, and I watch a lot of movies (shitty and criterion). It wasn’t until one Thursday evening, Mahayla said, “We need to find something good for the film student to watch,” or something along those lines. AT THAT MOMENT, I grappled with my major, my interests, and my overall vibe.

I’m not a film student, but I have taken classes to survey films. If asked, I could vomit some terminology and critique a Film. Capital F. I guess that makes me a film student.

But it was something about the way my friends were keeping me in mind while looking for something to watch. I’m not really used to that. I kind of like to keep my mouth shut in fear of saying some movie *nobody* wants to watch. Is it wrong to be afraid of my own taste? Perhaps it’s some form of gatekeeping. I’m sure it’s insecurity.

I like to joke that I gatekeep my personality. It means I have no personality. I have yet to know the difference. If you’ve met me before, I’d appreciate it if you’d let me know if I was interesting … JUST KIDDING1!

I know I’m a person with feelings, likes, and a personality.

Anyway, I watched A Special Day for the first time this weekend, and it made me cry. Maybe it was because I was really emotional from the brownie I ate. I was probably anticipating my incoming burnout. It was a shit movie. Not really sure. I’m still figuring out how to categorize my emotions.

#words

[robinsmoyo]

This is the one!! All 2016 skam stans rise

#young royals #skam #evak #wilhelm x simon #2016 skam stans #skam og

[yououghtaknow]

NEW CLIP: “The Killer Wants To Be Caught”

https://archiveofourown.org/works/31602452/chapters/78387659

#skam brighton #what's up besties i do not feel well at all #the vax side effects are fucking with me and i have some other health stuff going on #but hey!!! plot happening!!! friendship!!! woo!!! #it also has my favourite heathers song in it..... i'm a kindergarten boyfriend warrior #i once listened to nothing but that song for two weeks straight. #seeing it live Did make me almost cry. it's very hard for me to cry but it brought me close #and when i see heathers again in october i Will be so emotional #AND I WILL BE SEVENTEEN LISTENING TO THEM SING SEVENTEEN. FUCK. #it's been a song that's been in my life since i was 11 and just. fuck dude. #i know the jd harmony to that song off by heart because i always sang it with one of my old friends who wanted to play veronica #and honestly. i truly believe i could do jd. #you may say 'but isaac your vibe is so very not that. your typecast is the opposite of that' but please consider. i like to go hogwild #i like to scream and play bad people sometimes!!!! villains are fun!!!! #ALSO one time in 2016 i sang freeze your brain in one of my drama school classes #and no one knew what it was except for me so they were Very confused #cut to now and they are all heathers stans <3 i don't want to sound like a bitch but i am always ahead of the curve #i got made fun of in 2017 for doing a dear evan hansen monologue in class. Cut To 2018 when they are singing #you will be found at a concert. like besties i was there first!!!! #people will be like 'haha theatre kids need to be bullied'. and like. theatre kids are the worst bullies to other theatre kids #also the whole 'theatre kids need to be bullied' thing never sat right with me. like we're just people who have a hobby. #also because i'm autistic and have been bullied for my interests my whole life <3 #anyways! enoy the clip. i've missed the main squad so so much #but to make up for them being gone for so much of this season they're in So Much of the last few episodes #have a nice day/night/whatever besties <3

[skamtrash]

I think I'm gonna heal my soul and watch og s3 for the 253728451783rd time.

#og is the best and nothing will ever compare im sorry skam it stans #i wish i could go back to october 2016 i mean it was a shitty time in the rest of the world #but og skam guys!

[fu-yao]

tagged by @leonzhng​ thanks for making me dig through my most embarrassing crushes 😭✋

i’ll tag @highwarlockkareena​ @yibobibo​ @lan-xichens​ @purplexedhuman​ @aheartfullofjolllly​ @lanzhansmiles​ @nyx4​ i feel like i tag you guys in everything i am so sorry please ignore this if u don’t wanna do it !!

putting this under a read more for reasons

MEN 2010 – 2016

literally nothing more embarrassing than falling on the same type of white man over and over again (with the exception of minho from shinee bless his heart)

tommy joe ratliff → he was the bass player for adam lambert during his glamnation era (think of songs like for your entertainment and if i had you) idk why exactly i liked him so much but i just did.... however i searched him up again quite recently and found out he’s one of those republicans that says the dumbest shit on twitter so Big Yikes

harry styles → “baby you light up my world like nobody else, the way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, and when you smile at the ground it ain’t hard to tell...” and BOOM 13-year-old me was sold for well over two years

louis tomlinson → basically i liked harry most until around 2013 when for some reason i started to like him a little less, and i got more focused on louis tomlinson, and although i didn’t like one direction anymore louis tomlinson always had a special place in my heart

ashton irwin → so ashton is 5sos’ drummer, i discovered 5sos through one direction & i stanned them until late 2014

harries twins → the harries twins (jack & finn) are basically the reason i started spending a lot of time on youtube, they were funny and pretty and they just had good videos in general, so for almost two years i’d watch their content regularly

choi minho → my first steps into kpop happened bc i was watching videos on youtube (most probably the harries twins) and suddenly i saw the sherlock mv in my recommended videos so i clicked on it and then 14-year-old me proceeded to fall for minho like an idiot

brooks twins → still youtubers, the brooks twins were 3/5 of the janoskians (jai & luke brooks, beau brooks, daniel sahyounie, & james yammouni), an australian youtube comedy group that was active from 2011-2018 though i was only around from 2012-2014 (when jai brooks was dating ariana grande)

jc caylen → surprise! another youtuber! jc caylen was part of o2l (our2ndlife) a youtube collaboration channel on which each of the 6 members posted videos on a certain day in the week (mondays with connor, tuesdays with ricky, wednesdays with sam, thursdays with jc, fridays with trevi (my 2nd favorite member bc she participated on the x factor), saturdays with ricardo, and then they had surprise sundays every week) and i remember how much joy jc & the others always brought me with their silly videos

misha collins → up next, you might know him as the gay angel that was sent to superhell after confessing his love to the homophobic hunter on supernatural, it’s misha collins! basically misha was a huge source of comfort for me, and i even went around calling myself emmisha for almost two full years (cringe)

henrik holm → he played even bech naesheim in skam and my crush on him reached that level of ridiculousness where i actually tried my hand at learning norwegian (i can only remember how to introduce myself and some curse words i would make a great first impression on him)

MEN 2016 – 2021

min yoongi → okay so my baby steps into kpop happened through shinee’s sherlock, but i only got really invested when yoongi dropped agust d 1 because Holy Fuck y’know??

kim namjoon → oh man i remember thinking namjoon was cute and a very good leader and then BAM he dressed like THAT at the 2016 mma’s and i fell in love. hard

park seojoon → i started liking park seojoon whilst i was watching hwarang (you guessed it, i watched it bc of taehyung), although he wasn’t my favorite character by far, but he was very silly off camera & i liked that (i’m not that into him anymore tho </3)

kim seokjin → OH BOY LET ME TELL U i liked seokjin from the very beginning (i got to know bts in late 2014) and i always liked seeing him perform and be himself and god once i realized i had a crush on him it just hit me like a mf truck, and he’s still one of my favorite people to this day

jung hoseok → god fake love era hoseok really hits different.... also yes i know i have all of bts’ hyung line on my list BUT bts was a really big part of my life for almost 6 years soooo honestly they deserve it i still think they’re great guys

choi san → when ateez made their debut in 2018 i immediately fell in love with san, he was such an amazing dancer and he captivated me right from the very beginning, to this day he’s still my bias in ateez uwu

xiao zhan → AND THEN, OCTOBER OF 2019 HAPPENS AND I WATCH CQL AND... i fall in love with xiao zhan, something i’d never expected would happen bc when i watched cql for the first time i wasn’t as invested in the story, but i really really really liked xiao zhan and one thing led to another and now here i am as a xfx

wang yibo → the thing is, i’ve known yibo since eoeo except i didn’t know cql yibo was uniq yibo (bc i’d forgotten his name) and when i looked it up i can tell you my jaw dropped to the floor bc holy shit????? also he is very silly and i love him loads ok

lee minho → ah, the man who has been my skz bias since 2018, not only is minho my bias i also kin him (there’s a lot of aspects of myself that i see in minho and vice versa) and he’s very comforting to me

bang chan → honestly, it was only a matter of time before i’d fall for bang chan, i knew the moment i got into skz again that i’d start biasing him and, well, here i am, double biasing chan & minho

WOMEN

this list is shorter bc i’ve in general always had less crushes on women than on men??? blame society forcing me into thinking i was straight for a LONG time

ariana grande → remember the 2011 layout of twitter?? where u could not only have an icon and a header, but also a background and ur twitter page was smack in the center of ur screen with the big ugly menu bar at the top??? yeah ariana grande was always my background for my l*rr* st*l*n*s*n layouts

perrie edwards → this was right around the time she was dating zayn & little mix was breaking out into the spotlight, yeah i just really loved her

andrea russett → okay so remember o2l?? andrea russett was kian’s girlfriend for a pretty long time and they always did videos together and i always thought she was super pretty

lily collins → maybe i don’t like clary in tmi all that much but i sure liked the way lily collins looked

alona tal → MY BISEXUAL AWAKENING, it’s only when i saw alona tal in spn that i realized, fuck i might be gay

park jihyo → i discovered twice (my 2nd jype group after day6) through the like ooh-ahh mv and red-haired jihyo really did something to my heart (i just rewatched it and god zombie bang chan is so mf cute)

kim jisoo → when bp made their square two comeback i was immediately smitten for red-haired jisoo in playing with fire, it’s also when i realized she was my bias out of the four members

shin ryujin → the reason that i have blue hair is partially bc of ryujin and her amazing intro in wannabe :D

xuan lu → her portrayal of jiang yanli was SO ON POINT and she’s just such a kindhearted wonderful person wow i want her hand in marriage

lee yoobin → god i’ve known dreamcatcher from back when they were still called minx and ever since i’ve always looked at dami that bit more than the rest, i was also able to see dreamcatcher live in october of 2019 and the whole experience was just so amazing !!

FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

there’s a whole lot more than just these 10 but i wanted to fit the evolution into one (1) slide as best as i could lmao

peter pan → this movie came out in 2003 (?) and he’s honestly the first fictional character i remember ever having a crush on

legolas → i was really doubting between placing haldir or legolas here but i only really got a vague haldir obsession when i was like 14

zuko → LOOK. ZUKO IN ATLA? HOT. ZUKO IN LOK? HOT EVEN IF HE’S AN OLD MAN.

will turner → man was annoying sometimes but i really liked him and his relationship with elizabeth was cute

jo harvelle → gosh i can’t believe she’s the only female character in here???? yeah she was one of my two spn faves and i’ll never forgive the screenwriters for the way they killed her off

castiel → does your fave ever get sent to super hell for being gay? no? well. mine did

kili → fili and kili’s storyline tore my heart out, spit on it, and then laughed straight in my face, KILI WAS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE DWARF

howl → i only watched this movie for the first time in 2020 so i kinda fucked up the tl cause i watched cql in 2019 but shh, anyways howl with his blonde hair was good looking but howl with his black hair just hits differently. i want a howl

lan jingyi → MY BABY BOY, TINIE LITTLE BABIE WHOMST I MUST PROTECT ok no but seriously this kid. i love him a lot

mu qing → BARK BARK. that’s all (that’s not all i love him a whole lot and it hurts me to see so many people misunderstand his character and only see the bad parts of him when they can forgive others for fucking up (eg. xie lian himself & feng xin) but bc mu qing doesn’t deal well with emotions suddenly he’s the bad guy??? i s2g if ppl are gonna do to him what they did to jiang cheng in the tgcf la i will RIOT)

#thanks for the tag hanyi my hands hurt now </3 #tag game

[khaotungsfirst]

ali‘s embarrassing celebrity crushes throughout the years

thank you to @fengqing for wanting me to expose myself, i hope y’all don’t judge me too much 🥴i had to go through my archive to remember most of these cause as fast as these crushes hit me sometimes, some of them went away just as quickly.

tagging: @schnaf @manhasetardis @morifinwes @xiaodaozhang​ @huigusu​ @yibocrisis​

ok here we go, putting it under a read more cause this got long

MEN (since 2006)

tom kaulitz nothing more attractive to 10 year-old me than this 15 year-old with dreadlocks and pants that hit the floor askdjhgkjfdg

joseph gordon-levitt i..... can’t even explain this?? lmao.. i mean inception was and is my favourite movie but not because of him so like??

niall horan niall girls unite!! i was a niall girl until i got into larry and then that was all i cared about for a long time ksadjgkdf but i still love him!

dan howell he was funny and british, that’s it

dylan o’brien listen every teen wolf fan was mainly there for him, don’t even lie about it

seb stan holy shit i was crushing on him so hard after the winter soldier came out. he was the epitome of perfection to me! this was a big one for me but it went downhill once he started growing out his hair afgkjdfgjkd retrospectively i’m not sure if i was only thirsting after him because everyone else on my dash was doing it (also does anyone remember political animals??)

dane dehaan oh god..... listen, it’s all the fault of the amazing spiderman 2! also his look is so versatile like in some photos he looks really nice and in others..... 😬yikes lmao skdjgfdk idk man

loïc nottet this was a short-lived crush but he absolutely killed it at the 2015 esc and tumblr went wild over him so... 🤷🏻‍♀️

marc bartra so we’re getting into football players now and just look at him! he joined my favourite team (bvb) and i immediately loved him cause he made such an effort to integrate himself. after the team bus was attacked and he got injured my love for him only increased. he just seems so sweet and nice aaahh

niklas stark idek how i came to know abt him cause he plays for hertha which i don’t care abt aksjgjghjf but he has such a beautiful smile i think that’s what got me

andré silva i just thought he looked neat (still does but he doesn’t blow me away anymore)

héctor bellerín 2016 bellerín?? oof!! don’t look him up on google tho, he’s had a lot of... questionable hair and fashion choices throughout the years 🥴the way we all dragged him for it was really funny tho. i still love him he’s a great guy always supporting good causes

arón piper listen earrings and curly hair maketh the man

matthías tryggvi haraldsson once again a crush resulting from esc. he was my icon before i turned into a mdzs blog. i don’t even think he’s super attractive, i just love the contrast between hatari matti and normal matti

harry styles i’ve given in to the harry supremacy propaganda. he really is my favourite 1d member these days, musically-wise and looks-wise

bill kaulitz we’ve come full circle!! nowadays bill is my favourite kaulitz twin. it’s funny cause they literally have the same face so it all just comes down to how they present themselves and bill is just my preference

MEN (recently/currently)

wang yibo i don’t even have words!!! his look, his personality, his talent just!!! I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM!! (as we all do) (also big genvy causer)

lesbian yibo this gets a separate bullet point cause i had this realisation like two weeks after falling for regular yibo but oh boi am i gay for her

xiao zhan he’s just.. so pretty and lovely. i thought about putting wwx into the fictional characters category cause i think xz looks the prettiest as wwx but xz as a person just seems so nice and down to earth that i had to put him here

bright (vachirawit chivaaree) a baby!!! his smile is so pretty and overall he gives off very ~soft~ vibes. also how does he look so good when crossdressing??

boun (noppanut guntachai) once again the jewellery got me. boys with earrings really will be my downfall one day... (this is not to say that he isn’t pretty without them, his face is also very much up there on reasons why i stan him)

tul (pakorn thanasrivanitchai) get you a man who is as comfortable in his masculinity and sexuality as tul

felix lee will i ever get over the dissonance between his looks and his voice?? probably not. also he’s just a fucking cutie

hyunjin felix might be my bias (oh god i’m starting to speak in kpop lingo) but i’m also kinda simping for him, what can i say?

WOMEN (sadly not as many but you know, heteronormativity)

scarlett johansson literally everyone on this planet thinks she’s hot and they’re right (yeah she’s kinda problematic but i can still appreciate her looks)

halsey remember when halsey used to kiss her fans at her concerts?? completely unrelated to that, i really wanted to go to one of her concerts..... 🙃 also i once dyed my hair blue bc of her

kiko mizuhara she was fancast as blue from the raven cycle so many times and i was so on board with it cause in my head she fit the character perfectly but maybe that’s just because i thought she was really really beautiful and wanted to see more of her 🤷🏻‍♀️

rihanna i mean... c’mon

michelle phan oh man this goes way back.. she was one of the first youtubers i watched in like 2010 before i even played with makeup myself. she just always gave off such calming vibes and she seems so nice. also look at her 😍

zendaya oof zendaya is a big one for me. she’s just so fucking beautiful just... how?? what??? i- AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

lena i started actively following her on ig after she released her last album in 2019 (which is great btw) and... damn girl do i want to be you or date you??

xuan lu oh god she’s so adorable but then also so hot but then also so etheral but then also so cute but then also so beautiful but then also s-

FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

stefan salvatore (tvd) gotta love how even at 14 i already knew not to make the toxic choice 😊

legolas (lotr) if you didn’t have a legolas phase you’re lying

draco malfoy (hp) if villain bad then why sexy?

anakin skywalker (star wars) if villain bad then why sexy? 2

noora amalie sætre (skam) she’s just really pretty, ok? the red lipstick didn’t help either...

chris p (skam) if villain bad then why sexy? 3 (ok he’s not a villain but he’s an asshole)

tokio (money heist) hhnnnnnnnggggggg girl with a gun make brain go brrr

wen qing (the untamed) funny how in the show i’m simping for wq but irl i prefer xuan lu... someone explain that to me. but anyways, she’s pretty, she’s fierce, and she looks fucking hot in red

#tag game #this took forever omg

[maxbernini]

you telling your mother abt skamfr big same my mom and i watched skam in 2016/2017 and one dinner in like. december 2020 i went on a rant of how skam france messed up so bad by taking all these important subjects and themes and just absolutely crushing them (negative) and my mom just 🧍🏻‍♀️🍽 im eating. no jk she actually went “that’s really bad bc those are very important subjects.” she was especially “upset” (like. bothered but not so much she’ll ever think abt it again) abt them not taking lolas problems seriously. lola stans unite my mother has joined us

SHSJSKSKKS your mother being a lola stan...why am i not surprised she has good taste?? i can only assume this also means she’s a tiff anti 😌💘 what were your mom’s thoughts on og skam though, i’m very curious about that...any hot takes at the time? 👀

i explain the skamverse to my mother once every few months basically whenever new seasons start bc we both stay up til 2/3/4am, so while waiting for clips i’ll discuss my theories, she gets exclusive access to them first lol. it’s complex bc whilst she loves when we watch things and theorize, cry etc together, she stopped caring about teen dramas after we spent my teen years watching pll / teen wolf 😭 but then she also THRIVES on gossip so every skam convo with her is like: “i don’t care about any of this, i won’t remember it tomorrow, but please tell me why you think bilal will be the s8 main anyways”. my tiff trailer rant was so incoherent bc i had to laugh every few secs that she was basically the 🧍🏻‍♀️ emoji the whole time

#kinda wanna watch the remakes w/ her but she would NOT see the point in watching the same story 2728 times so i’d have to pick carefully 🤔 #i’m thinking eskam...she’d love the girl squad and we could be bitter about s4 together #what’s the most mom friendly skam. something where i won’t feel like i have to block both our eyes #ask #ludvig #cowsinlove

[thiswasstarkslydia]

⇢ starkslydia’s favorite ships (7/7)

61. EVILDE — eva kviig mohn and vilde hellerud lien, skam (nrk, 2015) played by lisa teige and ulrikke falch

62. SIZZY — simon lewis and isabelle “izzy” lightwood, shadowhunters (freeform, 2016) played by alberto rosende and emeraude toubia

63. THEONSA — theon greyjoy and sansa stark, game of thrones (hbo, 2011) played by alfie allen and sophie turner

64. THUNDERBLINK — john “thunderbird” proudstar and clarice “blink” fog, the gifted (fox, 2017) played by blair redford and jamie chung

65. GRAMMY — thomas “tommy” shelby and grace burgess (bbc two, 2013) played by cillian murphy and annabelle wallis

66. THIAM — theo raeken and liam dunbar, teen wolf (mtv, 2011) played by cody christian and dylan sprayberry

67. STUCKY — steve “captain america” rogers and bucky “winter soldier” barnes, marvel cinematic universe (marvel + disney) played by chris evans and sebastian stan

68. STYDIA — stiles stilinski and lydia martin, teen wolf (mtv, 2011) played by dylan o’brien and holland roden

69. YOUSANA — yousef acar and sana bakkoush, skam (nrk, 2015) played by cengiz al and iman meskini

70. TYRELLIOT — tyrell wellick and elliot anderson, mr robot (usa, 2015) played by martin wallström and rami malek

#evilde #eva x vilde #sizzy #simon x isabelle #simon x izzy #theonsa #theon x sansa #thunderblink #thunderbird x blink #john x clarice #grammy #thomas x grace #tommy x grace #thiam #theo x liam #stucky #steve x bucky #stydia #stiles x lydia #yousana #yousef x sana #tyrelliot #tyrell x elliot

[lukasalexanders]

its so wild that a majority of skam stans that were on tumblr for 2016/2017 are gone now

#like?? so many current skam stans are newer dbdkdbns

[souriwin]

Did you watch the og in real time or any of the remakes?

heya anonn~ yeap i did for og season three & four and let me tell you watching skam in 2016 was one heck of a ride everyone was scrambling to find translations and like y’know that skam stans be like “i know a place” and then sends you a bunch of google drive links meme? that’s basically the fandom shsnsk i had fun though even if it was a bit stressful 😂 for the rest of the remakes, unfortunately i was only able to watch half of robbe’s season live 😔 i actually saw the clip of lucas playing the piano for eliott the moment the clip dropped on youtube by accident but i was like oh i didn’t know skam has remakes now and i completely forgot to check it out the next day hdjdjsks

#i​ only had the time to discover and binge the rest (fr es druck italia and s1 of nl) last year bcos of quarantine :) #it was a year long hard lockdown and i was like welp maybe it’s time to jump in to the skam rabbit hole 🤸‍♀️🕳 #<3 <3 <3 #asks

[folerdetdufoler]

Answer 30 questions and tag 20 people

i was tagged by @julieseven; thank you darling! not sure i know 20 people still on here to tag, so i’m going to skip that step. if you see this and want to answer it though, tag me so i can learn more about you (please)!

Nickname: i don’t think i have one? people shorten kerry to “kerr” but i think that’s just to save time.

Gender: um...female? i don’t quite understand gender, really, or how i’m supposed to define myself. can “comfortable” be a gender? 

Star sign: aquarius

Height: 165 cm

Birthday: february 3rd

Favourite Bands: hmm. maybe one direction? they’re the only band i’ve paid money to see in concert, but i wouldn’t call myself a stan. i used to be in love with the backstreet boys and the spice girls as a wee one. i listen to a lot of imagine dragons now.

Favourite solo artist: ed sheeran, p!nk, jason mraz...i’d fuck with whatever britney spears does too.

Song stuck in my head: i like me better by lauv

Last movie I watched: passengers (boring)

Last show I watched: stranger things 2

When did I start this blog: almost a year ago! november 30, 2016

What do I post: skam and its actors

Other blogs: a “personal” blog (i think i’m actually more personal in the tags on this blog)

Do I get asks: no. i get occasional anons asking about my fic, or people responding to my tags, but nothing conversational.

Average sleep: uhhhh, six hours? i take naps though.

Lucky number: i used to like 9 a lot

Dream Job: hmmm. could someone pay me a steady amount of money yet have zero expectations for whatever work i decide to do?

Food: carbohydrates

Last book I read: the song of achilles by madeline miller

What I’m wearing: jeans and a grey hoodie

Favorite Fandoms: skam is the only fandom i’ve really gotten into, so it’s my favorite by default. dipped into welcome to night vale a while ago, which was fun.

#about me

[carmenlire]

So i love your shadowhunters stuff. I see people like you and others talking alot on my feed about stuff like BTS and like - whats the big appeal about some of this stuff? Genuinely curious. With BTS I see alot of people stanning them and reblogging stuff on tumblr or posting on Twitter and like - why stan people whos native language is different therefore lyrics need like translation? Whats the appeal in something thats a completely different culture? I just want to try to understand

Hello! I know you sent this-- god last month? And I want to apologize for not responding sooner. I wanted to take my time to answer seriously and my inbox has just kinda slipped from my mind recently.

I’m glad that you like my shadowhunters stuff and that you haven’t unfollowed me because I’ve pretty much switched fandoms recently (Though since you sent this several weeks ago and I hadn’t answered yet you might never even read this rip) and thanks for asking! My answer might be kinda ramble-y and will totally be subjective but I’ll do my best to give you a good response.

Okay. So. I was super into a band called 5 Seconds of Summer back in 2014-2016. They went on a hiatus in 2016 and lowkey fell off the face of the earth. I noticed my entire dash at the time turned into kpop land, seemingly overnight. Everyone switched from the 5sosfam to stanning bts (I vividly remember Jungkook was one of my old mutuals faves). I didn’t understand at all! I was like you lol--how did people even find these bands? How did they fall in love with them when they spoke korean? You can’t understand what they mean without translators! How could their music be as meaningful as 5sos/english music when you can’t /know/ what they’re saying. The banter 5sos is famous for had to fall flat with other kpop bands because it’s just not that same level of connectivity. I really didn’t understand the appeal of kpop when it was so-- well, foreign and different and seemingly unrelatable.

But, in 2017 I saw this show all over my dash lol. Skam. I started watching it and I watched all 4 seasons in less than a week. I had to use subtitles (It takes place in norway) and i actually loved it! I don’t think i lost anything because i couldn’t like,, fully immerse myself in that show. I think that was my first real, real inkling that it was okay?? to like and enjoy something not in english and not feel deprived in any way.

So. In 2018, I start seeing a lot of bts on my dash. I’m in a bit of a music funk (I’ve kinda abandoned my pop punk phase and the shadowhunters/malec playlists have gotten a little stale after listening to them nonstop for almost a year.) There were a couple shadowhunters mutuals, actually, that switched to bts accounts and I was on my way home from somewhere one July evening when I just. put bts’s latest album on shuffle. And. I. Loved. It.

It sounded so new and fun and fresh! I seriously felt like I’d just taken a deep breath. Their music made me happy and i just wanted to dance when i heard it. This mutual recommended a few music videos to watch and so when i got home, I watched them and I was amazed! I have to admit, full disclosure, that I was-- well, a little surprised, maybe even a little taken aback by the fashion of bts. They were men and were in full, noticeable makeup! Their clothes were fun and extravagant! But it worked! They looked really, really good. Their looks were a clear aesthetic and fit into the music and their talent, my god. I remember very clearly thinking that they must work so hard, that their talent and sheer work ethic had to be so goddamn admirable because their singing! the dancing was incredible, so intricate but they made it look so easy! doing both at the same time! They seemed so perfect and as someone used to western performers, it was just. like wow! I can’t even imagine how much must go into their songs/performances. I was utterly enthralled. So, I fell in love with the music and aesthetic and effort first. I didn’t know exactly what they were saying at this point but I was drawn to them,,, almost like a magnet lol??

And, like a lot of westerners.... I’ll admit that I had the thought that they look all the same. I’m not proud of that but I’ll be honest about it. I had wondered how people knew who was who. I wanted to educate myself though? and so I started looking up videos introducing BTS and I learned more about the members and it took a few weeks from when i very first listened to them to when something finally clicked and I just,, knew who jimin was by his fucking posture and i could name the member singing by voice alone. Watching those videos-- first the introductions and then performances and then they have a few shows and watching episodes of that where I could see their personality and not just their music added so much to the experience that BTS became. I grew to love them just as much as I had loved the 5sos boys. I saw their serious sides when talking about music and their goofy sides during RUN! episodes and every interview or whatever that i watched just made me fall deeper. They became more than just an image or surface level feel-good feeling and became more like Real People to me.

I’ve always loved traveling and learning about new cultures/places. You ask what the appeal is about stanning something I can’t understand in its native language, something that is in a completely different culture to me. Well, I think that is part of the appeal! Because of BTS, I’ve grown interested in learning more about Korea in general and other Asian countries. I might have to rely on translations but it’s not nearly as messy or inconvenient as I had always thought it had to be before falling into it myself. I’m so appreciative of the fans who take the time to translate and disseminate BTS content for people who don’t speak Korean. I enjoy losing myself in researching lyrics and watching videos breaking down BTS songs and theories and explaining things that could be lost in translation. I actually have a goal to learn Korean this year-- at least enough for a basic conversation lol. I want to visit south korea next year!

I think that’s part of the fun and beauty of enjoying BTS or Kpop or anything from a different culture-- you’re broadening your horizons and challenging yourself. Like I said, I had some initial thoughts that I’m not proud of and that I actively tried to tamp down. but. they were still there. BTS challenged me and confirmed some things I believed but hadn’t really tested.

Just because something has to be translated doesn’t mean it isn’t good or worthy of your attention. It might take a little more effort but it can be a really fun, enriching experience. Speaking for BTS in particularly, I love the guys. In the surface level fan way, yeah, but they speak to me in that fan/artist relationship. Their music fucking slaps. once you research the lyrics, they are fun and clever and often fucking poetic and deep and just so meaningful. The guys themselves are talented and funny and seem to be very genuine-- something that had initially caught my eye with 5sos back in 2014. They are on top of the world but at the end of the day, they’re still 7 guys making music because they love it and just because it is an insane amount of work doesn’t seem to diminish their enjoyment of it. They really have such an accepting ‘love yourself’ message and i love that inclusivity and it does make me feel better to listen to their music or interviews. It’s a break from the real world and relaxes me, gives me a sense of peace. They make me happy.

I don’t know if this has helped you at all, if this has made sense but I hope you understand, at least a little, why i think it is so easy to fall in love with bts. They are fun and talented and the ARMY itself is so much fun to be part of! people are so funny and passionate about the members and their music and it’s so fun to throw yourself into that mix and enjoy the ride.

Thank you for taking the time to ask me this. thanks for not dismissing kpop outright even if you don’t understand it. I guess at the end of the day, it takes all kinds and people just have wildly varying interests but. speaking for bts, people go absolutely feral over them because the members seem genuine and they’re such hardworking, smart, talented, engaging people. their music just pulls you in and, at the end of the day-- they make you think and they brighten/expand your world just that little much more:’)

if you read this and have more specific questions, feel free to ask me! I will do my best to give a good, thoughtful answer

#thanks for the thoughtful question and not being hella judgmental or condescending! #i hope this was helpful #i of course speak just for myself here #i really love bts for a lot of reasons #bts #bangtan seonyeondan #about bts #asked #answered #anon #happy things #about me

[inmyarmswrappedin]

There’s something that I’ve never really been able to square in my mind and I’d love your thoughts on it. I should start by saying that I’m not from Norway and I wasn’t around when Skam s2 was airing. But from what I have heard, the season was wildly popular locally and that sexual assault reports actually went up after that storyline aired (which is a really good thing, obviously). Since then, however, the general consensus across the fandom has +

become that s2 was really problematic and that it depicts a toxic relationship. So I guess the thing I have a hard time understanding is how that seemed to be missed in Norway in 2016? Are viewers there just not as “woke” as the wider international audience? Or do the people now looking back on it just have the advantage of hindsight, not to mention how much things have changed culturally over the last four years? Not that four years is a great deal +

of time, but we are post-‘Me Too’ now and things like misogyny and sexism are called out much more freely and loudly in the year 2020. I definitely feel that I’ve certainly become more attuned to the problems with the way that female characters are portrayed in recent years. Anyway, if you feel like it, I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Hi anon! ✨ This is a really good question, and while I will try to answer it to the best of my knowledge/educated guessing, I have to say that I’m also not from Norway nor did I live there in 2016 to be able to speak about the nuances of feminism.

I do think that, to a certain extent, Norway has a very casual approach to safe sex. As far as I understand, girls and women are expected by their sexual partners to be on the pill or some other kind of birth control. As a result, condom use isn’t great. Community transmission of chlamydia is so common that Norwegian 7-11 made an advertising campaign advising tourists to buy condoms, because having sex with locals would likely lead to getting it yourself. Hence the Skam girls constantly talking about chlamydia, William and P-Chris gave them chlamydia, Vilde is afraid of getting chlamydia in the eye, Linn has had chlamydia tons of times... One of Josefine’s (Noora) projects after Skam, Dear Condom, was meant to promote condom use, and lack of condom use in lovleg leads one of the characters to need an abortion.

So, to start with, someone like William who goes around pressuring naive girls into condomless sex and then discarding them (someone who might have even given chlamydia to half the school, as the Rad Girls speculate about him), can still be a romantic lead in Norway, because the attitudes are different. Like, he’s not the problem, Vilde is the problem because at 16 she’s not on birth control, you know?

I also know that the reaction to William was mixed even in 2016. Julie Andem once gave an interview to an (I believe Swedish) outlet, sometime after Skam aired, and she mentioned that in Sweden, where Skam was also available, William was not popular and she’d get very negative feedback about him after certain clips became available.

But ultimately, I think the reason that Norway was more receptive to William in 2016, than fandom has been of him subsequently, is that international fandom became aware of William once Isak’s season started airing. And the thing about Skam is that both NRK and Julie were willing to do a very different show with each season. Eva’s season is less romantic and more rooted in self-affirmation, a self-help show if you will; Noora’s season is a Wattpad bad boy/good girl enemies to lovers romance; Isak’s season is a LGBT escapist fantasy; and Sana’s season is more concerned with Russetide and who it excludes and how, than the romance storyline. So when people found Skam during Isak’s season, they thought the entire show was like Isak’s season, but it’s not, really. Isak’s season wasn’t going to necessarily appeal to straight Norwegians, just like Noora’s season wasn’t conceived to appeal to sad gay people worldwide. The thing is, NRK/Julie weren’t afraid of switching gears with each season, because rather than make a show with the most mainstream appeal (like some remakes), they were trying to make seasons that would appeal to the people who they felt needed to heed the messages therein. (Of course they fucked it up in s4, but you know.) 

And essentially, the people who needed to heed the messages in Noora’s season were girls who weren’t woke. Who didn’t know what had happened to them was not normal, or their own fault for blacking out or not being on birth control or because they had sex too young or not saying no when the guy got too rough or... The list goes on. And how do you get those girls to watch the show? You give them a bad boy/good girl enemies to lovers storyline that rivals even the American TV shows Gossip Girl (it’s not a coincidence that Eva namedrops it), One Tree Hill or The OC in plot twists and good-looking people making out. Cause if you remember, NRK asked Julie Andem to develop Skam because older teens were watching American TV shows instead of Norwegian ones.

In stan language, Isak’s season appealed to (white, mlm-centric) fandom because it was about two white dudes in love. But Noora’s season was made to appeal to locals. And it did. Even in 2020, bad boy/good girl borderline toxic/abusive storylines are popular (see: Euphoria, Nate/Jules shippers), because regardless of #MeToo or public consciousness struggling with sexism and misogyny, these dynamics keep appealing to women. (Same with Twilight, 50 Shades of Grey, etc.) Both because not every woman is part of this conversation, and because sometimes people just want to turn off their brain and enjoy some trash. 

As for Noora’s season, while I get all of this, my personal issue is that by mixing the fun trashiness with the educational messaging, while it did do good and led to an uptick in SA reports, Skam ultimately couldn’t keep the trashiness outside of the messaging. That’s why Nora’s season is the only good Noora season to me.

#ask #skam #Anonymous

[dailyhenrikholm]

Okay so i'm totally new to Skam but am loving it. You seem like a good person to ask to give me the lowdown on Henrik. Apologies if it's such a random broad spectrum question but tell me everything i need to know about him.

okay I lowkey got carried away with this

He’s 21 (born September 12th 1995) so he’s the oldest reccuring cast member (excluding parent characters and teacher characters)

His mom is called Siv and his dad is called Petter and he has a younger (half???-)brother named Mathias

He used to work at the same cafe Even meets Isak at in 3x08 before they go to the hotel but left shortly after Christmas 2016 - he now works at his mom’s restaurant as a waiter

He went to acting school in America in the summer of 2015 (which is the same time he got the headshots we all love so much)

He has the cutest lil spotty forehead and people who photoshop his spots out don’t deserve him tbh

He speaks fluent English

He’s currently studying theatre

His mom is a bigger Skam/Even stan than any of us and loves meeting his fans (and literally takes pictures of/with fans to show him later if he’s not there)

Skam isn’t his first acting debut - he starred in a show called Halvbroren when he was 18

He has a girlfriend

His smile could bring about world peace

Very friendly very chatty loves meeting fans 10/10

#asks #Anonymous

[rozpromieniona]

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