joshdevinedrums Getting publicly humiliated every show by @louist91 was just part of the job haha!! 😂😂💦🤷🏽 pretty sure one of my drum kits still has cake dried on it... fun times indeed!! Hahaha. Not sure where this was taken but it was 2013 some time.... 📷- @calaurand .
There’s so many messages coming through right now being like ‘You’re such a great ally, it’s amazing.’ You should be so proud of that. You’re definitely using your platform for the great good.
I’ve been experiencing this problem for a couple years now. Yea, I said it, years...ready for it?
I can hear voices; but i’m not schizophrenic (because I’ve gone to therapy). Apparently, I’m just crazy lol, ok well not that crazy. Basically, my thoughts take control and I have problems deciphering dreams and reality. Doc put me on some meds but I’ve decided they don’t work so I took myself off. They gave me weird facial spasms, they always made me feel like I was growling. Hard to explain. Wish I could go more into detail about my prescriptions but honestly all that hospital shit happened last year.
Oh! Speaking of the hospital, I went to the hospital after having a mental breakdown (will NOT go into detail unless someone asks *eyeball emoji*). Just too much detail. But this was all last year and like I’ve been feeling this way since approximately 2015.
I gotta get to the point eventually. So about those voices, everyone that I come in contact with, I always feel like I can read their minds. Or maybe it’s their spirit? I’ve had one hallucination but it was while I was on the medication. I can hold conversations with these voices beyond the sensation of a headache. Sometimes they tell me to leave them alone, pushing ME (the owner of my own mind) away, but I resist. Not entirely sure that I’m even hearing spirits because the times I’ve brought the things they’ve said to their makers, they’ve been denied. I hope that made sense, I’m feeling too lethargic this beautiful 2a.m.
I would’ve done the normal thing and talked to one of my friends about this but the funny thing about my friends and I: I keep pushing them away trolololol. Sorry, I know that’s toxic. But I don’t like giving them a reason to leave? Or being hurt...I could go to therapy but I didn’t vIbE right with my therapist.
...wow, these conversations feel soo REAL. I feel like i genuinely have NO privacy.
RANDOM DISCLAIMER: I am NOT a harm to myself or others.