#49/50

[spagheddiediaz]

fuck it friday 👅

tagged by @honestlydarkprincess welcome back bby i missed you sO MUCH <3

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HELLO I AM ALIVE. i wasn't going to start writing again until s7 began bc i needed inspiration and have been feeling ~blah~ lately about a lot of things but what can i say this one kind of hit me in the face and i couldn't stop writing once i started SO.

this is temporarily called the dumbass fic ✌🏼

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“You make me feel like I’m going nuts.” Eddie mumbles and reaches for the NyQuil. It was barely seven pm, but he was ready to curl into bed for the next twenty hours or so.

“You need to be eighteen to buy NyQuil.” Buck continues, his smile still not fading. 

“Mmm,” Eddie mumbles as he pours the liquid into the small measuring cup. He goes a little over the line, hoping it will work in his favor and he’ll be put out of his misery sooner rather than later. 

“And I forgot my wallet.”

Eddie hums and nods at Buck as he downs the NyQuil, scrunching up his face and gagging as if he just took a shot of cheap tequila. “Buck, did you rob a CVS?” 

“What? Oh. No. No no, I had Apple Pay!” He assures him. “But the lady didn’t believe I was over eighteen” 

Eddie looks Buck up and down once, twice, three times before meeting their eyes. “Ha. Haaaaa.” He laughs sarcastically and leans his body over the counter. 

“No, Eddie. I’m serious. They really wouldn’t let me get it without an ID!” Buck was persistent. Eddie would give him that. “So I- I just searched my pockets, looking for something, anything.” 

“And you pulled out my badge..” Eddie begins. 

“And you need to be over eighteen to be a Firefighter!” Buck nods excitedly, a little too proud of himself. “You, Eddie Diaz, are looking at Eddie Diaz of the 118!” And - that’s why Buck was grinning like an idiot.

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G O O F Y shit anyway

tagging @callmenewbie @jeeyuns @malewifediaz @eddiebabygirldiaz @daffi-990 @giddyupbuck @fortheloveofbuddie @disasterbuckdiaz @shitouttabuck @exhuastedpigeon @king-buckley @watchyourbuck @loserdiaz @monsterrae1 @hippolotamus @thewolvesof1998 @wikiangela @theotherbuckley and anyone else who wants to do it <3

#posting my writing makes me anxious as hell now and idk why but im excited for this one! #it's a crack fic and it makes me happy ok <3 #50% dumbassery #49% fluff #1% angst #good plan britt good plan

[akasanata]

A little bit of hope for Jonathan...

Only for it to be burned in the flames

Love the way Dracula is drawn, like he's enjoying himself

#Dracula manga #Dracula Daily #Jonathan Harker #Dracula #pg 49-50 #manga classics #may 28 #dd #y

[0809sysblings]

how i imagine what the inside of mikoto's head looks like half the time

#Mikoto #John #Midokoto #my art #midokoto has to take john by the scruff to stop him from fucking shit up. he is so tired. let him rest #he should get john one of those like toddler backpack leashes. #anyway. inspired by my therapy appt earlier today. #sigh. th erapy is so fucking. *aggressively gestures* #50% of the time i get suicidal afterwards. 49% of the time i get extremely angry. 1% of the time i feel good. #not because of or @ my therapist or anything.. i just cant handle vulnerability and having to acknowledge emotions and The Past lmao #why do that when you could kill either yourself or someone else?? 🤔. checkmate LCSWs #oh well. laugh the pain away xoxo

[daily-yanqing]

yanqing discovers the horrors of burger lord (day 49 of yanqing)

#aka i remmebered that one burger king yanqing texpost i made on my main and got the idea for this #daily yanqing #ohhh 1 more day until day 50!!!!!!! im excited!!!!!!!!!!!!! #day 49 #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr yanqing #yanqing #hsr jing yuan #jing yuan #silver wolf #hsr silver wolf

[dadrielle]

Was rewatching bits and bobs of the last episode (again) and thinking about Ashton in that conversation with Laudna and how I think it shows that more than just being afraid of caring,  they're afraid of being understood.

There’s this thing that happens sometimes when you’re lonely and in pain and closed off where you start to come up for reasons why your pain is unique. It’s not like, a morally bad thing, but it is a trick you can play on yourself, thinking that since no one has all your exact same experiences, there’s no way anyone can get you. It’s a way of giving more meaning to your loneliness, you know? It’s special. And it’s another layer of crunchy shell to protect yourself - if you think it’s not possible for people to understand you, it hurts less to not be understood. Ostensibly. Which means accepting that your trauma, and what you know as a result of it, isn’t wholly inscrutable to others, means letting another layer of your guard down. Of acknowledging that hey, that loneliness and jealousy and hurt don’t have to be the way you live. You can be understood if you let people in. You just have to be vulnerable. Isn’t that terrifying?

Their speech here is riddled with caveats. They’re the only one who knows what it's like to not have a past - well, except for one (FCG). They know the truth of people none of the others do - well, except for one (and I think this means Imogen, since she hears the worst of peoples’ thoughts). They know loneliness none of them know - except you know things Laudna, too, don’t think they don’t know that. I’m not surprised he was having arguments with people who weren’t there at the end of the episode - even as he made his speech, he was letting a bit of argument with himself seep in.

What’s worse, each of those people have dealt with that shared understanding in a different way than Ashton.  FCG doesn’t know their past, but that drives them to look for purpose, rather than a low impact life. Imogen has seen into peoples’ heads and knows the worst of them, but she still thinks “good people” exist, enough to be fretting over it constantly (don’t think I didn’t notice that that’s the first things that sets Ashton off, her asking if the gods are good “There’s no such thing, everyone is fuckign selfish-”). And Laudna has known a kind of loneliness that is truly unfathomable - but she’s secure now in the comfort and knowledge that she has her people. Which means that Ashton could start looking at their own shit in different ways. They could make a choice to let people in or see the good in ways they haven’t, and that’s some scary ass shit. I think there’s been a bit of a panicky, manic edge to the kindnesses Ashton has been displaying since they got Laudna back. I think they’re white knuckling their way through caring about the Hells and they are freaked the fuck OUT.

So I think Ashton was being an asshole by telling Laudna she didn’t know loneliness. I think even as he half-believed it as a holdover from that “I am wholly unique and uniquely alone” coping mechanism, he knew it was an absurd thing to say. But I think they did it on purpose. I think they are so terrified by how much they care about the Hells, and what’s more how much they understand and can be understood by them, that they wanted to push her into not caring by writing them off as a jerk. But Laudna’s more emotionally savvy than that. She won’t let him get away with it, even as she gets rightly angry at his downplaying her own experience in the moment. She knows they care, and she’s not going to let them push that away. They’re just going to have to deal with the fact that they’re a softy underneath it all. They’ve been given possibly the last push they need.

I would be 0% surprised if they finish arguing with themself about this by the next episode and their lil project Tal mentioned ends up being like. Fucking. Matching team patches for the Hells. Because they are all in now.

#ashton greymoore #critical role #meta #cr meta #cr3 #I been sitting with my thoughts about 49 cuz I wanted to be disengaged from the discourse when I finally posted them lol #I got shit to say about orym and imogen too lol be forewarned #I'm gonna be a rambly bitch until 50

[quickhacked]

// oc picrew. [x]

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MOISE SHARAF || REUBEN DE LA ROSA || TERESA DE LA ROSA

haven't talked a lot about reuben anymore lately but here's my little boy and his parents :^) reuben was taken in by maelstrom at a young age after an incident at his father's workplace and he loses contact with his parents for years; he's led to believe they wanted him gone and then told they're dead, while his parents also assume he's dead too :( but eventually things get resolved and after reuben leaves maelstrom for good he manages to track down his parents and reunite with them :D

#tag games #picrew games #i couldn't make his parents look older but they're both like. early 50s :^) teresa is 52 (in april 2082) and moise is 49 #and reuben is 22 at that time :^) i can't remember if that's around the same time they meet again but it's. somewhere there. probably #was too lazy to draw in reuben's cyberware because he still has the jaw and everything but just use your imagination #he's taken his mother's last name btw because that's a thing his parents wanted when he was younger!! #moise is very involved in some corpo stuff and he didn't want his son to possibly suffer from that if he takes his last name #am i making sense here. i hope i am #dunno who has and has not been tagged yet also sorry i have not been scrolling here as much as i usually do GHDFJHFDJG

[gremlins-hotel]

I'm becoming more and more convinced that you're IRL Alfred F Jones.

coward sending this on anon (affectionate)

the amount of times i have been told i'm "irl alfred f jones" and even look like him since i rejoined the fandom is disgustingly too many. i will simply accept my fate at this point.

#callsign gremlin checking in #i have so many stories i've told in servers #that caused people to say 'omg irl alfred' #and on top of that i've visited 49/50 states #and several have said that the moment i achieve 50 i'm going to turn into alfred like some horrifying butterfly #please end my existence

[brucespringsteendotcom]

Not to drag it out nor victim blame, but this whole thing is not your fault. People respond to stupid replies. That's how Tumblr is. That person went out of her way to misinterpret what you said. The transphobia that came afterward sucked, but it's completely out of your control. It's not fascism when you're getting called out for being obtuse 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

No I know and I should have expected that my post would be interpreted as ableism since what I was TRYING to get at is the phenomenon of people cheapening a real issue by pulling it as a card where it doesn't actually apply. But of course since I didn't spell that out,

#also sorry just as an amendment i am seeing everything ppl are commenting on that post and i would just like to emphasize #that it was NOT a strawman lolll if you saw even half the comments i get on my posts you would not be accusing me of making up a guy #and the whole 'its better to ignore people' thing is so tired like yeah man i do know that but you dont know that i do ignore 49 of every 50 #spend one day fielding my notes and then come talk to me! lmao

[spoiledmilks]

William is also very puntable, respectfully of course. I still adore him, he’s a very silly guy. -Feral

William reading the 10 000th message about him being puntable

#50% of my inbox is people saying that #49% of my inbox is very unhinged and william gets hurt a lot #1% is normal asks #inbox #william afton

[throatspit]

public transit love story 49, 50

#ptls #throatspit #49 #50 #gay #furry #dog #tf #romance #comic #smut

[william-askton-1932]

Sometimes, I look up and ask God why he didn't make me a silly little rabbit instead...

#william afton #not an ask #ooc: he has pain a lot from springlocks and being 49/50

[lobotomyladylives]

people often assume when we all go out together that I'm my half brothers mom (I'm 20 years older than him) & that his parents are his grandparents & it's so funny bc I know it bothers them. old ass idiots

#my dad was 49 & his wife was 45 when they had him #the story behind his birth is actually extremely fucked up like everything else about their relationship #so my dad left her like a million times to try to go back to my mom (who kept telling him no unless he sorted out his issues) then he #would always run right back to her & she always took him back. anyways i guess he said smth along the lines of #''my wife (he was still married to my mom) will always be the love of my life bc shes the mother of my kids'' #and...she went off bc & on fertility treatments without telling him. then shes pregnant & he is still saying he wants to come back to us #so she said he will never see their kid & her son from a previous marraige THREATENED MY DAD AT GUNPOINT #and said if you ever leave my mom again ill fucking kill yoi #so then the divorce was finalized & they got married & my half brother was born. rest is history #for the record i dont feel sorry for my dad at all it was his fault too. the fucking hypocrite was having sex before marriage #and he knew she was nuts & far too attached to her #what a fucking idiot. all he had to do was get on meds & in therapy & admit he was wrong & he could have stayed with us #but he needed constant validation & to be in charge of everything & thats what his new wife gives him. she converted to his cult & now they #raise my brother in it. and she just does whatever my dad wants & lets him treat her like shit. i would actually feel sorry for her if sh #if she werent such a fucking awful person. and she tries to be all nicey nice w/us despite being a literal homewrecker. #and doing things like telling my dad he cant spend more than 50 dollars per year on each of us #while having him buy her a third car & a 1500 dollar fur coat. lol #theyre so much better off financially than us that its unreal. my mom doesnt get a penny despite how much we are struggling #but if i want a relationship with my half brother i just have to pretend none of this is weird or wrong. #anyways i just hope he never finds out the circumstances of his birth bc god can you fucking imagine

[georgievs]

avs fans on twitter should listen to devin cooley. nothing really matters, we’re all gonna die.

#speak your truth king #objectively hilarious quote #and the man made 49 saves on 50 shots he can say whatever he wants #anyways avs fans on twitter CHILLAX #avs lb

[oopsl]

Born In The USA by Bruce Springsteen, 1984

#bruce springsteen #e street band #rock #album diary #80s #80's rock #the boss #50% #49% RTR #born in the usa #downbound train #I'm on fire #I'm goin' Down #Glory Days #Dancing in the dark #columbia records

[fallenclan]

how are evie, bluefern and newtscar doing

i think they're doing pretty good :)

#i love them forever. best triad #fallenasks #fallensprites #hard to believe they're in their 50s now #i mean. 50 moons #evie is 51 blue is 50 and newt is 49

[fruit-snacker]

Watched the live action avatar show and honestly its solidly in the "its oookaay-ish" bracket.

There is one addition that i quite like though, the fact that the soldiers that zuko was sent with was the group that would have been sacrificed had he not spoken up

The live action was awful in a million ways, but they took home at least one win

#honestly thats not the only thing they did good #i like the korra influence on the spirit world that easily could have been left out leaving it to be more similar to the original #i like the statue that was stolen from koh was the mother of faces from the comics #it felt like at least 1 person on the staff really enjoyed avatar and wanted this to be amazing #oh and i forgot about the animation on the legend of omashu! that freaking ate! #i dont want it to seem like im singing this shows praises #it's 50% safe and 49% creatively bankrupt #but that one percent eats so much #the costuming and casting is also amazing #netflix avatar #atla live action #atla #avatar the last airbender #im adopting this into my head canon for the animated version