every time I think I want to eat I remember all the comments made about my body and how nothing fits me/I eat too much/not as skinny as I used to be and suddenly I’m full🤪
that person that made fun of you for being fat and pushed you into this hellhole is getting a slap so hard that hopefully their brain will start functioning like it was supossed to 😋 anyways did anyone tell you how cute you look today?
Well, I have lost 20lbs since last year. I saw some of my family members and then one of them said "You lost a lot of weight. Have you been losing weight?" I didn't know how to answer. Even though I enjoyed her comment, I realized that if I gained weight then she would notice. Now I'm even more terrified of gaining weight.
My grandma and her sisters make comments on my body as well. They say "I wish I had your body" and "I remember when I was that skinny". And I still have no idea what to do. I guess I just smile and nod.
My step mom had a friend over and they started talking about their dieting and their weightloss plan. At some point my mom said "Oh one day, you're gonna look like me. It will happen trust me," then I realized I am never gonna get rid of 4n4 even if I want to.
i’m ending today at 760 cals.. slowly starting to restrict lower again.
everything in my life has been shit lately and i need the control back so bad. and i just can’t stand feeling so huge. i look so fat compared to my friends and it’s so embarrassing. i miss being skinny so much. i don’t care if i suffer, i probably deserve it anyway. my whole life has been pain and suffering it doesn’t even matter anymore. i just wanna feel good in my body so bad. i really need to get a new scale. i wanna lose 10 lbs before my bday , which is like 3 weeks.