#5 fucking am

[secretivemessenger]

Imagine waking up at 5am because your neighbor fucking barged into your room and woke you up so you don’t be late for university

#i will kill that fucker #5 fucking am #crazy fucker #new episode of random bullshit that’s going on in my life

[peachypauper]

Lifehack: Have your house demons hide your wallet while you go out to get weed gummies. Proceed to not need wallet for a week. You'll have plenty of motivation to clean your room.

Downside?

Bursting awake in the middle of the night with the urge to find wallet and randomly pick up room till 5am.

#anyway #how the hell did i not look in the drawer for an ENTIRE WEEK #like yo honestly demons #... yeah no that was actually a good way to make me finally pick up my room #But #5 FUCKING AM #5 #FUCKING #A.M. #Normally wouldnt care BUT ITS A WORK NIGHT MAL FFS

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[amelie-isnt-french]

Protocol is actually just us Magnus Archives fans rapidly descending into s2-Jon-levels of paranoia. Granted, just like s2 Jon, we have reason to be paranoid, but it's still hilarious to see us all collectively scaling the walls of our enclosure while frothing at the mouth over our theories.

Jonny and Alex are playing us like a cheap harmonica and I'm so here for it

#magpod #tmagp #the magnus protocol #jonny sims when i catch you jonny- #i need ANSWERS #also what the fuck #celia ripley #what do you know celia #chester and norris #an email from Jon you say? #now would that be #jonathan sims #or like #just a different Jon and we're gonna have a 5-michaels-situation in tmagp #much to consider #ames is fine and totally not vibrating at the speed of light #attention ali

[nogodsnomorales]

#yeah #spiderverse #atsv #across the spiderverse #spiderman #spiderman atsv #miguel o'hara #peter b parker #peter b parker x miguel o'hara #spiderdads #theyre so silly #mayday parker #i woke up at 5 am to make this #i dont regret it #riotspider tag #damn this post is bangin ‼️ love u guys #they’re both autistic #i will die on this fucking hill

[jade-len]

please help i just had a dream where svsss was a dating sim. so, of course i tried pursuing shen qingqiu, but it ultimately backfired because suddenly he realized that he was in a dating visual novel?? and since i put myself as a guy, he just refused to show up to special in game events to avoid me interacting with him???

and obviously i was like "wtf why isn't he here?" when he didn't show up. then at some point i explored the area, and the screen suddenly zoomed in to show sqq talking to sqh (supposedly telling him all about the little situation). next thing i know, both of them are slowly turning their head to stare at the screen in pure and utter terror

also in some part of the dream, i think i did some liu qingge events or something and as his affection levels rose, he would continuously jump scare me by popping up out of nowhere and go, "its not like i like you or anything!!" while covered in blood and holding out a demonic beast head as if it were a box of treats

anyways, totally random question guys haha if i made an svsss visual novel dating sim would you guys play it. no reason in particular at all.

#im actually learning how to code right now #if i hyperfixate enough ill turn this to reality bc im kinda bad at writing fanfiction #no promises though #i prob had this dream bc i stayed up till 5 am last night playing a date with death #idk if dream liu qingge was accurate bc personally i see him more as just being like 'for you.' before leaving #but its a funny thought to have with liu qingge acting like that sporty emotionally constipated tsundere character lmao #anyways dw if i do make the game i would build a chaotic ass harem route jesus fucking christ that'd be hilarious #the scum villain's self saving system #svsss #mxtx svsss #shen qingqiu #shang qinghua #liu qingge #cumplane

[robanilla-arts]

Keep Him On a Leash

N) "Well done, Killer. As promised, you can spend the rest of the day with your little lover. Luckily, I ensured they were nearby and ready to receive you as soon as you finished your mission."

K) *sweetheart!

K) *(no no NO no what are you doing here? no RUN go LEAVE don't look at me no STOP)

N) "What's the matter? You should be grateful. Now they know exactly what you are. Isn't that what you wanted?"

-- Nightmare by jokublog

-- Killer by rahafwabas

#robanilla-arts #my art #i love them your honor #killer sans #nightmare sans #the bad sanses #technically reader insert #left vague on purpose #utmv #i spent like 7 hours on this. 5-6 of which were as soon as i woke up ahshjdjdjd #and i still doesn't have a fucking background 😭 #but HEY that wasn't the point lmao!!! #i am chewing on those tentacles 🤤🤤🤤 #and killer was SO fun to paint #have done a piece this detailed in a long while #feels nice

[vellichorom]

my friends & i have big thoughts about bob,,, THUS! i draw our respective interpretations !!!! as you do

TOP DRAWN LAST NIGHT WHEREAS THE BOTTOM WAS DRAWN IN NOVEMBER '22! LOOK AT THAT

( ft @thedoodlecorner's " Vel " & @lemoneychicken's " Borpse " ~ )

#uwu art #Spooky Month #Spooky Month 5 Tender Treats #Spooky Month Tender Treats #Bob Velseb #Spooky Month Bob #blood tw #blood cw #// ask to tag #I am what you call. insane #icb that bottom pic was like. just a bit after tender treats debuted damn #we all BEEN in spooky month hell since then #my idea of bob is like.... generic sadistic slasher serial killer who. honestly just did it because he wanted to fuck everyone else #bUT W/E TRIPLE BOB SQUAD FOR YOU

[wigglesdtuff]

I'm silly I'm silly I'm silly I'm silly

#gear 5 #luffy #gear 5th #one piece #1p #wano #wano spoilers #i had to get this out of my system I am so fucking excited and the dRUMS THE DRUMS SOUND SO GOOD IM SHAKING WAAAA

[clownsalot]

IVE HAD ALL OF TODAY TO GET OVER IT AND IM STILL SO SAD

#yuri on ice #ice adolescence #i mean im not surprised it doesnt take a genius to realize that 5 years of radio silence probably means something nuked it behind the scenes #but fuck dude i am still so so upset it's so devastating gettjng the confirmation that there's really no hope for it now #yuri on ice was revolutionary to me man im so upset

[hypogryffin]

Erina and Sophie....

erina and sophie..... perhaps even sophie and erina....

#persona 5 #p5 #asks & requests #p5t #p5t erina #p5s #p5s sophia #sophia persona 5 #persona 5 sophia #persona 5 strikers #persona 5 scramble #persona 5 tactica #i will fill the p5s tag my fucking self if i have to #comics #chef recommended #good lord is that all the tags i need. am i done am i free. YEESH okay #anyways i think theyd be so silly together #no one utilises the comedic potential of erina living in the fantasy french revolution but i think deep learning ai sophia is a good match #either way theyre so good as parallels like hold on SPOILERS FOR BOTH GAMES PAST THIS POINT #both of them were created as last-ditch efforts. erina is the manifetation of toshiros suppressed hope and rebellion and sophia is ichinose #attempt at understanding the human heart and her own repressed emotions #theyre both constructs of the heart in one form or another even if they were created in v different ways

[dissentersrising]

eclipse of your own making

#flight rising #BARELY SO AT THIS POINT #/etc/art time #/dragon/v1 #/dragon/v2 #do i main tag this? do i? eh fuck it i’m queueing theis at god damn 5:09 AM i dontcare #ultrakill

[inkskinned]

these days, the summer fan is on, and there is a little cricket in you. your mother would say you don't have ambition, but that's not quite true. you just had different priorities: for most of your life, the pain swallowed so much of your energy that picturing a future was almost impossible. it took so much just to render yourself here without evaporating - making goals always felt shallow, far-off.

at 17, maybe you would have wanted to be famous. maybe you would have wanted to kiss every woman and come home late at night and call the dawn to heel like a dog. to meet taylor swift and ask her to collaborate on poems and french-kiss in the rain. to wiggle your fingers at jealous ex-lovers while you lifted the hem of your ballgown and got out of limousines. a life of rooftops, spinning and glittering.

these days, it isn't that you're tired, but that you have learned the weight of carrying things. you have had the good times. you have laughed at the bottom of a pool. you have had your hands on the paring knife. you know the cost of it, like a carcinogen. these days, you want a life like a stone fruit. these days, you want a life that lays gently on your skin, rather than piercing through.

you are going to get a little condo with your friend. the two of you fantasize about basic things: how it will feel to cook in a friendly kitchen. the serenity of picking out wall paint colors. putting plants in the sunlit corner. you want a place that never rings in anger. where the only echo is jazz music. you want a peace like holding your head under the water.

ah. maybe your younger self would be devastated - you got boring?

she doesn't know yet. she has lived her entire life terrified, running. she has grown so accustomed to the threat that she has fallen in love with the scythe. she thinks passionate and violent are synonyms, that anything lovely has to come with a bad side. she thinks life has to break like a wave - that you need to swallow the ocean in order to stay above the foam. she doesn't know about the boat yet. she doesn't know about spending hours at home, quiet, your hands folded, finding peace. she doesn't know about weightlessness. she thinks everything good is everything sharp. that the pain is what makes something satisfying.

one day she will make cookies from scratch. one day when she breaks a plate, she will be the only one around, and nobody will start shouting. one day she will slip her fingers under the sand, and it will make sense to her. the life assembling in little shards: oh. i've been afraid of a quiet life at home because i've never had a quiet home to come to before.

the gentle world inside her, singing behind a door.

#literally spending the last 3 days salivating over apartments #alex: wanna get a house together but be normal about it? #me: IF I DONT FIND A HOUSE IMMEDIATELY ALEX I AM A THREAT #writeblr #im simply not approaching this like a normal person. but like to be fair. my office my kitchen and my livingroom are all the same fucking #10 feet #if i lie down a certain way i am in all 3 spaces. and i am only 5 fucking feet tall

[bixels]

While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.

Bye.

#ask me #anon #once AGAIN. #I am not dropping anything #the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again #But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year #In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related #I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped #And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it #I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas. #Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop #Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas #But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now #But I didn't because I'm TIRED #I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired #what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen #drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter #it can really make you freak out #And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will #I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my #followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm #disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing #you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere #I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.

[hel7l7]

I'm too forgiving. I know.

#iykyk #ptw #-> #i was out with this guy #like a friend guy #and he said he was gay #but when we were like just walking around town he started making these weird comments yknow #and i was like #are you into me? #and he was like #no but if i was straight I would be #and i'm like #hmm #bcs we were just friends #he's a bit younger than i am #like 5 years or so #and then at one point he tried to kiss me #“for fun” #he said later #fuck you #read the room #i was already so fed up with him before that bcs he really was pushing my buttons and just being annoying #and i told him to chill the fuck down #and then aftER THAT #he tried to kiss me #and then we talked about boundaries and stuff #and he said he understood #and then a little later #HE DID IT AGAIN

[jeeaark]

So. Uh. It's not that Greygold didn't trust Shadowheart not to go stabby-stab (I didn't), Greygold is still new to friendship and just thought that intensely intervening in each other's life choices was what friends were suppose to do.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #shadowheart #wyll ravengard #greygold #bg3 fanart #bg3 comic #y'all I just need you to know I drew all these ridiculous comics before patch 5 and I am feeling VALIDATED #I'm just trying to make them look PRETTY now but fuck it! #just epilogued and Frickin going feral over this bit you have no idea had to shaaaaaaarrreeee this nooooow #bg3 spoilers