Thank you so much for your weekly meta. You pick up so much what I would miss otherwise. Your writing about Taylor reminded me of something: when she first appeared it was Chimney who said that Buck dating her is bascially if he dated himself. I guess they are STILL too similiar - hence why T. is more focused on her work and feels guilty for neglecting her bf. in the 5x6 promo she's shot /working/ once again. not surprising but interesting given she's supposed to be Buck signficant other?
Hi Nonnie! Thank you so much for the kindness, I'm always thrilled to know that people have read and enjoyed my meta!
And yes, when they first met back in s2, Taylor was meant to reflect back to Buck the parts of himself that, while not bad in themselves, were the biggest obstacles to him finding a relationship he can be settled in. He was already in the process of changing, so they didn't work out back then, and you're right, even now they still seem to be in a sense too similarly dedicated to their jobs.
Yes, she's shown as reporting in the promo for 506. We'll have to see in what capacity they use her in this ep.
I actually find it most telling they use her in eps 501 and 503. For both eps, keep in mind that the thing where she's featured in an ep as Buck's gf, and since she's a reporter, the show also uses her for some reporting, that's pretty standard for TV shows, it allows them to save a couple of bucks by using the same character for two functions.
Now in 501, Taylor does no reporting, in fact there's someone else who provides voice over reporting as she watches the news. She's only shown with Buck in one scene, and that scene doesn't really advance the blackout plot in any way. It's Karen, in the very next scene, who solves the mystery (letting us know it's a malware attack). So they literally only paid the actress to show in an intimate scene, she's more focused on her job than on Buck.
Ep 503 is telling as well, in that one they only bring her in to report, she's completely absent as Buck's gf. And it's not like the info she's reporting is anything the audience needs in order to figure out what's going on, they actually paid the actress just so Buck could be shown alone in his loft, uttering that very ironic "hi honey, I'm home."
My point is, this is a very deliberate choice, they're featuring her just to show that something is lacking between her and Buck. That normally doesn't go away unaddressed on TV dramas. So yes, I'm reinforcing what you said.
Let's not forget, with most people, Buck's job would get in the way in some capacity. It was true with Ali, and signs point to it being true again with Taylor. Interestingly, Buck DOES admire dedication to one's job, that's been made pretty clear over the seasons. But do you know who's someone that he admires, someone who's dedicated to his job, good at it, won't get scared of Buck being similarly dedicated to a dangerous job, in fact someone who gets why Buck has to do what he does, and with whom both of them being so dedicated to what they do won't result in a conflicting schedule and lack of personal time to spend together?
I'm just saying, the show repeatedly builds them to be each other's perfect partner.
Thank you again, Nonnie! Sending tons of love your way! xoxox
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Buddie thoughts 4x04 🚨spoilers🚨
- What’s your grievance -
My loves this episode was so good I’m still all caught up in my thoughts. It was heart wrenching but also funny, and the writers really came through. To be honest, it even exceeded my expectations in the buddie department. So let’s get to it ! (Your dashes will be happy to know I figured out how to have some of the post under the cut, because yes I am that dumb.)
Buddie banter is back to what it used to be and I’m so here for it “Chimney is being weird” “How can you tell?”, and then straight onto detective husbands? 🕵️♂️ Yes, yes this is the content I’m here for. These are the scenes I love to see and that really make an episode for me. The boys are doing their thing, in their bubble, getting each other hyped up. And everyone around is just waiting for them to be done with their antics because they’re so used to it. I can’t tell you enough how much I love seeing Eddie, not just humoring Buck, but totally getting into it with him, “It’s a locked room mystery” “a locked yard mystery”. What do we think? Have they been binge watching true crime shows in quarantine? Listening to true crime podcasts in the car? They certainly have been up to something !
Bobby’s reaction when Athena called them Cagney and Lacey 😂 Bobby knows y’all and he’s like yes those are my boys, yes this is what I deal with everyday, what can you do *resigned to his fate*
Chimney struggling with the secret was as hilarious as it was painful. He has so many regrets and he’s trying so hard but it’s clearly not a burden he wanted to get saddled with ever. I actually really enjoyed the levity he brought to the episode, otherwise I think the general tone would have been very dark.
Albert is just as great as Chimney and I honestly adore them both with my whole heart. The way Albert just split when Chim tried to tell him the secret had me on the floor. He’s a breath of fresh air in such a heavy episode.
I’m not going to touch on Maddie in this, or even on Buck and Maddie very much, because I would need an entire post the length of all my metas combined to really share my thoughts.
I’m not going to focus on Buck right now either because... it was just too painful and I’m going to need a very long minute. Every single scene with their parents was heart wrenching. The way they act, the pain they’ve inflicted on their children, their frankly detached and dismissive attitudes. The way Margaret switches into overly-emotional mode and blames their children for not being what they needed. And then they turn around and wrap it all up in *concern* because they *care* about their children *so much* and only want to *help* and *do the right thing*. It was all terrible and yet exactly what I expected of them. -don’t even get me started on them giving Maddie her baby box in front of Buck when he doesn’t have one.
« I can’t tell Hen or Bobby about it, we all work with Buck » once again it is heavily implied that Buck and Eddie are thought of as a unit. Is it possible that Chim isn’t as close to Eddie so wouldn’t go to him with the secret? Maybe. But given what we’ve seen so far, this was very reminiscent of the « Maddie invites Buck, Buck invites Eddie » scene. Their friends think of them as Buck-and-Eddie, so Chim wouldn’t even consider telling Eddie because 1. He would probably murder him for telling him this 2. He would definitely tell Buck.
« Where’s Buck, is he joining us? » « On the phone with Dr. Copeland, emergency therapy session [...] yeah, he had to ask her for some advice on some de-escalation techniques » This episode was really set up in a way that kept reminding us how close Buck and Eddie are. Bobby asked Eddie what was up with Buck and he knew everything. I don’t know when Eddie found out about Buck being in therapy but it’s clear that he is very supportive. He knows the name of his therapist, knows that he has an emergency session and you can even see him making the effort to remember exactly what Buck was calling her for. He could have left it at the fact that Buck is having a session, but he didn’t, which shows that when Buck talks to him about things, Eddie listens.
« Copy that » YES synchronized husbands 🙌🏻
Smart Eddie Diaz in the building, I loved the way he came out all disheveled and catching his breath because bb booked it to tell them what was happening. What I love even more is that after showing us his reaction to Hen being in danger in the crossover, we got to witness what he does when Chim is in danger. Next stop: Buck.
Awkward Buck in the building 😂 I loved his « Maybe Chimney should stop talking to him, he could set him off » his timing with words is always unfortunate and yet perfect. Also very much appreciate him casually apologizing to Eddie, and Eddie only? When there’s two other people with them? Who he was actually addressing when he said that? « Sorry, bad, bad choice of words » was directed exclusively at Eddie and I’m here for it.
« I think there’s a reason why he feels alone, he is, he’s the only one not in on it » brb I’m crying. This hurt real bad. I’ll say once again how much I appreciate Chim this episode, he is such a good friend to Buck. I also really appreciate how the past three seasons have been slowly building up to what we’re seeing now. They’re addressing things we’ve seen from the very beginning in Buck and at the same time showing us the fire family is here for him, always: « Also I’m not in on it, for the record. Whatever it is, you keep that to yourself. » Hen once again coming through. She really said I’m not in on it and I don’t want to be, Buck isn’t going to be alone in this, and I adore her for it.
Buck defending not himself but Maddie first, he is just so good and always putting others first, and in this case, it hurt. I can’t say enough how relieved I am he got to say his piece, that he finally got to say out loud things that he had kept bottled up his entire life. “I have spent my entire life feeling like a constant disappointment [...] I have walked through fire every single day of my life because of you [...] nothing I ever did was good enough [...] love me anyway » as terrible as it was to hear, it’s been a long time coming and in this case, the only way out really is through. He needed to get it out.
The punching bag scene. This scene honestly exceeded all my expectations, I am still not over it. First of all, the fact that it was the very next scene after the dinner shows how important it is to Buck’s journey this episode. Buck needed an outlet after the confrontation, he was angry and hurt and he needed to get it all out. He is going at that bag like we’ve never seen him go at anything before. And Eddie is right there, steady as ever, being present, holding down the punching bag’s frame with his foot and listening. He’s focused on him, letting him vent out all the frustration and hurt he so badly needs an outlet for. We could see that Eddie wanted to cut in and say something a few times but he didn’t, he waited until Buck was done to respond. “Planing my awkward apology” “what do you got to apologize for? Did you say anything that wasn’t true? Look, maybe you could have come at it a little differently, but if that’s how you feel, how they made you feel, you have every right to say so” -excuse me while I WEEP. Because that is such character growth that I could cry. Eddie Diaz really went from “when stuff didn’t work out for me, my dad always told me to brush it off, keep moving forward. It wasn’t easy, but he wasn’t wrong” to “we all have our own issues, but you don’t see us whining about it. We just manage to suck it up. Why can’t you?” to THAT. He told Buck that his feelings, his hurt, his pain were valid and that he had the right to express it. He told him that he shouldn’t apologize for telling people how their actions made him feel. He validated him. God knows that Buck needed to hear it, but hearing it from Eddie? That’s beautiful. Because Eddie Diaz is the king of internalized emotions and punching his feelings out. “Yeah I don’t need anymore therapy [...] I just want to hit things” Buck clearly expressed that he didn’t want to talk anymore, and Eddie respected that. He looked like he understood, he knows what it’s like to get in this kind of headspace and he knows he’s not gonna get through to him by pushing. But he also stepped in, he stopped him to make him listen, made sure Buck was looking at him, and then only said “I’ve been down that road, I don’t recommend it”. Eddie walked away because Buck clearly indicated that their conversation was done. He supported him and tried to steer him in the right direction without being overbearing and while respecting his boundaries. This whole interaction was everything and I will never get over it.
What I’m looking forward to ☀️
Buck begins is next week I’m not ok
Eddie’s reaction next week
Learning more about the secret
Seeing how Buck reacts to it
Bobby and Eddie talk in 4x06?
Buck and Chris scene in 4x06?
Okay we made it my loves !! I didn’t talk about the secret because I feel like that’s something we can address better next week, when we know more. I will say I was relieved that it wasn’t something worse, right now I’m feeling meh about it tbh so waiting for Buck begins !
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9-1-1 S04E06 (spoilers)
I absolutely loved this episode. I laughed a lot, and I cried too, and I got back some of the trust I had lost in the writers with the previous episodes.
I think Ana is an adorable cutie and it’s gonna be good for Eddie to start dating, and like Bobby said, to start healing little by little every day. The man deserves that.
That conversation with Bobby was amazing. It was a great echo of their conversation after the fight club fallout and I love that Bobby and Eddie have that connection, no matter how sad the cause is and that they manage to talk about it. I love how Bobby pushes a little because he knows Eddie needs to be pushed a little, but he does so with kindness and respect.
And maybe Ana will only be here for a short moment, maybe she’s here to stay, who know... either way I'm curious to see how their relationship evolves, and how it's gonna impact Eddie's development. The change has been mostly subtle with him so far, but it was always there and now I like that it’s more obvious.
I also loved the continuity with last episode and Buck not giving up therapy, and his parents making efforts, he so deserves it.
Maybe I’ll expand on this later, with a full meta to include the rest of the episode because there’s more to say about the jinx thing, and Chim and Hen and Athena, but for now these are my first impressions on this week’s episode.
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Ok so I know you don’t really like to speculate, so feel free to ignore this, if it’s not something you want to do, but: where do you think the journey with Taylor and Buddie is going? I feel like Taylor is there to make a point or cause some development and I can see the narrative framework for it (like the Ana parallels) but I can’t quite grasp it yet? Do you think it’s still too early to recognize or do you have an idea?
One speculation I’ve seen a few times is her causing Eddie to be jealous but to be honest I don’t think her and Buck are actually close enough to be jealous over? Like, compared to Eddie?
Anyway, I hope you have a great day and your Meta was awesome as always! :D
Hi hon! It's true, I prefer not to speculate too much, I feel like it's better to not get any hopes up and thus not suffer any disappointments, but I also try never to leave any ask unanswered...
I feel like a part of the reason why we got Ana and Taylor is 'coz Buck and Eddie were the show's only single characters, who went through ALL of s3 being single, and on a TV drama, that's not a situation that can last. So something had to happen for them romantically.
I do think it's very telling that the show would give them both girlfriends within the same time frame. One would have been enough, but nope, once more the show chose to parallel them.
Now, I believe what Ana contributed to Eddie's romantic journey was spelled out in part in ep 406 (Bobby telling Eddie explicitly that it's ok to move on) and in part only when they broke up in 503 (when Eddie finally chooses himself over pleasing this heteronotmative idea of a "perfect" family he had, "the idea of us" that he mentions to Ana).
Just like with Ana, I think we won't be able to fully say what Taylor has contributed to Buck's romantic journey until her part is over. Especially because right now, she doesn't feel significant enough to be able to point to something she’s given Buck, unlike how with Ana, it was clear from the start that she was the moment when Eddie was supposed to let go of his Shannon past, and where he could see it's alright to date again.
BUT the bit that stands out to me as the theme with Taylor for now has to do with Buck saying to her in 414 that he's done running after people who didn't want him. He did that with Abby, he did it with Taylor in 208, and again to a degree in s4. Even though he supposedly broke the pattern in that season’s finale by not chasing after her, he's once more the guy with the notably missing gf. So, I think that's what he needs to face, that he's still in a relationship where his partner is only partly present, and he has to decide for himself whether he's actually ok with that...
I hope this helped, lovely! Thank you for sending this ask! xoxox
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Love your metas! Question. Do you think we’re actually headed to Buddie canon this season? The first few eps I was convinced yes, now I’m not sure. For me to be convinced they would have to do something even the general audience will notice, and right now I still think they would assume Buck and Eddie are straight (with maybe some eyebrows raised over Eddie given the Ana breakup)
Hi Nonnie! Thank you for the lovely compliment and for the great ask!
I think this reply might partly answer your question? Basically saying that the road for a slow burn is long and it's hard to tell when a show will decide to take that turn towards making the ship happen. It's hard to know even with a ship that canonically has feelings involved. It's way worse when canon has only hinted, not explicitly said, something about feelings. And it's the worst when the ship is same-sex, meaning there are also some external considerations working against the ship going canon (like showrunners' fear of homophobic backlash for "turning a character gay", which is very different to having an established GLBTQ character). And you're right, currently Buddie are assumed to both be straight by the general audience, despite never explicitly identifying as such. I do think, however, that the latter can allow them to play with things a bit, for example at least one of them has always known he's bi, he just never felt the need so far to talk about it, while for the other guy, this would be a chance to recognize he's not as straight as he thought. It can be great material for the show to dig into!
I do think a LOT of signs are there for Buddie going canon in this season in the sense that it will admit on some level that at least one of the guys at least feels something other than platonic friendship for the other man. But I've watched in the past straight couples with established canon one-sided (or even mutual) feelings recognition, where all the signs were there, and the show still tormented the viewers for years over when the ship would materialize and whether it would... So I think there's a good chance we might get some canon confirmation of Buddie being not only friends, but I also think slow burns, especially for a popular ship on a successful show, are always about patience and knowing it will take time. So all I can say is, I have hope, and I also have a lot of patience, 'coz I know it's necessary with slow burns of this type!
Thank you again, lovely! Hope this helped! xoxox
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Buddie 505 meta
In an ep that’s all about Buck and Ravi getting to the point where they can work well together, what screams out to me is the parallels to Eddie’s introduction in 201. On the surface, the storylines are very similar: while Buck’s going through some personal stuff, he has issues with a teammate, but those get resolved by the end of the ep, with one key moment along the way when Buck, without appearing too happy about it, congratulates said teammate on their work. But the truth is these similarities actually emphasize the differences. For starters, remember how Buck insisted on finding Eddie a nickname? He tried “Diaz” as well as “G.I”. Interestingly, Buck says they have to find Eddie a nickname because everyone on the team had one. But he never called Eddie by the more generic “probie,” all of his attempts were more personalized, tailored specifically for Buck. It’s as if even during the time Buck thought he was rejecting Eddie, on some level he was already accepting him into the fold.
More than that, if Hen points out to Ravi in this ep that Buck wants to make sure he’s worthy, back in 201 Buck never seemed to doubt that Eddie was. That’s another reason why he never tried “probie” as a nickname for Eddie, it was clear it wouldn’t do. I wrote in my pre-season 3B meta that the real underlying reason for Buck’s immediate hostility towards Eddie was never that Eddie was awful, it was actually because Buck was overwhelmed by how awesome he thought this new guy was. Everything about the storyline with Ravi makes that even clearer.
But it doesn’t stop there either. When Ravi is hiding from Buck, Hen tells him this isn’t about what he’s doing wrong, it’s about Buck’s personal issues. I’ve always thought (and first mentioned in my 406 meta) that there was a good chance Eddie asked to hear more about Buck, since at the gym confrontation in 201 he knew Buck was going through a crisis, Abby leaving. We don’t know for sure, but the fact that we’re not shown a scene where this info about Buck is offered without Eddie asking for it (which is what happened in Ravi’s case, we’re clearly shown that Hen was the one to bring up Buck’s personal life), framing this info as more closely related to Eddie, and when he was also clearly trying to win Buck over at the beginning of the gym scene, that Eddie openly talked about this info with Buck while Ravi only discussed it in private with Hen, it makes it feel like from the start, Eddie had a level of interest in Buck that Ravi just doesn’t have. It’s the small difference between teammates and soulmates...
And of course, Buck is never truly hostile towards Ravi. He’s tough, but it’s because he feels responsible for him. He wants to help Ravi be better, make less mistakes. Buck told Eddie, “you’re meant to respect your elders,” but he never acted like he was an elder vis-a-vis Eddie, not like Buck did with Ravi. If anything, Buck was intimidated by how good Eddie was from the very first call they went on together. It’s what makes his “good job” admission to Eddie at the end of that call painful - it’s this moment where he has to entertain the possibility that he might be replaceable with the team. But the resolution to that storyline was that Eddie turned out every bit as good as he seemed and even better, he was the first person who saw Buck’s competence as a firefighter AND said that to his face, which clearly left Buck basically enamored with Eddie. In contrast, when Buck comes to the conclusion that Ravi is good enough to replace him, he decides they need to do it, that Buck has to ask for a transfer. Because in 201, the issue really was that he was intimidated by how amazing Eddie was and was scared of being replaced. Abby’s leaving might have made it harder to deal with, but it wasn’t the real cause. But in 505, the personal matter Buck struggles with IS the real reason why he was treating Ravi differently than before. The storyline even concludes with Ravi declaring his independence from Buck and that he’s content with it. That’s because this storyline was never about Ravi and his connection with Buck, not in the same way that 201 was about Eddie and the bond that was beginning to form between Buddie. But the 505 Ravi storyline does prove just how hard 911 decided to go when it introduced and integrated Eddie into Buck’s life.
Oh, and that Buddie connection is another aspect that is emphasized in this ep through contrast. Because from the moment Buck and Eddie had reached the resolution of their issues in 201, they’re never out of sync on the field. Actually, even before that, since Buck chose to go in with Eddie into the ambulance where a live grenade was awaiting them. Bobby even asked Buck if he was sure and he doubled down on his choice. In 505, he doesn’t choose to be paired up with Ravi. In fact, I find it interesting to see exactly how Bobby, who is the one to make the decision, declares the new pairings. He could have just said “Hen, you’re with Eddie, Ravi, you’ll team up with Buck.” But instead, he tells Buck that Eddie has to be paired up with Hen, so that leaves Ravi as Buck’s partner. It’s small, but the phrasing stresses that Bobby understands this will not be easy for Buck, to be separated from Eddie. It’s followed by showing us that both Buck and Eddie struggle with their new partners far more than we’ve ever seen either of them struggle with each other even before they struck up a friendship. In fact, in this ep, while Ravi’s rookie mistakes are essential to Buck’s storyline, Eddie constantly getting in Hen’s way (and a little on her nerves) isn’t essential to any plot, yet the show makes sure we witness that, too. Just to stress the point even more, we still get moments between Buddie in the field. The two of them exchange the kind of look spouses who know each other all too well do when Buck begrudgingly tells Ravi that he’s going to get the honors of breaking the door at the fitness mirror call, they do it again when the vic there exclaims that they’re pretty jacked (the guy is all of us, LBR), and then during the saw call, after Buck sends Ravi to throw up away from the vic, he himself kneels down and, again without even needing words, works together with Eddie seamlessly. Because they ARE battlefield boyfriends, alright? Always have been, always will be.
One of my fave recurring themes on this show is connected to that. It’s that we’re shown Buck and Eddie struggle on the job when the other one isn’t there. Eddie is the only one out of the 118 to voice his displeasure in ep 218 because Buck isn’t with them (even though the others have worked with Buck for longer), while Buck echoes the sentiment over Eddie’s absence in 414. In 505 he’s once more saying it’s weird at work. Without a doubt he’s talking about Chim’s absence, but the word “weird” itself threw me back to his choice of the same exact word in 414. So I do think that while the bigger issue is the guilt Buck feels over Chim’s departure, the fact that he was no longer being paired with Eddie added to that.
Which brought us to a scene with Taylor. Back in ep 408, she had told Buck (when she was hurt, angry and intent on getting back at him), that he’s needy and desperate for people to like him, meaning she knows these are sore spots for him. In this ep, despite not being angry or hurt, she said something very similar - that he’s making everything about himself. Ep 316 has shown us how much this idea hurts Buck, so I have to admit that I cringed. Especially when comparing this with Eddie’s words to Buck in 504, “you’re the guy who likes to fix things.” Eddie sets Buck straight, yes. But he does so while seeing the good in Buck and reflecting that back to him.
I guess that’s the thing we’re meant to see with Taylor here. In eps 501-4, she has been an absent gf (even when she was physically there). This is the first ep where she’s both present and focused on Buck. And she tries to be a good gf in this ep, that’s evident in the scene where she has bought him breakfast. Yet, throughout her scenes, she doesn’t quite get it right. First, there’s the fact that she did tell him something she knows would hurt him before he goes off to work, and it’s easy to tell that while her overall intention is to be reassuring, it doesn’t quite land. Then, there’s how Taylor tries to do something domestic for him, but everything about this screams that it’s not really her thing. She didn’t cook herself, which is itself isn’t that big of an issue, but she’s also dressed more like they’re about to go out for a night on the town, and add to this that she’s pouring an alcoholic beverage into a cup of orange juice for a firefighter who’s just come home early in the morning after a 24 hour shift, and it’s all just… it’s well meaning, but it IS off and ends up demonstrating that she knows how to celebrate and have fun more than how to be domestic and care for a partner. She does try, and Buck is clearly both surprised and touched by this. His surprise tells us that this is an unusual occurrence, and while he is touched, his reaction is also kinda subdued. His little “thank you” is cute, and he smiles, but it’s shot in profile and some shade, so we don’t really get its full effect. Compare that with the way he was absolutely beaming at Eddie in 504 and it was filmed from the front, in the open air and sunlight, so the shot was fully focused on Buck’s reaction. Then, after he updates Taylor on what he’s learned at work, he looks sad and she seems a bit upset as they hug. Presumably she’s reacting to his sadness, and Buck is feeling down because while things with the 118 have been resolved, Maddie and Chim are still away. But again, compare this to how at the end of the balcony scene, with Chim and Maddie being away AND while being physically hurt himself, Buck actually looks happier than in this hug scene with Taylor. On top of all that, Taylor’s absence up until this ep goes undiscussed, which in itself spells trouble for them in upcoming eps (just think for example about Ana being there for Eddie to help him crack the mystery of what’s wrong with Charlie in 413 while Eddie ignores the question of whether he’s following his heart when he’s with her). In 505, unlike the previous s5 eps, Taylor is actually making an effort. She’s trying to be a good gf, and yet she’s still not the person who can bring Buck comfort in times of distress.
Not like Eddie can, when even at that dramatic dinner table, where Buck was vulnerable and expressed his guilt through his tendency to self-sacrifice for his team, Eddie jokingly asked who’ll be replacing him, clearly doing so in order to make Buck laugh. The first sign of anyone breaking through to him. Then, add to this that Buck’s answer is Bobby will figure it out. Meaning that even when Buck is at his lowest point, concocting this scenario where everyone on the team can be replaced by someone else, including himself, he still couldn’t even throw a random name out there as a suggestion in response to that question. Eddie is irreplaceable to him.
And while we’re on the topic of that dinner, I just love every single thing Eddie does during the scene, every reaction, that question about himself which was clearly meant to tease Buck, the way Eddie reassures him that he’s stuck with the 118 (and how absolutely over the top content Eddie was over this fact… please, we all know he would never have let his baby daddy transfer away on his own) and of course, the part I just had to gif, the way he shakes his head in dismay when hearing Buck blaming himself for Chim leaving and the effect it had on the team. Of course the head shaking isn’t anything seemingly out of the ordinary, any friend could do that for Buck. Yet, we have a scene full of people who love Buck and care about him, who don’t want Buck to feel guilty or to leave, but it’s only Eddie that we see expressly shaking his head ‘no’ at Buck’s words. More than that, Eddie’s actually framed in the same shot with Buck as he speaks. That is not coincidental and it speaks volumes IMO. In an ep framed by Buck’s gf trying to be there for him, it’s Eddie who is still Buck’s person, the one who knows him best and can make things better.
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Buddie 503 meta
Before I get into things, just a small shoutout to Bobby & Buck’s bond and the progress we see in it: back in s1, when Bobby was going through rough times, Buck bluntly confronted him about it, and he shut everyone out, shoved Buck up against the wall and generally almost went off the deep end. This time, Buck is trying to check what’s going on in a far more gentle way, while Bobby actually tells his team what’s the matter, and they all end up helping him and Athena through it. IDK about you, but I loved this proof of how they’ve both grown during this show.
“If it was Christopher, I’d be losing my mind,” says Eddie, and right away the camera pans to Buck, his co-parent. Chim and Hen are both parents with kids of their own, they could have agreed with or amplified what Eddie was saying, but instead we get a very agitated Buck. Probably because he knows better than anyone else on that team how much a person can love and lose their mind with worry over a child that is like their own even though they’re not biologically related to each other…
Small moment, but Buck turns specifically to Eddie and even calls him by his name before he points up and indicates he wants to go upstairs, and Eddie’s all “yeah” and joins him without even thinking about it. It parallels the way their battlefield boyfriends bond started in 202, with Eddie leading back then and Buck following him to the higher floors of a collapsed building, no questions asked. I just love this reminder that three years down the line, this bond of theirs is still going so strong!
Right after Hen says to Denny (on the phone), “I can’t wait to see you,” we get a shot of Eddie approaching Buck, who turns to him, smiling wide. Then he teasingly says to Eddie, “I thought you’d be the first one out the door. Christopher know you’re coming?” which shows that Eddie’s earlier remark actually registered more than we might have initially thought, despite how on edge Buck was, providing further evidence that Eddie and Chris always preoccupy him, even more than he shows. Which is already quite a lot.
Thinking about 406, Eddie needed a pep talk from Bobby AND a series of events during their jinxed day, climaxing with the pretend-firefighter, on top of years of internalized expectations about what he’s supposed to do to provide his son with the right kind of family, in order to ask Ana out. But then comes the reverse, which is actually harder (as we see in the painful breakup scene), the reverse which goes against everything Eddie believes he should do for Chris, goes against the fact that Chris has already lost too many people he loves, against every nice moment he has had with this woman for almost a year... and yet he doesn’t need to be pushed into it by an alternative father figure or to have his job reflecting back to him some sudden realization. One chat with Buck, just thinking once about the pain that Buck had felt himself when he was in Ana’s position, and Eddie’s entire perspective changes enough that he’s ready to break up with Ana without any further prompting. On top of that, Eddie actually tells Buck he’s about to do that before he even talks to her, reassuring him that his words didn’t go unnoticed (just like Eddie’s words about Chris earlier in the ep didn’t go unheard). Buck is Eddie’s person, I repeat, in every way that counts, Buck is Eddie’s person. I swear, I feel like I should have a weekly “if this isn’t love, IDK what is” award…
Buck’s reaction to Eddie still being there at the end of this shift made me recall ep 316, when Buck had no one to celebrate with after a daring rescue. He was so alone, he ended up not going home at all. Now here he is, at the end of the blackout, thinking he’ll be alone, and pleasantly surprised to see Eddie is still there. Not only that, Eddie then confides in him that he’s listening to Buck and is going to break up with Ana. Then, we see Buck going home. This time, unlike at the end of 316, he’s not supposed to be alone. But… he is. Instead of a partner, all he has is a figure on his screen.
Now let’s be clear. This show is rooting for women who care greatly about their jobs. This little TV Taylor bit is shown in the same ep which makes it clear that Athena compromises nothing: she cares about her career, her kids, her husband and even her ex-husband and his new bf, she somehow juggles more than her fair share, and even when a deranged criminal tries to tell her that she can’t have it all, that she can either do her job or save her son, she still manages to do both. Plus, Buck himself has been shown to think highly of people’s dedication to their work. So that bit with seeing Taylor on the screen, while Buck sarcastically lets out a “honey, I’m home,” it’s not a criticism of Taylor, it’s more to show that something isn’t working between the two of them, because in this specific relationship, with its specific dynamics and conflicting schedules, he’s lonely. He’s not getting out of it what he needs and if in 316 we saw he didn’t want to be lonely, here we see that Taylor is not an easy fix to that. Just like Eddie felt he needed a “mother” for Chris, but his relationship with Ana wasn’t an easy fix to that either.
Oliver has stated in an interview before the premiere aired that he was glad the addition of Taylor meant Buck would now have someone to come home to. And then we’re literally shown the exact opposite: in 501 Taylor is present in body, but absent in terms of where her focus lies, in 502 she’s fully absent and in 503 her TV persona is present just long enough and in such a way as to stress her absence. There is an issue in Buck and Taylor’s relationship, and they’re not talking about it, just like Eddie and Ana didn’t up until this ep. I made a parallel gif post out of this moment of both men being lonely because it’s seriously chilling how much these two men’s love lives are interconnected. Not only that, to a great degree we see that if they were just a little less oblivious, they could have seen that they give each other exactly what they each need: Eddie wants a co-parent to Chris that he can also love and that’s exactly Buck, while Buck is desperately longing for a home and a family to belong to, which is what Eddie has been giving him all along. Just kiss already, you morons!
Speaking of the breakup scene! There’s so much to say about it, including how much I’m in awe that it played exactly into how we’ve been reading the Eddie and Ana relationship all along... We thought Eddie was mostly after this woman because on paper she was perfect to form a family with, and he literally tells her he had an “idea of us” and that it was Christopher’s love for her that dictated him staying in this relationship; we thought Ana might have already figured out that something was wrong between them and indeed, we were now shown she did through Eddie suggesting maybe she should go home (he could have just meant he’s tired and needs to rest after the blackout, but her reaction and attempt to stay anyway say everything about her knowing the breakup was coming, and then she later confirms that when she reveals she had figured out why Eddie was really suffering panic attacks). I’m so happy for Eddie that he finally did something for himself! This was a major step for Eddie, for once in his life choosing his happiness over his sense of duty. At the same time, I find it telling that Eddie trying to send Ana home, while she attempts to stay, creates yet one more connection between the (currently dysfunctional) love lives of Buddie: what tells us that Buck’s relationship isn’t exactly working out is how absent his gf is, while we can see that Eddie’s relationship is about to break down when we realize his gf is too present. See, the show could have had Eddie breaking up with Ana in 503 without bringing Buck into it at all. Why have us see Eddie tell Buck about it when we’re about to watch it play out on our screen shortly after? It could have been just the breakup scene and that’s it. No telling Buck, def no need for that extremely short bit with Buck’s loneliness at home. Instead, we get a sequence of scenes that through their themes are all tied together: Eddie tells Buck he’s breaking up with Ana, then a big hint that Buck’s unhappy with Taylor, and finally Eddie evidently unhappy with Ana and breaking up with her. The inclusion of Buck, the theme of their parallel unhappy relationships and the fact that the specific issues they’re having actually constitute mirror images of each other, it’s like the choices the show has made with this breakup state: “this isn’t just Eddie’s story. It’s Buck’s as well.” Which is, once more, interesting.
~~~ Thank you so much to the incredible @judsonryder for these stunning gifs! Also, you should check out her Buck in orange on his bed parallel, I loved that we both thought of it and IMO, it plays into everything pointed out in this meta and complements it.
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Buddie 502 meta
Do we even need meta posts at this point? This show is just… skipping the meta and writing its own fanfic. For example, the fact that during two eps that deal with Eddie not yet following his heart and, as a consequence, thinking he had a heart attack, we get a heart transplant rescue. Interestingly, when Manny the medic mentions the heart, it’s Eddie who’s closest to it, Eddie who reaches out for it and tries to grab it, but he fails to, which is why this is followed by one failed attempt by Hen and a successful one by Bobby. The essential, symbolic aspect here is that Eddie, dangling on the edge of the abyss, couldn’t reach and save the heart on his own. It can easily be seen as symbolic to where he’s at romantically right now, and as an indicator that Eddie will need help from others in order to be able to resolve his own love life issues.
Good God, when Ana shows up with Chris, my brain just about melted already just over the fact that there is hardly any interaction we see between the two of them, while Eddie and Buck both come in immediately and one after the other we see them hugging Chris (their son!) in the exact same way. So much so that I just had to gif it. But just as importantly, can we talk about the fact that Buck was at the chargers station, doing his duty, all serious with his clipboard (I love this new tradition of having clipboard!Buck at least once per season, 911 you’re doing great sweetie), so why is he even there, by the trucks? He must have heard Chris calling out “Dad!” and came in swiftly with Ravi in tow. Excuse me, I’m just gonna go cry over these two dads and how much they love their son that they can’t contain it and they both have to rush to him right away!
Oh, another small, but seemingly meaningful detail we get here? When Eddie is picking up Chris and hugging him, we see Ana in the background, smiling at the cuteness of this father and son duo. When Buck comes in and does the same thing, we see Eddie to the side, and yep, he’s smiling at them and the cuteness, too. He KNOWS Buck is Christopher’s other father, no legal guardianship activation needed.
And then everything that happens in the scene with Ana is just straight out of fanfiction. For real.
We discover Ana, despite dating Eddie for almost a year, has never been to the firehouse. Even now that she did come (uninvited, might I add), Eddie avoids introducing her to the point where even Ravi’s like, “Oh man, this is really awkward, Diaz” and Ana ends up having to introduce herself… Still can’t save them from all that awkwardness, especially as the panic attack starts setting in... Right in front of her salad, Diaz! This time, the panic is not over Ana being called Christopher’s mom, it’s over her being assumed to be Eddie’s wife. This isn’t just Eddie panicking over how Ana would fit into the Diaz family, it’s specifically about their romantic relationship, no two ways about it. Then Chris says, “not yet!” and it sounds like he means it’s just a matter of time, but it could also imply he doesn’t actually want that to happen, and this is his way of expressing it without hurting the teacher he does love. Don’t even get me started on the way Buck looks immediately at Eddie with a smile that’s not 100% genuine (the forehead not being a part of a smile is helps differentiate a genuine smile from a false one, this just doesn’t come across as Buck’s usual beaming). Then there’s Buck’s focus on Eddie the second there’s even the faintest hint of something wrong with him (let’s not forget, Eddie manages to avoid going into a full blown panic attack this time, and yet Buck reads him right away). The way they’re so in tune with each other always makes me wanna cry. Lastly, Eddie unceremoniously dumps Ana on Ravi, he doesn’t even show his own gf around the station, not even after the obvious awkwardness of him missing the mark on introducing her to his colleague. Basically, Eddie proving that being “dumb denial boy” really is his superhero persona.
I just love the animal conversation in the firetruck. It shows us so many things at once: that Eddie knows Buck incredibly well, that he can easily explain why Buck is so aware of every animal in the zoo, that he’s shown to know Buck better than anyone else on the team, that he speaks for Buck and explains things for him like a spouse would explain their partner’s little eccentricities (just like in 309 when he explains Buck’s fascination with natural disasters), that even as everyone else is exasperated with Buck right off the bat, Eddie is fully grinning (seriously, compare Hen not even paying attention to what Buck’s going on about while Eddie is soaking up every word and loving it), he’s just so smitten with everything about Buck, and of course that we get to hear that yes, Buck spends that much time with Chris. This is pretty significant in itself, but it also represents maybe the biggest thing about Buddie in this entire episode: the constant contrast between Ana and Buck, it’s practically screaming at the audience. Everything that Ana is supposed to be in Chris and Eddie’s life, but it makes Eddie panic, Buck IS, and it makes Eddie beam with joy. If the way Eddie looks at Buck in this scene isn’t love, IDK what is. And this show doesn’t either. I have raved in the past (in my first round of Buddie meta) about the speed and ease with which Eddie lets Buck into the Diaz family and how well Buck fits in, and I’ve said back then that Eddie is a closed off guy, so this is pretty special, what he has going on with Buck from practically the start. But the whole storyline with Ana emphasizes it even more and the choice to highlight just how close Buck is to Chris and how much Eddie adores everything about this man, even the stuff other people roll their eyes at, in the same episode in which we see Eddie almost choking over his gf getting even an inch into his real life… cinematic poetry.
That little moment when Buck and Eddie give Bobby the “sure” nod, and so in sync, before they laugh together! Please, these are sassy HUSBANDS being sassy together. How can we not stan?
Then we get another scene where I just adore everything... Eddie is on a bunk and Buck knows him so well, he can tell that Eddie’s not really sleeping, that Buck can come right up to him and start the conversation about what Buck is worried about. The worry itself and the insistence on finding out what’s wrong with Eddie (even when Eddie’s reluctant) where friends or colleagues would normally back down is obviously the stuff that the best marriages are made of. The way Eddie responds, that just like I pointed out in the 501 meta, it’s Buck’s worry that forces Eddie to admit the truth, both that what he’s been suffering are panic attacks and that the real reason for them is Ana, not the shooting. I also love Buck’s initial reaction. His “Since when do you panic?” echoes Eddie’s response last week. That’s not a small thing, they both know how cool and collected Eddie can be, even under fire. It points out exactly why it was initially hard for Eddie to accept that these are panic attacks (in addition to the macho BS). So Buck’s first reaction not only shows how well he knows Eddie, it actually also validates Eddie’s own initial reaction and thus, makes him feel more at ease going forward and sharing even more. This is just another part of why they work so well as a couple, err… team. It’s beautiful to see Eddie being able to admit the truth to Buck, but then Buck turns it around and dishes out the truth right back at him: that Eddie isn’t in love with Ana and shouldn’t stay with her just because Chris loves her. Eddie, in his mind, is being a good dad and grateful for what Ana has been through with him and, as I’ve said in my first round of meta regarding ep 210, Eddie is a man of duty. He sees an obligation and he wants to meet it.
Buck, who wears his heart on his sleeve, counters this sense of duty by bringing in feelings, and what’s the right thing to do emotionally. He complements and helps Eddie, forces him to listen and look at things from a different perspective, in a way no one else could. The exact words Buck uses are “I have been Ana” which are so interesting, ‘coz yeah, textually they point to Buck’s past romantic hurt, but they also cast him in the spot of Eddie’s gf. We’re not the only ones comparing the two, Buck himself makes the comparison between them and subtextually, this also brings up the differences between Buck and Ana. Where she failed to truly capture Eddie’s heart even months into the relationship (and while being more successful than any other woman since Shannon), Buck has been in the same position, of being new in Eddie’s life and having to “earn” Eddie’s trust and a place in the Diaz family, but Buck actually succeeded in that, where Ana failed, and a huge reason why is because Eddie willingly gave Buck his trust and that place in his and Christopher’s life. By using these specific words, the show basically begs us to notice what things should have been like between Eddie and Ana, and forces us to acknowledge that Eddie already has all of that, with Buck.
Lastly, the show tops itself, by following this scene with Chim opening up to Hen. It’s subtle, but you can see here the difference between what two loving but platonic friends being there for each other looks like in comparison. Hen checks in on Chim, but she isn’t completely preoccupied with Chim and Maddie’s home life in the same way that Buck’s focus, in the middle of what characters have repeatedly called “the end of the world”, is solely on Eddie’s wellbeing. Hen does care, she wants to know what’s up with Chim, she asks questions and gets him to spill, but it’s gentle probing, not a spouse digging into what’s going on with their partner. Also, this is just one scene. Chim’s entire story with Maddie’s PDD isn’t linked to Hen in the same way that Eddie’s arc with the panic attacks over Ana is linked to Buck. Then when it’s time to offer advice, Hen does so without inserting herself into the situation in the way Buck did when he cast himself in the role of Eddie’s gf in order to get to his best friend and point out what he should do. Buck and Eddie are friends, yes. And friends should be valued and celebrated! I adore every friendship on this show. But Buddie are also each other’s life partners and a juxtaposition of scenes like this is where you can really see the difference.
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Buddie 504 meta
After the Eddie story arc which actually started in 413 and that heavily featured Buck, I wasn’t expecting a lot of Buddie this week. Which turned out to be true, but isn’t it insane that the little we got was so real and meaningful? The way that balcony scene reached into a part of my soul and just stole it forever! There’s so much to unpack in this short scene. INSANE.
Let’s start by pointing out what the show has spelled out in neon lights: this scene thoroughly vibrates with the same energy as the kitchen scene in ep 309. the TEASING, the FLIRTING, the BEER DRINKING which is basically even more teasing and flirting... Plus, they’re once more spending time together in Buck’s loft, directly after a distressing experience, and their talk ends up being the emotional resolution for what they’ve been through. Let me repeat that, Buck’s whole storyline in this ep is about him being stuck in the middle between his sister and his friend/brother-in-law, put in the impossible position where he inevitably lets one of them down, and yet the show chose to give him his resolution for this ep with Eddie. Not with Buck’s own gf, not with his father figure that he paired up with in this ep, not with any of the people who care about him. It’s Eddie that Buck confides and finds some comfort in.
And Eddie, on his end, is not only providing that comfort, he’s providing care as well, in the most domestic husband way ever. He gets Buck some ice, reprimands him when he’s not actually holding it over the black eye, gets him some beer because clearly, Eddie’s been around Buck’s kitchen more than once (as in the case of the pizza in 309). IDK about your country, but this reminded me that in mine, based on everything we’ve seen, Buddie could for real be recognized as same-sex common law partners. Which is basically being married without a wedding. I am not kidding when I tell you, I have been a volunteer for the LGBTQ community here for years, Buddie fit the damn legal criteria, I am going to lose my mind!
Let’s move on to clothes next. It may sound trivial in comparison with what I discussed before this, but it’s an integral part of storytelling and setting up a scene. I’ve already written about how in the kitchen in ep 309, Buddie were dressing for each other, Eddie dressing up smartly in what was probably his nicest shirt (given that he had previously worn it to his “re-proposal” date with Shannon in 217), while Buck switched to a far more comfortable outfit. In the balcony scene, each one of them is dressed in the same exact style they were wearing back in the kitchen one. This is a CHOICE by the wardrobe department. One of the guys being dressed similarly might have been a coincidence, but repeating the exact same outfit style for both men during the same kind of talk is deliberate. It’s meant to make sure that these two scenes echo each other on even the most basic level, because that has an immediate impact and it carries over the meaning: how Eddie finds Buck to be so important, and how at home Buck feels with him. If we’re all losing our collective minds over a comparison between these scenes, this is one of the small details that tells us we were supposed to.
But there’s another scene we have to add in here, one already included in this post in the beer drinking comparison gifset, and that’s Buddie’s talk in 312. It’s where we saw Eddie for the first time struggling with how to even talk to Chris about something. Up until that point, all of his struggles were with external issues: bureaucracy, how to provide the right care for Chris, whether it’s the right thing to allow Shannon back into their son’s life… but this is the first time Eddie’s problem is vis-a-vis Chris, how to talk to him, how to be honest with him without depriving him of the sense of agency that Eddie clearly wants his son to have. Eddie has a lot of people he could turn to (Carla, Bobby, Pepa, Isabel), but it’s Buck that he ends up talking to. More than that, it’s Buck who ends up helping Eddie, first by pointing out that Eddie is putting too much pressure on himself (overcorrecting his prior stance) and next by providing a piece of the puzzle Eddie couldn’t see on his own (the way the talk ends implies Buck did the research that led to the adaptive skateboard being built by the two of them). On the balcony, we have almost a mirror image, with Buck finding himself in a complex situation he doesn’t know how to deal with, then Eddie pointing out he’s putting too much pressure on himself (thinking he has to fix everything for everyone) and lastly providing a piece of the puzzle Buck didn’t have before (that Maddie isn’t always the person Buck perceives her to be). I ADORE the way these scenes play off each other. Buddie are there for one another, listening, and offering mirroring advice, and the relationship between them is obviously one that’s written with a lot of consideration and care, making it constantly deeper and more meaningful.
Characters are often shown to be potential romantic partners through the value of how well they know their would-be partner and how they’re not scared of calling them out on their bullshit. If you think back to 408, that’s one of the things Taylor was given upon her return (indicating she was likely to get together with Buck as a gf): she figures Buck out and calls him out on the real reason why he asked her on their double date. But while she was harsh with Buck, verging on hurtful (because she was hurt herself), Eddie on the balcony shows that Buck can be known and be pointed in the right direction without it being mutually hurtful. In fact, it’s so soft and caring, it makes me want to cry a little. And it’s not the first time we’ve seen Buck and Eddie be there for each other in this capacity, either. The most recent example was over the course of eps 502-3, where we saw just how well Buck knows Eddie and how he got the most repressed man ever to admit the truth of his panic attacks and their cause, as well as to do the right thing simply by being open and vulnerable himself. When Eddie goes and breaks up with Ana, he’s not only doing the right thing for her, he’s also “fixing” the hurt that Buck has gone through in the past, showing him that his pain matters and that his words are listened to. And then, in 504, Eddie tells him there are some things that Buck can’t fix. But through this very conversation, Eddie IS fixing something for Buck, not the situation with Chim and Maddie itself, but Buck’s ability to cope with it. They know each other, they each help and heal the other man, and if that isn’t one of the most beautiful love stories ever seen, even without one kiss being exchanged (yet), then IDK what is.
Speaking of knowing and healing each other, I find that one of the ways this is reflected most naturally is with Buddie making each other laugh. Most recently we saw Buck making Eddie laugh in ep 502. Despite all the emotional turmoil Eddie was experiencing, what with being uncertain regarding his relationship with Ana and the fact that the panic attacks were pretty unsettling for him in and of themselves (since he’s so not used to them), he gets one moment free of that stress and it’s thanks to Buck and Eddie clearly focused for a moment on just his fondness for this man. This week, it happens the other way around. Buck is in a position he’s never been in before, caught between Chim and Maddie, and he’s distressed. But he gets to have a lighthearted laugh thanks to Eddie, the kind of thing that allows you to breathe a bit and feel that yeah, even if you can’t fix things, it IS going to be okay. And unsurprisingly, they absolutely light up at each other and look more in love than ever before during these moments. I think it’s notable, we have seen them teasing each other before, we haven’t always seen them outright grinning at these jokes, and it makes these two seem to me like they’re even more comfortable in each other’s company, more loosened up. It’s like one further small step on their path to realizing they belong together on every level.
Okay, let me talk about editing for two seconds, okay? I posted a gifset which was basically just me screaming into the ether about the fact that there’s a particular way only Eddie can make Buck smile, but here I also wanna emphasize Buck’s response (and how in love they look, LBR). Because if the whole point is just to show us that Eddie can make things lighter for Buck, the smile is enough. Meaning, the filming or editing could have cut right after the smile to the wider shot of Buck and Eddie on the balcony. But it doesn’t, the camera lingers. We continue to see Buck looking at Eddie just a few seconds extra. But these seconds are actually emphasized by the filming angle: it’s shot so that Eddie is between Buck and the camera. Which is a very odd way of filming this if you only want to highlight Buck. The angle makes it so that when Eddie takes another sip from his beer during these extra few seconds, the bottle actually blocks out the lower half of Buck’s face, forcing us to focus on his eyes, on the way he’s looking back at Eddie. It basically makes sure that the last frames before cutting back to a wider shot are not solely about Buck, they include both of them and are about their connection. If this isn’t purposeful, then that is some real sloppy filming and editing. Which isn’t unheard of on TV, but on this show? With its high standard of editing? Some of it down right brilliant (for example, in 402)? I find it very unlikely that this shot was anything other than intentional and therefore, very meaningful…
I pointed this out for 502, and it’s true again in this ep, maybe even more so. We see Chim and Hen’s friendship, and even though it’s clear that they’re close friends who love each other, at the end of the day, it’s also clear that they each have their own life partners. In fact, it’s their life partners that cause the split between these two work partners: Chim has to go find Maddie, he absolutely has to, but even though Hen offers to come along, he also knows it isn’t right, because she has Karen, who needs her back home (Hen says Karen would understand, but she doesn’t repeat her offer to join Chim, and the next time she talks about it, it’s clear he’s going alone. “Do you know where you’re going?” she asks). And it’s so lovely and touching that they tell each other their partners are lucky to have them, exactly because those partners are the cause of this temporary separation. It’s a nod to Chim and Hen’s bond and mutual appreciation, but also to the fact that their life partners are worth the separation. In contrast, Buck and Eddie are shown once again to be not only friends, but also each other’s partners, and the person that they end up spending their final scene with, no separation needed or possible. The theme of this ep is about the choice between staying home and staying away from it. Maddie left, Chim felt he had to leave following her, Hen was willing to go but Chim tells her she shouldn’t and she doesn’t protest that much, Harry is away from home and while Athena wants to bring him back, she struggles with staying there herself. And Buddie? They’re both with each other at the end of the ep, with Eddie clearly not a guest in Buck’s loft. They truly are each other’s home.
And all of these things together, this is how you spell out ‘meant to be’.
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Buddie 501 meta
Welcome season 5, what a great kick off we got with ep 501!
Now, the first personal scene we have ends with Chim telling Maddie, “it’s gonna get better,” and her agreeing, but it makes it clear things at present aren’t good. We know this, that’s where we left Madney off last season. But then this scene transitions into Eddie being teased by the 118 about this step forward he’s taking with Anna. He looks very uncomfortable, just like we last saw him with her in 413. So even the way that it works, this transition between the introductory personal scenes for the season, tells us where Eddie is right now isn’t good, but it will get better.
And the 118 teasing Eddie scene is such Buddie fodder! First, we have Buck looking jealous and not the least bit happy for his best friend, like he should be when said friend seems to have found a love good enough to commit to. Then Eddie is SO highly uncomfortable (it’s even reflected in his physical expressions and tone) and very insistent this step he’s taking with Anna doesn’t mean anything. On top of all that, this type of scene is very common. Someone’s getting serious with a partner and gets teased by friends who are genuinely happy about this turn of events. The person brushes the teasing off, but secretly is really pleased and happy, as is revealed by hardly contained smiles and later scenes. That’s not the case here, and comparing this scene with how it would usually play out if this relationship was one Eddie and Buck are both content with is what highlights their reactions and just how unhappy both men are with Eddie becoming more committed to Anna. Almost like they’re secretly in love with each other? At the very least this suggests they both know Anna and Eddie are not the right fit. To make that really obvious, the scene mentions Shannon’s funeral when it didn’t have to in order to explain why Chris is getting a new suit, but it serves as a subtle reminder for the void that Eddie is trying to fill for his son by staying with Anna.
Okay, this is small, but I love it so much: Buck and Eddie work together underwater, which means they have to communicate wordlessly in how they operate to get the trapped vic out. I wrote a very similar scene in my Buddie AU, Blue Against Blue, because I felt it reflected a part of who Buddie are, which is essential to why we love them so much: they complement each other naturally. They get and sense each other even underwater, when they have no words and their senses are overloaded. And they can still work together so well, that they manage to save a life. These battlefield boyfriends ride again and I missed that hardcore!
That unhappiness we saw in Buck when Eddie talks about Anna, I find it interesting that we witness that before we’re shown his intimate scene with Taylor. The scene appears to present them really happy and fulfilled spending their night together, but because of the scene order, we already know that in the background, there’s what looks like Buck’s jealous reaction to Eddie and Anna. So are things as good with Buck and Taylor as they seem? The scene starts with Taylor more focused on a possible news story (not even a sure one, Buck makes that clear) than on him and it ends with her cutting off the whole make-out session for the sake of the same maybe-story. She doesn’t have to, there’s no emergency even if there is a story. Nothing wrong with that, she’s passionate about her work, but in a scene that is supposed to be about passion in the bedroom, it shows what gets her going more. (On a side note, she also taps into his private phone without asking for permission first, which is something that probably bothers me more because the show has a tendency to have women overstep boundaries with Buck, like the therapist in ep 102 or Abby getting Buck’s phone number from the incident report, and then not acknowledge that. This phone thing is obviously not as big, but I just really wish the show would address this repeated pattern at some point). It’s a small crack that we see through this scene. Taylor obviously cares about Buck. But her job does come first, even over Buck, which suggests that despite appearances, just like with Eddie and Anna, these two are together, but it’s partly because there are matters they’re not addressing. What’s interesting is that this brings us back to a theme from earlier seasons, of Buck and Eddie’s dating life paralleling each other. Not only does the theme continue, in a sense, this episode’s similarities of their love life make it run even deeper.
I have to give a small shout out to the scene with Bathena, Henren and Mavid. I love that these three couples, straight, gay and lesbian, are all treated equally and as a part of one extended family. Beautiful! And I think that in an ep co-written by the show-runner, it’s also a part of why we have faith that 911 can be courageous enough to give us Buddie as well, eventually.
The dressing room scene at the store truly vibrates with awkwardness. Everything about it is off, even the way Eddie reacts to Anna suggestively flirting with him, at best he’s humoring her (down to his “sure” at her wanting to add in a tie) and not very pleased about it. As we know, they’re there with Chris (why is she talking dirty when Eddie’s son there? So weird, especially as she’s an educator), the whole dynamic of these three together, I can’t help comparing it to Buddifer since we’ve seen that trio together more than once. Buddifer are so good together, happy, domestic, Buddie are co-parents effortlessly, Chris is beaming and enjoying himself, it’s all such a screaming contrast to how uncomfortable Eddie looks throughout the scene with Anna at the store, and how even Chris is highly unhappy. Anna isn’t directly interacting with Chris either (seriously, Buck is more Eddie’s co-parent than his own gf) nor is she that comfortable in this situation, since the second the shop worker calls her mom, she looks uneasy and denies both being Chris’ mom and even that she’s Eddie’s gf, calling herself “a friend” instead. Seriously, how have Anna and Eddie lasted together as long as they have?
Then we get the panic attack. Let’s take a second to appreciate that in 413, Carla told Eddie to ‘follow his heart’. Eddie the dumb denial boy still chose to stay with Anna, then lo and behold, he thinks he’s having a heart attack... But what stands out to me about this scene? Well, most (not all, but most) panic attacks don’t result in people physically falling down. The fact that Eddie did makes it visually similar to his fall after he was shot. But is his panic attack just about being shot? What triggers it is Anna being referred to as Christopher’s mom, not anything remotely similar to the shot, and as Anna comes closer to Eddie to check up on him, we actually hear his heartbeat going further up, not starting to slow down. Anna is the main issue. And how hilarious is that, given how quickly Eddie let Buck into Christopher’s life, made him a co-parent and even made sure Buck had a legal standing in Chris’ life? But then, this is even further emphasized by the specific way the panic attack echoes Eddie’s fall during the shooting. Being shot can be a contributing factor, of course, but there’s also the fact that when Eddie was shot, Buck was there, a steadying presence, maintaining eye contact with Eddie, watching him the entire time until Buck could save him. Once again, this is a choice. Because Eddie realizing he shouldn’t be with Anna could have unfolded in so many different ways, but the show chose one where it’s really emphasized how things are with Anna compared to what they’re like between Buddie…
The scene at the doctor’s is even more awkward than the one in the store, which has to be some kind of a new world record. “Any new stressors?” the doc asks and the camera shows us Anna. In addition to Eddie being highly in denial (even ending the scene with “I don’t panic”), we also get him saying “it’s been great,” to the doc. But he doesn’t stop there, he then asks Anna for reassurance, “Right?” while sounding like the least convincing human on earth. Interestingly, she looks back at him, also awkwardly, and doesn’t reply. Coupled with her earlier denying being his gf, this makes me think she’s not as in the dark about things not being right between them as she might have seemed at the end of s4.
I just have to stan Chris being a tiny, precious king, calling his dad out. “You got shot!” You go baby, show your dad what you’ve learned from your Bucky (as demonstrated later in the ep) about not taking any of Eddie’s BS…
I was sure the air traffic control scene would reflect Eddie’s panic attack back to him and it did. What I did not anticipate was Eddie, when noticing the second controller going into a panic attack, touching Buck’s shoulder on his way over. We have a long list of unnecessary touches and almost touches between these two on the job, the likes of which I can’t remember between any two other members of the team. HOW am I expected to think that this is all purely platonic? Please, they need each other’s presence and comfort on a physical level. The stuff of fanfic legend.
Of course Buck would notice that something’s off with Eddie. He always does, they both do, they’re so in tune with each other, always have been!
And of course he next gets the truth out of Eddie (which is significant, remember that at the end of the doc scene, Eddie was still in denial, but at the sight of Buck worrying so much about him, he has to admit the truth, that he didn’t have a heart attack), which is such life partners material right there. But what I love even more is Buck’s surprise that there could be something going on with Eddie that he’s not informed of. Literally, his indignant face screams, “Love of my life, you’ve been keeping stuff from me, your husband?” And then of course he proceeds to call Eddie out on his BS, demonstrating where Chris got this ability from (check out the gorgeous gifset that the amazingly talented @judsonryder made for this “like father, like son” take).
More than that, after the store scene proved how much better Buck is at being Christopher’s other parent, at the hospital he’s also acting like more of Eddie’s romantic partner than Eddie’s own gf did, even though she was actually present when the panic attack happened and Buck wasn’t. I’m done, I can’t with all of this obviousness! I swear to God, if Buddie never get together romantically, they will still canonically be the most married couple ever on 911. And that’s despite the fact that they have some serious competition from every other established couple on the show!
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Buddie 414 meta
You know that thing where on the one hand you wanna write down every little detail from a scene and at the same time, you know that even if you manage to capture it all, you still wouldn’t nail the sum that is greater than its parts, the feel of it, the intensity? So, the end of 413 and everything Buddie in 414. I’m gonna try, but LBH, no meta post can capture the full depth and fanfic trope quality of the Buddie stuff in the sniper storyline.
I said last week I couldn’t wait for Buck’s response and it was amazing indeed! I loved everything. That Buck sprang into action once his brain was able to process the trauma of watching Eddie being shot in front of him, that he rolled under the truck while the sniper was still firing away, that he was screaming “I got you!” even before he reached Eddie and he kept repeating that throughout this opening scene, that he loaded Eddie into the truck and ripped open his shirt, saving Eddie both by removing him physically from the danger zone and by starting the required life sustaining actions… Buck could have stepped back once on the truck and let the other firefighter take care of Eddie, the one actually on the clock, but nope. It had to be him. Buck was Eddie’s literal lifeline in this scene. In this ep really, by taking care of Chris (while Eddie in their legal guardian convo was Buck’s emotional lifeline). And then he also added the “stay with me” line and I about expired. Stay with me! That’s a romantic trope line. That’s what they used for coded gay characters in the days when TV and movies still censored explicit same sex love, so it all had to be presented in subtext. On top of that Eddie had to make sure Buck wasn’t hurt. And only then could he let go and lose consciousness. I mean the level of fanficness was crazy! But you know my fave part?
Buck saying, “I need you to hang on.” He could have said Chris, he could have said ‘we’, but in that moment, at the peak of his fear, Buck said “I need you”. Lastly, Captain Mehta asks Buck if he’s ok and as Buck watches Eddie being taken away, he says, “no”. It’s so honest and raw, it’s almost a continuation of the “No!” that Buck repeated earlier during the save. His well being and Eddie’s are a continuation of each other. That will only be reinforced later in the ep (when Carla asking about the job results in Buck talking about missing Eddie, which is so similar to Eddie missing Buck on the team in 218, except it’s MORE intense now ‘coz Eddie never experienced the 118 without Buck, but Buck was with the 118 for a whole year without Eddie, and when through Bobby we discover that almost losing Eddie causes Buck to crossover from reckless to intentionally making himself a target). And while this opening scene is bigger than the sum of its parts, I had to point out all of these details, because there is no way to even come close to explaining the impact and the extra nature of the scene without them.
We’ve seen Buck in emergency situations before. We’ve never seen him shut down quite like when he saw Eddie being shot. It’s true during that initial moment of paralysis that he goes through, but it’s also true later on, when we discover that at the hospital, waiting to hear about Eddie, Buck shuts out all calls, he shuts the whole world out, including Maddie and Taylor, because all that matters is Eddie. When he is capable of thinking of someone else, it’s Chris. The kid that Buck comes to love enough to accept a position as his legal guardian, but let’s never forget: Buck would have never spent enough time to Chris to get to know him and love him if Chris wasn’t Eddie’s son, while Eddie chose to let Buck in, he chose to trust Buck with Chris, repeatedly and on so many more levels than we realized before this ep. Chris is his own person of course, but his bond with Buck will always also be a continuation of Buck and Eddie’s bond, because the former wouldn’t exist without the latter. It’s a reflection of what a family unit all three of them truly are. These are the bonds that the show will never break.
The fact that even before we discover about Eddie’s will, the show doesn’t so much as bother to explain why, in Eddie’s absence, it’s Buck who’s telling Chris about what happened, not Carla, Abuela or Pepa, or Ana, Eddie’s girlfriend who as an educator is supposed to have better tools to explain this to a child… The show itself acts like it’s that obvious that this is Buck’s parental role in Christopher’s life, even in the most challenging of situations. Despite his efforts not to break down in front of Chris, Buck is struggling. Even just talking about Eddie getting hurt is more than he can completely hide (despite the fact that he is good at hiding his emotions at times), but then the relief of knowing Eddie will be ok is overwhelming and Buck can’t keep it in despite his efforts. Then we get a parallel in Chris comforting Buck between this ep and 301, with the same exact line, only it means so much more now. Chris isn’t just telling Buck he’ll get over a lost career, he’s reassuring Buck they can handle this shared experience of almost losing Eddie. And accordingly, Chris doesn’t call Buck jokingly (in an imitation of Eddie) ‘kid’ this time, he refers to him by ‘Buck’. Which is the first of two instances in this ep where we see an elevated level of intimacy and connectedness between the Diaz Boys and Buck being expressed through Buck’s names. Eddie won’t use ‘Buck’, he’ll call him ‘Evan’. And it’s not the same ‘Evan’ that Buck’s parents use ‘coz they don’t know their son. It’s the ‘Evan’ that Maddie uses, the one that says, “I know you so well and I hear you’re struggling, so I need you to really pay attention to me now.” I thought Buddifer were close before, but somehow the show topped itself in unveiling whole new levels of how close they are.
Then Buck stays to sleep at Eddie’s. And not just for that initial night, he stays over for a while! We get an explanation later, but I love the fact that the show didn’t think we’d raise an eyebrow for several long scenes before giving us Buck explaining his decision, plus the fact we never see Carla or Ana questioning this, nor Eddie for that matter, he wasn’t asking Buck for an explanation! That speaks volumes. If I said the show is emphasizing to us how close the Buddifer unit is, Buck stayed as close as he physically could to Chris, and as close to Eddie’s ghost presence in his house. There’s only one thing MORE intimate than being together with someone in their personal space - being there in their absence. It’s an even greater level of being worthy of someone’s trust. This closeness to the absent Eddie is only further emphasized by the way the morning scenes with Buck and Chris remind us of Eddie and his son’s similar scenes in 204. And like that’s not enough, Chris makes fun of Buck’s snoring! So far we’ve only ever seen him making fun of Eddie (repeatedly). This is how close Buck and Chris are, that we get the same kind of kid-parent teasing between them.
Good God, the Bathena and Buddie parallels were strong in this ep! Starting from Bobby opening up about what it was like to witness (through audio) Athena’s near death right after we had Buck witnessing Eddie’s near death, through the way we saw Athena going into a burning building to get Bobby out, no matter how irrational of a decision that was, just like Buck and Eddie have done for each other repeatedly, how Buck tries to go right after Eddie in 214 and 315, how Eddie leads the search for Buck in 405 and how Buck threw himself under the truck while a sniper was shooting at them in this very ep. Bathena beautifully mirrored to each other that they would always come get their loved one in 402 and 414, and Buddie have been doing the exact same thing, while even using the same words, Athena tells Bobby “I got you,” just like Buck chanted those words at Eddie.
(more under the cut to save your dashboards)
Ana was little more than a cardboard cutout in this ep. It feels like the ep tackled so much, and mainly from Buck’s POV, that it never followed through on Eddie’s convo with Carla about Ana in 413. I expect it will either come up in early s5 when these two break up, or if the break up happens off screen it will be referenced. It would just be weird if there is zero pay off for that.
If you read my replies to asks, you know I’ve said that Buck and Taylor would probably get together in some capacity and I also thought it would probably happen during 414, so I really wasn’t surprised that they kissed. At the same time, I’ll repeat that Taylor, at the end of the day, might be more developed than Ana (LBH, that’s not hard), but not much more. In 414, she’s still at the development level of yet another Love Interest. She had a reason to friendzone Buck before. We’re left to guess what it was, ‘coz the show doesn’t bother with Taylor enough to tell us what are her inner turmoils, what made her first reject Buck and what makes her get past it, decide to kiss him, and why at that specific moment. We could say it’s the danger, but hey, he’s been in danger before, this isn’t new. Or another thing, there’s a major change in their relationship for Buck, but it all plays out in this ep as second place to the space Eddie and Chris take in Buck’s life. Think of how Taylor leaves after their kiss, apparently expecting Buck to chase her, but instead he gets a call about Eddie and immediately goes to the hospital instead. These are his priorities. They’re not going to change, either.
If you think about it, they match how Taylor and Eddie have made Buck feel. Taylor is one of the people who gave Buck the impression he wasn’t good enough (ep 208 and to a different degree in 412). Eddie has made Buck feel important from the moment he “courted” him, wanting them to get on, in the gym scene in 201. Even at their lowest, the 305 supermarket argument made Buck realize Eddie was so angry ‘coz he needed Buck so much that he basically fell apart. I don’t think anyone has ever reflected to Buck how much he matters like Eddie has (and that’s even before the legal guardianship of Chris). So this one’s gonna be an issue for any external character they bring in to be either Buck or Eddie’s LI, that character will never be able to compete with what Buddie have. Any LI will always be underdeveloped in comparison.
The way that they shot Buck entering Eddie’s hospital room, it’s like that’s all Buddie have been waiting for. Like Eddie’s been holding his breath to see Buck, and in response, like Buck can breathe, finally really breathe, for the first time since Eddie’s been shot. It reminds me a bit of Buck stepping into the light in 408 in that this is how someone’s intended romantic partner is often shot. Not to mention we see Eddie talking to Chris through Buck’s eyes. Everything is framed like Buddie is the real couple here.
I find it amazing to see the levels of openness and sincerity between Buddie. Buck, the daredevil who often pretends to be better than he is, willingly shares everything with Eddie, including how badly he broke down when talking to Chris. He didn’t have to, he could have pretended to have held it together, but they’re partners through and through, including in taking care of Chris. As we see with Bathena, partners have to communicate. Which means Buck tells Eddie the truth, he even reveals his sense of guilt expressed in the sentiment that Chris would have been better off if Buck were the one to get shot. And honestly, no one has a healthier partnership than Buddie on this show that is full of good romantic partnerships. That says a lot.
Eddie’s face after that and until they have their talk says everything about how much Buck’s well being matters to him. He doesn’t wait with their talk until they’re out of the hospital or he’s healed. If you think about it, there’s nothing urgent, it’s not like Buck’s gonna go out and do something reckless in the next 24 hours, when they’re off duty, this talk can wait. Except Buck’s in distress, so no, it can’t, Eddie has that conversation with him as soon as he’s strong enough to. What he shares shows a level of trust that isn’t usually reserved even for the best of friends. In explaining his decision, Eddie points out why he chose Buck to be Chris’ legal guardian over Eddie’s parents. But the truth is he chose Buck over them, Abuela, Pepa and Eddie’s sisters, uncles, cousins, everyone. EVERYONE. He verbalizes it too in a similar way to how he did in 303, “no one will ever fight for my son as hard as you” echoes “there’s nobody in this world I trust with my son more than you.”
Except again, it’s MORE. Eddie has put his money where his mouth is when he changed his will. Just think of Eddie in the water in 315, fighting for his life, aided by images of his family, and they’re so predominantly about Buck in addition to Chris, and now we know he followed that with actually changing his will to legally establish this bond the Diaz boys have with Buck. I can’t even. But not just that, he knows there would be a legal fight with his parents, he trusts Buck to fight it, and Eddie gets on the spot a reassurance that he indeed knows Buck and correctly assessed that Buck would. And Eddie says that not only is what Buck has to offer the best of what any of Eddie’s relatives have to offer, it’s what Eddie wants. I cannot stress enough how emotional I get over every single time Eddie has shown Buck that he’s wanted. That he’s chosen. It’s what Buck needs and deserves. To cap it all off, Eddie spells the issue out: Buck acts like he’s expandable. Then Eddie stresses that he’s wrong. You’d think Buck would say something to that, or that there would be some banter to relieve some of the tension, but nope. Buck doesn’t need to say anything. This is for him to take in, and they don’t have to say a word to each other. The look they exchange is more than enough. They get each other in that moment and there is no need to back away from the meaningfulness of this.
Might I add that if in 413, we see a glimpse of Eddie’s St. Christopher necklace, in the scene where he tells Buck about the will change, it’s on full display. It’s so fitting as a subtle reminder that this isn’t a moment when Eddie relinquishes a part of his fatherhood in order to include Buck. This is a moment when he’s being Chris’ dad more than ever, taking care of his son by making sure that if Eddie’s not there, he will be taken care of by the person who cares about him most after Eddie, which is Buck.
The fact that it’s Buck that takes Eddie home like a partner would is only amplified by the fact that he’s also the person who frames the whole scene of the reception party. He’s the one we see bend over to open the door before Eddie (even though this is Eddie’s house, he obviously has a key and would normally open the door for himself), then after the abundance of cheers and joy at Eddie’s return, Buck’s constantly in the background and after Eddie kisses Chris, the most important person in his life, the camera cuts to Buck, who’s beaming at them. Ana and Taylor are both there (even though the latter being there is kinda weird), but the most meaningful moment during Eddie’s welcome home party is more about Buck than about either man’s connection to his respective LI. Eddie will only later give Ana a chaste cheek kiss. Buck and Taylor won’t significantly interact. The scene is about Eddie getting back his home and to have this domestic scene with his family and his son, and the person who’s framed as giving all that to him after holding down the fort in his absence is Buck. EPIC.
I kept capitalizing the word ‘more’. Because if I had to sum up the general Buddie theme of this ep? Buddifer bonding INTENSIFIES. Happy hiatus!
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Buddie 413 meta
Buck talking make-up with the bridezilla is the kind of ‘secure in his masculinity’ content that I fucking love 911 for. And even though Eddie makes a face (he's on teasing boyfriend duty), right after that he basically continues along the same line of helping the bride, by pointing out she’ll have her veil to help disguise what happened. I love the lack of panic over discussing make-up and bridal veils, plus the way Buddie naturally complement each other.
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Also, the mother of the bridezilla talking about being too lenient with her made me grin. A small wink at Buck and Eddie’s exchange over what is “too much discipline” that we saw in 410? ;) Might be a coincidence, but it's still a fun little throwback to Buddie's parental discipline banter.
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David hanging out with Michael and his kids, being a part of their custom to play games together (since we learn this isn’t a new thing) reminded me of how Buck is a part of Eddie and Christopher's game nights, as seen in 309 and 403. This small parallel made me so happy. Buddie are BOYFRIENDS, confirmed (yet again). Oh, but Michael wants both David, his boyfriend, and Bobby, his best friend, to be there in order for this to be complete. Buddie don’t need anyone else there during Buddifer game nights, because they are both. And isn’t that a part of what makes Buddie so special? How many other same-sex canon ships have we gotten to see on screen who are built as both? I think it’s a part of why we want to see them become canon so much...
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Another small touch that I liked was the glimpse of Eddie’s St. Christopher necklace in the dinner scene. Honestly, it’s such a nice touch of continuity and it also reminds us what a great dad he is, which fits how naturally he goes above and beyond the call of duty when helping out Charlie.
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It’s an interesting shot when Carla comes back and they celebrate her birthdays together. When she comes in through the door, Eddie and Chris hug her, but Ana is left to the side. That’s understandable, Carla doesn’t know Ana much at this point. The camera didn’t have to linger on Ana outside of this circle of love and connectedness, however, and yet it did. Then at the dinner table, we see Ana physically connected to Chris, but not to Eddie. This leads to the way Eddie talks about her to Carla. It’s “nice” and “easy”. But that’s not necessarily love. Especially this early on in a relationship, love gives you butterflies in your stomach and makes you nervous. It makes you buzzingly uncomfortable in your own skin in that good way of being hyper-aware of someone else’s presence and of everything between the two of you, because everything matters. It’s challenging and makes you gulp because you want this thing so much. And Carla picks up on the fact that something’s lacking, telling Eddie to make sure he’s following his own heart and not just staying with Ana for Christopher’s sake. The look Eddie gets after that is even more telling than Carla's words that she is, in fact, completely right. It all paints a picture that tells us Eddie’s at the start of realizing he’s with Ana for the wrong reason…
(meta and gifs for THAT SCENE under the cut to save your dashboards)
All that would have been a lot in itself, but then we get all of this leading to Eddie getting shot while paired off with Buck. Consider how the show took pains to make sure it would be Eddie and Buck together out there in the street, even though Chim was shown to be a part of the conversation when Eddie got Charlie’s call. He and Buck are just coming in, so they’re still in civilian clothes, Buck finds it so important to go with Eddie, he doesn’t even change into his uniform before they get to Charlie. But we’re shown Chim did change into his uniform and that he didn’t come along, even though it’s clear they had a medical emergency on their hands and Chim’s a paramedic, unlike Buck and more experienced than Eddie. It would make more sense for Buck to stay at the station and for Chim to go with Eddie, but nope. Buddie are a team. Where one goes, the other one follows, even in civvies and when it doesn’t make sense. “All we ever wanted was to go together,” as Mitchell told Buck in 208.
Then we have the way the shooting is filmed. I already screamed about the ceaseless eye contact, because it is incredible, but let me try to be more coherent about it. When Eddie’s shot, we immediately see Buck, Eddie’s blood splattered on him. Eddie’s looking down, but as the reality of the bullet piercing him starts to set in, he looks up at Buck, seeking his gaze. They hold it for a really long moment. This shot establishes the moment as a shared experience. It’s served by the contrast with the previous shot. Right before the sniper shoots, the camera is restless, circling Eddie, showing us Buck in his perimeter, but not stopping on anything. This enhances the still shot of them just standing there, staring at each other. The sound also plays into this, going from a noisy street to blocking out all human communication. It will only kick back in later. Both the camera and sound choices highlight that Buddie are having one of those moments of wordless communication that they often share, only this time it’s wordless, because there are no words for what they’re trying to process together. They’re within the same bubble of shock and emotional pain that’s only beginning to take shape.
I can’t emphasize enough how much this shot is a romantic trope. I know the most immediate parallel is to Buddie themselves, in ep 306, because we have them similarly standing across from one another, staring at the other guy, and because we have the episode director’s confirmation that this was meant to mimic lovers' cinematography. But I think this shot is even more meaningful, with the whole build up around it and the way this turn of events is the ep’s climax, and it reminds me of other examples from TV and movies when we see would be lovers about to be torn apart, maybe forever, with the threat of death hanging over them. The most famous example that jumps into my head is Han Solo and Princess Leia when he’s about to be lowered into the pit. That’s the moment when she chooses to finally confess she loves him. It’s honestly impossible not to see the romantic trope subtext.
Now I have to add a word about Buddie’s record when it comes to the other guy being in danger. In ep 203, Buck tells Ali he’s glad not to be worried about Abby and Ali replies that it must be nice to have someone to be worried about. During the tsunami eps, we have a scene of Eddie leaving Buck a message, telling him about the tsunami and that Eddie’s glad Buck’s missing it. Buck is the person Eddie worries about in a way that parallels how Abby, Buck’s former romantic partner, was the person Buck used to be worried about. That’s pretty powerful in itself, but consider all the times they now had to stand there and watch, incredibly worried for the other man. We had Buck going crazy when Eddie climbed into a burning house in 214, Eddie watching Buck lying wounded in the street in 218 and rushing to hold his hand as soon as he could, Buck losing his mind over Eddie trapped underground in 315, and then Eddie watching the factory explosion knowing Buck’s inside and reacting by leading the charge to get him out. Now we get Buck having to watch Eddie as he’s shot and about to collapse. This scene is made all the more poignant because of all of these other scenes leading up to it. It infuses this scene with accumulated meaning and adds to the sense that even though it was only Eddie who was hit by the bullet, they’re both irreversibly affected by the bullet.
Then Eddie collapses. The danger is still present, the sniper is still around, but Buck is so paralyzed by shock, he can’t even think of taking cover himself, Captain Mehta has to force him to do this. And then as they’re both laying on the ground, they’re still holding each other’s gaze across the firetruck between them. The whole world is narrowed down to the other man’s eyes. More than that, Buck angles his body towards Eddie, almost like he’s stupidly thinking of getting up and running to him, while Eddie’s hand reaches out for Buck. The shots deliberately captures Buck’s body and Eddie’s hand in the frame so that we see this.
When all this is playing with the lead up of Carla advising Eddie to follow his heart, when shows tend to deliver the emotional impact of a character getting hurt through showing us the person who’s their significant other (romantic partner or the person destined to be that) during this, when Ana is nowhere to be found once the emotional climax of Eddie's story in this ep is reached, despite being in the ep… All of this weaves its own narrative about who Eddie’s heart really belongs to.
When I tell you that this is fanfic material! Not only do I mean it, I mean it so much that I actually wrote once a fic where Buddie do that 'stare at each other before death might tear us apart' thing. And I’m sure I’m not the only one. I can't fucking believe 911 actually delivered the fanfic of our dreams.
( NGL, I saw someone misspelling Captain Mehta’s name, writing it without the ‘h’, and for a second I thought I found my superhero name… XD )
Thank you so much to the unbelievable @bicepsie for the awesome gifs. Even when you have a lot going on, you still make these for the weekly meta posts and you’re truly the real MVP! *hugs* If you like my takes on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics here. Thank you for reading, and for every reblog and like.
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Buddie 408 meta
In the first call of the ep, Buck and Eddie were paired up as partners and with the jumper call, we see them having parallel conversations about the problems that dating has introduced into their lives. That’s on top of the parallel dating timelines that I mentioned in my 407 meta and continues in this ep. Basically, no matter where the show takes them, it also links them together, even through the small things. Always.
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During Ana and Eddie’s ‘big date’, we learn that he spends his time solving math problems, which… what kind of a date even is that? And the flirting in the scene doesn’t quite work for me personally, because not only do we not know Ana as a character, we also don’t know them as a couple. ALL we’ve had so far is flirting, but where are the bits where they connect, where you can see how they fit as people in real situations? When a show is invested in a Love Interest, it gives us those scenes. Not just heavy handed flirting. Same goes for Ana meeting Chris at the end of the ep, we don’t know what she’s like with him, only that he loves her because she used to be his teacher, which is a very lazy way of establishing their bond. And the most meaningful scene in the ep? Didn’t involve Ana or Chris with her. She’s still not being invested in. So yeah, she’s around, but she still doesn’t feel like she’s meant to be long term.
I found it jarring (in a good way!) that right after his date, not only does Eddie come home to Buck (let’s not talk about how Buck walks into the scene a bit like a revealed love interest would, for example like Athena’s walk into the restaurant revealing her as Bobby’s date in ep 110) and it then plays as such a domestic scene (given the bit of teasing with “you’re late!”, and how Buck is shown to be so great with Chris, as well as being there for Eddie), the fact that this happens right after the almost completely contentless date is a contrast that emphasizes just how much more meaningful this relationship is. It also served as a reminder that while Eddie hesitated in re-introducing Chris to his own mother, while Eddie was now unsure and uncomfortable telling his son about the woman he’s dating, when he met Buck, there was no hesitation. Just like Eddie instinctively knew he and Buck would have each other’s back, he knew he could trust Buck when introducing him to his son. Again, the comparison screams how meaningful the Buddie bond is and has been since day one! This is not how you sell a new Love Interest to the audience. Or get shippers to stop shipping.
And I couldn’t help but notice that Eddie’s date gives us a scene of both Buck and Eddie returning home. Eddie is completely comfortable and happy when he returns to his house, because he’s in his element, seeing Buck and Chris (other than the moment when he doesn’t feel comfortable telling Chris about Ana). Buck in comparison is highly uncomfortable returning to his loft, due to Veronica being there and his sense of Albert’s betrayal. This continues the theme of showing that really, Buck’s home is with the Diaz boys.
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In contrast with Ana, Taylor has been back for only one ep and already has been shown more as a character on her own, getting a mini redemption arc, as well as having a more developed and multi-faceted history with the guy she’s been brought back for. Taylor will clearly continue to show up, and I think a friendship between her and Buck could be interesting. At the end of the day, I can’t ignore that the biggest thing she said to show she does know Buck isn’t what she spewed in a moment of anger. It’s that he already has meaningful relationships - with the 118. Which of course includes, as this ep highlights, Eddie and Chris. Who knows? Maybe at some point, she’ll get to say something about this to Buck.
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Speaking of friendships, I love so many of the platonic ones on this show. Athena and Hen’s just rules, Bobby and Michael’s is so freaking pure, and now I’m also adoring Buck and Albert’s. I LOVE that Al chose friendship over romance. That we got the show saying good friendships matter more. I love that Buck got to see his friend putting him first. I wanna take a sec to applaud this! (that Al and Buck are roommates as well and still less domestic and each other’s partner than Buck and Eddie are is just a bonus)
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The date scene’s only meaty part is establishing the problem Eddie has: he’s not comfortable yet with telling his son about Ana. Normally, him resolving that would have been the climax of his story arc in this ep. Instead, his coming to terms with having to tell his son about his dating is played semi-comically, against the backdrop of the guy whose jumping from the roof the team is betting on. His scene of talking about it to Chris isn't the climax either, since it isn’t the one where Chris gets to open up and share his feelings, allowing emotional progress. Instead, that climax scene happens between Buck and Chris. And why would Eddie’s dating dilemma climax happen with a scene between his son and his best friend? Showing us how deeply they’re tied together? That’s not how these stories usually unfold... (another symbol of that is that dating stories with an interrupted kiss are usually resolved by seeing the couple getting to kiss after all before the end of that storyline, but Eddie and Ana don’t get that)
Not to mention that when Buck talks to Chris, he already knew about Christopher’s outburst, meaning he was updated about this right away, despite this being the night of his weird double date (not for example the next day), and Eddie had to have told him before he told Ana. Buck is SO Eddie’s real partner. I also found it interesting that what Chris confesses is his fear of more people he loves leaving. But who is he scared will leave? Eddie dating doesn’t mean he’s going anywhere. And Chris can’t be that afraid of losing at some point this new person that he doesn’t even yet know if he’ll like. So who might drift away if Eddie starts dating? It’s “Dad’s friend”, whose house is the place Chris chose to run away to. The guy whose reassurance - that he will always be in Christopher’s life - is what calms down this confessed fear.
And if that doesn’t say everything about how central Buck is to Chris as more than just his dad’s friend, consider the fact that Chris’ fear of being abandoned parallels Buck’s as he had expressed it to Maddie in 316. This scene might have used the word ‘friends’ for Buck and Chris, but in every other way, it presented them as a family (and by extension, Eddie too). And this is a show that repeatedly points out how real family matters more than anything else, in whatever form it may come. That it’s a bond that cannot be broken. And that’s what these three have.
Thank you endlessly to my amazing friend @bicepsie for making her incredible gifs for this meta post! xoxox Also, if you like my takes on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics for them here. Thank you in advance for any like, comment and of course reblog, they all help so much! As we go into this break in eps, I’ll still be here, making content and answering questions for anyone interested. Have a pleasant hiatus everyone and be well! xoxoxox
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Buddie 403 + crossover meta
(thank you from the bottom of my heart to @joe-alkaysani who was an absolute hero and made these incredible gifs before she even watched the new eps! You’re a star! xoxoxox)
I loved the little moments of Buck and Eddie working as one on the first call, fully in sync even in passing tools (just like in 402), but also their little chat during this is so nice, because Eddie admits what he doesn’t like to Buck, as well as what he would like to get for his home next.
If that wasn’t enough, Buddie were full on co-parenting, we’re shown they even have a role division (stern vs. fun parent), just like they have one in the field. I’m gonna stress, this isn’t friends hanging out. We really see that when we compare scenes of them with ones of Hen and Athena, including in this very ep. We always see those two ladies talking to each other, the show never bothers showing us them coming over to interact with each other’s kids. Because they’re just friends, while Buddifer are a full family unit.
This is further shown with the prank at the end of the ep. It highlights how much Buck is a part of this family unit, he has his own line of communication with Chris that doesn’t go through Eddie, with their own jokes and plans, and guh, he is just clearly so much more to Christopher than just his dad’s friend. The prank itself is funny and cute, but also? Eddie was hesitant to get something for himself just because he wanted it, rather than needed. Remember how bare his room is in 204 in comparison with Chris’? And under the guise of a prank, Buck made sure Eddie got to indulge for once. I heart.
When Buck wasn’t on a call, Eddie was not only indicating Buck’s weird trivia knowledge is rubbing off on him, which I love, but I also adore that he didn’t even have to explain who he’s referring to. Buck’s clearly on Eddie’s mind, even when he’s absent.
Despite the fact that we see a lot of firefighters from the 118 getting ready to go to Texas, I adore that Buck and Eddie are basically in their own little bubble, until Hen joins in. Also, where is the line we had in the promo for 403? “Do you think it will be weird, fighting fires with other partners?” TBH, I can’t swear it’s ‘partners’ and not ‘departments,’ but either way, it only highlighted to me, how much they are in their own little zone and I am disappointed it was cut out. This now joins several Tarlos scenes that were also used in promos and cut out from the ep, which to me says there is something sorta similar in the way 911 sees Buddie and Tarlos as selling points for their respective shows.
(crossover meta under the cut to save your dashes)
When Eddie finds that Owen and Hen got out, he says that to Buck. The 126, who Buddie have now friended, are there and worried about their Cap, but Eddie is only addressing Buck. It’s small, but it does things to me.
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Ah, the Marjan saga had so much Buddie stuff. IDK how, but they managed to build a scenario where both Buck and Eddie seemed to be jealous of each other over Marjan. The way it plays out is interesting, ‘coz what is the build of this little thing? First, Eddie is annoyed Buck is giving her his attention. He states with annoyance, “you’re staring,” like he was just waiting for Hen to say something so he could, too. He gives Buck a small punch, even. Then he goes and finds a way to join her team, he wasn’t assigned it. Kind of an in your face to Buck? And when Buck was so happy it would be “you and me,” him and his Eddie, he turns so disappointed to learn Eddie is going off, and even more when it turns out it’s with her. Eddie is so smug Buck witnessed that. Buck then recalls who she is and goes on about following her online and not getting a follow back. Well, when Eddie and Marjan actually start talking, it pretty quickly shifts to Chris, but also, to Buck (and Eddie gets this smile when he says “Buck helped”), who apparently is on Eddie’s social media. Like a bf more than like a colleague. And we get confirmation that Buck and Eddie built the skateboard for Chris in 312. It was implied Buck was involved somehow, but now we know for sure the skateboard wasn’t store bought, they built it. Together. HUSBANDS. Now, before this is over, Eddie will put his initial annoyance aside and make sure Buck gets his follow back. This is what they chose as the conclusion to this arc, Eddie seeing to it that Buck gets what he wanted. And when this is aired together with the ep where we saw Buck making sure Eddie got what he wanted. Their parallels and mutual caring kills me.
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Also, compare Eddie telling Marjan about Chris after she sees his photo to Buck hearing about him in 202. Buck is immediately emotionally invested and cries out, “I love kids,” while Marjan doesn’t say anything in particular, instead she keeps scrolling Eddie’s IG. It ends up serving as a small reminder that Buck was the perfect fit for the Diaz family from the start in a way no one else would be.
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Lastly, TK and Buck going into a ‘measuring contest’ parallels ep 201, on the ambulance, when Eddie asks Buck, “what are we measuring here?” Consider how these two moments of tension between colleagues end. Buck and Eddie basically beam at each other like newlyweds exchanging vows and promise to have each other’s back. It’s so much more intense than Buck and TK, who end up simply nice to each other. Yet despite how much less intense their patching things up is, TK still thinks Buck is hitting on him. I love what this says about Buddie’s moment in 201. But speaking of TK’s assumption, in addition to being yet *another* wink at bi!Buck (together with the tapeworm guy in 107, two talks with maddie suggesting he has a crush on Eddie in 204 and 206, elf lady in 210 and poker with Josh in 312), most importantly, as TK leaves, with Buck still confused, Eddie walks in. It’s such a statement in terms of cinematic language. It’s not just a nod to bi!Buck, it’s this hint that just like TK has a boyfriend, Buck does too and that guy just walked in. This is how TV creates foreshadowing and the tension of “will they/won’t they” with straight couples and no, I will not calm down.
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I just want y’all to know that I am keeping a close eye on writers and directors for the 911 eps we get, and ep 504 was written by Dana Goodman. She’s a new writer on 911, but before that, her longest run was writing for Faking It, a freaking adorable teen drama with a very strong LGBTQ angle.
Tim, I see your hiring choices and I approve.
Then couple that up with Brenna Malloy as the director, the same woman who has also directed ep 404 with the freaking tenderest boxing scene ever on TV (just look at Ryan’s hearteyes), as well as ep 413 with the insanely amazing shooting scene that was filmed using lovers cinematography, as showcased in this gifset, among others.
No wonder the balcony scene in ep 504 was as epic as it was. So yeah, I am looking forward to whenever we see some more writing from Dana and directing from Brenna...
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Buddie 410 meta
I found it interesting that in an ep titled ‘Parenthood,’ we get a brief and, once more, minimally invested in scene of Eddie and Ana, but all they do is watch a movie together. They’re joined by Chris, but no real parenting is involved, nor do we see anything that demonstrates their connection as partners, nothing shows them really knowing each other.
In contrast, even without Buck being there with Chris, Buck and Eddie demonstrate all of that throughout the ep.
We get some awesome Buddie banter of the kind that a married couple would have, showing us they know each other through and through. We see it with Eddie teasing Buck about what he looks like when he’s gassy (and let it also sink in that when the conversation is about someone adorable, Eddie naturally turns it to Buck), then we also have it when Buck says a quarter life crisis is a real thing and Eddie fondly and knowingly shakes his head at his partner.
Then there’s two bits played for comedy, that actually show us how Buck and Eddie’s familiarity with each other plays into them co-parenting Chris.
When the question arises, “can’t you both be the good cops?” it’s Buck and Eddie who both reply with a resolute “no!” Now just consider that, just like with the 409 baby naming chat, Buck isn’t actually a parent, but there are proper parents present (Bobby and Hen) who should be the ones replying to Chim in addition to Eddie. And yet it’s Buck and Eddie who respond. The implication here is that Buck can answer this because he IS a parent, he does know what parenting together is like and why a two good cops routine wouldn’t work. And it’s not from his own parents, we’ve seen them, there were zero good cops there, there was just the minimum amount of physically providing for a child passing for parenting. So how does Buck know? Because he’s co-parenting Chris with Eddie. We’ve seen them playing out that dynamic of good/bad cop in ep 403 and, in a slightly different way than normal, in ep 310.
And then, we also have Hen, who remarks that some kids need discipline. Buck, the non-parent of the team, immediately weighs in and offers, “not too much!” (again, how would he have formed an opinion on this if not from co-parenting Chris? We saw his parents barely disciplining him for his reckless behavior in ep 405) and Eddie immediately retorts with, “Curious to know what your definition of too much is.” He’s teasing his boyfriend, because clearly Buck (as we’ve seen in 403, too) is the less strict parent.
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Another thing, connecting back to the 409 meta, this is the third ep where Chris isn’t a part of the ep, Eddie isn’t a focus of it either, but then the montage at the end of the ep contains a domestic scene with Eddie and Chris. This time it has Ana too, exactly when the narration states, “It becomes about your kids, all of the time.” This isn’t 911’s usual storytelling style, to have a scene at the end disconnected from everything else in the ep, and it’s happening continuously with Eddie and Chris this season (402,409 and now in 410), which only furthers my hunch that this is a part of the build up to whatever is going to go down with them and Ana.
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Lastly, I want to say that one of my fave things on 911 has been Karen and Hen’s storyline of pursuing parenthood. Far too often, TV and movies show gay people / same sex couples becoming parents through sex with someone of the opposite gender, sometimes as a drunken one night stand, sometimes involving cheating. It’s done for the drama, which is normal for entertainment. But the issue is that it’s almost exclusively how they represent queer people becoming parents. I think it’s so important to show same sex couples choosing to become parents, how they go about it, and without any cheap drama. Just the very real struggle to get to care for another, tiny human when the most immediate option to get that is… not an option. I love 911 for showing us alternative ways of becoming parents and a family. And if one day Buddie go canon, them being fully co-parents, whether to Chris alone or choosing to give him a sibling, will matter and be just as meaningful as the Henren parenting storyline is.
Thank you so much to my beloved @bicepsie for the meta gifs! If you like my takes on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics here. Thank you for reading and for any like, comment and of course reblog! It helps motivate me to keep making these posts. xoxox
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THE EYE CONTACT BETWEEN THEM THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING. HOLY SHIT. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. IF THIS WASN’T FANFIC MATERIAL START TO FINISH, I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS...
I AM LKSJDHSKJFHSKFJHSF
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Buddie 406 meta
This is a small thing, but I love how, even though the entire team minus Eddie had experienced the last jinxed shift together, Hen expected it to be Buck who fills Eddie in on their escapades. Buddie are a unit and it’s once again implicitly acknowledged.
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Speaking of that last shift, it was the story of Buck being taught the lesson of not saying the word ‘quiet’, even in a different context on a shift, while this one is all about Eddie learning to respect the jinx or at least his teammates’ belief in it. It could have been Chim, for example, who made the mistake last time, but it wasn’t, they chose Buck. And more than that, this ep explicitly refers to ep 107, with the full moon superstition, and creates quite a similar division of Buck having faith in this type of thing vs skepticism from the person he’s closest to in each ep, Abby in s1 and now, Eddie. Despite their disparity in POV, that was the ep where Buck and Abby end up sleeping together for the first time, so… foreshadowing, maybe? ;)
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Let’s talk about how cute the mini return of Fire Marshall Buck was! I also loved that as he teases Eddie a bit with this, Eddie lets him. They usually have the opposite dynamic, where Eddie teases Buck and Buck lets him (like for example in eps 303, 312, 313, 401). When Buck teases Eddie, Eddie usually does respond (like in the famous kitchen scene in 309). So why is it different this time? We get the answer after a short beat, when Eddie wants to make sure Buck knows it’s ok to take some time to process things. It’s continuing the theme of how supportive he’s been throughout 404 and 405, and I love that even though the ‘Buckley secret’ saga is over, this element continues and Eddie is still so soft and caring with him. Love that for them and for us.
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Funnily enough, Eddie’s advice to Buck, sound as it is, seems to be the exact opposite of the message Eddie himself is meant to learn during this ep, which is that he’s processed enough, it’s time to let go, move on and allow himself to be open to dating. His arc here so very much parallels Buck’s with Ali (with the focal point being ep 208). Buck then was stuck on Abby, who had left him, while here Eddie is stuck on Shannon who left him in more ways than one. In 208 Buck had to negotiate with someone on a call, while drawing from his personal struggle (with Lola), and here, Eddie had to do the same (with Brian). Buck had previously met Ali on a call and then she was brought back for him to have someone to move on to. Eddie had previously met Ana and now he runs into her again on a call, she’s been brought back to serve the same purpose for him. Just like Buck is reluctant to date Ali (he first turns down her invite to meet for a coffee) and has to be nudged towards it by a call that hits close to home (the little speech he hears about Thomas and Marshall’s love), Eddie tells Bobby he’s not ready to move on and his mind is only really changed after a call that becomes very personal (the little speech he gives Brian, the fake firefighter). Then the conclusion of the arcs gives us both men meeting their ‘Love Interest’ in a cafe, where they talk about the phone call that reconnected them and have a laugh together, implying each man had made personal progress by making the decision to meet. It’s a necessary step that requires an LI to help the growth of the protagonist. However, that doesn’t mean the LI is endgame. We learn quickly enough that Ali is mostly an absent girlfriend, until she isn’t one at all. If the parallel trajectory continues, that’s what we’ll have with Ana, too. I said at some point that I believe Ana will be Eddie’s Ali, but wow. I did not expect the parallels to be quite so strong and so structural.
To top all that off, there’s another thing I saw that connects these eps. Ep 208 was the first ep where we heard Buck referring to himself as Buck 1.0 vs 2.0, while this ep introduces Buck 3.0, who believes in therapy and working on himself (such as by reading about love languages and immediately thinking not of himself, but connecting it to Eddie’s love life. Because Buck is clearly Eddiesexual). It’s not structural to the main arc, but it does make the connection between the two eps even more undeniable.
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While the overall arc with Ana parallels Buck and Ali, I felt that when explaining why Eddie is into her (which the show had to do again, because they didn’t do a good enough job with it in 312), they created a parallel with Buck and Eddie in 201. Ana asks if Eddie’s been looking around for her. Might that be a bit like how he most likely asked around about Buck in 201 (since at the gym, he already knew stuff about Buck)? It’s also implied he finds her attractive. Well, ep 201 very much revolved around the attractiveness of these two guys, and them being aware of it in regards to each other as they flex over getting the spot on the firefighters calendar (yes, we usually talk about Buck’s awareness of Eddie’s looks, because that was so front and center, but it had to go both ways given the story context). And then we’re shown that Ana is professionally impressive and that Eddie likes that. Well, what was the turning between Buck and Eddie in 201? The moment when Buck gets to hear that Eddie finds him professionally impressive.
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Also speaking of Buck and Eddie in the Ana context, of course it’s Buck that Eddie has to talk to about Ana right away, and no one else. In return, Buck continues to be preoccupied with Eddie’s love life beyond when he should be, just like in eps 210 and 312. After he exposes Eddie’s encounter with Ana to the team, however, it will be Hen, Chim and Bobby who will encourage Eddie to move on, while Buck, who he first turned to, remained not only silent, but off camera as well. We get close ups of everyone else, but not him. It’s a direct contrast to last week, when Buck talked about his trouble (but not romantically, with someone else) and Eddie got a special focus and zoom in’s (mentioned in my 405 meta). Considering it’s well established that Buck is the person closest to Eddie, I find all of this interesting.
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So at the end of the day, I’m not worried that Ana will turn out to be more than a temporary LI, here to help Eddie grow and develop, but not his endgame. On top of everything else I pointed out, the joke that they share at the end of the ep actually brings in the word ‘jinx’ from the tp title into their first date. It’s not just a background theme anymore, it’s connected to them personally. And is that not a bit of foreshadowing, too?
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Honorary shout out to the way Buck looks at Eddie while Eddie’s saving the day (refuses to lie back or even just lean on an elbow or something, so he’s making a continuous effort to stay up and have a better look at Eddie) and the way they laugh together while on the helium call, because no matter what else is going on, they’re partners, through and through.
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Buddie 412 meta
I know Buck’s bummed not to go on the chopper, but let’s not forget, he’s bummed not to go on the chopper with Eddie. When Buck’s annoyance peeks out, he first looks at Eddie, not at Chim. And if Buck didn’t get to be on the helicopter, but Eddie was left grounded with him, how much do you wanna bet that, just like in the LS crossover, Buck would have been disappointed, but then immediately would have switched to grinning and asking, “Guess it’s just you and me?” He’s not happy about being missing out on the ride AND being separated from his battlefield boyfriend. Speaking of which, of course it would be Eddie lowering Buck down in the harness, continuing their thing I’ve pointed out before, including in the 402 meta.
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I served in the army and Eddie always reminds me of this medic who once bandaged me when I was wounded. He was the guy that taught me that some people have a healer’s soul. So on a very personal level, I like seeing Eddie taking care of vics on calls, like the guy with the broken leg this ep. I think it connects so well with how we know he is with Chris. Eddie is not just a great dad, he chose it, he worked to be a good caretaker. I think about where he started, with the model of parents who didn’t know how to care for their own son and were ready to strip him of his fatherhood, and how he built himself up against their bad example to become such an incredible father, a comforting and strengthening friend to Buck and to be there as a healer and carer for total strangers on calls, it amazes me all over again and nourishes my soul.
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I’m gonna be juvenile for a sec and just ogle Buddie working a hose together, with all of the phallic meaning of this, and insist that it’s not my fault ‘coz the show did it first when it let us know it nicknamed Buck ‘firehose’ for that reason, back in ep 101.
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I like that when Buck and Eddie team up, it’s Eddie who asked Buck to. And with his intro telling us that this is what sets them apart from others, that their bond is strong enough not to be overcome by greed. You can just tell how much Eddie wants to partner up with Buck when he thinks there’s a possibility to. There’s plenty of smart, capable people around him, but Eddie went to Buck with this suggestion and was disappointed (but respectful) when that didn’t pan out. And, despite already having an agreement with Taylor (since Eddie initially called the treasure hunt ‘stupid’), Buck caves right away and does exactly what Eddie was talking about, he’s willing to give up a lot of money in order to do this with Eddie as well, ‘coz clearly, Buck really wants to partner up with him as well. And then we see them working probie together for info. In addition to it being so much fun to see them going at it together like that, their vibe as a team is so evident that this is what gives them away to Hen and Chim. Don’t tell me Buddie aren’t meant for each other...
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That dinner where Buck talks about not trusting anyone. Everyone on the team gives him an offended look, like “excuse you? You don’t trust US?” but Eddie IMO gives him a quietly knowing look. Eddie has told Buck that there’s no one in the world he trusts with his son more, and at this point it’s a given that he knows Buck trusts him just as much, so the look Eddie gives him is about more than just that. It reminds me of the looks Eddie kept giving Buck in 404 and 405, conveying that he knows what’s actually frustrating Buck and that it has nothing to do with the treasure hunt. Prayer circle that the show follows through and lets us see them talking things out again. I think that’s probably the biggest thing missing from the Buddie interactions this season... We still have banter and caring and domesticity and being there for each other, it’s also been implied in more than one way that they still share everything with each other, including their biggest problems, but we haven’t seen it on screen in s4. I miss it and I hope we get that back soon, if not in the last two eps, then at least in s5.
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OMG, the tease about “your girlfriend”! Welcome back, jealous Eddie. We missed you. And to really emphasize it, what a perfect parallel we get here between Eddie teasing Buck about his new girlfriend and Buck teasing Eddie about Ana in 406. Love how these two are endlessly all about each other.
But it wasn’t the only moment of jealous Eddie, we got that at Buck’s apartment, too. If Buck was bummed at the start of the ep to be left behind as Eddie and Chim got on the chopper, in the loft scene Buck and Taylor were going off on their research they’d already done and it was Eddie getting left behind, annoyed and unhappy that his bestie has a (seemingly) new bestie. So platonic! And then he adds, “go team” sarcastically (when the reason he’s there is that we saw both Buck and him wanting to be a team). In 201, in the gym, at the very start, when Eddie is trying to get Buck to accept him, he tells Buck, “we’re on the same team.” And while it doesn’t work immediately, by the end of the next call we see, they exchange this promise to have each other’s back and basically become the best team. It’s because Buck and Eddie establish this strong bond, that it later extends to Chris as well, and Buck telling him they make a great team. By the end of 412, he’ll tell Taylor, “we make a good team,” which is a slightly weaker descriptor, but also, she right away disagrees as she also rejects his advances. It feels like this ep subtly shows us Buck struggling to figure out what team he belongs on.
But something very interesting about this is that as he does, a lot of how he’s trying to find his place romantically with Taylor parallels the way we already know he’s had with Eddie. Buck tries to solve a crime with her much like we’ve seen him do with Eddie in 404. He tries to kiss Taylor within the setting of two friends hanging out, talking and drinking, which is the setting we know he shares constantly with Eddie (hi, kitchen scene. Yes, I will use every chance to bring you up). And then when he finally verbalizes to Taylor the move he’s trying to make, he uses the word ‘team’ which, as pointed out here, is so strongly connected to Buddifer. It’s almost like he’s looking for this thing he already has and doesn’t realize that yet.
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Buddie 405 meta
This ep was The Buckley Siblings Begin tied in to being Buck Begins and I very much love it. That’s about as much as I can say about Buck and/or the sibling relationship, because like last week, there are things that hit too close to home and I’ve been crying way too much since the ep aired. But even as an older sister, I had to say I loved this! And I loved that where Buck’s parents couldn’t see beyond their pain and looked right through him, Maddie kept every postcard and image of Buck on his journey to find himself. She saw it all and she retained it all and it all mattered. Excuse me, I am a puddle of feels.
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Overall, I think out of all of the ‘Begins’ eps, Buck’s resembled Eddie’s the most in terms of structure. Both eps start with something that the protagonist needs to learn tied in to his present story by and large, then we have a crisis during a call, and eventually the way that the call is resolved ties in with the protagonist coming to embrace a resolution that will help him grow and move on from the past that was just fleshed out to us. I won’t bore you with an analysis of the other ‘Begins’ eps, but each of them is missing at least one crucial component of this structure. And I like that this means the parallels you can draw between 315 and 405 are almost endless. I like that in this, the show highlights how much these two men have in common, having been mistreated by their own parents, going through a crisis, almost giving up, but then finding exactly what they needed to move towards their own new families that they invested themselves in out of choice (Eddie finding the realization he has built a new family with the 118, and with Buck and Chris; Buck finding that Maddie was there for him even when he thought she wasn’t and, if he was unsure during the LS crossover whether his friends would come for him, learning that they would, always).
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We didn’t get a lot of Buck with the firefam scenes, if you think about it. And when we did, they were short. However! In each one of those scenes, Eddie was emphasized. From the moment Buck starts voicing his pain through the humorous tone, Eddie is the first face the camera cuts to, capturing his reaction, with a zoom in, twice in a row. That Eddie was first was already telling, but for a more neutral tone, I would have expected the camera to do the second zoom in on another of Buck’s teammates, to allow them to deliver the second line that lets us know how much pain Buck is actually in. But nope, we get Eddie again. Then the camera turns to Bobby and Hen together. Yes, it will then also zoom in on the rest individually, but the pattern established of Eddie being highlighted will continue. The building explodes with Buck inside? Eddie gets a lot of zoom in shots, while Chim and Hen are mostly shown together. The team makes it inside to save Buck? Eddie will be the first to appear, the first to grab the rope which signals Buck’s rescue, and the only one zoomed in on. Buck has a scene with the firefam after he’s out and Eddie’s not there? Eddie will be the first one to greet him when Buck returns from his medical check up and they will share this scene all by themselves while Bobby just walks away like it’s obvious they need time for themselves. Hen wasn’t focused on like this while Chim was inside with the bomber. Chim wasn’t zoomed in on like this when Hen was trapped underground. If Buddie isn’t endgame, why are they so constantly emphasized in relation to each other, Buck during the well collapsing in 315 and Eddie during Buck’s internal and external turmoil in 405?
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Speaking of that turmoil. We have all noticed that Buck is trying to play his pain off as a joke, right? At first Eddie reacts in kind, but then he realizes that it’s way more serious than Buck initially let on (and in this, Eddie sets the tone for the rest of the firefam in that scene, too). I wanted to point out that this made me think we keep seeing them rubbing off on each other. Just like we saw Eddie in 403 sharing weird trivia he clearly knew thanks to Buck’s passion (which is even hinted at in the dialogue), we see here that Buck has learned from Eddie’s tendency to use humor when trying to deflect pain. This is so married couple behavior, I’m astounded.
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In that bar in Peru, Buck was also using his passion for trivia in order to try and connect with the guy he was serving. He drops it when the guy checks out a girl passing by, sort of laughing it off knowingly, even though they continue talking. It’s subtle and more open to interpretation, but the fact that he drops it when the guy shows his sexual interests lie elsewhere makes it seem like maybe Buck was interested, but realized the guy’s a no go. Yes, we have another bi!Buck hint IMO. Then consider how with Eddie, Buck is successful in connecting using this tactic and I’m… at a loss for words, really.
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Ooof, when Eddie welcomes Buck upon his return from his medical check up, that scene is so coupley, I can’t even… First, that he was waiting for Buck to return, like a good spouse. Then, he brings back their coupley banter and Eddie looks so happy to be doing that! Next, we see Buck explaining himself, not to his Captain (who has had issues with Buck's recklessness in the past) but to Eddie, he’s the one that counts and is expected to be upset. But Eddie isn’t, doesn’t even roll his eyes (like he did, for example, at Buck’s passion for rope rescues in 316). No, he’s soft and fond and familiar, knowing that this is what Buck had to do and clearly finding something very comforting in that: in that Buck is still the guy he is even during rough times; in that Eddie gets how he is and in that Eddie values him for it. Again with the parallels to 315, think of how Eddie himself had to cut the rope, so he gets why Buck had to try and save the guy despite the risk. But then also consider the parallel with Ali in 218. She watched Buck and who he is, but couldn’t take it. Eddie not only takes it, he loves the way his husband ticks. And yes, I said husband, there is no other word for them at this point. Especially because then we get Eddie telling Buck about his parents, which suggests that he had been spending time with them, probably sharing with them the stories about how amazing Buck is. How is that not spouse behavior? Tim Minear, explain!
Thank you so much to the incredible @bicepsie for making these wonderful gifs for my meta post! xoxox Also, if you like my takes on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics for them here and you can find my kind of fix it fic for Buck Begins, Reflections of You, here.
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