9x01 | 9x12

I’ll be your home by Phillip LaRue

ladies and gentlemen...her.

Chicago Fire 9x12 thoughts

It was a great episode. The progress was lovely:

First he finally accepted her help to accompany him to the appointment.

She helped him to try to stay positive even after what the doctor first told him about the seizures. She used the word “we” and showed him that she is there for him and that he is not alone: “We’ll figure it out.”

When he told Boden and Severide, he again covers his fears, but he will later notice that with Sylvie, there is no need and he can always be real with her.

When he tells Severide that he tried to hide all the health issues and headaches, he acknowledges that it is because that is what he is used to in his family; secrets and shutting people out. It is finally an open conversation with his friend and also growth since he admits what the problem is and that he is working on it = letting Sylvie in and now confessing to Severide. Also, he admits and appreciates that she has been by his side “every step of the way”; he says this while looking at her her while she is talking to Grainger. 

Then he understood that she is doing a lot for him even with a simple gesture like a playlist and accompanying him again for the MRI.

He then understood that he can be sincere and always tell her the truth, even about a simple playlist.

He then heard Grainger’s name and remembered that she has her life and he should step back because he thought that he is being selfish.

Then he told her that she “tagging along on each visit is silly.” He tried to cover his fears and to cover how important for him her support is, by saying that he has “been making a big deal out of it.” He was confused with her reaction and she had every right to be angry, but on the call, she understood that he is talking like that because he is afraid, because firefighting is his whole life. He always tries to pull back, like he had admitted to Severide:

When she’s back from the call, she shows him that he cannot push her away and pretend that he is not scared. “Matt Casey, don’t argue with me!” - he is surprised yet he is realising that she won’t give away that easily with supporting him and that she understood his motives (except from the motive where he is trying to back away because she has Grainger in her life and not him). “

Grainger then realises that Sylvie is helping Casey and not just a friend. Where will this lead? Will Casey get to know what she did for him and how will he get to know if so? Hopefully we will discover this in the next episodes.

The final scene shows us a lot. She is happy for him before he even knows what is happening. She hugs him and is not afraid to show him how happy she is for him... he should learn from her! He is still processing what is happening: he is clear and healthy, he can still be a firefighter and Sylvie is hugging him! When he realises what is happening, he lets go and shows what he is feeling... he is so happy that he spins her and not just accepts her hug. We then hear his sigh of relief and he then tries to back away but she is still holding on to him... does he realise how important he is for her? We finally see him smiling, relaxed and openly showing his happiness without overthinking. Their connection is still there, their eye contact and feelings, but when they realise that, they back away and keep trying to ignore it, as from 9x02 and before.

I think the next episodes won’t be covering a lot of Brettsey but will reach somewhere by the end of the season... I’m afraid of the cliff hanger but hopeful that they will finally get together. We cannot keep waiting any longer.

Also, I loved the balance in this episode; humour, fire, Mouch, Stella and Hermann, Boden and all the others + Ritter and Gallo.

Hopefully we will get the promo photos soon even though we have to wait 2 weeks for the next episode.

♪ I can’t take my eyes off you ♪

Is this their thing now?

You shouldn’t be going through something like this alone. Actually, Sylvie found out, and she’s been by my side every step of the way.

how do i tattoo this onto myself?