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exo-freaks · 7 years

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Something’s different [PART 6]

wooow this took so long to put all this down. I feel like everything I write down is weird and dumb right now so I’m really deeply sorry for being so inactive. I say that every time but I cannot really help it. I have so many open texts right now but I try to really push myself into it so I get these finished. Also I started to to look at some promts or sentences and got some small little stories in my head but I really want to finish some of the open texts before.

Also we are 600 people. Guuuuuuuuuys Thank you sooooo much really. I’m really amazed I’ve been writing for ages now and I started this blog nearly a year ago and I never imagined that so many people are ready my shitty stories. So really guys thank you!!! ♥♥

and now enough whining and talking from me and enjoy

PART 1 // PART 2 // PART 3 // PART 4 // PART 5 //

To : Brathun 👑👑

heey. 😊

What are you doing? Do you have some free time to maybe talk for a bit?😉

From: Brathun 👑👑

no I am really busy

You were taken aback for a few moments, looking at your phone a bit confused. You were shocked that he was so cold and didn't even asked you what you wanted to talk about he just shut you down. Sure you know he was probably not lying about being busy but he seemed so uninterested in you. You felt sad. So Sehun just had accidentally kissed you and now he pretended like there was nothing between you. Like nothing ever happened. You started to question your sanity a little bit, did you just imagined everything to have way more meaning than it actually had? Was Sehun always just being nice to you? But then Chen said he liked you but what if he changed his opinion of you when he kissed you? Were you so bad? Did you actually had real feelings for Sehun or was it more like a well we kissed and what now? But why were you so hurt by his cold response? You typed a response trying to sound as normal and possible. You didn’t want Sehun to know how affected you were by his cold text.

To: Brathun 👑👑

oh okay then. 😊

Don't work to hard and take some rests 😊😊

You put your phone aside and started to stare into nothingness. You questioned yourself if you just put in way too much in this. You kissed one time wow and you have been friends for like 2 years at least. Maybe Sehun just said that he liked you because he felt like messing with his members and he was just making a joke that he couldn't get rid of now. But he kissed you! Why did he kissed you?! Well, maybe sometimes people just kiss each other in situations when they feel like they should do that. You two had been cuddling and then he had hugged you and then he had looked at you. The next moment you remembered were you two kissing. Would it been awkward if you two hadn’t kissed. Probably but you just had hugged. You and Chen cuddled many times and you never kissed. So why did you and Sehun did? And why you had enjoyed it? But then he just disappeared and the day after that he didn't really talked to you. You didn't even know what you'd expected him to do but you were still surprised how he acted. Sure you were sure he wouldn't open the door, swirl you around laughing and kiss you again. But just nodding towards you and then disappearing into his room was definitely not what you had expected. You curled onto your side and just started to get mad at yourself for falling for all of that so quickly. You were mad at getting your feelings involved so much after that little kiss. You didn't even had feelings for him that way before he kissed you.You didn’t even considered him any different from all the other boys before all that. He was always handsome and nice and cute but he was always like that why did your view on this boy change so drastically.

You didn't knew how long you were there curled into a ball but your phone ringing got you out of your apathetic state. You took a breath and answered not even looking at the caller’s ID.

'yes?' you asked, your voice was still a bit shaky form anger at yourself and Sehun.

'hi' to your surprise Sehun was on the other end and your eyes widened and your heart started to beat faster. You shook your head trying to push that feeling down. It was just a childish feeling no real stuff behind it.

‘Y/N?’ Sehun asked again. ‘are you there? Can you hear me?’

'Oh hi yes I can hear you Sehun’ you quickly answered.

'Ok great I was wondering if the connection broke… er...how are you?' he asked and he sounded awkward. You could imagine him sitting there with his hands running through his hair or fiddling with any random object he had found next to him or wandering around.

'aaah I'm fine' you lied you didn’t want to tell him how you felt, not via phone. 'how are you?' you heard a sigh from the other end of the call.

'tired but ok' he did seem tired and you felt sympathy for him. You knew how much they all had to work and how little time they had to rest for themselves.

'much work today?' you asked and rolled onto your back.

'yes a lot. I didn't really slept well and then we had training and I couldn't really concentrate and my body was weak and then we quickly had to go back to the dorm take a shower and then we went for a commercial video shoot ' you felt that he needed to rant even though you didn't want to hear any of it as you felt that he was playing with you. He had no intentions about you speaking about the kiss or something like that but he wanted to rant about how bad or exhausting his day was. But you let him be even after all this and no matter how you felt you were still friends and you wanted to stay that way. Eventho he was to busy to really talk to you but had enough time to rant about his day and calling you.

'you must be very exhausted' you said trying to sound as normal as possible.

'mmh pretty much' he yawned.

'why are you still awake if you are that exhausted or do you still need to work?' you asked pushing your legs against the wall wobbling your feet, your head hanging down the couch.

'I'm hungry and I am waiting for my food to be ready' he said and you could hear the smile in his voice. You didn’t know why he was smiling but you did as well.

'oh okay. How was the shoot?' you wanted to talk about the kiss but you didn't seem to find the right moment to talk to it. You couldn’t just burst out >>heey so well what about the kiss we had? that was weird haha yes. but why did it happen? <<

'it was fine but my legs hurt?' he said and you removed you feet from the wall.

'why's that?' you asked sounding a bit more concerned than you would like to sound.

'I had to run a lot so my legs feel tired.' he answered quickly, maybe he heard your concern.

'You should really rest Sehun' you said softly. In far distance you heard a beep sound from Sehun's end of the phone call.

'Oh my food is ready. Bye bye' you couldn't even say goodbye before the call ended and you heard the beeping sound of a cut connection. You looked at the phone and you felt angry again. Sehun had the time to call you and talk about his day but he didn't had the time to talk to you when he asked and then he just hung up on you.

Sehuns pov.

I ended the call and facepalmed myself almost instantly.

'wow Sehun you are so stupid. So so so so stupid' I facepalmed again and again. 'she probably didn't want to talk about how fucking exhausted you were she wanted to talk about something else and what did you idiot do? First of all you tell her you are too busy and then you call her and talk about something so irrelevant.' I grabbed my food and looked at the hot bowl.

'oh my gosh she is probably so angry. But I can’t call her again. Ah i fucked up' I shoved some food into my mouth and burned my tongue. Pain brought tears to my eyes but I felt all of that was deserved, I was an idiot.

'ah shit.. well I guess that’s karma' I sat down and was annoyed at myself. I knew what she wanted to talk about, the kiss. I wanted to talk about that too but I didn't knew how to. I didn't really know how it happened but while we were cuddling I started to think about how it would feel if i'd kiss her. And after the film when I hugged her I felt like doing it. And it felt nice. It felt right. But I didn’t knew what to do so I rushed out and. I keep thinking about her more than I used to and I always wonder what she's up to. When I turned up at her door to watch that movie I just felt the need to see her that day, I never really had that feeling before, with anyone. It's a weird feeling to think about someone all the time and you wonder if they are doing fine and if they think about you too. Probably not she probably wanted to tell me that it that kiss just happened and that we are just friends. I think we can be friends, I want us to stay friends no matter what happens but I think deep down inside me there is something that wants more. It feels weird to see her like that after literally years and years of friendship like someone pointed out something that you already kind of knew deep down but now it's obvious. But Chen would kill me if he'd find out,she is like his sister he always says so. He probably was just nice when I asked him about her and deep down wouldn't approve any of this. I don’t even know why I asked him all those things. If I had a sister I would be very protective over her towards the guys and sure we are all friends but this would make things weird if two of us would be in a relationship, wouldn't it? How would the guys feel if suddenly I would be in a relationship with Y/N and we all hang out. Would it change things? Would it feel different?