#@me: literally no one expects u to comletely reformatt all ur data by monday

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#@me: literally no one expects u to comletely reformatt all ur data by monday #u can put wip data into the grant. the just want to see thst ur making progress #and u still have to rewrite the body of the work plus do hw #also me: fuck u fuck u fuck u. i will everything done if it fucking kills me #i want to see these fucking results #i only have like 4 more charts to make #later now: it only took me all fucking day but i made the charts #and i did it in like half the code it took me the 1st time. if i learned to make loops for nested data i could make it even shorter #but no time for that now. i still have hw and fellowship editing to do #even later now: tomorrow is gonna suck. still have hw to do plus compeletly overhauling the body of my fellowship i guess?? #like im resubmitting so its like the same as i did last time but also i have to change it but its like its the same project so...? #ugh i dont want to read papers. my mental state is v fragile rn #also i feel fairly sick atm. prob just stress but whatever #ugh theyre prob just gonna reject me on this stupid fellowship and then wtf am i gonna do? i dont even kno #ugh i need to stop procrastinating and get my <6hrs sleep. yay #cant wait to be awake again.... #literally why did i do this to myself? i new i was making horrible Choices and yet here i am. suffering #who would have guessed. me. i would have #ugh im not even tired now. gotta try to sleep. am slightly delirious #the next day: i was right. today did suck #i submitted my proposal but i met my pi this morning and she ended by saying see u in an hr #and i was like oh god i forgot to read a paper for her class #so i had to read a paper and manifest 9 question in an hr. luckily it was done by a person i kno on a topic i kno #now i just have to write a lab report for tomorrow #and prep for the rest of this garbage week #i feel so horrible. like real sick #lab report = done #but like fuck literally everything rn #why do i do this to myself??? #unrelated